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					INTRODUCTION................................................................................................................................. 1 The Project, the Project Group and Co-incidence ............................................................................ CHAPTER 1 ........................................................................................................................................ 3 The History of Hildegard of Bingen - her views of health and her use of remedies CHAPTER 2 ........................................................................................................................................ 9 Methodologies used in the Provings ................................................................................................. CHAPTER 3 ...................................................................................................................................... 13 Emerald - the substance and its uses in healing .............................................................................. CHAPTER 4 ...................................................................................................................................... 16 Repertorisation - Emerald ................................................................................................................. CHAPTER 5 ...................................................................................................................................... 37 Symptoms of Emerald ...................................................................................................................... CHAPTER 7 .................................................................................................................................... 128 Emerald - Materia Medica ................................................................................................................ Comparative Material Medica ..................................................................................................... 174 CHAPTER 8 .................................................................................................................................... 133 Transcriptions of Meditation Provings .............................................................................................. CHAPTER 9 .................................................................................................................................... 146 Astrological readings ........................................................................................................................ CHAPTER 10 .................................................................................................................................. 149 Table comparing the uses of Emerald in Hahnemannian provings, meditations, gem elixirsand crystal therapy ...................................................................................... CHAPTER 11 .................................................................................................................................. 154 Themes of Emerald……………………………………………………………………………………….. Spiritual ....................................................................................................................................... 204 Dimensional/transitional shift ...................................................................................................... 207 Sight............................................................................................................................................. 209 Suppression/Awareness ............................................................................................................. 210 Dreams of Buried Issues ............................................................................................................. 211 Indecision/Resolution .................................................................................................................. 212 Submission/Assertion ................................................................................................................. 213 Balance ........................................................................................................................................ 213 Love/Hate ................................................................................................................................... 214 Heart/Circulation/lymphatic circulation ........................................................................................ 215 Pain and Healing ........................................................................................................................ 215 Detoxification .............................................................................................................................. 216 Dryness/Fluidity .......................................................................................................................... 217 Menstruation/Ovulation/Pregnancy ............................................................................................. 218 Old age/Vitality ............................................................................................................................ 218 Creativity ..................................................................................................................................... 219 CHAPTER 12 .................................................................................................................................. 165 Emerald - a „spirit like dynamic force‟ ............................................................................................... CONCLUSION ................................................................................................................................ 168 BIBLIOGRAPHY.............................................................................................................................. 169

INTRODUCTION The Project, the Project Group and Co-incidence The project had its origins in 1994 when I attended a coffee morning arranged by Palmyra, a Dutch friend. While there, Palmyra had a telephone call from a friend who needed healing. She consulted a book by Hildegard von Bingen, a 12th century nun who had visions from God, and suggested a remedy for her. The book was in Dutch but I recognised some of the Latin lapidarian and botanical names as those used in homeopathy. I was in my first year at The College of Homeopathy. Palmyra translated as much of the book as she could to me. In her writings Hildegard states “In all creation, trees, plants, animals and gem stones, there are hidden secret powers which no person can know of 1 unless they are revealed by God”. At the same time a mutual friend of ours was having spiritual problems in her house. One of the problems was her daughter would see a soldier coming towards her which would then pass through her. I thought I would prove a remedy to see if I could help my friend and, because of the nature of the problem, I thought one of Hildegard‟s remedies would be most appropriate to use. I also had a great desire to do a meditation proving with the same remedy. A co-incidence was that Emerald was found to aid meditation. At the 12th Annual Society of Homeopaths Conference, 1995, I put forward my ideas of a 4th Year project, researching Hildegard‟s work, proving her remedies and comparing a meditation proving, to a group which then comprised Hilary Barnett, Sarah Campbell, Roz Crompton, Sue Gilbert, Philip Greenaway and myself. Almost immediately, Hildegard appeared to be „in the air‟, the zeitgeist of the 1990s. On returning to college at the September weekend, Philip had seen an article by Martin Miles in Prometheus Unbound which had opened with a quote from Hildegard‟s work. Sarah, visiting her mother, found she happened to have both the music and a video of Hildegard‟s life - her friend had a book of Hildegard‟s art. A few weeks later a friend of Hilary‟s appeared with “Vision”, a book and CD on the life and music of Hildegard. By that time we had enlisted the help of two homeopaths. One had already made plans to prove one of Hildegard‟s remedies. The other had received a CD on the life and music of Hildegard‟s music the week before, sent to him by one of his patients, who had been inspired by it. Initially, looking through Hildegard‟s work on medicine and poetry there were two substances I had 2 been keen to prove, the fern because “Fern contains much power, namely that the devil avoids it”. and green Beryl (Emerald is of the Beryl group) because Hildegard had written about it in such a romantic fashion. Of Emerald she writes“Emerald grows in the morning hours of the day and at sunrise when the controlling sun starts her path, then the green and the grasses of the earth have most strength, because the air is still cool but the sun is already warm. and then the plants suck up the green so strongly like a lamb sucks the milk. The morning of the day might only be just sufficient to boil the green (morning) power of that day and to change it into food particles from which she can create fruit. That is why the Emerald is very strong in use against weakness of the human being because the sun creates it and its total sub3 stance is made from the green of the air”. Philip had strong feelings around Willow. However, so not to take the choice away from the group I made a list of forty seven possible remedies which we submitted to John Morgan who worked with a Meditation Circle in Kent. Through a meditation they refined the list to twelve, of which four remedies Emerald, Sapphire, Fern and Willow - were felt to be of special importance. From these we decided to prove Emerald, a cure all, “with its greenness (viriditas) the emerald changes „debility and infirmity‟
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Dr. Wighard Strehlow & Gottfried Hertzka, Hildegard of Bingen‟s Medicine, Bear & Co, Santa Fe, l988, pxviii. 2 Hildegard of Bingen‟s Medicine, Dr. Wighard Strehlow & Gottfried Hertzka, p.111.
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Extract from Hildegard Van Bingen, Medische en Mystieke Openbaringen, Vol.4, p.117, Dutch translation. Strehlow and Hertzka. 1

back into health” plus from a more logical prospective, encompassing a wider range of elements in the periodic timetable, and Fern. After the Hahnemannian proving, four meditating provings and one channelling proving there is no doubt that Emerald is a spiritual remedy, “From Death to Spirit with 5 ease”. Lady Fern has dreams of being pursued by a soldier. Co-incidence! All six of the group were involved, to a greater or lesser extent, in the development of the project. However, towards the Autumn of l996 the group divided, Philip leaving college due to pressure or work and Hilary and Sue undertaking another project which could be finished by their preferred deadline of March 1997. As a result Sarah, Roz and myself finished the project, which was not only a tremendous challenge but allowed us an insight into the amazing depth of homeopathy together with gem therapy, colour therapy, folklore, medieval history, history of medicine and past lives. Due the length of the project, I have extracted information relevant only to Emerald for this book. Lady Fern (Athyrium filix femina), will be published separately but it is compared to Emerald in the Conclusion. The contents of this book have been written by either Sarah or myself. We would like to thank our provers, meditators and channellers, whose names we cannot give for obvious reasons, John Morgan, who co-ordinated the provings and gave us the use of his pharmacy to make the remedies. Sue Crump, who has guided us through many vicissitudes which this project has brought, Jeremy Sherr and other notable homeopaths who have given us advice. Hilery Dorrian for her help with interpretation of the dreams and Yvonne Corkery for her astrological charts. I would like to thank Palmyra Willis who, amongst other things, initially translated Hildegard‟s work to me. Also my sons Owen and Stuart for their unfailing help on the computer.

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Hildegard of Bingen‟s Medicine, Dr. Wighard Strehlow &Gottfried Hertzka, p.38. Bear and Co. 1988. Meditation on Emerald. 21.l.99. The Norfolk Iyengar Yoga Centre. 2

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The History of Hildegard of Bingen - her views of health and her use of remedies Hildegard of Bingen was born in 1098 at Bermersheim near Alzey. She was the tenth child of a wellconnected family owning estates around Bermersheim. According to her biographers, Godfrey and Theodoric, from her early childhood Hildegard saw visions, „And in the third year of my life I saw so great a brightness that my soul trembled; yet because of my infant condition I could express nothing of it. But in my eighth year I was offered to God, given over to a spiritual way of life, and til my fifteenth I saw many things, speaking of a number of them in a simple way, so that those who heard them 6 wondered from where they might have come or from whom they might be. So Hildegard was given by her parents as a tithe to the anchoress, Jutta of Spanheim, and, together with a servant or two, Jutta and Hildegard were walled up in a couple of small rooms, adjacent to the abbey church of Disibodenburg. When she was fifteen, Hildegard became a Benedictine nun and when Jutta died in 1136, she was elected as the magistra of the growing women‟s community. Dependent upon the monks for all spiritual, financial and administrative matters, Hildegard eventually broke away, forming her own community at Rupertsberg in 1150. Hildegard was a remarkable woman. Not only did she challenge the accepted order of the monastery, insisting on setting up her own community, she also corresponded with some of the most powerful men of her time - men such as Bernard of Clairvaux, Pope Anastasius IV, King Henry II of England and the German Emperor, Frederick Barbarossa to whom she wrote letters of „correction and advice‟, 7 accusing him of behaving childishly, like one who is insane. In addition she wrote a number of commentaries on her visions, chief of which are Scivias, or Book of Faith, (1141-51) on matters such as the Trinity, the fall of Lucifer, the steps by which man may be saved and the Last Judgement; Liber Vitae Meritorum, or Book of Life‟s Merits (1158-63) which represented 35 vices and virtues in discourse; and Liber Divinorum Operum, or the Book of Divine Works (1163-74) which consisted of visions on the relation of man and nature and the history of the world. She wrote Lingua Ignota (Unknown Language) and Litterae Ignota (Unknown Writing) with invented names and an alternative alphabet (1150s), Symphonia Armonie Celestium Revelationem - hymns and sequences of music (1150s) commentaries and biographies and a morality play, Ordo Virtutem, Play of the Virtues, (1140s) which was later set to music. The main work of interest for this project, however, is that on the science of her day, Subtilitates Diversarum Naturarum Creaturarum, The Subtleties of the Diverse Nature of Created Things. This work was written between 1151 and 1158 and has been disputed as part of Hildegard‟s corpus on the grounds that it was not mentioned in her biography and has never been found in its original form, 8 but only as a series of copied extracts. It consists of two books, the Liber Simplicis Medicinae or

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Extract from‟Vitae Sancti Hildegardis‟ by Godfrey and Theodoric, translated by Peter Dronke in Hildegard of Bingen, An Anthology, edited by Fiona Bowie and Oliver Davies, with new translations by Robert Carver, SPCK, Third Impression, 1995, p 63 7 Bowie and Davies (1995) , p 39 8 This view is held by Charles Singer, „Scientific Views and Visions of Saint Hildegard (1098-1180), *** p 12 „(Causae et Curae)..is an ill-written document of the thirteenth century, and the original work probably dates from this period. It has none of the characteristics of the acknowledged work of Hildegard, and indeed the only link with her name is the title, which is written in a hand different from that of the text. Nothing could be more unlike the ecstatic but well-ordered and systematic work of the prophetess of Bingen than the prosy disorder of the Causae et Curae. Linguistically, also, it differs entirely from the typical writings of Hildegard, for it is full of Germanisms, which never interrupt the eloquence of her authentic works‟. While Singer vilifies the work, however, other scholars do not dispute that the author is Hildegard. Daremburg and Rheuss edited the Liber Subtilitatem as Hildegard‟s work, and Virchow also believed its authorship. Since the works are not meant as high religious texts, but are nearer to being collections of remedies and explanations of disease states, it is perhaps less surprising that Germanisms should be used.
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Physica which is a scientific and medical encyclopaedia including a herbal, bestiary and lapidary 10 (plants, animals and stones) and the Liber Compositae Medicinae which explains physical and mental diseases and their remedies, including material on character types. Neither of the works exists in manuscripts earlier than the thirteenth century. These were largely forgotten until they were rediscovered by scholars in the nineteenth century. Hildegard claimed direct divine intervention as the source of all her visionary works, music and many of her letters and pronouncements. Although no such claim survives for these scientific and medical 11 works , in her final work, Liber Divinorum Operum, she states that „In all creation, trees, plants, animals, and gem stones, there are hidden secret powers which no person can know of unless they 12 are revealed by God‟. Her insistence on Divine knowledge, however, gave authority to her views in a society where women were not expected to know or understand such things, still less to say them to men. Because her words are „from God‟ she is enabled to say the unsayable - such as when she is admonishing the monks of St Eucharius, „For in the true vision, I saw some of that congregation who have the red glow of the dawn, who glitter like sapphire, who shine like the light of the stars.....And I have seen others enveloped in the blackness of acrid smoke because of their habitually foul 13 behaviour.‟ Thus it is not clear whether the cures were part of a visionary process, or were found from her own practical experience, or whether they were extracts from the standard medical lore of the time. The images of the body and of health and the references to medical theory throughout her works (religious and more secular) suggest that she did practise medicine, and this would not be 14 unusual for a nun in the 12th century. In the Book of Divine Works, her fourth vision links the form of the human body to that of the universe - the body is the microcosm of the universal macrocosm. „And God formed humanity according to the divine image and likeness. God already had it in mind that this very form should enclose the holy Godhead. For the same reason God delineated all of creation in the human species, just as the whole world 15 emerged from the divine world. „From the very top of our cranium to the outer edge of our forehead, seven points are found, separated from one another by equal intervals. This symbolises the planets, 16 which are also separated from one another in the firmament by like intervals.‟ This view of the world and of man was typical of Greek thinking and was readily absorbed into the mainstream of Christian tradition. Hildegard‟s view of health and disease reflected that which was reintroduced to the west in the eleventh century by Arabic scholars and Jewish mystics, while being firmly based in Hildegard‟s deep understanding of Christian theology. The new theory of disease - or rather the old theory which was being re-discovered in the West - was based on the four humours. The idea that air, fire, earth and water might form the world and also the body and the mind was based on the Hippocratic Corpus, writings gathered in the late fifth and early fourth centuries BC, and codified
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Manuscripts of the first part of this work, 13th-15th century, are held in the Archives in Wolfenbuttel, Paris and Brussels. An early printed copy exists by J Scott, Strasbourg, 1533. An edition based on this early printed copy was published in Volume 197 of the Corpus Patrologia Latina, by JP Migne, Paris, 1882 10 The second part of this work, Causae et Curae, was discovered in a 13th century manuscript held in the Royal Library, Copenhagen, by Carl Jensen in 1859. An excerpt was published in Cardinal J Pitra, Analecta Sacra, Volume 8, Paris, 1881. A transcription of the complete text is printed as Causae et Curae, Berlin, 1903 11 Since the whole work does not survive, there may have been an introduction as there was to Scivias and to Liber Divinorum Operum which did claim divine intervention. 12 Quoted by Dr Wighard Strehlow & Gottfried Hertzka, Hildegard of Bingen‟s Medicine, Bear & Company, Santa Fe, 1988, pxviii 13 Bowie and Davies, (1995), pp 136-37 14 Women were often skilled in healing - it was not until the 13th century that they were generally excluded from medical knowledge and practice, making the art a male prerogative. 15 Hildegard of Bingen‟s Book of Divine Works, with Letters and Songs, edited and introduced by Matthew Fox, Bear & Company, Santa Fe, 1988, p 89 16 Fox, (1988) p 98
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by Galen, a Greek physician residing in Rome in the second century AD. His system lasted, 17 unchanged in any great respect, until it was challenged in the sixteenth century by Paracelsus. In Hildegard‟s time, the main source of medical teaching was at Salerno in Italy and the theory and 18 remedies were spread by monks such as Aquinas, throughout Western Europe. Just as the Universe was made up of four elements - fire (hot and dry), water (cold and wet), earth (cold and dry) and air (hot and wet), so too the body depended upon four corresponding humours choler or yellow bile, phlegm or mucus, black bile, and blood. This divides people into four main groups - choleric, phlegmatic, melancholic and sanguine. This theory percolates Hildegard‟s understanding of personality, disease and the cures for disease. She wrote: „That there are only four elements: there cannot be more than four, or fewer. They consist of two kinds: upper and lower. The upper are celestial, the lower terrestrial. The things that live in the upper ones are impalpable and are made from fire and air; those that move in the lower are palpable, formed bodies, and consist of water and mud. For spirits are fiery and airy, but man is watery and muddy. When God created man, the mud from which he was formed was stuck together with water, and God put a 19 fiery and airy breath of life into that form.‟ In a letter to an abbot, she expounds on the theory in relation to man‟s personality: „There are four 20 modes of behaviour among men: some are hard, some airy, some stormy, some fiery.‟ Similarly, in her major work on disease she explains why periods and fertility affect women in different ways „(De sanguinea) Some women are inclined to plumpness, and have soft and delectable flesh and slender veins, and well constituted blood free of impurities ..And these have a clear and light colouring, and in love‟s embraces are themselves loveable....At menstruation they suffer only a moderate loss of blood, 21 and their womb is well developed for childbearing, so they are fertile and can take man‟s seed.‟ Phlegmatic women similarly have moderate flow and are fertile, Choleric women suffer much loss of blood but are nevertheless fertile, while Melancholic women, suffer much blood loss and are sterile. In describing her own illness, Hildegard described the effect when the humours were unbalanced. Her temperament was airy, easily affected by changes in the weather and prone to infirmity. The four humours being imbalanced in her made her vulnerable, but able to be the dwelling place of the Holy Spirit - and so she was able to see visions which were intimately connected to her migraine-like 22 illness. Disease occurs therefore when these four humours, present to a greater or lesser degree in us all, get out of balance: „When the elements are properly ordered in the human being, they sustain and make this person well. However, should they fail to harmonise in this person, they make the person ill and kill him or her. Mixtures of humours drawn from warmth, moisture, blood and flesh are present in the human being. When these humours remain tranquilly active in the proper relationship, a healthy human being is the natural result. When, on 23 the other hand, they assail an individual too much, they weaken and kill this person.‟ This theory is based on the rationalist theory set out in the Hippocratic corpus „Now he enjoys the most perfect health when these elements are duly proportioned to one another in respect of compounding, 24 dynamis, and bulk, and when they are perfectly mingled.‟ Mind and body were intimately connected and anger and fear were particularly dangerous:

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„If humans did not possess the bitterness of bile and the darkness of black bile, they 25 would always be healthy.‟ „In every person whose bile is stronger than black bile, his or her anger is more easily subdued. But if the black bile is stronger than the bile, the person will tend to anger 26 and will become mad more easily. „If the human soul feels that the body is menaced, then the heart, the liver, and the vessels constrict. Hereby a sort of „cloudiness‟ will arise from the heart, and envelop 27 the heart in darkness. This is how humans become sad.‟ For health, Hildegard prescribed moderation - something which was promoted by the Benedictine rule which is justly famed for its avoidance of extremes. Equilibrium in eating and drinking, in rest and work, help to maintain the human body in like harmony to that which sustains the cosmos. Thus to remain healthy, Hildegard suggests one should avoid over-indulgence: „Whoever has soft voluptuous flesh in the body and often consumes all kinds of tasty 28 delicacies, will easily be attacked by gout of the big toe.‟ „For a physically healthy person it is nevertheless good and healthy to forego breakfast until before midday, and around noon, because it improves the digestion. For the sick, frail and physically run-down, it is good and healthy to breakfast in the mornings in 29 order at least to gain some strength from the nourishment.‟ „Persons with soft tissues and porous flesh, who overindulge in heavy wine, will often 30 be plagued with gout.‟ „The affliction known as jaundice results from an overabundance of bile. Excess bile is 31 produced by diseased humours, fever and by frequent bouts of extreme rage.‟ „A person should not sleep right after eating, before the taste, the juice and the smell of 32 the foods have arrived at their destinations.‟ They should also keep themselves clean - „Brush your teeth often, and after dinner daily. Your teeth and gums will become strengthened. For those who have healthy teeth, maintain this procedure for a 33 vital and healthy smile.‟ Suppression of bodily functions was not good for people - for example, if new, unfamiliar foods produced too much mucus, that should be allowed to run from the nose for „If a person would in some way suppress or prevent such a cleansing, he or she would be harmed in the same way as if this 34 person would retain stool or urine, so that they cannot exit on time.‟ Sweating was also a means by which the body could clear itself of nocivi humores „In this way the harmful body juices start moving and the fever increases, because the soul has given up its rule of life. Then even the amount of blood in a person decreases and the intestines and other organs dry up. The soul lies there distressed and waits in despair, wondering whether it should leave the body. Thus it waits mostly until the seventh day, because it cannot free itself any earlier from the body fluids and slimes. But as soon as it notices that the storm of juices subsides through the grace of God, it
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and Hertzka (1988) p 76 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 77 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 84 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 99 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 45 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 94 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 78 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 46 from Causae et Curae and Hertzka (1988) p 14 from Physica and Hertzka (1988) p 100 from Causae et Curae 6

