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					HITBOD'DUT                                          12/8/10 6:17 AM




             "HITBOD'DUT"

               CONVERSATIONS
                 WITH MR. H
                   A LOWBROW, SLIGHTLY IRREVERENT
                 INTRODUCTION TO BRESLAV THEOLOGY




             by franklyn wepner
             december 2008
             franklynwepner@gmail.com




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                                         PREFACE
             (a) ON THE HYPOTHESIS OF THIS EXPERIMENT

             The teachings of Rabbi Nachman of Breslav, as embodied in today's Breslav Hassidic
             sect of Judaism embody a form of what traditionally goes by the name of "Pietism".
             Pietism emphasizes faith and simplicity over against complex intellectual explanations
             of religious matters. But from the day that the Baal Shem Tov, it is said, sought God by
             talking to Him in the woods and jumping back and forth from one side of a stream to
             the other, until the day Nachman published his collected essays, "Likutei Moharan",
             much water in the stream of Jewish Pietism has passed under the bridge. That is to
             say, Likutei Moharan is not simple stuff. In order to write what he writes in those pages,
             Rabbi Nachman had to be well versed in the complex tradition of Pietist religion.
             Whether he got it from the original sources or from other compilations, he had to know
             something about the Neoplatonism of Philo, Ibn Gabirol, Judah Halevy , Abu-l-Barakat
             and Leone Ebreo. He had to know something about the responses of Hasdai Crescas
             to the Aristotelian Jewish tradition which crystallized in Maimonides "Guide For The
             Perplexed". To these two traditions, Nachman of Breslav added a strong emphasis
             upon the philosophy of language, in the sense that the Word of God is coming to us
             from a Jewish God who in a profound mystical sense is a speaking God, speaking to
             us and speaking through us. Though it is hard to find precedents to this in Judaism, we
             can find it in the work of the Christian theologian Johann Georg Hamann, which
             appeared, shortly before the time Nachman was born, in Konigsberg, East Prussia, not
             far from where Nachman lived in Eastern Europe. In the work of Hamann we find much
             of the philosophy of language which Nachman incorporated into his teachings. In
             other words, since the teachings of Rabbi Nachman of Breslav are so saturated with
             the complex tradition of Pietism, they are anything but a return to the naivete of the Bal
             Shem Tov. In this respect Nachman is deliberately deceptive when he tells his
             disciples again and again to keep it simple, and rely mainly on prayer.

             But he also tells them to study! So he is not preaching mindlessness. Nor is he
             teaching blind following. His elevation of "the tsaddik of the generation" to the level of
             highest authority in the community of Hassidim is to be read both in the literal, "pshat",
             sense, and also in the profoundest philosophical sense as the Moses-Mashiach
             element potentially available in every person who submits himself to the theological
             process outlined in Likutei Moharan. Traditionally in Judaism it is said that each Jew
             shares in the living reality of Moses receiving the Torah on Mt. Sinai, but for Nachman
             this notion is merely the tip of an iceberg which is available to those who take the
             trouble to fathom the ideas of Likutei Moharan.

             In view of these elements contained in Nachman's teachings, it should not be
             surprising that in what follows here I discover profundity rather than naivete in
             Nachman's advice to his disciples that they ought to sequester themselves every day



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             and talk directly to God. Of course, we can talk naively to God in the manner of Tevye
             in Fiddler On the Roof. That procedure here I label "dumb hitbod'dut". Dumb hitbod'dut
             in that sense is in most cases better than no hitbod'dut at all. It can't hurt, and it might
             even be more useful than talking to oneself. But I am after bigger fish than that. My
             goal here is to begin to apply the principles of Likutei Moharan itself to the process of
             hitbod'dut. This introduction is not the place to spell out the complex principles of
             Likutei Moharan. You will find some of that in the sequel. Here I will just outline my
             basic assmptions for this project, which are that

               (i) Since Neoplatonism and Hamann's philosophy of language are examples of
             dialectical thinking, therefore Likutei Moharan likewise is dialectical thinking.

              (ii) Gestalt Therapy also is dialectical thinking, containing both Platonic and
             Aristotelian aspects.

              (iii) Therefore, applying dialectical thinking and Gestalt Therapy principles to
             hitbod'dut is entirely appropriate.

              (iv) Hitbod'dut divested of the Gestalt Thrapy list of "self-interruptions" that rob our
             actions of their potential for authenticity and effectiveness is better than hitbod'dut
             saturated with this nonsense. The list of self-interruptions includes, beginning with the
             most pernicious, (a) confluence, (b) introjection, (c) projection, (d) retroflection, and (e)
             egotism. I will present these problems, one after the other, and then I will go on and
             attempt to demonstrate that smart hitbod'dut is better than dumb hitbod'dut.

             (b) ON THE STYLE OF THIS PRESENTATION

             That is the rationale for this project. Now a few words about the style of this project. It
             is, first of all, an experiment. I never saw it done before, but I decided to try to do it
             anyway. I state at the beginning that it might not work. As a matter of fact, I believe that
             it did work. I believe it worked very well, but you might not agree. That is for you to
             decide. Being an experiment, it had a hypothesis and a procedure. The hypothesis I
             just explained above. The procedure was simply to do my own personal hitbod'dut
             work, talking to Mr. H (Hashem, Hebrew: The Name, i.e., God), on tape as a here and
             now spontaneous improvisation, with you looking on as the audience. If you have
             access to that CD I hope you will invest the 2 hours or so it takes to listen to it. If you do
             so, you will discover that this written version has been edited to make it more coherent
             and more readable. Also, I have taken the liberty of correcting certain blunders. But on
             the other hand, I purposely retained the style of a here and now spontaneous
             improvisation. You should know that the "actor" of that theatrical event is not such a
             nice guy as the erudite elderly gentleman who, with the wisdom of hindsight and in the
             manner of cool reflection, is writing this introduction. That actor doesn't mind insulting
             his audience if he feels - perhaps mistakenly - that by doing so he can better get his
             point across. But he has asked me to beg you please not to take it personally! It is
             merely poetic license. And after all, he is doing therapy up there, working on his
             existence. He is just exploring the range of expression available to him there and then



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             (here and now) in his studio or up on his favorite hitbod'dut hill in Yavniel, Israel, which
             - by the way - is about 5 miles west of the sea of Galilee, in the vicinity of the city of
             Tiberias. It is Chanuka/Christman time, December 2008, but the weather is balmy,
             except for a breeze that occasionally makes its presence known in the form of
             microphone noise. He is making every effort to remain faithful to the process of
             hitbod'dut as he understands it based upon his sources, the Likutei Moharan text of
             Nachman of Breslav, and the Gestalt Therapy texts of Fritz Perls. Also, as he tells us,
             he is at pains to select topics personal enough to be meaningful and on the other hand
             not so personal that he damages himself or others by having an audience find out
             about them. If you think that is easy, he suggests you try it yourself sometime with your
             own recording equipment and send him the results.




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                           CONTENTS

             (1) SMART HITBOD'DUT AND DUMB HITBOD'DUT
             (a) WHAT IS HITBOD'DUT?
             (b) PROJECTION
             (c) INTROJECTION
             (d) CONFLUENCE
             (e) RETROFLECTION
             (f) EGOTISM
             (g) SUMMARY




             (2) SMART HITBOD'DUT AS INDUCTION, FAITH AND
             PRAYER
             (a) HERE & NOW ON MY FAVORITE HITBOD'DUT HILL IN YAVNIEL
             (b) THE TREE OF LIVING ORGANISMS: "GESTALTS"
             (c) MR. H "ROCHEV AHL ARAVOT"ABOVE THE SPHERES
             (d) LEIBNIZ' THEORY OF MONADS
             (e) REINTEGRATING PROJECTIONS
             (f) NO QUESTIONS ALLOWED
             (g) "PRAYER" AS RIDING THE MOMENTS
             (h) INDUCTIVE LOGIC VS DEDUCTIVE LOGIC
             (i) THE RHYTHM OF CONTACT AND WITHDRAWAL
             (j) THE CONCRETE DIALECTIC: THESIS/ANTITHESIS/SYNTHESIS




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             (3) USING PROJECTIONS CREATIVELY FOR
             HITBOD'DUT
             (a) USING PROJECTIONS IN HITBOD'DUT
             (b) FINDING A CONCRETE SITUATION
             (c) THIS IS PROPHECY AND ANAMNESIS
             (d) DIALOGUE OF AVRAHAM, YITZCHAK & YAAKOV AS "ANGEL"
             (e) THE SPIRALING DIALECTIC OF EGLAH / EEGUL
             (f) NEW PROJECTIONS: TIBERIUS (Y) AND YAVNIEL (-Y)
             (g) THE SYNTHESIS: YAAKOV, JERUSALEM
             (h) TSELEM ELOKIM AND THE COMING SOLUTION
             (i) INDUCTION AS TRANSLATION AND PRAYER
             (j) "LA-SHUR": TO GAZE AND "SHOR" (BULL)
             (k) BRECHT AND STANISLAVSKI
             (l) SUMMARY
             (m) WHO IS MR. H?




