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J. Heinrich Arnold
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Discipleship is not a question of our own doing;
it is a matter of making room for God
so that he can live in us.
                                        J. H. Arnold
     Foreword ............................................................ vii
     Introduction........................................................ x
The Disciple
     The Inner Life ................................................... 1
     Repentance ........................................................ 11
     Conversion ........................................................ 17
     Faith ..................................................................21
     Dogmatism ........................................................ 29
     Commitment .....................................................34
     The Lower Nature .............................................38
     Purity ................................................................ 64
     Trust .................................................................. 68
     Surrender ...........................................................75
     Sincerity ............................................................ 82
The Church
     The Church ....................................................... 89
     Community ....................................................... 96
     Leadership .........................................................106
     Gifts .................................................................. 114
     Forgiveness ........................................................ 121
     Unity ................................................................. 128
     Church Discipline.............................................. 134
     Baptism.............................................................. 141
     The Lord’s Supper..............................................147
     Love and Marriage ............................................. 151
     Family Life.........................................................169
    Illness and Death ............................................... 188
    Evil and Darkness .............................................. 197
    The Fight........................................................... 205
    World Suffering ................................................. 217
    Mission .............................................................. 226
The Kingdom of God
    The Cross .......................................................... 254
    Salvation ............................................................ 261
    The Kingdom of God ........................................ 269

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Discipleship   is a tough book. As I began reading it,
Heinrich Arnold’s words touched me as a double-
edged sword, calling me to choose between truth and
lies, salvation and sin, selflessness and selfishness, light
and darkness, God and demon. At first I wasn’t sure if
I wanted to be confronted in such a direct way, and I
discovered some resistance in myself. I want the good
news of the Gospel to be gentle, consoling, comfort-
ing, and to offer inner peace and harmony.
    But Arnold reminds me that the peace of the Gospel
is not the same as the peace of the world, that the con-
solation of the Gospel is not the same as the consola-
tion of the world, and that the gentleness of the Gospel
has little to do with the “free for all” attitude of the
world. The Gospel asks for a choice, a radical choice, a
choice that is not always praised, supported, and cel-
    Still, Arnold’s writing is not harsh, unbending, fa-
natical, or self-righteous. To the contrary, it is full of
love. Tough love, but real love. It is this love that flows
from the broken heart of Jesus. What makes Arnold’s
words so healing is that they are not based on an idea,
an ideology, or a theory, but on an intimate knowledge
of Jesus Christ. Jesus, the Christ, is in the center of
all the suggestions, advice, and care expressed in these
reflections. This is truly a Christ-centered book.
    Heinrich Arnold does not speak in his own name.
He speaks in the name of Jesus. He has heard clearly
the words of Paul to Timothy: “Before God, and be-
fore Christ Jesus, who is to be the judge of the living
and the dead, I charge you, in the name of his ap-
pearing and his kingdom: proclaim the message and,
welcome or unwelcome, insist on it. Refute falsehood,
correct error, give encouragement – but do all with
patience and with care to instruct ” (2 Tim. 4:1–2).
    It is Arnold’s deep rootedness in Jesus Christ that
makes him a very wise, a very safe, and a very challeng-
ing guide in our spiritual journey. But there is more:
his rootedness is not simply a rootedness in the Christ
who lived long ago; it is a rootedness in the Christ who
is present today in the life of the community of faith.
    Arnold is not a pious, sentimental guide. Every
word he speaks comes from his experience in com-
munity, where discipleship is lived. It is in community
that we are tested and purified. It is in community that
we learn what forgiveness and healing are all about. It
is in community that we learn who our neighbor is.
Community is the true school of love. Arnold lived
community all of his life. He knew its demands and its
rewards. Most of all, he knew that it is in community
that we encounter the Christ of the Gospel.
   I am very grateful for this book. It is a prophetic
book in a time in which few people dare to speak un-
popular but truly healing words.
   I pray that those who read this book won’t be afraid
to be confronted, and I trust that the word of God that
comes to them through it will bring true comfort, true
consolation, true hope, and true courage.

                                  Henri J.M. Nouwen
Some books are easiest to describe by saying what they
are not. This is not a collection of devotions or medi-
tations, not a “feel-good” journal about walking with
God, and not a guide for self-improvement or personal
spiritual growth. It is, very simply, a book about disci-
pleship – about following Christ humbly, obediently,
and with an open heart. And it is written by a man
whose message cannot be understood in any other way.
    Johann Heinrich Arnold (1913–1982) grew up
surrounded by people for whom such discipleship took
shape in a dramatic way. When he was six, his parents,
Eberhard and Emmy, left their upper-class home in
Berlin and moved to Sannerz, a village in central Ger-
many. There, with a small circle of friends, they set out
to live in full community of goods on the basis of
Acts 2 and 4 and the Sermon on the Mount. It was
a time of tremendous upheaval. The same post-war
restlessness that drove his father, a well-known editor,
theologian, and public speaker, to this leap of faith
drove thousands of others to rise up against the rigid
social and religious conventions of the period and
seek new ways of life. These were Heinrich’s formative
years, and the steady stream of young anarchists and
tramps, teachers, artisans, and free-thinkers who came
through the little community influenced him pro-
foundly. All of them had abandoned the hypocrisy of a
Christendom that had grown meaningless, and many
felt drawn to the life of dedication and joy they found
at Sannerz.
    Heinrich himself felt the call to follow Christ at the
age of eleven. Later, as a young man, he committed
himself to life-long membership in the church com-
munity, known by then as the Bruderhof, or “place of
brothers.” In 1938 he was chosen as a servant of the
Word, or pastor, and from 1962 until his death he
served as elder for the growing Bruderhof movement.
    The flock in Arnold’s care was not what one could
call a typical church, and he was anything but a pastor
in the conventional sense of the word. He was not a
charismatic personality, and he had no formal theo-
logical training. He was a true Seelsorger or “spiritual
guide” who cared deeply for the inner and outer well-
being of the communities entrusted to him. And he
served his brothers and sisters in the first place as an
equal who shared their daily lives in work and leisure,
at communal meals, business meetings, and worship
    The excerpts in this book were compiled and edited
over several years by members of the Bruderhof who
knew Arnold personally. It was no easy task to sift
through the material, for there was so much to choose
from, and it ranged from published articles to personal
correspondence, from transcripts of worship meetings
to circulars written on behalf of the entire Bruderhof
movement. The purpose of this selection is simply to
bring to the reader the full impact of his witness.
    Arnold’s style is straightforward and spontaneous.
He rarely spoke with notes, and when he wrote, he
quickly and sometimes almost aggressively met the
heart of the issue. There were those who felt he was too
blunt. Yet it was precisely his simplicity that made his
witness accessible to so many. His faith was not a mat-
ter of reasoned, theological terms, but something that
had to be expressed in deeds: “We are tired of words;
they are cheap and can be heard almost anywhere, for
who will say that he is against brotherhood and love?”
    Arnold was called on to address every aspect of spiri-
tual life, personal and communal. But there is a visible
thread that runs through all he wrote: Christ and his
cross as the center of the universe. Again and again,
Arnold insists that without meeting Christ personal-
ly – without being confronted by His message
of repentance and love – there is no possibility of a
living Christian faith. It mattered little, for instance,
whether a problem he had to face was of a practical or
an inner nature, or whether the demands of the day
arose inconveniently or unannounced. Every issue was
faced on the solid ground of Christ’s commands. This
was true not only for the internal questions of com-
munal life but also for all matters that needed attention
beyond it, such as current political events or social
issues and trends.
   Arnold’s Christ-centeredness gave him an unusual
courage to confront sin. He could not tolerate indif-
ference to the demands of the Gospel. But just as he
fought evil in others, he fought it in himself, and the
fight was never against a person, but against sin. At
times, this earned him the criticism of being too “emo-
tional,” but how can one who loves Christ be coolly
detached when the honor of the church is at stake? “I
protest against the idea that it is wrong to react with
strong emotion or excitement when God is attacked,
when brothers and sisters are mistreated, or when the
church is harmed. I will protest my whole life long
against cool soberness in the face of cruelty or anything
else that destroys God’s work.”
   It was this, too, that enabled him to call for repen-
tance so sharply at times: “Are we ready to let Christ’s
Word cut deeply into us, or will we repeatedly protect
and harden ourselves against it? We do not realize how
often we stand in God’s way. But we can ask him to cut
us with his Word, even if it hurts.”
   With the same vigor and insistence that Arnold
called for repentance, he strove for compassion and
forgiveness. If anyone took seriously Jesus’ injunction
to forgive so that we may be forgiven, and to forgive
seventy times seven, it was Arnold. People who had
hurt him or broken his trust were given his undimin-
ished trust again and again. Why? Because he believed
deeply in the power of full forgiveness; because he
trusted God to the depths of his being, and because
this trust enabled him to overcome all fear of man.
    Ironically, just as he experienced mockery and rejec-
tion because he insisted on the need for deep repen-
tance, he was also despised because of his humility. For
even though he refused to shut an eye to all sin in the
church, he refused to set himself above a person who
had sinned or to condone any harshness and legalism
toward that person. Having suffered in his own life, he
identified readily with the suffering of others.
    As elder of the Bruderhof communities, Arnold
spent many hours reading, re-reading, and prayerfully
considering the contents of a daily flood of letters,
and his answers illustrate the humility with which he
responded. When he was asked a question, he coun-
selled, comforted, admonished, and even sharply
censured, but he never criticized or belittled anyone
who turned to him in trust. And though hundreds of
people turned to him year after year, he always turned
them onward – beyond their preoccupation with their
sins or their personal holiness – to Christ.
    Arnold knew well that he did not have all the an-
swers. Often he said that he needed to think about a
matter in question or wished to consider it in prayer,
or simply felt he did not know what to do about it.
Asked to explain a difficult verse, an apparent contra-
diction, or the meaning of a mysterious passage in the
Bible, he might say, “I have thought about these words
a great deal, but I do not fully understand them my-
self. Let us leave it in trust to God. Some day it will be
revealed to us” – and he would not attempt an interpre-
tation. Though widely-read and entirely at home
in the Old and New Testament, he was a man whose
education was the education of the heart, whose
knowledge was the knowledge of the human soul, and
whose understanding of God’s ways was born of his
love for God, for Jesus, and for the church.
   Most important, Arnold was able to listen: he lis-
tened to his brothers and sisters, he listened to friends,
strangers, to critics, and most of all he listened to God:
“I want to listen with my inner heart to the voice of
God speaking through the brotherhood. I want to
confess Jesus in our time. I want to be poor with you,
spiritually poor. I want to be obedient and go where
the church sends me, and to do God’s will. I long for
a united brotherhood, a brotherhood that gathers the
   There are many aspects of Arnold’s writings that
one might consider at greater length – the overrid-
ing influence of his own father, Eberhard Arnold; of
the German pastors Johann Christoph and Chris-
toph Friedrich Blumhardt and their vision of the
kingdom as a present reality; or of Meister Eckhart,
whose mysticism is reflected in Arnold’s own inclina-
tion toward the mystical. There are also Dietrich von
Hildebrand and Friedrich von Gagern, whose books
Arnold read and referred to often. But none of these
are important in themselves. Rather, they give his mes-
sage as a whole a depth and a breadth of vision that
cannot be ignored. This, perhaps, is the most compel-
ling part of Arnold’s witness, for it lifts us up again and
again from the pettiness of daily life and opens our
eyes to perceive the greater realities we so often ignore.
To use his own words:

      What a great gift it would be if we could see a
      little of the great vision of Jesus – if we could see
      beyond our small lives! Certainly our view is very
      limited. But we can at least ask him to call us out
      of our small worlds and our self-centeredness,
      and we can at least ask to feel the challenge of the
      great harvest that must be gathered – the harvest
      of all nations and all people, including the gen-
      erations of the future.

                                               Hela Ehrlich
                                   Christopher Zimmerman
                                                 July 1994
The Disciple
The Disciple
   The Inner Life ................................................... 1
   Repentance ........................................................ 11
   Conversion ........................................................ 17
   Faith ..................................................................21
   Dogmatism ........................................................ 29
   Commitment .....................................................34
   Temptation ........................................................38
   The Lower Nature .............................................38
   Purity ................................................................ 64
   Trust .................................................................. 68
   Surrender ...........................................................75
   Sincerity ............................................................ 82
               The Inner Life
               When one considers the millions who call themselves
               Christians, the main impression one gets is that in our
               time the Christian religion consists almost exclusively
               in going to church on Sunday mornings. I know there
               are exceptions, but we have to be realistic: the church
               has very little to say to young people – they are bored
               by church services and preaching, and so they turn to
               other things. Yet people are vaguely aware that there
               is something wrong with their inner life. And even if
               they don’t go to their pastor or priest about it, they do
               seek help, often by going to a psychiatrist. It is true
               that once the inner person really changes, everything
               else will change. But that will come about through
               God, not through people.

               Christ taught that there should be a complete change
               in every person, and that this change should begin in
               our inner being. Peter and the apostles taught the same
               at Pentecost. When the people asked Peter, “What
Acts 2:37-38   should we do?” he said, “Believe, repent, and be bap-
               tized in the name of Jesus.” And when they responded,
               the inner change that took place carried over into the
practical and economic areas of their lives. They laid
everything at the feet of the apostles and no longer
owned anything. Everyone gave up his property vol-
untarily, yet since each one shared everything with the
others, no one suffered need.
    For our time, too, we believe in a new society like
this, brought about by a change that starts in our inner
being. When God enters our inner life, the change he
brings will also affect our outer life. If our Christianity
is a religion for Sunday morning only, it will remain
shallow and empty.

What does it mean to be created in the image of
God? When God breathed life into the first man, he
gave every human being the possibility of experiencing
the richness of heart that is in Him: love, joy, humor,
wrath, suffering, purity, and unity. Because all these
things are familiar to us, we can see that something of
God is in us – though often in a very distorted way.
   The image of God is preserved most purely in chil-
dren. As adults we often live very petty lives as very
petty souls; our thinking centers around ourselves only
and is unrelated to God. But we are created for more
than this. I don’t think any one of us has yet experi-
enced to the full the richness of spirit, soul, and heart
created by God for us to enjoy. Yet as his children, we
are able to experience these things as no other creatures
can. And he loves us so much that he sent his only
Son to save us. In Paul’s first letter to the Corinthians
1 Cor 6:3     he says that the church “is to judge the angels.” This
              should give us an inkling of the deep meaning of our
              calling and of what it means that we are made in the
              image of God.

              God created heaven, earth, and all the constellations
              of the universe. He also created something else, some-
              thing very mysterious: the human spirit. God created
              this spirit and placed it in us because he wants to live
Acts 17:24    in us. The Bible says that he does not live in temples
1 Cor 6:19    built with hands – we ourselves should be temples for

              My father used to say to us that stupidity is the
              greatest sin. He did not mean simplicity of mind, but
              spiritual dullness: having a dead conscience and not
              listening in one’s heart to God.
                  Very few people today have any idea of the riches of
              the human heart. Our hearts are created to experience
              great things; most of us have no idea of what could
              happen in our lives if we would overcome our stupid-
              ity and dullness. Paul says:

Eph 3:16-19        I pray that out of his glorious riches he may
                   strengthen you with power through his spirit in
                   your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in
                   your hearts through faith. And I pray that be-
                   ing rooted and established in love you may have
                 power, together with all the saints, to grasp how
                 wide and long and high and deep is the love
                 of Christ and to know this love that surpasses
                 knowledge – that you may be filled to the mea-
                 sure of all the fullness of God.

            If we were to grasp this one passage, we would un-
            derstand the whole Gospel. We are not filled with the
            fullness of God and it would be arrogant to think we
            were. But Paul’s prayer should awaken and inspire us!

Isa. 55:3   God said to Israel: “Pay heed to me and listen, and
            your souls will live!” It is tremendously important to
            be able to turn to God with one’s whole being and to
            believe that he will speak. Everything depends on our
            asking him to speak to us. If we hear nothing from
            God for a long time, it may be because there is some-
            thing between us and heaven – perhaps we lack love to
            our brother, or we are at odds with our spouse. If this
            is the case, our waiting is in vain.
                Of course, we cannot expect answers from God af-
            ter only five minutes of silence. Think how long Jesus
            himself sometimes had to wait! But the more our lives
            belong to Christ, and the deeper our relationship with
            him, the more quickly he will answer us, and the more
            quickly he can use us for his tasks, because he knows
            that here is someone who is completely ready for him.
From a letter: Meister Eckhardt* emphasized the im-
portance of the listening heart, by which he meant
a heart that listens to God alone. He said that God
desires nothing more than a heart that detaches itself
in silence from everything and turns and listens to
him. This means detachment from mammon, impu-
rity, and schadenfreude or malice; from lying, mistrust,
and hatred; from worldly spirits and from all other
spirits foreign to him.

When people are healthy and happy, or when their
economic foundation is stable, they all too often be-
come lukewarm. They may give over to God the things
they feel are not healthy in them – things that bring
them distress or struggle. Yet even when these things
drive them to prayer, they reserve their innermost
person for themselves.
   The fact that we seek God at all in times of misfor-
tune shows us that our deepest being actually hungers
and thirsts for him. We should bring our fears to God;
we should bring him our sickness and anguish. But
this is not enough. We must give him our innermost
being, our heart and soul. When we humble ourselves
before him in this way and give ourselves completely
over to him – when we no longer resist giving him our
whole person and whole personality – then he can help

* German Mystic, 1260-1328.
          us, first by bringing us to bankruptcy and then by fill-
          ing us with true life.

          From a letter: The main thing for you should be to
          recognize the greatness of God and to live for him.
          Try to read the Bible – at least two or three chapters
          every day. This will open your eyes to the greatness
          of Jehovah, the Lord of Hosts. Then you will see how
          very small the search for personal happiness is.

          From a letter: When the devil incites you to hate oth-
          ers, I advise you to find inner quiet. You know that in
          your deepest heart you do not want this hatred.
              I can very well understand how unhappy you feel.
          Try, however, to become absolutely quiet inwardly, and
          believe that God loves you and wants to help you, even
          if this belief is attacked by doubts again and again.
          Then your fear will be slowly overcome.
              If you try to fight your emotions with other emo-
          tions, you will only become more confused. You can-
          not straighten out your emotions, but you can trust
          in God: he knows your deepest heart, and he can
          straighten you out. Believe in him alone.

          From a letter: Y ask how to find inner quiet. Re-
          member Jesus’ words about prayer; they are very
Mt. 6:6   important: “Go into your room, lock the door, and
           pray to your Father who is in secret, and he, who sees
           what is secret, will reward you.” If you detach yourself
           from your feelings and from the excitements of your
           life and seek God in this detachment from self, you
           will find peace of heart.

           From a letter: Long prayers are not always effective. Je-
           sus even warns us against them. They are usually more
           pagan than Christian.

           Let your prayer life be more alive! But do not force
           it – let it be quite free. When prayer becomes some-
           thing living to you, the fire of the Spirit will flare up,
           and this will bring you life!

           From a letter: We cannot live without a personal
           prayer life. We need prayer as much as we need water.
           All of us need times of quiet before God. Jesus clearly
Mt 6:1-6   says that we should not make a show of our prayers;
           we should close the door behind us and not speak
           about them. Yet hidden, personal prayer is absolutely
           necessary and just as important as the communal
           prayers of the whole church.

           We tend to pray only for what we want and give
           little thought to what God wants of us at a particular
           moment. I sometimes think God would answer our
           prayers sooner if they were directed more to doing his
           will, and if our hearts were moved by the good spirit
           to ask what God wanted. Let me say it like this: God
           needs us every day – he needs people to carry out his
           will – so we should not pray for what we would like,
           but rather ask for the strength to do what he would
           have us do.

           God needs people who ask for his will to be done; if
           no one is interested in it, he must leave his work on
           earth undone. But if there are people who stretch out
           their hands to him in longing, asking and seeking for
           his will to be done, then he can do something in this
           world. It is wrong to think that everything comes by
           itself, that nothing is expected of us. Jesus taught us to
Mt. 6:10   pray for God’s will to be done here on earth as it is in
               We must also ask for God’s will to be done in our
           personal lives. Because the Evil One tries again and
           again to lead us onto the wrong path, we must turn
           to God daily and ask him to renew our hearts. But we
           should pray not only for ourselves; we should pray for
           the whole world – for all humanity and all nations.

           From a letter: There is wrong prayer – self-willed
           prayer. But if the object of our prayer is in accordance
           with the will of Jesus, then it is right. As long as there
                is nothing of self-will or self-glory mixed into it, it is
                not wrong.

                It is completely foreign to the way of Jesus to make
                selfish requests in his name, for instance to wish for a
                successful career or for a thousand dollars. When Jesus
Jn. 14:13       says, “Whatever you ask in my name, I will do,” he
                means whatever glorifies the Father and the Son.

                In our prayer life we need to listen to the spirit of
                God. What God wants to tell us is of greater impor-
                tance than what we want to tell him. Therefore com-
                mon silence shared in the faith that he wants to speak
                to each heart will always be meaningful for us.

                We should always believe that our prayers will be
                answered, even if they are not answered straight away.
                Daniel prayed earnestly to God for days for the for-
                giveness of his sins and for the forgiveness of Israel’s
                sins. Yet he received no answer for three weeks. Then
                an angel appeared to him in a vision and said:

Dan. 10:12-13         Do not be afraid, Daniel, for from the very first
                      day that you applied your mind to understand
                      and mortify yourself before your God, your
                      prayers have been heard, and I have come in
                      answer to them. But the evil angel prince of the
      kingdom of Persia resisted me for twenty-one
      days, until Michael, one of the chief princes of
      heaven, came to help me.

So Daniel’s prayers were heard from the beginning, but
dark powers made it difficult for the angel who an-
swered him to break through.
   Today, despite the victory of the cross, there are still
dark powers at work. Our prayers, like Daniel’s, may
often not be answered straightaway. Yet God hears
them. We should firmly believe this.

From a letter: Give everything over to Jesus. The
more you give everything over to him, the more his
spirit will fill you. Even the most sincere Christians go
through times of inner dryness in which God wants to
test them. But then he floods them with his great love.
So do not despair if you feel inner dryness.
The Gospel begins with a call to repentance. Repen-
tance means that everything must be changed. What
was up must go down, and what was down must come
up. Everything must be seen as God sees it. Our whole
being has to be renewed; all thinking of our own has
to cease. God must become the center of our thinking
and feeling.

Jesus Christ came to save people, but he first called
them to repent and follow him. Many Christians are
attracted by his promise of salvation, but they do not
want to repent fully. It is tragic that the worst enemies
of Jesus are often religious people, not unbelievers.
Even in Jesus’ own lifetime, those who hated him most
were not the soldiers who crucified him, but the very
religious Pharisees and scribes, who hated his message
of repentance.

When John the Baptist appeared in the wilderness
of Judea, he called people to repent – to change their
hearts and minds. He certainly did not flatter those
Mt. 3:7-8   who came to him. He plainly told them how far they
            were from God. It was not only John the Baptist who
            spoke of repentance. Jesus himself did, from his first
            teachings in the Bible to his last.

            People dislike John the Baptist’s call, “Repent, for the
Mt. 3:2     kingdom of heaven is at hand,” because they do not
            understand what repentance means. Repentance does
            not mean self-torment; nor does it mean being judged
            by others. It means turning away from the corruption
            and mammonism of fallen humankind and letting our
            hearts be moved by the atmosphere of the kingdom
            of God. Anyone who has gone through true repen-
            tance knows that it makes the heart melt like wax, that
            it shocks us by showing us our sinfulness. But that
            should not be the central experience. God must be the
            center of a repentant heart – God, who was revealed at
            the cross as love, and who alone brings reconciliation.

            From a letter: All of us must undergo difficult and
            painful times of repentance. I plead with you to ac-
            cept it, not as punishment but as grace, and I beg you
            not to torment yourself but to understand that Christ
            wants to make you free.

            From a letter: Do you really know what repentance
            means? When a person repents he will change in such
           a way that everyone who meets him will feel his change
           of heart. In Dickens’ A Christmas Carol it was obvious
           to everyone who met old Scrooge on Christmas Day
           that he was a different man from the evening before. I
           wish you such repentance.

           If we trust in Jesus and the power of his death, we will
           find forgiveness for our sins, however evil we are or
           were. But we must not play with his goodness. He will
           judge every sin, every compromise we make with the
           devil. For instance, he warns us so strongly against im-
           morality that he says we should not even glance lust-
           fully at a woman. Let us accept his sharpness.

           There are times in every person’s life when God comes
           close. There are also such times or hours of God for
           each church. According to the Book of Revelation,
Rev. 2-3   Jesus spoke from heaven through John to the seven
           churches, telling each what it had to recognize and
           why it had to repent, though also encouraging it.
           That was surely an important hour of God for these
               God is infinitely good. Once he has come to a per-
           son, he may come a second, third, fourth, or even a
           fifth time, but he also may not. It is up to us whether
           we listen to him.
However strong our will to control ourselves, and
however deceptive we are, God sees through everything
into the depth of our hearts. Only the act of putting
ourselves under his light gives us a chance for renewal.
Everything is possible if we put ourselves willingly
under the light of God. But if we refuse to do this,
everything in our life is in danger.

It is one of the most wonderful things when a person
truly repents. God comes so close to a repentant soul!
A heart of stone becomes a heart of flesh, and every
emotion, thought, and feeling changes. A person’s
entire outlook changes when the gift of repentance is
given to him.

We must receive a new life; we must be changed. But
it is God who must change us. And he may change us
in a different way from what we had wanted or imag-
ined. Our own ideals – our own plans for inner growth
or personal change – must come to an end. Every lofty
position must be given up; every high human striving
sacrificed. To be fit for God’s new future we must be
changed by him.

From a letter: I am sure that Jesus can give you a com-
pletely pure heart and perfect peace. At first, the closer
you come to him the more you will feel judged by your
              sin, but in the end you will find deep joy and peace.
              Your seeking for God should not make life a torment.
              He sees that you seek him with a sincere heart. I wish
              you hope and courage.

              From a letter: Remorse opens the heart to God. The
              experience itself is very painful, but later you will look
              back on it with gratefulness as a light in your past.
              Repentance does not mean that you should grovel
              in your sin but that your heart should be softened
              toward God and those around you.

              From a letter: I long for you to find true repentance,
              because it is the only hope for you in your struggle
              against bitterness. There is no heart so hard that God
              cannot touch it and melt it. I know this because there
              is not one of us who has not once hardened his heart
              against God. If only you could experience his great
              longing and burning love for you and for each one of
              us! Then you would let everything that separates you
              from this great love be torn away from you, however
              painful it might be.
                 God’s love is like water: it seeks the lowest place.
              Yet we cannot make ourselves humble and lowly in
              our own strength. We can see ourselves for what we
1 Cor. 4:13   are – “filth and off-scourings” – only in the light of
              God’s omnipotence, love, purity, and truth.
Once we see the darkness of sin and the horror of
separation from God, we can feel something of what
Jesus means by repentance. Yet repentance means more
than recognizing our sin; it means turning toward the
kingdom of God. It also means being ready to run
around the world in order to undo all the wrong we
have done – even though we know we cannot undo
anything. Finally, it means giving ourselves to Him
who gives forgiveness and freedom from sin.

From a letter: I am grateful that you recognize your
sin, but I plead with you to stop thinking about your-
self, your past, and your depression. You will only
become more depressed. That is not repentance. Think
of your inner being as a clear pond that mirrors the
sun, the stars, and the moon. If you stir up the mud
at the bottom, everything will become unclear and
cloudy, and the more you stir it, the cloudier it will
get. Become quiet and stand firm against the devil.
Then the water will clear again, and you will see in its
mirror Christ’s love to you and to the whole world.
Jn. 3       In John 3 we read that we must be reborn of water
            and the Spirit. This cannot be understood humanly, as
            Nicodemus tried to understand it. Rebirth is a secret,
            a mystery, a miracle. But if we believe that Jesus was
            sent by God the Father, and if we believe in the power
            of the Holy Spirit, he can give us rebirth. It all depends
            on belief.

            A decision to follow Jesus cannot be a decision to
            follow him for one or two years; it must be for always.
            Jesus said, “No one who puts his hand to the plow and
Lk. 9:62    looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
            But if we remain faithful to him, he will wash us clean
            and give us unity with God and with one another, and
            he will grant us eternal life.

            Those who want to follow Jesus must not only open
            their hearts to him and say, “Come into my heart and
            purify me”; they must also be ready to say, “I am will-
            ing to do anything you ask of me.” Jesus says, “Come,
Mt. 11:28   all who are heavy-burdened.” If you are willing to
               come to him – to let him into your heart – then you
               must also be willing to let him rule you and to give up
               your own will.

               Discipleship demands that we drop everything, in-
               cluding everything we count as positive in ourselves.
               Paul was willing to lay aside the Jewish law, and we
               must likewise give up our good self-image, our righ-
               teousness, and our kindness, and count it all as noth-
               ing for the sake of Jesus Christ.

               The radicalism of Christ’s way must challenge us. He
               does not want to win numbers but dedicated hearts.
               And he does not promise security, either economic or
               otherwise. He seeks those who want to give themselves
               unreservedly to God and to their brothers, without
               seeking anything for themselves.

               The decision to follow Christ must be a deeply per-
               sonal one. But it can never mean – as someone once
               said to me, “Only Jesus and I remain.” Discipleship
               must always be related to one’s brothers and sisters.
               Therefore Jesus brings together the two command-
               ments “Love God with all your heart, soul, and be-
Mt. 22:37-39   ing,” and “Love your neighbor as yourself.” These two
               commandments cannot be separated. It is true that a
               personal religious experience must take place in one’s
innermost being, but it cannot be a lonely or selfish

The essence of faith must become clearer to us. One
may accept the teachings of the whole Bible, but with-
out meeting Jesus himself, it will be of no value. Nor
does it help to have a conviction if one has not deeply
felt and experienced Jesus’ character, his being, and his
nature. Each man must be personally confronted by
Jesus himself.

If we grasp in our hearts the fact that Jesus died for us,
it will change us completely: it will mean revolution;
it will make something new out of us to the destruc-
tion of our sinful self so that we will no longer be
slaves to it.

Part of the experience of true conversion is the willing-
ness to suffer with Christ, the suffering One. I do not
believe that true conversion is possible without this.

Discipleship means complete dedication. It demands
everything – the whole heart, the whole mind, and the
whole of life, including one’s time, energy, and prop-
erty – for the cause of love. Half-hearted Christianity is
worse than no Christianity.
Mt. 12:33    Jesus says, “By the fruits you will recognize the tree”;
             that is, by the fruits of a person’s life we will recognize
             whether or not he is a hypocrite. “For not everyone
Mt. 7:21     who says ‘Lord, Lord’ will come into the kingdom of
             God, but only those who do the will of the Father.”
             Doing the will of God means showing the fruits of
             repentance. Jesus also says, “I am the vine, and my
Jn. 15:1-2   Father is the vinedresser, and every branch that does
             not bear fruit, he cuts away. But those who bear fruit
             he purifies so that they may bear more fruit.” Here we
             see that we cannot simply be converted, baptized, and
             “saved,” and live from then on without temptation. If
             we are to bear good fruit, we must repent and be puri-
             fied again and again.
Jn. 15:4        A branch cannot bear fruit of itself – it must be
             connected to the vine. In the same way, none of us
             can bear fruit without a personal relationship to Jesus.
             Without such a relationship we will die inwardly and
Jn. 15:6     bear no fruit. And if we do not bear fruit, we will be
             cut off the vine, thrown into the fire, and burned.
             That is the great challenge: to remain on the vine – to
             remain in Jesus.
Who is God, and how can we find him? One answer
to this question is that something of the light of God
already lies deep in each of our hearts. At times this is
to be felt only in a deep longing for goodness, justice,
purity, or faithfulness. But if such a longing turns to
faith, we will find God.
   The early Christians said that if men seek God
they will find him, because he is everywhere. There is
no boundary that cannot be crossed, no hindrance that
cannot be overcome to find him. Think of Nicodemus,
who at first would not believe that he could change
in his old age. Even he found faith. We cannot excuse
ourselves for not finding faith. If we knock at the door,
it will open.

God comes to the heart of every person who has faith
that he will come, to everyone who seeks him. But we
must look for him and wait for him to come to us.
If we live our lives in dullness it will not happen. We
must first seek; only then will we find.
           It is a miracle of faith when people find Jesus and rec-
           ognize him as the Christ. We see this happen in John
Jn. 4:42   4:42, when the Samaritans answer the woman who
           met Jesus at the well: “We have heard him ourselves
           and know that this is indeed Christ the Savior.” If only
           this faith were alive here and now in our church and
           among the many who thirst for something new!
               To the Samaritans, Jesus was just a man – hungry,
           tired, and thirsty. No ordinary person could have seen
           in him the slightest trace of his identity. Who could be
           blamed for failing to recognize him immediately? If we
           met a complete stranger, we would not straightaway
           take him to be the Savior of the world.
               Jesus’ appearance was anything but that of a savior:
           he was a humble man; he grew up in a small town,
           came into conflict with religious leaders, and suffered a
           shameful death. Therefore it is a miracle when a per-
           son comes to believe in him. When we can say like the
Jn. 4:42   Samaritans, “This is Christ, the Savior of the world,”
           our heart has been opened and filled with light.

           From a letter: It seems that a new, green blade of living
           faith is beginning to grow in your heart. Guard it, and
           do not give in to the flesh, to self, or to any form of
           sin. Prove to yourself, to those around you, and to God
           that this is a new chapter of your life.

           Faith and a good conscience are completely interoven
           with one another. If we do not listen to our con-
              science, our faith will suffer shipwreck. And if we lose
              faith, we lose the possibility of having a pure and liv-
              ing conscience. Therefore the Apostle says that the
Tit. 1:15     consciences of those who do not believe are not clean.
              It is bound to be like this, because without faith the
              conscience has nothing to hold on to.

              I once met some people who were critical of our giv-
              ing “too much” honor to Jesus. We were talking about
              a saying of Jesus, and one of them asked me, “Do you
              believe this because Jesus said it, or because it is true?”
              I said I believed it for both reasons: because Jesus said
              it and because it is true. I have always felt I should
              have said more; I should have been willing to be a fool
              and to say, “Even if I did not understand it, I would
              still believe it, because Jesus said it.” These people were
              horrified that anyone could have a childlike faith in

              Anyone who has not been troubled by the scandal
              of Christ’s suffering and his complete humiliation is
              ignorant of the meaning of belief in him.

Jn. 3:16-17   The Bible says, “God so loved the world that he gave
              his only begotten Son. He was not sent to condemn
              the world, but to save it.” But it also says that the
              world will be judged because of its unbelief. We must
              be overwhelmed by what it means that God “so loved
Rom. 11:20    the world”; then we will see how terrible it is not to
              believe in him. We must ask God to be newly awak-
              ened to a deeper faith and belief – to a faith that meets
              all personal problems, all problems of communal life,
              and ultimately the problems of the whole world.

              From a letter: Peter told Jesus that he was willing to
              die for him, but he still denied him three times. No
              one of us can say he will have the strength to endure.
              Such a thing is possible only in the power of God. He
              alone can give us strength.

              When people feel lonely and unsure of themselves, it
              is often because they do not believe deeply enough that
              God fully understands them. Paul writes that if we love
1Cor. 13:12   fully, we will understand as we are fully understood.
              John’s words are very important, too: God loved us be-
1 Jn. 4:19    fore we were ever able to love him. This is what must
              enter our small hearts, and what we must hold on to:
              the love of the great Heart which understands us fully.

              We live in a time when the whole world is in turmoil,
              and we can expect even more shaking events than we
              have already seen. There is only one hope, only one
              thing to hold on to in every situation: Jesus and his
              kingdom. In life and death, in joy and judgment, he
              remains our only Savior.
Col. 2:4-23      As Paul warns us, false and dangerous teachings are
              widespread, also among so-called Christians. Let us
              therefore remain simple and childlike in our faith in
              the Son of God and the Son of Man, and let us build
              our life of brotherly love on the rock of this faith.

              Why are there so many people today who cannot find
              faith? I think there are several reasons. Some are satis-
              fied with what is happening; they are proud to be liv-
              ing in a time of great culture and civilization, and they
              are blind to the suffering of humankind and the whole
              of creation. They have lost sight of God.
                 Others despair. They recognize the injustice of
              mammon, and they suffer with those who are op-
              pressed. But in their compassion they forget the guilt
              of men – the guilt we all must bear. And if they do see
              guilt, they see only the guilt of a certain class or na-
              tion, not that of all men. They see the creation but not
              the Creator. They, too, have lost sight of God.
                 Still others see the sin, guilt, and weakness of men,
              but they have no heart, no patience with the op-
              pressed, and they do not suffer with them. Because
              they have lost sight of God, they do not hear the cry
              of all creation. They have no real faith, or they have
              found faith only for their own souls and not for suffer-
              ing humanity.
                 We can find faith only if we first find God. When
              we have found God, we will begin to see the need of
              man from His viewpoint, and we will believe that He
               can overcome this need. Men must recognize that God
               loves the world even in our time. In the night of judg-
               ment that is passing over our so-called civilization,
               men need to hear that God still loves them and loves
               his creation. The message of faith is a message of love.