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will gather all its energy and drive those fluids and slimes back out of the body through 35 sweating. In this way the person regains health.‟ Harmful body juices and slimes which develop from environmental, emotional or spiritual poisons, are seen as the cause of disease. This passage also suggests Hildegard‟s belief in a sustaining life force - an intelligence in the body, so that, like Hahnemann, she sees the body as working for its own good. The way in which she expresses this life force has some similarities to Hahnemann‟s dynamis but, for Hildegard, this is a „viriditas‟ or „greenness‟, „flowering‟, the life force which is inherent in all creation, by which all things grow and are fruitful. For example, „Of fertility. The rivulet each month in a woman is the source of her viriditas and flowering which brings her into full maturity - just like a tree in its viriditas, flowers, comes into leaf and brings forth fruit, so a woman from the viriditas of her monthly 36 flow of blood, brings forth flowers and leaves from the fruit of her belly.‟ From her Book of Divine Works, it is clear that the greenness of humanity lies in the soul „Our body as a whole is associated with the head, just as the Earth and all its structures are adapted to the firmament. And we humans as a whole are guided by the sensory organs of our head, just as earthly functions are fulfilled by the firmament. Therefore, an experience in heavenly as well as earthly matters, is infused into the soul. For just as the word of God has penetrated everything in creation, the soul penetrates the whole body in order to have an effect on it. The soul is the green life-force (viriditas) of 37 the flesh.‟ Viriditas, however, is not the means by which cure is achieved. This is done by the remedy acting directly on the body. When a person falls ill, the remedy they require removes the pain and the disease is destroyed. „The golden quince... cooked or baked ... is very beneficial for sick and healthy persons. The arthritic person should often eat this fruit cooked and baked, and it will destroy in this person the rheumatic toxins, so that they can neither dull the senses, nor break the limbs, nor leave 38 the person helpless.‟ On occasions, the remedies were chosen specifically for the physical attributes of a person. For example, someone with blue eyes, „gets them mainly from the air ....they are weaker than other eyes...(and) are easily harmed by bad, soft and moist air as well as by fog. For just like these affect the purity of air adversely, they also harm eyes acquired from the air... If someone has blue eyes, with which she sees poorly and feels pain, she should take fennel or fennel seeds when the pain is fresh .... The mild warmth of fennel, tempered by the dew and the strength of 39 the flour, removes these pains.‟ In this case airy eyes, (hot and wet) are cured by a warm damp remedy. This might suggest a precursor of homeopathic ideas, as for example would the remedy for burns, where a sterile linen cloth was soaked in water in which linseeds had been cooked and laid 40 warm on the burned spot to „draw out the burn‟ . This would, however, appear to be coincidence rather than the application of any belief in similars, since there is no recognition of a philosophical basis for the cure. Furthermore, warmth in general is seen as healing - „The pungent warmth of the stinging nettles and the warmth of the olive oil stimulate the constricted vessels of the chest and temples...‟ „Those whose heart, stomach, or side hurts should have an emerald by them, so that the flesh of the body becomes warm and they will get better.‟ „Plantain is warm and dry .... if a spider or another worm touches or stings a person, then this person should immediately rub the spot with 41 plantain juice and he or she will be better.‟ Hildegard‟s remedies ranged from herbs and spices, to animals, gems and metals. While many would have been readily available - such as parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme - others were far more exotic, and some, one imagines, would have been virtually unobtainable in 12th century Germany 35 36

Strehlow and Hertzka (1988) p 98 from Causae et Curae „De fecunditate. Rivulus autem menstrui temporis in muliere est genitiva viriditas et floriditas eius, quae in prole frondet, quia, ut arbor viriditate sua floret et frondet et fructus profert, sic femina de viriditate rivulorum menstrui sanguinis flores and frondes in fructu ventris sui educit.‟ Causae et Curae, (1903) p 105, 15-20 37 Fox, (1988), pp 96-97 from Liber Vitae Meritorum, Vision 4, 21 38 Strehlow and Hertzka (1988) p 106, from Physica 39 Strehlow and Hertzka (1988) p 4-5, from Causae et Curae 40 Strehlow and Hertzka (1988) p 30, from Physica 41 Strehlow and Hertzka (1988) pp 40, 38, 31 from Physica
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where for example, would Hildegard have found ostriches, lions or leopards? Thus while many of the remedies are likely to have been tried and tested for generations, others probably derived more from myth rather than practice. Remedies recommended by Hildegard could be taken in many different ways. The most obvious was in a drink or potion - hyssop, for example could be eaten in food or drunk in wine. Other remedies were applied externally, for example topaz was laid in wine and then used to moisten the eyes every night to clear progressive loss of vision. A sapphire could be placed in the mouth and the saliva used to moisten painful eyes. Jasper should be placed on the spot where rheumatic fever attacked. Badger fur shoes could promote healthy legs and feet. Other therapeutic measures recommended by Hildegard were fasting, blood letting, saunas, hot baths, and compresses. The remedies suggested by Hildegard are, in some cases, the same ones which homeopaths use today. There is some correspondence between the symptoms which Hildegard believed they could cure, and those for which a homeopath would prescribe. Hildegard would use plantain (Plantago) rubbed into the skin for stings and for generations the plant has been used for toothache, relief of pain and irritation of the skin. In homeopathy it is used for burns, stinging, pricking pains, redness, swelling 42 and vesicles . She used yew (Taxus Baccata) for hayfever, and in the homeopathic repertory there 43 are symptoms of hayfever - such as burning, itching eyes, which might be considered similar. Valerian root (Valeriana) was said to promote sleep - and sleeplessness is in its homeopathic remedy 44 picture . Others are more questionable - rue (Ruta), for example, was used by Hildegard for pain in the kidneys in combination with Wormwood, for gout and rheumatism in combination with parsley, for gallbladder problems and for people with no sense of humour. While this might be said to reflect the homeopathic remedy picture in some respects - dissatisfaction and suspicion might lead to a loss of humour, and stitches in the small of the back might translate as pain in the kidneys, the similarities are 45 not particularly close . This survey of Hildegard‟s medical theory and practice has shown her to be very much a woman of her time. Her beliefs and writings on this subject were not revolutionary, though many of her followers today would disagree. Strehlow and Hertzka in particular are quite strident in their admiration. „Out of God‟s wisdom, Hildegard medicine has perhaps been reserved for the helplessness of our times. It is so modern that only now, with our scientific knowledge of medicine, can we begin to appreciate 46 Hildegard‟s remarkable understanding of the basic causes of health and sickness.‟ While in my view, they overstate this understanding, Hildegard does exhibit considerable common sense, a tremendous empathy with people, enthusiasm and energy, a wide range of reading and an unquenchable thirst for knowledge which make her not only outstanding in her own century but also fascinating in ours.

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CHAPTER 2
Methodologies used in the Provings The prime purpose of our project was to prove, by Hahnemann‟s methods, some of the remedies which are known to have been used by Hildegard of Bingen. A secondary purpose, however, was to experiment with some of the different ways in which a „Meditation Proving‟ might be conducted. This seemed particularly apt in view of Hildegard‟s visions and our belief, in the early stages of this project, that this may be how Hildegard chose her remedies. While the meditation provings are far from scientific and are questionable in some respects which will be discussed in greater detail below, they do provide a possible new dimension to homeopathy which deserves further objective research. The choice of remedies was made firstly through listing the forty seven remedies which Hildegard used, but which to our knowledge had not been proved for homeopathy. This initial list was submitted to John Morgan who worked with a Meditation Circle in Kent. Through meditation they refined the list to twelve, of which four remedies - Emerald, Sapphire, Fern and Willow - were felt to be of special importance. From these four we decided to prove Emerald and Fern. From the outset the project group was determined that the Hahnemann proving should be as scientific and professionally managed as possible and to this end the entire group (then six people) were 47 supplied with copies of Jeremy Sherr‟s book . At the same time, we secured the expertise of John Morgan as Co-ordinator or Master Prover, while some members of the group went to a lecture by Jeremy Sherr and discussed the project with experienced homeopaths who had undertaken previous provings. 48 The main provings, therefore, were undertaken primarily according to Jeremy Sherr‟s outline . Due to the nature of this project as one undertaken by students, however, there are some differences. These are: 1. The role of the Master Prover In Sherr‟s methodology, the Master Prover „should be well acquainted with the philosophy of provings in general. She or he is responsible for the proving process, including the safety of provers, accurate work of the supervisors etc.... However, the most demanding role of the co-ordinator is the third stage of extraction, collation and editing of symptoms which is of the utmost importance. ....Though the supervisors can help prepare this stage, the collation must be done by one, or at most, two persons together in order to maintain the 49 “As if one person” consistency throughout the proving.‟ While in our provings, John Morgan was responsible for the proving process, with all letters to provers being sent in his name and his telephone number being given in case of emergency to all provers, he was not involved in the extraction, collation and editing of symptoms, nor could he oversee the project in detail. He was, however, the only person who knew which prover was taking which potency (or the placebo). 2. Knowledge of the Remedy In an ideal proving neither the Master Prover, nor the Supervisors nor the Provers know the identity of the remedy. This aspect is controlled by a Committee whose task is to organise the proving, choose the remedy, choose the potencies, liaise with the Pharmacy and help prepare the remedy. The supervisors thus cannot bring any prejudice or preconceived ideas to the symptoms or to their interpretation. In our provings, however, the remedy was known by John Morgan and by the group - though naturally not by the provers (except for the meditation provers in some cases). The group (then of six people) were all involved in preparing Emerald. John Morgan supervised both preparations and allowed the use of his Pharmacy. Code names Capricorn (for Emerald) and Gemini (for Ladyfern) - given on the basis of the month in which they were prepared - were used so that the identity of each substance might be kept hidden both from the provers and from any possible contacts who might inadvertently spread information. 3. Provers We tried to select a group of near-healthy provers, ones who were „reasonably dynamic‟ as Sherr suggests, and not on any form of drug. This was more difficult than we expected. Few women tend to regard the pill or HRT as drugs and a number of very willing volunteers were rejected on this score. As an experiment we later decided to include a few provers of this sort,
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since much of the female population take such drugs as the norm and particularly when we found that one of the most interesting ‟meditation provers‟ who was involved in a group proving of Emerald, was nevertheless on HRT. Prover 38 was using HRT. 4. Dose Jeremy Sherr uses a maximum of six doses of the remedy over a period of two days. We used a maximum of four doses and generally found that provers used only two before the symptoms appeared. Quite often, despite explicit instructions not to take a second dose if they felt they had started the proving, they would take that dose just to confirm that the strange symptoms they were experiencing were due to the remedy. This was the case, for example, with Prover 18. 5. Contact In almost every case daily contact was maintained by telephone and not in person. While Sherr recommends that prover and supervisor should be in close geographic proximity, this was rarely the case - most provers and supervisors could not realistically meet every day, although in all provers, the case was taken before and after by meeting face to face. 6. Disclaimer We found out just before the proving of the second remedy that the College - and indeed most professional provings - expected all provers to have signed a disclaimer or consent form. Two of the group investigated the form of the disclaimer, which is not mentioned at all in Sherr, telephoning a number of authorities including the Society of Homeopaths, the Faculty of Homeopathy and the British Homeopathic Association, none of whom appeared to have a copy of the letter, or knowledge of the form it should take. We took legal advice and used a disclaimer for Athyrium filix femina (Lady Fern). Other than that, the proving was both orthodox and careful, involving five of the original group of six people as supervisors. We used fifteen provers for the classical Hahnemannian proving. Once the provers had shown no new symptoms for a week or more, the proving was deemed to be finished. Soon afterwards, the books were taken back by the supervisors and they and the provers met to retake the case and confirm which symptoms the prover thought were part of the proving and which were normal to themselves - that is which were new (NS), old (OS), altered (AS), recent (RS) or cured (CS). Collation was undertaken by each of the five supervisors. The notebooks of the Provers and those of the Supervisors were compared and symptoms were taken which were deemed to be valid, using Sherr‟s guidelines. Each symptom was labelled with the time since the first remedy dose was taken, using the DD:HH:MM format, substituting XX where time is unimportant or bit recorded clearly. New rubrics were added only when they were characteristic of the remedy – these are indicated by italics in the Emerald Repertory. We used both Murphy and Kent as repertories because these are the most common ones used by homeopaths today (and because we did not have any computer repertories!). In the Materia Medica the symptoms are graded using BOLD CAPITALS for the most commonly occurring symptoms, italics for those which occur in more than one prover and lower case for the others. The Meditation Provings followed a number of different forms. Background reading elicited no common methodology for such a proving, although a number of different methods have been 50 51 documented . Jill Wright‟s article on the proving of Chalconite gives a protocol for „the informal proving to be called meditative proving‟. In this each proving is undertaken by twelve people, with a thirteenth, the Chair, observing and the objective control of the group. One dose of 30c is taken by each of the twelve provers, who then undertake an initial relaxation process before meditating for 3-4 hours. Each prover is asked what sensations, feelings and general states they find themselves in. It would appear that each prover is not only aware of the remedy they are proving, but has had a part in its choice and furthermore hears the symptoms of the other eleven provers - this may set up ‟a dynamic field.. in the group as a whole, as though the provers resonated on a deeper level, and were able to spontaneously elicit unique insights into aspects of the remedy that normally would take years of slow and meticulous research‟ but it also lays the group wide open to following whatever symptom might seem most „appropriate‟ for the remedy (using earlier preconceptions) or for being influenced by one another or the strongest personality. In examining the initial transcript of this group‟s proving of Emerald (shown in Meditations) it is clear that one main prover channels the information from a spirit called Eagle Man. It is remarkable how similar the picture of Emerald given in this proving is to that
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published in Gurudas , a book which the provers, in publishing this meditation proving, declare they 53 knew nothing about . This may suggest that they are channelling to the same source or level of spiritual energy - or may suggest that consciously, or unconsciously, one or more of the provers brought to the proving information from a previously read source. While there is so little control over such provings, their validity remains questionable which is particularly unfortunate since, even in our own limited experiments there would seem to be areas which can be gleaned from these experiences which help to inform the overall picture of the remedy. Similar misgivings can be held for the provings of Ayahuaska and Berlin Wall undertaken by the same 54 group and also published in „Prometheus Unbound‟ Katherine Boulderstone‟s article states that what matters is that the provers are „healthy, unprejudiced and sensitive‟ and describes a personal proving of Hypericum using a method which she learned on a Shamanic course on „Plant Spirit Medicine‟. A very similar method was used in the group proving of Bay Leaf described by Madeline Evans at the Society of Homeopaths 1996 conference. While sensitive provers do appear to gain insights into a remedy through such intuitive processes near the source of the plant or substance, this could perhaps form an additional, but not the sole, proving of a remedy towards the end of the process when more objective trials have been completed. Less contentious in that they are less subjective, are the group provings of Naja, undertaken by 55 participants in a seminar in Bombay in 1991, and that of Calcarea Silicata in South India in 1993 . In these cases the participants did not know what they were proving and wrote down their symptoms in private before conferring on the general picture. Similarly, Melissa Assilem‟s proving of Lac Lupaninum used a guided meditation with a group who did not know the identity of the remedy and who wrote their symptoms down individually. They were told the remedy they had taken two weeks 56 later . Our own meditation provings were a mixture of these techniques. All except the Bridgnorth proving (2) which was considered to have been influenced more by the music than the remedy and to be held in far from ideal conditions, are transcribed in Meditations. In chronological order they were: 1. Meditation Proving - 17.1.96 of Emerald held in Shelley, near Huddersfield, Yorkshire with three of the supervisors and three other participants. All knew what the remedy was. With such a small group and with three of the group being present there seemed no point in keeping this a secret although that was the original intention. Each person in turn held the remedy in a phial, but did not ingest it. The proving started with a guided meditation, following which the participants openly discussed their feelings and impressions. This was taped and is shown in the Chapter on Meditations. 2. Meditation Proving - 20.3.96 of Emerald in Bridgnorth, Shropshire with the students of an adult education class in Homeopathy. This proving was done to the music of Hildegard. The students had the choice of taking the remedy (30c) or not, and about two thirds chose to take the remedy. The students‟ individual impressions were discussed and recorded in class and follow up studies were done on two of the participants. It is impossible to say whether the provers were influenced more by the remedy or by the music (undertaking a proving similar to that described in Sankaran‟s 57 music meditations) - in retrospect, I would probably not play music again. 3. Meditation Proving - 17.5.96 of Emerald, undertaken at our request by the Meditation Circle in Kent. We were not allowed to observe this in case the energy of the group meditation was disturbed by the presence of other people. We were, however, initially given a censored transcript

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Gurudas, Gem Elixirs and Vibrational Healing, Volumes I and II, Cassandra Press, San Raphael, 1989; Boulder 1986 53 Madeline Evans „Meditative Proving of the Gem Emerald‟, Prometheus Unbound, Vol Autumn 1996 54 Charles Wansbrough, „Ayahuasca and the Pineal Gland‟, Prometheus Unbound, Vol Spring 1995, pp 3-16, Colin Griffiths, „Berlin Wall‟, Prometheus Unbound, Vol Spring 1995 55 Rajan Sankaran, The Substance of Homoeopathy, Homoeopathic Medical Publishers, Bombay, 1994, pp 212-24; 180-85 56 Melissa Assilem, Lecture „Overview of Milks‟ given at the College of Homoeopathy, 16.2.97 57 Sankaran, (1994), pp 238-55 Sarah Campbell 11

of the meditation . This proving has subsequently been published in „Prometheus Unbound‟. We now have the full meditation as shown in Chapter 8, Transciption of Meditations.

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4. Meditation Proving - 24.5.96 of Emerald in Stone cum Ebony, Tenterden, Kent by four of our group. Obviously, all knew the remedy and had by then been involved in the Hahnemannian provings as supervisors. 5. Meditation Proving - 19.5.97 of Emerald at Stone cum Ebony, Tenterden, Kent by a group of nine healers considered by Moya to be intuitive. Most did not know the remedy which was either ingested (in potencies of 30c or 1m) or held. After a joint meditation, the group were left to their own thoughts which they wrote down separately. Following this they had a joint discussion. 6. Meditation Proving – 21.l.99. of Emerald at The Norfolk Iyengar Yoga Centre. (Not part of the 4 Year Project). Exploring the Healing Legacy of Hildegard of Bingen. A Day of Music and Homoeopathy. Carol O‟Neill taught the group, mostly homeopaths, one of Hildegard‟s songs in Latin. Later Moya lead a meditation proving where no other person knew the remedy, other than it was one of Hildegard‟s. The remedy was taken in a potency of the provers choice, 1M, 30c or 6c. Moya placed a 200c over her heart chakra. Notes were written down separately and later discussed in a talk.
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This range of meditation provings or group provings vary in quality and in the information which they give to the overall picture of the remedy. Undertaken by sensitive provers, particularly if they can be achieved under controlled circumstances (such as the provers not knowing the identity of the remedy, not discussing their symptoms and feelings in public and being followed up in the same painstaking way as one would with a Hahnemannian proving), such unorthodox methods could enhance provings since they tap into the fifth and highest of the five levels of Yogic philosophy - the spiritual level which 60 is available to man alone They are, however, no substitute for the traditional form of proving which attempts to be completely objective. While objectivity is a goal which is extremely hard to achieve, the gathering of symptoms in confidence and over several weeks or months, from a range of provers, none of whom know the remedy nor whether they have taken it or the placebo does create a body of evidence which can be tested further in clinical practice. In comparing the two, meditation provings, if accepted as valid, can offer a partial picture, mainly of the themes and overview, particularly the esoteric aspects, of a remedy, while the traditional proving can look at the detail and how the remedy affects the individual. Both the detail and the overall view are needed in a remedy picture - the detail being particularly required in finding a remedy which corresponds to the „striking, exceptional, unusual, and odd (characteristic) signs and symptoms‟ which 61 can determine the remedy most fitting to the case. This is where a thorough analysis of the symptoms of the provers is essential and where we hope this project, with its traditional provings as well as its meditative ones, will be of use.