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             (1) SMART HITBOD'DUT AND DUMB
             HITBOD'DUT

             (a) WHAT IS HITBOD'DUT?

             Recording number one. This is an experiment. We're going to see if it works.

             FW: So, Mr. H, listen, it's Wepner here. I got to deal with a fly that's buzzing around me,
             and I got to deal with you at the same time. So, forgive me . . . if I don't quite connect!

             So here I am sitting in my studio, with my microphone, and my recorder, and my
             keyboard. (plays sounds) That was "orchestra". You want to hear a trumpet? (more
             sounds) Trombone? (more sounds) That's not a good trombone. (sounds) That
             sounded a little more like a trombone. (sounds)

             OK, so Mr. H, I'm not going to say who You really are, since I'm not supposed to use
             Your name in vain. But I'm going to play around with this project, and see what
             happens.

             So the point of the project is we're going to talk about the difference between smart
             hitbod'dut and dumb hitbod'dut. First of all, what is "hitbod'dut"? It's a Hebrew word
             meaning "being alone". But the way the religious people usually use it, when they say
             "hitbod'dut", is that you're supposed to be alone talking to God, like Tevye in Fiddler On
             The Roof. Like you say,

             Ha-shem!

             Oh, you're not supposed to say Ha-shem.

             Mr. H! I'm trying to peddle my work, and nobody wants to take it seriously. So I'm trying
             this approach, making a CD like this. Maybe somebody will listen to it.

             Nincompoops out there! Listen! Listen. I got something important here. If you dummies
             don't appreciate it, that's your problem!

             (b) PROJECTION

             In hitbod'dut, when you do a projection you think you're talking to God, but really all
             you're talking to is yourself! Let's see how that works. That sounds a little bit like
             Schopenhauer. " The World as Will and Representation (or Idea)". The Will is the force
             that motivates things, keeps them going along. The representation, that's our ideas,
             our projecting all over the place, and we make a world out of that. So from this point of




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             view everything is a projection. If I say,

             FW: Mr. H out there, hi! You seem rather withdrawn today. You're not talking much.

             What am I doing? I'm just projecting my own "withdrawn-ness" out there into the void,
             into that empty space, wallpapering the world with withdrawn-ness. Basically, I'm
             talking about my own "withdrawn-ness". In other words, I'm experiencing some
             withdrawn-ness, but I don't want to acknowledge that I am withdrawing, that I am
             holding back, so I project it out there and I say,

             FW: Mr. H, you are withdrawing!

             That's called a projection. But if I don't realize I'm doing that, if I don't realize that I am
             making that projection, then I'm just going to say,

             FW: Hey, Mr. H, how come you won't talk to me today?

             I'm lost in myself. I have no contact with Mr. H, because all I'm contacting is my own
             projection, my own dumb projection because I'm not aware of what I'm doing. You
             think you're talking to God, but really all you're talking to is your own crappy ego that
             you're trying to get out of! You see? And there are a million different variations of the
             same ego game.

             (c) INTROJECTION

             We're rattling off the Gestalt list of problems, the list of "self-interruptions" as they call
             them. Next on the list is "introjection". So instead of interrupting your communication
             with God or with your soul, or whatever it is, with a projection, you might try an
             "introjection" that day, that moment. The roots of the word "Introjection" is "jectare", to
             throw, and "intro", in; so it's "throwing in" that you are doing. You're swallowing whole
             some authority figure in your life, most likely when you were a child, for example, if you
             had an authoritarian father.

             Father: That's it! Do what I say, and that's it. I don't want to hear from you!

             That's the authoritarian father. You want to do hitbod'dut. You want to talk to God but
             you're just talking to your introject, your dybbuk, that soul of your father that doesn't
             want to go away, that's possessing you, inhabiting you, polluting you So you say,

             Hey, Hashem!

             And then you imagine Hashem saying something critical.

             Mr. H: Oh, you dumb son-of-a-bitch, you screwed up your life today. You should crawl!

             So you say,



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             (whining) Oh, Hashem, I'm so terrible. I did this today, and I hurt this person and I hurt
             that person. Oh, forgive me, Hashem!

             But really, you're not talking to Hashem. You're just talking to your father again. And,
             you know, it's boring. It's stupid. You're not going to get to Hashem that way. You're just
             going to get back to your father, and the more you get into that trip of projecting that
             authoritarian image out there the more lost you get in self-abuse.

             Oh, God, how can I possibly do all of your 10,000 mitzvot, commandments?! It's
             overwhelming. I can't do it. I'm a terrible Jew!

             That's bullshit! That's religious bullshit that you're stuck in because your rebbes don't
             know what they're doing so they can't teach you what you should do. You understand?
             You get the idea? That's "introjection". OK? You got an introjected authority figure, or
             maybe you got an introjected mama that was always,

             Mama: Oh, my poor, loving, what can I do for you this moment, you poor, helpless
             child?

             So then every time you talk to God you're going to be talking to your mother that's
             calling you a poor, helpless child, and you're going to say,

             (crying) Oh, God, I'm so helpless today, I don't know what to do! I'm so helpless. I can't
             deal with anything!

             And then you're back to being the crybaby that mother incubated in her womb cause
             she needed to have a crybaby so she could play her game on you. So there's another
             introject!

             (d) CONFLUENCE

             What else do we got here in our package of goodies, our ego goodies that we use all
             day long? Umm, we did projection, we did introjection. Now, another one. The worst
             once is "confluence". That's where you're totally out of touch with anything except your
             own habits. So let's say you have a habit of bossing people around,

             FW: Do it my way, or else, buddy! Look, I'm running the show here!

             So then you're going to treat Hashem that way.

             Mr. H! Hi. Here's my list of what I want today. I want this and I want that. I want some
             money. I need about 25 students, to help pay the rent. I need some credibility here.
             These rabbis won't take me seriously. I don't have any credential . . . but that was my
             problem. No! I don't have any problems. I'm perfect! You need to give me what I want,
             and that's it! That's it, cause I'm just in touch with me and my needs. All right, that's it.



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             Give me this and give me that.

             That's an example of confluence. "Con" is "with" and "fluere" is "to flow". You're flowing
             with your past habit, your previous habit of being a spoiled, snotnose child that got
             whatever he wants. So,

             Hashem, here's my list. I want two pounds of coleslaw, two dozen knackniks, uh, a new
             pair of underwear and some perfume. OK. That's what I want today. You better deliver
             it, or else!

             (e) RETROFLECTION

             Let's see what else we got here? OK, there's "retroflection", the perseverator. I'm
             feeling a need to communicate with God, but instead of letting that need come out
             directly, I am putting all the energy into myself. So I'm going to dahven up a storm
             (Yiddish: "to pray"). I'm dahvening back and forth,

             (straining, pushing, working himself up to a frenzy of hysteria) Oh, I'm dahvening back
             and forth. I'm swaying back and forth. My muscles are tense. And I can't, and I'm
             tightening up my throat, and all my energy is going into me, and this repetitive, retro . . .
             "retro-", "back", "-flection", "turning it all back onto myself".

             All my energy is going back into my body. Instead of contacting Hashem, I'm just
             contacting my own anxieties, my own perseverating, my own compulsions.

             (wailing) Ohhhh, oh, I'm swaying back and forth, I'm dahvening. I'm dahvening.
             Hashem, you gotta give me this! My life is falling apart! I can't take it! I can't take it! I
             can't even breathe! I can't, I can't, I can't, I, I, I . . . (gasping for breath, wailing)

             That is another dumb move! That's retroflection. You don't want to do that either. It's
             healthier than confluence, healthier than introjection, healthier than projection, 'cause
             the energy at least is coming out. But instead of going to Hashem, it's going back into
             your own body, your own anxieties, your own trip.

             (f) EGOTISM

             What else we got? There's one more on the list: egotism. OK, now you're really getting
             close to Hashem.

             Oh, hello, God, Excuse me, I'm not supposed to say Hashem. Hello, Mr. H. This is
             Wepner today. And I'm . . . er, umm . . . Oh, "praise"! Praise Mr. H! You're so wonderful.
             You fill the world with your goodness, and all that.

             Now praising the Lord at least gets you a little bit, a little bit out of your head, whether
             the words mean anything or not. But at least it gets you out of your own ego trip.




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             'Cause, you know, nobody knows what Hashem is, what Mr. H is anyway. So you
             praise,

             Oh, Mr. H, you're so wonderful. You run the whole world. You create, every moment
             you're creating me and my life. Oh, I thank you so much!

