1. Thoughts On Deliverance • I forgot how to be honest with myself The truth cascades like nothing else Give me some time show me some mercy or strike me down – Breathing breath Sleep without rest where are you when being awake is like burning to death Someone explain what I can’t express where are you where are you • Never again to tell the truth at all Masking the face guiding the fall Give me some strength show me some hope or take me now – ∗ So pitiful my masquerade Like nothing else the truth cascades I’ll follow it down I’ll follow it to the end of my life
2. The Windows Lens • It’s been way too long Since last Tuesday I think You hold me with your eyes Our subjectivity blinks And if eyes are windows She will try to come through You know that I would love her If she made it don’t you – My God my dreams You’re gone but still it seems You can affect the way I see things • It’s been way too long Five years at least Another song about you I’ll sing from the land of sleep So if my eyes are windows You’re the only one to make it through It’s inside that you’re waiting For my thoughts return to you
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3. Relapse • My skull’s a brick Chiseled and sick I offer my ego While spirits convict Victim of timing Excuses are climbing Surrounded again I fight to the dying – A voice no more but my eyes see I was born to ruin me • Returning again This relapse I’m in I am forsaken Again and again Honestly I can’t see the end But I’ll live for the striving So let us begin 4. Automatic • Respect is on the decline We genuflect and then deny Your struggle’s breaking you I know ’cause I have seen you cry – You will see We lie inside Fountainous fear Gives you pride Consider your time One day you’ll die Automatically So Divine • Keep on riding the fence So we can see it in your face Muddy your eyes by the handful You know it’s human commonplace – ∗ Please Stop and think it over Or wonder still What would you discover
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5. To The Unknown God • She lies Asleep in my arms Dreaming I hope that she wont wake in the night Crying and screaming She cheats Herself out of life Everyday I hope someday she’ll get it right And to you I pray – To the unknown God Can you feel her pain Keep her in the light Take away her shame • She steals A glance at her child Offering everything I hope she feels my love in her life And the depth of its meaning She kills My fears with a smile Masking her doubt is all we are inside Does it mean we should not try 6. If Only To Do • Sands in your mind Shifting with the time Consistent lie Lest you look in my eyes – For the sake of the fight You’ll go down fighting Don’t know why you don’t see What we’re fighting for – Even when your ship is sinking You claim the victory But action for its own sake Is action that does not speak • You’re bleeding now Can’t remember how Your aching body breaking And your pride has brought you down
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7. Blind • – ∗ I wont be strong Don’t put your trust in me I don’t belong Don’t waste your time
– I can’t see you Whisper my name Show me this life Is not all in vain I don’t even know What I can’t see Take off the night And help me to believe • I’m puzzled by my actions As though I can’t awaken From a dream where I’m a puppet And half my strings are broken The eve covers my sickness And holds me to the nightmare As my faith hits the floor I see it’s more than I can bear • – ∗ It wont be long I’ll lose my will again I wish your song Could drown out mine
• The answers are beyond me To fight the wraiths within me Thought that I was winning But found that I’m the enemy Despairing in the darkness And hating what I am I’m begging for forgiveness Then I’m at it again 8. Arrogant • – Don’t talk to me ’Cause I can’t fake how I’m feeling Don’t look at me ’Cause you will see in my eyes I’m struggling To not say what’s on my mind Don’t talk to me Don’t look at me
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• I can’t change anyone I just want to be without them You think that’s absurd I’m not sure I should hold me tongue Can I claim to know about them It’s just the way I need to get by • Sure you have your faults How can I begin to tell you It makes me that way and I hate it But if I can’t amend Then I feel that I have failed you And both of us lose I refuse to • I try to lay hold To believe we’re not entangled But we’re in a web no exceptions 9. This Foot Did Slip • Oh my God this life I’m told it is reckless I’ll try and wreck it anyway Who needs my acceptance We’re all cowards at the grave – We’ll We’ll We’ll We’ll throw throw throw throw our our our our flowers flowers flowers flowers in in in in
• Seeing my name on the sculpted stone The casket beckons from below I close my eyes and feel it pull me Compelled to advance but I’ll never go – I’ll I’ll I’ll I’ll • – stand stand stand stand out out out out on on on on the the the the edge edge edge edge
∗ This foot did slip A day that stains my calendar And now the roses chase my body down This heart did commit Pools collect upon my hands And I’m so aware of where I stand
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10. Last Words For A Dying Friend • I’ve been told that I wont believe it Under your dying eyes The souls not stirring there I have control Of the impulse to give in Under the strain of it The sense that no one cares I can’t subscribe To the notion that we are Living and dying here With nothing no one there – I wont let you go You’re slipping away but I have hold Of your heart in the end and you want me to bend but I wont I’ll need you there • Youth faded fast With no motive or reason Other than passing time In moments lifetimes pass We’re at the end It’s time to choose it Accept what you know you know Or fall to another path These last words are All I can offer Knowing the end is near But also that this will pass – I wont let you go You’re slipping away but I have hold Of your heart and it seems that you’ve died in your sleep but I know I’ll see you there
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