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CHAPTER 3
Emerald - the substance and its uses in healing Emerald is a silicate mineral in which the silicate is combined with the metals aluminium and beryllium. Its chemical formula is Be3Al2(SiO3 )6 . The verdant green colour is caused by a trace of the chromium ion - Cr2O3 - and sometimes also by a trace of Vanadium. These elements are highlighted on the periodic table below. All have been proved in their own right, with the exception of chromium which has only been proved as Chromic acid and Chromium Kali Sulphuratum. 1 H 3 Li 11 Na 19 K 37 Rb 55 Cs 87 Fr 4 Be 12 Mg 20 Ca 38 Sr 56 Ba 88 Ra 21 Sc 39 Y 57 La 89 Ac 57 La 58 Ce 59 Pr 60 Nd 61 P m 89 Ac 90 Th 91 Pa 92 U 93 Np 62 S m 94 Pu 95 A m Periodic table with elements in emerald highlighted Scholten‟s work on the elements shows some of the essences, concepts and keynotes of each of 62 these elements and these are outlined below . Beryllium, which was proved by Templeton in 195163 52 on seven provers , is particularly worth comparison with the findings of this project‟s proving of emerald. Beryllium Adapting person Oxygen Lost self worth; begging Egoism Used Misused Indignation Victim Aluminium Confusion where you stand in relations Confusion Blood Knives Silicon Obvious relations: family Image Family Father Familyimage Vanadium Doubting if you can do your job Alternating Anorexia Bulimia Addiction Doubt Chromium Proving that you can do your job Embarrasse d Shame Hiding Discreet 96 C m 97 Bk 98 Cf 99 Es 10 0 Fm 10 1 Md 10 2 No 10 3 Lw 63 Eu 64 Gd 65 Tb 66 Dy 67 Ho 68 Er 69 Tm 70 Yb 71 Lu 22 Ti 40 Zr 72 Hf 23 V 41 Nb 73 Ta 24 Cr 42 Mo 74 W 25 Mn 43 Tc 75 Re 26 Fe 44 Ru 76 Os 27 Co 45 Rh 77 Ir 28 Ni 46 Pd 78 Pt 29 Cu 47 Ag 79 Au 30 Zn 48 Cd 80 Hg 5 B 13 Al 31 Ga 49 In 81 Tl 6 C 14 Si 32 Ge 50 Sn 82 Pb 7 N 15 P 33 As 51 Sb 83 Bi 8 O 16 S 34 Se 52 Te 84 Po 9 F 17 Cl 35 Br 53 I 85 At 2 He 10 Ne 18 Ar 36 Kr 54 Xe 86 Rn

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Extract from Scholten’s work on the elements Scholten‟s work suggests that some of the themes of emerald might be to do with self worth and relationships to people and to work. Looking at beryllium in particular, the concepts are yielding, adapting, chameleon like, unobtrusive, although the orthodox proving of beryllium has shown only the physical symptoms of which the notable ones are kidney stones with hyper-production and respiratory difficulty with audible heartbeat. Allergic, tubercular and cancerous conditions, chronic fatigue syndrome, sarcoidisis are all possible clinical diseases which beryllium may help. The patient is 64 aggravated from physical exercise, heat and movement, but ameliorated from the cold and fresh air. How far this remedy picture reflects that of the still more complex mineral, emerald, can only be seen from the full proving which follows. The name emerald comes from a Persian word, appearing in Greek as smaragdus. Later this was altered to esmeraude, emeraude, and esmeralde. Until recently, emerald has been used as a name for any green stone, the particular stone which we now call emerald being distinguished as green beryl. This was the name given to it by Hildegard, so it was some time before the group realised that the remedy we were thinking of proving was emerald. The stone which was sourced by Philip was from Columbia, Hildegard‟s remedy would obviously not have come from the then-undiscovered „New World‟, but may well have come from Austria or Egypt. The gem which was purchased was an uncut stone. Emerald is a symbol of immortality and faith - revealing the inconstancy of a lover when it changes colour. Worn by married women it was said to guarantee fidelity. It has a reputation for being linked with divine sources and is believed to ward off evil, the plague and snakes which fear it. For centuries it has been used as a potent source of healing. In the Roman period, it was used as a balm for sore eyes, and even to make spectacles. Hildegard‟s uses for the remedy are varied. It 65 could be bound with cloths onto a worm infested open wound. For someone having an epileptic attack, it should be placed in the mouth, after which the patient should give the stone a stern look and say the prayer „as the spirit of the Lord fulfilled the whole earth, may He fulfil also my body and my mercy so that it can never be shaken again.‟ This should be done for nine consecutive mornings and 66 every time the patient looked at the emerald. The stone should also be put in the mouth for heart, stomach or side pains - the warmth of the emerald would then cure the person, reducing or even 67 stopping the sudden onset of such pain. Similarly, placed in the mouth and then smoothed over the temples and forehead, an emerald could cure strong headaches. In crystal therapy emeralds are still used in ways which are not dissimilar to Hildegard‟s. They are said to give balance - the patient is enjoined to „be aware of their powers, fondle them, wear them, place 68 them near you and look at them.‟ In addition they can be worn as jewellery, placed on the patient in patterns, used as a „receiver‟ after programming (which is a little like the incantation recommended by 69 Hildegard), as a „meditation partner‟ or as a remedy to be taken internally. In this last method, the stones are put in a pure lead crystal glass, half filled with distilled water and placed in the morning sun for three hours. This charges the water with the vibrational force and colour frequency of the stones. Five drops are then taken in water or under the tongue several times a day while visualising the stones. alternatively massage oils or topical ointments can act as a carrier.
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Mention has already been made of Gurudas in Chapter 2. Gurudas, Gem Elixirs and Vibrational Healing consists of a series of conversations channelled through Kevin Ryerson. The conversations are with a spirit guide named John and were held between 1981 and 1982. Much of the content of this book is in sympathy with and highly relevant to homeopathy, however unorthodox the source. The channelled information concerns not only the individual remedies but also their early (some would say mythological) history in Atlantis and Lemuria, the means by which they work and their method of preparation. Gem elixirs could be prepared by the method suggested above, or by grinding into powder and subsequently being prepared as a homeopathic remedy. According to Gurudas, the former method is 70 preferable since it „activates the higher frequency of the life force.‟ Our remedy was made on 27.12.95 by traditional homeopathic methods in Helios Pharmacy. We crushed the emerald, mixing it with 99 parts of lactose. In pairs we ground the mixture in a pestle and mortar, taking it in turn over twenty minutes before mixing one part with a further 99 parts of lactose and grinding again for 20 minutes. This was repeated five times, then the mixture was dissolved in 99 parts of alcohol, succussed and repeated to form the various potencies up to 30c. The remedy was code named Capricorn. Gurudas suggested that the remedy should be made by a different method. the mineral specimen should be completely natural and in crystalline structure (as our was) - but on a matrix (that is the stone or rock to which the mineral was originally attached.) A powerful gemstone like emerald should first be placed under the sun for a full two weeks (although he adds that two hours is sufficient!). Cleansing through exposure to quartz crystals and pyramids will help the crystal to reach its highest potency. Clear glass or quartz bowls, glass storage bottles and funnels sterilised in copper or stainless steel (but never aluminium) pots should be used. The gem is then put into about 12 ounces of distilled water and left in the sun. This leaves an etheric imprint which is transferred to people during their cure. The mother tincture of the homeopathic remedy and the mother essence of the gem elixir are roughly equivalent. Either can then be potentised using the normal homeopathic method although Gurudas suggests that there should be an interval of one or two days between each level of potentisation or dilution - not a couple of minutes as in our case. The use of emerald in other forms of therapy shows a remarkable consistency not only between the different forms of crystal and gem healing, but also with the proving which follows. The comparison of the symptoms with those of the orthodox and meditation provings later in this project suggests that the action of a remedy can occur as much through non-homeopathic as through homeopathic preparations and that there are more similarities than differences between alternative forms of healing. The prime purpose of crystals is, as one healer has noted, to create „stability, balance and harmony. If a green stone is used it will bring optimum balance within any other structure, and they work at dissolving the energy lines which are blocking the flow. The green within the crystalline structure is specifically attuned to perceiving where lines of energy are not running true to potential and their task is to free the energy and in this way free any negativity or diseased energy which may occur in a 71 particular flow or pathway.‟ The themes of suppression / awareness, indecision / resolution, submission / assertion and balance which come through in the provings, all testify to this overarching theme in which emerald can free energy. This ties in with the essences and concepts noted by Scholten and even with the use put to it by Hildegard - of freeing the energy bound into epileptic attacks. This is, however, running ahead too fast. In order to understand the nature of emerald as a homeopathic remedy, this project has undertaken a detailed orthodox proving. The next chapter looks at the repertory of symptoms from the proving of emerald and starts to bring objective evidence into the picture.

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MIND, ADMONITION agg, MIND, AFFECTIONATE, MIND, ALERTNESS, mentally, MIND, ANGER, irascibility, business, about, contradiction from, Controlled,

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MIND, IMPATIENCE, MIND, IMPETUOUS,

53 54

14:02:XX:XX 36:10:XX:XX 32:09:XX:XX 38:01:XX:XX 34:01:XX:XX 36:00:XX:XX 18:01:XX:XX 24:04:XX:XX 04:13:XX:XX:C.S. 36:00:04:00 34:09:XX:XX 20:15:XX:XX 38:10:XX:XX:C.S. 32:30:XX:XX:C.S. 24:04:XX:XXC.S. 34:01:XX:XX:C.S. 14:01:XX:XX 06:01:XX:XX 38:04:XX:XX 36:07:XX:XX 04:12:XX:XX:C.S. 02:00:XX:XX:C.S. Pl:18:XX:XX 08:09:XX:XX 24:16:XX:XX:C.S. 24:30:XX:XX 38:04:XX:XX 34:07:XX:XX 38:00:XX:XX 16:17:XX:XX 14:07:XX:XX 14:07:XX:XX 18:01:XX:XX 08:13:XX:XX:C.S. 38:03:XX:XX:C.S. 36:01:XX:XX:C.S. 16:17:XX:XX 36:18:XX:XX 14:07:XX:XX 16:17:XX:XX 24: 55:XX:XX 24:55:XX:XX 32:01:XX:XX 34:01:XX:XX 38:03:XX:XX 06:07:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 06:06:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX 06:07:XX:XX 38:04:XX:XX 32:30:XX:XX:C.S. 24:11:XX:XX:C.S. 38:11:XX:XX:C.S. 08:09:XX:XX:C.S. 04:37:XX:XX.C.S. 06:02:XX:XX 38:10:XX:XX 32:04:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 18

MIND, IRRESOLUTION, in acts, in projects, MIND, IRRITABILITY,

57 57 57

menses, before ovulation, at from trifles MIND, LOQUACITY, MIND, MEMORY, weakness of done, for what he has just Happened, do, what was about to do, MIND, MILDNESS,

59 1070 63 64 64 64 64 65

MIND, MISTAKES, localities work, in,

66 67

MIND, PEACE, sense of heavenly, MIND, PRAYING, MIND, PROCRASTINATES, MIND, QUARRELSOME,

1087 69 1088 70

MIND, QUIET, disposition, MIND, REJECTED, feelings, MIND, REPROACHES, others, MIND, RESOLUTION of past problems,

70 1090 71

MIND, SADNESS, mental depression,

75

Moya Ross

Company, amel, Alone, when, Menses, before, ovulation, at, Unexpressed from the past, Weeping amel. MIND, SENSITIVE, others say about Her, MIND, SLOWNESS, MIND, SUSPICIOUS, MIND, TALKING, sleep in, MIND, THOUGHTS, persistent, MIND, THOUGHTS, future of, MIND, TIMIDITY, bashful, MIND, TRANQUILITY,

1028 76 77

06:03:XX:XX:C.S. 32:04:XX:XX 24:17:XX:XX:C.S. 24:05:XX:XX 32:07:XX:XX:C.S. 24:55:XX:XX:C.S.

78 1099 81 85 86 87 87 89 89

04:72:XX:XX 08:07:XX:XX:C.S. 14:06:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX Pl:03:XX:XX 20:06:XX:XX 36:01:XX:XX:C.S. 08:03:XX:XX:C.S. 08:03:XX:XXC.S. 24:00:XX:XXC.S. 24:00:XX:XX 10:03:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 14:02:XX:XX 36:01:XX:XX 04:03:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX Pl:47:XX:XX 34:07:XX:XXC.S. 32:6mth F.U:C.S. 24:11:XX:XX:C.S. 38:05:XX:XX:C.S. 08:16:XX:XX 04:72:XX:XX 08:16:XX:XX:C.S. 24:52:XX:XX 18:00:00:35 14:00:05:00 16:04:XX:XX 18:00:09:00

MIND, UNBURDENED, MIND, WEEPING, anger with, Future about, Joy, menses, before, past events, thinking of, VERTIGO, 1019 93 93 1012 94

VERTIGO, LOOKING, steadily needs to move eyes or defocus to feel >, HEAD, CONSTRICTION, tension lying, amel, motion from, amel, forehead, band, as from, tension, occiput, tension, temples (right) HEAD, ERUPTION, hard, Itching, heat agg,. Pimples, Pimples, margin of hair in Front, Pimples, margin of hair from ear to ear posteriorly, HEAD, HEAVINESS, HEAD, HOLD up head, unable to, HEAD, ITCHING, of scalp, morning, HEAD, PAIN, headache in general, morning, Moya Ross

100

112 112 113 113 114 116 116 117 117 117 124 127 128 133

08:00:00:30 06:00:07:30 08:00:00:30 06:00:07:30 06:00:07:30 04:34:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 20:19:XX:XX 20:19:XX:XX 18:01:17:15

19

on waking cold, becoming, lie down, must,

138 141

light in general, agg, lying, while, in a dark room, amel periodic, Sunday, spot, pain in small, Forehead,

141 142 711 148 153

02:01:XX:XX:C.S. 20:00:02:00 08:00:01:30 20:00:02:00 Pl:24:XX:XX 08:00:01:30 10:01:XX:XX 08:00:01:30 02:06:XX:XXC.S. 10:00:01:00 20:00:02:XX 24:49:XX:XX 18:00:01:45 10:01:00:00 02:01:XX:XX:C.S. 36:05:XX:XX:C.S. 08:00:00:30 20:00:02:00 Pl:00:03:30 02:01:XX:XX:C.S. 36:05:XX:XX 10:00:02:00 20:00:02:00 08:00:00:30 10:00:02:00 18:00:04:25 02:01:XX:XX 36:05:XX:XX 08:00:00:30 10:00:02:00 Pl:00:03:30 18:00:00:20 20:00:01:00 Pl:23:XX:XX

waking, on, eating amel, Intermittent, walking in open air, eyes above, Right,

154 156 156 158 159 159

Left, eyes behind,

159 161

Occiput, Occiput, extending, temples To, hammering, lying amel, Sides, left, on waking, touch agg, Temples, right, 725

161

167 167 168 169

20:19:XX:XX 20:19:XX:XX 20:19:XX:XX 10:01:XX:XX 18:00:0:1:45

Left, Neuralgic, Bursting, menses, during, dull, forehead,

169 742 742 185

06:00:07:30 06:00:10:05 Pl:23:XX:XX 08:04:XX:XX 20:00:02:30 18:00:01:45 24:49:XX:XX 08:00:00:30 Pl:23:XX:XX

PAIN, pressing, forehead,

193

band as from, lying amel, Split open, as if by a wedge PAIN, stitching, Forehead, eyes over, sides of right, PAIN, stitches, Temples, Moya Ross

210 212

10:01:0:00 10:01:00:00 20

Right, Intermittent, HEAD, SENSITIVENESS, of scalp, to touch, HEAD, SORE, temples, touch on, EYE, ASTIGMATISM, EYE, BRILLIANT, EYE, Clearer, reads fine print Easier, EYE, CONJUNCTIVITIS, infection, EYE, DISCHARGES, canthi, pus, EYE, DRYNESS, Right, on waking, evening <, EYE, ECCHYMOSIS, Conjunctiva, EYE, EYE gum, on eyelids, morning, EYE, HAIR, sensation of in the eyes, EYE, HEAVINESS, lids, EYE, ITCHING, right, rubbing amel, EYE, LACHRYMATION, Morning, on waking, cold air, in, During coryza, with sneezing, yawning, when, EYE, MOVEMENT, eyeballs, constant, eyeballs, constant, under, closed lids, EYE, PAIN, headache, during, aching, sunlight agg, aching eye muscles, closing amel, burning, smarting, biting, burning, margins of lids, rest amel, as from sand, open air, amel, EYE, PAIN, sore, bruised, tender chill during, moving eyes, left, Right, as from a foreign body, EYES, PRESSING pain, pressure in, behind eyes EYES, REDNESS,

212 759 770 235 235 1526 372 238 238 238 238 239 375 240 240 241 244 245 246 245 245 383 246 247 247 249 252 249 252 254 250 257

10:01:00:00 20:19:XX:XX 06:00:10:15 M:M.P:30c:C.S. 06:00:00:25 06:00:08:35 32:06:XX:XX 32:06:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 08:06:XX:XX 08:15:XX:XX 08:14:XX:XX 14:00:04:45 32:06:XX:XX 08:09:XX:XX 32:07:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 04:00:04:40 18:00:02:45 18: 00:00:35 04:08:XX:XX 08:02:XXXX 06:22:XX:XX 24:49:XX:XX 06:22:XX:XX 24:49:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX Pl:02:XX:XX 18:00:04:45 18:00:04:45 08:00:00:30 08:04:00:00 18:00:00:45 08:12:XX:XX 10:00:00:45 10:02:XX:XX 08:12:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 14:01:XX:XX 14:11:XX:XX 06:22:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 32:06:XX:XX 08:09:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 18:00:00:20 14:01:XX:XX 32:06:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 14:11:XX:XX

258 258 258 258 389 264

air, open, amel,

264

Moya Ross

21

EYES; SENSATION of swelling, EYES, SORE, pain, touch, EYES, STICKY, EYES, TEARS, suppressed, EYES, TIRED sensation,

267 396 397 399 268

EYES, WEAK, looking intently, while, VISION, ACCOMMODATION, slow, VISION, ACUTE, VISION, CLEARER, reads fine print easier, VISION, COLOURS, awareness of, VISION, DIM, 1526 1526

270 271 271

272 275

Pl:00:02:30 06:03:XX:XX 32:06:XX:XX 08:15:XX:XX CASE.M.53.C.S. 32:01:XX:XX Pl:01:XX:XX 08:12:XX:XX CASE,M.53.C.S. 18:00:00:55 18:00:04:45 CASE,M.53 06:00:08:35 36:01:XX:XX 36:01:XX:XX 06:00:08:35 06:00:00:25 06:06:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX CASE,M,53 36:00:02:30 Post M.P.06:XX;XX 14:01:XX:XX

EAR, CONTRACTION, meatus in, EAR, DISCOLOURATION, redness, about the ear EAR, ERUPTION, about the ears, in front of the ears, Boils, EAR, ITCHING in, right, external ear, EAR, NOISES, creaking, jaws on moving, yawning when, EAR, NOISES, ringing, rushing, right EAR, PAIN, Night, pressing, spasmodic, inside ear, soreness, inside ear, soreness, external ear, in front Stitching, left EAR, STOPPED, sensation, left air open, amel, EAR, SWELLING, below, glands, HEARING, ACUTE noises, to, HEARING, IMPAIRED left, NOSE, BLOW, compelled to, morning, the, constant inclination to, NOSE, CATARRH, post nasal

286 287

288 289 289 291 292 296 296 296 298 301 304 312 312 312 313 318 318 318 321 322

14:01:XX:XX 14:01:XX:XX 14:01:XX:XX 24:01:XX:XX 24:01:XX:XX 36:02;XX:XX 36:02:XX:XX 36:02:XX:XX 08:00:00:20 06:00:00:30 08:03:XX:XX 36:02:XX:XX 04:01:12:10 14:01:XX:XX 08:05:XX:XX 08:00:01:45 04:00:03:10 08:00:06:00 Case F. 65 Pl:00:01:15 06:00:00:30

324 324 325

NOSE, CORYZA,

325

02:06:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX Pl:16:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 38:07:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX

Moya Ross

22

Suppressed,

328

16:17:XX:XX Pl:16:XX:XX 08:07:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 1416:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 02:22:XX:XX 02:17:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 16:24:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 38:08:XX:XX 08:07:XX:XX 08:07:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 20:17:XX:XX:C.S. 06:34:XX:XX 38:07:XX:XX 24:54:XX:XX 02:27:XX:XX 10:07:XX:XX 04:48:XX:XX 10:01:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 06:21:XX:XX 38:08:XX:XX 10:06:XX:XX Pl:14:XX:XX 04:36:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX:

NOSE, DISCHARGE, Morning,

329

Night, blood

329 329

Clear, copious, morning, on waking, crusts, left, Greenish, Watery, watery, left, White, Yellow,

330 330 330 331 333 333 333 333

NOSE, DISCOLOURATION, redness, Left, NOSE, DRYNESS, NOSE, DRYNESS, inside, blowing nose, compelled to do but no discharge, dry sensation when. NOSE, EPISTAXIS, blood, blowing the nose, from, NOSE, ITCHING, tip, NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, morning, on waking,

334 334

335

337 339 340

02:03:00:00 06:04:XX:XX 24:55:XX:XX: Pl:21:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 02:20:XX:XX 14:03:XX:XX 08:00:11:30 08:00:11:30 06:04:XX:XX 20:17:XX:XX:C.S. 08:03:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 06:04:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 10:06;XX:XX 10:06:XX:XX 20:01:XX:XX:C.S. 10:01:XX:XX

340

Left,

340

left then right, alternates with discharge, root, at, left, blowing, after, NOSE, PAIN, burning, smarting, blowing, on sore, left (touch agg.) nostril, left, interior angle of, NOSE, SINUSITIS infection,

340 340 1201 1201 344 347 1203 1206

Moya Ross

23

post-nasal catarrh,

1206

08:01:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX Pl:18:XX:XX 349 349 350 06:00:XX:XX PostM.P.05:XX:XX 08:09:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 02:30:XX:XX 04:36:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 16:17:XX:XX 02:15:XX:XX 36:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 16:14:XX:XX 04:36:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 06:22:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 16:15XX:XX 04:02:14:20 02:28:XX:XX 06:00:01:XX 08:01:XX:XX 36:05:XX:XX 02:27:XX:XX 18:01:XX:XX Pl:00:02:30 04:10:XX:XX 20:32:XX:XX 20:05:XX;XX 20:00:13:10 04:01:XX:XX` 08:00:13:50 08:32:XX:XX Pl:04:XX:XX Post M.P. 16:02:XX:XX 08:32:XX:XX 08:32:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 08:30:XX:XX Pl:14:XX:XX