             But then, when you get to the bigger things,

             Oh, God, I need to tell you what I really need today,

             and then, all of a sudden,

             Oh, but I'm embarrassed! (fearful, withdrawing) I'm afraid to tell you. I'm afraid. I mean,
             you know, Franklyn here, I'm not the kind of guy that shares this kind of stuff. I'm just not
             that type, you know. I'll tell you tomorrow. Maybe I'll tell you tomorrow. But today I just
             want to tell you how wonderful you are, and everything . . .

             OK, that's "egotism". What did I do? The energy almost comes out, but I short circuit it. I
             short circuit it, and I say, "I'm not the type that can". I'm stuck in an image of myself. So
             the image of myself is a box I put myself in. And again I block my impulses. I'm almost
             there. I'm almost communicating with Mr. H, whatever that is, but I fall back on being a
             certain type, and therefore my ego image of myself is my self-interruption.

             (g) SUMMARY

             So we have these five different levels of self-interruptions.

             (1) Confluence is the worst one, where you're not in touch with anything, except your
             habits. And if you're not in the back ward of a hospital, a psych ward, even then you're
             not functioning too well.

             (2) The next one is introjection. You've introjected, you've swallowed whole some
             authority figure, from childhood probably, so you are not aware of what you need at all.
             All you are aware of is what he needs.

             (3) And then comes projection. This time when you have a need, instead of feeling the
             need yourself you think they have that need towards you. You're projecting the need
             out there. For example,

             Oh, I'm so sad!

             And then you think of Hashem out there,

             God, You must be so sad at your people Israel today. Mr H, you must be so sad at your
             people Israel today, because of all the terrible things we did!




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             (4) Then there's retroflection. That's the one where you're back and forth with all kinds
             of tension and anxiety, and all the energy flows into your own body and your
             compulsive repetitions.

             (5) And finally there's egotism, where you have a frozen image of yourself as a certain
             type. You're almost ready to be authentic, but then you get stuck.

             So that's our introduction to different ways of doing "dumb hitbod'dut". You see how
             stupid it is, cause all you're doing is being stuck in your own ego habits and ego trips.
             The trouble is you don't know how to do the process so well, so you might need to call
             me up,

             FW: Hey, give me a job, buddy. I need the money! So call me up and I can help you!

             Or, read the book. "Gestalt Therapy Verbatim" is one book, by Perls, Frederick Perls.
             That's the easiest one to read. The more thorough, more systematic one, is "Gestalt
             Therapy", by Perls, Hefferline and Goodman. Those are the main books of Gestalt. So
             if you don't want to pay me, then buy the books and do it yourself. It took me 35 years
             to figure this out. We'll see how long it takes you to figure it out.




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             (2) SMART HITBOD'DUT AS INDUCTION,
             FAITH AND PRAYER

             (a) HERE & NOW ON MY FAVORITE HITBOD'DUT HILL IN YAVNIEL

             OK. Welcome, folks. This is good old Franklyn here, older every day. I'm sitting here
             on top of my favorite hitbod'dut hill, here in Yavniel. What we're trying to do here is a
             hitbod'dut session, smart hitdod'dut instead of dumb hitbod'dut. I hope you've done
             your homework and listened to the first session, the "dumb hitbod'dut" one, so you
             know what not to do. This time, now, I'm going to see if I can do it right. Of course, I
             have a split focus here, Mr. H. up there and you folks out there. We'll see what I can do.
             I don't know if it's going to work or not.

             I'm testing, testing the audio system. Test! Test! Test! OK, I guess it's all right. Testing,
             testing. Maybe it's too soft. Maybe it's all right. Um, I'm here and now. I'm looking out
             there. I see blueness. I see blueness in the clouds. And I see green-ness down there,
             all kinds of shades of green in the fields. And I hear some noise. I'm looking around.
             Now it stopped. If you're listening to the disk, you can hear that noise also. I hear a
             bird, some kind of . . . I hear a bird. And . . . so the first thing is we want to get into the
             here and now.

             (b) THE TREE OF LIVING ORGANISMS: "GESTALTS"

             You see, every moment of awareness is a gestalt, an idea, a living creature, according
             to this philosophy, phenomenology. We're dealing here with contact experiences, with
             the living reality, the living contact boundary of experience. They call it the living God,
             the divine soul . . . whatever you want to call it. And every moment of contact is an
             organism, an idea that organizes a certain amount of input, of awareness - sensory
             awareness or motor awareness - into a pattern, into a living organism. And then we
             have higher and higher levels of organisms. For example, if I look out there and see a
             twig blowing in the wind. I see "twig". That's organism number one. And now I feel a
             breeze. I'm putting together sense of "breeze" plus visual input of "twig", and that gives
             me a combined higher level integration of the two gestalts, the two little mini-
             organisms, micro-organisms, into a higher level organism. Et cetera, et cetera, right up
             the ladder till I get to God, who is like the highest level, or beyond the highest level.

             What's that noise? That sounds like some sort of a bird. Quack, quack. That sounds
             like a woodpecker. You hear it? Maybe it's an animal. Mm, sounds very close, doesn't
             it? Kah, kah. Is there something wrong with my machine, or something? What is it?
             What is it? There it is again. Anyway, so what does it have to do with Ha-shem?




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             (c) MR. H "ROCHEV AL ARAVOT", ABOVE THE SPHERES

             Even though we haven't mentioned the word "Mr. H" yet, we're still dealing with Him, in
             the sense that we start on this ascent, going up and up to bigger and bigger gestalts, to
             higher and higher levels of integration, the little gestalts and the bigger gestalts. At the
             highest level we get to the outermost sphere. If we use Aristotle's terminology (and
             Maimonides' terminology), we're dealing with spheres. That was 500 B.C. Aristotle
             talked about spheres. We call them gestalts. So we've really progressed, haven't we?
             The same thing with a different label. According to Aristotle and Maimonides you have
             bigger and bigger spheres. Man is the center of the universe. And so I'm starting with
             little spheres and working my way out to big spheres. Mr. H's sphere is the one that's
             beyond the spheres. As they say in Judaism, "rochev al aravot", He "rides on the
             deserts" of all the dead forms that He's going to "m'chayei maytim", that He's going "to
             bring back to life". That's the theory, anyway.

             (d) LEIBNIZ' THEORY OF MONADS

             Another way, another jargon we can use, is Leibniz' terminology. We can call every
             one of these gestalts a "monad", from the word "one": one little unit of oneness, one
             organism. We start adding up gestalts or monads. Then, instead of building up a
             strong gestalt which includes many weak gestalts, we build up a "monadology", a big
             tree of all these little monads all integrated into one big idea or one big monadology.
             That's Leibniz' theory, a little bit. OK. Now we're going back to Ha-shem here. All right.
             So let's make it more specific. Let's talk to Mr. H.

             FW: Hello, Mr. H. Hope you're home today, 'cause I got an audience.

             (e) REINTEGRATING PROJECTIONS

             Now let's see. If I already did that, did I just use a projection? "I hope You're home
             today!", In other words, "Did You abandon me today?" "Did You leave?" "Did You close
             the door?" Now, that has to be my own ego projection of "abandonment". I'm feeling
             abandoned right now . . . by all you folks who won't pay my rent! Aggravation. So the
             way to deal with a projection of "abandonment", Ha-shem as "the abandoning God", is
             to reown it, to include that part of myself, that gestalt, that fragment of God that I just
             projected out there. We need to include it, integrate it. So I'm going to play God. I'm
             going to play the Abandoning God, and see what He has to say.

             Mr. H: Wepner, it's about time you got here! I'm losing my patience with you. I'm going
             to give you another crack at it today, to see if I can take you seriously.

             The sound of that voice doesn't sound too much like Mr. H. That sounds like Franklyn
             Wepner. I got to find a voice for Mr. H, so I can tell them apart.




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             (f) NO QUESTIONS ALLOWED

             Mr. H: Well, ho ho, it's about time you got here, you dummy. I've been waiting for you.
             You brought all these people with you! Snotnose, can't you give me a little time by
             yourself? You gotta bring all your friends along! OK. Well, what do you want today?

             FW: There we got a gestalt problem. No questions allowed, Mr. H! We're doing Gestalt
             here. No questions. Everything has to be direct. You don't want to sabotage the
             process.

             Mr. H: Well, let me see now. I'll make that a statement.

             FW: That's right. You gotta make it a statement.

             Mm. Let's see. I think I'm going to stop here and see what I got here on this tape, if I got
             anything at all! All right? . . . OK. So where were we? All right. It worked fine, so far. I
             got a good recording. We'll go on. Well, we're not really going "on". It's still the same
             old here and now. And if we're lucky we'll be able to say we got to the "messianic now".
             Huh? If we succeed in this project . . . That noise! The microphone is making a noise in
             the pocket. I got to stop that noise . . .