Doubt          From a letter: You will never be able to prove – even
               to yourself – that Jesus exists. Belief must be an inner
               experience. As long as you try to prove the object of
               your belief intellectually, your efforts will stand in the
               way of such an experience. I am not able to prove the
               existence of Jesus – I have nothing but my living faith.
               Thomas doubted that Jesus really rose from the dead;
Jn. 20:25-29   he said, “Unless I put my hand into his wounds, I will
               never believe.” Then he saw Jesus and believed. But
               Jesus said, “Blessed are those who have not seen and
               yet believe.”

               To question God’s love and his nearness leads to death
               for someone who has already given him his life. It is
               good to recognize evil in oneself. But we should never
               doubt God’s great mercy, even in judgment. Doubt
               leads to torments that make a person feel he is living in
               hell. We must be led to an ever-renewed deepening of
               our faith.

               Anyone who thinks he is too great a sinner – anyone
               who doubts that Jesus can help him – binds himself to
               the devil. He doubts the victory of the cross, and he
               hinders the Holy Spirit from entering his heart. This
               doubt must be rejected. After all, the Gospel says that
               Jesus carries the sin of the whole world, and that “he
Mt. 7:7        who seeks will find; to him who knocks the door will
               be opened.”
                  Christ, the living One, died on the cross to recon-
               cile all things to God. This reconciliation is beyond
               our human understanding. But we do know that it is
               possible for each of us, and that we are called to repent
               and to find it.

               From a letter: The only answer to your inner torment
               is faith in God. This might sound theoretical, but
               faith is the only point where light can break into your
               life. Think of the Sermon on the Mount, where Jesus
Mt. 6:6        teaches his disciples to pray: he says that if you lock
               yourself in your room and pray in secret, God, who
               sees in secret, will reward you. Do this, and believe
               that God hears you. Then you can and will find God’s
               grace. There is redemption from evil if you believe.

Lk. 12:22-26   From a letter: Jesus warns us against worry, which is
               ultimately a lack of trust in the Father. Become free
Jn. 14:1       from worry and care; set your heart at rest and simply
               trust in God and in Jesus.
                  You write that it is always the little things that make
               you doubt. Do not allow this to happen. God wants
to show us great things – he has been there from the
beginning and with him the Word, Christ. Everything
was created by him. Think in the great curves of God’s
creation and his eternity.

I want to encourage anyone who feels discouraged
because of having made unsuccessful attempts to fol-
low Christ. In and of ourselves we cannot follow him;
we are all equally unable. But that is because our dedi-
cation to him is not complete. Only when we empty
ourselves completely, when we give everything over
to God, can he work. As long as we work in our own
vanity, we will fail. God shows us again and again how
terribly we fail and stand in his way, as a church and as
individuals. Discipleship is not a question of our own
doing; it is a matter of making room for God so that
he can live in us.
              From a letter: May God give us big hearts. May we
              have faith in his working in all men, though without
              any mixture of spirits. May he give us a crystal-clear
              faith that includes love for all people and yet mixes
              with no darkness, that forgives and understands all yet
              does not betray one iota of the truth.
                 We have to embrace the whole Christ – his sharp-
              ness as well as his act of love on the cross. Christ’s love
              for all men is the love of the Lamb who carries the
              sin of the world. Yet he proclaims eternal damnation
Jn. 5:29-30   as necessary for the future of God’s rulership of love,
              unity, and justice. To change or weaken this would be
              to misrepresent his message.

              From a letter: You state that to believe this or that is
              dogmatic. But such a conception is pure theology. It
              is the churches that are guilty – they have given mil-
              lions of people the impression that certain beliefs are
              nothing but dogma, yet it is they who made them into
                  We are free of any doubt about the miracles of God.
              We feel completely free to believe in the miracle of
Jesus’ birth and the coming of God in Jesus. On the
other hand, we never want to lay this as a burden on
the consciences of others, and we refuse all theologi-
cal fighting over the issue. We do not doubt that Jesus
of Nazareth came directly from God and that he was
and is one with God, but we do not want to dispute
the issue on a dogmatic level. We reject all dogmatism
because it kills. We hope for and believe in the Holy
    The birth of Christ happens again and again. Where
two or three are together in his name, where he is ac-
cepted with the same faith as Mary’s, there the living
Christ will come into being. If we believe in the Holy
Spirit, then the Word will become flesh in our hearts
and prove itself to us as the Son of God.
    This becoming flesh is a reality, but the fact that
you cannot believe it makes it possible for you to par-
ticipate in a church where unjust conditions remain
unchanged. You attack social injustice, but you still
participate in a church where the love of God does
not come into the flesh and where the material world
is independent of the spiritual experience. Here lies a
deep separation between faith and experience. You call
our beliefs dogma: in actual fact, it is any religious life
that does not change life in the flesh and the economic
sphere that is dogmatic and dangerous for the inner

We must become “narrow” in the right
way – “narrow” in the sense that we live only for Christ.
            I do not mean at all that our lives should show more
            religiosity. There is no one as broadhearted as the cru-
            cified Christ, whose outstretched arms seek all men. It
            is a matter of decisiveness in one’s heart, of living only
            for Christ. If we have this decisiveness, we will have
            broad hearts, though not, of course, in the worldly
            sense of tolerance for anything and everything.

            From a letter: The main thing is that we are united
            in the things we find precious – love, openness, and
            sharing – in our struggle against coercion, in our fight
            against selfishness, in understanding our children, in
            seeking freedom from private property, and so on. It
            is for these things that we live together. We want to
            follow Jesus and none other; we want to go in his foot-
            steps. We want God’s kingdom to come to this earth.
                You want a life free from the sins of society. Yet not
Mt. 17:27   even Jesus was free from the “guilt” of using unjust
            mammon. There is a difference between direct per-
            sonal guilt and the collective guilt of fallen creation.
            We cannot separate ourselves from collective guilt; we
            would have to live alone on our own piece of land,
            and we would lose all contact with our fellow men. It
            is better to have a business relationship with a person
            than no relationship at all.
                In what sense do you mean: “Why can’t we work to
            reclaim the earth and help bring it back under God’s
            power, instead of joining in the world’s ways of destruc-
            tion?” How shall we do what you suggest except by
isolating ourselves completely from the world? Try it.
Do what you want to do. You will end up with a lot of
principles, but in complete loneliness and lovelessness.

From a letter: Principles themselves do not lead to
lovelessness, but in my experience they often lead to
disaster. I knew a man who would not use any money
or the post office or a passport, and he was jailed again
and again for not paying taxes. He was very firm in
his principles, but he ended up losing his faith in Jesus
and then all his principles too.

From a letter: Where is God in your fear of using
outward religious forms? In him all was created; noth-
ing was created without him. He gave form to every-
thing we see in the beauty of the earth. Your longing to
dispense with all forms is anti-Christian. Didn’t Jesus
allow himself to be baptized, and didn’t he establish
the Lord’s Supper or Meal of Remembrance?
   Formal Christianity is horrifying. But you go too
far with your fears. Marriage is a form; so is the com-
mon table and the common purse. You cannot simply
fear all forms, otherwise you will not be able to live a
Christian life at all.

From a letter: What does it help us to share our goods
or to live in community and to be of one faith, if hu-
man souls are harmed because we have too little time
to love our brothers and sisters and to express this
love again and again? Let us watch that we never ever
become obsessed by a principle, however right and
true. By itself, the “right” principle is deadly. It kills the
soul. “Right” principles resulted in Gethsemane. They
too easily take the place that belongs only to God, his
goodness, and his grace. Our principles must be over-
shadowed by our love to one another and by the com-
passion and grace of God.
               Many people become used to a dualism in which
               their lives are divided into parts, and this is a great
               strain. We find this also among so-called religious
               people – perhaps especially among them. But Jesus was
               absolutely single-minded. He demanded that we sell
Mt. 13:45-46   all other jewels in order to buy the one pearl of great
               price. We should not look at one thing with one eye
               and try to follow him with the other. If we ponder this
               deeply, each of us will realize he has to confront the
               division in his own heart. We must give up all divided-
               ness. We want to be of one heart and one soul both
               in ourselves and with our neighbor. It is a question of
               life and death. Unless we find singleness of heart and
               mind, our dividedness will tear us to pieces.

               From a letter: We must be prepared to stand by our
               own convictions, even to suffer death for the sake
               of Jesus. In the Hutterite Chronicle * there is a story
               about a sixteen-year-old boy, the son of a miller, who

               * The Chronicle of the Hutterian Brethren, Vol. I (Vienna, 1923; English
               translation, Rifton, NY: 1987), a history of the Hutterites and other Ana-
               baptists of 16th century Europe. (See pp. 64-65.)
            converted to the Anabaptist way of life. When he
            was caught and sentenced to be beheaded, a wealthy
            nobleman offered to take him and raise him as his own
            son, if he would only recant. But the boy kept faith
            with God and was executed. If discipleship is really
            the way we want to go, we must be prepared for such
            sacrifice – however hard it is, and in spite of ourselves
            and our failures.

            A promise made to God cannot be made on the
            strength of human faithfulness. We must depend on
            God’s faithfulness. No one is strong enough in his own
            strength to endure, for instance, what the early Chris-
            tian martyrs and others throughout history endured;
            but God is faithful. If we give ourselves to him, his
            angels will fight for us.

            Do we still have our first love to Jesus, our readiness to
            give everything, even to face death for his sake? Today
            we have house and home, but we do not know what
            the future will bring. The times are very uncertain. In
            the course of our Bruderhof history we have had to go
            from one country to another. We can offer no human
Jn. 15:20   security. Jesus promises his disciples that they will be
            persecuted and that they will suffer. We can promise
            nothing better. Our only security is Jesus himself.
           We must not forget that Jesus taught us a way of com-
           plete love – a way that means loving even our enemies
           and praying for those who persecute us. As disciples of
           Jesus we are not promised good days only. We must be
           prepared for persecution. Throughout history people
           have been killed for their convictions. We should be
           thankful that we have been protected till now, but we
           should also be ready to suffer for our faith.

           A Christian’s commitment to Christ cannot be
           changed through circumstances. This must be quite
           clear. For us at the Bruderhof, the larger protection of
           the church community might be taken away at any
           time. But even if through persecution only one per-
           son from our communities were left, he would still be
           bound to his commitments.

           If we love God with all our heart, soul, and being – if
           we live our lives for the sake of his honor and for the
           kingdom of God – then we can speak of him with as-
Ps. 28.1   surance in our prayers as “My Lord, my Rock.” It does
           not matter if we have enemies or what those enemies
           say about us. We will hear the voice of God in our
           hearts and be faithful.

           We must be faithful to the end. For a Christian the
           most dangerous time is the middle of life. At the
beginning, when our faith is new, God may seem espe-
cially near to us. After a few years, however, lukewarm-
ness often sets in. If we are dedicated, God will carry
us through our middle years, though we must still be
watchful. But let us not have fear. If we are true to
God, nothing can separate us from his peace.
               The Lower Nature
Temptation *   I sometimes wonder whether we have not become too
               worldly in certain things. Do sports, business matters,
               and concern for money fill our hearts too much? These
               are obvious “worldly” distractions or temptations. But
               there is also a danger that even the gifts God gives us,
               such as the beauties of nature or the joys of human
               love, can become a substitute for the real experience of

Heb. 2:18      The Letter to the Hebrews clearly states that Jesus was
Heb. 4:15      tempted just like any other human being. When Jesus
               was tempted in the wilderness, Satan came to him and
               used words from scripture to tempt him. Only after
Mt. 4:1-10     the third temptation did Jesus recognize him and say,
               “Begone, Satan.”
                  At one time the idea of Jesus being tempted seemed
               blasphemous to me. Yet now I see that there is no
               question: he was tempted like any other human being.
Heb. 4:15      That is what the Gospel says. In spite of this, it is clear
               that Jesus never sinned.
                  Where does temptation end and sin begin? If we are

               * For this section extensive use has been made of the author's book Freedom
               from Sinful Thoughts (Plough, 1973).
              plagued or tempted by evil thoughts, that in itself is
              not sinning. For instance, if an impure thought comes
              to us and we reject it, that is not sin. But if we buy a
              dirty magazine in order to indulge in sexual fantasies,
              that is sin.
                 It is a question of what we do when temptation
              comes – what attitude we take. When Jesus was tempt-
              ed by Satan, he had an answer for him each time. That
              is what we have to pray for: an answer to every tempta-
                 We will never be completely free of temptation –
              we should not even expect it; Jesus himself never
              reached this state. But we should ask God to protect
              us in temptation and to give us the right answer to the
              Tempter each time.

              From a letter: I cannot say it sharply enough: if you
              flaunt your form or hair, or if you dress so as to tempt
              another person to an impure look, you commit a sin
              worthy of church discipline. Jesus says in the Sermon
              on the Mount that anyone who casts an impure look
              at another is guilty. But if you willingly and intention-
              ally bring another into that temptation, you are just as

2 Cor. 10:5   Paul describes the believer’s fight against evil thoughts
              as a victorious one in which every thought is “taken
              captive to obey Christ.” Paul takes for granted that
            men have arguments and obstacles in their minds and
            that these must be taken captive to obey Christ. All of
            us must fight this battle. We should not be surprised if
            we are tempted; it is part of life.
               The wonderful thing about Paul’s words is his cer-
            tainty that these thoughts can be taken captive to obey
            Christ. Of course, victory is not always easy. We must
            face the fact that a war between good and evil is being
            waged continually for all of humankind. It has been
            going on ever since man’s fall, especially since Christ’s
            death and the coming down of the Holy Spirit at
            Pentecost. If someone is tormented by evil thoughts,
            he should remember that the spiritual battle is much
            greater than that in his own heart. It is greater even
            than that of the whole church.
               The Enemy is very real, and if we recognize this, we
            will not be lukewarm. But Christ is also very real. To
            find true freedom of heart, we need to experience him.

Heb. 4:15   We know from the Letter to the Hebrews that Jesus
            was tempted as we are; he did not sin, but he under-
            stands us in our temptation and need. Everyone –
            every brother and sister, and every young or old per-
            son – should know that we have a High Priest, a King,
Heb. 5:7    a Master who understands. Hebrews 5:7 says, “In the
            days of his flesh, Jesus offered up prayers and supplica-
            tions with loud cries and tears to him who was able to
            save him.” All of us are guilty of sins in the past, so we
            should all feel like coming before God in prayer “with
loud cries and tears” and turning to him in the faith
that he can save us and all those for whom we pray.

If we think evil thoughts deliberately, be they thoughts
of power over other people, of impurity, of hatred, or
of any other such evil, we will act on them some day.
But it is very different if we are tormented by ideas,
images, or thoughts we really do not want and would
give anything to have a pure heart instead. With our
own will it is never possible to make ourselves pure.
When we are cramped up inside against something
evil, it can even lead to that evil having greater power
over us. But we should never forget that God sees
deeper than we do. Even if we sink further and further
into evil thoughts that we do not actually want, God
will see we do not want them, and he will help us.

Even Jesus was tempted by the devil. But he overcame
all evil by fully trusting his Father. You will be tempted
too, and when you are, all that matters will be whether
or not you completely trust Jesus and the power of the
cross. Unless you put your trust and belief in Jesus,
you will be defeated.

The feeling of being forsaken by God brings the most
dreadful suffering. And for the Son of God to feel this
as he died must have been such a fearful experience
            that we cannot grasp it. Yet in spite of it Jesus cried
Lk. 23:46   out, “Father, into thy hands I give my spirit.”
                Here we find the crowning of faith. Jesus’ experi-
            ence of godforsakenness did not take away the trust
            and faith he had in his and our Father; he gave his
            spirit into his hands.
                If we want to be healed of the wounds made by
            Satan’s tricks and arrows – by evil feelings, thoughts,
            or ideas – we must have the same absolute trust in Jesus
            as he had in God, so that even if we feel nothing yet,
            we give ourselves absolutely and without reserve to
            him with all we are and have. Ultimately, all we have
            is our sin. But we must lay our sin before him in trust.
            Then he will give us forgiveness, cleansing, and peace
            of heart; and these lead to a love that cannot be

            When depression or anything other than Jesus threat-
            ens to rule our hearts, we must go to Jesus. There we
            will find victory and peace. I am quite sure that at the
            cross we can be victorious over all things that come to
            us in life, whatever they may be.

            Many people no longer know what a good conscience
            is; they are burdened daily with the sins of our time.
            We must take care to keep our consciences pure, and
            we must do this from childhood on. Once we get used
            to living with a bad conscience, we will lose everything:
            our relationship with God and our love to others.
Heb. 5:7
            Which of us takes our struggle with sin so seriously
            that we fight with loud cries and tears? Jesus did. No
            one has ever fought like Jesus – no one. The devil
            wanted no heart more than his. And because he fought
            much harder than any one of us will ever have to fight,
            he understands our struggles. Of that we can be sure.
            But we do have to fight. Jesus says that those who
Mt. 16:24   want to follow him must take up their cross as he took
            up his. I want to challenge everyone to fight as Jesus
            fought – to fight until death.

            Paul the Apostle spoke of himself as the greatest sin-
            ner. These were not just pious words; he really meant
            them. He had persecuted the early church and was
            responsible for many martyrs’ deaths, and he knew he
            was an enemy of God.
               At Pentecost the people in Jerusalem also saw them-
            selves as sinners – they did not feel they were good.
Acts 2:37   They were “cut to the heart,” and when the Holy
            Spirit came to them, they did not feel worthy of it. In
            fact, they saw themselves as the murderers of Christ.
            But because of this recognition, God could use them.
            If we want to be used by God, we must not talk and
            preach to one another about love without recognizing
            that each one of us, too, is actually a sinner.

            Sin is not only a matter of our lower nature. We all
            have to fight our lower nature, but some people go
              further and fall into satanic sin. Satanic sin is wanting
              praise for oneself and wanting the glory that belongs
              only to God. It is the desire for power over the souls
              and bodies of others so as to be adored, and ultimately
              it is the desire to be God. It is the way of the Anti-
                  If we give ourselves to satanic sin, all the sins of our
              lower nature will show themselves too: impurity, mam-
              monism, hypocrisy, envy, hatred, brutality, and finally

              From a letter: I thank you for your long and full ac-
              count of your life and for your attempt to confess your
              sins fully. I have deep compassion with you when I
              hear about your difficult childhood. When I think
              what a blessed childhood I myself had, I feel ashamed;
              God will surely ask more of me than of you.
                  Your past makes me think of Jesus’ words, “I came
Lk. 5:31-32   not for the healthy and the just, but for the sick and
              the sinners.” Do not forget this; hold on to it through
              all hours of need and temptation.
                  Dear brother, we need to see and experience the
              whole Gospel: the exceedingly great love of Jesus to the
              sinner, for whom he died, but also the sharpness of his
              parables and his shaking words for those who do not
Mt. 8:12      repent: “There will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”
                  Revelation 22:12–15 contains the essence of the
              whole Gospel: it tells of the wages paid to everyone
              who has done good works and of the blessing given to
             everyone who has purified his garments in the blood
             of the Lamb. But then comes a sharpness which we
Rev. 22:15   cannot soften: “Outside are dogs, sorcerers, and forni-
             cators; murderers and idolaters; and all who love and
             practice deceit.”

             If we give our hearts to evil, the devil will enter us and
             rule us. He does this whenever we make our own gods.
             For the ancient Jews it was a golden calf. Today mam-
             mon – the dollar – has become a god. Therefore God’s
Mk. 12:30    First Commandment is to love him with all our heart,
             mind, and being. Of course, it is impossible to fulfill
             this commandment without really trusting God –
             without being able to believe that only good comes
             from him and that he always means it well with us, on
             the condition that we do his will.
                Jesus’ second commandment, which is as impor-
Mk. 12:31    tant as the first, is to love our neighbor as ourselves.
             The devil will always whisper to us and tell us not to
             trust our neighbor, and if we listen to him, division,
             mistrust, and sin will enter our relationships. Here in
             America we see this especially in racism. But we see it
             over the whole earth: in war and in every human heart
             where there is hatred against another.

             There is nothing you can hide from God. You might
             hide your sins from others, but ultimately they will all
Heb. 4:13    come to light, including your secret thoughts. Whether
              an evil thought is a sin or not depends on whether you
              entertain it or take a stand against it. Luther said that
              evil thoughts come like birds flying over our heads. We
              cannot help that. But if we allow them to build nests
              on our heads, then we are responsible for them.

              From a letter: I plead with you to turn away for the
              rest of your life from all hardness and cruelty, espe-
              cially cruelty toward children and sick or weak people.
              What did Jesus say to his disciples when they wanted
              to call down fire from heaven to destroy the village
              that refused to take them in? He was shocked by their
              hard, unchildlike spirit and rebuked them: “You do
Lk. 9:55-56   not know to what spirit you belong. The Son of Man
              did not come to destroy men’s lives, but to save them.”
              Think always of Jesus; then your heart will change.

              From a letter: I do not understand why you came to
              the church and lied. When Ananias and Sapphira came
              to join the church at Jerusalem but held back their
              money dishonestly, Peter asked them, “How did you
Acts 5:4      contrive such an act in your hearts? You have lied not
              to men but to God.” He also told them they could
              have stayed away from the church and kept what they
              had for themselves.
                 Why do you come to join us if at the same time you
              burden your conscience by lying to God and to us?
              You will have to give an account for this. Man’s destiny
Heb. 9:27       is to die; after that he must be judged by God. If you
                do not want to face judgment now, you will have to
                face it later. We will not force you. Hebrews 10:26 –27
Heb. 10:26-27   says, “If we remain willingly in our sin after we have
                recognized the truth, there will be no sacrifice for us
                anymore, but only the expectation of terrible judgment
                and the wrath of fire.”
Heb. 12:15          Hebrews 12:15 says that no one should forfeit the
                hour of God’s grace. You are free to continue playing
                with God, but then we can have nothing to do with
                you, and you will have to answer to God alone. There
                is still a chance for you to turn around!

Rom. 8:1-2      There is no condemnation for those who are united
                with Jesus Christ, because in him the life-giving law
                of the Spirit has set you free from the law of sin and
                death.” This is such a joyful thought – all sin is over-
                come. But if we look at our own experience we see that
                it is not overcome everywhere, and the reason is simply
                that we are not living in Christ Jesus but in our old
                nature. It is an illusion to think that we do not have
                this lower nature. We have come into the world with
                it, and we ourselves cannot change it, even with the
                best intentions. But Christ can change it if we trust
                him and give ourselves unconditionally to him.
Rom. 8:5            “Those who live on the level of their lower nature
                have their outlook formed by it.” We experience this
                again and again: people whose outlook is based on
                their lower nature come forth with hatred, jealousy,
             and envy – as if Christ had not come, as if he had not
             died on the cross, as if his sacrifice was in vain. This is
             extremely painful. Paul says, “The outlook of the lower
Rom. 8:7-8   nature is enmity with God. It is not subject to the law
             of God; indeed it cannot be: those who live on such
             a level cannot possibly please God.” It cannot be put
             more strongly: those who cannot overcome their de-
             sires may mean no evil, but in actual fact their lives are
             hostile to God. They are not subject to his law. This
             goes for anyone who lives in impurity, hatred, jealousy,
             deceit, or other sinfulness. It is impossible for him to
             please God.

Rom. 8       Paul speaks in Romans 8 about the lower or fleshly
             nature, and we must be clear that this includes our de-
             sires for food, comfort, and sex. All must be subject to
             the Spirit. We need food and housing, and we affirm
             sex within marriage, but if these things rule us instead
             of Christ, we are sinning. God knows that we need
             food on the table every day, but that must not rule
             us; we must not become dependent on good food or
             spoil our children and ourselves. Food is just a simple
             example, of course. If we are ruled by anything but
             Christ, even spiritual things – religious thinking and
             reading – we are living by the flesh. Even if we were
             to adhere to the most self-mortifying philosophy, like
             that of the Buddha, it would still be fleshly, because we
             would be blowing up our pride by putting ourselves in
             the center instead of Christ.
Rom. 8:9
              Everything depends on whether we are completely giv-
              en over to Christ. Romans 8:9 says that he who does
              not have the spirit of Christ is not even a Christian.
              Yet we cannot acquire it ourselves; we can only receive
              it by giving ourselves to him. The Gospel says that
Mt. 7:7-8     “everyone who asks receives . . . to him who knocks, the
              door will be opened.” In other words, he who asks will
              receive living water without needing to pay anything.
                  We have great compassion with people who struggle
              in vain, year in and year out, to overcome their weak-
              nesses, but at the same time we must admit that
              actually they are guilty. There is no excuse for them,
              because they do not give themselves in faith to Christ.
Rom. 8:1-2    As Paul writes, “There is no condemnation for those
              who are united with Christ Jesus, because in him the
              life-giving law of the Spirit has set us free from the law
              of sin and death.” This possibility is open to everyone.
              We cannot hide from God and say, “We are too weak,”
              or “We want to change, but cannot.” Ultimately these
              excuses have no foundation. Paul continues:

Rom 8:12-13        It follows, my friends, that our lower nature has
                   no claim upon us; we are not obliged to live on
                   that level. If you do so, you must die. But if by
                   the Spirit you put to death all the base pursuits
                   of the body, you will live.

              These are very strong words. Who can really say that
              the lower nature has no claim on him? Such freedom
from sin depends on absolute dedication to Christ. We
must put to death every form of sin. Then it will be
impossible for jealousy, hatred, impurity, lying, or any
other sin to be victorious in us.

There are people who do not break with sin because
they think they cannot. But that is an untruth. Jesus
Christ is always there, and so is the Holy Spirit, and if
any soul really cries out to God, the Spirit will speak to
God for him. So there is no excuse whatsoever not to
stop sinning. There is no one who has as much com-
passion and love for sinners as Jesus, but he does not
excuse sin. Let us plead that everyone may find free-
dom from sin in Christ Jesus.

Self-pity and pride, which are closely related, have
nothing to do with the cross. Both of them are con-
cerned only with me, me, me. We must turn away
from them, otherwise we cannot experience complete
victory over our sinfulness. It is said that in the time
of the early church, the demons cried out, “Who is
he that robs us of our power?” The believers answered
with the exultant shout of victory, “Christ, the cruci-
fied!”* That should be our proclamation.

* Eberhard Arnold, ed., The Early Christians (Rifton, NY: Plough, 1970),
p. 8.
Jn. 13:34
            Love one another” is one of the most important com-
            mandments of Jesus, and we cannot take it seriously
            enough. There are other commandments that we must
            obey too: we should not love money; we should not
            commit adultery; we should not defile the flesh; and
            there are many other sins we must avoid. Yet Christ’s
            greatest command is love. And therefore I think love-
            lessness is the greatest sin.

            God will judge all forms of lovelessness, but especially
            contempt – the act of making someone believe he is a
Mt. 5:22    fool. Christ says, “Anyone who nurses anger against
            his brother must be brought to judgment . . . and if he
            sneers at him, he will have to answer for it in the fires
            of hell.” Who has never been angry with his brother, or
            never sneered at him? Who has never spoken degrad-
            ingly of another? Christ challenges us to live in perfect

            From a letter: I feel guilty of being too harsh and even
            angry at times with my brothers and sisters. We must
            learn from Jesus how to be kind and gentle. On the
            other hand, we must never be wishy-washy; our com-
            passion must always be mixed with the salt of Christ.

            The idea that we are “in the world” but not “of the
            world” cannot be understood by the intellect alone.
                Certainly, we will remain in the world as long as we
                live. But we are not to be “of it.” Some people say
                dancing is “of the world” or “of the flesh.” Others say
                it is worldly to wear short dresses. Still others say that
Jn. 17:15-16    alcohol is worldly, or that certain music or certain cars
                are. There are many so-called worldly things. If we
                are living in the Holy Spirit, we will feel in our hearts
                those things of the world which we must give up. May
                we not desire what is of the flesh; but may we be saved
                from making rules and regulations to prevent worldli-
                ness! May God show us what is of the Holy Spirit and
                what is of the spirit of the world.

                If we had only the Law, we could still hate someone
                even if we didn’t kill him; we could still think evil
                thoughts of someone without shedding blood. But
                that is not enough. As Paul rightly says, the Law can
                never change our hearts. It is Jesus who must live in
                us. Through him we can love our enemy, and through
                him we can fill our hearts with thoughts of God.

                From a letter: You need to become absolutely deter-
Rom. 7:22-25    mined to follow Jesus. It is not true that you are too
                weak to overcome sin – that is a lie of the devil. In Jesus
                it is possible to overcome sin. That is why he died on
                the cross. Live totally for him.

Mt. 5:6-8      “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for justice,
                blessed are those who are merciful, blessed are those
             who are pure in heart.” To be pure in heart is perhaps
             the hardest. It is easier to hunger and thirst for righ-
             teousness or to be compassionate or merciful. We our-
             selves cannot make our hearts pure.
                Only children have pure hearts, and therefore Jesus
             says that we must become like children. Yet we know
             that even if we strive to become like children, things
             that are not of God – impurity, envy, and vanity –
             enter our hearts continually, and so we need to be
             purified again and again by Christ.

Confession   From a letter: I have deep understanding for anyone
             who feels oppressed and burdened by sins of the past
             and has a longing to confess them. But confession
             itself is no help. People pay a lot of money to tell
             psychiatrists all their sufferings and sins, and these
             psychiatrists help them to find ways of quietening their
             consciences. But psychiatry alone does not bring true
                 You say you have confessed your sins but not found
             freedom. You will find it only when you confess your
             sins in faith: faith in God and in the cross of Jesus
             Christ, who died for the world’s sins. All other confes-
             sion consists of simply unloading your burdens onto
             another person, and later the burden will just come
             back. Peace is found only by those for whom confes-
             sion of sins is bound together with a living faith. I wish
             you this faith.
            With regard to confession: every conscious sin should
            be confessed, but this does not mean digging in the
            subconscious for every little thing. Where God tells
            us through our conscience that something is wrong,
            we should confess it and clear it up so that it can be
            forgiven. But confession should not make us self-cen-
            tered; we want to find Jesus, not ourselves.

            From a letter: You ask which evil thoughts one ought
            to confess. Every human being has thoughts come to
Mt. 16:23   him to which he must say, “Get behind me, Satan!” If
            you meet evil thoughts with this attitude you do not
            need to confess them, though you should forget them
            as soon as possible. Even if you have to fight against
            an evil thought for some moments before you reject
            it, you do not necessarily have to confess it. But if you
            give in to an evil thought and let it become part of
            you, you should confess it. I would advise you not to
            occupy yourself too long with your thoughts.

            From a letter: I uphold the sanctity of private confes-
            sion in the fear of God, and I do not think it right
            if people who unburden their sins are then labelled
            because of them. However, in keeping the secrecy of
            confession, there is a point at which I would be sin-
            ning if I kept what I heard to myself. When a member
                  of the church has committed a serious sin such as for-
                  nication or adultery – or even murder (which has never
                  yet happened to us) – I would feel I was betraying God
                  if I kept quiet about it.

                  The Bible says we must fight against the flesh, and
Spiritual Pride
                  people usually understand this to mean our sexuality,
                  or perhaps excessive food and drink. But that is not
                  the only meaning of the word “flesh.” Certainly, sexual
                  impurity and a luxurious lifestyle are “of the flesh,” but
                  so is the ego, and so is spiritual pride and everything
                  else in us that is not of Christ.
                     We must ask God that the flesh in us – particularly
                  our pride – may die. If we are proud, God cannot come
                  to us. Pride is the worst form of the flesh, because it
                  leaves no room in the heart for God.

                  Jesus warns us very sharply against false piety – against
                  wanting to be seen by others as “spiritual” or “good.”
                  All who want such recognition will find no reward in
                  heaven. In being honored by others they have their
                  reward already now. The same applies to people who
                  do deeds of love and make a show of it. Christ says
Mt. 6:3           that the left hand should not know what the right
                  hand does.
              We all have within us the desire to be liked, respected,
              or honored for our goodness. But Jesus warns us
              against this temptation and says that our piety should
              not be paraded before men. God sees what is hidden,
              and he will reward it.

              As soon as we feel that we are something special or
              that we have something special to represent to others,
              we are in danger of losing everything we have received
              from God. No matter what we have experienced of
              God, we ourselves are still spiritually poor. There is a
              religious truth in Jesus’ words, “Woe to the rich; woe
Lk. 6:24-25   to those who have much.” As soon as we hold to our
              own recognitions of truth instead of to the living God,
              our religious experience will become like a cold stone
              in our hands. Even the deepest or richest spiritual ex-
              perience will die if it becomes a thing in itself.

              From a letter: Dear brother, you have been proud of
              your work; you have thought little of your brothers
              and sisters, and you have lived in false humility, which
              is the deadliest form of spiritual pride. There is no
              question that you are gifted, that you are strong, that
              you are smart, and that you can get a lot done, but
              that is not the issue. We do not live together on ac-
              count of these gifts. They are all mortal and will pass
               away. What lasts forever is humility and love – love,
Mt. 5-7        the incorruptible “treasure in heaven” of which Jesus
               speaks in the Sermon on the Mount.

Mt. 11:18-19   When John the Baptist did not eat, the people
               despised him, and when Jesus ate and drank, they
               despised him too. Looking at one’s brothers and sisters
               as if through a microscope to find something to criti-
               cize can bring complete destruction to a community.
               Let us not expect of others what we do not expect of

               From a letter: Dear sister, turn away from your
               opinionatedness and your need to be in the right. How
               different things would be if you had a humble, listen-
               ing ear. When we speak, let us be open to the heart of
               the other. Let us share with one another and listen to
               one another. Ultimately we have to see that we are all
               stumbling blocks. Only God is good.

               From a letter: Your way of judging people to be either
               great or insignificant, weak or strong, is completely
               unchristian. Do you think the apostles were strong?
               They were poor in spirit. Peter was without doubt a
               coward when he denied Jesus three times, and his story
               has been told through all the centuries. He was not
               ashamed that his betrayal was recorded in each of the
             Gospels, even though he repented for it his whole life
             long. You want to be great; you want to be strong, but
             by it you do an injustice to your brothers and sisters.
                 When Jesus comes close to people, he looks at what
             is in their hearts. He has compassion with the sinner.
             But he never calls sin good; he judges it. You must
             cleanse your heart of all critical thoughts, all jealousy,
             and all hatred, and you must stop classifying people.
             I think of you with great love.

             From a letter: Do not fear that you can never be freed
             from pride and envy. You can be freed. But first you
             must see how much greater Jesus is than all your sins,
             and then he can take them away. Ask yourself, “What
             is there still in me that hinders Jesus from overwhelm-
             ing me fully?” For Jesus to fill your heart, it must
             first be empty. Read the Beatitudes: they begin with
Mt. 5:3-12   “Blessed are the poor in spirit.” That means becoming
             completely empty and powerless before Jesus.

             From a letter: The more deeply you recognize that
             your pride cuts you off from God, the deeper the peace
             you will find. The pride you have in your wealth of
             knowledge is your greatest enemy. If only you would
             recognize how poor and miserable you actually are,
             dear brother, and how wretched you are in your sin! I
             wish you true repentance.
               From a letter: I cannot say it strongly enough: your
               spiritual pride – your listening to God’s Word in order
               to be exalted, instead of to be judged and given new
               life – is completely opposed to the way of Jesus. Give
               up your religious vanity. It leads to death.

               From a letter: I believe that your bondage to sin has its
               roots in a terrible self-righteousness and pride. When
               you see little wrongs in others you feel spiritually great.
               It should be the other way around. As Christians we
               should be lowly and remember that whoever is for-
cf. Lk. 7:47
               given much loves much. Pride is a poisonous root that
               draws love to itself and away from Jesus and our broth-
               ers. If we are humble, the root will die, because it will
               find no food and water in our hearts.

               In Paul’s time some believers proclaimed Christ out
Phil. 1:15     of jealousy and a quarrelsome spirit, not out of good-
               will. This was terrible, and it came about because they
               wanted human honor. Let us become humble and
               recognize that all human honor takes honor away from
               God, to whom alone it belongs. Let us honor no one
               but God, and let us never accept honor for ourselves.
                  What matters is that God works in us, inspiring
               both our will and deed. For him to do this we must
               give ourselves to him and give up all self-glory and
Self   Those whose thoughts turn only around themselves
       forget that Christianity has an objective content.
       Christianity is a cause for which a person must com-
       pletely forget himself and his little ego.
          When we put ourselves in the center we make God
       out to be very small. It is important to recognize that
       he exists even without us. His cause is so very much
       greater than our existence. It is wonderful if we are
       used for God’s cause, but it would exist even if we were
       not there.