NOSE, SMELL, acute, sensitive to strong odours, tobacco NOSE, SNEEZING,

Morning,

350

Evening,

350

Constant, coryza, without,

350 350

sleep, wakes him from, Violent, NOSE, SNUFFLES, NOSE, TINGLING, Inside,

351 351 351

353

inside left, FACE, BLOATED, under the eyes, ERUPTIONS, herpes, lips about, ERUPTIONS, vesicles, Itching, chin on, FACE, HEAT, headache with, FACE, SWELLING, jaw, lower, glands in general, hard, FACE, TWITCHING, lips, upper, MOUTH, ADHERES, tongue, to roof Of mouth, MOUTH, BITING, lips, lower, MOUTH, BLEEDING gums, cleaning them ,when, MOUTH, CORRUGATED, tongue, Gums, MOUTH, DRYNESS,

353 355 369 372 377 373 395 397 397 398 399 403

Moya Ross

24

with thirst, Palate, MOUTH, INFLAMMATION, gums, MOUTH, PAIN, burning, raw and Smarting, lips, inside of, excoriated, as if, Sore, Sore, gums, sore, gums, eating, while, Stinging, MOUTH, SALIVATION, general, nausea, with. MOUTH, SENSITIVE, food and drink unbearable, MOUTH, SWELLING, gums, MOUTH, TASTE, Bloody, from sneezing Metallic,

403 404 406

18:04:XX:XX 08:32:XX:XX 08:01:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 16:01:XX:XX

411 412 413 413 413 1138 1135 418 420 423 424

08:34:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 16:06:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 10:01:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 02:01:00:00 18:03:XX:XX 10:00:00:30 10:00:00:30 08:04:XX:XX 02:15:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 18:00:00:40 10:03:XX:XX 18:05:XX:XX 04:25:XX:XX 04:25:XX:XX 08:34:XX:XX 04:00:00:20 Case:F.65.C.S. 16:09:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX

metallic, food tastes, Offensive, Sweetish wanting, salt, MOUTH, ULCERS, MOUTH, VESICLES, blood vesicles, Gums, TONGUE, CORRUGATED, sides of, TONGUE, PRICKLING, edge TEETH, ABSCESS, roots of, TEETH, PAIN, teeth, toothache, incisors TEETH, WISDOM, ailments from eruption of, THROAT, DRYNESS, Morning, THROAT, LUMP, plug etc, sensation of , Painful, swallowing on, THROAT, PAIN, drinking, amel, swallowing, on, Sore,

424 425 426 427 428 429 429 1478 1481 430 433 433

451 454 455 455

459 459 463

sore, morning, waking on,

463

Pl:18:XX:XX 04:01:12:10 04:01:12:10 36:16:XX:XX 36:16:XX:XX 36:16:XX:XX 04:01:12:10 14:01:XX:XX 06:06:XX:XX 02:11:XX:XX 32:19:XX:XX 38:07:XX:XX 04:00:14:20 02:11:XX:XX 06:05:XX:XX 14:01:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 06:05:XX:XX 02:11:XX:XX

Moya Ross

25

sore, evening, sore, left, sore, sneezing, sore, extending to chest, EXTERNAL THROAT, INDURATION of glands,

463 463 463 464 472

14:01:XX:XX 02:10:XX:XX 06:16:XX:XX 38:07:XX:XX 16:00:XX:XX 36:18:XX:XX 36:16:XX:XX Pl:18:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 24:01:XX:XX 32:02:XX:XX 16:01:XX:XX 20:29:XX:XX 16:12:XX:XX 34:08:XX:XX 18:06:XX:XX 18:07:XX:XX 36:00:XX:XX 18:00:14:00 38:00:XX:XX 24:01:XX:XX Pl:17:XX:XX 38:01:XX:XX 02:01:XX:XX 06:02:XX:XX 36:06:XX:XX 18:00:03:00 18:01:XX:XX 38:07:XX:XX 16:12:XX:XX 18:00:04:45 14:00:03:15 20:16:XX:XX 02:05:XX:XX 38:10:XX:XX 20:16:XX:XX 02:05:XX:XX 38:10:XX:XX 32:00:07.30 16:04:XX:XX 34:00:02:15 38:11:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 18:00:01:40 10:01:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX 18:00:01:40 10:01:XX:XX 32:00:07:30 16:04:XX:XX 38:00:00:00 36:00:XX:XX Pl:17:XX:XX 26

STOMACH, APPETITE, diminished,

476

STOMACH, burning pain, oesophagus, morning, STOMACH, DESIRES, chocolate,

1384 484

Chocolate agg, cold drinks,

536 484

Fish, fish, agg, Oranges, Oranges agg, Sweet, STOMACH, INDIGESTION ,

540 485 544 546 503

Morning, Evening, STOMACH, NAUSEA,

503 503 504

STOMACH, NAUSEA, diarrhoea with pain, during, in abdomen , mortification after, perspiration during, salivation, with, after stool, STOMACH, THIRST, STOMACH, THIRST, large quantities for,

1399 1398 508 509 509 527 529

Moya Ross

STOMACH, THIRSTLESS, STOMACH, VOMITING, chemotherapy from STOMACH, VOMITING, drinking after, alcohol STOMACH, VOMITING, headache, During, STOMACH, VOMITING, incessant

530 1419 532 533 533

18:00:12.45 08:00:012.45 CASE:F.47:C.S. 16:05:XX:XX CASE: F.50.C.S. CASE: F.50:C.S. CASE: F:47.C.S. CASE:F:25.C.S. CASE:F: 47:C.S. CASE:F.25.C.S.

STOMACH, VOMITING, post operative, STOMACH, VOMITING, pregnancy during, persistent, ABDOMEN, BUBBLING, ABDOMEN, DISTENSION, evening, Menses during, ABDOMEN, HEAVINESS, as from a Load, Menses, during, ABDOMEN, INGUINAL, glands swelling, ABDOMEN, PAIN, constipation from, ABDOMEN, PAIN, extending to testicles, Morning, ABDOMEN, PAIN, Hypogastrium, ABDOMEN, PAIN, Inguinal, region, Right, ovulation, as from,

1249

541 544 545 551 552 23 557 562 562 565 567

32:01:07:30 36:04:XX:XX 02:09:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 02:31:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX POST MED. C.S. 14:26:XX:XX 32:01:02:30 32:01:02:30 20:05:XX:XX 16:01:09:00 08:01:XX:XX 16:00:10:30 06:03:XX:XX POST M.P. 14:20:00:00 02:02:XX:XX 32:00:04:30 06:03:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX

sprain, as from, ABDOMEN, PAIN, umbilicus, region of, diarrhoea before, ABDOMEN, PAIN, burning, wandering, ABDOMEN, PAIN, cramping, griping, Mortification from, Cramping, griping, HYPOGASTRIUM region of, During ABDOMEN, PAIN, Cramping, griping, Umbilicus region, of stool before, cutting, Umbilicus region of, ABDOMEN, PAIN, Sore, bruised, tenderness, Inguinal region, right ABDOMEN:,RUMBLING, at night, RECTUM, BLEEDING, from anus, And rectum, stool after, RECTUM, BLEEDING, from anus And rectum, stool after, Difficult from, RECTUM, CONSTIPATION, 1267 1267

567 571 571 572 575 576

582

08:14:XX:XX

582 589 600 601

10:04:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX 10:03:XX:XX 38:03:XX:XX 04:23:XX:XX 06:14:XX:XX

606

36:17:XX:XX 32:01:12:00 06:14:XX:XX

Moya Ross

27

Alternating with diarrhoea, difficult stool, ineffectual urging and straining, insufficient stool, menses during, RECTUM, diarrhoea,

607 607 607 608 609

38:00:07:00 34:04:XX:XX 08:13:XX:XX 32:01:12:00 06:14:XX:XX 08:13:XX:XX 38:00:07:00 32:01:12:00 08:02:XX:XX 32:00:10:30 16:03:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX Pl:21:XX:XX 10:03:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 32:00:07:30 06:00:03:35 06:02:XX:XX 06:00:03:35 32:00:07:30 10:04:XX:XX 04:23:XX:XX 06:14:XX:XX Pl:21:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX Pl:20:XX:XX 06:14:XX:XX 08:13:XX:XX 06:14:XX:XX 16:03:XX:XX 16:03:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 38:06:XX:XX 16:04:XX:XX 18:01:XX:XX 08:07:XX:XX

Emotional, RECTUM, ERTUPTION, about anus Itchy, RECTUM, FLATUS,

1275 616 617

Morning, evening, diarrhoea, during, Loud, RECTUM, HAEMORRHOIDS, RECTUM, ITCHING, RECTUM, URGING, sudden, STOOL, HARD, LARGE, STOOL , ODOR, offensive, STOOL, ORANGE, STOOL, SOFT, STOOL, TENACIOUS, BLADDER, URGING, night BLADDER, URGING, absent, BLADDER, URINATION, Incomplete, bladder full, urging to urinate, but scanty urine KIDNEY, PAIN, Chemotherapy during (NR), URINE, COPIOUS, GENITALIA, MALE, PAIN, aching, Testes, GENITALIA, MALE, SEXUAL PASSION, diminished, Increased GENITALIA, FEMALE, ITCHING, VULVA, night, in bed, GENITALIA, FEMALES, MENSES, before agg, Clotted,

617 617 617 618 619 622 634 638 638 640 1432 641 642 652 653 658

663 685 703 711 711 720 484

CASE:F:47.C.s.. 10:02:XX:XX 32:01:02:30 14:14:XX:XX 14:00:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 24:16:XX:XX:C.S. Pl:22:XX:XX:C.S. 34:-04:XX:XX 24:17:XX:XX 34:60:XX:XX 28

725

Moya Ross

Copious, frequent, too early, too soon, 2 days too early, 4 days too early, Late, mental symptoms menses, before, painful, dysmenorrhoea, return after having ceased, the periods, SUPPRESSED, GENITALIA, FEMALE, PAIN, ovaries , eating amel, ovaries, extending to abdomen, Ovulation, SHARP, pain, Ovaries, right, SORE, pain, vulva, menses, Before, PREGNANCY, Childbirth, difficult, PREGNANCY, Nausea, during, Constant, LARYNX & TRACHEA, PAIN, throat pit, LARYNX & TRACHEA, TICKLING, in the air passages, Morning, on waking, LARYNX & TRACHEA, VOICE, Hoarseness, Husky, Weak, RESPIRATION, DIFFICULT, night, during, bed in, cold, after taking, exertion, after, Inspiration, head low, with the, upright, amel, RESPIRATION, WHEEZING, pollution from, COUGH, DRY, waking from sleep, COUGH, DRY, tickling in larynx, From waking from sleep CHEST, CONSCIOUS, heart‟s action CHEST, CONSTRICTION, tension, tightness; chill during, morning on waking, exertion from Inspiration, during, on waking, 797 486 486

725 726

727 488 727 728 728 732 732 495 741 503 1234 1244

34:60:XX:XX 08:00:00:30 34:-04:XX:XX 08:00:00:30 34:3 month FU 08:00:00:30 34:-04:XX:XX 02:11:XX:XX 24:17:XX:XX 24:17:XX:XXC.S.

24:17:XX:XX:C.S. 04:10:XX:XX Pl:22:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX 06:13:XX:XX CASE:F: CASE:F:25:C.S.

752 757

36:16:XX:XX 36:16:XX:XX 36:05:XX:XX

760

760 761

36:21:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX Pl:18:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX: 36:17:XX:XX

767 768 769 769 770 771 776

06:20:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 14:06:XX:XX 38:00:04:00 36:21:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX

788 789

Pl:23:XX:XX Pl:23:XX:XX

18:00:15:55 Pl:21:XX:XX 36:17:XX:XX 14:06:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX

826 826

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CHEST, ERUPTIONS, AXILLA, lumps, Itching, CHEST, PAIN, cutting (sudden, sharp, pain) Mammae under, left, extending to the scapula, CHEST, ANXIETY, pain in the heart with, CHEST, PAIN, heart, region of, CHEST, PAIN, SHARP, sternum, extending to back, inspiration during, walking on, CHEST, PAIN, SORE, chill, during CHEST, PULSATION, HEART, morning in bed, jumping out of chest, CHEST, SWELLING, axillary glands, CHEST, TUMORS, MAMMAE, painless in right, mobile, regular, circular, BACK, ERUPTIONS, buttocks, Elevations, cold water amel BACK, ERUPTIONS, Cervical region, margins of hair hard itching when warm pimples red BACK, INJURIES, to spine, old injuries, BACK, PAIN, broken, as if BACK, PAIN, aching, cervical region, extending to shoulders lumbar region scapula , right extending to upper arm on forward motion BACK, PAIN, aching, sacral region, extending to lower extremities BACK, STIFFNESS, Cervical region, Neck, stiffness, motion amel night waking on Sacral region BACK, TENSION, Dorsal region, like string pulling scapula together Dorsal region; scapulae Between, pressure amel motion amel BACK, WOOD, stretched across, as if, NECK, SWELLING, glands, sides, right EXTREMITIES, CRACKED skin, Fingers Thumb

830 855

04:51:XX:XX 36:08:XX:XX

796 850 227

36:08:XX:XX 14:00:05:00 36:00:23:30

861 806 806 880 882 187

36:18:XX:XX 18:00:15:55 18:00:15:55 18:06:00:00 POST; MED. C.S. 34:109:XX:XX 36:?30:XX:XX 34:109:XX:XX

1214 887

04:40:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX 04:34:XX:XX Case M.15 06:12:XX:XX 20:20:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX 04:02:XX:XX 04:02:XX:XX 36:06:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 14:04:CC:XX 08:10:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 08:10:XX:XX 06:09:XX:XX 04:02:XX:XX 04:03:XX:XX 04:03:XX:XX 04:03:XX:XX CASE:F:65.C.S.

888 888 888 105 95 915 917 94

918 947 1158 947 947 947 948 948 948 131 1159

970 970

02:16:XX:XX 02:29:XX:XX

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winter in EXTREMITIES, DISCOLORATION, Ankle, redness, streaks in EXTREMITIES, DRYNESS, Hands EXTREMITIES, ERUPTION, Eczema, Itching, patches Red, upper limbs: upper arm, vesicles, itching, left, Hand, desquamation, left lower, limbs, lumpy, right red, scales, Nates, elevations, Cold water amel legs, lower, red patches, left thigh, pimples, red. EXTREMITIES, HEAT, Foot, evening EXTREMITIES, HEAVINESS, tired limbs, right, hanging down EXTREMITIES, ITCHING, Lower Limbs, scratching agg, Knee, Leg, night, bed in, Over tibia. EXTREMITIES, NODULES, Hands, first finger, right Rubbing amel EXTREMITIES, PAIN, wandering, Shifting. PAIN, hands, joints, second, PAIN, joints, Dislocation, as if, PAIN, joints, touch agg, PAIN, fingers, First, First, joints of, middle, Second, PAIN, thumb, left, Motion on, EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Aching, Upper Limbs, Shoulders, right, Extending to arm, moving, arm on, Extending to arm, raising arm, Shoulders, Axilla right Elbow, bend of,, Upper Arm, right, < flexing, Upper Arm, gentle motion amel, <strenuous motion, EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Sharp,

970 983 984 986 986 986 987 990 993 997 998 998 999 881 1000 1012 1014 1015 1024 1025 1026 1027 1027 656 1046 659 1047 1048 1061 1061 1061 1062 1062

02:16:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 02:15:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX Pl:14:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 20:06:XX:XX 04:05:XX:XX 04:44:XX:XX 04:44:XX:XX 04:44:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 04:00:03:05 04:00:03:05 04:16:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 08:00:11:00 04:16:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 18:01:XX:XX 04:00:03:05 06:17:XX:XX 06:17:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 06:17:XX:XX 06:17:XX:XX 02:17:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX

1083 1084 1084 1294 1084 1084 1084

04:00:04:20 04:02:XX:XX 04:02:XX:XX 04:00:03:05 04:01:00:00 04:00:01:10 04:00:02:05

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Legs, lower, front of, exertion after, flexing on agg. Right EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Sore, bruised, Upper limbs upper arm, right, Motion on Upper limbs upper arm, right, Raising arm on, Upper limbs, upper arm, right, Pressure amel, Elbows, Bending it, Left, Motion, Right, EXTREMITIES, PAIN, stitching, Upper limbs, Shoulder, right Motion during, Upper limbs, upper arm, right, Upper limbs, fingers, second EXTREMITIES, STIFFNESS, legs, EXTREMITIES, TINGLING, Upper limbs, upper arm, right, EXTREMITIES, TWITCHING, Upper arm, right, EXTREMITIES, WEAKNESS, Elbows of, Fingers, first, Thumb, Legs, motion during, Hips, Knees, motion on, SLEEP, DISTURBED, dreams by, Heat by, Noise, by slightest,

899 899 899 900 1128 1128 1128 1128 1128 1128 1129 1129 1139 1139 1140 1144 903 88 1208 12l6 1227 1228 1228 1229 1229 1230 1235 1235 1235 1344

14:13:XX:XX 14:13:XX:XX 14:13:XX:XX 14:13:XX:XX 04:00:02:35 04:00:02:35 04:00:02:35 14:12:XX:XX 14:12:XX:XX 14:12:XX:XX 14:12:XX:XX 14:12:XX:XX 32:10:XX:XX 32:10:XX:XX 04:00:03:30 02:17:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 04:00:03:30 04:00:01:10 04:01:00:00 06:17:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 04:47:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 24:12:XX:XX 18:00:07:45 04:00:XX:XX 32:02:XX:XX 38:03:XX:XX 08:14:XX:XX 06:25:XX:XX 04:42:XX:XX 16:09:XX:XX 24:12:XX:XX MM 24:10:XX:XX 06:02:XX:XX 32:10:XX:XX 02:29:XX:XX 02:07:XX:XX 24:08:XX:XX MM 02:29:XX:XX 06:32:XX:XX MM

SLEEP, DREAMS, Accidents, Amorous, Another person lying in bed With him, Arrested, of being, Buried alive, being, Business, of,

1235 1235 1236 1236 1236 1236

Children, about,

1237

Confused, Crimes that he was accused Wrongly, Crimes, that he had committed,

1237 1237 1237

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Dead, of the relatives, Dissecting dead bodies, Events of the previous day Exhausting, Floating, Flowers, Friends, of old,

1237 303 1239 1239 1240 1240 1240

04:31:XX:XX MM 06:16:XX:XX 38:03:XX:XX 38:09:XX:XX 24:03:XX:XX 06:06:XX:XX 04:07:XX:XX 02:23:XX:XX 06:16:XX:XX 18:11:XX:XX 24:04:XX:XX 38:05:XX:XX 04:06:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 04:69:XX:XX 24:30:XX:XX MM 04:19:XX:XX 02:23:XX:XX 36:08:XX:XX MM 24:30:XX:XX 20:21:XX:XX 04:05:XX:XX 24:02:XX:XX 38:04:XX:XX MM MM 24:03:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX 24:04:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 04:12:XX:XX 38:10:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 24:02:XX:XX 04:42:XX:XX 16:09:XX:XX 34:08:XX:XX 24:02:XX:XX MM 24:10:XX:XX 06:01:XX:XX 06:09:XX:XX 18:05:XX:XX 24:02:XX:XX 02:08:XX:XX 04:04:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 24:02:XX:XX 18:04:XX:XX 10:01:XX:XX 24:03:XX:XX 20:18:XX:XX 24:01:XX:XX 24:10 XX:XX

Friends, seeing, Frightful,

305 1240

Guilt, Horses, Humiliation, Injuries, Journey,

1240 1240 1240 1241 1241

Journey, by railroad, Knives, Murder, Past lives People, of,

1241 1241 1241 1242

Pleasant, Quarrels, Relationships, Romantic, Sex, of Sexuality,

1242 1242

1243 310

Snow, Stung by an insect, Unsuccessful, efforts to reach A certain place, Unsuccessful, efforts to talk, Walking, of , Water, boat foundering, Sea, of , Swimming, in, Yellow,

1243 1243 312 312 1244 1244 1244 1244 1244

SLEEP, INSOMNIA, sleeplessness, Moya Ross

1347 33

3a.m. 4a.m. until breathing with difficulty, coryza, from, SLEEP, RESTLESSNESS, twitching, Of limbs, SLEEP, RESTLESSNES, twitching of Limbs, SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, morning, Afternoon,

1348 1350 1247 1248 1249 1249

16:03:XX:XX Pl:00:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 06:20:XX:XX 20:06:XX:XX 02:21:XX:XX 02:21:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 04:18:XX:XX 32:09:XX:XX 02:29:XX:XX 34:10:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 02:29:XX:XX 36:19:XX:XX 02:21:XX:XX 08:04:XX:XX 32:01:XX:XX 08:04:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 08:03:XX:XX Pl:09:XX:XX 16:03:XX:XX 04:03:XX:XX 24:13:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 18:00:09:10 08:00:02:00 06:00:00:30 Pl:00:XX:XX 36:15:XX:XX 14:06:XX:XX 14:06:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 02:16:XX:XX CASE.M.53.C.S. 02:15:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 08:00:02:00 20:05:XX:XX Pl:21:XX:XX Pl:01:XX:XXC.S. 04:05:XX:XX Pl:00:14:XX 04:31:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 04:31:XX:XX 20:05:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 14:16:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 34