             FW: So, Mr. H, we were saying "no questions allowed".

             Mr. H: Uhhh. Ya gotta worry 'bout technology up here? All right, wadaya want? Uhhh.
             All right, no questions. So, uh, I'd like to hear what your needs are today, Wepner.

             FW: Well, let's see. Like I said, I need some money. First of all, that comes to mind. Um,
             I got woman problems, too, because, you see, I have this girl friend I've known for 26
             years, ex-wife. And she's around, visiting. On the other hand, I got on the internet and I
             met a few more. So the ones on the internet are upset about the ex-wife, and the ex-
             wife is upset about the ones on the internet. And, um, I'm not the type that can lie to
             people. So, (chuckle) I have a tragicomedy situation here. I might end up with nobody!

             Mr. H: Ha, ha, ha, ha. Serves you right! Triple timing, quadruple timing!


             (g) "PRAYER" AS RIDING THE MOMENTS

             FW: Well, so you're not going to give me advice? Help me out here, Mr. H, what should
             I do about these women?

             Mr. H: Well, umm, uh . . .

             FW: Oh, I'm not supposed to ask questions either! I'm supposed to say . . . something.




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             Well, I'm just riding the moments, you know. Staying with the here and now thing and
             trusting, with faith. And by being in the here and now, that is a form of prayer. 'Cause
             I'm not anticipating, not demanding, just living the moments and trusting with a certain
             amount of faith that, uh, that somehow You'll take care of things! Right?

             Mr. H: Well, that's very good! You're beginning to get the point, buddy!

             FW: All right! Then I'm doing it right, huh? Oh, no questions allowed. So maybe I'm
             doing it right. I'm trusting, you know, and uh . . . What's real will be real, and what's not
             real will be not real. And that's it! Right?

             Mr. H: All right, what's next? What else do you want? Oh, no questions. I'm proud of
             you, Wepner, you're getting your act together here. You're takin' the whole show,
             you're takin' me on the road too. Maybe we'll get some converts, huh! You're doin'
             some "kiruv". "Kiruv", a Hebrew word meaning "bring 'em closer". So, you're doin' a
             good job. You're doin' a good job! Very good!

             FW: Thanks! . . . Let's see . . . Where was . . . Oh, "prayer" comes to mind. If I'm praying,
             I need a text. "Baruch atah adonoi, elohenu melech ha-olam, she hechiyanu,
             v'kiy'manu, v'higiyanu la z'man ha-zeh."

             Mr. H: Better tell 'em what it means, huh! We might have some goyem out there,
             listening.

             FW: Well, it means: Blessed art Thou, the Lord, er, Mr. H. We're not supposed to say
             Your name! Um, Who got us to this moment. Um, Who caused us to live, who
             sustained us, and brought us to this moment, this "now". So, thanks a lot!

             Mr. H: Nuttin'. It's OK. It's OK. Don't worry about it.

             All right. So we took care of that. We did some "prayer" here. This is "prayer", according
             to, according to my understanding, especially when you read Breslav stuff, like "Likutei
             Moharan" (Collected Essays of Rabbi Nachman of Breslav). The emphasis is on faith
             and on prayer. It means being in the here and now, and trusting that what comes out of
             the here and now in your attempts, in your dialogue with God, with Mr. H, will
             somehow be real, in fact more real than what you started out with! So, we're testing out
             that hypothesis right here, in the laboratory.

             FW: So, Mr. H, You're my Guinea Pig today!

             Mr. H: Thanks a lot, buddy! I usually don't think of Myself as a guinea pig, you know . . .
             Well, in fact, pigs are not even kosher!

             FW: Well, all right, all right . . . A Guinea Chicken, all right?




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             (h) INDUCTIVE LOGIC VERSUS DEDUCTIVE LOGIC

             So, uh, this is . . . Each time we take a new moment here, and stay with this thread of
             concentration, we're building up higher and higher levels of integration, of gestalts.
             This is called "inductive reasoning", "induction", "inductive logic", where we start with
             the particulars and work our way up the tree towards the general, towards the big
             oneness.

             FW: That's You!

             Mr. H: Yeah! You better not forget it, either!

             FW: The Big Oneness, so you're the "One Without A Second". And right now we're
             eliminating all the Seconds by integrating them into the Oneness. Every time I project
             another part of myself out there, of Your reality out there, that part needs to be
             integrated into the Oneness.

             Mr. H: Boy, that's very interesting.

             FW: Yeah. You see, I got you all figured out.

             Mr. H: I don't pay much attention to what I'm doing. I just do it! You know what I mean?

             FW: Well, but sometimes it helps people to understand the process a little better,
             'cause a lot of people need logic to be convinced that praying is worth the trouble.

             Mr. H: You're right. Give 'em what they need!

             Well, let's see now. So, this is faith in the here and now, that this will lead to
             something . . . (noise) You hear that wind? Is that wind disturbing you folks there? I
             hear wind in my earphones. I think I'm going to close that button on my shirt where the
             mic is. If I close the button, less air will get in to you. I think the air is disturbing the
             people out there. It's disturbing me, anyway . . . The button's closed. Less air is going to
             get in there now . . . Yep. Quieter . . . OK. So here I am sitting on top of the hill. Now,
             what else is on my agenda? Let's see now . . . Brother Robert in a nursing home, in
             bad shape. I don't know to do! I got a conflict! Do I sell everything I own to get an
             airplane ticket to get to Miami to get him out of that nursing home, to bring him here to
             Israel? Or not? I was hoping various people - I won't mention their names to embarrass
             them - would come up with the money. But they didn't, so far. So unless something
             works, I am faced with that very difficult alternative. I got to raise a thousand bucks for a
             ticket. That's real! That's right now! Now, this is . . . If you're listening out there, I guess
             I'm doing fund raising, although I didn't plan to do that. OK, I'm doing fund raising.
             That's what's on my mind. What do you want from me?! Now I'm projecting onto you.
             I'm projecting onto you out there as "the accusing accusers". You're saying . . . I'll play
             your part.




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             Accusers: You're using us! You grabbed our attention here with some fraudulent
             educational project, and now you're trying to bilk us for every cent we got! You no good
             shyster, you. Con man!

             I need a new voice for that one.

             Accuser: You no good shyster con man, you crappy guy! You're deceiving everybody,
             peddling garbage on the internet. Ech, ech! I'll fix you! Report you to the Federal
             Something-or-other! Have you banned! Abusing Frumster looking for women, and then
             you bilk 'em for money! Ha, ha!

             FW: Wait a minute. You sound like an old witch.

             Witch: Oh, yea!

             FW: You sound like an old witch. Look. If you have any compassion, you know, you're
             not going to be so critical. If you understand what I'm going through here. Understand!
             I'm not saying you have to come up with the dough, but at least you can understand.
             You don't have to accuse me.

             Witch: Well! Just like your sister said. You're just a shnorrer. Your whole life you never
             worked.

             FW: Now, come on, don't start that crap!

             So now we need . . . We have a strong dybbuk out there. a strong introject. It sounds
             like my father, a little bit. We're getting a little heavier here. We're going from
             association to association. We started with the judging females out there. Now we
             moved up to the witch. Then we moved into the association of my father. That's
             how . . . This process of moving from association to association is part of inductive
             logic, because each new point, each new association, is a new gestalt, a new moment,
             a new center, a new organism that's coming out of the void. Here we have a void of not
             knowing what to do. And each new gestalt, each new monad, each new moment of
             projection, whatever . . . They come by association, analogy, or types. We get into the
             category of judgmental types, so we jump from one judgmental individual to another
             judgmental individual, to another one. You notice we move from the superficial jerky
             women I just met this week to . . .

             FW: Excuse me, jerky women! I'm just making a . . . Don't take it too seriously! I'm
             just . . . Don't run away!!

             All right, so we're moving from superficial relationships to deeper ones. That is, we're
             moving up the great chain of being - as some people would call it. 'Cause each of
             these moments is associated, but they are not logically related in the usual sense of
             logic. They're just associations. Nachman of Breslav calls them "behinot" (Hebrew:
             "aspect of"). "Behinot": this is an aspect of that, and that's an aspect of that. And Leibniz



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             would say this is a monad which is a part of that monad, and that is a monad which is a
             part of another monad. That's a monad, and that's another monad. Another gestalt and
             another gestalt and another gestalt. One behinot and another behinot. And we're
             moving up the path of inductive logic.