       The best way to experience nothing is to keep looking
       into yourself. But the more you are able to look out-
       ward and forget yourself, the more you can be changed
       by God. There are some people (and I have great pity
       on them) who are inclined to watch themselves con-
       stantly, as if in a mirror, and because of this they are
       often unnecessarily tense and cannot hear what God is
       saying to them.

       We cannot redeem ourselves or better ourselves in
       our own strength. All we can do is to give ourselves
       completely to God. When we give ourselves to him
       without reserve, he helps us. That is our faith, our be-
       lief, and our experience. Self-redemption is out of the
       question, and here we must recognize the limitations
              of psychology and psychiatry. We do not reject them
              completely, but they are limited. God is far greater.

              From a letter: If you look at yourself honestly you will
              see pride, impurity, selfishness, and all kinds of evil.
              Don’t look at yourself. Look to Christ. There you will
              find a perfect character.

              From a letter: Turn away from yourself, the fear of
              your sin, and your fear of having possibly sinned.
              Open yourself to God and his church. He is not so
              unmerciful that you need to live in constant fear.
                 You are inclined to analyze and judge yourself in a
              way that does not free you. There is a sense in which
              judging yourself can make you free: Paul says that he
1Cor. 11:31   who judges himself will not be judged. But there is
              a certain self-judgment which brings terrible depres-
              sion and leads away from God. The difference lies
              in whether or not you have a childlike faith in Jesus
              Christ, who wants to free us from all sin. Judge your-
              self in this faith and there will be a blessing on it. The
              way you are judging yourself now could make you
              mentally ill and even lead to complete disaster.
                 It may be that you have a strong inclination to this
              or that sin, but this tendency is there to some extent in
              every person – and every person has to die to it. Every-
             thing depends on believing that Christ died for your
             sins. Read Hebrews 5:7–9 with a childlike heart:

Heb. 5:7-9         In the days of Christ’s earthly life he offered up
                   prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to
                   God, who was able to deliver him from the grave.
                   Because of his humble submission, his prayer was
                   heard: Son though he was, he learned obedience
                   in the school of suffering, and, once perfected,
                   became the source of eternal salvation for all who
                   obey him.

             If you really believe this, you can find healing.

             From a letter: If we think of how much Jesus does for
             us each day, it should keep us faithfully seeking him
             again and again. You feel you have nothing to give
             Jesus in return. But even if you have to recognize your
             selfishness and your lack of love, I do not think your
             depression is right. The early Christians said that there
             is a sorrow that leads to God and a sorrow that leads to
             the devil. If you think deeply about these words, you
             will turn from all depression that hinders love.

             From a letter: Please give up your wanting to be loved.
             It is the opposite of Christianity. The prayer of St.
             Francis says, “Grant that I may not so much seek to be
loved as to love.” As long as you seek to be loved, you
will never find peace. You will always find reasons for
envy, but its real root is self-love. It is your wanting to
be loved that is your downfall. You can change; there is
no reason for despair. But you must learn to love your
neighbor as yourself.
Mt. 5:8       From a letter: Jesus says, “Blessed are the pure of
              heart.” This is the only answer to your question about
              relationships between young men and women. The
              fight against the Tempter goes on everywhere. Jesus
Mt. 5:27-29   says we should rather pluck out an eye than look lust-
              fully at a woman. Only this attitude can give us a pure
              heart. We cannot make our hearts pure with our own
              efforts, but we can take this attitude, and then God
              will help us to victory.

              Purity of heart comes as a gift from God, and the
              church must fight to protect it. We oppose lust just
              as much as we oppose private property and the spirit
              of murder. Purity is God’s will, and every wedding in
              the church must be a testimony to it, as also the life of
              every member. Purity is a blessing. Whether it is given
              in a marriage or to a single person, a great grace lies
              on a pure life.

              We must not underestimate the armies of impure
              spirits that drive man to evil. When we play with
impurity, we put ourselves under the dominion of
demons, and our sexuality – which is meant to be a
wonderful experience of God – becomes a terrible and
life-destroying experience. This is true not only in
prostitution, but also when a person satisfies himself
through committing impure acts on his own body. A
man should not think he can indulge in masturba-
tion without suffering harm from it; he hurts God
and himself in doing so. He allows evil spirits to dwell
within him – devils of whose cruel character he has no
inkling – and an atmosphere of evil will come from

The blatant impurity shown on television and in
magazines and movies is a publicly committed crime,
and we must protest it. It ruins the souls of children
and young people. Everything has become permissi-
ble – one thinks, for instance, of how homosexual acts
have been legalized – and it has done terrific harm to
the purity of the young. Something in the conscience
of man has been killed.
    In the end, lust leads to murder – just think of the
limitless numbers of abortions that have taken place
since it became legal. And think of the mental agony
that young girls and women suffer who are guilty of
killing the child in their womb. The number of mental
breakdowns that result from this are incalculable. Jesus
is the only answer to all this, and we must unitedly
testify to his way in a world that has grown very dark.
When a person gratifies sexual impulses on his own
body, he harms his soul, which is made in God’s im-
age. It is desecration to employ something destined for
a sublime end in a manner contrary to that destiny. In
the same way that royalty would be debased by being
enslaved, so man debases his noble destiny as an image
of God when he abuses his own body sexually.

From a letter: Dear brother, it is not necessary for your
whole life to be cramped up in a struggle for personal
purity. But you must give up all secret attraction to
impurity. That is where your inner cramping comes
from. Jesus can free you completely of this. If you
know you are utterly dependent on him, then there is
hope for you.

From a letter: Dear sister, it seems to me that there is
an atmosphere of eroticism around you, and I want
to warn you about this. There is nothing surprising
about the fact that the powers of eroticism and sex are
problems any person has to face, and you are no differ-
ent from anyone else. But I plead with you to value the
gift of purity – the light of absolute chastity and virgin-
ity. Do not let the smallest shadow of an overly casual
relationship with boys or men come into your life, also
not in the way you dress or the way you walk. Please
take this advice as from someone who loves you.
From a letter: Dear brother, you say you have not
resisted evil, especially in the area of sex. It is of great
importance that you take a stand for Jesus’ sake. I
know it is often hard to do, especially at college. But
as the times become more and more corrupt, it will be
necessary to have a strong character and say “No” to
things which the general public approves of. I wish you
the courage to do this.

From a letter: You must seek a pure heart. Then you
will stop sinning when impure images or your imagi-
nation or anything else tempts you.
    You recognize that you must break away from these
things, but you also acknowledge that you were play-
ing around with them. That is sinful. Apathy and
indifference will only weaken your stand against temp-
tation. In the end it boils down to whether or not your
life is founded on Jesus. You will find a pure heart only
in him.
              Why is it so hard to believe Christ and trust him
              completely? Christ wants to give us his life and spirit,
              and if we look to him for only a moment, our hearts
              tell us: Here is one we can trust. Yet each of us knows
              feelings of fear and anxiety. Something in us seeks
              Christ, and at the same time something in us wants to
              serve self and is unwilling to surrender to him com-
              pletely. But that is what we must do, for the Gospel
Jn. 14:1      says “trust and believe.” It is not enough to give Christ
              what is good in us, or to give him our sins, or to bring
              him our burdens. He wants our entire selves. If we do
              not give ourselves to him completely – if we hold on to
              our reservations – we will never find the full inner free-
              dom and peace promised in the Gospel. We must give
              Christ our innermost being.
                  Often the power of darkness puts fear into our
              hearts and keeps us from full dedication to God. When
              Jesus said in the synagogue, “Unless you eat my flesh
Jn. 6:53      and drink my blood, you can have no life,” even his
              followers found these words hard to accept, and many
              of them left him. But when Jesus asked the Twelve,
Jn. 6:67-69   “Will you also leave me?” Peter responded, “Lord, to
              whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.
              We have faith, and we know that you are the holy One
of God.” Such faith must live in us too –
in our hearts, our souls, and our whole being. It must
become a reality in us again and again: not a religious
system, not a theory, but the knowledge that we can
trust Jesus completely and give him everything – our
whole lives – for all eternity. It is not necessary for us to
understand everything intellectually. It is much more
important to experience trust and faith in our hearts
and being.
   Apart from Jesus we will find no peace. Where he is,
there is God. He is there even for those who leave him,
as did many people in his time who found his words
too difficult to accept. Therefore we pray for ourselves
and for them, “Lord, help us. Come into this world.
We need thee, thy flesh, thy spirit, thy death and life,
and thy message for the whole creation.”

We should fear neither our enemies nor the slander
and persecution that may come to us. We should trust
in Jesus. He was also slandered and persecuted. We do
not want anything better. If we turn in complete trust
and love to Jesus, I feel absolutely sure that we will be
kept under the loving protection of God.

We must believe and trust that Jesus is the answer to
all our perplexities, problems, and anxieties. I have not
always trusted Jesus enough, but I recognize my lack of
trust as sin. Life is not without perplexities or anxiet-
ies. Yet we know where to turn. It is very simple: if you
           don’t understand something, trust Jesus. This is not
           always easy; sometimes it costs an inner fight to do so
Jn. 14:1   wholeheartedly. But Jesus says, “Trust in God and trust
           also in me.” That is the only answer.

           From a letter: I would advise you not to puzzle too
           much about difficult questions of faith, such as why
           God might use a man whom he loves as a tool of his
           wrath. We do not know enough about God’s love. The
           only answer to such questions is complete, uncondi-
           tional trust.

           From a letter: Even when we are in inner need we
           must forget ourselves and give ourselves in daily service
           to those around us. Then God will help us. It is not
           necessarily good for us to keep on talking about our
           problems or to share our difficulties again and again.
           God knows what we need before we ask him. Trust in
           him like a child. Then he will help you.

           If we feel tempted to lose trust in each other because
           of struggles we have gone through, or for any other
           reason, we must find inner quiet. We must have an
           attitude of trusting dedication to Jesus that says, “not
           my will, but Thy will” and makes us absolutely quiet
           inwardly. Without this strengthening trust, I person-
           ally could not go through one day. The Bruderhof will
            pass away; we will all pass away; ultimately, Jesus alone
            will be victor.

            From a letter: I know from mothers of little children
            that they are sometimes afraid of the terrible things
            that may happen to their children in today’s world.
            I can put myself in their shoes very well. My first
            children were born during the bombing of England
            in World War II, when bombers passed over us every
            night. Twice bombs dropped nearby – one on our
            land, and one in the next village. But greater than our
            fear of bombs was our fear that Hitler would conquer
            England. For us adults that would have meant death,
            and it brought unspeakable inner need to me when I
            thought about what would happen to our children.
               We are not living in fear of bombers now, but our
            time is one of great suffering and death. It is entirely
            possible that many of us – including parents of little
            children – may one day have to suffer and die for our
            faith. I beg you – from the depths of my heart – to trust
            God completely. There are many frightening passages
            in the Bible, especially in the Revelation of John. But
            even there it says that God himself will wipe away the
            tears of all those who have suffered. We must really
Rev. 21:4   believe that Jesus came not to bring judgment but to
            bring salvation:

                 God loved the world so much that he gave his
                 only Son, that everyone who has faith in him
                 may not die but have eternal life. It was not to
J. 3:16-17        judge the world that God sent his Son into the
                  world, but that through him the world might be

             Here we see the indescribable longing of God to save
             humankind. At the end we shall be one with God. We
             must believe this, for our children too, even if we have
             to suffer for Jesus’ sake.

             Like sunshine over a valley, God’s great love spreads
             out over the whole earth. It is true that there are ter-
             rible things in the world, such as war; and wars will
             come, but God is greater. He is much greater than
             man, and his love is much greater than man’s. Do not
             live in fear. Look down across the valley and toward
             the mountains, and think of the great God who cre-
             ated all things, and who has you in his hand.
                If we live according to Jesus and his teachings, we
             have no reason to be afraid. Let us be faithful to him
             and to God and leave all fear behind.

             Learn to trust Jesus always, even when you cannot
             understand something. Situations will often arise in
             life without your understanding why. The only
             answer is to trust Jesus.
                 You will go through very hard times, but never for-
             get that the final victory is God’s. Always believe this.
Rev. 21:1    Heaven and earth shall pass away, but a new heaven
             and a new earth are coming.
              We should fear God, and we should fear hurting
              or offending anything created, but we should not be
              afraid of God. The Bible speaks of the fear of God,
              but there is a different fear that leads away from God
              and makes love grow cold. Woe to us if we confuse the
              right fear with the wrong. Our fear should be born of
              love and reverence.
                 When Peter recognized Jesus as the Son of God he
Lk. 5:8       said, “Depart from me; I am a sinful man.” He was
              afraid to be confronted with the purity of Jesus. Such
              fear is right. But fear that takes away trust and con-
              fidence or destroys one’s childlikeness is wrong. We
              must fear God in the right way.

1Jn. 4:18     From a letter: John writes that he who has fear is
              not perfect in love. This has given me much food for
              thought, because several of the parables of Jesus, like
Mt. 25:1-13
              that of the ten virgins, could make one fearful. The
              Book of Revelation, too, can be frightening. And Jesus
Mt. 10:28
              says that even though we should not fear men who can
              kill the body, we should fear him who can destroy both
              soul and body in hell. So there is a fear of God that is
              right and good. Ultimately, if we are in God we will
              fear nothing but God. That is the perfect state for a

              We have always been reserved in using the name of
              God, not only because our own inner feeling makes
              us cautious but because the Ten Commandments say:
Ex. 20:7      “You shall not use the name of the Lord your God in
              vain.” It is important for parents to teach their chil-
              dren to respect God so that misusing his name will not
              even come into question for them.

              People are so terribly inclined to forget God and his
              deeds of love. That is the worst thing that can happen
              to humankind. When no one is interested in God any
              longer – when no one wants to know about him or tes-
              tify to him – it is even worse than being hostile toward
              him, because hostility at least shows an interest.
Lk. 2:25-39       We should be stimulated by the story of Simeon
              and Anna, who expected the Messiah on behalf of
              the whole people of Israel. It does not matter if there
              are only two – for even then the earth has not entirely
              forgotten God. We should be eager to testify to him,
              to love him, and to expect his coming.
               Despite the circumstances of our time we must be
               open and free to live for God’s will for the future – for
               brotherly community and the kingdom of God. We
               must be ready and willing to give up our resistance to
               God; then he will work in us through his Holy Spirit.
                  God is always ready, always there. It is we who are
               not ready for his cause. If we would only yield to God’s
               authority, to the way of Jesus, and to the power of the
               Spirit, then the flame which gives light to the whole
               world could be kindled.
                  We know Jesus’ commands: “Leave everything you
Mt. 19:21      have, and come follow me! Sell all your possessions.”
Mt. 8:22       “Do not wait to bury your father.” “Leave your fishing
Mt. 4:19       boat and your tools and come with me!”
                  The disciples, too, knew Jesus’ commands. They
               also knew that every man – each in his own way – is
               “rich” enough to resist them by holding on even to
Lk. 4:20       the little he has; to tell Jesus, “I cannot come.” That is
               why they asked, horrified, “Then how can anyone be
               saved?” Jesus answered, “It is impossible for men. But
Mt. 19:25-26   with God all things are possible.”
                  If we open ourselves to God’s working and give up
               our self-will, he is always ready to give us faith and
God wants us to ask him for help. It is not that he
cannot or does not want to act without our asking, but
he waits for us to open our hearts and lives so that he
and only he can act.
   Many people ponder why God is like this, why he
doesn’t force his will on men. But that is how God is.
He waits for our readiness. It is true that he punishes
individuals and nations to call them to repentance,
but he never forces his goodness on them. If a parent
were to take his child by the throat and force his good
intentions on him, the child would instinctively feel
that this was not love. For the same reason, God does
not force his will on anyone. So we are confronted by
a momentous question: Are we willing to surrender
ourselves to God voluntarily? Are we willing to open
the windows of our hearts so that God in his goodness
can enter and take over?

We have to give ourselves wholeheartedly to God, and
if we fail, we must give ourselves again. We all need
daily forgiveness for our sins and failures. But what
matters is whether we want to be faithful – faithful to
the end of our lives. This means surrendering every-
thing – our self-will, our hopes for personal happiness,
our private property, even our weaknesses – and believ-
ing in God and in Christ. That is all that is asked of
anyone. Jesus does not expect perfection, but he wants
us to give ourselves wholeheartedly.
From a letter: What is true and unconditional sur-
render? A person may yield to a stronger person, or
an army to a stronger army. One may yield to God
because he is almighty, or because one fears his judg-
ment. None of this is full surrender. Only if one expe-
riences that God is good – and that he alone is good – is
it possible to surrender to him unconditionally one’s
whole heart, soul, and being.
    When a person has surrendered to God with heart
and soul, he will then seek others in whom the same
love is clearly expressed and surrender to them also.
But he can commit himself to others only if his first
commitment is to God.

From a letter: If we ever found a group – even if it
were a much smaller group than ours – where the love
of Jesus was expressed more fully and clearly than it
is among us, I hope and believe that we would want
to join them, even if it meant losing our Bruderhof

From a letter: God must lead us to the point where
we recognize how wretched and weak we are – yes, how
poor in spirit and completely helpless. Whoever feels
even the least bit strong must have his weakness re-
vealed to him. When God shows us how wretched and
poor we actually are, we feel completely helpless before
him. But then he helps us with his grace and strength-
             ens us with his unending love. We are absolutely de-
             pendent on God, on Christ, and on the Holy Spirit.
             There is no other help.

             Surrendering to the will of Jesus means becoming one
             with him and with one another. Jesus fought so hard
             to surrender his will to the Father’s that he sweated
             drops of blood. Evil powers surrounded him and tried
             to cause his downfall, but he remained faithful: his at-
 Lk. 22:42   titude was “Thy will, not my will.” This should be our
             attitude, too, in all questions, even if we are persecuted
             for our faith. Whatever happens, imprisonment or
             even death, we should say, “Thy will, not my will.”

Submission   Christ says, “You did not choose me; I chose you. I
Jn. 15:16    appointed you and put you in your place; you shall
             go and bear fruit, fruit that shall last.” This is so very
             important: “I put you in your place.”* How often a
             person causes terrible harm when he is not satisfied
             with his place in life. Such dissatisfaction leads to ha-
             tred. We should love one another and accept the place
             God has given each of us.

Mt. 21:1-7   When Jesus sent two disciples to fetch a donkey’s colt
             on Palm Sunday, they had no other task in the whole

             * This phrase, although omitted in most English versions of the Bible, is
             in several German ones. See Albrecht, Das Neue Testament (Giessen, 1972,
             10th ed.).
                world more important than fetching it. If someone
                had said to them, “You are called to greater things;
                anyone can fetch a donkey,” and they had not done it,
                they would have been disobedient. But there was noth-
                ing greater for them at that moment than to fetch the
                donkey for Christ. For myself and for each individual
                I wish that we might do every task, great or small, in
                this obedience. There is nothing greater than obedi-
                ence to Christ.

Humility        Jesus calls each of us to be humble. If a person seeks
                human greatness, Christian community is not the
                place for him. Any one of us might be tempted by
                ambition, but we must take an attitude against such

                From a letter: It is good to be weak. Our human weak-
                ness is no hindrance to the kingdom of God, as long
                as we do not use it as an excuse for our sins. Read 2
2 Cor. 12:7-9   Corinthians 12:7–9, where Paul writes that the Lord
                will show himself in the most glorious way through
                our weakness. Certainly this is not the most important
                passage for the church as a whole, but it is perhaps the
                most important passage in the Gospel as regards per-
                sonal discipleship.

                From a letter: In reading the Gospel of Mark, I have
                been struck by how Jesus emphasizes our need for hu-
             mility. He did not come to be served but “to serve and
Mk. 10:45    to give his life as a ransom for many.” This must be
             our way too, even though we know we fall very short
             of fulfilling it.

Mt. 5:3-12   The Beatitudes do not call for great saints who shine
             in the world, but for lowly people.

             From a letter: If you know you are sometimes critical
             and lack humility, then seek humility. Humility is a
             virtue that one can decide for. It softens the heart and
             makes a person open for God. Criticism is not neces-
             sarily wrong; it can be positive. But it can also be very

             We should not think too much about our small hearts
             or our weak characters. No one is pure and good ex-
             cept Jesus. His is the only really healthy character, and
             in his unending mercy, he can purify our hearts for his
             purpose. Let us give ourselves to him so he can lead
             us and use us as he will. Let us turn our back on the
Gen. 4:5     temptation of Cain, who envied his brother’s closeness
             to God. Let us be joyful in simply belonging to Jesus,
             and willing to let him place us where we can bear the
             most fruit to the glory of God.
            From a letter: If we accept the weakness and small-
            ness of our lives in a way that leads us to humility
            before God, we will recognize that our only help lies
            in complete surrender to him and dependence on him.
            It might be a very painful recognition, but the victory
            will be life!

Phil. 2:3
            Paul says, “There must be no room for rivalry and
            personal vanity among you.” He does not only mean
            the vanity of wanting to look beautiful – which is also
            unchristian – but the religious vanity of people who
            want to shine among men and be honored by them.
            There should be no room for such vanity among us.
            He continues, “You must humbly reckon others bet-
            ter than yourselves.” That is the opposite of wanting
            to outshine one’s brother or sister. If we want to fol-
            low Jesus, how can we want to make ourselves great or
Phil. 2:8   important? Jesus “humbled himself, and in obedience
            accepted even death – death on a cross.”
          How important it is that our life is genuine and
          remains genuine, and that we do no more – but also
          not the least bit less – than God requires of us at any
          moment! There is a danger of coming to an intellec-
          tual recognition of the truth and then living a life that
          conforms to it, when the truth is not yet actually given
          by God into our hearts and souls.

          Let us never use religious words when we do not mean
          them. If we speak admiringly about discipleship but
          resist its demands at the same time, it will harm our
          soul and our inner life. Let us be reserved with reli-
          gious terms and expressions of faith. Using them with-
          out meaning them will destroy us – and our hypocrisy
          will be especially disastrous for our children.
Mt. 6:5      Jesus warns us sharply against trying to appear de-
          vout in other people’s eyes. Let us be genuine and say
          what we truly think, even if we are off the mark, rather
          than use the right words without meaning them.

          From a letter:   According to old Jewish tradition, the
high priest uses the name Jehovah only once a year –
on the Day of Atonement – and then only in the Holy
of Holies in the Temple. For us, such reverence in the
use of religious words is an important form of inner
chastity. We are very cautious in using God’s name.

From a letter: It is important to be straightforward and
honest about your true feelings. Rather be too rude
than too smooth, too blunt than too kind. Rather say
an unkind word that is true than one that is “nice” but
untrue. You can always be sorry for an unkind word,
but hypocrisy causes permanent harm unless special
grace is given.

The Youth Movement, in which our Bruderhof move-
ment has its roots, was marked by a search for what
was genuine, and there was something of Jesus alive in
it.* The first question people asked was not whether a
thing was right, good, or true, but whether it was gen-
uine. They preferred to have someone innocently say
something incorrect or awkward than to have to listen
to insincere religious speeches. They rejected parrotlike
religion; they struggled to find the truth.
    From deep within people’s hearts there arose a new

* The German Youth Movement, or Jugendbewegung, a widespread
phenomenon of loosely organized youth groups, was active mainly from
1913-1933 and rejected the established conventions of society in favor of
simplicity, freedom, genuineness, and a love of nature. Eberhard Arnold,
who founded the Bruderhof in 1920, was a nationally-known writer,
speaker, and leader in this movement.
               approach to life, a new feeling for life that expressed
               itself in many ways. This inward urge led to fellowship
               in hiking, singing, and folk dancing, and even in com-
               munal settlements. A gathering around a blazing fire
               became a deeply-felt inner experience, and the rhyth-
               mic movement of a circle dance brought to expression
               something from the depths of the heart. There was an
               effort to give shape only to what was truly genuine,
               and it meant rejecting all human pretense, including
               fashion. The inner experience was all-important, and it
               found vivid expression in every area of life.

               From a letter: It is not the obvious sinner who stands
               in the way of God. God’s greatest enemies are those
               who receive and accept Christ’s call to discipleship but
               then – despite their use of religious language – continue
               to serve Satan at the same time.
                   Most of Jesus’ parables deal with such people, not
               with people of the world. The ten virgins in Matthew
Mt. 25         25 all go out to seek the Bridegroom, but five of them
               fall asleep; and in Matthew 24:48–49 the servant is
Mt. 24:48-49   appointed by his master but becomes unfaithful, and
               so on. That is what hinders God’s kingdom the most:
               when those who have heard his call and answered it go
               on to serve Satan while still using Christian words.

               If we stay close to Jesus, we will find genuineness in its
               clearest form. How sharply he speaks against the piety
               that tries to cleanse from the outside! How clearly he
Mt. 23:26-28   tells us that the inside must first be cleansed!
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may
strengthen you with power through his spirit in your
inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts
through faith. And I pray that being rooted and es-
tablished in love you may have power, together with
all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high
and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love
that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to
the measure of all the fullness of God.

                                           Eph 3:16-19
The Church
The Church
    The Church ....................................................... 89
    Community ....................................................... 96
    Leadership .........................................................106
    Gifts .................................................................. 114
    Forgiveness ........................................................ 121
    Unity ................................................................. 128
    Church Discipline.............................................. 134
    Baptism.............................................................. 141
    The Lord’s Supper..............................................147
    Love and Marriage ............................................. 151
    Family Life.........................................................169
    Illness and Death ............................................... 188
    Evil and Darkness .............................................. 197
    The Fight........................................................... 205
    World Suffering ................................................. 217
    Mission .............................................................. 226
The Church
We know humankind is tormented and divided. Part
of this torment is loneliness, which can be overcome
only by experiencing the living church. This church
cannot be identified with a specific group or organiza-
tion, but it does exist; it lives and comes down to hum-
ble, seeking people. The fact that the church exists is
the most important reality on earth. When God speaks
in the innermost chamber of our hearts, our sinful
separation and loneliness are overcome; we experience
inner community with our brothers and sisters.

We cannot say that the church is here or there. The
church comes down from heaven to those who are
spiritually poor. It comes to those who give up all
things for Christ’s sake, including their own ideas and
rights. This can happen anywhere, and when it does it
always brings people together in unity.
    According to the early Christians, the church ex-
isted even before creation. It exists in the Holy Spirit.
Christ sends the church wherever two or three meet
together in his name – and wherever they give up all
rights, power, property, and self for him.
   When we are asked whether we are the church, we
have to say, “No, we are not the church.” But when
we are asked whether the church comes to us, we have
to testify that it does, especially if we are broken and
poor before God. The poorer a group is spiritually, the
closer the church can come to it. Our own ideas, espe-
cially the idea of having influence or power over other
people, must be given up completely. We must become
poor as beggars before God.

If we speak of the true church, we certainly do not
mean the Bruderhof. We simply mean all those who
live their lives in full unity with Christ. Only the fruits
can show where this is.

In the writings of the early Christians, for instance
in Hermas’ The Shepherd, we find again and again
the thought that the church existed before anything
was created.* It is a deep and remarkable thought – a
complete contrast to the idea of a little congregation
or even a gathering of millions of people calling them-
selves the church.
   When we speak of the Bruderhof movement as a
church, we certainly do not mean to imply that this is
the church. The church is something far greater. It goes
back to the beginning of all things, before the creation

* Eberhard Arnold, ed., The Early Christians (Rifton, NY: Plough, 1970),
p. 278 ff.
of the world. But we long that it is at work today, also
among us.
    The 16th century Anabaptist Peter Riedemann
compares the gathering of believers in the church to
a lantern. A lantern is of no use unless there is a light
in it. The same is true for the church. It may hold all
goods in common, with no private property; it may
have love, complete dedication, and true community.
But that does not guarantee it is alive. The church is a
gift from God. It comes to the spiritually poor, and it
is united and enlivened by the Holy Spirit.

From a letter: In this hour of world need and world
despair there is nothing more important than a life
of brotherhood, a life of unity and love. It may be so
small in comparison to the whole of world need that it
is almost invisible, but it will have an effect.
    People today do not need long sermons or religious
words; they need to be shown deeds and a practical
way of discipleship. Our time needs the tangible dem-
onstration that God is stronger than all hate, all need,
all sin, and all disunity.
    God needs a people who devote their lives com-
pletely, without reservation, to his cause. They should
be people who do not consider their own salvation first
but who intercede in prayer for the needs of men and
hope and believe in the victory of God.
                 A true community cannot exist for a single day with-
                 out the gift of the Holy Spirit. Therefore, whether in
                 our being together, in our silence, or in our singing
                 together, we expect and await this gift which God has
                 offered us through the death of Jesus.
Acts 4:32           It is said that the early church was of one heart and
                 one soul. It may not have been a well-organized body,
                 but it was of one heart and one soul. Its members were
                 moved by the Spirit from above, and through this
                 movement it came about that they held everything
                 in common, and no one called anything his own. It
                 was not a matter of cold law – not organized commu-
                 nism – but a matter of moved hearts.

                 From a letter: It is not we who can build brother-
                 hood – not we who can found a church or change even
                 a single human being. We are all completely dependent
                 on the atmosphere or spirit of God ruling among us.
                 Yet at the same time we all have an influence on this
                 atmosphere, and so it is the responsibility of each of
                 us to see that no spirit opposed to God is allowed to
                 come into our lives.

                 If we are faithful to Jesus, we will also be faithful to
                 one another. We belong to one another. If someone
                 dedicates himself to Jesus, he will be united with other
1 Cor 12:12-27   believers, and they will become so united that they are
                 like one body. In the human body, if anything threat-
ens the eye, the arm will move quickly to protect it,
even if it is injured in doing so. This happens automat-
ically, as if out of love. It is the same among those who
dedicate themselves to Christ and to each other. Each
should be willing to suffer for the other – the stronger
one for the weaker.

From a letter: In Jesus and his spirit we all become
one, even one with the church in heaven, with the
apostles and martyrs, and with all those who have been
and are one with Jesus. But if our love shifts away from
Jesus, the Redeemer and Savior of the world, then even
our faith in the church becomes idolatry.

It is a paradox: we must separate ourselves from our
corrupt generation – and we cannot do that sharply
enough – but we must also unite with Christ, who died
for every individual of this same generation. What we
as a church need most is to find the crucified Christ,
the Lamb of God who died for the sins of the world. If
we are united with Christ, we will not be cold-hearted,
whether toward a girl who has had an abortion or to
anyone else who does any other evil; we will have com-
passionate hearts.

From a letter: The Bruderhof has certain characteris-
tics which arise partly from its European background
and other historical circumstances. The same is true
of the Church of the Brethren, the Quakers, or other
religious movements. I can well understand that people
feel a certain love and attachment to the culture and,
still more, the people of their background.
    But let us consider for a moment the “community
of believers,” the Body of Christ that has continued
through all the centuries. What is the Bruderhof, then,
with its culture? Whatever good there may be in it is
there only insofar as it is surrendered to and gripped by
this stream of life. The Bruderhof movement will pass
away as many movements have passed away, but the
stream of life of which it is a part can never pass away.
That is what matters.
    If we had made up our minds to be a Christian
community of German culture, serving only those
people with a background in the Youth Movement, we
would have been in danger of drying up even before
we began. We want to surrender our lives completely
and allow ourselves to be used wherever God moves
people’s hearts, to be open to whatever God gives us.
Otherwise we are in danger of limiting the truth.
    We are only a weak circle of human beings – often
all too human. But our task can never be limited. God
is limitless.

The older I get, the less important the Bruderhof is to
me. The main thing is that God’s praying church exists
on this earth. It is for this that we want to give our-
              selves, and for this that we want to live.
                  We need to feel a certain inner urgency; we cannot
              let life pass by without giving ourselves completely
              to the church. The church was with God before the
              world was created, and it is now with God in heaven as
              the “upper church,” the cloud of witnesses from every
              nation, tribe, and race. We cannot stand undecided
              before this holy reality.

              From a letter: Are we as a church so dedicated, so
              full of truth and salt, that we are able to influence the
              whole earth in the way that even a pinch of salt flavors
              a whole dish of food? It is not enough to live together
              in community, to love one another and make each
              other happy; to make jam for our neighbor, who then
              makes jam for her neighbor. More is demanded.
                 I believe that we are living in the end time. It is
              a crucial hour. Everything depends on whether our
Mt. 25:1-13   lamps are trimmed, whether we are ready to meet the
              Bridegroom. Jesus’ farewell words in the Gospel of
Jn. 17:21     John make it clear: the church must be so united that
              the world can recognize God as the Father who sent
              Jesus. It shakes me to the depths of my heart to ask,
              Are we really showing this to the world?
              We must give up all private property and all thirst
              for collecting things for ourselves. The enjoyment of
              wealth for oneself, one’s family, or even one’s commu-
              nity leads to inner death. Wealth brings about death
              because it isolates the heart from God and from one’s
              fellowman. We seek an answer to this in sharing every-
              thing in a way that makes it impossible to fall into the
              sin of collective wealth. Our door is open to everyone
              who seeks God and the truth. Under the stewardship
              of the church, everything is available to anybody in

Mt. 19:21     The way of Jesus means complete possessionlessness!
              We have chosen this way, and our children must know
              that from an early age. They should know that our
              money belongs to God and not to us. Jesus says we
Mt. 6:19-20   should not store up treasure for ourselves on earth, but
              seek our treasure in heaven.

              From a letter: You ask, “How can we, as separate per-
              sons and families, become part of each other?” This has
                  to be given by the spirit of Jesus. But first we must be
                  completely emptied of our own ideas, ideals, and be-
                  ing; we must be there fully for Jesus and his spirit.

                  From a letter: There is no substitute for the actual
                  experience of Christian community, the movement of
                  God’s spirit, and the unity of believers in the church.
                  So I write this realizing that words can never contain
                  the spirit of God’s love, which moves among those
                  who are surrendered to him in all things.
                      In answer to your question about the scriptural basis
Lk. 14:33         for our life, there is Luke 14:33, where Christ states
                  clearly that only those who renounce all that they have
Jn. 16:13         can be his disciples. There is also John 16:13, which
                  says that when the spirit of truth comes, he will guide
                  men into all truth. This occurred at Pentecost, when
Acts 2:44         the disciples were of one heart and one soul and held
Acts 4:32-34      all their goods in common. See also 1 Corinthians 12,
1 Cor. 12:25-26   especially verses 25–26. We find it hard to take this
                  passage at full value in non-communal church life. The
2 Cor. 8:13-15    same is true of 2 Corinthians 8:13 –15.
                      At Pentecost love overflowed from the hearts of
                  those who were moved by the Spirit: the believers were
                  full of love for God and for one another. I don’t think
Acts 4:33         you would deny that “great grace was upon them all”
                  when this happened. Community of goods was the
                  outcome of this love and grace. This communion of
                  love is a far cry from the Christianity of today, when,
                  for instance, people thankfully testify in their church
paper that since they have started tithing, God has
made their business prosper in a wonderful way.
    It would be misrepresenting the facts to say that the
main foundation of our belief is the sharing of money
and possessions. That is an outcome of our faith, not
its foundation. It is the fruit of full surrender to Christ
and his love. We give back everything God has given
us – our possessions, our talents, and our lives – to be
controlled by him and his spirit alone.
    In answer to your question whether this will help
win souls to Christ, we would say no. Simply sharing
goods does not necessarily lead to Christ. But when
it is the result of overflowing love, it can lead to him.
Many of us at the Bruderhof come from unchristian
backgrounds. It was the living-out of brotherhood and
love that attracted us. We were tired of words; they are
cheap and can be heard almost anywhere, for who will
say that he is against brotherhood and love? We did
not seek words, but deeds; not stones, but bread. That
is what Christ offered – a new life where love rules
everything, in deed and in truth.
    You ask how much opportunity a convert has to
spread the real Gospel, not the “Bruderhof gospel.”
What do you mean by the Gospel? What does the
“good news” mean if it doesn’t mean that there is a way
other than the way of death and despair that rules this
present world? What is it if it isn’t the news that men
can live together as brothers in peace, in full trust and
love to one another, and as children of one Father? The
Gospel is not only words; it stands for deed and truth,
              for the whole way of life Christ has brought. It is the
              expression of a living experience. Our challenge is not
              to join the Bruderhof, but to live in brotherhood. We
              do not wish to add anything to the Gospel, but we feel
              strongly that nothing can be taken away from it, and
              that we must face every demand it makes upon us.
                 You ask whether we as a community need to isolate
              ourselves in order to be in the world but not of it. We
              live apart only in the sense of separating ourselves from
              the evil root of self-interest, greed, and injustice –
              from all that is loveless in the present world order. So-
              ciety is basically no different today than it was in Jesus’
              time. Men are still self-centered, proud, and eager for
              their own gain, power, and position. The fruits of this
              evil pervade society in many forms: impurity, hatred,
              alcoholism, poverty, juvenile delinquency, mental ill-
              ness, violent crime, and finally war. These are the fruits
              of mammon, the fruits of an unchristian society, the
              fruits of the present world order. This is the world out
              of which Christ called and still calls us. He calls us out
              of it and brings us together to build the city of God,
              where the Spirit alone rules – to build the city on a hill,
              which cannot be hidden but shines into the world.
                 The Gospels tell us that we will know a tree – or a
              person or a group – by its fruits, for a good tree can-
Mt. 7:16-18   not produce evil fruit and an evil tree cannot produce
              good fruit. The fruits of a life based on Christ are not
              just preaching or speaking. It is our deeds that are
Jn. 13:35     important. Christ said all men would know we are his
Mt. 7:21      disciples by our love for one another – not by our talk
            about loving one another. His last prayer was for the
Jn. 17:21   unity of his disciples: “May they all be one, even as
            thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee; may they also
            be in us, so the world may believe that thou hast sent
            me.” So the church should be visible in the world. The
            light from the united body of believers must shine into
            the darkness of the world to the glory of God.
                You ask, “If we deny ourselves enough to walk
            Christ’s way, can’t we live a sensible life amidst our
            fellowmen outside an organization of brothers?” You
            must answer this for yourself. We are here because
            we found that a “sensible life” was not enough – that
            Christ asked more of us. He wants the whole person.
            We are not an “organization of brothers” but simply
            a group of people who seek to live closer to God. We
            want to take Christ’s words in the Sermon on the
            Mount literally and be measured and judged by them.
            We can only respond to them fully by surrendering our
            lives to his will in the faith that he will lead us to truth.