Evening, intoxication, as from, riding, while, street car, Work, during SLEEP, SLEEPLESSNESS, Thoughts, activity of mind, SLEEP, UNREFRESHING,

1249 1251

1251 1254 1254

SLEEP, WAKING, early,

1255

SLEEP, WAKING, dreams from, SLEEP, WAKING, itching from, SLEEP, WAKING, late, SLEEP, WAKING, perspiration, from, SLEEP, YAWNING,

1255

1256 1256 1256

CHILL, SHAKING, shivering, rigors, PERSPIRATION, EXERTION, during, Slight, profuse, dyspnoea, with, SKIN, CHAPPING, SKIN, CRACKS, painful, winter in, SKIN, DRY,

1270 1297 1300 1305 1307

SKIN, ERUPTIONS, carbuncles, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, desquamating, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, eczema, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, elevated, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, inflamed, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, itching, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, patches, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, pimples, close together, pimples, hard, pimples, itching, pimples, painful, scratching after, Moya Ross

1310 1312 1312 1314 1315 1315 1315 1315 1316 1318

Red, SKIN,ERUPTIONS, psoriasis, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, scratching, after, SKIN, ERUPTIONS, vesicular, itching SKIN, INFLAMMATION, SKIN, ITCHING, bed in, Changing place, on, scratching agg, sleep, during, SKIN, TENSION,

1319 1316 1322 1326 1327 1327 1328 1329 1331 1331

04:16:XX:XX 04:75:XX:XXC.S. 04:16:XX:XX 20:05:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 04:40:XX:XX CASE:F.53. 04:16:XX:XX 04:16:XX:XX 08:00:02:00 18:02:XX:XX 02:01:XX:XX 06:02:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 14:01:XX:XX 16:01:XX:XX . 20:02:XX:XX 36:04:XX:XX 04:18:XX:XX:C.S. 32:07:XX:XX 02:03:XX:XX 04:13:XX:XX 06:02:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 06:15:XX:XX 18:00:XX:XX 32:08:XX:XX 38:11:XX:XX Pl:02::XX:XX 16:05:XX:XX CASE:F:47:C.S. Pl:01:XX:XX

GENERALITIES, MORNING, on waking,

1341

GENERALITIES, AFTERNOON, GENERALITIES, EVENING,

1342 1342

GENERALITIES, NIGHT,

1343

GENERALITIES, ALCOHOL, Stimulants GENERALITIES, Cancer, chemotherapy, side effects of, GENERALITIES, BLOOD, CIRCULATION, diminished flow To parts remote from the heart, GENERALITIES, BLOOD, CIRCULATION, excited trauma after, GENERALITIES, FAINTNESS, pain, Abdomen in, GENERALITIES, HAIR, growing faster, GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation of,

1344 557 160

161 1366 572 1366

18:04:XX:XX 06:03:XX:XX Pl:14:XX:XX 04:01:XX:XX 06:01:XX:XX 18:00:09:00 18:00:15:30 34:00:01:05 18:06:XX:XX 1367 06:32:XX:XX 34:12:XX:XX 08:00:01:30 36:04:XX:XX 18:02:XX:XX Case M.17 C.S. Case M.16:A.S. Pl:01:XX:XX CASE:M:39.C.S. 35

GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation of Night, GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation of On exertion, GENERALITIES, vital lack of heat,

1366 587

GENERALITIES, INJURIES,

1368

GENERALITIES, NERVES, NUMBNESS, sensation, part lain on, GENERALITIES, Old age, premature, Moya Ross

1176

GENERALITIES, PAIN in bones, GENERALITIES, PAIN in joints, GENERALITITES, PAIN, muscles, Aching,

1377 830 1142

GENERALITIES, STIFFNESS of body, Exertion after, Morning in bed, on rising, Joints, GENERALITIES, toxicity, Chemotherapy, side effects of, GENERALITIES, WEAKNESS, Enervation, Afternoon,

610 610

1493 1413 1415

CASE:F:80.C.S. 14:04:XX:XX 20:02:XX:XX 20:02:XX:XX 36:19:XX:XX 04:08:XX:XX Pl:19:XX:XX Pl:19:XX:XX 32:14:XX:XX 04:08:XX:XX:C.S. 02:02:XX:XX 06:06:XX:XX 14:04:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX CASE:F:47:C.S. 14:06:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 06:11:XX:XX 20:03:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 32:01:02:30 04:13:XX:XXC.S. 10:02:XX:XX 14:06:XX:XX 18:07:XX:XX 32:13:XX:XX 36:00:XX:XX: 38:06:XX:XX 04:18:XX:XX:C.S. 06:11:XX:XX 20:03:XX:XX 36:03:XX:XX 08:02:XX:XX 24:4mth REVIEW:C.S.

GENERALITIES, WEAKNESS, general, Stomach, pain in, GENERALITIES, WEARINESS,

1421

GENERALITIES, WEARINESS, Afternoon,

1421

Menses, during,

1421

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CHAPTER 5
Symptoms of Emerald KEY: Supervisor: F = Female H = Hilary M = Moya M = Male R = Roz S = Sarah Su = Sue

Symptom A.S. = Altered Symptom C.S. = Curative Symptom Class R.S. = Recent Symptom O.S. = Old Symptom Provers numbers: 02 = 6c; 14 = 30c; 16 = 6c; 32 = 12c; 34 = 30c; SPIRITUAL HEART CHAKRA: AWARENESS: 04 = 30c; 18 = 30c; 36 = 30c;

N.S. = New Sx. U.S. Unusual Sx.

06 = 12c; 08 = 6c; 10 = 12c, 20 = 6c; 22 = Placebo; 24 = 30c; 38 = 12c (H.R.T. trial).

Awareness of tenderness in back (thoracic 3 - 4). Feel it is because it is the heart chakra on the spine. Have had it before - not unpleasant - feels soft, like a physical awareness. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:O.S. I was resting and I felt my breathing rhythm very free, the breath felt like menthol and was moving in the area of the diaphragm from front to back and vice versa. Su:F:24:11:XX:XX:N.S. I have a feeling of fullness in my chest - it is a warm feeling across the sternum, not an unpleasant sensation, my breathing is fine - I suppose it is just a warm sensation. When I went to bed I felt really light both mentally and physically. I felt really relaxed, light, not so heavy on the mattress, not floating or anything like that just good and relaxed, lighter. Still getting the occasional feeling of fullness, more of a warmth across the chest. It is a pleasant feeling and seems to be linked to the emotional plane. I had a general sense of well being. R:M10:02:XX:XX:N.S. SPIRITUAL CONNECTION: Feel more connected spiritually - feel opened above. Feel a connection with Hildegard “like a soft wind touched me”. S:F:24:55:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, ABSENTMINDED: I filled the coffee pot instead of the tin with the new packet of coffee. H:F:06:12c:00:01:15: Went to Ashford Station. I was sitting on the train when I remembered I had totally forgotten to pay to park the car. Aaargh! M:F:34:30c:11:XX:XX:U.S. Went shopping at Waitrose, got to the check-out till and realised I had forgotten to bring my Access card to pay for the bill! Had to telephone my husband to come and bring it. M:F:36:30c:08:XX:XX:O.S. Today I felt ungrounded and floating. I mixed up two appointments. Su:24:30c:16:XX:XX.A.S. MIND, ADMONITION agg:

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My husband criticised my weight and said that I will have to do something about it. I feel I can show him I can do it, not for him but for myself. (Normally I would either get upset, eat more or I don‟t take any notice). R:F:08:6c:07:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, AFFECTIONATE: Bit more affectionate to wife than usual. M:M:32:12c:01:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, ALERTNESS: mentally: Alertness in the mornings still stayed. Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, ANGER: irascibility about business: Feel some what tense and angry during the day when a client had „trodden‟ on a candidate unnecessarily, creating poor interview technique. M:F:36:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. from interruption I feel more stressed. I had a heated discussion with my assistant about not doing his job. The mood continued throughout the day. I shouted at the telephone this afternoon, it rang continually and would not stop, constantly interrupted. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, ANGER, from contradiction: “Talking to a friend about the situation between me and my son and daughter in law. He kept on about how he saw it (he was not right), got very cross as he would not shut up and was just winding me up”. M: F:38:12C:04:XX:XX: U.S. MIND, ANGER, controlled: Complained to the workman laying cables for cable T.V. outside the shop, which was making the stock dirty and stopping customers coming in. Really cross. Politely told them. Unusual for me to complain but I am confronting problems - don‟t usually, keep it inside. M:F:38:12C:03:XX:XX:U.S. Lost my temper with my guest today but in a very controlled way. Normally I would avoid confrontation at all costs and would not stand up for myself. R: F:08:12C:13:XX:XX. C.S. Unsatisfactory working day - things going wrong, being a bit bold for me, sharp, irritated, but not as cross as I could be. M:F:36:30c:07:XX:XX U.S. Felt irritable and snappy. Had to exert self control as I feel as if I am on a short fuse. Su.F:Pl:18:XX:XX:U.S. When doing cranial sacral work on my husband I became angry and impatient. Felt that he was cut off and I could not reach him. Anger felt diagnostic and not destructive - a stepping stone to move on. I changed the procedure of the way I worked on him and it went well. I felt empowered afterwards normally I would feel rejected if he was not open to my treatment, I would feel deskilled. Su:F:24:30c:05:XX:XX:C.S. ANGER, odours aggravate.

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I find the cigarette smoke from our visitor hard to cope with. It seems extra strong this time and it irritates me that she is smoking, admittedly in her bedroom only, but the whole house stinks and my children are sleeping in a bedroom that smells very strongly of smoke. R:F:08:12c:09:XX:XX: A.S. ANGER, past events about: Dwelt on something that had happened 6 years ago. Son had an accident on his bike - his glasses had smashed in his face. He was very badly treated in hospital and has a scar because of this. Feel very disgruntled and angry at the way he was treated. H:F:06:12c:07:XX:XX:U.S. ANXIETY, anticipating an engagement. Did a big talk today. Bit nervous while waiting for it to start. speaking or has the remedy helped? H:F:06:12c:11:XX:XX:U.S. ANXIETY, Business: I managed to handle a situation regarding our property in Spain by myself. Normally I would have become very anxious and let my husband deal with it or track him down in whatever part of the world he was in and ask his advice. This time I calmly handled the situation and sorted it out myself without worrying at all whether I had made the right decisions. I felt quite focused. R:F:08:12c:03:XX:XX:U.S. My job is stressful if things go wrong - things have gone wrong, I lost £2000 today. The situation was out of my control and I could not do anything about it. I indicated my irritation and put it to one side. Very unusual. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. ANXIETY, chest, sharp, stitching in. Transient sharp pain under left breast which went through to the back. I had to stop and take a deep breath. Felt pretty unwell and anxious. I was running late. I felt unwell for half an hour. Felt like taking some more Capricorn (code name of Emerald), but didn‟t. M:F:36:30c:08:XX:XX.N.S. ANXIETY, children, about his. My son relayed a „sporting pressure‟ to me. I am aware of how protective I am and could have stewed on this all day. However, as soon as he left, I forgot about it. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. I find the cigarette smoke from our visitors hard to cope with. It seems extra strong this time and it irritates me that she is smoking, admittedly in her bedroom only but the whole house stinks and my children are sleeping in a bedroom that smells very strongly of smoke. R:F:08:12c:09:XX:XX.A.S. ANXIETY, conscience of: I feel guilty, I have brought two presents for one grandchild and only one for the other. M:F:38:12c:09:XX:XX:U.S. ANXIETY, future, about: A little quiver of fear about March 31st (being made redundant). Just listened to it and felt it. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX:A.S Was it just me getting used to public

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I have been worried about our move to Hong Kong, worried about the children, packing and our life out there. I feel much more positive and laid back. I seem to have put things into perspective. I feel calm and relaxed about it now. More logical and practical. R:F:08:12c:16:XX:XX.C.S. ANXIETY, speaking when, public in. Gave a big talk today. Bit nervous while waiting for it to start. Was it just me getting used to public speaking, or has the remedy helped. H:F:06:12c:10:XX:XX:A.S. ANXIETY, weeping, followed by: I have definitely been more positive and more thoughtful about going to Hong Kong. I feel I have to be more practical. I am thinking more logical. I haven‟t felt weepy, which does happen from time to time. Normally, I get weepy before my period. R:F:08:6c:16:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, AWARENESS, heightened: Day 00: Felt more in touch with myself. Did not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred, less self critical. Want an early night, it is as if I‟m waiting to sleep. Awareness of tenderness in back (thoracic 3 & 4). Feel it is because it is the heart chakra on spine. Have had it before, not unpleasant, feels soft like a physical awareness. Aware of full moon today. O.S. Day 06: Awareness of background and space in front I am moving into, it‟s a feeling of space in time that is like a wave and rhythmical. Great interest working with ancestral flow. Devised an exercise of bringing parental and grandparents background together, to feel family stream. Had the idea of contacting a group of elderly women who play their backgrounds and immigration situation on stage, a way of working through the break with the past. Some time later: Working in Germany - moving out to connect with the unknown surroundings, first steps to contact organisations. Returned from Germany feeling good about the work done out there feel competent. 6mth review: “New awareness - freedom of heart limited. Give myself up to other people‟s needs. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:N.S. Would love to be creative, would like to rip out my kitchen units and put in some warm pine units. White is so clinical and boring. Suddenly becoming aware of it. Would love to be able to talk more. It‟s been a big hang up in my life since I was 14 years. I think rather than talk and then think what I think is not interesting enough to talk about. I would like to be more outgoing - I shrivel up in groups, O.K. on a one to one basis. My confidence is not that good, not sure why because although I lack social confidence I am not inferior. Really strange I‟ve told you this. M:F:34:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. Day 00: Have felt very calm all day and whole in my body. Very light and easy moving. Day 03: I still feel really nice in myself, calm and easy. Even when there was tension at work, I was peaceful and good at solutions. This is a characteristic of me but I am particularly aware of it this week. Day 43: Inner itch and outer itch - interesting that my inner self is definitely much calmer and not irritated/disturbed by situations which could irritate, whilst my skin is showing irritation. Day 59: Tomorrow will be my last day at work and I still feel very calm about it - maybe this is being whole, being adult and keeping this diary has been my mentor, my guide, helping me feel the moment. It does feel momentous. Day 61: Remedy definitely worked through. Feel good. Day 76: New life starts here. H:F:04:30c:03:XX:XX:A.S. Aware that the relationship between my son and daughter-in-law needs sorting out. “I would like more contact with him, feels he cares about me, he is not noticing my pain and am feeling unloved. M:F:38:12c:09:XX:XX:A.S. At the end of the day I reflected on my general sense of well being. Having put in two extraordinary long days in London I am surprised that I don‟t feet shattered or tetchy. Moya Ross 40

M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Day 00: Went to bed and lay awake until 4 a.m. Really aware of sounds. Day 47: Felt the remedy stopped working on the 27th, just „knew‟ it. Felt I‟d lost some inner peace not aware of how much it had been there before. Not a bad feeling - just that something had gone. Su:F:Pl:00:XX:XX:U.S. I felt really light both mentally and physically. I feel really relaxed and content even though I have been rushing around with work. A sense of well being. R:M:10:12c:04:XX:XX MIND, CENSORIOUS: I got a bit agitated when driving home with a friend. We were working out which way to go home and she would keep stopping at every roundabout to see which way was going where-ever. M:F:38:12c:04:XX:XX.U.S. Did not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred and less self critical. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:C:S: Angry with client (her employer) who had trodden on a candidate unnecessarily creating poor interview technique. M:F:36:30c:06:XX:XX.U.S. MIND, CHEERFUL: Buoyant mood, cheerful, positive. M:M:32:12C:02:XX:XX:A.S. Have not noticed anything yet, except feeling VERY CHEERFUL. M:F:34:30c:00:01:40:A.S. Feel peaceful and happy. Relaxed and not bothered by things going on around me. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:A.S. Felt good, bubbly, laid back. Very busy, quite stressful day but did not get uptight. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. Happy mood. Very cheerful. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX.A.S. MIND, CLAIRVOYANCE: Feel creative and realising creative insights. Had an insight about setting up a meditation group in the mornings. Feel I need to materialise the thoughts. Feel open and communicative. SU:F:24:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. Doubted boyfriend when he said he was working late (no reason to doubt him, not possessive, just a gut reaction). Found out it was his ex girlfriend‟s birthday and she had booked a table for 14 in a restaurant. I booked a table there to and if he turned up I was going to confront him - he did not turn up but drove past. I confronted him about the meal and said that I knew he was invited. Su:F:Pl:03:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, COMPANY, amel Mood has lifted since going out and meeting people. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, COMPANY, desire for:

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Felt interested in people. Wanted to make contact with people I haven‟t spoken to before. Talked to a man who has a daughter at the German School that I have seen before but not spoken to. Told him about the proving, he knew about Hildegard and had been to a concert of her music recently. SU:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, CONCENTRATION, active: More focused, possibly because I‟m more relaxed. I have performed well, finishing tasks, achieved. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. Feel more centred, and that I must go with the push of energy and must change things. Have done the leaflets and set the fees for my course. Su:F:24:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. Mental alertness has stayed. Not tired at College like usual. Concentrated all day. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, CONCENTRATION, difficult. Feel I must go with the flow of energy I am experiencing and use it to make changes in the way that I work. I am not usually able to focus well on a practical level but today I have produced leaflets and set the fees for my workshop. Su:F:24:30c:04:XX:XX:C.S. Kept picking things up, then leaving them, mental awareness dull; couldn‟t be bothered much. S:M:18:30c:00:04:55:U.S. Kept making silly mistakes, writing today‟s date instead of the date of the talk she had given and turning the wrong way when going to the attic in the museum. S:F:16:6c:17:XX:XX:U.S. Poor concentration for domestic chores and work. M:F:36:30c:15:XX:XX:A.S. Not very good concentration today. M:F:34:30c:16:XX:XX:U.S. Poor concentration. M:M:32:12c:18:XX:XX.A.S. Mental alertness has stayed. Not tired at college like usual. Concentrated all day. Su:Pl:21:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, CONFIDENCE, want of self: Managed to handle a situation regarding our property in Spain by myself. Normally I would have become very anxious and let my husband deal with it, but this time I calmly handled the situation and sorted it out myself without worrying at all whether I had made the right decisions. I felt quite focused. R:F:08:12c:02:XX:XX.C.S. Felt more in touch with myself. Did not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred, less self critical. Day 00: Previously have not stood on my own feet. Have always hid and moved in groups. I know I now need to move out on my own. Day 04. Su:F:24:30c:00+04:XX:XX:C.S. Would love to be able to talk more. It has been a big hang up in my life since I was 14 years. Would like to be more outgoing, shrivel up in groups. My confidence is not that good. Lack social confidence. M:F:34:30c:07:XX:XX.A.S.

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Unusual for me to complain. I am voicing my opinion lately, more so since taking the remedy. I would usually bottle it up. Don‟t want to confront usually because it doesn‟t work if you cry, I knew I could confront without crying. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX:C.S. Offered to pay for a cab ride to a total stranger 9p.m. in the evening at the station. I told him, “I‟ve been a student once! Take a taxi not the bus, I‟ll pay for it, I was a student once!”. Not something I usually do. M:F:36:30c:00:04:00:N.S. MIND, CONFIDENCE, performance anxiety with: Gave a big talk today. A bit nervous waiting for it to start. Was it just me getting used to public speaking or has the remedy helped? H:F:06:12c:10:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, CONFRONTATION, aversion to: I lost my temper with my guest today but in a very controlled way. confrontation at all costs and would not stand up for myself. R:F:08:6c:13:XX:XX:C.S. Normally I would avoid

Went to Cranbrook School and challenged the Headmaster on a couple of points. Not my way usually. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. Confronting problems, „sounding forth‟. I don‟t want to confront usually because it doesn‟t work if you cry, but just knew I could do it without crying. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, CONTENTED, feeling: Feel relaxed and not bothered about what‟s going on around me. Feel interested in people. Wanted to make contact with people I haven‟t spoken to before. Felt more in touch with myself. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:N.S. Football match cancelled. Would normally be very annoyed. Day 01. Today content with the world. Laid back and relaxed like I am on my hols. Mind quite free. Staff think I‟m ill - normally would have gone back to the office after lunch but today I couldn‟t be bothered to go, so worked in Wolverhampton. Very peculiar, not like me at all, wanted to relax through the afternoon. Day 02. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Have felt very calm all day and whole in my body. Very light and easy moving. H:F:04:30c: 00:10:00 This has been one of the emotionally happiest weeks of my life when I have felt at ease, calm, serene and happy. She how that is noted each day - although I do often feel good, this week was noticeably good. H:F:04:30c:00:10:00:A.S. At the end of the day I reflected on my general sense of well being. At the end of two extraordinary long days in London I am surprised that I don‟t feel shattered or tetchy. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Since taking the remedy I am feeling good in myself. Day 14. Felt I had lost some inner peace. Not aware of how much it had been there before. Not a bad feeling - just that something had gone. Day 47. Su:F:Pl.14:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, COURAGEOUS (RESOLUTE)

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Do not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred, less self critical. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:C.S. Earned £3,500 today but wasn‟t overly pleased.. M:F:36:30c:08:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, DISTANCE, inaccurate judge of: Impression I judged car distances less well, eg. distance from kerb, swerving too close to central line. No accidents and no close shaves. H:F:02:6c:07:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, DULLNESS: Feeling normal physically but uncomfortable in tackling anything requiring mental energy. Mental awareness dull, couldn‟t be bothered much. S:M:18:30c:00:13:XX:A.S.