             By the way, the opposite of that would be deductive logic. You start from, we start with
             the idea and you break it down into the little things. So we start with the idea of "here I
             am on the mountain". Well, on the mountain there are trees and other plants. There's a
             dog barking. There's wind and there's clouds. OK, we just broke the idea of "mountain"
             down into ten elements. Or "mountain experience", and we broke it down into ten other
             secondary experiences. And now we move in on the plants. Let's take the plant
             monad and break that down into, well, there's green ones and there's white ones and
             brown ones, and then we move in on the brown ones and there's this particular
             species and that particular species. That's deductive logic, moving from the big idea ,
             like an upside down tree. Moving from the main root and trunk down to all the little, tiny
             little twigs. Moving from the One to the Many. That's deduction, and induction is moving
             from the many to the one. So Gestalt and prayer are mostly inductive experience, the
             way we're doing them here. Of course, you could do it differently. Maybe in your
             synagogue they would say,

             We're gonna do the Chanukah service today! So we'll do this, and we'll do that, and
             then we should do this and we should do that . . .

             And they break the idea of Chanukah down into many parts. That is "deductive prayer",
             and if that works for you, fine, but it doesn't work for me very well. So we have
             deductive religion and we have inductive religion. You might say that Chabad is the
             deductive religion. You start from the one idea of the rebbe up there that knows
             everything and we know nothing. And he slices reality down into slices we are
             supposed to assimilate, weekly lessons and all this, and so it's all coming from the top.
             And if you like that kind of rationalist religion - where everything is analyzed and spoon
             fed according to what somebody thinks we're supposed to be digesting today, then
             you're a Chabadnik. But if you like the other path, what we're doing here, the Tevye
             fiddler on the roof path, then you're a Breslaver. If you're Catholic, the Breslavers are
             the Franciscans and the Chabadniks are the Dominicans, the Papists. So the Pope is
             like the Rebbe for the Catholics, and the Franciscans do what the Breslavers do,
             talking to God in the woods or whatever. OK, back to our lesson. Back to Ha-shem. I
             mean, Mr. H.

             FW: Hello, Mr. H.

             Mr. H: Humm. I'm gettin' bored of all those lectures.

             FW: All right, let's do something else.




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             (i) THE RHYTHM OF CONTACT AND WITHDRAWAL

             Where was I? Oh, I was dealing with the conflict about women. Did I finish that one? I
             finished that one. Yea. My brother! So there's a very painful conflict. I don't know what
             to do! On the one hand, I want to save this guy's life. I don't know if I can. If I get there it
             might be too late to pile him into an airplane and drag him to Israel. I might be too late.
             But maybe I could get him to come here and maybe I could oversee him in a nursing
             home, and keep him alive for a while. So it's a conflict. On the other hand, I don't want
             to sell my equipment, my instruments and my video and everything. How am I going to
             do my work? Very painful conflict! Besides, in Israel I wouldn't get much for it. The
             video system is all NTSC, which is American style. And Israel is PAL. I would get
             practically nothing for the whole system. It's a painful conflict. So now, how do you deal
             with a conflict? Well, we have the rhythm of conflict and withdrawal. We have two
             opposites here. One side is saying, "you're being selfish",

             Side One: Sell the stuff! Go save the guy's life!

             Side Two: Hey, I've got a right to live, too, you know. I've got a right to live. He's my
             brother, but still I have a right. I worked so hard to get that stuff. Somebody already
             stole some of it. What do you want from me? Lay off. Lay off!!!

             We have two sides, and I can't . . . I don't know which is right. So we have the rhythm of
             contact and withdrawal. What does that mean? Simply, let the two monads, the two
             gestalts sit there, and go inside into the Void. You might say it's "active forgetting".
             Forget about them, and trust. It's prayer. Again, it's prayer. Cause we're doing faith, and
             we're letting go of our rational control. And we'll see what happens. I'm gonna do it
             right now, and see what I get. OK? It might not work at all, but let's just see what
             happens.

             I close my eyes, and stop talking for a moment, and get into my body awareness. I'm
             comfortable. (strong exhale) My breathing is sort of strained . . . a little chilly . . .
             mmm . . . my breathing feels fine . . . I don't feel much body tension. All right. I'll do a
             daydream . . . mmm . . . I have an image. It doesn't seem to fit, but anyway, whatever
             comes, comes. Right? . . . . So here I see myself sitting here with somebody . . . Maybe
             I shouldn't say who it is, to protect that person's privacy, if I can. I'm sitting here with
             somebody, in a certain comfy place . . . maybe having a cup of tea or something . . .
             enjoying that bit of domestic facility, felicity . . . That's my association. What does it have
             to do with the conflict? Don't know yet. That's the faith aspect here. Don't know. Don't
             have to know. I allow myself not to know, long enough to discover something. I'll stay
             with that image a little bit, to see what happens . . . (audible exhale) . . . New image!
             The image of the experimental theater world somewhere. New York, maybe.
             Excitement of the theater! Working with all of my skills, and my media. Makes me say to
             myself, "I want to hang onto my equipment. I want to hang onto my equipment." Now I
             go to Robert. The rabbi visited him and said he looked like he is 90 years old.
             Strapped to his wheelchair so he doesn't try to drive it over a, to throw himself out of it
             to commit suicide . . . poor guy, he's so upset about Mother's death. He doesn't want to



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             eat . . . Now I see an image of the nursing home here in Yavniel. He could be here, if I
             can get him here. Another image. This morning I called the police department where
             my sister is, to try to get her to cooperate. He signed over his property to her, but she
             doesn't give a damn whether he dies or not. So I had the police go and try to find out
             her phone number which she cut off so I wouldn't be able to call her. Maybe the police
             will be able to squeeze that airfare out of her. She has power of attorney that he gave
             her, to sell his apartment. She'll get at least $25,000 or $50,000 for that! And if she
             gives me $2000 for the trip, to save his life, I think that's reasonable.

             (j) THE CONCRETE DIALECTIC: THESIS/ANTITHESIS/SYNTHESIS

             See that! We saw the process here. The process was: first, associations; one monad to
             another. Thesis, antithesis. The thesis was: I should sell my equipment. The antithesis
             was: I don't want to sell my equipment! I'm groping around in the Void. Then there is a
             synthesis, a possible action, and that is: "pursue her, and squeeze the money out of
             her". So there's the integration, the action that possibly could resolve it. So where did I
             get the idea from? I didn't, I wasn't thinking of it at the beginning, but you see I was
             trusting Mr. H. You see that, Mr. H? You're beginning to give me the new idea.

             Mr. H: Thank's alot. You keep me busy all day long with your problems, one after the
             other, you know? You're a nuisance!

             FW: Well, right now is a bad time. But once I get things straightened out, you'll see.
             You'll be proud of me!

             Mr. H: I got a lot of patience, you know.

             All right. So that's an example of faith, prayer, in the inductive, or the pietist tradition,
             where you don't figure it out logically. You just trust that whatever comes is somehow
             going to, is part of an ongoing process of the organism attempting to grow, to integrate
             itself, to restore the Oneness, to find the way to Hashem, the Oneness. "Echad v'ayn
             sheni", the One Without A Second. How do you like that?!

             Mr. H: Gee!! I feel appreciated.

             FW: You certainly are!

             You see that? We did it right! We did some Gestalt, But I won't call it Gestalt today. We
             did prayer. We did hitbod'dut, smart hitbod'dut, and we demonstrated a process.
             Maybe that was too easy, 'cause I . . . Actually, I knew the answer, cause, I mean, I
             called the police this morning, so it wasn't far from my conscious mind, although I
             wasn't quite ready to say that when I started out. But, uh, well . . . let's see, should I stop
             here? Maybe I'll stop here and take stock. All right? And then I'll decide if I want to go
             on today. All right. Bye bye.




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             (3) USING PROJECTIONS CREATIVELY
             FOR HITBOD'DUT

             (a) USING PROJECTIONS IN HITBOD'DUT

             Recording. Recording. OK. This is the third attempt, the third project. The word
             "Hitbod'dut": I even forgot to say what it means. In Hebrew "bohdayd" means "alone".
             To "hitbodayd" means to be alone, to make yourself alone, and when religious people
             talk about hitbod'dut, they're usually talking about some kind of meditation or prayer
             procedure, being alone with God, Hashem. I'm calling Him Mr. H because we're
             supposed to be respectful about that name. OK. So today's project . . . well, I'll first
             review a little bit. In the first project I talked about dumb hitbod'dut, and one of the
             things we do when we're doing dumb hitbod'dut is we're making projections without
             being aware that we are making projections. For example, if I think that everybody's
             out to get me, which I do think sometimes, then I'm projecting my own aggression onto
             people, onto the world, instead of using it myself in a more creative way. It's easier to
             think that everyone, all of you, are out to get me! To get my money. Ha, ha, ha! To mess
             me up, to deny me success, fame and fortune, for your own ulterior motives, whatever
             they might be. OK. So even though you're such terrible people, I'm still motivated to try
             to do my work here. So today I want to try to do the opposite of dumb hitbod'dut. I want
             to explore how to use projections to do smart hitbod'dut or other creative things.