            From a letter: Our communal life is a constant
            struggle: we must continually fight to break away from
            everything that separates us from God and from our
            brothers and sisters. This breaking away – this dying to
            ourselves – can be a most painful experience. We be-
            lieve that one hundred percent is demanded of us; all
            pride and self-will must go, and the whole framework
            of life and thought in which we have tried to find secu-
            rity. This doesn’t happen with a sudden burst of light,
           but only gradually. As we live together we recognize
           that certain things bring separation: pride, self-pity,
           and false piety. We must turn away from these evils as
           they are shown to us. We will always remain weak, but
           our joy is in finding a source of strength that can be
           victorious in every struggle.

           From a letter: It is a great gift to live with brothers
           and sisters. When God’s love burns in us and welds
           us together to persevere in solidarity, no difficulty or
           struggle is too great. It is a relief to know that the life
           of discipleship is never something merely learned – not
           even through hard and painful struggle. Rather, it is
           a continually new experience of grace. What a deep
           paradox! The God of Abraham, of Isaac, and of Jacob
           is always the same, yet he alone frees us from monoto-
           ny and law. In him everything is new.

           We must always be aware of the danger of material-
           ism – the rule of money or anything else material over
           our heart and soul. Jesus said, “You cannot serve two
Mt. 6:24   masters. You cannot serve God and mammon.” In and
           of themselves material things are not the enemy; they
           are part of life. But they should be used for the tasks of
           the church. Ultimately it is a question of our attitude.
           The degeneration of the soul makes it possible for any-
           thing material to ruin a life. But if a person’s relation-
           ship with Jesus and the church is alive, he will be able
           to use material things without being ruled by them.

           From a letter: We are not interested in winning any-
           one with smooth words. Our way of communal life
           is much too demanding. Today we have house, home,
           work, and daily bread. But as the history of the Ana-
           baptists, Quakers, and many other radical movements
           has shown us, we do not know what will happen

           One enormous danger to the life lived in God, wheth-
           er within community or not, is money – mammon.
           Jesus says quite clearly, “Where your treasure is, there
Mt. 6:21   is your heart.” The early Christian prophet Hermas
           speaks of the danger of owning fields, houses, and
           anything else of earthly value. He cries out: “Foolish,
           double-minded, wretched man, do you not realize that
           all these things do not belong to you, that they are
           under a power alien to your nature?” * In spite of the
           fact that we live in community of goods and share one
           purse, the danger of mammon still exists. Jesus says of
Lk. 9:58   himself: “The birds have nests, the foxes have holes;
           but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.”

           * Eberhard Arnold, ed., The Early Christians (Rifton, NY: Plough, 1970),
           p. 285.
            Can one bind oneself to a group of people? When our
            novices take their vows we ask them, “Are you ready to
            surrender yourself unreservedly to God, to Christ, and
            to the brothers?” The question here is not surrender
            to God or Christ, but whether one can bind oneself
            to a group of people. I have been thinking about the
            meaning of the dedication spoken of here; this surren-
            der to God, to Christ, and to brothers and sisters. We
            know the First Commandment – have no other gods
Mt. 22:39   before God – and we know Christ’s command to love
1Jn. 4:20   our neighbor as ourselves. We also know that he who
            says he loves God but hates his brother is a liar. So we
            cannot separate our commitment to God from com-
            mitment to those of our fellowmen who also want to
            follow God.
               On the other hand, it is dangerous to commit one-
            self without reservation to anyone; to commit oneself,
            as it says here, “to the brothers.” What happens if those
            brothers go wrong, even in a subtle way? After the first
            and second generations religious groups may become
            rigid on certain points. They may become legalistic
            about certain things which seem right, and through
            this their inner life is suppressed.
               If we see this danger, the real question is, “How
            can we bind ourselves to one another in spite of it?”
            The answer can be found only in faith in the Spirit –
            Christ’s spirit. There is no other answer.

            From a letter: I am grateful that you have openly con-
            fessed your negative thoughts and feelings toward oth-
            er members of the church. God is stronger than likes
            and dislikes. He gives us love and he gives us commu-
            nity, where likes and dislikes are overcome.

            From a letter: How well I understand that you are
            disappointed in our community. I, too, shudder when
            I think of all that has happened in our history. Yet
            ultimately it is not to a community or a church that
            we have given our lives, even though we vow to be
            faithful to our brothers and sisters. It is to Jesus that we
            have surrendered ourselves. He experienced betrayal.
            He experienced abandonment by all his disciples. He
            experienced godforsakenness. And still the Father’s
            will was more important to him than anything else.
            So I hold firmly to that and challenge you also to hold
Mt. 12:30   firmly to it. In this hour when the Enemy has scattered
            so many, we must take Jesus’ words to heart: “He who
            does not gather with me, scatters.” My wish is to prove
            my faithfulness to Jesus and to my brothers and sisters
            by gathering with them.

            If we want to live in church community we must do
            it for the sake of God alone. Otherwise, even with the
            best will, we will be like parasites on the inner life of
            the church. Even if we work more hours than other
            members, even if we produce more income than oth-
            ers, our efforts will lie like a heavy weight on the rest of
            the community. We have an open door for all people,
but we also expect each one who wants to stay with us
to accept the challenge of full discipleship. Otherwise
our community will go to pieces.

Our witness to a life of complete community – to
the fact that Jesus gathers and unites men – is fully
in keeping with his words and his nature. But com-
munity itself is not decisive; the decisive thing is love.
Community of work, community of goods, and the
community of the common table are only fruits of
this love.

From a letter: We are always thankful when God
strengthens our community by giving us new mem-
bers, but we do not want to “make” members with
smooth words or try to convince anyone to join us by
making a good impression. Communal life brings too
much pain and need, and one cannot stand the test
of its struggles if one does not trust wholly in God’s
strength. We do not have the strength in ourselves:
God is the source of our strength.
A true Christian church cannot be a living organism
unless there is clear leadership. The ship of community
needs a helmsman to guide it, and he must let him-
self be guided from above in deep humility and must
honor and respect the brotherhood he leads. Being led
from above means listening to the voice of the Holy
Spirit as it speaks to the church as a whole. A leader
must not isolate himself. Through close cooperation
with all members, a perfectly clear direction in all mat-
ters can be found. This is true for all matters of faith,
all practical things, and for the overall inner attitude of
the church.

Any true service done for the church – including the
service of leadership – is done as by an organ of the
body, and it must therefore be done lovingly, sincerely,
honestly, and in a childlike way. Someone who carries
a responsibility is no higher than someone who does
not: no one is higher, and no one is lower. We are all
members of one body.
True leadership means service, so it is a terrible thing
to use it as a position of power over others. When such
abuse of leadership takes place in a church community,
it is especially devilish, because brothers and sisters give
themselves voluntarily, trustingly, and openheartedly
to the church. In a dictatorial state, people might yield
to a greater power even though their souls reject it as
evil. But in a brotherhood of believers, where members
trust their leaders, the misuse of power is real soul-

When we ask brothers to lead the church, we must
ask God that much is given to them. But we must
also let them be themselves – as God made them. They
should not be presumptuous; they should express only
what is given them by God. We do not expect more.
It would be disastrous if anyone were to feel himself
pushed into a role that was not genuinely his. We do
not expect someone who is meant to be an ear to be
an eye.

When we speak about the authority of leaders in the
church, it should be very clear that we never mean au-
thority over people. Jesus gave his disciples authority,
but he gave them authority over spirits – not people. In
the same way, those of us appointed to lead the church
are given authority, but not over people. It is all too
easy to forget this. We must seek for humility again
and again.
                 A servant of the Word* is always in danger of teaching
                 something false or suppressing something of the truth.
                 I have a great fear of this, and I ask you to intercede for
Acts 10:26       us all in prayer. Paul could say that he had neglected
2 Tim. 3:10-11   nothing and done everything in his duty as an apostle
2 Tim. 4:7, 17   of the church. This strikes me very deeply. Pray that
                 every servant of the Word may bring the whole Gospel
                 afresh to the church again and again, without twisting
                 or changing anything whatsoever.

Lk. 12:48        Jesus clearly says that to whom much is given, of him
                 much will be demanded. A servant of the Word must
                 realize that more will be demanded of him than of oth-
                 ers. There is no privilege in his task.

                 A leader of the church should certainly be admon-
                 ished if someone feels he has done wrong. I remember
                 how thankful I was years ago when a brother took
                 me aside after a members’ meeting – I had exploded
                 at someone – and asked me, “Are you really sure your
                 anger was of the Holy Spirit?” I had to admit that it
                 was not, and so I called the meeting together again and
                 set it straight. If you feel that I or anyone is misusing
                 his position of authority, please do me the favor of
                 pointing it out.
                 * Servant of the Word: Pastor, minister; brother chosen by unanimous
                 approval to serve the members of a Bruderhof by caring for their inner
                 and outer well-being. The term reflects the Hutterian belief that authentic
                 leadership in Christian community means service.
             We do not want a brotherhood that is bound to a
             man. I fear nothing more than a service in the church –
             whether teaching, counseling, or whatever – that binds
             someone emotionally to another person. It is terrible,
             and I want to have nothing to do with it. We must be
             bound together in Christ.

             There is nothing I hate more than human beings
             having power over the souls and bodies of others, espe-
             cially in Christian community. I have vowed to myself
             to fight this evil until the end of my life, and if anyone
             can point out to me where I have used power over a
             human being – even without my knowledge – I want
             to repent deeply for it. Personal power is the greatest
             enemy of a living church.

Mt. 18:3-4   Jesus put a child into his disciples’ midst and said,
             “Unless you change and become like little children,
             you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. There-
             fore whoever humbles himself like this child is the
             greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” Here we see that
             Jesus loves the childlike spirit. This should also be true
             among us. In a marriage, both husband and wife must
             want to be the least. And in church community, each
             member – whether elder or steward or whoever – must
             also want to be the least. That is our goal.
            Speaking the truth, which is a task of a leader of the
            church, is not a gift given only to especially clever
            and superior men. If it were, most people would have
            reason to fear being a disciple of Jesus or a leader in
            the church. It is not man’s intellect that is receptive to
            the truth; it is his childlike spirit. Jesus says, “Become
Mt. 18:3    like a child – only then will you be able to enter God’s
            kingdom.” The childlike spirit is and remains spirit,
            and because of that it is authority and revelation. The
Mt. 11:25   realization – that the truth is revealed only to children
            and to the simple-hearted – is crucial in the disciple-
            ship of Jesus.

            From a letter: I was so thankful for your concern about
            our last members’ meeting. So much was at stake, and
            yet we lost ourselves in trivial talk. The leadership I
            should have given as elder must have been lacking.
            There is always a tension: one does not want to dictate,
            but if everyone just talks as he pleases it is not good
            either, for then God’s spirit cannot speak.

            Someone who is given special responsibilities by the
            church – for example, a servant of the Word, house-
            mother, steward, work distributor, or shop foreman –
            will either serve with humility or lord it over others
            as if they were his subjects. This is a danger for adults
            who work with children too. There is an inclination
            in each of us to want to be great. And even if it is a
               small inclination – perhaps someone tends to be a bit
               bossy – it is the beginning of a much greater evil that
               will in the end bring much suffering.
                   It is unbelievable what heartache can result when
               someone in a position of responsibility lets his author-
               ity be felt and treats his brothers and sisters as subjects.
               If a servant of the Word is bossy, it takes a certain
               courage to risk something and protest. But I wish all
               members that courage. No one but Jesus is our master,
               and we are all brothers.

               Leaders of a church have no rights whatsoever over the
               souls entrusted to them. Consider how Jesus entrusted
Jn. 21:15-17   his flock to Peter. He did not give him any rights over
               the lambs. He only asked, “Do you love me?” And
               then he said, “Feed my sheep.” It is a terrible sin –really
               nothing less than murder – when someone entrusted
               with a pastoral service thinks he has the right to govern
               souls. This also applies to those who care for children.

               I want nothing to do with human honor. I ask you
               never to honor a person, whoever he may be, but only
               Christ in him. We denounce the honoring of men,
               because it leads to sectarianism. In a sect the leader
               thinks he is great, but that is a horrible delusion. We
               want to honor Christ in our brothers and sisters; we
               want to love one another – Christ commanded us to.
           But we reject the idea of human greatness, which is
           foolishness before God.
              We long deeply for all other powers and spirits
           to yield, and for our beloved Jesus to lay his pierced
           hands over each of us. We long for him to be with
           us all, and we long to be ready to serve him. We ask
           for everything superficial in us and everything that
           might hinder or frighten us to melt away. We want to
           acknowledge the rulership of Jesus alone. Yes, every-
           thing is in his hands: he is the ruler over all powers and
           principalities, the head of the church, and the vine of
           which we are only branches.

           The revelation of Christ does not tolerate any human
           light next to it. If there is human light – pride and
           presumption – in any servant of the Word, it must be
           extinguished. Only the light of Jesus should rule in
           the church. God does not need human light. He needs
           men and women who wait in the darkness for his
           light, who hunger for truth and thirst for living water.
           If someone preaches the Gospel to his own credit and
           does not acknowledge that without God he can do
           nothing, he is a thief. He steals the words of Jesus and
           uses them for his own glory.

Jn. 15:4   Neither an individual nor a community can bear fruit
           without being united with Jesus. Once a person has
decided to follow Jesus, he becomes a branch on the
vine and cannot live for himself anymore. To separate
and isolate oneself out of pride and self-glory is the
way of the devil, and it ends in death. For every mem-
ber of the church, but especially for its leaders, my
wish is that they might dwell in Jesus, and still more,
that Jesus might dwell in them.
               From a letter: Never forget that an act of love to one’s
               fellowman is the only important act of the day. Ev-
               erything else is of no value before God and may even
               tear us from him or separate us from our brothers.
               How strongly Jesus impresses this on our hearts in his
Mt. 25:31-46   prophecies about the Last Judgment! The question is
               never whether we are well-organized or act correctly,
               but whether we feed the hungry, take in strangers,
               clothe the naked, or visit those who are sick or in
               prison – in other words, whether we act out of love and
               compassion. Let us never pass by the need of another
               or forget the words and actions that strengthen love.

               Just as no one has so few gifts that he cannot be
               moved by God, no one has so many gifts that he is too
               good to do simple manual work. We must be willing
               to do any service asked of us, to serve in the humblest
               place. A man may be the most gifted person in his
               community, but if he lacks humility, if his heart is not
               moved by the spirit of Jesus, his life will be unfruitful.
Mt. 25:14-30     The parable of the talents is perhaps best understood
                 in the context of the church: the talents are gifts given
                 to different brothers and sisters. One person receives
                 the gift of wisdom, another knowledge, another faith,
1 Cor. 12:8-10   healing, prophecy, discernment, speaking in tongues,
                 or interpretation. These gifts are all required for the
                 various tasks of the church, from leadership to any
                 other. There is no difference in their importance; they
                 all are parts of one body. The eye is no more important
                 than the ear – they simply are two different organs.
                     Some people would like to see no differences. They
                 think that if everyone were the same no one would
                 know who was who, and then true justice would be
                 established. But that is not the Gospel of Jesus. In
Mt. 25:24-30     Matthew 25, we read of a man who was given only
                 one talent. This man felt he had not been given his
                 fair share, and so he hated his master. He did nothing
                 with his talent but hardened his heart. He not only
                 lacked love, he was filled with hatred. He said, “Mas-
                 ter, I knew you to be a hard man.” That is the worst
                 thing that can happen to us: to feel we have not been
                 given our fair share; to feel that others have received
                 more from God; and then to become so envious and
                 loveless – so separated from the Body – that we do not
                 contribute to it in any way at all. The master in the
                 parable said, “You should have at least put the money
                 in the bank.” He meant, “Do at least the little you are
                 able to do.”
               One person is brilliant, another deft with his hands,
               another very musical. These are natural gifts, and they
               should not be buried, though for the common good
               of the church they often have to be sacrificed. It would
               be wrong if someone with intellectual gifts thought he
               could do only intellectual work – otherwise he would
Mt. 25:18      be “burying his talents”– or if a very musical person
               thought she was wasting her talent by doing menial
               work. We must be willing to sacrifice our natural tal-
               ents for the sake of the whole Body.

               From a letter: You write that you are not very gifted.
               That does not matter. No one has so few gifts that he
               cannot be moved by God. What matters is that you
               use the gifts you do possess – that they are brought into
               movement by God. It is never a lack of gifts that is the
               problem, but a lack of readiness to be used by God.

1 Cor. 12-13   In 1 Corinthians 12 and 13, the apostle Paul speaks of
               many different gifts, including prophecy, leadership,
               healing, and speaking in tongues. But then he says
               that all these great gifts are nothing without love. Our
               communal life is a gift too, but unless God gives us
               love over and over again, it will become as lifeless as a

               The gift of discernment of spirits is vital for a living
               church, but it must be given by God. It is not a hu-
               man gift. When we as individuals or a group tolerate
               a mixture of spirits in our midst, we lose contact with
               the spirit of God, even if we think we are being broad-
                  On the other hand, we must guard against fighting
               impure or false spirits with human zeal and correcting
               or criticizing one another out of fear that something
               false might enter the church. We must recognize the
               importance of discerning spirits, yet we must also rec-
               ognize that it is no help to separate them in a human
Mt. 13:24-30      The parable of the wheat and weeds growing to-
               gether in one field shows how we can cause harm by
               attempting to “clean the field” ourselves. The disciples
               were full of zeal, but Jesus warned them to be careful,
Mt. 13:29      saying, “Wait, lest in gathering the weeds you root up
               the wheat along with them.” There is always the dan-
               ger of correcting too much, of admonishing each other
               too much. The only answer is for us to be more depen-
               dent on God.

               The gift of speaking in tongues was granted at Pen-
Acts 2:4       tecost through the outpouring of the Holy Spirit. It
               was definitely a divine and holy experience, and we
               should have deep reverence for it. I believe that today,
               too, such holy experiences may be given. But we must
               guard against the spirit of error.
                  People speak too lightly about being “filled with the
               Spirit” and possessing “gifts of the Spirit.” These terms
              are often applied to speaking in tongues, but in the
              New Testament these phrases are used in that connec-
              tion only in a few instances. In many other instances
              there is no mention of tongues. Who would dare to say
              that one cannot be filled with the Holy Spirit without
              the evidence of tongues? Thirty years before Pentecost,
Lk. 1:41,67   Elizabeth and Zechariah were “filled with the Holy
              Spirit.” And there have been millions of instances since
              then when people who did not speak in tongues were
              brought to salvation.
                 In the early church, speaking in tongues was closely
              related to repentance. Jesus started his mission with a
              call to repentance, and the apostle Peter, too, began his
              mission with the words, “Repent and be baptized for
Acts 2:38     the forgiveness of your sins.” If we have not honestly
              repented and believed in Jesus Christ, then we have
              not received the Holy Spirit. Unfortunately, there is
              a lack of repentance in many of today’s movements
              which see speaking in tongues as being “filled with the
                 It is unwise to equate the receiving of the Holy
              Spirit with the pouring-out of particular emotions.
              As if that were the only way the Spirit worked! His
              indwelling does not depend on our emotions, but
              on our union with Christ, which is accomplished by
              God through our faith in him. The biblical conditions
              for receiving the Holy Spirit are repentance, faith in
              Christ, and the remission or forgiveness of our sins.
              From a letter: We must have reverence for the gift of
Acts 2
              speaking in tongues as described in Acts 2 and 1 Cor-
1 Cor. 12
              inthians 12. But it is false and unhealthy to make a
              teaching or religion out of such a gift. In 1 Corinthians
1 Cor. 13
              13 we are told to ask for the higher gifts of faith, hope,
              and love, of which the greatest is love.
                 The gift of love leads to Jesus Christ, to community,
              to outreach, and to mission; it does not lead to talking
              about our own spiritual gifts. If we are filled with love,
              we may well speak in tongues, but we need not talk
              about it. Jesus says, “Go into your room, lock the door,
Mt. 6:6
              and pray to God in heaven. Then your Father, who
              sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”
                 The charismatic movement, which lays so much
              emphasis on speaking in tongues, is based on false
              teachings that bring division; it brings honor and glory
              to men rather than to God. If someone came to me
              and said he could speak in tongues, I would advise him
              not to talk about it but rather to show the fruits of the
              Spirit as described in the Sermon on the Mount. Jesus
              did not teach us to speak in tongues but to refrain
              from making a show of our religion and to go the way
              of humility, love, and unity.

              If we ask God for the gifts of prophecy, healing, and
1 Cor 12-13
              other gifts described in 1 Corinthians 12 and 13, we
              need to be watchful of wanting to receive honor for
              having them. We should not ask for these gifts for our-
              selves, but only on behalf of the whole Body of Christ
on earth. For ourselves we ought to ask for
pure hearts, wisdom, faith, hope, and love; for more
patience and more compassion.

It is not the development of man that will change the
course of human history – only the intervention of the
living God in men’s lives. When he has touched us, we
may hope for a change of heart and soul and for the
Spirit and the kingdom of God to come. The Spirit
brings the joy of God: joy in love, joy in sharing with
brothers and sisters, joy in pure relationships between
men and women, and joy in justice and peace among
races and nations. Of ourselves we remain poor, help-
less, and tormented. But we must believe that the joy
of God and his kingdom can change earth and heaven!
            It should be quite out of the question for anyone to
            come to prayer without having forgiven his brother,
            his neighbor, or even his enemy. Jesus clearly says,
Mt. 6:15    “He who does not forgive will not be forgiven.” We
            cannot change one iota of this truth. The only way to
            find inner peace in Christ is through peace with one’s
            brothers. Unforgiving thoughts lead to separation, and
            separation brings inner harm and leads to death. Com-
            plete peace demands complete honesty. We can live in
            peace with our brothers only if we carry the truth in
            our hearts and are honest in our love.

            From a letter: True forgiveness of sins is possible only
Eph. 1:7    in Jesus. In the world people forgive one another’s
Col. 1:14   sins, but without Jesus, which is no help. At the time
            of the Reformation, the Catholic Church, which
            had tremendous influence over people, “forgave” sins
            through the sale of indulgences. Today, psychologists
            and psychiatrists “forgive” sin. They tell people, “You
            have not sinned; your behavior is quite normal; there
            is nothing wrong with it. You don’t need to have a bad
            conscience; you can’t help it.” That is how the world
            forgives sin.
              Things go wrong in churches and Christian commu-
              nities because Jesus’ words about making peace with
Mt. 5:23-24   one another before bringing a gift to the altar are not
              taken seriously anymore. Jesus himself said this, and
              as his followers we are entrusted with witnessing to his
              words. To us this means we should not come to prayer
              or partake of the Lord’s Supper unless there is com-
              plete peace among us. Too often it happens that things
              are left unresolved when people pray together. But
              communal life will not endure like that, and neither
              will marriage. We must clear things up and forgive one
              another again and again.

              If we hold a grudge against someone, the door to God
              will be closed. It will be absolutely closed, with no way
Mt. 6:15      to him. Only if we forgive others will we be forgiven.
              I am sure that many prayers are not heard because the
              person praying has a grudge against someone, even if
              he is not aware of it. Jesus says more than once that
              before we pray we must forgive. If we want Jesus, we
              must have a forgiving heart.

              Just as it did in the time of the apostles, the church of
              Jesus Christ has the authority to represent his kingdom
Mt. 18:18     today. It has the authority to loose and to bind, to
              forgive and to leave unforgiven. Without the forgive-
              ness of sin no conscience can live, and without it no
              one can enter the kingdom of God. But unless we first
Mt. 6:14-15   forgive others, we cannot receive forgiveness.

Jas. 5:16     In the Letter of James we read that we should confess
              our sins to one another so that they may be forgiven.
              But this is possible only if Jesus lives in us. Without
              him there is no forgiveness.
                 Unless forgiveness of sins is spoken out in com-
              munion with Jesus, through his Holy Spirit, it means
              nothing. It is Jesus who promises that he will forgive
              us at the last judgment, and it is he who will also over-
              come demons and devils on that day. We ourselves
              cannot overcome evil, even if we live together in broth-
              erhood, even if we are burned as martyrs. Unless Jesus
              lives in us and we in him, our efforts are all in vain.

Rev. 1:5-6    The words “To him who loves us and has freed us
              from our sins . . . be glory and power for ever and ever”
              indicate that it is not we who can forgive sins. Forgive-
              ness of sins is possible only through Christ, who loves
              us and frees us with his life’s blood.
                 We pronounce forgiveness of sins in the united
              church, yet this forgiveness descends from heaven –
              we ourselves have no authority whatsoever. Nothing
              human can take over. The grace of the cross must be
As a burning candle consumes itself and gives light,
so the light of the risen Christ shines out to us through
his death. When Christ arises in us – when the Sun
comes up – night is overcome by day. So it is with the
forgiveness of sins. We must experience what it means
to be burdened with sin and then freed. Then we will
see how the sun of Christ shines anew through the
forgiveness of sins.

The redeeming power of forgiveness, which is in Jesus
alone, must remain the center of the living church and
of our expectation for the whole world.
   Forgiveness means personal redemption and freeing,
but it must always be seen in the greater context of re-
demption for the whole world. We should expect it to
bring the kingdom of peace to whole nations and to all
men. This expectation, which can be found on every
page of the New Testament, is from Jesus. It must be
alive in us so that it is not just something we believe in
but something that burns in our hearts.

Because Jesus died for us, his blood speaks louder than
the blood of Abel, who symbolizes the innocent man
who has been slain. In Jesus even a murderer can find
forgiveness. The blood of Jesus speaks louder than the
accusing blood shed by the hand of man.
             We have Christ’s wonderful promise that if we forgive
             we will be forgiven. Certainly we also have his sharp
             warning that if we do not forgive we will not be forgiv-
             en. Let us look at one another with new eyes and see
             each other as a gift from God, even if we know each
             other’s weaknesses.

Col. 3:15    Paul writes to the Colossians that they are called to
             live in the peace of Christ as members of one body. It
             is not enough to feel the peace of God around us – it
             should reign in our hearts. The soul of man groans for
             peace. Therefore Jesus said to his disciples on his last
Jn. 14:27    evening, “I give you my peace. It is not peace such as
             the world gives.”
                By nature we are not at peace; we are divided. But
             we are called to find reconciliation with God in Jesus.
             He offers us forgiveness of sins so that we may find
             unity and peace with him and with one another. It is
             not enough to seek peace for ourselves, for our own
             souls. We must seek it for the whole Body and ulti-
             mately for the whole creation.

Resentment   From a letter: Every serious Christian must go
             through hours of godforsakenness; even Jesus himself
             did. The only answer in such hours is: “Father, into thy
Lk. 23:46    hands I commit my spirit.” If we give ourselves uncon-
             ditionally to the Father, he will show us the way. But
             nothing will be shown to him who does not forgive
         his brother. God will not have mercy on him, and he
         will remain godforsaken as long as he continues in his
         hatred and unforgiveness.

         From a letter: Be firm in your rejection of all touchi-
         ness and anything else that destroys love. Beloved
         brother and sister, you are not the only ones who could
         find reason to be touchy. I am hated and accused by
         many; yet if I gave in to resentment, the door of prayer
         to God would be closed to me. God hears only those
         who forgive.

         From a letter: I feel pained that at your young age you
         have to undergo such difficult struggles. But do not
         blame your troubles on your father. Through Adam
         we are all under the curse of sin and death and can-
         not find new life or purity of heart except through the
         blood of Christ. That is the same for you as for me and
         for any other human being. Hold on to Jesus.

         From a letter: You are cynical about the deception
         that has been revealed among us. Yes, it is terrible – so
         terrible that it could tear one completely apart. But
         you are only adding sin to sin if you become bitter.
Ps. 22   Read Psalm 22; consider what happened to Jesus and
         how he reacted to mockery, contempt, and betrayal.
         It did not make him cynical.
From a letter: You ask for forgiveness for your envy
and hatred. We personally will gladly forgive you.
But the forgiveness of the whole brotherhood, which
means the renewal of unity with Jesus and his church,
cannot be given until you turn fully away from your
   We are not angry with you, but we cannot pro-
nounce forgiveness on behalf of the brotherhood for
your sinful attitude until you prove your repentance
more deeply. This may have already begun. If so, con-
tinue in that direction. God is good, and he will not
reject you. The brotherhood loves you, too, and will
not reject you either. But we cannot unite with you as
long as there is envy and hatred in you.

From a letter: You wrote that it was impossible for
you to work because you were so upset about the hurt
done to you. Your resentment must come to light and
be overcome. Ultimately, the wrongs other people have
done to you cannot separate you from God; only the
wrongs you do to others. This is of utmost importance:
all hurt and bitterness must be overcome.

From a letter: Hold firm to hope and faith, and deep
joy will fill your heart and heal your wounds – joy that
will overcome all fear and pessimism. After all, we are
called to a way of joy – joy in God and in one another,
for in the deepest sense love means joy.
Mt. 23:37   In Matthew 23:37 Jesus says, “How often have I want-
            ed to gather you to me as a hen gathers her chicks,
            and you would not.” This plea, along with the plea in
Jn. 17:21   Jesus’ last prayer –“May they all be one, Father, even as
            I am one with thee”– is a decisive and constant chal-
            lenge to us. It calls us to a way of complete brotherly
            love and oneness in Jesus, and it calls us to follow him
            in unity so that the world may recognize we are his

            Nothing binds or unites people more deeply than
            having the same hope, the same faith, the same joy
            and expectation. It is very sad, therefore, when indi-
            vidual believers stand alone. There have always been
            people who had to stand alone on account of their
            faith – some of them in prison, for years. But where
            there is true expectation, people are usually drawn
            together; their common faith leads to community, and
            they can strengthen and encourage one another. Stand-
            ing for God always has a unifying power. Let us pray
            that we may be gathered together with all those who
            live in expectation of him.
Mt. 22:37-39   From a letter: Jesus’ first commandment is to love
               God with all our heart, soul, and being, and then to
               love our neighbor as ourselves. In this individualistic
               age more than ever, a church of people committed
               to one another in such love and faithfulness is an ab-
               solute necessity. Jesus stresses the importance of love
Jn. 14-17      and absolute unity – unity such as he has with the
               Father –again and again. I do not think we have ever
               reached this ultimate state of unity, even in our holiest
               moments; only God knows. Yet we want to live as a
               witness to it. We cannot separate dedication to Jesus
               from dedication to our brothers and sisters.

               From a letter: It is true that Jesus can be served any-
               where. But what a special gift it is when through him
               two or three or more people become of one heart and
               one soul! This cannot be manufactured; it is a gift.

               God does not contradict himself. He does not say to
               one, “Thou shalt go to war,” and to another, “Thou
               shalt not go to war”; or to one, “Thou shalt be faithful
               in marriage,” and to the other, “Thou art free to di-
               vorce.” If we are open to the truth – if we listen to God
               in our hearts – we will find that he says the same thing
               to all, also in practical matters. We do not believe in
               the rule of a majority over a minority. We believe in
               the unanimity brought about by Christ, who wants
               to speak the same truth in every heart. This unity is a
grace and a miracle we experience again and again. But
if we are unfaithful to God and to each other, it can be
taken from us.

The unity of all believers is the only criterion for truth.
When true unity is lacking, charisma – the power of in-
dividual persons or personalities over others – takes its
place. People listen in a human way to others merely
because they are strong personalities or leaders. Charis-
ma is not only the wrong foundation for community;
it is altogether dangerous ground.
    A religious group can find a healthy inner life only
if its members find unity again and again with the
Spirit and with God. Only then can the conscience of
each one live and thrive, and only then can true una-
nimity be achieved.

It is immaterial where unity is lived. The important
thing is that it is lived somewhere.

Many people today seek religious experiences or char-
ismatic gifts like speaking in tongues. But there is a
danger that in seeking these gifts people miss the main
message of the Gospel: unity in love. What help would
it be to humankind if thousands and tens of thousands
of people spoke in tongues but had no love and unity?
            Our faith in Jesus Christ unites us as brothers and
            sisters and urges us to call others to follow him with
            us. We do this in absolute poverty of spirit – it is not
            that we want to make more members. But we do feel
Mt. 12:30   urged to call others to unity. The Holy Spirit does not
            scatter; it unites.

            The attempt to reconcile different churches and con-
            fessions is without any doubt good. But true unity –
            the unity that breaks down all barriers – starts with re-
Acts 2:37   pentance. When the Holy Spirit came down at Pente-
            cost, people asked, “Brothers, what shall we do?” They
            were deeply struck in their hearts, and they repented
            for their sins and became of one heart and one soul.
            Unfortunately, in today’s ecumenical movement bar-
            riers or fences often remain, and people shake hands
            over them. But we must testify to the possibility of
            true unity among men. It comes only through repen-
            tance and through personally facing Jesus – as man, as
            living spirit, and as Lord.

            From a letter: The ecumenical movement tends to
            resolve differences by making concessions. Concessions
            take the place of repentance, deep reconciliation, and
            the unanimity that grows as the fruit of repentance,
            and in the end serious evils are often smeared over.
            A merely emotional feeling of unity is not enough.
            In our communities we promise to speak openly to
            one another when there are problems – to admonish
            each other and to accept admonition. Whenever we
            avoid this brotherly honesty because we fear the conse-
            quences it might have, our unity is no longer a reality.
            God’s will is deed, and we must live according to it
            with deeds. When we do this, Christ can bring about
            a truly united church, purified by the Holy Spirit. We
            will no longer nurse feelings against others, and we
            will become of one heart and one soul, as in the early

Mt. 12:33   Jesus said more than once that a tree is recognized
Lk. 6:44    by its fruits. We must never forget this. All of us
            can see what kind of tree today’s society is: its fruits
            are murder, injustice, impurity, unfaithfulness, and
               What were the fruits Jesus wanted to see? The first
            fruit is unity. How else shall the world recognize his
Jn. 17:21   disciples? Jesus said, “May they all be one, Father, even
            as we are one.”
               How can we show the fruits of unity and remain a
            part of today’s society? It is impossible: society is ruled
            by mammon, the spirit of this world, which is “a liar
Jn. 8:44    and a murderer from the beginning.” It is ruled not by
            the spirit of unity but by the spirits of disintegration,
            destruction, and separation. True unity can be found
            only in a life of brotherhood.
   Is it not true that Christ demands the surrender of
the whole man to his new order? The time is urgent.
Let us come to a true sense of responsibility! Let us
gather with Christ and unite with him as branches on
the tree of life!

In a brotherhood ruled by the Holy Spirit one can see
many aspects of Jesus, just as one sees different colors
in a rainbow. Each of us is different, but God created
us, and we should not try to be something that we are
not. We should give our heart, soul, and being to Jesus
and let him do with us what he wants. Then our lives
will find true fulfillment, and we will love each other
as we are, with our differences – even our national dif-
ferences. The same Jesus is expressed in every brother
and sister.
            Church Discipline
            In our Bruderhof communities each member makes
            a covenant with God at baptism and promises never
            again to sin willfully against him. If after baptism
            someone does sin willfully against God, he must un-
            dergo church discipline in order to make a completely
            new beginning.
               The small sins we all commit every day can be for-
            given through our daily prayer. If the sins are worse,
            they can be forgiven through confession. James says,
Jas. 5:16   “Confess your sins to one another, and pray for one
            another, and then you will be healed.” For more seri-
            ous sins, church discipline is necessary.
               Discipline is carried out only at the request of the
            person concerned. In some cases a person may be
            excluded from common prayer and from members’
            meetings until he has repented and is forgiven. In oth-
            ers, a person is put into the “small exclusion.” This
            means that he may not take part in common prayer
            and should not be given the greeting of peace, though
            he may still participate in the daily life of the com-
            munity. If an even graver sin is committed, the church
            may use the “great exclusion.” In this case, a person is
            pronounced cut off from the kingdom of God, and he
               may take no part in the communal life of the church
               until he has found a repentant heart.
                  When someone has to repent of an especially dark,
               willfully committed sin, we use Paul’s words, “I give
1 Cor. 5:1-5   you over to Satan for the destruction of your flesh and
               the salvation of your soul.” Paul was speaking of a man
               who lived with his father’s wife, yet even after such a
               sin he believed that exclusion could lead to the salva-
               tion of this man’s soul. We also believe – and have ex-
               perienced it – that through discipline people who have
               sinned can find full repentance and full forgiveness and
               can become true brothers and sisters again.