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Feel quite lethargic. Don‟t feel very enthusiastic about anything. Earned £3,500 today but wasn‟t overly pleased. Contrasts to the sense of „well being‟ I had before. M:F:36:30c:10:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, DULLNESS: menses during: Usually feel ratty during my period, cannot concentrate, find it hard to make decisions. Very low energy the week before. Since the remedy I feel more positive, more practical and am thinking more logically. I have not been weepy which does happen from time to time. R:F:08:6c:17:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, DWELLS on past disagreeable occurrences: Son related a sporting pressure. I am aware how protective I am and could well have stewed on this all day. However, as soon as he left I forgot about it! M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. Dwelled on something that happened 6 years ago. Son had an accident on his bike - his glasses smashed in his face. Went to hospital and was treated very badly. Son has a scar because of this. Felt very angry about it. H.F:06:12c:07:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, EXERCISE, mental symptoms amel by physical: Mood good this evening after exercise (mood - quiet, subdued). H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, FEAR, attack, of being. Fear of being attacked much worse. Feeling very vulnerable. Need someone with me. Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, FEAR, failure, of, in business: Managed to handle a situation regarding our property in Spain by myself. Normally I would have become very anxious and let my husband deal with it, but this time I calmly handled the situation and sorted it out myself without worry whether I had made the right decision. R:F:08:12c:02:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, FEAR, pain, during: Visited a patient in a side ward who was completely fearful, screaming in pain, trying to get out of bed, panic stricken. O.E. bladder was palpated to umbilicus - her catheter had blocked. The nurses had ignored her calls for help putting her down to a disorientated old lady and had told her they would be with her soon. While trying to organise her catheter to be removed, gave Emerald 30 (her consultant was in agreement to the patient being treated with homeopathy). Fear and distress left her and she was able to focus on her breathing until the catheter was removed. CASE:F:80. XX:XX:01:C.S. MIND, FEAR, of undertaking a new enterprise: Previously have always hidden and moved in groups. I know I now need to move out on my own. Today I have felt connected to previous openings where I didn‟t take a chance. Feel more centred and that I must go with the push of energy and must change things. Have done the leaflets and set the fees for my course. Su:F:24:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, FEAR, of wasps:

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a. Itching to leave, b. thinking about dinner, c. rushing off. This is so good! So untypical too. It reflects the general sense of well being and happiness I feel. H:F:04:30c:13:XX:XX:C.S. Feel calm, but have to stop from rushing into action. Stay with the slow way. Inner calmness. Su:F:24:30c:03:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, IDEAS ABUNDANT: Feel I am still in the process of differentiation. Feel creative and realising creative insights. Had an insight about setting up a meditation group in the mornings. Feel I need to materialise the thoughts. Feel open and communicative. Less apprehensive and more flowing. Using my time efficiently and in a focused way. Day 07 Got up at 5.30 a.m. yesterday with lots of ideas about work. Feel creativity is unblocked. Day 11. Su:F:24:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, IMPATIENCE: Didn‟t feel so urgent about getting out of lectures at lunch time. Am impressed with myself because I stayed for Net Working at College until 7.15p.m. without a. itching to leave, b. thinking about dinner, c. rushing off. This is so good. So untypical to. It reflects the general sense of wellbeing and happiness I feel. R:F:04:30c:13:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, IMPETUOUS: Offered to pay for a cab ride to a total stranger at 9 p.m. in the evening at the station. I told him “I‟ve been a student once. Take a taxi not the bus, I‟ll pay for it”. Not something I usually do! M:F:36:30c:00:04:15:U.S. I decided to decorate the kitchen on the spur of the moment. M:F:34:30c:09:XX:XX:U.S. I went out and bought a sewing machine today. I haven‟t sewn for thirty years. I suddenly got the desire to do so again. Su:F:20:6c:15:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, INDIFFERENCE, APATHY: Don‟t feel very enthusiastic about anything. M:F:36:30c:10:XX:XX:U:S. MIND, INDIFFERENCE, APATHY: business affairs to: Earned about £3,500 today but wasn‟t overly pleased. Contrast to the sense of well being I had before. M:F:36:30c:10:XX:XX:U.S. Staff think I‟m ill - normally I would have gone back to the office after lunch today but I couldn‟t be bothered to go, so worked in Wolverhampton. Very peculiar, not like me at all, wanted to relax through the afternoon. S:M:14:30c02:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, INDUSTRIOUS: Suddenly decided to do some decorating, spur of the moment. Bought hooks and sandpaper in Rye. Came home, set to work. Cleared the surfaces, sanded walls and beams, painted the walls and part of the ceiling. Husband was out at a late meeting so I worked on until the small hours. Eventually exhausted but very pleased with efforts. Did lots of cooking also. M:F:32:30c:09:XX:XX:U.S.

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Didn‟t feel so urgent about getting out of the lecture at lunch-time. Gave the lecturer an extra 7 minutes before I put my coat on. Someone left before I did. This is progress, especially as I didn‟t feel irritated like I usually do. H:F:04:30c:12:XX:XX:C.S. Less tetchy with children: Day 00 Maintaining greater calm with children. Day 07. H:F:02:6c:00:XX:XX:C.S. Felt irritable and snappy and had to exert self control. Su:F:Pl:18:XX:XX:A.S. I find the cigarette smoke from our visitors hard to cope with. It seems extra strong this time and it irritates me that she is smoking, admittedly in her bedroom only but the whole house stinks and my children are sleeping in a bedroom that smells very strongly of smoke. R:F:08:6c:09:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, IRRITABLITY, menses before: Periods not started yet (4 weeks today). No P.M.T. yet. I feel different to normal - no negativity or irritability. Su:F:24:30c:16:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, IRRITABILITY, ovulation at: Am coming towards ovulation and have some symptoms of P.M.T. Irritable, impatient, over critical of self and others. Feeling defensive and keeping people at a distance. Su:F:24:30c:30:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, IRRITABILTIY, at trifles: Irritated with friend, she would keep stopping at roundabouts and looking to see which way went where. M:F:38:12c:04:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, LOQUACITY: Would love to be able to talk more (and did re her confidence, needs, childhood relations). Really strange I‟ve told you this - I‟ve never said it to anyone before. M:F:34:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. (Supervisor - Opened up and spoke much more than usual at evening phone in time). Loquacity during proving - every detail of the day reported until day 11. Main issue to be resolved slowly came to the surface until day 11. Then there was grief and she became less talkative. She needed support to resolve her problem and did so. Became calmer once she had done so. M:F:38:12c:00:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, MEMORY, weakness of: Writing today‟s date instead of the date of the talk I had to give. Turning the wrong way when going to the attic store in the museum. S:F:16:6c:17:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, MEMORY, weakness, done, for what he has just: Gave staff a piece of work then forgot I had done so. Drove to work and parked outside the office (usually parks in car park). Forgot by evening and walked past car within a yard of it - did not even notice my “big silver car”, cannot miss it. Thought it had been stolen. Rang a member of staff to tell her about time for a coach. I had already done it on Friday. S:M:14:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S.

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Unusual for me to complain. I am voicing my opinion lately, more so since taking the remedy. I would usually bottle it up. Don‟t want to confront usually because it doesn‟t work if you cry, I knew I could confront without crying. M:F:38:03:XX:XX:C.S. Went to Cranbrook School and challenged the Headmaster on a couple of points. Out of character to be confrontational. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, MISTAKES, localities: Turned the wrong way when going to the attic store in the museum. S:F:16:6c:17:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, MISTAKES: work in: Cannot concentrate, making silly mistakes, feeling very fed up. M:F:36:30c:18:XX:XX:U.S. Gave staff a piece of work then forgot I had done so. Rang a member of staff to tell her about times for a coach. I had already done it on Friday. S:M:14:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. Making silly mistakes, writing today‟s date instead of the date of the talk I had to give. S:F:16:6c:17:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, PEACE, sense of heavenly, PRAYING: Have started to pray again. Have not prayed since childhood. Felt I used to pray as a child to a male God, now pray in a more feminine way, in simple sentences. Feel as it two sides have been brought together. Feel more connected spiritually - feel opened above. Feel a connection with Hildegarde “like a soft wind touched me”. Su:F:24:30c:55:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, QUARRELSOME: Husband says I am more argumentative. Unusual for me to complain and I am doing so more since taking the remedy. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX:U.S. I realised that my „mood‟ had changed. Some of the bright happy feeling had gone. Felt more stressed! I had a heated discussion with my assistant about not doing his job. The mood continued throughout the day. Wife had continued to be miserable and „shitty‟ this morning. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, QUIET, disposition:

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I am very quiet and subdued at the moment. H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, REJECTED, feelings: Told son “I‟d been feeling lonely and not cared about. Pointed out that I had not heard from him for some weeks. M:F:38:12c:11:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, REPROACHES, others: Had a go at husband about the jobs around the house that never get done. H:F:06:12c:07:XX:XX.U.S. I got a bit agitated when driving home with a friend. We were working out which way to go home and she would keep stopping at every roundabout to see which way was going where-ever. M:F:38:12C:04:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, RESOLUTION of past problems: Wrote to friend to patch up old relationship after 20 years. M:M:32:12c:30:XX:XX:C.S. Made links between fear of organisations and a childhood experience where I did not want to go into a dark house, but parents forced me. The pain in the neck went when I made the association with the past experience. In the afternoon I was aware of breathing - as if it was going right to the centre of me through the diaphragm. As if freed of when mixing with people with an authoritarian tone, was not longer frightened and could express what I needed to. Su:F:24:30c:11:XX:XX:C.S. Told my son I had been feeling lonely and not cared about. Pointed I had not seen him for some weeks. He lives close by. Day 11. Organised a lunch date and discussed my views him and daughter-in-law. Over the next few weeks there became more give and take on both sides. “Not an ideal situation now, but I realise they have their own lives and routine around their child. They now take time to see us although it is not as much as I would like”. M:F:38:12c:11:XX;XX:C.S. Excellent day. No deviating from my diet. I have also started exercising. I am doing things I should have done a long time ago. R:F:08:12c:09:XX:XX:C.S. Resolution of issues - psoriasis - moving on/decreasing. Is this remedy about resolving some aspect of one‟s life? e.g. change in work conditions. It‟s not unlike how the right hand spot disappeared about 7 years ago when I moved house and job. H:F:04:30c:37:XX:XX:C.S. Do feel currently as if I‟m emerging from a difficult time - but that might be partly because I am. Also that I‟m wanting to start „getting on‟ with things. I think I do enjoy my life - but it is almost as if I want to start to appreciate enjoying it. S:F:16:6c:11:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression: Husband says I‟m not myself this evening - bit down. H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX:U.S. Woke up feeling a bit panicky (despite Simon being there). This panic was the dominant feeling while I was depressed - which I am hoping is over. S:06:12c:02:XX:XX:O.S.

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Sad, introspective, lonely. M:M:32:12C:04:XX:XX:N.S. Felt low and miserable about the situation that has developed between my son and daughter-in-law. M:F:38:12c:10:XX:XX:A.S. Don‟t feel wonderful. Not a positive day. Feel really cold. Did not work terribly hard. M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression, company amel: Husband says I‟m not myself this evening - bit down. Mood has lifted since going out and meeting people. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression, when alone: Sad, introspective, lonely. (Staying by himself in an hotel). M:M:32:12c:04:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression, menses, before: No P.M.T. no negativity, irritability, or depression. Su:F:24:30c:17:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression, ovulation at: Feel there has been an important shift. Felt down and depressed and realised this was to do with ovulation. Pictured it as the first half of cycle behind me and second half of cycle in front of me. Su:F:24:30c:05:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, SADNESS, unexpressed from the past: ( Deep problem came to the surface and the observations of the prover brought up sadness). “Would like to be more creative. Would like to be able to talk more. It‟s been a big hang up in my life since 14 years. I think rather than talk and then think what I think is not interesting enough to talk about. Would like to be more outgoing, I shrivel up in groups. O.K. on a one to one basis. Confidence is not that good - not sure why. Lack social confidence although I am not inferior. I was quiet as a child, less so as a teenager. Brother was never wild about having a sister and put me down. Parents were O.K. but they favoured him more than me. M:F:32:30c:07:XX:XX:C.S. Feel tearful then sadness - unexpressed from the past. Comes over then moves away within 20 minutes. This is replaced by a feeling of strength and not being vulnerable. Has been happening every day for the last two or three days. In the beginning it was up to nine times a day. Su:F:24:30c:55:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, SADNESS, mental depression, weeping amel: Enormously sad suddenly today. Vast flow of tears - beauty of environment, power of so much love and friendship. H:F:04:30c:72:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, SENSITIVE: others say about her: I feel very balanced and can cope with what life throws at me. My husband criticised my weight and that I will have to do something about it. I feel I can show him that I can do it, not for him, but for myself. (Normally I either get upset, eat more or I don‟t take any notice). R:F:08:12c:07:XX:XX:C.S.

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MIND, SLOWNESS: I was thick headed, slow and lack energy. S:M:14:30c:06:XX:XX:U.S. Feel slow all day. R:F:08:10:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, SUSPICIOUS: Doubted my boyfriend when he said he was working late. (No reason to doubt him, not possessive, just a gut reaction). Started doing some snooping around. Su:F:Pl:03:XX:XX:N.S. MIND, TALKING, sleep in: Told I was talking in my sleep. Su:F:20:06:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, THOUGHTS, persistent: My son relayed a sporting pressure. I am aware of how protective I am and could well have stewed on this all day. However, as soon he left I forgot about it. Later, two work related incidents which would normally make me feel very stressed (one of a very serious nature) made me somewhat cross, but I did not dwell on either of them and again treated them very lightly. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, THOUGHTS, future of: Did not sleep well last night. Woke up a few times. I seemed to be going over the move to Hong Kong. I can‟t remember exactly what the problem was. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:R.S. I have been worried about our move to Hong Kong, worried about the children, packing and our life out there. I feel much more positive and laid back. I seem to have put things into perspective, I feel calm and relaxed about it now. More logical and practical. R:F:08:6c:16:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, TIMIDITY, bashful: I am assertive. I ask my guest to smoke outside. (normally I would do anything to avoid confrontation, grin and bear it. Anything not to control the situation). Day 10. P:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:C.S. Felt interested in other people today. Am usually shy at talking to strangers. Today I made contact with people I‟ve not spoken to before. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, TRANQUILITY: Feel peaceful and like I want to lie down. Not exhausted but will go to bed soon. Feel relaxed and not bothered about what is going on around me. Felt interested in people. Wanted to make contact with people I haven‟t spoken to before. Felt more in touch with myself. Did not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred, less self critical. Awareness of tenderness in the back and feel it is because of the heart chakra on the spine. Have had it before, not unpleasant, feels soft like a physical awareness. Su:F:24:30c:00:XX:XX:U.S. When I went to bed on Friday I felt really light both mentally and physically. I felt really relaxed, light, not so heavy on the mattress. Not floating or anything like that just good and relaxed and light. Went to sleep very quickly, which is normal. Still getting the occasional feeling of fullness or warmth across

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the chest. It is a pleasant feeling and seems to be linked to the emotional plane. I feel a general sense of well being. R:M:10:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. I feel very calm today, I have handled a difficult situation calmly that I would normally find very difficult. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:C.S. Laid back and relaxed, “feel good factor”, relaxed like I am on my hols. Mind quite free. S:M:14:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. As I reflected on the day I have a general sense of “well being”. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. I feel really nice in myself, calm and easy. Even when there was tension at work, I was peaceful and good at solutions. This is a characteristic of mine but I am particularly aware of it this week. Day 03. This has been one of the emotionally happiest weeks of my life when I have felt at ease, calm, serene and happy. She how that‟s noted each day. I do often feel good, this week was noticeably good. 06. H:F:04:30c:03:XX:XX:A.S. My mood in general is calmer since taking the remedy. It seems to be fairly persistent. H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX:A.S. Felt the remedy stopped working on 27th February, just knew it. Felt I‟d lost some inner peace - not aware of how much it had been there fore. Su:Pl:47:XX:XX:A.S. MIND, UNBURDEONED: Would love to be able to talk more. It‟s been a big hand up in my life since I was 14 years. I think rather than talk and then think what I think is not interesting enough to talk about. Would like to be more outgoing - I shrivel up in groups, O.K. on a one to one basis. Confidence is not that good, not sure why. Practically I‟m O.K. Lack social confidence although I am not inferior. I was a quiet child, less so as a teenager. Brother was never wild about have a sister and put me down. Parents were O.K. They favoured him more than me. He always had chesty colds, given Vic rubs and meals in bed. He was a lucky toad. I was so boring, although I tried, I never got anything really bad, brother had scarlet fever. Really strange I‟ve told you this - I‟ve never told anyone before. M:F:34:30c:07:XX:XX:C.S. Wrote to a friend who he had not contacted for 20 years after he had married his exgirl friend. Wrote and told him why and tried to patch up friendship. M:M:32:6mth review. C.S. Made links between fear of organisations and a childhood experience where I did not want to go into a dark house but parents forced me to. The pain in the neck when I made the association with the past experience. In the afternoon I was aware of breathing as if it was going right to the centre of me through the diaphragm. As if freed of when mixing with people with an authoritarian tone, was no longer frightened and could express what I needed. S:F:24:30c:11:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, WEEPING, anger, with: I am confronting problems. Usually I would cry but knew I could do it without crying. I don‟t usually confront when I am angry because it doesn‟t work if you cry. M:F:38:12c:05:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, WEEPING, future, about the: I have been a bit weepy about going to Hong Kong. However, this month I haven‟t felt weepy at all and seem to be taking everything in my stride. R:F:08:6c:16:XX:XX.C.S.

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MIND, WEEPING, joy from: Enormously sad suddenly today, vast flow of tears, beauty of environment, power of so much love and friendship. H:F:04:30c:72:XX:XX:U.S. MIND, WEEPING, menses before: Normally I can feel weepy before my period. However, this months I haven‟t felt weepy at all and seem to be taking everything in my stride. R:F:08:6c:16:XX:XX:C.S. MIND, WEEPING, past events, thinking of: Feel tearful then sadness, unexpressed from the past. Comes over them moves away within 20 minutes. Then is replaced by a feeling of strength and not being vulnerable. Has been happening every day for last two or three days. In the beginning it was up to nine times a day. Su:F:24:30c:52.XX:XX:N.S.

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CHAPTER 6 VERTIGO: Definite „light headed feeling‟ with a slight feeling of dizziness. S:M:18:30c:00:00:35:U.S. A little dizzy for about 10 - 15 minutes, light headed, bit woozy, following the indigestion. S:M:14:30c:00:05:00:U.S. Felt dizzy and weak and it was a real struggle not to vomit. S:F:16:6c:04:XX:XX: VERTIGO, LOOKING steadily needs to move eyes or defocus to feel >: Aware of this feeling behind the eyes again, much less intense than in the morning. Difficult to describe - like a dizziness - your eyes want to move from object to object to try and relieve the feeling. I can get relief by defocusing eyes and just starring at space. It‟s as if it becomes a strain to focus. 45mins later “Feeling similar to being car sick, going very hot in the body, starting to sweat in waves, first stomach, then brow, palms of hands, arm pits. Went outside to cool down. S:M:18:30c:00:09:00:N.S. HEAD, CONSTRICTION, tension, lying amel: I woke with a headache above my eyes. After taking the remedy the headache felt worse. It is an eye headache behind and above both eyes. It feels like a band across my eyebrows. (I usually have this type of headache around my period and period started within 30 minutes of taking 1st dose Capricorn (Emerald), two days early). 1hr later my headache is much worse. A real tight band across my eyebrows. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room, much worse than the normal headache I usually get. R:F:08:6c:00:00:30:A.S. HEAD, CONSTRICTION, tension, occiput, temples, motion from, amel, Intermittent „tension‟ feeling in the head. If it was more intense you could call it a headache. At the back of the head sometimes and on left temple sometimes, > moving. H:F:06:12c:00:07:30:U.S. HEAD, ERUPTIONS, pimples, margin of hair in front, from ear to ear posteriorly, Itching < heat: Little line of spots on edge of scalp at front forehead and around the top of the neck. Quite red, small, hard. Day 34. A really strong irritation on the back of my neck, sore, hard, like a line between base of scalp and top of neck. I don‟t remember ever having this before or this line of little pimples at the base of skull, which seem to occur when hot. Day 40. H:F:04:30c:34:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, HEAVINESS: I woke with a left sided aching headache and scalp felt sensitive to touch, > resting head on the pillow. It felt as if my head was too heavy to be supported by my shoulders. Su:F:20:6c:19:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, HOLD up head, unable to: I woke with a left sided aching headache and scalp felt sensitive to touch, > resting head on the pillow. It felt as if my head was too heavy to be supported by my shoulders.