             (b) FINDING A CONCRETE SITUATION FOR HITBOD'DUT

             I'll take some typical situation . . . I'm trying to think of some situation which I can deal
             with without being too personal - so I don't mess myself up here - and personal
             enough that it's interesting. You know, it's very difficult to pick a topic . . . I'm going to
             pick my mother's death, which happened about 5 months ago, four and a half months
             ago, and it was very painful at the time. I'm going to explore nature objects, what I see
             out here. Once again I'm on top of my old, my favorite hitbod'dut hill, here in Yavniel,
             and here on this rock because it's the only place I could find to sit without sitting on the
             ground. Next time I got to bring a chair. There aren't too many objects around here. I
             picked a rather desolate place. But even so, maybe I can find something to work with
             here. Ah, I see this old piece of plastic jar, a piece of plastic from a bottle. It was once a
             soda pop bottle, or something. Jagged edges, and just dumped here. OK, now what
             can I do with that? (noise) Oops, there goes a motorcycle. (noise) Hear the
             motorcycle? I want to project onto that bottle my relationship to my mother. That doesn't
             make much sense. I don't know what its going to lead to, maybe nothing. But let's do it.
             OK? So, let's see . . . I see you over there. First I start with addressing the object. (loud
             motorcycle noises) Those crappy guys with the motorcycles are coming here! (more
             motorcycle noises) I come here to get away from crappy people, and the crappy
             people follow me out here . . . They'll probably be back. That's bad, but I'll try to work




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             anyway. I might have to throw this attempt out . . . So, this plastic thing. I'm looking at it.
             I see you over there, plastic object (sound) . . . That's the wind . . . You're green, and
             you have what used to be a top of you. It goes around, and, uh, you're jagged, dark
             green, and you certainly don't belong here on top of my favorite hitbod'dut hill here in
             Yavniel, but somebody dumped you here . . . Gestalt therapy is a commitment to
             boredom. That's one of the things that Fritz Perls said. So if you're bored you can
             leave . . . (humming: dum, dum, dum) . . . contacting body awareness . . . I'm slouched
             over here . . . I'll sit up better, breathe better . . . There's a smoky smell in the air, like
             somebody's burning bushes or something . . . It takes time to find the images . . . A fly is
             bothering . . . I'm scratching a fly . . .

             OK, I have an image. I'm thinking of noises, disturbing noises. The image flashes back
             to about 1965. Then I was in Uncle Sam's Army, in Ft. Sam Houston, Texas . . . and I
             was a Private, and because I was a Private I was living with all these other Privates
             from all over the country. Here I have just walked out of medical school, big egghead
             type, and want to do music, to write music. That's why I walked out of medical school,
             to write music, and here I am listening all day long to music that I hate, rock and roll
             loud music. So instead of writing the music that I want to write, I'm stuck being drafted
             here into the Army . . . They told me if I didn't enlist they'd draft me, so I enlisted . . . The
             image is I am getting so angry about that noise that I pick up that radio on this guy's
             bed, double decker bed, and I throw it right out the window! I threw it right out the
             window. Of course, he came and pummeled me for that. He pummeled me for that,
             beat me up - but it was worth it! I felt it was worth it . . . What does that have to do with
             this situation today? Some things are "worth it"! That's it! You know? A person gets to a
             point sometimes. I get to a point sometimes, you do, where you're willing to pay the
             price. In this case, I so much wanted to come back to the Aretz ("the land", Israel) to try
             to do my work. 'Cause nine years I was in the United States and I couldn't find a way to
             connect to things. I couldn't . . . I tried going to New York peddling my shows. Negative.
             I peddled my shows in the Miami area. Negative. And then I got some video equipment
             and started learning how to do that. Then I felt that now that I have some skills I want to
             go back to Israel and do something with it. I couldn't find a project to connect to, and
             people to relate to in the United States. Meanwhile, mother is 101 years old. Robert's
             in a wheelchair, brother Robert. So nine years went by until one day . . . Mother, you're
             getting very belligerent. You're starting to criticize me, and saying I'm not doing what I
             should be doing, and all this, and here I am giving up all this to be with you here. Well,
             that was like, that's the last straw, Mother.

             FW: If you don't appreciate what I'm doing for you, well, then I'm not going to do it! I'm
             just going to leave. That plus all the other things I need to do. That tips the balance. So
             I'm leaving. I'm leaving!! I'm going!!

             Mother: Well, I'm going to die, and it will be your fault! It will be all your fault.




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             (c) THIS IS PROPHECY AND ANAMNESIS

             You see, that's a typical ego game trip. That's me projecting the critical side of myself
             onto my Mother. That's the topdog criticizing the underdog. But the image gave me
             more. The image also gave me the power to deal with that. 'Cause like I said, a person
             has a center, and when you contact your center - like I just did - this image, this soul, is
             like a voice, a macrocosmic Idea being sucked down into the microcosm. This is the
             way Rabbi Nachman talks about it in Likutei Moharan, essay 3. What is it? The
             prophets nurse on, nurse on a particular something or other. In other words, suck on
             something. Yea, the prophets suck the images down from the macrocosm down into
             the microcosm. In this case the image goes back to 40 years ago, I was 22 years old,
             45 years ago! Almost 45 years ago! So that image came back from 45 years ago. That
             was what we call, what Plato calls "anamnesis". And here it happens right here. Plato
             talked about it 2500 years ago, and here it happened here and now! And what is
             anamnesis? "An" means "not". "Amnesis" is "forgetting". "To forget". So, "not to forget".
             In other words, a kind of active remembering. Now, what are you remembering? I had
             a conflict. Two sides were "stuck". So the first idea of this dialectical process we are
             doing here is . . .The first idea is the thesis, the one side. Then, the antithesis is the
             other side, and the synthesis is the integration of the two of them in a higher idea. Now
             in this process anamnesis means going back, remembering the most basic ideas.
             Doing a process like this, the most basic idea is the thesis. And another one is the
             antithesis, and the other one is the synthesis, and that dialectic is what we call the
             Logos, the Word of God. Plato called it The Demiurge. (Greek: demos=people,
             urgos=work, i.e., an artisan, one with a special skill that does people-work, work for the
             people). It's the work of God being done in this world.

             (d) DIALECTIC OF AVRAHAM, YITZCHAK & YAAKOV AS "ANGEL"

             In Likutei Moharan number 7 Nachman talks about an angel. He calls it "Eglah". He
             says the Eglah is an angel that somehow encompasses two voids, the two "t'homot",
             the two abysses. That's the (Void of the) macrocosm and the (Void of the) microcosm.
             And an angel is a force that does the work of God in this world. That's the dialectic
             here. The dialectic is a process that encompasses both kinds of ideas: the higher,
             Platonic, macrocosmic Ideas, and the lower, microcosmic Ideas, the ideas of this
             world. The Platonic Ideas are the ones we need to do a process like this to remember.
             In Judaism you find this way of thinking all over every major Jewish philosopher. In
             Judaism these three major ideas usually are symbolized by Avraham, Yitzchak and
             Yaakov. In Likutei Moharan, beginning with essay number 1, you see it everywhere.
             Yaakov is the synthesis. Avraham is the thesis. Yitzchak is the antithesis. Yaakov is the
             synthesis. In what sense? We started off today with awareness. Here and now I'm
             aware of this, I'm aware of that, Then the opposite of that is two things you are aware
             of, in conflict. That's Yitzchak. And the higher integration, the action that allows you to
             integrate those two and move on in your life, that's symbolized by Yaakov. So we have
             the right pillar of the Sefirot: Chokhmah, Chesed. That column is the Avraham one. The
             left pillar, Binah, Gevurah, that's the Yitzchak side. And the middle pillar, that's the




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             Yaakov side, the action (proper balance of activity and passivity, middle way). OK. So
             in this case, going back to my little project, my little experiment here (audible exhale), I
             was torn between Mother saying,

             Mother: You should be ashamed of yourself,

             and me saying,

             I have a right to my needs also. And I have a mission even as important as our mission
             here, you and me, in Israel.

             So by going into the (microcosmic) Void, doing anamnesis, subjecting myself to,
             surrendering to Avraham, Yitzchak and Yaakov, the dialectic (of the combined
             microcosm and macrocosm), the angel Eglah . . .