Heb. 12:15     Paul warned the early church to let no bitter weed
               grow up to poison the whole. If this warning was given
               to the earliest believers, then it surely applies to us too.
               That is one reason we use church discipline: so that no
               poison may destroy the church. Another reason is to
               give the person who is disciplined a chance to begin
               anew, to find forgiveness of sins, and to purify his or
               her life.

               We can exclude a brother or sister only if we recog-
               nize that the sin in our own hearts must be judged as
               well. Church discipline is not carried out to judge a
               person, but to separate the evil in a person from the
               church. This has to happen again and again in our
               own hearts.
     When brothers and sisters accept church discipline,
it should remind us of the grace of repentance. If they
really repent, they do something for the whole church –
in fact, for the whole world – because evil is overcome
by Jesus. In this sense we must have deep respect and
reverence for those who are disciplined, because we
know that we need God’s mercy and compassion our-
    We must be very careful not to load onto a person
even one milligram more than his actual guilt. We
should be thankful that repentance and reconciliation
with God is possible for those excluded, for us, and for
all humankind.
    Church discipline is a victory of light over darkness;
it is the beginning of healing in a person. If it is accept-
ed in this sense – the only true sense – it is a grace.

I believe that the question of exclusion and reaccep-
tance – as indeed of church discipline altogether – is
closely connected with Jesus, the loving and redeem-
ing Savior who bears the sins of the whole world. He
accepted death on the cross so that all men would be
given the possibility of finding reconciliation with God
again and again. This reconciliation cannot be sepa-
rated from the forgiveness of sins.
   The whole question of church discipline is some-
thing that has become blurred or softened in Chris-
tendom today. But it is not a matter of the Bruderhof ’s
point of view versus the view of Christianity in gen-
               eral. Our understanding of church discipline is based
Mt. 18:15-20   wholly on the words of Jesus and his apostles. They are
               our only guide.

               In a church that is almost dead or totally dead, people
               gossip about one another’s weaknesses. There is little,
               if any, church discipline, and therefore no forgiveness
               either. Jesus commanded, “When you go to the altar
Mt. 5:23-24    to bring your sacrifice and you remember that your
               brother has something against you, go back and make
               peace with him, and then bring your sacrifice to the
               altar.” He also said that we should not pray unless we
Mk. 11:25      forgive every person in the whole world, whether the
               person is right or wrong, friend or enemy. These com-
               mands have been almost entirely forgotten.
Mt. 13:24-30       Jesus’ parable about the weeds among the wheat
               is often used as an excuse for a dying church. But I
               believe that this parable is not chiefly meant for the
               church; it is meant mainly for the world in general.
               We cannot use it as an excuse for tolerating evil. If we
               know there is sin in the church, it must be rooted out
               through church discipline, out of love to the person in-
               volved and to the church. Otherwise the whole church
               will be lost. Paul says that the church should not have
Eph. 5:27      spots, blemishes, or wrinkles, but be pure and holy as
Col. 1:22      Jesus himself is holy. We cannot excuse evil by saying
               that where there is wheat there is always chaff.
            There is no better way to defeat the devil in our own
            hearts than by giving ourselves completely to Jesus.
            This is especially true for members under church dis-
            cipline and for those who struggle with evil thoughts
            and feelings. They must give themselves over to Jesus
            again and again. That is the only way victory is pos-
            sible in the struggle of the heart in daily life.

Heb. 4:12   In the Letter to the Hebrews it says that the spirit of
            God is as sharp as a two-edged sword. We should apply
            this sharpness to ourselves first of all. But the New
            Testament also speaks of the great compassion, love,
            and warmth that come from the Spirit, and we should
            always show this love to others, especially to sinners.

            We can come to Jesus with any need, and we will find
            compassion and grace. But we must be willing to ac-
            cept his sharpness, too. Every Christian needs someone
            who speaks the truth to him in the love of Christ, no
            matter how painful it is, in order to cut through what
            is evil in him.

            We must pray that along with the salt of the truth we
            may have compassion and merciful love. Then we will
            not fall into extremes, and we will not speak to each
            other without love. My father once wrote, “He who
            admonishes his brother without love is a murderer.”
            I think all of us have to recognize where we have been
            loveless, and ask for forgiveness.*

            When something is not right in a brother or sister, we
            must speak to him or her about it out of love. And if
            someone speaks plainly to us, we must not be touchy.
            I can assure you that those who lived with Jesus heard
            plenty of straight talking. In comparison to Jesus, we
            are perhaps still much too polite. Jesus honored his
Jn. 2:4     mother, but he also said to her, “What have I to do
            with you, woman?” His way of love is not a way of

            From a letter: If you know of specific instances of
            complacency, lovelessness, or sin among us, please
            bring them to our attention. But don’t make general
            accusations and talk about them with others. Such
            talking is extremely dangerous and divisive. It will not
            help to bring brothers and sisters together but will
            drive them further apart.

            It is very clear from the New Testament that forgive-
            ness of sin is connected with the church. Jesus gives
Mt. 16:19   the keys “to bind and to loose” to the church. So
            anywhere on this earth where two or three meet in his

            * Another similar saying of Eberhard Arnold is "Love without truth lies,
            but truth without love kills."
              name – that is, in a spirit of total and unconditional
              surrender to him – there the keys to bind and to loose
              are given. Forgiveness is not merely a private matter.

              God wants us to become clearer in discernment, but
              he also wants us to become more loving, more under-
              standing, and more merciful. Church discipline must
              exist, but we must remember Jesus’ words, “He who
Lk. 6:37-38   judges will be judged” and “With the same measure
              you use, you will be measured.” Love is the greatest
            In baptism three things are of utmost importance:
            faith in Jesus Christ, assurance of the forgiveness of
            sins through repentance, and incorporation into the
            Body, which is the church.

            Baptism is a covenant with God and his church in
            which we give ourselves wholeheartedly to Jesus with
            all that we are and have, in the belief that he will for-
            give our sins. This forgiveness of sins is possible only
Eph. 1:7    through the death of Jesus, though he has given his
Jn. 20:23   church the power to forgive sins in his name.
                May God forgive the sins of each person who de-
            sires baptism, and may Jesus purify each of them with
1Jn. 1:7    his blood and make them children of God and true
            brothers and sisters.

            Baptism is a confession of repentance, and therefore it
            means absolute dedication: it means giving ourselves,
            pouring ourselves out totally for Jesus Christ, as a
            vessel is poured out, so that we become empty of our-
            selves and poor before God.
1 Pet. 3:21
               Baptism is the declaration of a good conscience before
               God, which is possible only through the gracious help
Rom. 6:3-4     and cleansing power of Christ’s blood. It is Christ’s
               spirit, the spirit of truth, that speaks to the believing
               conscience and directs it toward unity with the will
               of God. Only in such unity – the unity of a good con-
               science with God – is there true peace. Here the con-
Gal. 3:25-27   science is freed from the Law and from the powers of
               the spirit of our time.

               Jesus was baptized in the Jordan River, and I believe
               he meant baptism to be a real immersion. But the
               form is not important – if there is no water available
               for immersion, water can also be poured over the
Col. 2:12      person being baptized. The important thing is that
               we are buried with Christ in baptism and raised with
               him through the faith which God works in us, just as
               Christ was raised from the dead.

               The step of baptism is a step of total dedication to
               God and the church, and we do not want to persuade
               anyone to take it. But we must call people to repen-
               tance; we must point out that the Gospel contains the
               sharpest condemnation of sin, though it also contains
               the warmest welcome for repentant sinners. God calls
               us again and again to come to him with our trespasses
               and our need, and we can always turn trustingly to
               him, no matter what the circumstances.
             From a letter: We do not become better people
             through baptism; we do not climb up to become gods.
             We will always remain lowly sinners to whom God
             comes down. It is a miracle we are never worthy of, yet
             God is full of grace.

             It is better to remain unbaptized than to take the step
             half-heartedly for the sake of parents or someone you
             love, or in order to find security in church member-
             ship. Baptism must be a personal decision. No one can
             make it for you.
                Millions of people are baptized, but for many of
             them baptism is a completely dead form. I would ad-
             vise anyone who wants to be baptized to ask himself,
             “Am I willing, for the sake of Jesus, to love nothing
             more than him – neither wife, parents, nor children –
             so that he can live in me? Am I willing to give every-
             thing to Jesus and my brothers?” If you are not, don’t
             be baptized. You must be willing to die for him so that
             he himself may live in your heart. Jesus must be your
             only treasure.

             If you are baptized for the sake of Jesus, he will receive
Rom. 8:1-4   you and love you and give you his forgiveness and
             peace. He will live within you, and help you conquer
             every temptation. You will be purified and washed
             clean by his blood.
Rom. 6:3-4
               True baptism is deeply related to the death and the
               resurrection of Jesus. It cannot be separated from
Mt. 10:38-39   them. Baptism really means dying with Christ and
Jn. 12:24-26   then rising with him. The phrase “dying with Christ”
               has been so overused that perhaps some of its power
               has been lost; but when we consider deeply what it
               meant for God to come to this earth and die for us, we
               will begin to feel the seriousness of his asking us to die
               with him.

               Baptism requires a personal decision to confess one’s
               sins and to give one’s life to Jesus completely. It means
               wanting to die rather than consciously sin again. You
               must personally experience that Christ is your peace of
               heart and that he died for you. But this is not enough.
               You must have a much greater vision of Christ. It
               would be wrong to forget your personal experience,
               yet you must see beyond it and recognize the greatness
               of the suffering and sin of the whole world. And you
               must also recognize the greatness of God, the greatness
               of the universe, and the greatness of Jesus, who is king
Rev. 1:18      over the kingdom of God and holds the key to the
               underworld. He has power over all powers.

               Baptism is not a human institution: it is a step in
               which sins are forgiven and demons are driven out
               through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. No man
               can do this, nor can any group of people. We need
               the presence of Christ himself, and therefore we ask
               for God to be present at our baptismal meetings. It is
               he whom we honor, he who forgives our sins through
               faith in the death of Jesus Christ. Of course, before
               God can forgive sins through baptism, there must be
               repentance. All of us must take repentance seriously,
               and all of us must break with human justice, human
               goodness, and human fairness. No one of us is right;
               God alone is right. Jesus was sharpest to those who
               were “good”– to those who did not need the cross or
               believed that since they were Abraham’s children they
Mk. 2:17       were saved. He said, “It is not the healthy who need a
               physician, but the sick. I have come not to save virtu-
               ous people, but sinners.”

Rom. 6:12-13   Paul says that once we are converted and baptized –
               once we have decided to follow Jesus – we should no
               longer put the members of our body at the disposal of
               sin. This is very important: the brain must be filled by
               God’s grace and God’s thoughts; the hands must no
               longer cause the shedding of blood or carry out impure
               or obscene acts; and the eyes must no longer be used
               for lust, but to radiate God’s love to brothers and sis-
               ters. When we give ourselves to Christ in baptism, we
               seal our whole body for his use.
                  Yet everyone knows that after baptism, evil still tries
               to work in us. In one it may be through impurity, in
               another it may be through pride, in another through
               hatred and bitterness. It is impossible to pull ourselves
         out of the mud by our own shoe-strings. We may fight
         and struggle, but we will never be able to change our-
         selves. It is through the death of Jesus, his forgiveness,
         and his power to drive out evil from the heart that we
Rom. 6   will no longer be slaves to sin. We will still be tempted,
         but our temptation will be answered by the deep in-
         ner experience of faith. If we have only the Law – the
         “Thou shalt not desire”– and evil desire comes up in
         our hearts, we won’t know what to do with it. But if
         we have experienced Jesus through repentance, we will
         be able to overcome. We will still be human, but we
         will no longer be slaves to sin.
                  The Lord’s Supper
                  The Lord’s Supper is an outward symbol, a sign of giv-
                  ing ourselves in brokenness to Jesus, whose body was
                  broken and crucified. Christ wants to be present in the
                  heart of each one who breaks the bread and drinks the
                  wine. He wants us to become weak with him so that
                  we may then become strong in his strength and have
                  communion with him. Bread and wine are only sym-
                  bols, but the purifying unity with Christ which they
                  symbolize is a great reality. At the Lord’s Supper we
                  experience community with Christ.

1 Cor. 10:16-17   Just as grains of wheat from different fields are ground
                  and formed into one loaf, and grapes from many vine-
                  yards are pressed to produce wine, so we, who come
                  from different countries and cultures, can be united in
                  the Lord’s Supper. But this unity is possible only when
                  we sacrifice our self-importance.
                     The Lord’s Supper is a meal of unity, and we should
                  prepare ourselves so that we may partake of it in the
                  right way. It is a meal at which we remember Jesus,
                  whose redeeming spirit of forgiveness is there for the
                  whole world – for all people and all races. And it is also
               a time for us to renew our covenant of faithfulness
               to God and unburden our hearts so that they may be
               freed for service and rededicated to him.
                   As we remember how Jesus appointed the meal on
               his last evening on earth, we should also remember
               that every Christian should be ready to sacrifice his
               life – in fact should sacrifice his life – like him. We live
               in a world that is just as hostile to God’s kingdom as it
               was in Jesus’ time, and he did not promise us that we
               would fare better than he did. Rather, he said that his
Jn. 15:18-20   disciples would be persecuted and that what was done
               to their Master would be done to them too.

               By celebrating the Lord’s Supper we testify to the love
               of our Lord Jesus, whose death made it possible for us
               to find forgiveness of sins, love, and unity with one an-
               other. It is actually a very simple meal, but Jesus asked
               his disciples to hold it in memory of him, and
               so we celebrate it in that sense.

1 Cor. 11:29   Paul says that he who eats the bread and drinks the
               wine unworthily at the Meal of Remembrance eats and
               drinks judgment on himself. It is clear by this that we
               should not go to the Lord’s Supper with a conscience
               burdened by unconfessed sin. But we should not allow
               feelings of unworthiness to torment us. Paul is speak-
               ing here mainly about the inner attitude with which
               we should come to the Lord’s Supper. We should come
                   with the same reverent fear Moses had when God
Ex. 3:5            showed him the burning bush and said to him, “Take
                   off your shoes, here is holy ground.”

                   In the early church the believers met often to hold the
                   Lord’s Supper so that evil spirits would be driven out
                   from among them. When a spiritual struggle is going
                   on in our brotherhood, we, too, feel urged to celebrate
                   the Lord’s Supper. Jörg Blaurock, an early Anabaptist
                   leader, said that if it is celebrated often, it will reveal
                   any false brothers among us.

                   In the breaking of bread and drinking of wine at the
                   Lord’s Supper, we join ourselves to Christ in the deep-
                   est sense possible. We remember his saving death and
1 Cor. 11:26       “proclaim it until he comes,” as Paul says. We proclaim
                   Christ’s death as the greatest historical event: through
                   his wounds we are healed, through his suffering we
                   find God, and through his great light we find love. We
                   pray that he alone may be our Lord and Master. Let us
                   love him – his way and his life – with all our being.
cf. Jn. 12:24-25      The New Testament says that if we love Christ, we
                   must die with him. This means we must die to our-
                   selves. Dying to oneself is often very painful and may
                   cost a long struggle, but it is possible if we love Christ
                   and his cross deeply enough. It is not a matter of self-
                   torment but of finding Jesus.
                      Certainly we should not only remember Christ’s
                   death and his suffering when we think of the Lord’s
Supper – we should also remember his resurrection
from the dead and his ascension to the Father, from
whose side he will rule the church and the heart of
every believer. And we should remember his promise
to come again to judge us and to establish his wonder-
ful kingdom.
              Love and Marriage
Love          Jesus showed us that love means giving one’s life for
              others rather than taking life, becoming the lowest and
              humblest rather than the most powerful. Love makes
              us free. A person who wants to dominate others and
              have power over them has a tormented soul, whereas a
              person who is burning with love has a joyful soul. We
              wish for our couples that love might rule their life, and
              that service to one another might come before ser-
              vice to oneself. But more than this, we wish that they
              might be dedicated to the great cause of God, and that
              their love to him might come before everything else –
              even before their marriage.

              In the sphere of love, the determining factor is always
              the nonphysical: it is the relationship from heart to
              heart and from soul to soul. We cannot forget that
              without the soul, the body is merely the human
              form – merely matter. Yet we should not despise it on
1 Cor. 6:19   that account. “Do you not know that your body is a
              shrine of the indwelling Holy Spirit, and the Spirit is

              * For this chapter extensive use has been made of the author's book In the
              Image of God: Marriage and Chastity in Christian Life (Plough, 1977).
God’s gift to you?” The body gives expression to the
impulses of the heart. A gentle smile, eyes that shine
from an affectionate word, or a tender touch of the
hand can lead to an ardent embrace and caresses of
final fulfillment in union. The body is the soul made

From a letter: The attraction to the opposite sex is
natural, but it is not sufficient ground by far on which
to marry or found a family. It is quite natural that
when a man loves a woman, he wants to know if she is
the “right” one. There is only one answer to this ques-
tion: both must feel that a marital relationship will
lead them nearer to Jesus.
   I can well imagine – in actual fact, I know it for
sure – that the right choice for a spouse is not the one
who is most attractive erotically, but the one whose
companionship will lead both partners closer to Jesus.
If marriage is based only on physical attraction, it will
go to pieces easily.

From a letter: In considering a partner for life, do not
let your feelings of affection move casually from one
person to another. Test your feelings before Jesus. The
step of marriage is right for a Christian only if he is
assured that it will lead him closer to Jesus, and that
both partners will serve Jesus more fully together than
alone. I do not believe that a Christian should get
married purely to satisfy his physical and emotional
desires. A personal, emotional desire needs to be there,
but it should not be the decisive factor.

From a letter: If you are thinking of binding another
soul to your life through marriage, learn to love, learn
to be open-hearted, and learn to consider the other
person first.

From a letter: I mean it seriously and for your well-be-
ing: it is better to be sure now – before you make any
commitment to each other – whether or not it is God’s
will that you two belong together. To have doubts once
you have committed yourself through an engagement
is terrible, but to have doubts once you are married
is unbelievably more terrible. May God make it clear
to you whether or not you really belong together. It
would be better to have a shocking end to your rela-
tionship than a shock without end. I say this to you
out of love. May God lead you.

From a letter: Y question “Why do I feel attracted
toward this boy if he is not meant for me but for
someone else?” is a bit of a rebellious one. It accuses
someone higher than yourself. Ultimately it accuses
God. Human nature being what it is, we often feel
attractions that we have no choice but to reject. That is
           simply part of our human weakness. Who is destined
           for you, or whether or not someone is destined for
           you, is not for me to say. The important thing for you
           is to give your life to Jesus.

Marriage   Jesus takes the bond of marriage so seriously that he
Mt. 5:28   calls even a lustful glance “adultery in the heart.” He
           speaks so sharply about this because he wants to pro-
           tect the wonderful and holy gift of unity between two
               In a true marriage a man and a woman become one
           first of all in spirit. This means that they are one in
           faith, one in their experience of God, and united in the
           purity of the church.
               Second, marriage means that a man and a woman
           are one in soul. One can be of one spirit with any be-
           lieving person. But there is a difference in the bond
           that exists between a married couple and between oth-
           ers. There is a special love between these two, and a
           special joy when they are near to one another. Because
           they love one another quite specifically, they are faith-
           ful to one another and keep their relationship pure.
               Third, marriage means that a couple becomes one
           flesh through the act of physical union. If this union is
           broken by unfaithfulness, it is a terrible sin, because –
           in God’s eyes – everything in the marriage is smashed.
           What was first a blessing becomes a curse, and noth-
           ing is left except the hope that through repentance and
           God’s grace something new can be given again. There
              is no excuse for adultery, especially not for anyone who
              believes in Jesus.
                 The blessing of God is on any couple – young or
              old – who experiences unity in the right order: first
              unity of one spirit, then oneness of heart and soul, and
              then physical union. Too often a couple becomes one
              in body when there is little oneness of heart and only
              very little oneness of spirit.

Mt. 5:27-32   We take Jesus’ words in the Sermon on the Mount
              about lust, divorce, and remarriage very seriously and
              maintain a sharp stand against sexual immorality. No
              Bruderhof member may divorce and then remarry,
              and no remarried person may become a committed
              member while continuing to live in such a marriage
              relationship if a former spouse is still living.
                  We believe in life-long faithfulness, also for the
              sake of any children there may be. The covenant of
              marriage between two people must be a covenant for
              life, and it cannot be tampered with: “What God has
Mt. 19:6      joined together, let no man put asunder.”

              The basis of a true marriage is love to Jesus. You must
              accept Jesus as a living power into your relationship.
              You must surrender completely to him.
Eph. 5:23        It is the task of the man to represent Jesus as the
              head, but this also means that he must follow Jesus’
              example of lowliness. A man who does not want to be
              lowly cannot be a disciple.
                  The task of the woman is to represent Jesus as the
                Body, the church. She must take the example of Mary,
Lk. 1:38        who said, “Here am I, the lowly handmaiden of the
                Lord.” If she cannot accept this, she is not a Christian.

                In the deepest sense, marriage leads to community. As
Gen. 2:18       God said, “It is not good for man to be alone.” Out
                of one being he made two – man and woman – and in
                marriage these two become one again.
                    A marriage will last only if both partners have hum-
                ble and open hearts. Jealousy and self-importance
                will always try to enter their relationship and separate
                them, but love will overcome, because it is “neither
1 Cor. 13:4-6   arrogant nor rude. It does not insist on its own way;
                it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at
                wrong, but rejoices in the truth.” This also means that
                love forgives. When you are married, you find out day
                by day that your partner is not perfect. But if you can
                forgive your spouse, every day will be a new beginning,
                and every day will contain new joy. “Love bears all
1 Cor. 13:7     things, hopes and believes all things.” Nothing is too
                heavy to carry if there is love. Even if a difficult situa-
                tion confronts you as a couple, love will hold you firm
                with hope and faith, for it endures all things.

                Faithfulness in marriage is of crucial importance for
                the inner life of each partner. There is a deep connec-
                tion between married love in its spiritual and emo-
tional aspects on the one hand, and sexual union on
the other. When two people become one flesh in a
true marriage, their physical uniting has a very deep
connection with God. Should their sexual relationship
become separated from him, it becomes a sinful thing
even within marriage. Having a marriage certificate
does not give one the freedom to live for the body and
its appetites.

Because of the unique intimacy and mystery of the sex-
ual sphere in marriage, an unparalleled uniting takes
place when each partner surrenders completely
to the other. This uniting is the organic expression of
married love, whose very goal is the mutual giving of
self. Each partner knows the secret of the other, and
it is God’s will that only this one man and this one
woman keep that secret and do not pass it on to any-
one else.

Our main calling is to follow Jesus, whatever the cost.
If we are given the gift of a partner, it should double
our dedication to Jesus, not weaken it. Marriage
should lead us closer to Jesus.
   We pray that those who enter marriage may allow
nothing to separate them from the love of God, what-
ever may happen; for his love is always there to hold
each of them and both of them together through need
and suffering as well as through times of joy.
   The bond of marriage is a promise to be faithful
through thick and thin, through good days and hard
days, and to be completely dependent on the love of
God for the whole of life.

One of the greatest dangers in marriage is nagging –
showing dissatisfaction over very little things because
one feels one’s partner is not perfect. If a person always
thinks he is in the right, he will not be open to love.
He might fear God and listen to his will and his Word,
but the Enemy will always be watching to tempt him,
even if in little things. When nagging begins in a mar-
riage, love will slowly cool off. We must be aware of
this danger. But if we are willing to dare all things,
hope all things, and forgive all things, then every day
will be a new experience of love, even if our marriage
goes through hard days.

From a letter: I think you must seriously ask yourself
whether you have shown sufficient love and patience to
your wife, and whether you went out of your way
to understand her situation and her needs. A husband
should lead the family, but this means that his first
duty is to understand the needs of his wife and chil-
dren. Without understanding them, he cannot show
them love or give them leadership.
                From a letter: When the situation between you and
                your husband becomes clear in your hearts before
                God, who alone sees everything, you will recognize
                that there are wrongs on both sides. Read 1 Corin-
                thians 13:4 –7 with your inner eye turned to your

1 Cor. 13:4-7        Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one.
                     Love is neither boastful nor conceited, neither
                     rude nor selfish; not quick to take offense. Love
                     keeps no score of wrongs, does not gloat over
                     other’s sins, but delights in the truth. There is
                     nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its
                     faith, its hope, and its endurance.

                If you read this, I think you will feel that both of you
                are guilty, and that you both have offended love in
                your marriage.

                From a letter: I think you are right that your husband
                is wounded in his heart. You cannot heal his hurt,
                but you can humble yourself. Humility has a healing
                effect on a person whom we have hurt. The Bible says,
Eph. 5:22-24    “Wives, be subject to your husbands” and “The hus-
                band is the head of the family.”
                   I know you have your own burden to carry, and you
                are right, you must lay it down at the foot of the cross
                so that healing and forgiveness can be given. Part of
                laying everything down at the cross is feeling sorry to
      the depths of our hearts for what we have done. I think
      of you both in great love and will pray for you.

      From a letter: Dear brother, be absolutely silent be-
      fore God, and listen with your heart to the voice of
      God. Seek him together with your wife. It is God who
      joined you together; it is God who will hold you
      together; it is God who will protect you.

Sex   The sexual aspect of marriage is by no means the most
      important part of the relationship. The significance
      of sex is exaggerated today in a thoroughly unhealthy
      way. Love between man and woman is seen too often
      only in an animal sense, as a sexual impulse, and its
      true significance is utterly missed.

      Obviously, there are differences in the biological make-
      up of the male and the female. But it is completely
      materialistic to think that the difference between man
      and woman is merely biological. A woman longs to
      absorb her beloved one into herself. She is designed by
      nature to receive and to endure; to conceive, to bear,
      to nurse, and to protect. It is part of the evil of our
      time that women revolt against carrying the burden
      and pain of pregnancy and birth. A man, on the other
      hand, desires to enter into his beloved one and become
      one with her; he is made to initiate and penetrate
      rather than to receive.
                   A true man represents Christ as the head, even if he
               is a very weak person. But this must not be taken as if
               he were an overlord. His is the apostolic task: “Go out
Mt. 28:19-20   and gather! Teach all people. Submerge them in the
               atmosphere of God, in the life of the Father, the Son,
               and the Holy Spirit.” Women are in no way excluded
               from this task, but it is in a special way the duty of the

               It is quite clear that the differences between man and
               woman are not absolute. A true woman will represent
               Christ and the apostolic truth, and a true man will
               have in him the submission and humility of Mary.

               Today’s religion is psychology, and psychology analyzes
               man as an animal and not as an image of God. Freud
               is right on many points, but he forgets the main factor:
               God. Because he analyzes man as if he were not made
               in the image of God, he explains the sexual urge as
               man’s motivating force. He even sees the relationship
               of child to father and mother as based on sex.
                   Psychologists are right in teaching that there are
               many urges in us – not only sexual urges, but also the
               desire for property and for power. But their conclusion
               that it is not good to suppress these urges is wrong. It
               completely ignores the reality of God and the fact that
               man was created in his image.
            The love and unity between two people in a marriage
            is deeply symbolic. The Apostle Paul says, “I take it to
Eph. 5:32   mean Christ and the church.” Such are the holy terms
            in which marriage is presented, and for this reason it
            needs to be completely subordinated to God. Its real
            nature can be understood only in relation to Christ
            and to eternity. The moment the sensual or sexual
            sphere is isolated from God and treated as an end in
            itself, the soul becomes defiled and sick. Certainly, sex
            is something distinct from love; yet there must be a
            deep harmony between sex and married love.

            Sex is intrinsically intimate and mysterious, and it
            should remain so because of its close connection with
            love, the deepest and most spiritual of all experiences.
            It would be a serious error to believe that when two
            people meant by God for each other become one flesh,
            it is solely for the purpose of procreation. It is simply
            not true that marriage is purposeful only in this lim-
            ited sense.

            In contrast to all other areas of bodily experience, the
            sphere of sex is deep in and of itself. Its sensuality has
            certain essential elements that penetrate to the very
            roots of man’s physical being and directly into his soul.
            It has a depth and an earnestness that reaches far be-
            yond the limits of the body and into the experiences of
            mind and spirit.
    Therefore when a man surrenders himself to lust he
is defiled in quite a different way than, for instance,
by gluttony. Satisfying sexual lust wounds man in his
innermost heart and being; it attacks and harms the
soul at its core.
    The sexual aspect of the sensual sphere has a central
place in man because there body, soul, and spirit meet
as they do in no other area of human experience. Thus
the sexual life has an intimacy all its own which the
individual instinctively hides from others. Sex is his
secret, something that he feels touches on his inmost
being. Every disclosure in this sphere reveals something
intimate and personal and lets another person into his
secret. That is why the area of sex is also the area of
shame: we are ashamed to unveil our secret before oth-

How dreadful is a time and age in which man so de-
spises himself and his human worth that all sense of
shame is lost! To the pure man the sexual sphere is his
own individual secret, and when it is uncovered, it is
uniquely revealed as the complete surrender of self in
wedlock to only one person.

The sex revolution of today is destroying the inner
soul of man. We want to witness with our lives to
something quite different: the fact that absolute purity
and faithfulness in marriage are possible.
The whole idea of the sexual relationship between
man and woman comes from God. It is nothing to
be ashamed of; it is simply too holy to be constantly
talked about.

Because of its unique nature, sex can take two very
different forms: it can be an awe-inspiring, mysterious,
noble, chaste, and peaceful act, in which case it will
have a redeeming effect. But it can also be a forbidden
surrender to naked lust, and then it will sicken the
soul of man and become the domain of evil and of
diabolical appeal.

Desecration of any sort is sin. If I abuse a human be-
ing by treating him as a thing instead of a human
being, I violate his dignity as an image of God. It is
desecration to seduce another human being with no
thought of responsibility for his or her soul. It is a
crime against the spirit, soul, and body of the other
person and against oneself.
   To seduce a person of the same sex is even more ter-
rible. It is godless and perverse, and the Old and New
Testaments, as well as the early church fathers, speak
earnestly against it.
To enter marriage solely in order to satisfy physical de-
sire is completely out of the question. But one cannot
deny the senses entirely. When you hear lovely singing,
you do not deny your sense of hearing. And when you
see the beauty of God’s creation, you do not deny your
sense of sight. When you smell spring and flowers, you
do not deny your sense of smell. The same is true of
the sense of sex. Divorced from God, sex is horrible
darkness; that is true. But if you try to deny it com-
pletely, you force yourself into something unnatural.

People come much too close to the fire of love and
sex without any inner foundation. They go into sexual
relationships lightly, without reverence for God, and
their inner life is destroyed. Even faithfulness in mar-
riage has become more and more uncommon. Yet God
remains faithful, and he wants us to be faithful.

From a letter: Sex has no purpose apart from mar-
riage. Outside of marriage it is sinful. The Bible de-
mands chastity before it and outside of it; that is very
clear. So if you have not always followed the chaste and
pure way, then you must find forgiveness in order to
stand upright before God. But Jesus wants to give you
this forgiveness.
Celibacy       We must recognize that to give up marriage is a great
               sacrifice. But to belong completely and undividedly
               to Christ is a great gift. In a sense, a relationship with
               Christ can acquire deeper meaning for a single person
               than for a married person, because his or her heart can
               be directed solely toward Christ, and a complete and
               undivided personal relationship with him is possible.
                   Christ compares the kingdom of God to a marriage
               banquet more than once. He calls the soul to union
               with him, and he wants to give himself undividedly to
               each person. There is nothing that surpasses the in-
               ner warmth, tenderness, and fruitfulness of unity with
               Jesus. This highest, most intimate bond of the soul can
               fill any void. Think, for instance, of the many believers
               through history who suffered in prison for years – even
               decades – for the sake of their faith. Through grace,
               each of us can find this bond of love and unity too.
Lk. 14:16-20       In Luke 14:16 – 20, Jesus speaks of those who reject
               his invitation to the banquet for love of other things.
               Ultimately, it is a matter of becoming totally undivid-
               ed. In order to be wholly filled by God and completely
               free to follow him, we must be inwardly empty of all
               else. The danger of a divided heart is especially great
               when we are concerned with things or people wor-
               thy of love. When our inner eye is no longer directed
               toward Christ alone, then motherhood, fatherhood,
               family, children, and even the community of
               life and love in marriage can become idols that easily
               absorb our love.
   We must give our hearts solely to God. Our love to
him and to Christ must become so strong that we are
joyfully prepared for any sacrifice. It is our prayer that
we may die so that Christ may radiate from us; that we
may no longer live for ourselves, but Christ in us.

From a letter: You ask if Jesus is calling you to re-
nounce marriage for the sake of the kingdom of hea-
ven. I believe that such a call to celibacy is possible,
and not only for those with a Catholic background.
But I would be hesitant to make such a vow hastily; it
would have to be very carefully considered beforehand.

From a letter: I can well imagine your inner need and
struggle in giving up marriage, though you should
know that you are not the only one who has gone
through pain and lacks inner peace in this question.
Ultimately, we all have to be willing to be used by God
as he wills. The thought that God does not love you is
certainly of the devil. You are clinging too much to one
great gift – marriage – while there are other much great-
er gifts that God also wants to give you. The greatest
gift is a burning love to Christ. We should be willing
to give up everything for this.

From a letter: In every human being there is the long-
ing for a partner, and there is nothing wrong in this –
it is put into man by God. Yet in discipleship to Jesus
we can find the fulfillment of this longing without
marriage, even if it is rarely given without great pain,
many tears, and anguish of heart.
    I wish for you that you might find such a healing
in Christ – such a fullness and richness that there is no
place in your life left void or empty. This is possible
only through finding a deep dedication to Jesus him-
self and through feeling his grace in the depths of your
    May your life be guided only by Christ, in whatever
way he wants it, so that when you come to the end of
your life, or when Christ returns to this earth, you will
stand as a prepared virgin with a trimmed lamp.
                 Family Life *
Children         Jesus said that only children – or those who are like
Mk. 10:14-15     them – will enter the kingdom of God. Unlike adults,
                 children are not divided, dualistic beings. They are one
                 whole; they are vulnerable; they are wholly dependent
                 on father and mother. Christ calls us to become like
                 children, and this means we must drop everything and
                 become completely dependent on God and on one

                 If we as parents love God with all our heart and soul,
                 our children will have the right reverence for us, and
                 we will also have reverence for our children and for
cf. Mt. 18:3-6   the wonderful mystery of becoming and being a child.
                 Reverence for the spirit that moves between parent and
                 child is the basic element of a true family life.

Mt. 18:1-3
                 The disciples came to Jesus and asked, ‘Who is the
                 greatest in the kingdom of heaven?’ He called a child,
                 set him in front of them, and said, ‘I tell you this:

                 * For this chapter extensive use has been made of the author's pamphlet
                 The Purity of Childhood (Plough, 1974).
            unless you turn around and become like children, you
            will never enter the kingdom of heaven.’”
               These words of Jesus tell us what great value the
            soul of a little child has in the eyes of God. We can be
Lk. 12:7    sure that every hair of every child is counted by God,
Mt. 18:10   and that every child has a guardian angel who always
            has access to the throne of God.
               The innocence of a child is an enormous blessing.
            However, there is an inclination to sin in every child,
            and therefore we must lead children in the right way so
            that they do not lose their childlikeness – that is, their
Mt. 18:6    purity of heart. It is a terrible crime to lead a child to
               It is very important for parents and educators to
            implant in each child a deep love for God, for Jesus,
            and for other people. Parents and educators should tell
            children about Jesus: how he was born in a stable, how
            he lived and worked, how he healed the sick, how he
            loved children and blessed them, how he died on the
            cross and rose again, and what significance the angel-
            world had in his life. It is important to have a childlike
            attitude toward the angel-world and toward the life of
            Jesus. Children experience spiritual things in a much
            more real and deep way than we suspect.

            It is more important to lead children to a burning
            love for Christ than to teach them – much less force
            them – to say regular prayers that do not come from
the heart each morning or evening. Children can learn
to love God through songs and stories from the Bible
and from hearing about the life of Jesus. The first task
of parents and educators is to awaken in children a
love for Christ. Then an inner urge to pray to him will
also awaken in them.