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Su:F:20:6:19:XX:XX.N.S. HEAD, ITCHING, of scalp, morning: Scalp itchy, scratched it all over. S:M:18:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN: in general, morning, on waking: Better on waking - no headaches (has had headaches on waking recently. Usually around right eye, >pressure, >cold, >hot water of shower on back. Day 34. Headache on waking, cleared spontaneously, possibly better than usual. H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX:C.S. HEAD, PAIN, cold, becoming: Mild, frontal, aching headache in forehead after going out in the cold. Dull ache > laying down with eyes closed. Went within half an hour. Su:F:20:6c:00:02:00:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, lie down must: My headache is much worse. A real tight band across my eyebrows. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. I feel cold. R:F:08:6c:00:01:30:A.S. Mild, frontal, aching headache in forehead after going out in the cold. Dull ache > laying down with eyes closed. Went within half an hour. Su:F:20:6c:00:02:00:N.S. Midmorning started a severe congested headache. Felt as if blood was pounding in head. Pain went from back of neck at both sides of the top and finished in the temples, like head split open. Reduced me to tears, didn‟t know what to do with the pain. <bending forward, exertion >lying flat on back. Went by 2p.m. Su:F:Pl:24:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, light in general agg: Pain in right temple just about the right eye. Pain is sharp and constant < bright light. Definitely not a headache, the pain is localised and lasted about 45 minutes. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. My headache is much worse. A real tight band across my eyebrows. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. Day 04: Headache about lunchtime, constant dull ache. Not > fresh air, not < on movement. Nothing makes it < or >. Didn‟t like the brightness of the sun, had to wear sunglasses. R:F:08:6c:00:01:30.N.S. HEAD, PAIN, lying, while, in a dark room amel: as above Day 00: ... I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. feel a need for fresh air and go for a long walk. Feel fine. R:F:08:6c:00:01:30:C.S. HEAD, PAIN, periodic: No headaches to day - quite often I do have a headache on Sunday a.m. H:F:02:6c:06:XX:XX:C.S. HEAD, PAIN, spot, pain in small: Headache gone 2hrs 30 mins later. I

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Pain in right temple at midday, < bright light, lasted about 10 minutes. The pain is sharp and constant just above the right eye near the temple < bright light. Not throbbing just constant and sharp. The rest of my head is O.K. Definitely not a headache. The pain is localised and lasted about 45 minutes. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD see below with modalities: 20:00:02:00 24:49:XX:XX 18:00:01:45 10:01:00:00 02:01:XX:XX:C.S. 36:05:XX:XXC.S. 08:00:00:30 20:00:02:00 Pl:00:03:30 HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, Walking in open air, lying amel, Mild frontal headache, dull ache, developed on returning home from a brisk up hill walk. U.S. (It was cold).Relieved by resting for half an hour. Prover then took 3rd remedy. 40 minutes later developed a moderate frontal and occipital headache, forehead and cheeks became hot and flushed. Subsided an hour later. Su:F:20:6c:00:02:00:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, eyes above, see pressing: Had a headache over last College weekend, was working on the head area. eyebrows and bridge of nose. Pressure on back where the spine meets the head. Su:F:24:30C:49:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, eyes above, right eyes behind, pressing 1st Rx: 7.45a.m. At 08.05 a.m. Slight feeling of pressure developing behind the eyes, finished as soon as it started. 8.20a.m. light headed feeling with slight dizziness. 8.30 Dizziness still, slight pressure behind eyes. 9.30-11.30 a.m. Still this groggy feeling, no longer bright and alert, main area of head affected is behind forehead and temples. Only 3/10 in intensity. Desire to close eyes. 12.10 p.m. I can intensify symptom of pain behind eyes by forcing eyes to look into extreme top right corner of eye socket. The pain generated is only slight in intensity and very localised to a point just behind the right eyebrow. When I open my eyes it takes longer to focus on objects than normal. Eyes feel buzzy behind eyelids. S:M:18:30c:00:01:45:U.S. Pain in right temple at midday, < bright light, lasted about 10 minutes. The pain is sharp and constant just above the right eye near the temple <bright light. Not throbbing, just constant and sharp. The rest of my head is O.K. It is definitely not a headache. The pain is localised. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Possibly better on waking, i.e. no headache. (P.H. Headaches on waking usually around the right eye, >pressure, >warm shower., <if tired, throbbing pain, occasionally stabbing, maybe <fluorescent lights). H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX:A.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, eyes above, left: - eating amel: Slight headache late morning, went with lunch at 2 p.m., a frontal headache, slightly worse over the left eyebrow. Pressure behind

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M:F:36:30c:05:XX:XX:O.S. - U.S. to have so many together, 6mth review C.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, eyes above, eyes behind, lying while in a dark room amel: Woke with a headache above the eyes. After taking the remedy (lst tablet) the headache felt worse. It is an eye headache behind and above both eyes. It feels like a band across my eyebrows. 11.30a.m. My headache is much worse, a real tight band across my eyebrows. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. 2p.m. My headache is better. I feel the need for fresh air. R:F:08:6c:00:00:30:A.S. HEAD, PAIN, FOREHEAD, eyes behind: I had a headache, like after a really bad cry. Head congested. An aching pain behind the eyes. I keep looking in the mirror as it feels like they‟re really puffed up, but they aren‟t. Pain just at front of head, behind eyes, at top of sinuses and forehead. Su:Pl:00:003:30:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, OCCIPUT: 1st remedy 8.30 a.m. Slight headache at back of head, neck and occipital region. Morning. 2.30 p.m. 2nd remedy. 4 p.m. Mild frontal headache. 8.30p.m. 3rd remedy. Moderate frontal and occipital headache. Forehead and cheeks hot. Headache and flushing of face subsided by 10.00 a.m. Su:F:20:00:01:00:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, OCCIPUT, extending, temples to: hammering, lying amel: Monday morning started a severe congested headache. Felt as if the blood was pounding in my head. Pain went from the back of my neck at both sides over the top and finished next to the temples, like head was split open. Reduced me to tears, didn‟t know what to do with the pain < bending forward, exertion >lying flat on back. Went by 2 p.m. (occurred at same time as menses with flow greatly reduced). Su:F:Pl:23:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, SIDES, left, touch agg: Developed a left sided, painful headache. Pain seemed to localise over the left temperoparietal area with scalp pain in that area. > resting Persisted as a low grade ache until going to sleep. Su:F:20:6c:19:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, TEMPLES, right: Pain in my right temple, just above the right eye. Pain is sharp and constant < bright light. Definitely not a headache the pain is localised and lasted about 45 minutes. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Groggy feeling; main area of head affected is behind forehead and temples. Can intensify symptom of pain behind eyes by forcing eyes to look into extreme top right corner of eye socket. This pain generated is only slight in intensity and very localised a point behind the right eye brow. S:M:18:30c:00:01:45:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, TEMPLES, left: Tension in head, back, left temple. Heaviness. Not intense enough to be a headache <moving. H:F:06:12c:07:30:00:U.S. HEAD, PAIN, TEMPLES, neuralgic: Brief sensation, going deaf in left ear and at the same time a whooshing noise in the right ear, followed by neuralgic pain in right temple and then the left ear popped.

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H:F:06:12c:00:10:05:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, bursting, menses during; split open with a wedge, as if: Midmorning started a severely congested headache. Felt as if the blood was pounding in my head. The pain went from the back of the neck at both sides over the top and finished next to the temples, like my head was split open. Reduced me to tears, didn‟t know what to do with the pain <bending forward, exertion, > lying flat on back. Went by 2 p.m. (occurred at same time as menses greatly reduced). Su:F:Pl:23:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, forehead, dull: Headache above the eyes, in the eyes and eyebrows. Constant dull ache. Not > fresh air, not < on movement, nothing makes it < or > apart from I did not like the brightness of the sun and had to wear sunglasses. R:F:08:6c:04:XX:XX:A.S. Mild frontal headache, dull ache, developed on returning home from a brisk uphill walk. It was cold. Su:F:20:6c:00:02:30:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, pressing, Forehead, as from a band: lying amel: Woke with headache, above eyes. After taking the remedy headache felt <. It is an eye headache behind and above both eyes. It feels like a band across my eyebrows. 11.00. My headache is much <, A real tight band across my eyebrows. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. R:F:08:6c:00:00:30:A.S. HEAD, PAIN, pressing, Forehead: over eyes, nose above: I had a headache over last College weekend - was working on the head area. Pressure behind the eyebrows and bridge of the nose. Pressure on the back where the spine meets the head. Su:F:24:30c:49:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, pressing, forehead, see Head pain, forehead, eyes above, eyes behind. S:M:18:00:01:45:N.S. HEAD, PAIN, stitching, Forehead, eyes over, sides of right: HEAD, PAIN, stitching, Temples, right, intermitting: Pain in right temple just above the right eye. Pain is sharp and constant < bright light. Definitely not a headache. The pain is localised and lasted about 45 minutes. Day 01. I am still gettidng the occasional sharp pain in my right temple. It is almost behind the eye, just above it. It comes for a few minutes then goes. <bright light. Day 02. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, SENSITIVENESS, of scalp, to touch: Woke with left sided aching headache and scalp felt sensitive to touch,> resting head on the pillow. It felt as if head was too heavy to be supported by my shoulders. Su:F:20:6c:19:XX:XX:N.S. HEAD, SORE, temples, to touch: Stroking my left temple feels sore. H:F:06:12c:00:10:15:N.S. HEAD, TENSION; see constriction EYES, ASTIGMATISM:

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I have had astigmatism all my life but I was very bad at wearing glasses, thought I didn‟t need them. When I did secretarial work I had to wear them, otherwise I would get headaches, blurred, tired, watery eyes. After having the children I needed them again for working at the computer for homeopathy. I took Emerald at the meditation proving and later realised I was not needing to wear my glasses. I later tried a detox diet which gave me horrendous migraines. I thought, do I need to wear glasses again, but when I put them on it made them ten times worse. M.F.M.P.30c:C.S. EYE, BRILLIANT: Eyes seem to be seeing very bright - very alive. I was yawning. H:F:06:12c:00:00:25:U.S. EYE, clearer, reads fine print easier: Decided to test if I was seeing > as my sight seemed “bright”. I found I can read the questions in small print on the Penguin wrappers, although light is dimmed and husband still cannot. (the strain made my eyes ache slightly though). N.S. Day 00. Difficulty seeing menu in restaurant and repertory later. I think this existing symptom was improved over the last few days. Day 05.O.S. H:F:06:12c:00:08:35:N.S. EYE, CONJUNCTIVITS, infection: EYE, DISCHARGE, canthi, pus: Slightly sore right eye, conjunctivitis, pus in it. Noticed it while I was driving home. M:M:32:12c:06:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, DRYNESS, right: My right eye feels very dry. My contact lenses do not feel very comfortable. R:F:08:6c:06:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, DRYNESS, on waking: Right eye is very dry and gritty when I wake up. As the day goes by the right outer eye is very dry.It is as if I can‟t make any tears. Sore. R:F:08:6c:15:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, DRYNESS, evening: I feel very tired. I have to go to bed because my right eye is very dry and sore and I have to rest it. Feels like grit in it. My guests are driving me mad. R:F:08:6c:14:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, ECCHYMOSIS: conjunctiva: Eyes very tender, very bloodshot < than normal state. S:M:14:30c:00:04:45:A.S. Right eye red, conjunctivitis. M:M:32:30c:06:XX:XX:U.S. My right eye is very dry - the white of the eye is very red and sore. R:F:08:6c:09:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, gum, on eyelids, morning: Slightly sore right eye, it is red, conjunctivitis, yellow pus sticks to eyelashes at night causing them to be sticky in the morning.

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M:M:32:12c:07:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, HAIR, sensation of, in the eyes: My right eye is very dry, the white of the eye is very red and sore. It feels like I have got grit in it or an eyelash. I have to take my contact lenses out < evening. R:F:08:6c:10:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, HEAVINESS, lids: My right eyelid feels heavier than the left, feels more closed than left, more ready for sleep. H:F:04:30c:00:04:40:U.S. Desire to close eyes. S:M.18:30c:00:02:45:U.S. EYE, ITCHING, right, rubbing amel: My right eye is itching, rubbed it, then O.K. S:M:18:30c:00:00:35:N.S. EYE, LACHRYMATION, morning: 7.30a.m. Dry cold progressing. Eyelids sore, eyes watery. Dry nose. H:F:04:30c:08:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, LACHRYMATION, on waking, with sneezing: a.m. Woke this morning, my left eye is weepy (clear). My eye fills up and then comes a big sneeze. p.m. my left eye is dry and not watering anymore. R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, LACHRYMATION, cold air, in, during coryza: a.m. Cold, running nose, eyes extremely sensitive, i.e. run with the outside air. p.m. Dried up but sore eyes. H:F:06:30c:22:XX:XX:U.S. Went out in the cold without a hat, felt nose was blocked. Stuffy and hot on Thursday. Watery discharge in droplets from eye and nostril. Comes in waves with an hour in between. Su:F:24:30c:49:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, LACHRYMATION, yawning when: Have wanted to keep glasses on all day (only for reading usually). Eyes feel tired. Yawning - tears in eyes < than normal. Su:F:Pl:02:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, MOVEMENT, eyeballs, constant, under closed lids: Eyes felt busy felt busy behind eyelids as if darting around, nerve busy like focusing, but not. S:M:18:30c:00:04:45:N.S. EYE, PAIN, headache during: Day 00: Woke with a slight headache. 10.00 a.m. took Rx. 10.30 a.m. Headache suddenly <. It is an eye headache, behind and above both eyes. It feels like a band across my eye brows. This is my usual headache around menses. My period started with a green flush. It was 2 days early. 11.30 My headache is worse. a real tight band across my eyebrows.

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Headache about lunch time, above the eyes, in the eyes and eyebrows, constant, dull ache. R:F:08:6c:00:00:30:A.S. EYE, PAIN, turning sidesways, to right, - turning sidesways, up: I can intensify the symptom of pain behind the eyes by forcing eyes to look into extreme top right corner of eye socket. S:M:18:30:00:04:45:U.S. EYE, PAIN, sunlight agg: Headache about lunch time, above the eyes, in the eyes and eyebrows, constant dull ache. Did not like brightness of the sun, had to wear sunglasses. R:F:08:6c:04:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, aching eye muscles: Strain to focus - strain felt in muscle which controls the lens in the eye. S:M:18:30c:00:00:45:N.S. EYE, PAIN, closing amel: My right eye is very dry and sore. I feel I have to go to bed to rest it. Rest p.m.: my eye feels a bit > after a rest, > shutting it. R:F:08:6c:12:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, PAIN, burning, smarting biting: After the third dose of the remedy my eyes started burning and stinging. No watering and no visible redness or inflammation. Nothing makes them > or <. R:M:10:12c:00:00:45:U.S. EYE, PAIN, burning, margins of lids: I have still got a slightly burning stinging sensation in my eyes. It is around the margin of the eye. It feels like it is around the inside of both the upper and lower lids, just around the edge. Nothing makes it > or <. R:M:10:12c:02:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, REST amel - see eye pain, closing amel: EYE, PAIN, as if from sand: My right eye is very dry - the white of the eye is very red and sore. It feels like I have got grit in it or an eyelash: I have to take my contact lenses out. R:F:08:6c:10:XX:XX:N.S. My eyes were less sore and gritty than normal. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. open air amel Eyes sore, especially the left, gritty feeling. Suddenly got worse when drinking cappuccino - left eye completely red, really bad, > open air, slowly subsided over next 2 - 3 hours. S:M:14:30c:11:XX:XX:A.S. (?antidoted remedy). EYE, PAIN, sore, bruised, tender: a.m. Cold, running nose, eyes extremely sensitive, i.e. run with the outside air. 8p.m. Dried up but sore eyes. evening: 9 p.m. Sneezing, runny nose, sore eyes.

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H:F:06:12c:22:XX:XX:U.S. EYE, PAIN, sore, bruised, tender, moving eyes, left: Left eye area sore to move. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, PAIN, sore, bruised tender, right: Slightly sore right eye, conjunctivitis, yellow pus in it. M:M:32:12c::06:XX:XX:N.S. My right is very dry - the white of the eye is very red and sore. R:F:08:6c:09:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, PAIN, sore, bruised, tender, as from a foreign body: My right is very dry - the white of the eye is sore and red. It feels like I have got grit in it or an eyelash. R:F:08:6c:10:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, PRESSING PAIN, pressure in, behind eyes: 08.05: Slight feeling of pressure developing behind eyes which finished as soon as it started. 08.20: Slight dizziness. 08.30: Slight pressure behind the eyes. 12.10: I can intensify symptom of pain behind eye by forcing eyes to look into extreme top right corner of eye socket - it is slight in intensity and very localised to a point just behind the right eyebrow. S:M:18:30c:00:00:20:N.S. EYE: REDNESS: Eye very tender, very bloodshot < than normal state. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. Slight sore right eye, red, conjunctivitis, pus in it. M:M:32:12c:06:XX:XX:U.S. My right eye is very dry - the white of the eye is very red and sore, feels as if I have got grit in it or an eyelash. R:F:08:6c:10:XX:XX:N.S. EYE, REDNESS, open air amel: Eyes sore, especially the left, gritty feeling. Suddenly got worse when drinking cappuccino - left eye completely red, really bad, >open air, slowly subsided over the next 2-3 hours. S:M:14:30c:11:XX:XX:A.S. EYES, SENSATION OF SWELLING: Eyes feel puffy, I keep looking in the mirror as it feels like they‟re really puffed up, but they aren‟t. Su:Pl:00:03:30:U.S. EYES, SORE, PAIN, touch: 4.30p.m. Left eye area sore to move. Earlier face under left eye area sore to touch. 7.30 p.m. Left eye quite sore now , moving, feels as if I might be getting a sty. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. EYES, STICKY:

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Slightly sore right eye, red, conjunctivitis, yellow pus in it. Pus collected on eyelashes overnight causing stickiness. M:M:32:12c:06:XX:XX:N.S. EYES, TEARS, suppressed: My right eye is very dry and gritty when I wake up. As the day goes by the right outer eye is very dry. It is as if I can‟t make any tears. R:F:08:6c:15:XX:XX:N.S. Case 53yr male. Tears suppressed. Sulphur 30 split dose Emerald 6 b.d. and Euphrasia and Emerald 6 eye bath. “I am making more tears”. (see Vision Dim) M:Case:M:53.C.S. EYES, TIRED, sensation: Eyes feel tired: M:M:32:12c:01:XX:XX:O.S. Eyes feel tired. Yawning - tears in eyes < than normal. Su:Pl:F:01:XX:XX:A.S. I feel very tired. My right eye is very dry and sore. I feel I have to go to be to rest it. My eye feel a bit better after rest > shutting it. R:F:08:6c:12:XX:XX:U.S. Case M: 53 yrs. (see Vision Dim). Defective vision both eyes, R. partially detached retinal. Operation technically successful to correct this but vision poor. Vison like looking through a mist, < centrally. L. eye myopia, glaucoma, spontaneous retinal detachment. Double vision when eyes tired. Rx: Sulphur 30 split dose, Emerald 6 b.d. Euphrasia mother tincture and Emerald 6 eye drops. 5 week F.U. “Eyes feel a lot fresher, my eyes feel alive again. Has had an acute effect. Eye tiredness > ability to concentrate on screens remarkably improved, do not need glasses for reading/computer”. He put the improvement in eye tiredness down to the eye bath. A few months later the effect of Euphrasia/Emerald 6 eye drops was still there but not as noticeable. I increased the eye bath to Euphrasia M.T./Emerald 12c with good effect. M:Case:M:53. EYES, WEAK, looking intently, while: Aware of this feeling behind eyes again, much less intense than in the morning. Difficult to describe, like a dizziness - your eyes want to move from object to object to try and relieve the feeling. Can get relief by defocusing eyes and just starring at space. It is as if it becomes a strain to focus. S:M:18:30c:00:00:55:N.S. VISION, ACCOMMODATION, slow: Stain to focus - strain felt in muscle which controls the lens in the eye. S:M:18:30c:00:00:45:N.S. Case 53yr male: SeeVision Dim. “accommodation has improved”. M:Case M.53:A.S. VISION, ACUTE: Decided to test to see if I was seeing > as my sight seems „bright‟. Found I can read the questions in small print on the Penguin wrappers although light is dimmed and husband still cannot. Day 00. Difficulty seeing menu in restaurant and repertory later. O.S. Day 06: H:F:06:12c:00:08:35:N.S.