             (e) THE SPIRALING DIALECTIC OF EGLAH / EEGUL

             Why did he call it an "Eglah", by the way? In Likutei Moharan 7, the root there. "Eglah"
             means (in Aramaic) a "bull". The word "eglah" means "bull", an angel that's somehow
             associates to a bull. Nachman adds: "this corresponds to Eegulim (circles), which is an
             aspect of faith". Now, if we use a little bit of philosophy, which I am sure Nachman of
             Breslav knew about, we notice that the word "eglah" has the same root as "Eegul".
             "Eegul" means "circle", "circling". Now, what circles? The dialectic, the spiraling
             dialectic. I'm torn between "X" and "-X". I somehow find my way out of that, move up to
             being torn between "Y" and "-Y", move out of that, get up to "Z" and "-Z". OK? So, it's a
             spiraling, an ascending. It's a circle! And Aristotle says, and this is one of the key
             passages that Maimonides brought down from Aristotle into Judaism, that the most
             important kind of motion is "local motion". What is local motion? Local motion is in a
             circle and in one place. So what kind of motion is in a circle and in one place, that also
             progresses? A spiral. You move from the bottom, and that's Jacob's Ladder. One beat
             of the dialectic, the next beat of the dialectic, the next beat of the dialectic. So in this
             case with my Mother I did one beat of the dialectic. I was torn between Mother and
             myself, my own needs, and I moved up from X/-X to Y. The new idea is "I have a higher
             purpose, a higher mission that I need to do, and it is worth the price!"

             Mother, it's worth the price. It's worth the price. Here I am in Israel, struggling at age 67
             to do a little bit of what I can do, and it's worth the price. 'Cause you were taken care of
             by Robert, and you could have been taken of by Barbara if you would agree to go
             there. But no, you had to be too stuck to your own independence. You wanted to be
             alone, so everyone has a right to commit suicide, and you more or less did that.
             Barbara could have taken you over there, but you wouldn't go. I know you wanted to
             be with Robert, but you could have found a way to bring Robert with you to Oregon.
             But you didn't do it.

             OK, so, I moved up to Y, I moved up the angel, the dialectic. I moved up from one level
             to the next. And here I am at Y. Right? Now, I don't know where Y is going to lead me.



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             (f) NEW PROJECTIONS: TIBERIUS (Y) AND YAVNIEL (-Y)

             So now I look around for another projection. I'll do another projection, and see where
             that leads me. OK? What do I see? Ah . . . This great big, prominent object over there.
             On the hill is the city of Tiberius, seen from the other side. Not the side where the sea
             of Galilee is, but the other side. It looks like a pile of junk on top of a nice green hill.
             White junk, grey junk. Kind of a skin disease, the way D. H. Lawrence once put it in a
             novel, moving towards Yavniel, year by year, as the fields disappear and the city gets
             bigger and bigger. OK. So maybe I can use that as a projection.

             FW: Tiberius, you are a skin disease, moving towards this little glade here. Ten years
             from now Yavniel and Tiberius might be part of the same, the same . . . skin disease.

             Tiberius: I am Tiberius. I am . . . (starting again, with a high cackely, rapid witchy voice)
             I am Tiberius, ha, ha, ha. Skin disease, you . . . You people, listen to me. I'm crawling
             into your minds! I'm brainwashing you, to think like me. Heh, heh, heh! I'm
             encroaching. I'm insidious.

             FW: I'm sitting over here. And I'm Yavniel. OK? I'm the fields of Yavniel. (musical, rolling
             voice) Oooo, I'm flowing here and I'm flowing there. Ooooooooooooo. My eyes are
             rolling over my rolling hills here. I'm green, and I'm brown . . . the fields and the wind
             blowing and nature and it's all very lovely and . . . I see that skin disease over there.
             Skin disease! By the time you get here I'll be somewhere else. I'll be different fields. I
             like the fields. You're not going to catch me!

             Tiberius: Ehhh! You think so, eh? You know you're not going to make a buck up here!
             You're gonna come back to Jerusalem, and live in one of those crappy tenements in
             Jerusalem, if you can afford even that! Heh, heh, heh. You, you loser, you!

             FW: Hey, wait a minute. I'm going to figure out a way to stay here. You know that? I
             figured it out! I figured it out. I think I have just enough money, and I think I can bribe
             the landlord. I can tell him, "Look. I'll give you all of my equipment. You can just keep it
             as collateral until I get caught up with the rent. You know that? You won't get to me! I'll
             be able to sit here and do my work, right on this hill. How do you like that!

             Tiberious: Yahhhhh. Shit!

             FW: But, sooner or later I'll have to go to Jerusalem. And that's it, you know.

             (g) THE SYNTHESIS: YAAKOV, JERUSALEM

             Association! Jerusalem as the synthesis. So we have Yavniel, the fields of Yavniel as
             one side, the rolling fields of nature. That somehow associates to spirituality. And we
             have Tiberius as a skin disease over there, with all those crappy tourists and heat and




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             humidity and drying up lake . . . and that's the skin disease. But Jerusalem somehow
             could be a synthesis. 'Cause there you have spirituality and an urban environment.
             There's enough spirituality to balance the urban-ness. You got maybe a few decent,
             spiritual people there, among all the phonies. It might be worth the trouble to live there
             and to try to work it out.

             (g) TSELEM ELOKIM AND THE COMING SOLUTION

             So there we went from Y to -Y. Y is skin disease, or Y is Yavniel, the fields . . . No, in
             this case Y was Tiberius, the strong one, trying to enslave, to infest, Yavniel, the fields,
             the underdog. We had a conflict, and we didn't have to go into the Void. It naturally
             associated. "Zoht b'hinah zoht! Zoht b'hinah Zoht!" That's what Nachman of Breslav
             would say. "This is an aspect of that, and that's an aspect of this", and the associations
             led up to the next level, from Y to minus Y to Z. Now we're up to Z. We're on another
             level, encompassing . . . All the time we're bringing more and more aspects of me, and
             doing this process I'm a "tselem elokim" (Hebrew: "image of God"). I am doing God's
             work here, working in the image of God, doing an action in the here and now in a
             meditative process. So it's pure stuff. This is the demiurge of Plato at work. This is the
             divine soul of Chabad at work. This is . . . what does Nachman call it? . . . Yaakov, he
             calls it, the middle pillar. Yaakov's the middle pillar, he says, and that's the action. So
             we're working our way up the logos, the Word of God, the ascent. And, again, this is
             inductive, inductive logic here. Remember. We're going from the specifics up towards
             the general idea, looking towards "Hashem rochev ahl aravot", God riding, hovering
             over the desert of games we play, the trips we run on ourselves and on the world.
             Meanwhile, the coming solution somehow is beckoning us. We are reaching out to
             God, and God, we like to believe, is reaching out to us.

             FW: Mr. H, we're reaching out to you, and I hope you're reaching out to us. What do
             you say, Mr. H?

             Mr. H: You're gettin' pretty good at this stuff, boy. I really think you're doin' a good job
             today. I was worried you'd never get started, with all those distractions, but you finally
             got your concentration going there. Yea! So like I'm waitin' here for you folks, and nice
             to see you folks workin' towards me! So, one of these days . . . We need Mashiach.
             That's a job for Mashiach. You see, you guys, you people should be proud of what, you
             should be appreciating this Wepner guy, you know. Look, he's doing the work of
             Mashiach! He's doing the Moses function. He's doing the Moses-Mashiach function,
             which is what Nachman calls it. He is embodying the dialectic in his guf (Hebrew:
             body) and in his soul, sharing that with you today. You see! And that's exactly the
             Moses-Machiach function. He brings himself towards me, and if you watch that, if his
             voice is a "pure singer" (see Likutei Moharan, essay 3), like maybe it is today, if he's
             here and now and if he's believable, then his singing is infectious, and brings you with
             him. He is serving a prophetic function. But this is not new. This is old stuff! My friend
             Plato did the same thing. He called it "the poet", the possessed poet. The possessed
             poet in a poetic frenzy, like Wepner is today, infects the audience. You know what
             Plato called it? He called it a magnet. Plato used the example of a magnet. So Wepner



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             here is the magnet, and you guys are the filings that he's magnetizing with his
             prophetic voice. Ha, ha, ha, ha! Very good, Wepner! Franklyn, you get a gold star
             today.

             FW: Well, thank you, Mr. H. Nice to be appreciated, by you anyway. Not too many
             people around here appreciate me. Yep. I'm doing your job! The trouble is these
             dummies don't appreciate it. It's so simple. You see how simple it is. But they get lost in
             words! They don't believe in angels. They don't follow the Eglah. They don't follow the
             Bull. Instead of following the Bull, they follow the bullshit! BULLSHIT! And the
             elephantshit! And the turkeyshit. Every kind of shit, except doing the work.

             (i) INDUCTION AS TRANSLATION AND PRAYER

             Anyway, let's see. Did we do our job? We did our job today. We did two loops of the
             spiral, moved up two levels. By the way, this is not particularly Jewish either. This is
             basic dialectical philosophy, which comes from all over the world into Judaism. In
             Christianity they call it "translation". The Hebrew word, "l'ha'atik", has two meanings:
             "to shift" and "to translate". In other words, angels move up and down the ladder, the
             worlds, shifting the dialectic from level to level. It's also called in Hebrew
             "hishtalsh'lut" (literally, "chaining" or "making a chain"), moving up and down the tree of
             life from one level to the next, shifting or translating. The dialectic shifts from one level
             to the next. So this kind of dialectical motion is the Eglah, the Logos at work. Since it
             works oftentimes; therefore, we can use it consciously as prayer - like we did just now -
             based on faith that it will work and that Hashem will help us get there. Right?