It is no use to know the Bible inside out, or to make
children learn it inside out, if God does not speak
directly to the heart. We need to be very careful not
to put religious pressure on children; we want them to
have a simple, childlike attitude toward God, toward
Jesus, and toward the Bible.

Just as we must cleanse our own hearts continually, so
we must prepare the hearts of our children so that they
may become good soil for the Word of God. God suf-
fers when a heart is like a hard-trodden or rocky path,
or when it is full of thorns. Preaching, however, does
not make good soil; it often hardens the heart.

We have our own nursery for our children from the
age of six weeks and up, and we look after our young
people at least through high school, if not further.*

* The Bruderhof has its own nursery, kindergarten, and first through tenth
grades, with personalised study toward the GED. Further training beyond
that is considered and made available on an individual basis.
            But we do not believe that the church community has
            the main authority for educating children – the parents
            do. The home is the foundation of education. Those
            who care for children at school or elsewhere can only
            complement the spiritual atmosphere of the home.
               A child’s inner security begins in his relationship
            with his parents. The Ten Commandments do not say
Ex. 20:12   in vain, “Honor father and mother.” We have found
            that when a child does not learn to honor his father
            and mother, he often finds it hard to fit into society in
            later life.

            From a letter: For a child the fear of God must begin
            with fear of father and mother. The idea of fearing
Dt. 6:13    God is biblical, but this does not mean that a child
            should be afraid of his parents or afraid of God. It sim-
            ply means he should have deep reverence, deep respect,
            and deep love for them.

            From a letter: It has been said that the first four years
            of a child’s life are the most crucial in his education.* If
            a child has reverence for his parents and for God when
            he is three or four years old, then the battle is won. But
            if his self-will is victorious at this age, it will be very
            difficult to overcome later.

            * See Friedrich Wilhelm Foerster, Hauptaufgaben der Erziehung (Freiburg,
            1959), p. 69.
From a letter: As regards children’s education, I would
say that in general I am wary of extremes – of the pen-
dulum swinging from one side to the other, from hard-
ness to softness, from depression to exaggerated joy,
from a negative approach to a positive approach that
no longer sees any real problems. One must find a way
that tackles all difficulties in patience, joy, and loving

As parents we must overcome the illusion that our
children are good. We must be careful not to have too
rosy a view of them, and we must not be touchy if
someone questions their behavior. We must love our
children so much that we are ready to fight for their

From a letter: You say that you feel completely help-
less in connection with your child’s difficult behavior.
Please do not hide behind this excuse. All of us are
helpless and dependent on God; you are no different.
But it is a sin to throw up your hands and cry out,
“We are helpless.” As parents, you are called by God to
help your child and to love him, but also to fight for
him and to be firm or even strict when necessary. The
main thing is for you to win your child’s heart.
From a letter: You are concerned about your chil-
dren’s selfishness, self-centeredness, and unpeaceful-
ness. Take a firm stand against these things. Because
your children want to be the center of attention, they
become, as you write, bossy, touchy, and disrespectful.
Turn away from the softness that you have confessed;
but don’t become harsh. That is not the answer either.
You must find the right firmness in God’s love. He
does not tolerate the things you speak of. We fail our
children when our emotional feelings and ties push us

From a letter: I plead with you to fight for your chil-
dren. There is no reason for despair if one fails again
and again. One must simply keep up the fight. It can-
not be tolerated that a child goes to the dogs. Be com-
passionate, be strict, be gentle again. It will not always
be easy going, but you are responsible before God for
your children.

From a letter: I want to encourage you to have pa-
tience with your children. A certain sharpness toward
children is healthy, but impatience is not. May God
give us patient hearts.

From a letter: Thank you for your letter about your
son. His behavior is quite normal for a two-year-old.
In my own upbringing, if my parents said something,
then they meant it, and there was no way around it.
This does not mean that we were always obedient at
two years of age. But later it would have been unthink-
able for us to disobey our father or mother. They were
not hard on us, but they were firm, and they did not
tolerate the slightest doubt that they meant what they

From a letter: Thank you for your letter in which you
tell about the trouble you have with your three-year-
old son. Children at this young age need an inwardly
sure hand. Outbursts of sharpness are not good for
them, but serious, firm, and kind leadership will help.

From a letter: It is quite natural that the difficult situ-
ation with your daughter pains you. It would be un-
natural if a mother did not feel such pain. But use it
to deepen your faith in God, in Christ, and in the
church. Then you will be able to find faith for your
daughter and help her.
   Augustine, the mystic, lived a sinful life as a young
man, but he had a very devout mother, Monica, who
did not stop believing and praying for him until he
broke down and repented. Later he became a servant
of Christ, and for centuries he has influenced people in
their search for God. I wish you the faith of Monica.
It begins with the pain you are now suffering. In spite
of all our pain, God is always greater. I greet you with
much love.

From a letter: It is not a good trend that in our cen-
tury such important mysteries of life as the birth of a
baby are explained in a purely scientific way. Even if we
can give a biological explanation, and even if we can
explain how two cells grow in the mother’s womb, this
is only half the truth. The most important things – the
coming of a soul, the first smile, the capacities of the
human heart and the riches it can experience – can
never be explained. We stand before the invisible real-
ity of eternity.

It can be damaging to a child to tell him too much
about sex, birth, and death, and everything must be
done to avoid it. We definitely do not mean that chil-
dren should be brought up as prudes. But we believe
that birth and death exist only in connection with the
world of heaven and that they should be explained to
children only in relation to God.

In spite of all that is wonderful about children, we
must recognize that because they are human, they have
inherited an inclination to sin. Whether it takes the
form of lying, stealing, a lack of reverence for parents
and educators, or sexual impurity, evil must be fought
in every child.
   We must be careful not to spoil our children, even
from a very early age. It harms a child’s character to
bring him up indulgently. Flabbiness is a sign of self-
ishness, and selfishness always leads to sin. Softness can
also arise through an unhealthy emotional relationship
between a child and his parent or educator.
   How to fight against sin in children is a very dif-
ficult question. If there are indecencies, for example,
which mostly begin with children exposing themselves
to each other and sometimes touching each other, the
child will feel instinctively that this is not right. These
indecencies almost always involve lying. We must be
careful not to make too much of such things among
children. It may only draw their attention to the sexual
area all the more. The best thing, perhaps, is to give
them a small punishment and so close the matter, and
then help them to think of other things.
   We grown-ups too easily forget that many things do
not mean the same to a child as they do to us, and we
must never project our ideas and feelings and experi-
ences onto a child’s mind. We must also never forget
that it is in a certain way natural for children to go
through periods of sexual curiosity. This cannot be
mis- taken for sin. But we should lead our children in
such a way that their souls remain pure and innocent.
Too much questioning can harm a child, because
through fear he may become more and more entangled
in lies.
   It is a great injustice to label children or adolescents,
especially those who have offended in the sexual area.
In our assessment of childish offenses, we should be-
ware of coming too quickly to harsh conclusions about
the character of a child and his future development.
Rather, we should help him to find new interests and
to make a joyful new beginning.
   We know that we can find the way to the heart of
any child by appealing to his conscience. Every child
has an instinctive longing in his heart for a pure con-
science, and we should support this longing, for he will
suffer if his conscience is burdened.

There is a certain point at which a child is no longer
a child in the true sense of the word. The moment he
sins consciously, he ceases to be a child. It is then the
task of his parents and teachers to help him find repen-
tance, the experience of Jesus on the cross, and
a conversion that leads to the forgiveness of sins.
Through the cross a lost childhood can be restored.

From a letter: There is no question that children differ
in how they learn. Some children learn more through
hearing, some through feeling, some through seeing,
and so on. We must try to be just toward each child.
We do not want to push every child toward an aca-
        demic career; that would be out of the question. The
        main thing is that a child is surrounded by love.

        Academic work should and must be done, but woe to
        us if it is done at the expense of the childlike heart, or
        of the child himself. The stupid arrogance of teachers
        who think of themselves and others of their choosing
        as intellectually gifted, to the exclusion of still others,
        is pure sin. We must be ruled by Christ, the head of
        the Body. In him is true childlikeness, compassion,
        and mercy.

        From a letter to a young child: In order to hear Jesus
        speak to us, it is important to listen to our hearts.
        When we feel love to God and to Jesus, to our father
        and mother and brothers and sisters, that is the voice
        of Jesus.

Youth   It is a privilege to lead young people to Jesus, to show
        them how marvelous God’s world is despite the terrible
        impurity, corruption, and darkness of our age. For
        young people it is especially important that their rever-
        ence for God and their respect for father and mother is
        never extinguished, even if they do sin consciously.
           Parents must seek a relationship of trust with their
        children from earliest childhood on and not wait until
        problems arise, say around the age of five or six. If
they wait too long, they may be able to gain outward
obedience only and not the inner response and respect
necessary to solve problems like lying, indecency, and
disobedience. But if a relationship of trust and respect
is achieved, it will be impossible for a child to resist his
    Some young people go through more difficult peri-
ods of development than others, and we must be care-
ful not to be too harsh and judgmental toward them.
The main thing is that they are led to repentance,
conversion, and faith. I do not believe that this can be
achieved through hard punishment. As long as there
is even a little flame of reverence for God and parents
within them, the way to their hearts will remain open.
However, where the last spark of reverence has been
extinguished in a young person, one can only fight for
conversion through prayer. We must remember that
conversion can never be brought about by persuasion.

From a letter: Your son is now an adolescent, and
you have a big responsibility. I would tell him that the
magnetic powers of attraction between boys and girls
are quite natural, but that they must be ruled by God
and reserved for the one person whom God might
later give him in marriage. You can also tell him about
the physical relationship between husband and wife. I
think you have already laid a good foundation for his
knowledge of the facts of life, but in high school he
will hear plenty about these things, and it is better he
hears them from you first.

From a letter: I would speak very clearly and openly
to your son about the physical changes he will go
through, and tell him that if he keeps his body pure
now, it will not be difficult later in life. If he is not
able to keep himself pure now, he will have a hard
struggle later. I would also tell him that sex is meant
only for marriage. There is no other place for it, and
he should keep himself pure for the one girl God may
one day give him. It may not be easy to put this into
words – everything you say must be said in the light of
God and with reverence for him. But I am sure he will
show you the right way.

My father always had an open heart for young people,
but he never made concessions to worldliness or eroti-
cism. Having a big heart never means making conces-
sions to the devil.

From a letter to a 17-year-old: Dear brother, I am glad
that you want to make a new beginning. I think you
have been a very proud young man. Read the Old and
New Testaments, and you will see how pride hinders
God from speaking to man and working in him. Your
everyday life has revolved around yourself, though I
            thank God that you now want to turn away from your
            self-centeredness. Be an example of dedication and
            humility, and be a witness for Jesus at the high school.
            This is something so badly needed in our time.

            From a letter: I often think of the words of Jesus,
Mt. 16:26   “What good is it for a man to gain the whole world at
            the price of his soul?” especially when I see what our
            youth is taught today in the area of psychology. I am
            afraid for their souls. What makes me uneasy is that
            man’s lower instincts are put in the center and viewed
            as harmless simply because they are natural. It is a ter-
            rible thing to teach people about the human soul with-
            out teaching them about its relationship to God.

            From a letter to a disabled child: You have a weak
            body, but you have a living soul. Thank God for this.
            There are many people in this world who have a strong
            body and a dull soul. Actually all people, even if they
            are strong and healthy, depend on God and on Jesus.
            Only sometimes they do not realize it. The wonderful
            thing is that you do. Hold firmly to this, and Jesus will
            lead you through everything.

            From a letter: You are never too young to give your
            life to Jesus, and you are never too young to feel his
closeness. I am thankful that you want to give every-
thing up to God and that you want to be humble.
Hold on to this longing through all struggles – your
life will surely bring them, for there is no life of dis-
cipleship without need and struggle. I wish you the
protection of God in all you may go through. May
the pierced hands of Jesus hold you firmly as you hold
firmly to him.

From a letter: You are right; the main thing is not
joining the Bruderhof, but following Christ. If you are
clear about this, God will show you the way to do it
best. We will support you even if your way is not the
way of community.

From a letter: To think only about God’s unending
patience and forgiveness makes him into something
quite different from what he really is. God is to be
feared: it is terrible to fall into his hands. Your idea of
God is not God; it is the tool of an impudent young
woman. You have been running your own life. I plead
with you to have reverence for the wrath of God.

From a letter: It is good to realize that following Jesus
may cost much suffering and perhaps even death for
his sake. In this connection you must take a stand
against the evil you meet in the world, also at the high
              school. I can well understand that there is a lot that
              tempts you, especially in the way of impurity. But if
              you take a stand for Jesus, his clear light will give you a
              disgust for all sin. May Jesus guide you every day, and
              may you never stray from his will.

              From a letter to a 13-year-old: Already at your age
              you have to make a decision either for or against Jesus.
              If you do not decide for him, you will decide against
              him. This is simply a fact; you cannot sit on the fence.

              From a letter to a college student: Jesus says that he is
Jn. 10:14     the good shepherd and that his sheep know him and
              know his voice. You belong to his flock, and I hope
              you find moments of quiet to hear his voice for inner
              refreshment. I know there are many things in the city
              that distract you and tire you out, including the many
              hours you have to work every day. But it remains that
              your inner life is more important than your getting a
              degree, even if you are already very close to reaching
              that goal. I encourage you to hold on. It is good for
              one’s character to stick something out to the end.

Family Ties   Christ laid down his life for the church, and he loves
              her deeply. But he is also the Savior of the church, and
              the church is subject to him. In marriage, the bride is
              compared to the church and the bridegroom to Christ.
               Christ loves his church not only with gentle words: he
Rev. 2:16,23   also disciplines her with sharpness. We must be careful
               that a soft emotionalism does not enter our family life,
               either between husband and wife or between parents
Eph. 5:22-33   and children. Emotionalism ruins the Christlike clarity
               in a relationship.

               From a letter: I understand your struggle to fulfill the
               commandment to honor father and mother. You write
               that you love your father very much, and that is the
               main thing – that is the same as honoring him. But
               the fact that you have to disapprove of his ways is also
               right and true before God. Jesus says, “If anyone comes
Lk. 14:26      to me and does not hate his own father and mother,
               wife and children, brothers and sisters – yes, his own
               life – he cannot be my disciple.” The word “hate”
               should not shock you. Jesus does not teach hatred.
               Here “hate” means taking a stand against something
               wrong. If you accept both this passage and the com-
Ex. 20:12      mand “Honor father and mother” as a guide,
               I think you will find the right attitude to your father
               and mother.

               Jesus’ demand for holiness reaches even into the clos-
               est family relationships. He says, “Anyone who loves
Mt. 10:37-38   his father or mother more than me is not worthy of
               me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than
               me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take
               his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.” If we
             want to be disciples of Jesus we must take these words
             seriously. Jesus also says, “By gaining his life, a man
Mt. 10:39    will lose it, but by losing his life for my sake, he will
             gain it.” So if we lose ourselves completely for Jesus’
             sake, we will gain eternal life. But if we cling to our
             own ideas and ideals, to our property, family, or chil-
             dren, we will lose everything.

             From a letter: I think you have tied your grown chil-
             dren too tightly to yourself, which has also brought
             division between you and your husband. Your daugh-
             ters were not free before God. Parents must give their
             children freedom already when they are small, but
             even more so when they have grown up. I do not mean
             freedom to do evil, but freedom from all emotional ties
             that bind them in a wrong way to father and mother.

             We need to learn the meaning of Jesus’ words, “He
Lk. 14:26    who does not hate father, mother, wife, and children
             cannot be my disciple.” Jesus does not mean a feeling
             of hatred; the New Testament says, “He who hates his
1 Jn. 3:15   brother is a murderer.” Jesus means that we must put
             him first, above the emotional ties of family life. Of-
             ten these emotional ties are mixed with mammonism,
             though not always. We must be sharp on ourselves and
             take the decisive stand of Christ. It is clear that a fam-
             ily without love is godless, but a family ruled by the
             clouded emotions of blood-ties will have no love to
God and Christ. Let us love one another only with the
love of Christ and the love of the Holy Spirit. Then the
God-given ties between father, mother, and children
will have his blessing.
Illness and Death
From a letter: All sickness is a form of evil, yet we
must accept it as from God’s hand. It is a paradox – a
paradox that we can also see on the cross. The cross
was God’s way of redeeming man, but it was also a
work of the devil.

From a letter: I can well understand the fear you feel
in the face of your upcoming operation; I would also
be afraid. But I believe that you are in the hands of
God and that he understands your fear. In the Bible
there are endless encouraging verses which tell us not
to fear but to remain firm in God. That is what I wish
for you. Give your life trustingly into his hands.

From a letter: I would advise you not to be so wor-
ried about your health. It would drive the healthiest
person crazy to constantly feel his pulse or listen to his
heartbeat. The real question is your fear of death and
the unknown. Most probably you will still live a num-
ber of decades. But you will have to face the question
of eternity. All of us should live life so as to be able to
face eternity at any time. Shortly before my aunt died,
she seemed to glimpse eternity, and she said, “It is so
wonderful – so wonderful! It is so much more real than
life down here on earth.” This attitude was the fulfill-
ment of a dedicated life. I wish you this and greet you
with love.

From a letter: You write that you seem to be going
downhill physically. But I believe that Jesus will help
you with his love and power, if not through physical
healing, then by giving you inner peace and joy to bear
your sickness. I thank God that you are always able to
find inner peace in turning to Jesus. It is a gift that you
can see your need as small, at least in the face of the
need of the whole world. Such a recognition can come
only from God. I pray for strength and guidance for

From a letter: Don’t fall prey to your dark and fear-
ful thoughts. If you are afraid of everything – afraid
of yourself, your weakness, your sinfulness, afraid of
other people, afraid of making mistakes, and on and
on – your soul will become sick.
    You are right in saying, “The only true healing is
faith in Jesus.” What a wonderful truth this is! In Jesus
all fears vanish. Hold on to this.
Jas. 5:14-16   James writes that if someone is seriously ill, he should
               call the elders of the church, and they should pray for
               him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord.
               He also writes in this connection, “Confess your sins
               to one another and pray for one another, and you will
               find healing; for the true prayer of the righteous has
               real power.”
                   In this sense we intercede for someone who is very
               ill with the laying on of hands, anointing him in order
               to give him our full inner support and full forgive-
               ness – if there is anything to be forgiven. No matter
               how serious his illness, his life is in the arms of God
               and the church.

               From a letter: What must we do to receive the gift of
1 Cor. 12      healing? In 1 Corinthians 12 it clearly says that the gift
               of healing is given to the church, although not to every
               member. The condition for receiving such a great gift
               is spiritual poverty and a pure heart before God. So if
               the gift of healing is not given to us, it is very possibly
               our own fault. But it also might be that it is not God’s

               The powerful gift of healing which God gave the
               Blumhardts* was remarkable. Yet at the end of his
               life the younger Blumhardt withdrew more and more

               * Johann Christoph Blumhardt (1805-1880), south-German pastor, author,
               and theologian; Christoph Friedrich Blumhardt (1842-1919), his son and
from using this gift, because he felt God was no longer
being honored in the miraculous healings that took
place. People were healed, but only in the flesh. And
afterward they talked and boasted about their healing.
Some were even honored and glorified for it. Blum-
hardt felt that unless healing was accompanied by re-
pentance, God could no longer work through him.
   Blumhardt’s attitude should challenge us: when
God gives us a gift, he wants us to accept it quietly. If
the grace of healing is given to us, we ourselves should
not be honored; God should be honored.
   Blumhardt often warned, “When grace is given to
you, keep it a secret between you and God, and don’t
make a religious show of it. Remain natural and honor
God.” He also emphasized that healing is not the most
important thing; sickness is no sin. It is more impor-
tant to give your life to God, even if you are sick, than
to be healed and then forget God. “If God heals you,
be joyful, but be just as joyful in sickness.”

From a letter: In these last days God has spoken to us
all through the sudden death in your family. We want
to carry your pain with you. I know it will not go away
quickly. But it may be God’s will that it doesn’t. Pain
deepens something in one’s heart and life.

After the death of a baby: It is very hard to understand
why a human life is sent by God to live on earth for
only one hour. We stand here before a mystery that
God alone understands. We may ask, “Why did this
happen? Why? Why?” Only God knows. And we be-
lieve in him and in his Son, the Good Shepherd, also
for little lambs such as this tiny baby.

Shortly before the death of the author’s child: We simply
do not know what the will of God is – whether this
child is destined for life or not – but we do know that if
it is his will, the child will become healthy. I feel it as a
promise, after the doctors have said they can do noth-
ing, that if we believe, Jesus Christ can do anything.
In some way, through this little child, the will of God
and the mercy of God will be shown. Only when man
ceases to be able to do anything can the work of Christ
begin. He can work only when we give him our trust
and our faith completely and without reserve.
We should depend on nothing material or external,
neither on money nor on doctors, but on Jesus Christ

After the death of the author’s child: Death is destruc-
tion; death is division and separation. But Jesus unites,
and perfect life means perfect unity. Where Jesus is at
work, unity is created. Therefore we challenge all to
take part in this unity. Those who do not gather, scat-
ter and separate, and those who separate and destroy
serve death. But those who unite serve Jesus, and one
day he will gather them into eternity.
              From a letter: Dear sister, I can well understand that
              you still suffer under the loss of your father. It is never
              easy to cope with death and the need it brings; death
              is the enemy of God and will be overcome only at the
              last resurrection.
                  But we must also see that for those who have fol-
              lowed Christ, death means closeness to him. It is un-
              derstandable that the thought of eternity shakes you.
              But you should not look fearfully into the future. Give
              everything over to Jesus.

              From a letter: I am very sorry that you have to bear
              such a heavy loss. A painful experience like this, the
              death of your child, always reminds us that this earth is
              not yet fully our home, nor will be until Jesus Christ is
              its only ruler, and sin, death, sorrow, fear, and pain are
              completely overcome and vanquished. But until that
              day – the greatest of all days – we can be sure that your
              child and all children are in Jesus’ hands.

              In regard to the question of praying for someone who
              has died, I have to admit that I do not know just what
Jn. 5:24-28   the right answer is. I don’t know whether you are fa-
              miliar with the following passage from the Gospel of
              John, or whether you have ever accepted it in your
              heart. It says:

                    Truly, I say to you, he who hears my word and
                    believes Him who sent me, has eternal life; he
                does not come into judgment but has passed
                from death to life. Truly, I say to you, the hour
                is coming, and now is, when the dead will hear
                the voice of the Son of God, and those who hear
                will live. For as the Father has life in himself,
                so he has granted the Son also to have life in
                himself and has given him authority to execute
                judgment, because he is the Son of Man. Do not
                marvel at this; for the hour is coming when all
                who are in the tombs will hear his voice.

           Read this passage and consider it deeply before God.
           Perhaps it will show you the depth of his love.

           All men fear death. But Christ promises something
           that overcomes death and stands through all eternity:
           his eternal love. Here is something that reaches into
           the depths of being and into future paths of forgive-
           ness – despite even physical death – and leads us into
           the kingdom of God.

           It is our daily prayer to experience Jesus as dwelling
           within us. But we know that he also sits at the right
           hand of the Father and rules over angel-worlds, pow-
           ers, and principalities, as well as over his church. We
           can only have an inkling of the supercosmic greatness
           of these mysterious realities.
              Jesus told his disciples in farewell that he would
Jn. 14:2   prepare a place for them. It remains an awe-inspiring
            mystery what this place is, and what is happening there
            in eternity, in the star-worlds and angel-worlds, and
            among the souls who have died in Christ. When Ste-
Acts 7:55   phen was being stoned, he saw the heavens open and
            Jesus standing at the right hand of God, and later John
Rev. 1:14   saw Jesus with flaming eyes. I believe that when Jesus
            comes again, we, too, will see him in person.

            The basic relationship of man to God, of which all
            other relationships are merely likenesses, is stronger
            than any human relationship. Ultimately, we stand
            before God. This shows most plainly when a person
            faces death. Anyone who has been at the bedside of a
            dying person knows how absolute in its significance is
            man’s inner relationship and original bond with God;
            he realizes that in the end, when his last breaths are
            drawn, this relationship is the only thing that counts.
               We know from the Gospels that love to God cannot
            be separated from love to one’s neighbor. Man’s way
            to God is through his brother. I have experienced it
            myself at deathbeds that if a man lives completely for
            his fellowmen, then God will be very close in the last
            hour, too.

            From a letter: The fact that your son has had to bear
            so much suffering and pain already as a child will
            certainly be of great importance for his whole life,
            and also for yours. That children have to suffer is very
            strange. It is as if they are bearing someone else’s guilt,
            as if they are suffering because of the fall of creation.
            In a way they seem to be paying the wages of sin – even
            though it is sin in which they have taken no active part
            as of yet. I have often thought this over, and I believe
            that perhaps the suffering of children has a close con-
            nection with the greatest suffering ever endured: God’s
            suffering, Christ’s suffering for lost creation. For it is
            children who are closer than anyone else to the heart of
            Jesus, and he points to them as an example for us. That
            is why I believe that the suffering of an innocent child
            always has great significance for the church.
               In times of suffering, the most important thing is
            to keep and protect your inner joy, which is Jesus, the
            Risen One. Then his power, which is the power of
            light, will also be the power of healing.

            The fight of any individual against sickness or death
            shows us the struggle in which we all are placed – the
            struggle against darkness. When an attack of darkness
            comes upon us, we must put ourselves completely on
            the side of the light of Jesus. We should not despair
            when human strength ceases, for it is just at that mo-
            ment that Christ can begin. As we read in the Gospel
Jn. 12:35   of John, “The light is with you yet a little while. Walk
            while you have the light, lest darkness come upon
Evil and Darkness
We are living in a time when many people either be-
little evil or don’t believe it exists at all. Because of this
they understand neither the greatness of Golgotha nor
the heaviness of God’s final judgment. This judgment,
which is described in the Revelation of John, cannot be
understood unless we grasp the power of evil. If evil is
seen as nothing especially serious, then there is no need
to put up a serious fight against it.
    The cross would not have been necessary if the
power of evil were not so terrible. I have heard people
ask, “Why couldn’t God forgive sin without the sacri-
fice of Jesus?” This is a tempting question, but once we
recognize the immense power of the evil that God had
to fight, we will know there is no forgiveness without
the cross.

There are people who try to understand the depths
and secrets of Satan or who try to discover the source
of evil. Certainly this is understandable, but it is not
godly. The hearts of too many people in our society are
burdened and troubled with what they have learned
about murder, fornication, and other evils. A true
Christian should be a child toward evil and have no
experience in its secrets.

Modern man thinks too materialistically; he does not
see that there is a power of good and a power of evil
quite apart from him, and that the course of his life
depends on the power to which he opens his heart.
    As a young man I lived in Nazi Germany, and I
knew people there who were actually quite harmless
but who were gripped and driven by something very
evil. And even though there were many – more than
we know – who died in protesting this evil, the major-
ity gave in to it. It was not only a few men ruling over
a nation; Germany was ruled by evil spiritual powers
or demons.
    We believe that today, as in Christ’s time, demons
can be driven out and away and that when Christ
returns to the earth, all men will live in complete free-
dom, although judgment must certainly take place

We run into the occult again and again, especially in
colleges and high schools. Yet we sharply reject any
form of contact with demonic powers, and we warn
our children against such contact too. There are things
of Satan which we should know nothing about. To put
it plainly, we should be ignorant of those things. We
simply do not want to know anything about them.
            Nowadays occultism is often regarded as just another
            science to be studied. But we want nothing to do with

            A person who lives a childlike life in Jesus does not
            need to fear possession by an evil spirit. On the other
            hand, someone who has practiced magic or sorcery
            does have reason to be afraid. We reject even the most
            “harmless” forms of spiritualism, as well as supersti-
            tious practices such as wearing health rings, tipping
            tables, or talking with the dead. These things may start
            innocently, but they can bind a person to Satan with-
            out his realizing it. They have nothing to do with a
            childlike faith in Jesus.

            We ask for God’s judgment so that his light may
            break in. The more strongly his light breaks in and
            the more strongly the love of his only begotten Son
            burns in our hearts, the more clearly will his truth be
            revealed. When Jesus comes and touches men with
            his light, it means judgment as well as freedom and
            redemption. All doubts, all things that chain and
            burden men, all the sins that hold them down, are
            touched, and men are freed. This freeing and redemp-
            tion brought about by the breaking in of Christ’s light
            is given to the whole world, as is also the faith brought
Jn. 12:47   by him. For Christ said that he came not to judge the
            world but to save it.
              Christ wants those who are most oppressed and des-
           olate to turn to the light and be saved. Just those who
           are most crushed, who feel themselves most unworthy
           and burdened, should allow themselves to be touched
           and moved by God’s great love. And once they feel it,
           they will know that they are included and freed by it.
           They are the very ones Jesus took to himself: the evil-
           doers, the tax collectors, the prostitutes, the despised
           of men. He did not criticize those who were possessed;
           he freed them. But in their freeing was judgment, for
           darkness was revealed and driven out. Evil was in no
           way ignored, but men were freed from it.

           From a letter: Until Jesus comes back and frees us
           completely, we will always have to fight sin on this
           earth. This fight is first a struggle against the lower
           nature. Second, it is a battle of spirits, a battle against
           Satan and his demons. Your fall was not only a matter
           of your lower nature; it was also satanic. The Bible says
Lk. 22:3   that when Judas betrayed Jesus, “Satan entered into
           him.” I would not dare to say this about you, but I do
           think your situation tends in that direction. I do not
           think Satan could have entered Judas if Judas had not
           sold himself to him first. Judas had already gone to the
           high priest; he had already accepted the silver pieces
           when he went to the paschal meal with Jesus, where
           Satan entered into him.
              Even if this comparison is too strong to apply to
           you, you did open your heart to evil powers. Where
           and when did this begin? Do not forget that true re-
           morse is a wonderful experience, not one to be feared.
           If you experience real repentance, you will be grateful
           for it your whole life long.

           It is a horrifying thing that man, who was created in
           the image of God, has built bombs that have the power
           to wipe out millions of people in a very short time.
           We must repent! The fact that our country has such
           weapons shows the need for us to dedicate ourselves
           to something completely different. For some people
           it might mean politics – working and fighting for the
           election of responsible citizens who would never use
           these weapons. We have great respect for this. But our
           opposition must be much deeper. The spirit that drives
           men to build weapons is evil, and we can fight it only
           by living for the good spirit.

           We cannot go the way of Jesus without personal
           change. If we claim to follow him but live in impurity,
           for example, then we have no right to speak out against
           things such as injustice. We are not fighting against
           flesh and blood – good people against evil people –
           but against powers and principalities of darkness.
               If we commit a sinful act, we give room to an evil
           demon in our own life and surroundings. We have to
           see this realistically: evil is not something abstract. In
Lk. 8:30   the Bible, some demons even have names. There is no
            excuse for anyone, especially for someone who claims
            to be a committed Christian, to give room to demons
            in his life or to serve them in any way. If he does, they
            will harm not only him but the community around

            From a letter: The life of the church is something
            extremely precious and important to Jesus. Thus the
            danger of Satan attacking the soul of the church is
            constant and very great. Blumhardt* writes that when
            Jesus was commissioned by the heavenly Father to
            bring forth children of light, he foresaw that Satan
            would follow him and produce children of evil, and
            that these children of evil would flourish even inside
            the church of Christ in the soil where only children of
            light should grow. This is very terrible, but it is some-
            thing we have to face. It is most likely to happen when
            human power takes over where Christ’s power alone
            should rule.

            Jesus said that all men will “see the Son of Man seated
Mk. 14.62   at the right hand of the Power.” He calls his Father
            “the Power.” That is the greatest reality – a much great-
            er reality than our mortal life. If we are afraid of the
            Evil One (and such fear can be very real) we can always
            trust in Jesus. He too is real. He is at the heart of the
            throne of God. He is the heart of the church, the head
            * See footnote p. 109.
            of the church, and he understands our hearts, which
            we ourselves do not understand.
               It is a great mistake to think that we can understand
            our own hearts. We may understand ourselves superfi-
            cially, but only God really knows our hearts. Therefore,
            even if we suffer the severest temptations, trials, and at-
            tacks by the Evil One, we can always turn to God with
            trust and great hopes for victory.

            Peace can be found only in the crucified One. Not
            even the united church is enough. The only place
            we can find peace and rest is Golgotha. We ourselves
            cannot wash away a murderous or an adulterous act.
            The only way to become free from darkness is to turn
            to the light, confess our sin, and come to the cross.
Rev.1:5     There, as we read in Revelation, the blood of Christ
Rev. 7:14   can cleanse us.

            From a letter: I have heard your desperate cry for help,
            and I have great understanding for you. Your thoughts
            frighten you so much that they gain power over you.
            You must turn from this fear. Through it you yourself
            suggest these thoughts into your heart, and then even
            more desperate and terrible fears, anxieties, and needs
            enter you.
               Don’t let your fears shake you. If you can drop them
            and trust in God, many things will become different.
            Never doubt in God’s help and intervention. I assure
            you that he loves you and that he is much closer to you
            than you know.

Mt. 28:20   Jesus promises us that he will be with us always, until
            the end of all days. But we should not underestimate
            the dark powers of impurity, mammonism, murder,
            hatred, and unforgiveness surrounding us, which at-
            tack brothers and sisters in the church. Jesus must have
            foreseen that the church would be attacked by the
Mt. 16:18   powers of hell, because he told Peter that these powers
            would not overcome it. We need to watch and pray all
            the time.

            Together with the rest of suffering humankind, we
            long that the demonic net that still covers the earth be
            rent – even if it means great turmoil. We believe it will
            be removed in God’s time through the breaking in of
            his kingdom.
               The Fight
               The invisible powers that surround us men on earth
               can bring either great suffering or great joy. There are
               powers of God that bring peace, justice, joy, forgive-
               ness of sins, and community. These powers are embod-
               ied in Jesus Christ. But there are also dark powers of
               murder, envy, ambition, and injustice. They, too, are
               invisible, but once they take hold of a person’s soul,
               they drive him to commit visible deeds of evil.
                  We must grasp that the powers we are talking about
               are not abstract just because they are invisible. We are
               dealing with something absolutely real – not with a
               philosophy or a teaching, but with powers of darkness
               and light, good and evil, destruction and unity; with
               powers that want to kill and powers that want to make
               us alive.

               When Jesus drove out devils from people who were
               possessed, he healed their souls and hearts. His ene-
Lk. 11:15      mies said, “He drives out the devil with a greater dev-
               il.” But Jesus answered, “If I were to drive out the devil
Lk. 11:17:18   with a greater devil, his kingdom would be divided and
               would collapse.” The devil’s army is very disciplined: it
knows how to attack a soul, a united group of people,
or even a nation.
   We know from the Gospel that the whole earth is a
battlefield for God and the devil, and so is every hu-
man heart. We simply have to reckon with it that the
devil will be furious when two or three or more are
completely united in Jesus.
   There was never a fiercer battle between God and
Satan than that fought by Jesus at Golgotha. It even
seemed to Jesus that God had forsaken him. But in
spite of this, he laid his soul and spirit into the hands
of the Father in trust. Then the victory was won, not
only for this earth but for all powers, principalities,
and angels.

From a letter: Our fight is not against flesh and blood,
not against people; it is a fight for the atmosphere of
the true church – for the atmosphere of God in each of
our communities and in the heart of each brother and
sister. All of us go through pain and judgment, but this
should not be the end; judgment is only the beginning
of new joy, hope, and the victory of redemption. It
should free us for love, for service, and for God.
    The atmosphere at each Bruderhof must continually
be renewed to become an atmosphere of love, purity,
and everything else Jesus represented. Only then can
love stream out from us to all people. For this we must
pray and fight again and again.
            The idea that Jesus brought a new philosophy or
            founded a religion is completely false. His person,
            his spirit, his cause, his healing, is not a philosophy
            like that of the Greeks or Egyptians. He was and is a
            person, and it is he himself who meets us. I love the
            words, “Unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and
Jn. 6:53    drink his blood, you have no life in you.” That is not
            the philosophy of some great man; it is Jesus himself.
               No one can be indifferent to Jesus. One must de-
            cide for him or against him. The fact that we are sin-
            ful does not hinder us from coming to Jesus. Being
            tempted will not hinder us from coming to him either.
            Even if the Evil One torments us, that will not hinder
            us. But we cannot tolerate indifference to Jesus, and
            neither can we tolerate any human effort to interpret
            him. If we experience – not in our minds but in our
Jn. 1:29    hearts – the meaning of the words “This is the Lamb
            of God, who carries the sins of the world” or “For the
Heb. 9:15   forgiveness of sins he took this death upon himself,”
            we will see that it is not a philosophy, but life.
               We need to experience Jesus in his height and depth
            and breadth. And we must understand the cross,
            which stood firm and still stands, in a spiritual sense. It
            reaches up into heaven, to the throne of God, and its
            outstretched arms are still there for a lost humankind.

            From a letter: Brothers and sisters, let us be wide
            awake, because whenever God wants to do something
           good among men, the devil makes every effort to
           destroy it. Think of the temptation of Jesus after his
           baptism: he was tempted by the devil because his heart
           was so pure, and because he belonged completely to
              Nothing is more annoying to the prince of this
           world than a church in its first love. In Revelation,
Rev. 2-3   we can read how already in John’s time the devil suc-
           ceeded in harming the church. This happened to such
           an extent that Jesus had to tell one congregation that it
Rev. 3:1   only had the name of being alive, but was in fact dead.
           Yet even then he gave that church a chance to wake up,
           to change, and to return to a true and genuine love.
               I believe – if I dare speak from my deepest heart –
           that Jesus wants to come to us as intimately as if his
           blood were our blood, to cleanse us completely.

           From a letter: I protest against the idea that it is wrong
           to react with strong emotion or excitement when God
           is attacked, when brothers and sisters are mistreated, or
           when the church is harmed. I do not think Jesus was
           calm and collected when he drove the money changers
           out of the temple, where God’s honor was at stake. I
           will protest my whole life long against cool soberness
           in the face of cruelty or anything else that destroys
           God’s work.

           In our concern for God’s work, the tendency to judge
           men in a theoretical way is one of the gravest tempta-
            tions. We need such an outpouring of the spirit of
            God upon us that everything in us and among us is
            revealed. Following this, clarity and decisiveness will
            come of themselves. We must beseech God most ear-
            nestly for this love to Christ so that all darkness and
            evil in our household is revealed.

            If we give ourselves over in faith to God and to Jesus,
            we will be cleansed. In his farewell words, Jesus says,
Jn. 15:5    “I am the true vine; you are the branches.” He says
Jn. 5:1-2   that if we are to bear fruit, we will need to be cleansed,
            and the knife of the gardener will need to cut into our
            hearts. As disciples of Jesus we need this cleansing, this
            knife, this sharpness in our hearts and our lives. If we
            reject the gardener who cleanses us, we are unfaith-
            ful in the eyes of God, and we will not be able to bear

            Are we ready to have Christ’s Word cut deeply into
            us, or will we repeatedly protect and harden ourselves
            against it? We do not realize how often we stand in
            God’s way. But we can ask him in his mercy and love
            to cut us with his Word – even if it hurts.

            We should put our whole trust in God alone. Yet we
            also need to trust one another. We cannot live without
               trusting one another, even though we know that men
Jn. 18:15-27   can and do fail. Peter denied Jesus three times, yet he
               was one of the most trusted apostles. He failed, but
               then he went away and wept bitterly. There is no other
               way for us either, than to repent as deeply and to weep
               as bitterly as he did.
                  Even if we have to recognize that we have failed, we
               must not see everything as black – or think the founda-
               tion has been taken away from under our lives. God’s
               judgment is God’s goodness; it cannot be separated
               from his mercy and compassion. If we repent deeply
               and become humble before God, we will become
               nothing, and then Christ can live in us.
                  It is certainly sinful to use God’s working in us to
               build up our own pride. But it is also sinful to deny
               God’s working when we fail him. Our failures should
               lead us to humility and to God.

               Perhaps the worst thing that can be said against a
               church is what was written to the church at Sardis:
Rev. 3:1       “Though you have the name of being alive, you are
               dead.” If a church is dead, it is like the salt spoken of
               in the Sermon on the Mount, which has lost its taste
               and will be thrown away and trodden upon. Every
               church is in danger of going to sleep, of losing its life.
               Yet Jesus says that if he finds life even in a few, he will
               have patience and give them time to repent.
                  In the short history of our Bruderhof we have
               known the struggle for purity in our church. We have
               known the struggle against deadness and against being
               a church that has the name of being alive but is in ac-
               tual fact dead. Yet each time Jesus chastises us, he gives
               us time to repent, as a church and as individuals.

               One passage in the Gospel has become very clear to
Mt. 5:13       us: we must be salt. We have realized with a shudder
               how dangerous it is for the church if the flavor and
               power of its salt is lost. Salt gives taste to something
               tasteless, and salt wards off decay. Our age needs salt.
                  We are guilty of having tolerated false spirits for too
               long. Jesus warns us very sharply against false prophets
               and against those who speak of peace where there is no
               peace, or of love where there is no love.

               From a letter: We must find the way to follow Jesus’
               command to forgive others just as he forgives us, but
               at the same time we must be clear and let no darkness
               come into the church. This is sometimes a great ten-
Col. 3:12-17   sion for me. In Colossians 3:12–17, Paul says that we
               should have understanding, forgiveness, and kindness
               in our hearts toward our brother. These we must have.
               Still, the spiritual struggle we are in makes it ade-
               quately clear that we cannot allow anything dark into
               the life of the church. May God help us to find his –
               and only his – way out of this tension.
            When God alone rules in every heart we will have a
            healthy community, full of joy, full of dedication, and
            full of love. Everyone will feel this in the atmosphere.
            Each member will go to another and ask forgiveness
            for where he has caused hurt or harmed love in the
            past. And this will be done not because someone has
            said it should be done but out of an inner urge.

            Every church needs voices that dare to speak for
            Christ, even when this is painful for the person speak-
            ing as well as for other members. But speaking out
            must always be done in the love of Christ, otherwise
            it is a sin.

1 Jn. 3:8   Jesus came to earth to destroy the works of the devil,
            and he has millions of angels of God at his disposal to
            help him in this spiritual struggle. But Satan also has
            many angels – evil spirits, devils, and demons – at his
                This spiritual struggle shows itself like this: the
            Holy Spirit, which is the spirit of Jesus, helps us to
            find God and to give us his thoughts and his love. This
            spirit helps us to overcome all evil and impure emo-
            tions. At the same time, the devil works in our hearts,
            giving us thoughts of evil, impurity, murder, envy,
            mistrust, and the desire for power. Yet all of us have
            guardian angels who will protect us if we follow what
            is good.
Christ must come to the deepest depths of our inner
being, deeper than our conscious thoughts, deeper than
our usual feelings – to the uttermost depths. Every per-
son who knows something of deep inner struggles has
an inkling of this. Through Christ he can find courage
to believe against all unbelief, even where there was
never any hope for belief, and strength to hope against
all hope of finding love in another person.

From a letter: It is understandable that you are afraid
of what others think of you. But even if it is under-
standable, it is a sin. When we are completely depen-
dent on God, we will have the courage to stand up
to anyone who violates our own conscience or that of
anyone else, or to anyone who mistreats another. It is
a sin to be silent out of fear. I have committed this sin
many times in my life, but I have also seen the bitter
fruit it brought to myself and to the whole church.

All of us know the struggles of the human heart,
yet we have to see beyond them. We have to see the
struggle of the whole church against darkness. It is an
enormous struggle. And ultimately, we have to see it all
in relation to the much greater struggle of the whole
universe, which is led by God with his armies of thou-
sands and thousands of angels and his stars of light,
music, and harmony.
Mt. 5:13    You are salt to the world. And if salt becomes tasteless,
            how is its saltiness to be restored? It is good for noth-
            ing but to be thrown away and trodden underfoot.”
            If we are to be salt we cannot be diplomats who agree
            with the arguments of evil; we cannot be “fair.” We
            must be completely and wholly one-sided in our loy-
            alty to God and to Jesus.

            From a letter: We have to make a decision for Christ,
Mt. 12:30   otherwise we will turn against him. The world situ-
            ation impels us to take a stand for Christ – a stand
            against violence, injustice, hatred, and impurity. We
            must witness to this not only in words but in deeds.
            Our lives must prove that there is a better way.

            From the Covenant of the Lord’s Supper *
            We declare ourselves in unity under God’s judgment
              and mercy.
            We vow that we want to live in reverence for God, for
              Christ, and for his Holy Spirit.
            The cross, where the forgiveness of sins can be found,
              is the center of our life.
            We declare war against all irreverence toward God, his
              Christ, and his church.

            * The Covenant of the Lord's Supper was written by Heinrich Arnold and
            signed by all baptized members of the Bruderhof on December 30, 1975,
            after a year of intense struggle, to clarify the position of the brotherhood on
            several important issues.
We declare war against the misuse of the name of God,
  of Christ, and of the Holy Spirit.
We declare war against all irreverence toward the child-
  like spirit of Jesus as it lives in children, and we
  want to fight for those older children in whom the
  childlike spirit has been partly lost.
We declare war against all emotional or physical
  cruelty toward children.
We declare war against the search for power over the
  souls of other people, including children. We seek
  the atmosphere of the church and of the angels of
We vow to pray for the light of Jesus so that all who
  are in bondage or tormented by evil thoughts may
  be freed, and so that all those who serve darkness
  may be revealed and called to repentance.
We declare war against the spirit of mammon and all
  false love connected with mammon.
We declare war against all human greatness and all
  forms of vanity.
We declare war against all pride, including collective
We declare war against the spirit of unforgiveness, en-
  vy, and hatred.
We vow to lay down before the cross our own power
  and our own “greatness.”
We declare war against any degrading of others,
  including those who have fallen into sin.
We declare war against all cruelty to anyone, even if he
  has sinned.
            We declare war against all forms of magic or curiosity
              about satanic darkness.
            We ask for the courage to rejoice in suffering and
              persecution for the cause of right.
            We ask for forgiveness of our sins, because without
              Jesus our hearts and our actions cannot be pure.
            We pray to live for the world as Jesus expressed it in
Jn. 17:21     John 17: that we may all be one as Christ is one
              with the Father, so that the world may believe that
              Christ was sent by the Father. With Christ we ask
              not to be taken out of this world but to be protect-
              ed from the power of evil.
            We ask Christ to consecrate our brotherhood through
              his truth. Christ’s Word is the truth. We ask that he
              may send us out to be a light in this world.
              World Suffering
1 Tim. 6:10   If we look for the roots of suffering, we will find them
              in possessiveness and the spirit of mammon. This
Jn. 8:44      spirit is of Satan, who is a murderer from the begin-
              ning, as Jesus said. It brings darkness and death. Many
              who serve it try to hide behind marvelous ideals. But
              despite these ideals the fruits of this spirit are injustice
              and death, and these are the cause of the suffering of
              our time and of all times. If we look at world suffering
              honestly, we will see how closely it is connected with
              our own guilt and the guilt of all men today, and we
              will also recognize that since this suffering is all one,
              we are part of it and must suffer with all others who

              There is so much pain on the earth! If we are filled
              with God’s love, we will experience this pain ourselves;
              we will feel something of the need of children, the
              elderly, the mentally disturbed, the unwanted, and the
              starving. But if we see only the suffering of the world,
              our view is completely one-sided. For God’s sake we
              must recognize and proclaim the fact that suffering is
a fruit of the great sin and guilt of the world, a fruit of
man’s rebellion against God.

Only God knows how much of the world’s need is sin
and how much of it is suffering. It has been said that if
one were to put the evil of the world on one side of a
scale and its suffering on the other, the scale would bal-
ance. I do not know if this is true, but it is quite clear
that sin and suffering go together. War, for example, is
sin, but it also involves enormous suffering. God sees
both the sin and the suffering.

We believe in God’s indescribable longing to save hu-
mankind not only from its need but also from its sin.
It is irreverent to talk of world need without seeing the
hurt done to God by world sin, which is also our sin.
    If it were not for God’s longing to seek men
through Jesus, there would be nothing but inner and
physical death on earth. Jesus is the Lamb of God who
carries the sins of the world. He is the answer – the
only answer to all sin and need.

When we see the world’s churches as they are today,
where money has so much power and there is so little
compassion for the poor, we should feel challenged
to reach out more. We know that the first believers in
the church at Rome fed their own poor and the poor
         of the whole city.* They lived in the first love of Jesus,
         and that is where we are found wanting. The hour de-
         mands that we return to this first love.

Mt. 25   From a letter: In Matthew 25 Jesus speaks of those who
         are hungry, thirsty, naked, and in prison. We, too, are
         concerned about these people, about the hunger and
         want of the world. But what should we do? We live
         too well. We should eat less and do with less, so as to
         share with the poor. The early Christians fasted for one
         or two days a week so as to give food to the hungry.
         We are not doing enough by sharing just among our
         own brothers and sisters. We should appoint at least
         one brother from each of our communities to seek out
         people in need, to bring them food and clothing, and
         to see that they have adequate heating, and so on.

         From a letter: You say that the poor have no longing
         for God, that they are completely dull and indifferent,
         that you yourself have spent time in a boarding house
         for tramps, and that they wanted nothing else than to
         get to the top themselves, to oppress others, and so on.
         You even say that there is no point in trying to help
         such people – they want nothing else anyway.
            Dear brother, this is not the spirit of the love of
         Jesus. It is true that many people are inwardly dull, but

         * Eberhard Arnold, ed. The Early Christians (Rifton, NY: Plough, 1970),
         pp. 17-19
              this apathy is an expression of their need. It is a sign –
              probably the worst sign – of how strongly Satan, the
              enemy of Jesus and the murderer from the beginning,
              still rules over people. Don’t you realize how deeply it
              must grieve Jesus when we talk about the need of our
              fellowmen in such a cold and superior way?
                  Do you think Jesus had this attitude? Do you
              believe he would have died for us if he had felt this
              way? We cannot talk like this about the poor and op-
              pressed – no, we are called to love our fellowmen, and
              especially those who are so badly off that they can no
              longer see the way ahead.

              From a letter: To offer a night’s lodging to a home-
              less person has always been a fundamental principle of
              the Bruderhof. The police have sometimes brought us
              homeless people, even families with children, in the
              middle of the night, and we have always found a way
              of giving them a place to sleep.
                 Under Hitler’s regime the German secret police
              forbade the Bruderhof to take in any guests. But we
              informed them that we would never refuse a night’s
              lodging to anyone, even if the police disapproved of it;
              we would never close the door to a homeless person.
                 We would lose our whole witness if we were not
              even willing to give a night’s lodging to a person in
              need. But the main thing is love. Paul says that even
1 Cor. 13:3   if we give all our possessions to the poor but have no
              love, it will be of no use.
            In the first years of the Bruderhof, whenever an unwed
            mother came to our house in search of a place to stay,
            my father would invite her for at least two or three
            nights. Several of these women had been thrown out of
            their homes, so they stayed on, and some had their ba-
            bies while with us. We also had drunkards, thieves, and
            people who were wanted by the police. Once a mur-
            derer who had served more than twenty years in prison
            lived with us. My parents were not worried about the
            possible repercussions of exposing us children to such
            situations. But we were never exposed to sexual impu-
            rity. If there was indecent behavior on the part of those
            we took in, my father did not tolerate it.
                None of these people joined us, and I don’t think
            any of them had any interest in us as a church; they
            were just homeless. But my father never refused any
Heb. 13:2   of them a roof. The Bible says that by giving shelter to
            strangers, many have entertained angels without know-
            ing it.

            In these days of violent upheaval in our country, the
            extreme right is very active.* At the same time, others
            with high ideals who speak out for righteousness and
            justice among men and nations are also very active.
            We cannot stand aside. If people go to prison and give
            their lives for their beliefs, we can have only the deep-
            est respect and reverence for it. But we should also

            * Written June 13, 1964
long and strive for a righteousness deeper than one
based on the rights of men.

I am concerned about an incident that has occurred
locally, and I don’t know how we should respond.* A
man from our neighborhood was beaten – struck over
the head twice – because he removed anti-Semitic post-
ers that had been displayed publicly. How should we
protest such violence, and how should we witness to
love and justice? On the one hand, there is a danger of
getting too involved in politics; it isn’t our task. On the
other hand, we cannot be silent about injustice in our
own neighborhood; we cannot simply be complacent
and say that it isn’t our business. Having lived in Ger-
many in the 1930s, I know what it means when people
are silent in such matters. Hitler was able to take over
Germany only because so many people did not dare to
protest or get involved.

The world is heading in a serious direction; the arms
race has men preparing for mass murder such as the
world has never seen. In Vietnam people are being
tortured, wounded, and killed daily.† What is our re-
sponsibility? We must ask ourselves this question quite
openly. We have done very little. We have joined the
marches against racial injustice in the South, and we

* Written April 12, 1964
† Written August 22, 1965
have spoken out against the war in Vietnam. We have
visited our senators and representatives to tell them of
our concern, but all this is very little.
    We know that the past, the present, and the future
lie in God’s hands, and if we give ourselves to God we
must be ready to suffer and even die. Men like Michael
Schwerner* died for their belief that love among men
must be strengthened. We, too, should be ready to suf-
fer and to die if God asks it of us.
    Our hearts are small – I know it of myself – but we
will find an answer to the question of our responsibil-
ity if we let ourselves be moved by God. Any other way
will fail. If God’s love moves our hearts, our lives will
take on new depths and heights, and he will lead us
to take the right action. But we must ask him to move
our hearts today, tomorrow, and every day.

To be complacent in the face of injustice is a terrible
sin, and therefore we have great respect for the Civil
Rights Movement. Many people in it are making sac-
rifices for righteousness, and some have even sacrificed
their lives. But the fight for civil rights itself will not
bring about the kingdom of God, and we must not
lose sight of this, in spite of our respect for those who
sacrifice everything for it. Something much greater
must come into being, something we ourselves cannot
make: the powerful atmosphere of the spirit of Jesus,
which must penetrate into all the world.

* Young civil rights activist murdered in Mississippi in 1964.
As injustice continues to increase, let us hold on to
our hope in the kingdom of God and seek to live ac-
cording to it, to show the world a new righteousness
that includes love even to the enemy. This is the an-
swer to the great need of our time in the world at large,
but especially on the political and racial scene here in

Daniel and all the other prophets – as well as John in
his Book of Revelation – speak of the “last days” before
the kingdom of God comes, when humankind will
have to face heavy judgment. The famines and pes-
tilences of every century, the persecution of our Ana-
baptist forefathers and countless other small groups,
the Thirty Years’ War, and the wiping out of the
American Indians are all examples of enormous suffer-
ing that already fulfill many prophecies of judgment.
So are the First and Second World Wars, which held
perhaps the greatest horrors humankind has ever seen.
The last days have already begun.

There is such endless need on earth – much more than
we can ever know. Some of it is economic need, and
some of it is social need, but in a deeper way it is all
inner need brought into men’s lives by the dark pow-
ers of injustice, murder, and unfaithfulness. Some
of us used to believe that through political or social
measures radical changes could take place in our soci-
ety –changes that would answer this need. But as we
have seen again and again, the leaders of today’s world
always get caught in their own lies and webs of dishon-
esty; the cold dollar rules, and impurity and unfaith-
fulness are everywhere.
   We know that our few Bruderhof communities will
not change the world. But Christ will, and we want
to give ourselves voluntarily to him. He demands our
whole personality and our whole life. He came to save
the world, and we believe that he, not any human
leader, will one day govern the earth. For him we live
and give our utmost, and for him we are willing to die.
                It is our deep longing as a brotherhood that we may
                reach out to other seeking people. But this does not
                mean that we should all drive off and talk to people
                about our faith. Mission has to be given by God in a
                burning, genuine way so that we are led to those who
                want to hear. We cannot just preach to people. We
                seek an inner, personal relationship with them – some-
                thing that cannot be made by men. Only God can give
                us the right word at the right time for the right person.

                We are not interested in making members for the
                Bruderhof, as people sometimes think. Our movement
                would collapse if that were our motive. We want to
cf. Mt. 12:30   gather because Jesus tells us to gather. When my broth-
cf. Mt. 23:37   er Hardy was studying at Tübingen University in the
                1930s, my father asked him to arrange some public
                lectures there. Hardy had large posters put up, an-
                nouncing that Dr. Eberhard Arnold would speak about
                the Bruderhof. But my father said, “I certainly won’t
                do that. I will speak about God’s cause. I won’t men-
                tion the Bruderhof.” The cause of God should be our
                main concern.
We long to have contact with more people, but all
our wishes and longings must come under one desire:
that at any hour, in any place, not our will but God’s
will be done. We must willingly submit to this. The
last few years have shown us – or should have shown
us – our incapability, our sinfulness, and our powerless-
ness. Mission depends on whether our faith is a living

Let us watch that we do not go out on mission in hu-
man strength. There is enough preaching in the world;
so many people go out of their own accord and preach.
I am all for mission, but only if it is God’s will that
moves us, and not our own egos.
   In the early church, where true mission was alive in
a special way, there were two important conditions: the
believers were of one heart, mind, and soul, and they
were repentant. We must find this oneness of heart,
mind, and soul, and we must find the humility and
repentance of Paul.

We cannot escape the command of mission. For a
church to remain alive, missionaries must be sent out,
two by two perhaps, as in the early church or among
the Anabaptists of the 16th century. The city must
stand on a hill, and the light must shine out. Does the
world really recognize through today’s church that the
               Father sent Jesus Christ into the world? Do we not
Mk. 16:15-16   have an enormous responsibility? Jesus’ last words to
               his disciples were, “Go into all the world and preach
               the good news to all creation. Whoever believes and is
               baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe
               will be condemned.”

               It is unlikely that there will be another Pentecost where
               thousands are baptized in one day. But we long that
               the seeds of Jesus might be planted in our corrupt soci-
               ety, even if we must leave it to God whether the seeds
               become plants and bear fruit. The twelve apostles ac-
               complished much, but they were sent with the author-
               ity of Christ. Nothing like it has happened again since.
                  I know mission cannot be forced, but I have an
               enormous longing that the seed is sown, that men
               awaken and love Jesus and keep his words. Then he
               will come to them and dwell with them.

               Let us pray that whenever we mention the name of the
               Lord and proclaim the Gospel, it is with the fire of the
               Holy Spirit. That is the need of our age, the need of
               our poor earth, which was visited by the Son of God
               and has not been forgotten by him.
                 The cross is deeply implanted into the earth. It
               points to heaven, but its outstretched arms express the
Jn. 12:32   hunger and thirst of Jesus for all men. Christ said, “I
            shall draw all men to myself when I am lifted up from
            the earth.”

            Our life seems to have a certain contradiction. On
            the one hand, we would like to embrace the whole
            of humankind. If it were possible, we would like to
            convince thousands and millions of people to live as
            brothers and sisters in Christ. We want as many as pos-
            sible to come to us so we can share with them. And we
            long that our missionary urge might grow even stron-
            ger. On the other hand, we would rather have only
            two or three members who are wholly dedicated, than
            hundreds and hundreds of people who are not. We do
            not want the salt of our witness to be lost. We would
            rather be a group of only a few, with real love and real
            faith in Christ, than a mass movement where there is
            hatred and jealousy.

Mt. 28:19

Mk. 16:15   According to the first three Gospels, the twelve apos-
Lk. 24:47   tles were sent on mission with the words, “Go out into
            all the world and make disciples of all nations, and
Jn. 17:21   baptize them in the name of the Father, the Son, and
            the Holy Spirit.” In the Gospel of John, Jesus speaks of
            another form of mission: “May they all be one, Father,
            as thou art in me and I in thee. May they also be one
            in us so that the world may believe that thou hast sent
   This is so important for us today. Here Jesus does
not put the emphasis on preaching the Gospel to win
people from the world, but on unity: “May they all be
one, so that the world will believe that thou hast sent
me.” In this prayer, mission consists in the unity of the
   Unity costs a fight; it costs church discipline and
suffering; it costs renewed forgiveness, trust, and love
over and over to the same people who have hurt us.
If unity is strong among us, it will shine out into the
world. We do not know how, but it will.

We must long for more and more love to stream out
from our circle so that we can send people out on mis-
sion from a united church. Until we can do this we are
not yet living for love alone. When we do not have the
strength for mission, it is a sign that our church is not
fully dedicated to love, and this should humble us.

We live in community because we want to be broth-
ers and sisters. That is our first calling: to be brothers,
also to the humblest people, so that no one is looked
down upon and no one’s need is forgotten. We are here
to take care of our children, our brothers and sisters,
our old people, widows, and orphans. It is not our
main calling to seek out people from the slums and
the like; that could even destroy us. If everyone were
to scatter, things would go to pieces and the Bruderhof
               would become like any other organization set up to do
               social work.

               If we look at our discipleship in the light of Jesus’
Mt. 10:8       words about raising the dead and casting out devils,
Mk. 16:15-18   we will see that we are a very poor church spiritually.
               This should make us humble, but it should not make
               us resigned.
                  In my father’s last letter he wrote, “We [the Bruder-
               hof ] have not yet arrived at true mission, but it is more
               and more urgent to pray for it.” I know he hoped for
               this kind of mission – raising the dead and casting out
               demons – to be given again in our time. It was not
               important to him whether it would be given to him
               personally or to the Bruderhof, but that it would be
               given somewhere.

               From a letter: I long for apostolic mission – to go to
               the roadsides and fences and invite men to the great
               festival of the kingdom of God. But every day lived
Jn. 17         in true unity is mission too. Read John 17, where Je-
               sus says that by the unity and love of the disciples the
               world will recognize that the Father sent him. There
               is no greater vision than that. If only we fight our way
               through to this unity, God will give us the strength to
               carry out both forms of mission, and every member
               will take part.
            From a letter: The sharpness of Jesus as a part of the
            Gospel is no longer preached in Christendom today.
            John the Baptist began his message with the words,
Mt. 3:7-9   “You generation of vipers! Who told you that you
            could escape the judgment that is to come? Then show
            the fruits that are in accord with a change of heart!
            And don’t think you can get anywhere by thinking,
            ‘Abraham is our father.’”
               I consider it my inner calling and duty to proclaim
            the Gospel with the same sharpness, though also with
            the same kindness and compassion that is found in the
            New Testament.

Lk. 10:3    Jesus sent out his apostles under the sign of the Lamb.
            Anyone who has been put under pressure, especially
            religious pressure, will know why he did this. It be-
            comes even clearer if one thinks of the dove, which is
            the symbol of the spirit of God. The Spirit came upon
            Jesus like a dove: without any force, pressure, or evil,
            unable to attack, and without overriding his free will.
            This is the character of apostolic mission: no coercion,
            no pressure, no persuasion. The stronger personality
            must never override the weaker; it must be harmless
            as a dove. Yet along with Jesus’ words, “Be innocent as
Mt. 10:16   doves,” he says, “Be wise as serpents.”

            In our corrupt time it is the responsibility of the
            church to call men to a life in God and in Jesus. If we
             look at society today, we can see that humankind is
             wholly corrupt; it is not at all reconciled with God.
             Reconciliation with God is possible only through the
             cross. Without Jesus and his suffering and death, no
             one can find God.
                Many of us long for our church to carry out apos-
             tolic mission, and I am thankful that this longing is
             alive. But unless we are sent by God as Paul was sent
             we will never be able to do mission, even in a humbler
             form. At the time of Paul’s conversion Jesus told him,
Acts 26:18   “I send you to open men’s eyes and turn them from
             darkness to light, and from the dominion of Satan to
             God, so that by trust in me they may obtain forgive-
             ness of sins and a place with those whom God has
             made his own.” That is the purpose of mission. It is
             clear that mission can never be a human undertaking.
             We are incapable of it – absolutely incapable – without
             a deep inner relationship to God, to Jesus, and to the

             With regard to participating in today’s various
             movements of social protest, I hope we are given the
             sensitivity both to recognize what is God-given and en-
             courage it, and to reject what is not good. We must be
             open to receive, but at the same time we must witness
             to true brotherhood.
They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching
and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and
to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe, and many
wonders and miraculous signs were done by the
apostles. All the believers were together and had
everything in common. Selling their possessions and
goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. Every
day they continued to meet together in the temple
courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate
together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God
and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the
Lord added to their number daily those who were
being saved.

                                           Acts 2:42-47
The Kingdom of God
The Kingdom of God
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    Salvation ............................................................ 261
    The Kingdom of God ........................................ 269
            Jesus was the suffering servant. His life went from
            birth in a lowly stable to death on a cross between two
            criminals for the sake of pure love alone. He was a true
            man, yet God; he was the Word that became flesh; he
            was the Son of God but also called himself the Son of
               Jesus Christ is the redeemer who comes to us weak
            and sinful men. He frees us from sin and demonic
            powers. He makes us true men. He is the healer who
            heals for nothing. He is the true vine, the living tree.
            He is the same yesterday, today, and in all eternity.
            Jesus is the soul of compassion, the friend of man, the
            caller to new life. He is the true and good shepherd,
            the king of God’s kingdom. He is called the wonderful
            counselor, mighty God, everlasting Father, and prince
            of peace.
               Christ is the gathering power: “How often have I
Lk. 13:34   wanted to gather you like a hen her chicks, and you
            would not.” His last prayer was for unity and love
            among his disciples. His new life overcomes separa-
            tion, leads to community, and makes men of one heart
            and one soul. He is the revelation of God’s love and
               We must experience Jesus in our hearts and souls.
            Yet still more is demanded: we must experience him
            as Lord over all things, king over all principalities
            and worlds of God. We must concentrate our hearts,
            minds, and souls on the vision of his kingdom and on
            him, the coming One.

            From a letter: I know you have difficulties with certain
            biblical concepts of Christ. But if you do not want the
            whole Christ, even the part that you do accept will slip
            through your fingers, and you will be left with noth-
            ing. I lay this on your heart with love and concern.
               Ultimately, it is a question of whether you accept
            Jesus Christ, who was born of the virgin Mary through
            the Holy Spirit. All power in heaven and on earth is
Col. 1:20   given to him, and he came into this world to reconcile
            the whole universe to himself, making peace through
            the shedding of his blood upon the cross.
               Faith in Christ means the willingness to believe in
            mysteries that we can neither see, feel, nor understand
            with our stupid intellect.

            I often wonder whether we have the whole Christ suf-
            ficiently in mind. For any Christian – for individuals
            as well as for churches – there is a danger of experienc-
            ing only a part of Christ – accepting only a part of his
            message – and being faithful to that. We must find
            and serve the whole Christ. I am not able to proclaim,
              “Here, this is the whole Christ.” Even if we learned
              the entire Gospel by heart, we could not say we have
              the whole Christ. Only the Holy Spirit is able to bring
              him to us.

              Jesus sees the evil in a person so sharply and clearly
              that it is as if he had no love; yet he sees hope for a
              person so strongly that it is as if there were no evil in
              him. In the New Testament we find the sharpest words
              of eternal condemnation and, at the same time, the
              most tender love.
                 We have to love everything in Jesus – his sharpness
              and his compassion. If we love his sharpness, then our
              hearts will be purified and pruned; but we could not
              live if his love, compassion, and mercy were not still

              It is a mistake to think that Jesus was only brave and
2 Cor. 13:4   strong. He was crucified in weakness, and that is a
              deep mystery. He became weak for our sake, for the
              sins of the world, and to bring reconciliation and the
              victory of God into earth and heaven. This is why we
              love him.
                 Jesus was crucified in weakness, but he now lives
              in the power of God. We, too, are weak, as he was, yet
              through God’s power we can become one with him
              and full of life.
                  If we are proud we cannot live through God’s pow-
              er, for when we are strong and great in spirit, we stand
              in his way. But if we are weak, that is no hindrance.

Jn. 15        In John 15, Jesus speaks from the depth of his heart
              about the unity of his followers. He speaks of himself
              as a vine and his Father as a vine-dresser who cuts away
              every branch that fails to bear fruit and prunes those
              that bear fruit so that they may bear still more.
                 The Savior does not cut us off completely to wither
              away; rather, he cleanses us and binds us afresh to his
              vine. We must undergo this experience of punish-
              ment and judgment, for Jesus says that whoever bears
              fruit, he cleanses. When a vinedresser cleans branches,
              he uses a knife. We must pray that the knife may cut
              deeply into our hearts, no matter how much it hurts,
              so that cleansed by him we may be grafted to the one
Jn. 15:4, 7      Our Savior says, “Dwell in me, and I shall dwell in
              you.” I have the deep longing that we all may dwell in
              him, and he in us. There is nothing greater, nothing
              more wonderful, nothing more joyful than unity with
              Jesus Christ.

              When the angels appeared to the shepherds they said,
Lk. 2:11      “Unto you a child is born. Unto you a son is given.”
              We must take that to heart: to you a child is born. It
              is not just a matter of believing that a child is born in
             Bethlehem, but that a child is born to you. We must
             believe this quite personally: Jesus came for each of us.

             Jesus’ life began in a stable and ended on the cross be-
             tween two criminals. The Apostle Paul said he wanted
1 Cor. 2:2   to proclaim nothing but this crucified Christ. We, too,
             have nothing to hold to except this Christ. We must
             ask ourselves again and again: Are we willing to go his
             way, from the stable to the cross? As disciples we are
             not promised comfortable and good times. Jesus says
             we must deny ourselves and suffer with him and for
             him. That is the only way to follow him, but behind it
             lies the glory of life – the glowing love of God, which is
             so much greater than our hearts and our lives.

             From a letter: Jesus was a strong man in a new way.
             He was at once very weak and very strong. He was
Mt. 23:37    not ashamed to shed tears over Jerusalem, whom he
             wanted to gather like a hen her chicks; he was not
Jn. 11:35    afraid to weep publicly at the raising of Lazarus; and
             he was not afraid to show his agony in Gethsemane.
             All this did not make for a “strong” man in the worldly
             sense. Yet Jesus’ love was so strong that he was able to
Lk. 22:44    suffer the most terrible pain and godforsakenness, and
             in this strength he completed the task given him by his
                In true weakness we become powerless, and in true
             powerlessness we find strength. That is the secret.
               Each of us must have a personal relationship to Jesus.
               As a young man, I could not understand why the feel-
               ing of joy and love I had in the first weeks after my
               conversion did not last. I was very troubled and asked
               my father about it. He said, “You can’t base your Chris-
               tianity on feelings. There are times when one simply
               has to follow without deep feelings.”
Eph. 5:22-33      Paul compares the relationship of Christ and his
               church to marriage, which sometimes brings joy, and
               sometimes sorrow. The main thing is faithfulness to
               the relationship; one’s feelings will not always be the
               same. When we are called back to the first love, it can
               give us a tremendous feeling of joy, which is a gift from
               God. This feeling will not last a lifetime. But
               if we are faithful, our relationship with Christ will
               remain even when we go through times of pain and
               tears, sorrow and emptiness.

Jn. 14:23      Jesus says, “He who loves me heeds what I say, and I
               will come with the Father and dwell in him.” There
               is nothing more intimate than dwelling in another’s
Jn. 6:53-56       Jesus also says, “He who does not drink my blood
               and eat my flesh cannot belong to me.” It is a Gospel
               of complete oneness; it excludes the possibility of half-
Rev. 3:15      heartedness. Jesus prefers the ice-cold heart to the luke-
               If we love someone, we want to know his innermost
               being. We are not satisfied with simply knowing him
               outwardly. So it is with our love to God. If we give
               ourselves to him, we will learn to know his innermost
               being and heart, his character and his love. It is not
               enough just to speak of God. We seek his revelation.
Heb. 12:6      The Bible says that those whom God loves he chas-
               tises. So we should thank God if we are punished and
               chastised, for it is a sign of his love. We cannot experi-
               ence the complete liberation brought about by the
               forgiveness of sins if we do not accept Jesus’ sharpness.
               Only then will we also be able to experience his good-
               ness, his compassion, and his ultimate love.

               There is a certain subjectivity in man’s relationship
               with Jesus that we reject because it forgets the great-
               ness of God and the church – as if only my soul and
               my salvation were important. But to reject one’s inner
               relationship to Jesus as subjective in itself would be
               wrong. We do have to experience his love, his death on
               the cross, and his forgiveness in a personal way.

               Everything we need in order to find God is given to
               us in Christ. But it does not help to grasp that with
               our brains. Nor does it help to learn the Bible or recite
               prayers by heart. Jesus must touch our hearts to the
               depths so that we are moved by his person. He com-
Mt. 26:26-28   pares this experience to eating his flesh and drinking
his blood. That is the opposite of a merely intellectual
experience. It is an experience from the depths of the

True discipleship demands that we love Jesus so
deeply that all other love – even our love to wife and
children – is small in comparison. We must love him
so much that even the smallest part of his Gospel is of
greatest importance to us. We must love everything in
him: his death, his resurrection, his judgment, and his
future eternal kingdom. But most of all we must love
his inner life, insofar as he has revealed it to us in his
life and death. This inner life is the spirit of God. The
greatest task of a Christian is to love Jesus, to recognize
him, and to learn to understand him in his innermost

Jesus wants us to love everything in him – his deeds,
his parables, his rejection of mammon and worldly
goods, his pureness of heart and faithfulness in rela-
tionships, his sorrow and suffering over injustice, his
death with criminals – but most of all him personally,
his heart and his blood.
   The Jews found it very hard to accept the idea of
drinking Jesus’ blood and eating his flesh, for it was
forbidden by the law of Moses to drink blood. But
Jesus wanted to show his disciples a unity and com-
munity which he could compare only with flesh and
              blood. He is actually speaking about eternal commu-
              nity with him in the kingdom of God.