             Mr. H: Yup!!! I did it, and you did it. Very good.

             See that? It worked. Even if we don't, even if we are not aware of doing it, it happens
             anyway. You know? At least it happens in certain senses, that can be seen in the
             world. Idealistic philosophers like Hegel look back and see the whole history of the
             universe in that way, but maybe that's a bit much. But at least we know that when we
             use it as a meditative process, in the context of what Nachman of Breslav and other
             Pietists would call "prayer", then it works. We begin in the here and now and start from
             the particulars (the weak gestalts) to get to the general ideas (the strong gestalts). We
             work our way up the ladder, doing inductive logic rather than deductive logic, which
             would goes down the other side, from the One to the Many. The Eglah symbolizes the
             entire dialectic, both sides. The concrete here an now experience of the combined
             deductive and inductive aspects is what Nachman labels the Eglah. The work of the
             Eglah combines the work of many lower level angels The Eglah is the highest level
             archangel, what Kabbalists label Metatron.




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             (j) "LA-SHUR": TO GAZE, AND "SHOR", BULL

             There's another sense, point of view, b'hinah, from which Nachman uses the word for
             'bull" in essay 7. Rather than the Aramaic word Eglah, he also invokes the usual word
             for "bull" in Hebrew, "shor", and it just so happens that this word "shor" has another,
             apparently entirely unrelated, meaning. "La-shur" in Hebrew means, "to gaze". What
             might be the relevance here of "la-shur", to gaze? Here we are now, having worked
             through two levels of the dialectic. First of all me and my mother, and second of all
             Tiberius and Yavniel, Finally we got to a higher point of view which somehow
             encompasses those struggles. So here we are on the top, gazing back. Now that that
             we have found our way out of them, now that Mr. H has helped us move up with his
             angel, we can say to ourselves, "how did we ever get stuck in those impasses in the
             first place?" And from this higher point of view of "gazing" perhaps we can appreciate
             the power of faith and prayer, at least the way that jargon is being used by Nachman of
             Breslav. And in this sense we are operating as a "tselem elokim", made in "the image
             of God", and identifying with the point of view of "Hashem rochev ahl aravot", riding on
             top of the wilderness. That's what God does. God is on top of the desert of dead forms
             that we're stuck in during our lives, as we play our games and do our trips. He's not in
             it. He's on top of it. Right, You're on top of it!

             Mr. H: Yuuuup!! Hooooo!! I like it up here! It's so nice up here. I don't want to deal with
             all that crap down there! You dummies!

             OK. You see? So, um . . . We're doing His process.

             FW: Right?

             Mr. H: Yup!

             (k) BRECHT AND STANISLAVSKI

             So we're working in the image of God. We're gazing down from His vantage point of
             being "rochev ahl aravot", hovering on, riding over, the aravah, the desert. Ok. That's
             one thing I want to say. Now, let's look at it from a different point of view. This stuff does
             not have to be religion in the usual sense in order to appreciate the concrete dialectic.
             You can do the entire process without calling it faith or prayer. You could call it other
             things. Maybe we should talk about that for a minute. Take the idea of "gazing". Here
             we are gazing with the wisdom of hindsight, gazing back at the path we followed.
             Eglah and shor, the dialectical path and the gazing back are two aspects of the same
             process, the "concrete dialectic. The dialectic is concrete because it's here and now
             dealing with real experiences, real awarenesses, contact experiences. It's concrete,
             concrete logic, concrete dialectic. Looking at it from this point of view of being on the
             top and looking back at the wasteland, this stuff can be art, aesthetics, Romantic or
             post-romantic aesthetics. Take a look, for example, at Brecht, Brechtian theater, which
             is in the Romantic tradition. Brecht called his theater "epic theater". Now an actor in the




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             epic theater learns how to be "on top of his material". First, he puts together a bunch of
             forms into a complicated structure. The image track is doing one thing, the voice track
             is doing another thing. The body track is doing this, and the face doing that. He puts it
             all together into an interesting collage of stuff. And then he uses the image track
             objectively. He gazes at the image. "La-shur", remember? And with the power of that
             objectively he elevates himself above the subjectivity by means of which he was stuck
             in the pile of junk forms to begin with. He is now a free man. He can work in the here
             and now and comment on the junk collage. He can express his point of view towards
             it, rather than being stuck in that formalistic character that he created. The character,
             the junk collage serve now merely as a filter, and he, the performer, is like a light
             illuminating the pile of junk from various points of view. And so the character takes on
             a momentary, a here and now, a messianic now type existence. And all those creative
             sparks, those indeas, those hits, go right out to the audience. They think something
             wonderful and mystical is happening, when all he's doing is just the same old dialectic,
             the same old logos, the same old demiurge, whatever you want to call it, the shor, the
             eglah, dialectical thinking. He's doing the moment by moment syntheses which pop
             into his mind when he looks down at the array of antitheses that comprise the junk
             collage.

             Now compare that with Stanislavski. Stanislavski has the actor identifying with the
             character subjectively, in the character, lost in the character and trying to bring the
             audience into the character with him. And they all follow the big idea, the
             superobjective of the play which has been laid out by the playwrite and the director
             from the beginning. And there you have Chabad, on the other side from Breslav.
             Stanislavski and Aristotle are on one side, while Brecht and Plato - especially the post-
             Brechtian formalism of Mabou Mines Theater - are on the other side.

             So you see, you don't have to call this religion. You can call it art if you like. And I am
             sure there are parallel aesthetic things about painting, about literature. We don't have
             to call it religion. So if you want to get down on the religious people, you don't have an
             excuse. If you don't use stuff like this, you're just plain dumb, ignorant. Go sell shoes.

             (l) SUMMARY

             OK. Enough for one lesson today. This tape is going on for 44 minutes. That's probably
             too long. Just to review, we started off using projections to do hitbod'dut, by projecting
             ourselves onto different nature objects. As they say in Taoism, before you paint the
             branch, first become the branch. So we became the branch. We became the piece of
             plastic, the old piece of plastic lying here and the city of Tiberius out there, and that led
             us to some truth. It led us up the path, Jacob's Ladder. The Christians have a long
             tradition of using dialectical philosophy. They talk about having faith in a grain of
             mustard seed. Here we had faith in a little plastic bottle laying here. Then we found our
             way up the ladder towards Mr. H. Right?

             Mr. H: Ahh yep!! Come on up here. It's nice up here! Ha haaaaahh . . .




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             FW: Well, we had a nice trip today. Thanks for the trip.

             Mr. H: No problem. No problem. Anytime, anytime.

             So we started off with those projections, and we worked our way up the Eglah, the
             concrete dialectic, the spiral, the tree of life, from Abraham to Yitzchak to Yaakov, the
             action, the middle pillar. It makes me think of Likutei Moharan essay number 1, where
             Nachman says, "a Yid has got to find the inner idea in any object", the inner idea that
             shines in every object. We took that little object, that piece of bottle, that plastic bottle,
             and we found the inner idea. What's the inner idea? It's the higher level of spirituality,
             the macrocosmic idea, the Platonic idea, or if you want to call it Mr. H, or whatever you
             like, but we followed that process and we did it using dialectical thinking. We found the
             inner idea in that little piece of broken bottle, and now we connected up at the same
             time the spirituality to my mother. We connected it to my mother, to all the objects that
             we illuminated today: Yavniel, Tiberius, even the motorcycle and the Brechtian theater
             were part of it. The point was to learn how to use projections creatively, spiritually, as
             an of hitbod'dut, and I believe we accomplished that.

             (m) WHO IS MR. H?

             Mr. H has been a part of our hitbod'dut process, in all the various forms of it which we
             have looked at. But can we pinpoint more specifically exactly what is his function along
             the way? Certainly he is not just another projection, like a broken bottle. Certainly he
             was not the demiurge, the Eglah, the concrete dialectic which provides a logical
             framework through which energies flowed. The Mr. H which I treated somewhat
             irreverently during my journey up Jacob's/Yaakov's Ladder was merely a stand-in, a
             place-holder, pointing towards the real Mr. H, that is to say towards Hashem, "the
             Name" which we are not supposed to say at all. Philosophically speaking, we may say
             - with the Jewish philosophers - that He is that which rides on top of the aravot, as has
             been explained. In the Pietist tradition of Nachman of Breslav, He is to be approached
             holistically, by means of both deductive cogitations and inductive experiences (prayer,
             faith, Gestalt, the arts, etc.), with an emphasis on the latter. As Nachman put it, "What
             else is there to do in this world, except to pray and study and pray?" ("Rabbi
             Nachman's Wisdom", #287)




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