Mt. 9:12      Jesus came as a physician for the sick and a shepherd
Jn. 10:14     for the lost – not only for the just and righteous. He is
              God’s love at work on earth. If we really understand
              this, we will realize that following Jesus means suffer-
              ing. It cannot be a comfortable way.

              From a letter: Dedicate yourself daily to the person of
              Jesus. Then it will be possible to burn for him and to
              give up all self-concern.

              When Jesus lived on earth, he promised that he
              would come again to found the kingdom of God, a
Mt. 25:1-13   kingdom of peace and love. In the parable of the ten
              virgins, five of them were ready, but five had no oil –
              no burning love to God and men. Even though the
              five foolish ones had the outer form of the lamp, their
              inner fire was gone. Jesus said he did not know them,
              and they could not take part in the kingdom.
                 This parable speaks to our time, because it is almost
              two thousand years since Jesus lived on earth, and we
              have gotten used to waiting. The world goes on as
              before. But the time will come when we will wish we
              had oil.
If we want to be disciples of Christ we must be pre-
pared to bear everything in faith and give up every-
thing as he did. The total surrender of the crucified
Christ must be proclaimed over and over again in the
church to every new generation.

From a letter: I thank God that you feel an inkling
of the reality of Jesus in your life. Nourish this small
flame and let it grow. Jesus can come into your heart
only insofar as it is emptied of other things. If a bucket
of water is full, you cannot add to it; but if it is emp-
tied, it can be refilled. You must become empty. Jesus
will touch you even if there is only a little room for

From a letter: Never forget that your heart must be
empty and poor in spirit for Jesus to rule in it – no
hidden corners can be kept for yourself. See everything
from Jesus’ outlook and not from your point of view.
What you think and feel is not important. It is Jesus’
will that is important. When you submit to him, all
your feelings will change.

From a letter: If you really want to serve Jesus alone,
show this in practical ways: in the way you bring up
your children, in your attitude to your husband, and
            in your attitude to the church. It is not true that you
            are a poor person, as you write. I wish you were, for
Mt. 5:3     Jesus says, “Blessed are the poor in spirit.” You are
            sometimes very rich, rich in opinions and full of self-
            recognition and self-esteem. Become a poor person in

            From a letter: I know God has given you a loving
            heart, but your old nature must die so that you can
            receive his love. Then he can use you as he made you.
            Dying with Christ does not mean being extinguished.
            But it does mean pouring out our innermost being
            before him, bringing our sins to the cross, and becom-
            ing one with him who died for us.

Jn. 12:24   When a grain of wheat is laid in the earth, it dies. It
            no longer remains a grain, but through death it brings
            forth fruit. This is the way of true Christianity. It is the
            way Jesus went when he died on the cross for each of
            us. If we want our lives to be fruits of Christ’s death
            on the cross, we cannot remain individual grains. We
            must be ready to die too.

            Have Christ before you in everything so that you are
            able to die for him! Long to come nearer to him. Live
            in one spirit – in service to him – so that the grace of
            God may always be with you. Then, even when the
            day comes that your blood must be shed for him, you
            will be joyful. It will be nothing but victory!

Jn. 14:21   Jesus says that if we love him and fulfill his command-
            ments, he will love us and disclose himself to us. This
            is not a question of a theology or a teaching but a
            question of life, of receiving Jesus as a real person, as
            the Son of Man who wants to love us and reveal him-
            self to us. When we dwell in Jesus, he will dwell in us,
Gal. 2:20   and we can say like Paul the Apostle, “I live, yet not I,
            but Christ liveth in me.”

            The way God sent his Son into the world is not to
Jn. 1:14    be explained or understood. John simply says that
            the Word became flesh. This Word is his love, and he
            poured it out through the Holy Spirit in Mary. Only
            in this sense can we begin to understand the mystery
            of the virgin birth.

            It is our prayer that we may see the real Christ. We
            pray that he be revealed to us first as he was – a baby
            born in a stable at Bethlehem, and then a condemned
            man hanging on the cross between two criminals at
            Golgotha; as he is today – the head of all things, es-
Eph. 5:23   pecially of his church; and as he will be at the end of
            time – the one who judges the quick and the dead, the
            Bridegroom of the great festival in the kingdom of
                Are we willing to go the same way of suffering that
             Jesus went on earth? Are we willing to give ourselves so
             completely to him that we are ready to be persecuted,
             beaten, or even killed for his sake?

             Jesus Christ! He must remain the center at all times.
             The church cannot be our center, for a body without a
             head is dead. We need constant renewal from within,
             and by that I mean that we need new encounters with
             God and Christ again and again. This must happen in
             communal worship meetings as well as in each indi-
             vidual heart. Rebirth means the indwelling of the
             Father, and it takes place through the Holy Spirit.

The Living   In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was
Word         with God, and the Word was God. Through him all
             things were made; without him nothing was made that
Jn. 1:1,3    has been made.” The Word is the personal expression
             of God. He became flesh and dwelt among us as a
             human being who was and is Christ. God speaks with
             his Word to the hearts of men and judges them, and
             when they receive the Word and repent – when they
             feel great pain and remorse for their injustice and un-
             righteousness, their lying, murder, impurity, and dark-
             ness – then the kingdom will come.

             Nothing at all can help us – nothing except the Word
             of God. By the Word we do not mean the dead letters
               of the Bible. It is true that since the Bible contains the
               sayings of Jesus and the prophets in written form, it is
               the holiest book that exists. But the Bible itself is not
               the Word; it is only a witness to it. When we read the
               Bible and feel God speaking directly into our hearts,
               when something in our hearts starts to burn, that is
2 Cor. 3:6     the living Word. The Spirit brings life, but the dead
               letter kills.
                  The dead letter of the Old and New Testaments is
               the weapon of the Antichrist. He always comes with
               the Bible in hand. When the Roman Catholics perse-
               cuted the Anabaptist believers of Reformation times,
               they came with Bibles in hand to drown, burn, be-
               head, or hang them.

               As regards the Word, it does not matter what we feel
               or think, nor what we memorize – even if we know all
               the words of Jesus as written in the New Testament –
               but that his words are burned into our hearts by God
               himself. That is the Gospel.

               Are we willing to hear God’s Word, which cuts more
               keenly than a two-edged sword? Paul’s letter to the He-
Heb. 4:12-13   brews says, “The Word of God is alive . . . and to him
               we must give account.” He also speaks of the sharpness
               that cuts and divides joints and marrow. But then he
Heb. 4:15      says that in Jesus we have one who has sympathy for
               our weakness, fears, and inner need – one who under-
            stands. If we are willing to give our hearts to this sharp
            sword, we will find Jesus. But if we reject him, we will
            also be rejected.

Mt. 4:4
            Jesus says that man does not live by bread alone but
            by every word that comes from the mouth of God. We
            do not have a silent God. The Word is not rigid, as if
            cast in iron into one form or contained in a book – not
            even when that book is the Bible. The Word never con-
            tradicts the prophets of the Old Testament, nor does it
            contradict the New Testament, but it is spoken again
            and again from the mouth of God into the hearts
            of men. It continually brings us new revelations and
            makes everything alive for us. We cannot live without
            the living Word of God.

            From a letter: I rejoice that the Bible has become alive
            for you. That is so important: not the dead letter but
            the living Jesus. May he burn in our hearts and lives.
            Then we will no longer be so concerned with our out-
            er activities that our inner life suffers. When Jesus is
            the center of our lives, our inner life will become like a
            flame that burns for him.

 The Holy   The Holy Spirit is like water, which seeks the lowest
 Spirit     place. He comes only to the broken and humble heart.
            The great event of Pentecost – the founding of a living
            church through the coming down of the Holy Spirit –
            is a challenge for us all. Through it we see that when
            the Spirit is poured out on a group of expectant disci-
            ples, something happens that affects the whole world.
            The expectation of the believers in Jerusalem was so
Acts 2:41   great that three thousand others were added to their
            number in one day.
                Today more than ever, when there are so many evil
            spirits at work – spirits of impurity and destruction,
            injustice, rebellion, and murder – we need the gift of
            the Holy Spirit. Whenever we are together, whether in
            our work, our worship, our singing, or our silence, we
            must await the Spirit. But we should expect it not only
            for ourselves – we must think in much greater terms.
            Let us pray for God’s spirit to break in over the god-
            lessness of the whole earth.

Eph. 4:4    The experience of the Holy Spirit can never remain an
            individual experience: it leads to community. When
            the Holy Spirit came over the disciples in Jerusalem,
            they became of one heart and soul; they were so filled
            with love that they could no longer live for themselves.
            That is the greatest gift: to experience unity with Jesus
            Christ in community with others.

            From a letter: There is hardly anything more wonder-
            ful than what took place at Pentecost, when the Holy
            Spirit was poured out over Christ’s disciples. The love
Acts 4:32   among them was so great that they were of one heart
            and one soul and proclaimed the Gospel of Jesus
            Christ even though they knew they would have to
            suffer for it. Let us implore the Holy Spirit to fill our
            hearts, too, with flames of fire, so that we may work in
            a suffering world for Christ’s sake.

Mt. 3:16    In the New Testament the Holy Spirit is compared to a
            dove. A dove is gentle; it will harm no one, and it will
            not force itself on anyone. It flees before birds of prey.
            Through the fall of man we are all birds of prey, and
            we have all driven the Holy Spirit away without know-
            ing it. If the Spirit is resisted, he disappears. He comes
            only to the lowly, the broken, and those who seek him.
The Cross
The fact that Jesus’ blood was shed for the forgive-
ness of sins is a mystery. Many people say, “God is so
great, so mighty, that he could have saved humankind
without the cross.” But that is not true. We should
remember that God is not only one hundred percent
love –which might have allowed him to forgive our
sins without the cross. He is also one hundred percent
justice. God’s love and God’s justice had to be revealed
to the world of angels, because there are evil angels as
well as holy angels.
   To kill the Son of God was the most evil deed ever
done. But it was just through that deed that God
showed his greatest love and gave everyone the possi-
bility of finding peace with him and the forgiveness
of sins.

From a letter: We constantly need the crucified Christ
within us. To receive him we must become silent
before God again and again. Christ wants to live in
our hearts so that we are able to conquer all things.
Through him everything receives its true meaning.
           There is no other foundation for true peace of heart
           than unity with him. Only Christ can bring us to full
           trust in God. In him we find the sharpest judgment of
           wrath over all evil, but also the revelation of his loving

           If we do not believe in the power of evil, we can-
           not fully understand Jesus. It cannot be denied that
           he came to save men. But unless we understand that
           the main reason for his coming was to join the fight
           between God and Satan – to destroy the works of Sa-
           tan – we cannot fully understand the need for an atone-
           ment-death on the cross.

           The thought that God is all-loving can insulate us
           from the power of his touch. People know that God
           forgives sin, but they forget that he judges it too. There
           is something in modern thinking which rebels against
           the Atonement. Perhaps our idea of an all-loving God
           keeps us from wanting to face judgment. We think
           that love and forgiveness is all that is needed, yet that is
           not the whole Gospel – it makes God too human.

           It is of crucial importance that the cross of Jesus Christ
           is in the center of our hearts – central to our calling,
           and central to our mission. The Lamb of God on the
Rev. 5:6   cross stands before the throne of God. The cross is the
center of the universe. We must experience its mean-
ing in its height, depth, and breadth as a mystical
revelation through the Holy Spirit. It is not enough to
believe it; we must ask God that we may be allowed to
experience it in a living way.

The cross is the only place where we can find purifi-
cation – not only from sexual impurity, but from any-
thing which defiles the soul: deceit, murder, hypocrisy,
lovelessness, and envy. We can find purification only if
we find the crucified One.

From a letter: To have the cross as the center of our
lives means to love nothing more than the cross –
when we get up in the morning, throughout the day,
and in every situation. At a wedding two people prom-
ise to love one another until death parts them. But our
love to the cross must go through death into eternal

If a man is confronted by a criminal, he will either
judge him or show him mercy. Only God can do both
in the same moment: judge him and flood him with
compassion and mercy.

If we desire help in our distress – and we do experience
distress – we should not cry to God first about our own
            suffering; we should go back in our minds and hearts
            to where the suffering of the world began. If we come
            before God with only our own inner burdens, we do
            him an injustice. But if we see how God has suffered
            since Adam’s fall – especially through Christ’s death
            on the cross – then we can ask him to free us from our
            own distress.

            Jesus came to destroy the works of the devil, and
            sickness and death are works of the devil. God allows
            them, but in Christ he also takes them upon himself.
            Christ’s seven last words begin with “My Father, if it is
Mt. 26:39   possible, let this cup pass me by. Yet not as I will, but
            as you will.” We cannot imagine all that was in that
            cup. But he was ready to accept it, and although he did
            not feel God’s nearness, he still gave his spirit into the
            hands of the Father. That is the only way to overcome
            the works of the devil.
               When I think of Jesus, I see his cross rooted in the
            earth, towering to the heights, with arms stretched
            wide to embrace all who come to him. The cross is the
            only place where there is complete victory over temp-
            tation, sin, and the devil. There is no other place.

            God wants to reveal the greatness of the cross to us.
            We all know about the cross and its meaning; we all
            believe in it; we are probably all moved by it; but I
            believe God wants it to cut like a sword through our
            hearts. I don’t think any one of us can imagine what
            it means that Christ experienced godforsakenness so
            that we might find forgiveness of sin and eternal life in

            We must pray for all obstacles in our hearts to be
            overcome so that we may experience the death of Jesus
            in its entirety. We are not yet moved enough by his in-
            nocent suffering and death on the cross. Jesus gave his
            blood so that every repentant heart might receive for-
            giveness of sins. His arms are wide open, as they were
            on the cross, for all repentant believers.
                We know that many things depend on our will,
            and yet we know we are unable to bring ourselves to
            a rebirth of the Holy Spirit such as the people expe-
            rienced at Pentecost. We must give our souls, minds,
            and hearts to God and say, “Change them!” We need
            to be changed in all that concerns the past, the present,
            and the future, to be gripped by Christ’s painful death
            and by his resurrection.
               It is because we are concerned with ourselves – be-
            cause our hearts are full of self-love, envy, and other
            things – that we cannot respond as the people at Pente-
            cost did. At that time the Spirit came and pierced their
Heb. 4:12   hearts like a sword cutting through bone and marrow.
            And so it must be our plea today: Give us thy Holy
            Spirit and pierce us. Have mercy on us, and change us
            to the depths of our being!
If we want to tread in the footsteps of Jesus, we must
recognize that there is an hour of God for everything,
whether it is marriage, mission, persecution, or death
itself. We may no longer determine our own timing for
these things, for we have surrendered ourselves in such
a way that God’s hour is our own hour – whether of
joy, sorrow, or drinking a bitter cup to the dregs with
    For those who are dearest to me, I wish nothing
more than that they be ready to drink the bitter cup to
the last. It is much easier for us than it was for Jesus,
because he has gone before us in the way of suffering
to the end. We must be set on fire with such love to
him that we can drink the cup destined for us to the
last drop with joy.

Jesus went the way of the cross for our sakes. But he
suffered in vain if we are not willing to die for him,
to lose ourselves for him. Let us ask God that our
thoughts and feelings are moved by his death on the
cross, his descent into hell, his resurrection, and his
ascension into heaven.

You must find the humility of the cross. You can
search the whole world, but you will find forgiveness
of sins nowhere except at the cross.
            We cannot encounter Jesus without encountering
            the cross. His person emanates the way of suffering.
            Through his sacrifice his great love for all men floods
            our hearts and becomes in us an urge to go out to save
            those who are in the grip of darkness. If we love Jesus,
            the desire to suffer for him will well up quite naturally.
            I cannot imagine how one can follow Jesus without a
            deep understanding for his way of suffering.

            We need to get past our personal struggles to experi-
            ence the great thoughts of God. To experience personal
            salvation through the cross is important, but to remain
            at this stage is useless. The cross is so much greater
            than the personal; it embraces the whole earth and
            more than this earth.

            There are secrets that only God knows. Christ’s death
            on the cross is one such mystery. The Bible says that
Col. 1:20   through the cross not only this earth but also heaven
            and all the powers and principalities belonging to
            the angel world will be reconciled to God. Man, and
            perhaps even the angels, cannot know the mysteries
            that lie behind all this. But one thing we know: Christ
            overcame death, the last enemy. And through the cross
            something took place which had power far beyond the
            limits of our earth, far greater than our souls can com-
Mt. 25:1-13   From a letter: In his parable of the ten virgins, Jesus
              emphasizes the reality of punishment for sin and the
              loss of eternal salvation. The thought of eternal pun-
              ishment is certainly frightening. But John writes that
1Jn. 4:18     complete love drives away fear, for fear still thinks
              of punishment, and he who thinks of punishment
              does not love fully. The tension between these two
              poles –the fear of punishment and the love that drives
              away all fear – can be overcome only by the experience
              of love.
                 If you love someone very deeply, you will not be
              afraid of him. In the same way, if you truly love Jesus,
              you will not fear him. You cannot serve Jesus out of

2 Pet. 3:9    It is God’s will that all men should be redeemed and
              that none should be lost. Yet the Gospels also say very
              clearly that none of us will be saved unless we experi-
              ence rebirth through the Holy Spirit, unless we go
              through repentance and conversion and find faith.
              And Jesus, who has greater love than any man, speaks
              clearly of damnation. Even though God is almighty,
             and even though it is his express will that all be saved,
Rev. 5:6     he does not force his will on us – his nature is that of
Mt. 3:16     the lamb, Christ, and the dove, the Holy Spirit. So it
             depends on us as individuals whether or not we open
             ourselves to the grace of rebirth. First, however, we
             must become lowly and broken, for rebirth is not pos-
             sible without sharp judgment. God’s judgment is love.

Rom. 8       In Romans 8 Paul speaks about the salvation of the
             chosen or elect. One might ask, “What about the oth-
             ers? Will they also be saved?” Peter throws light on this
             question in his second letter, where he writes, “It is not
2 Pet. 3:9   that the Lord is slow in fulfilling his promise, as some
             suppose, but that he is very patient with you, because
             it is not his will for any to be lost, but for all to come
             to repentance.” It is clear, then, that God wills that
             everyone, including his enemies, may repent and find
             salvation. But we should not become guilty of playing
             with his patience.

             When Christ is victorious in our hearts, it is not the
             result of a slow evolution – it does not mean becoming
             better and better. It means judgment and then change.
             Lukewarmness is not a choice. A person will either
             turn completely to Jesus or will ultimately be judged.
                The whole idea of the damnation of sinful man is
             very hard to accept and reconcile with the love of Jesus
             as he so powerfully revealed it on the cross at Golgo-
               tha. But anyone who remains bound by sin cannot
               enter the kingdom of God, otherwise the world would
               continue divided and evil. We do not understand the
               fullness of God’s love. Yet we do know that Jesus car-
Rev. 5:6       ries the sins of the whole world, and that he stands
               before the throne of God. His sacrifice for the redemp-
               tion of the world is the central point. We should never
               lose sight of that.

               As a child I always had the feeling that someday the
               masses – the working class – would be moved to come
               nearer to God. Perhaps I was influenced by the many
               anarchists, socialists, and religious socialists who stayed
               at our house. But when I was older I read in the Book
Rev. 16        of Revelation how one bowl of wrath after another
               would be poured over the earth, and still men would
               not repent. This was very hard for me. I could not
               accept the idea of only a very small fraction of human-
               kind being saved. It went against my whole way of
               thinking. I searched the Bible – the Prophets and the
               New Testament – with this one question in mind.
                   When I read the Gospel of John, I came across the
               place where Jesus says that judgment will come over
Jn. 12:31-32   the earth: “The prince of this world will be driven out,
               and I shall draw all men to myself.” I do not know
               how Jesus will do it, but I do believe that he will draw
               all men to himself, and that he did not die on the cross
               for just a few people. Jesus says that the way to truth is
               narrow and that few people will find it, that most peo-
              ple walk the broad way that leads to damnation. This
              is undeniably true, but it would be terrible if we were
              to think that we ourselves had found the narrow way,
              and if we had no love for those who go the broad way.

Jn. 8:1-11    The eighth chapter of John begins with the Pharisees
              wanting to stone a woman caught in adultery, and it
Jn. 8:59      ends with their wanting to stone Jesus. Jesus angered
              the Jews because he spoke frankly about who he was,
              what his task was, and how he had come to save hu-
              mankind. The chapter raises a decisive question for
              us and for every individual: Are we willing to believe
              Jesus’ words, or do we doubt them? Jesus says that if
Jn. 8:34-35   we do not believe, we are slaves; we are not free even
              if we think we are free. He says that there is no other
              way to find freedom, redemption, and liberation than
              through faith in him.
Jn. 8:24         He also says, “If you do not believe, you will die
Jn. 8:51      in your sins,” and “Those who obey me will never see
              death.” These words had to be said, for they are the
              truth, and they stand for all time. If we find faith, we
              will find freedom from sin, from the fear of death, and
              from the lovelessness of our time. But if we do not
              find faith, we will remain slaves to these things. The
              challenge to each of us is to love Jesus and accept the
              freedom he offers us.

Mt. 25:1-13   In the parable of the ten virgins Jesus is not speaking
              of the world but of Christians. All those who went to
          meet the Bridegroom were virgins; that is, they were all
          Christians. But five of them were wise and five foolish.
          They all had the outward form – the vessel. But they
          did not all have oil. The oil of which Jesus speaks is the
          Holy Spirit, the life that comes from God, and only
          five of them had that.
Mt. 5-7       In the Beatitudes we see the marks of those who
          have the Holy Spirit. They are poor in spirit, they
          mourn, they are meek, they hunger and thirst for righ-
          teousness, they are merciful and pure of heart, they are
          peacemakers, and they are persecuted for righteous-
          ness’ sake. In fact, the whole Sermon on the Mount
          tells us how we should live: we should never come to
          prayer without forgiving our brother; we should love
          our enemies and bless those who curse us; we should
          not collect money or treasures on earth; we should put
          our whole trust in the Father; and we should use no
              It is a sharp judgment that the foolish virgins are
          not allowed into the kingdom of heaven, and this is a
          two-fold call to us. The one is to watch and wait for
          the Holy Spirit so that he may change our soul and our
          being, and so that we may be reborn – so that we are
          touched daily by Jesus. The other is to live for those
          who are with us on the way to meet the Bridegroom,
          and to call them to have oil in their lamps. The outer
          form is not enough; it is not enough to live in com-
          munity or to follow the outer forms of Christianity
          even to the last. Discipleship must spring from a living
               It may be that God pre-ordains certain people to be his
Lk. 1:15       own. It is clear that John the Baptist was chosen before
               his birth, and I can also imagine that the Apostle Paul
               was meant to be what he was a long time before he
               was born. But if there is such a thing as certain people
               being ordained by God to be his, even before they are
               born, then how is it with all the rest? In the Old Testa-
Ezek. 18:23    ment we read, “ ‘Have I any desire,’ says the Lord God,
               ‘for the death of a wicked man? Would I not rather
               that he should mend his ways and live?’” And in the
2 Pet. 3:9     New Testament we read, “It is not God’s will for any
               soul to be lost, but for all to come to repentance.” So
               the Bible makes it clear that God wants all men to be

Lk. 22:31-32   Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Behold, Satan demands to
               have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have
               prayed for you that your faith may not fail; and when
               you have turned again, strengthen your brethren.” I
               think Satan demands to sift us too, and we must ask
               Jesus to pray for us that our faith may not fail, also for
               the sake of our brothers.
Lk. 22:54-62      Whenever I fail, I keenly feel the words: “The Lord
               turned and looked.” I am sure that Jesus has turned
               and looked at us many times – very sadly. When Jesus
               said that Peter would deny him, he was not just stating
               a predestined fact that left him untouched. It pained
               him even though he knew beforehand that it would
               happen. It was the same with Judas. When Jesus shud-
            dered and said, “One of you will betray me,” he suf-
            fered real agony. May we all have an open heart for the
Jn. 31:21   look Jesus gives us. He wants to protect his followers,
            but even after they are chosen by him they are still in
            danger of being lost.

            Woe to us if we think we will get to heaven because
            we live at the Bruderhof. If we believe this, we don’t
            love Christ enough.

            Paul writes in his letter to the Romans that Jesus came
            not only for the Jews but for all men. He goes on to
            say, “The true Jew is not he who is such in externals;
            nor is the true circumcision the external mark in the
Rom. 2:28   flesh. The true Jew is he who is such inwardly.” In
            the same way, the true Christian is not recognizable
            outwardly – even if he is baptized. To pour water over
            a person or immerse him in water is in itself no help
            toward salvation. “True circumcision is of the heart,
            directed not by written precepts but by the Spirit;
            such a man receives his commendation not from men
Rom. 2:29   but from God.” This is an important point: faith is
            not made up of written precepts. Paul was referring to
            the Law of Moses, but today too, we can be enslaved
            by written laws – this is one of our dilemmas at the
            Bruderhof. We must never give up the freedom of the
            Spirit, in which alone we can find peace in God.
                Even if we do not completely understand the
            thoughts of Paul regarding salvation, the heart and
               the sense of his words are very easy to understand: the
               Pharisees kept the Law but were still proud hypocrites,
Rom. 3:28      whereas “our argument is that a man is justified by
               faith, quite apart from his success in keeping the law.”

               You may wonder about the millennium, the resur-
               rection of the just, and the future of God’s kingdom.
               Simply leave it all to God. We face many mysteries re-
               garding the future; we do not know the reason for this,
               that, or the other. The main thing is that in the end
1 Cor. 15:28   God is all in all. He will triumph over all evil and over
               all that is hostile to him. That should be our greatest
           The Kingdom of God
           It is quite clear that the kingdom of God cannot exist
           where bombs are being dropped on people, whether
           guilty or innocent, where there is racial hatred among
           men, where there is such poor distribution of food that
           some people starve while others have surplus food, or
           where people cannot find work because of automation.
               If we really see the injustice of the world for what it
           is, we will long for the kingdom of God. Only when
           the hearts of men are moved toward love and peace
           will his righteousness break in. Those who remain
           unmoved, however, cannot take part in the kingdom.
           Therefore John the Baptist said, “Repent, for the king-
Mt. 3:2    dom of God is at hand.” And Jesus said, “Seek first the
Mt. 6:33   kingdom of God and his righteousness, and everything
           else will be yours as well.”

           Jesus came to prepare all men for the kingdom of
           God, which has not yet come, as we know only too
           well. He told us that the kingdom will be among us
           when we love God with our whole heart and soul, and
           when we love our neighbor as ourselves. If only we
           would do this, not just in words but in deed!
            Jesus came not as a great king or president but as a
            humble baby. That is what people have not under-
            stood. He proclaimed the coming kingdom of God.
            There has perhaps never been a time when this is more
            urgently needed than the present. Men have more
            power than ever, and the power of their weapons is
            frightening. The relationships of people, races, and
            nations, are unsolved, and those who have money rule.
Mt. 19:21   Jesus says we should become poor. If we obey him
            and give up worldly privileges and power over people,
            our hearts will be freed for the kingdom of God. Oh,
            if we could only glimpse what this kingdom means:
            repentance, glowing love, and God’s rulership above

            Nations are building their freedom and security on the
            most dangerous weapons that have ever existed. Yet we
            are called to build our security on something else –
            that which is of God. And we long that something of
            God might be given to all nations. It is not enough to
            lead even the most perfect life of peace in church com-
            munity. Our longing will be satisfied only when the
            whole earth comes under the rulership of God, not the
            rulership of force.

Jn. 6:11    When Jesus fed five thousand people with five loaves
            and two fishes, a remarkable thing happened: the
Jn. 6:15      people wanted to force him to become their king.
Jn. 6:26-66   But Jesus said to them, “You come to me because I
              have fed you,” and he rejected them. Then those who
              wanted to make him king left him. Some of them were
              even hostile. After this Jesus said to the Twelve, “All the
              others have gone away; do you want to leave me now
              too?” We must be ready to answer this question: Do
              we also want to leave?
                 It is significant that the people wanted to make
              Jesus king only after he gave them bread. This did not
              happen even when he raised someone from the dead.
              There is nothing wrong in itself with expecting God to
              give us bread, or expecting Jesus to fill our needs. Jesus
              taught us to ask our Father for our daily bread. But
              what he so sharply rejects is the building of a kingdom
              on that mammonistic level. He would rather lose his
              disciples than build his kingdom on a false foundation.
                 Jesus offers to give himself to each one of us to the
              extent that we become one flesh and one blood with
              him. This is not a philosophy, but real food; it is life. It
              changes everything in anyone who experiences it, not
              only for that moment but for all eternity.
                 Christ promises us eternal life in a kingdom based
              on faith, not on work and bread. Usually a king de-
              mands the blood of his subjects. But Christ gave his
              blood for his subjects. He gave his life and his body for
              the lives of others. At the time Christ offered his body
              to his disciples, he had – as far as we know – the larg-
              est following of his lifetime. But after this, many left
Jn. 6:67-68   him. That is why Jesus asked the Twelve, “Do you also
want to leave me?” Peter’s answer is wonderful: “Lord,
to whom shall we go? Your words are words of eternal
    It is important for us to decide whether we want
only a nice church with Jesus as its king, or the way of
the cross. This must be very clear to us: Jesus’ way is
the way of the cross, of complete personal change, of a
society on a completely different basis than work and
bread and privileges. We must be willing to be sur-
rounded by enemies and to be despised for going his

The way society has developed in this century of such
tremendous injustice and bloodshed shows us that
salvation and redemption cannot come from men; they
must come from God. All the more we must call on
God to reveal once again his kingdom of righteousness
and justice among men.

Jesus is the kingdom of God. When he forgave sins,
that was the kingdom of God. When he gathered his
friends in unity, that was the kingdom of God. When
he drove out demons and impure spirits, that was the
kingdom of God. Every deed of his mission among
men was the kingdom of God.

I sometimes wonder whether our community has
not completely forgotten the kingdom of God, and
            whether the distinction between personal salvation and
            the kingdom is clear enough to us. Both are of great
            importance. Eternal salvation is very important – it is
            wonderful to experience the nearness of Christ and to
            be redeemed by him. But the kingdom of God is still

            The nearness of the kingdom of God cannot be mea-
Mt. 4:17    sured in terms of time. Jesus said “The kingdom of
            heaven is at hand!” And paradoxical as it sounds, it was
            nearer at that time than it is now. It was not nearer in
            terms of time, but in terms of space.

Jas. 5:16   The kingdom of God must be fought for and wrestled
Mk. 9:29    for. The prayers of men and women have tremendous
            influence in this fight.

            If we love Christ and his cause, we will have the inter-
            est of his kingdom at heart. Christ came to this earth
            and suffered in order to bring the kingdom on earth,
            and his church is entrusted with the very great task of
            mission for this kingdom.
               What a mighty thing it is to live for God’s king-
            dom! Do not shrink back. Live for it; look for it, and
            you will find that it is so powerful it will completely
            overwhelm you – it will solve every problem on earth.
            Everything will be new, and each person will love the
               other in Christ. All separation brought about by death
               will be overcome, and love will rule.

               The commission we are given by Jesus as a church is
               to work for his kingdom and his future reign. There is
               nothing greater on earth than to work for this. Let us
               live intensely and use our time for the kingdom! Let us
               love one another!

               God needs a place on earth where he can break in.
               Such a place was there in Mary, whose willingness
               made it possible for Christ to be born in Bethlehem.
               If God can enter in even one place, whether in Bethle-
               hem, China, Russia, Vietnam – in a human heart any-
               where – it is like the opening of a door. If the door to a
               room is opened even a little, light can come in. And if
               God’s light enters and moves the hearts of just two or
               three people on earth, it will affect all the rest. It will
               even affect presidents, prime ministers, generals, and
               soldiers. I cannot believe that humans are so isolated
               from one another that it has no effect.
Rom. 5:12-19      Just as through Adam the whole of humankind fell,
               so through Jesus – the “second Adam,” the true man,
               and God himself – the whole of humankind can find
               freedom, healing, and redemption.

               Let us call upon God and ask him that we may fight
               for his kingdom. The more deeply we enter this fight,
               the more deeply we will experience the cross of Christ,
               the resurrection, and Pentecost – and the nearer the
               kingdom will be to us. Live intensively in the expecta-
               tion of the Lord! He who does not wait for the Lord in
               every aspect of his life does not wait at all. I ask my-
               self every evening, have I really loved enough, hoped
               enough, fought enough, worked enough? The expecta-
               tion of the kingdom must lead to deeds.

               Karl Barth* once said that the kingdom of God must
               be revealed to us as something completely different
               from us, something completely independent from us
               which we cannot mix with our own selves. This is, I
               think, a very important recognition. Unless we die to
               ourselves for his sake, we remain in opposition to him
               and unworthy of him.

               God could have closed human history at Golgotha,
               when Jesus overcame the devil and death. But he did
               not do that, and evil had a further chance. This is a
               mystery to us. Many people from all nations are won
               for the kingdom of God, but many others are misled.
               I do not dare to guess why this is so, but I know that
               God is the ruler of the universe and that his judgment
               must stand. We read that those who are misled, those
Rev. 14:9-10   who “worship the beast and its image,” will receive
               its mark on their forehead or hand and will drink the
               * Karl Barth, Swiss theologian, 1886-1968
               wine of God’s wrath. We don’t know when this will
               happen, or when the breaking in of God’s kingdom
               will come, but we must raise our children so that they
               are ready to stand firm when it does. Our children
               must be courageous enough to stand for the truth.

               How does the kingdom of God relate to the last judg-
               ment? How will the kingdom come, and what will it
               be like? Much is shown us through the sayings of Jesus
               himself, through the writings of the early church, and
               through the working of the Spirit in the individual
Mt. 24:36      heart. Yet Jesus said that the hour of the coming king-
               dom was known to the Father alone and that even he,
               the Son of God, did not know when it would come.
               We can approach these questions only with greatest
               awe, reverence, and caution. At the same time, though,
               we see how very concerned the early Christians were
               with the coming of the kingdom. All the words of the
               apostles point to it.

               We do not know how near or far we are from the
               kingdom of God in terms of time. But we know we
               can be very near or very far from it in spirit, and that
               is the decisive question. Jesus said that we can expect
Lk. 21:9-11    signs of the coming kingdom, and some of these signs
               are evident today. Yet he also said that the last day
Lk. 12:39-40   would come like a thief in the night; that is, at a mo-
               ment when no one expects it or is thinking about it.
                   There are many mysteries we cannot solve because
                God wishes to keep them hidden. But we can rejoice
                in this: the coming of the kingdom is certain, and it is
                a kingdom of peace, victory, and justice.
                   We do not know why God allowed death and evil
                to enter creation, yet we do know that man let himself
                be seduced by evil. In the same way, we do not know
                what struggle God carried on against evil before the
                creation of man, or the proportion and nature of man’s
                task in this struggle, but we do know that it was a
                decisive struggle and that it brought the Son of God
                himself to the cross.
Rev. 19:11-21      In the Revelation of John we read of a battle that
                will take place in heaven at the end time. The church –
                as the Body of Christ – has to carry on the same battle
                here upon earth. Just as God did not spare the suffer-
                ing of his own Son but delivered him up to suffer the
                greatest need, so too, at the expense and sacrifice of the
                church, the kingdom will break in.

                The separation of the spiritual from the material, of
                the soul from the body, is death, but unity is life. Jesus
                brought the message of a new kingdom where soul
                and body, spiritual and material, will no longer be
                separated. In this new kingdom the Creator will be one
                with his creation.

                When we look at the earth as it is now, we see that
                judgment is inevitable. In fact, the sin of men is al-
              ready carrying out this judgment. Yet if we deeply
              consider the words of Christ, we will find that grace,
              mercy, and compassion will triumph over judgment.
                 We expect a new heaven and a new earth, but we
              must not trouble ourselves with exactly how and when
              the kingdom will come. We know only that it is com-
2 Pet. 3:12   ing. And since Peter says that the church must expect,
              help, and hasten on the coming of God, we know it is
              our task to see that something of his kingdom is re-
              vealed and made living among us.

              In the beginning, even before the creation of the uni-
              verse, was the endlessly loving Father, God, and with
              him the Word, which is Jesus Christ, and the Holy
              Spirit. At the end of time, too, God alone will rule.
              Groaning creation will be redeemed and the universe
Rev. 7:17     will be joyful. There will be pure joy, love, harmony,
Rev. 21:4     and justice. God will wipe away every tear, and there
              will be no death, sorrow, or pain. The longing for this
              time burns in the heart of every being, spiritual or hu-

              What a great gift it would be if we could see a little
              of the great vision of Jesus – if we could see beyond
              our small lives! Certainly our view is very limited.
              But we can at least ask him to call us out of our small
              worlds and our self-centeredness, and we can at least
ask to feel the challenge of the great harvest that must
be gathered – the harvest of all nations and all people,
including the generations of the future.
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