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On retiring to bed I noticed how „clear‟ my contact lenses were. Very little protein. I also have the feeling that my vision is more acute. Out lines have been clearer. Enhanced vision diminished, lens quite dirty. Day 05. M:F:36:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. VISION, CLEARER, as above. VISION, CLEARER: reads fine print easier: Found I can read the questions in small print on the Penguin wrappers although light is dimmed and husband still cannot. H.F:06:12c:00:08:35:N.S. VISION, COLOURS, awareness of: Eyes seem to be seeing bright, very alive. H:F:06:12c:00:00:25:U.S. VISION, DIM: Difficulty seeing menu in restaurant and repertory later. I think the existing symptom was improved over the last few days. H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX:A.S. I do not feel I have the slightly enhanced vision today - that has gone, lines had been clearer. M:F:36:30c:03:XX:XX:A.S. 53yr. male defective vision both eyes, P.H. Hit in L eye by piece of coal. Myopic since 11yrs. L. eye spontaneous retinal detachment which healed itself. Glaucoma (damage to eye ducts). History of tears in retina. Optic disc depressed. Today vision 9/12. Central vision O.K. for driving, reading and distant, peripheral vision borderline for driving. 1986. R. partially detached retina, operation to correct this successful technically but vision has not returned as hoped. :Lost central vision, some peripheral vision ?slowly improving. “Feel operation was not successful due to gas tamponade” - sulphur hexafluoride used. Other: I.B.S. and cracked finger tips in winter. Sleep interrupted by slight noises. Rx: Sulphur 30 x5, Emerald 6 b.d. Euphrasia/Emerald 6c eye baths b.d. 5 week F.U. “Remarkable improvement. Do not need glasses for reading, computer, eye tiredness>>>. Eyes feel fresher. Acuity>, clarity> accommodation >. Feeling more relaxed at work. Sleeping >>>. Rx as above. 5 week F.U. “Feel more relaxed over the last couple of months, like I have been on a long holiday. People have remarked how well I look. Eye improvement twice as good as last time, especially R. seeing more through its misty veil”. Accommodation >, acuity > seeing things more clearly. No eyestrain. Eyes fresher - I have more tears. No I.B.S. Sleep >>>. Rx as above. 5 week F.U. “Definite improvement, the area I can see through 30% >, lifted this darkness. Feel exceptionally well, calm and relaxed. No I.B.S. no cracked finger tips this winter. Eye drops not as effective. Rx: Nat. Sulph 30 split dose (ailments since blow to head) with Euphrasia M.T./Emerald 12c. 5 week F.U. Nat. Sulph. <>. Eyes continue to > 10-15% Eye bath Euphrasia M.T./ Emerald 12c more effective than 6c. although their effectiveness was not as good as first few months. Centre R. eye more retinal activity, centre opaqueness dissolving, it used to be just around the edge, now there is a triangle of shape from the centre to the bottom. 5 week F.U. Sulphur 30, Emerald 12 b.d. Eye bath Euphrasia M.T. and Emerald 12c. “Right eye particularly improved, a lot more around periphery, visual images stronger in the centre”. 5 week F.U. Eye accommodation not as good. Emerald 30 X5, Euphrasia/Emerald 30c eye bath. 5 week F.U. Eye accommodation >. Vison slow improvement. Neck strain L side. Energy down 3 p.m. Thuja 30c. 5 week F.U. Neck >>>. Accommodation >>. Emerald 30, Euphrasia/Emerald 30c eyebath. 5 week F.U. Significant change in R. eye. “I can see my hand with my R. eye, central vision” M:Case:M:53:A.S. EARS, CONTRACTION, meatus in:

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Sudden tightening of ears, lasted half an hour approximately. Not painful, just uncomfortable/strange, unilaterally. Day 0 Tightness in ears momentarily, I was just reading, relaxed. Not excruciating, just tightening like a pressure. Day 02. M:F:36:30c:00:02:30:N.S. Strange creaking, contracting feeling in external auditory meatus: Post M.P.06:XX:XX:N.S. EAR, ERUPTION, about the ears, in front of the ears, boils: Lump on right ear in the morning. Looked like a spot was going to come - bright red like a beacon on the part of the ear which slightly protrudes. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. EAR, ITCHING in right external ear: Itchy ear on right side. External ear, want to scratch it - not dry, skin feels moist. Feels like ear drum is itchy (O.S.). but not constant, comes and goes. Su:F:24:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. EAR, NOISES, creaking, jaws on moving,: yawning when: Ears creaky if I yawn or move my mouth, they creek. M:F:36:30c:02:XX:XX:O.S. EAR, NOISES, ringing, right: Ringing in right ear, it only lasted a minute. R:F:08:6c.00:00:20:N.S. EAR, NOISES, rushing, right: Strange and very brief sensation of going deaf in left ear and a „whoosing‟ noise in right ear. Followed by a slight „neuralgic‟ pain in right temple for an instant and popping in left ear. H:F:06:12c:00:00:30:N.S. EAR, PAIN, night: My left ear was painful in the night. I don‟t know for how long because I feel asleep. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. EAR, PAIN, pressing, spasmodic, inside ear: Sudden tightening of ears, not pain, uncomfortable, strange, unilaterally < Day 00. Tightness in ears momentarily, not excruciating just tightening like pressure. Day 02 fairly continuously until: Painful bilaterally Day 16. M:F:36:30c:00:02:30:N.S. EAR, SORENESS, inside, ear: Cold starting, can feel in ears, soreness in back of ears, inside ( cold did not materialise). H:F:04:30c:01:12:10:A.S. EAR, PAIN, soreness external ear, in front: My right ear, protruding bit above earlobe, was red and a little sore this morning. It looked like a spot. Day 2: My ear is less sore and less red. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S.

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EAR, PAIN, stitching, left: I had a pain in my left ear, it didn‟t last long, a sharp pain, came and went. R:F:08:6c:05:XX:XX:U.S. EAR, STOPPED, sensation, left - air, open amel: My left ear is blocked, not painful just blocked, slight ringing in it. p.m. My ear is still blocked. I keep yawning to try and unblock it. It‟s like being on a plane, when the pressure changes. 4 p.m. after walk. My ear is now unblocked. R:F:08:6c:00:01:45:U.S. Sticking in left ear as if it has a little blob, noticed on when I swallowed and then it was gone . H:F:04:30c:00:03:10:O.S. EAR, SWELLING, below, glands: Case:F:65: C.o. lymphatic cancer. O.E. large node in posterior right side of neck which had been biopsied and told malignant, previously treated with chemotherapy. Remedy Emerald 30 split dose. F.U. 4 weeks, node had gone as had a tooth abscess. M:CASE.F.65. HEARING, ACUTE TO NOISES: Went to bed and lay awake until 4 am. really aware of sounds. Su:F:Pl:00:01:15:U.S. HEARING, IMPAIRED, left: Strange and very brief sensation of going deaf in left ear. H:F:06:12c:00:00:30:N.S. NOSE, BLOW, compelled to, morning: Had to blow nose when I woke up. Nothing materialised from there. H:F:02:6c:06:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, BLOW, the constant inclination to: Constant sneezing. I feel I want to blow my nose all the time even when I‟ve just done it. After blowing nose feels dry, almost a burning sensation. R:F08:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, CATARRH: post nasal: Full cold symptoms developing, blocked nose this a.m. runny p.m. nasal drip down the back of the throat. S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. Went out with wet hair and started a cold (unusual as I do this regularly and it doesn‟t result in a cold). Started in the head. Scratchy dry nose, throat and chest. Groggy voice, frog in throat. Mucus in sinus, not blocked or blowing out, just going down the back of the throat. Neck glands up but no sore throat. Had a relaxing weekend, unusual to have a cold unless stressed. Su:F:Pl:16:XX:XX. 11.30 a.m. Glands under jaw hard (O.S.), cold starting. Ears - peripheral soreness = a cold. 2.30 pm. nasal drip, throat sore. H:F:04:01:XX:XX:O.S.

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Irritating phlegm in throat, green in colour. I would take some Hepar Sulph. if I could take a remedy. M:F:38:12c:07:XX:XX:R.S. NOSE, CORYZA: Day 04: Full cold symptoms developing, blocked nose this a.m. runny p.m., nasal drip down the back of the throat. Day 05: Feeling generally rotten with a streaming cold. S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. 5.30 a.m. Woke up. Thought I had had a nose bleed. Felt as though it was streaming. Rushed to the bathroom. It was just a streaming nose - no blood. N.S. 11.15a.m. Sore throat, feel I have got a cold - top of nose feels slightly ingested. 6 p.m. sneezing + 10p.m. Could not get to sleep because I could not breathe. Had two pillows in the end. Nose running ++ and sneezing, < lying down, > propped up. (Very unusual symptoms for me when getting a cold. Usually < in a.m.). Day 21: Yes I do have a cold, stuffed nose, yellow mucus, runny nose, sneezing <a.m. > during the day. Fed up, depressed, lack lustre. H:F:06:12c:20:XX:XX.U.S. Day 17: Feeling sneezey and sniffly, especially towards late evening, nose running. Day 18: Still sniffily, nose running but no other cold type symptoms. Day 19 - 20: Sneezing and sniffily until day 21. S:F:16:12c:17:XX:XX:O.S. Went out with wet hair and started a cold late afternoon (unusual as I do this regularly and doesn‟t result in a cold). Started in the head. Scratchy, dry nose and throat, chest. Groggy voice, frog in throat. Mucus in sinus, not blocked or blowing out, just going into the back of the throat. Neck glands up but no sore throat. Had a relaxing weekend - unusual to have a cold unless stressed. Su:F:Pl:16:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, CORYZA, suppressed: Day 01: Woke with a blocked nose L. side. Sneezed a couple of times. Tickly feeling in nose, clear dripping. Funny sensation on the roof of my mouth, it feels dry, like the beginning of sinusitis. Day 03: Runny nose, as if a cold coming on. Day 07:Woke with a blocked nose both sides. Almost a burning sensation in nostrils. Sneezing like mad. Very tickly sensation in nose before and after I‟ve blown it. Dripping profusely < morning < on rising. Clear mucus. Feels like a cold that hasn‟t really come out. Day 15: Sneezing and runny nose at bedtime. Day 22: Lots of cold symptoms in the mornings, on waking, intense burning, runny, stuffy nose. All symptoms disappear rapidly. No cold materialises. R:F:08:6c:07:XX:XX:U.S. Day 04: My cold hasn‟t materialised which is most unexpected. Normally those reported symptoms bring on a snotty cold, lots of hankies and mucus. Not this time. In fact, I can „hear‟ the cold in my voice but the physical symptoms are not there, nor do I feel lethargic, tired or achy as I might with a cold. Day 08: Voice variations, some deepening, some husky, back to normal. What is interesting is the lack of mucus and lack of body bone ache (U.S.). Which is usual with this lip sore/earache cold. Sore eyelids and watery nose reduced as bone ache in face. Interesting, was expecting cold to come out then but never materialised. Day 43: Lots of double sneezes today, swollen glands at the back of the throat, nose feels “coldy”. Day 44: Snuffles all night with sore throat and ears. Day 47: Only x2 nose blows today. Very little mucus. Sore throat gone. This is the shortest cold ever, given the indicating symptoms of a big, stay in bed, don't go to work cold which just hasn‟t materialised. H:F:04:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S.

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Day 03: a.m. Runny nose, like as if a cold was coming on. A cold did not materialise. Day 10: Sore throat Day 11: Woke with sore throat, recurred late evening. Day 15: Sneezing and runny nose at bed time. Day 17: 9 a.m. Burning in nose, like to sneeze, never sneezed and sensation passed. Runny nose at night. Day 22: Lots of cold symptoms in the mornings on waking, intense burning runny nose, stuffy nose. All symptoms disappear rapidly, no cold materialises. Day 23: Stuffy nose on waking - cleared spontaneously. Day 27: Tingling in left nostril, runny nose by late evening. Day 29: Runny nose, usually I develop a hoarse voice, but not so far. Day 33: Cold diminished without affecting the throat (voice). U.S. H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S.. Day 02: Glands in neck, not as hard, little tiny, tight hard glands, softer than before. Day 03: Nose and throat a bit tickly, ? a cold coming on, but wore off by lunch time. Day 16: Felt hard lump in throat during the morning. Glands +++ behind ears. Day 17: Tightness in chest on waking. Voice changes. Day 18: Awoke feeling that the pain in my throat had moved down, chest sore. Day 19: Chest tight on waking. Generally achy. Day 20: Chest really painful. Voice very small. Prover did not want to continue without intervention. Rx. prescribed. M:F:36:30:05:XX:XX:N.S. Day 13: I sneezed a few times today and this has been going for 5 days ? a cold coming. Day 14: Right nostril blocked, it cleared slowly, (?another sign that a cold is on the way). Day 15: Right nostril partly blocked. Sneezing midmorning. Day 16: Left nostril blocked, almost as if the skin on the inside of the nose was thickening or swollen, blocking airway, sneezed and jam shot all over the place. Nose began to run and I thought a cold had started. No other symptoms all day. Day 17: More sneezing but no further cold symptoms. Nostril clear this morning. Day 18: Sneezed a few times during the afternoon but the threatened cold is not materialising. S:M:14:6c:16:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, morning: Day 01: Woke up with a blocked nose. Sneezed a couple of time. Tickly feeling in nose. Clear dripping. Later sneezing my nose clears when I blow it then blocks up again quickly (left nostril). Day 07:Woke with a blocked nose both sides. Almost a burning sensation in nostrils. Sneezing like mad. Very tickly sensation in nose before and after I‟ve blown it. Dripping profusely <morning < on rising not > or < inside or outside. Clear mucus, feels like a cold hasn‟t really come out. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:N.S. 5.30 a.m. Woke up thought I‟d got a nose bleed. Rushed to the bathroom, it was just a streaming nose, no blood. H:F:06:12c:06:20:XX:XX:N.S. Lots of cold symptoms in the mornings on waking, intense burning, runny nose, stuffy nose. All symptoms disappear rapidly, no cold materialises. H:F:02:6c:22:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, night: Runny nose at night. H.F:02:6c:17:XX:XX:U.S. Could not get to sleep as could not breath. Nose running and sneezing. 06:20:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, blood: Catarrh in the morning, it is yellow and sticky. My nose was bleeding a bit after I‟d blown it. Moya Ross 70

M:F:38:12c:08:XX:XX:O.S. Sneezing any time. Blood clots in nose, nose feels like wiggling it a lot would help. Little sensations of mini-sneezes. Blood clots quite small, not uncomfortable, not a nosebleed. S:F:16:6c:24:XX:XX:U.S. Minimal nose bleed when blowing nose. H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, clear: Woke up with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezed a couple of times. Tickly feeling in nose. Clear dripping. Sneezing my nose clears, when I blow it then blocks up again quickly. R:F:08:6c:07:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, copious, morning: Woke with a blocked nose. Almost a burning sensation in nostrils. Sneezing like mad. Very tickly sensation in nose before and after I‟ve blown it. Dripping profusely, < morning < on rising. Clear mucus. R:F:08:6c:07:XX:XX:U.S. Woke up. Thought I had a nosebleed. Felt as though it was streaming. Rushed to the bathroom. It was just a streaming nose. H:F:06:12c:20:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, crusts, left: Crusting in left nostril. Su:20:F:6c:17:XX:XX:C.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, greenish: Large green plug out of left nostril. H:F:06:12c:34:XX:XX:A.S. Catarrhal - green. M:F:38:12c:07:XX:XX:O.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, watery: Went out in the cold without a hat. Felt nose was blocked. Watery discharge in droplets from eye and nostril. Comes in waves with an hour between Su:F:24:30c:54:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, watery, left: Tingling in left nostril - ultimately runny nose by late evening. Mainly left nostril. H:F:02:6c:27:XX:XX:O.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, white: Left nostril very red and tender << touch with a bit of white pus inside. R:M:10:12c:07:XX:XX:N.S. It‟s a dry cold. x3 blows. Some white, stringy mucus but not like a usual cold. H:F:04:30c:48:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, viscid, tough:

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3 x nose blows throughout day. Some stringy, white mucus. H:F:04:30c:48:XX:XX. U.S. NOSE, DISCHARGE, yellow: My sinuses feel blocked. Not painful. On blowing nose mucus is sticky and dark yellow > blowing nose. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX: My left nostril is very dry and blocked. When I got up this morning gunge came out, a little bit of yellow. It needed blowing. Had to blow nose throughout the day. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX: I do have a cold - stuffed nose, yellow mucus, runny nose, sneezing, <a.m. . during the day. H:F:06::30c:21:XX:XX:O.S. Catarrh in the morning, it is yellow and sticky; my nose was bleeding a bit after I‟d blown it. M:F:38:12c:08:XX:XX:A.S. NOSE, DISCOLOURATION, redness, left: Left nostril is very red and tender << touch with a bit of white pus inside. R:M:10:12c:06:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, DRYNESS: inside: Nose feels dry - but not the point of bleeding. Su:Pl:14:XX:XX:O.S. Another feeling of getting a cold in the nose - sneezes and dry in nose - nothing has materialised. H:F:04:30c:36:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, DRYNESS, - blowing nose, compelled to but no discharge, dry sensation when: Woke sneezing (left nostril still very blocked). Constant sneezing. I feel I want to blow my nose all the time even when I‟ve just done it. After blowing my nose feels dry almost a burning sensation. R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, EPISTAXIS, BLOOD, blowing the nose, from: Minimal nose bleed when blowing nose. H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, ITCHING, tip: The skin around the bottom of my nose is very itchy. H:F:06:12c:04:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, OBSTRUCTION: Went out in the cold without a hat. Felt my nose was blocked. Su:F:24:30c:55:XX:XX:U.S. Cold has not moved on. My nose is blocked. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:OS. NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, morning, on waking: Mouth dry (breathing not possible through blocked nose). S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. Blocked nose on waking - quickly resolved.

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H:F:02:6c:20:XX:XX:U.S. My nose was blocked and I could not breath through my nose. S:M:14:30c:03:XX:XX:N.S. Woke with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezed a couple of times. Tickly feeling in nose. Clear dripping. Sneezing my nose clears, when I blow it blocks up again quickly. R:F:08:6c:00:11:30:U.S. NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, left: Woke with a blocked nose, left sided. R.F.08:6C:00:11:30:U.S. Left side of head seems bunged up. Have I got a cold? Left nostril feels stuffed. Sensation under left eye and at top of left nostril of being congested. H:F:06:12c:04:XX:XX:N.S. Congestion and crusting in left nostril. Su:F:20:6c:17:XX:XX:O.S. (C.S.). NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, left then right: Day 03: My nose (left) was very dry and blocked, left ear was a little painful in the night.. Day 04: Woke up with a blocked right nose. R:F:08:6c:03/04:XX:XX: NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, alternates with discharge: Woke up with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezing +; my nose clears when I blow it then blocks up again quickly (and during the day). R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, root at: Left nostril feels stuffed. Sensation under left eye and at top of left nostril of being congested. H:F:06:12c:04:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, OBSTRUCTION, blowing, after: Woke with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezing +; my nose clears when I blow it then blocks up again quickly (and during the day). R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, PAIN, burning, smarting, blowing on: After blowing my nose it feels dry and almost a burning sensation. The eye feels full and then comes a big sneeze. R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, PAIN, sore, left (touch agg): nostril, left, interior angle of: Woke this morning and left nostril near the centre just inside is red and inflamed. Very tender to touch appeared overnight. Day 05 Left nostril very red and tender << touch with a bit of white pus inside. R:M:10:12c:06:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, SINUSITIS infection:

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Left sided mild maxillary sinusitis. (long term condition) Day 01. No maxillary sinus problem on wakening. Day 02. Condition recurred in a mild form during proving then continued to improve. Su:F:20:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. My sinuses feel blocked. Not painful. On blowing nose mucus is sticky and dark yellow > blowing nose. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:N.S. I have this funny feeling on the roof of my mouth like the beginning of sinusitis. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:O.S. NOSE, SINUSITIS, postnasal catarrh: Mucus in sinus but not blocked or blowing out, just going into the back of my throat. Su:F:Pl:18:XX:XX:O.S. Blocked nose, cold symptoms, nasal drip down the back of the throat, S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. NOSE, SMELL, acute: Sense of smell heightened. H:F:06:12c:00:XX:XX:N.S. Sense of smell heightened, which is unfortunate since I felt I smelt. Post M.P.05:XX:XX:N.S NOSE, SMELL, sensitive to strong odours, tobacco: The whole house stinks of smoking and my children are in a room that smells of smoke. Maybe my sensation of smell is extra sensitive. R:F:08:6c:09:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, SNEEZING: morning: Violent sneeze in the morning. Made my throat really sore - could almost taste blood in my throat. S:F:16:6c:00:XX:XX:U.S. Woke up with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezed a couple of time, tickly feeling in nose. R:F:08::6c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Sneezing fit this morning, 8.40 a.m. but not other symptoms. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, SNEEZING, evening: Sneezey and snuffley < late evening. S:F:16:6c:17:XX:XX:U.S. Sneezing and runny nose at bedtime. H:F:02:6c:15:XX:XX:O.S. Sneezed eight times while talking to supervisor, “this is an old symptom of mine, have done this before”. M:F:36:30c:XX:XXO.S. NOSE, SNEEZING, constant:

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Woke sneezing, left nostril still very blocked. Constant sneezing, I feel I want to blow my nose all the time even when I‟ve just done it. R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:N.S. NOSE, SNEEZING, coryza without: Sneezing a lot, not a cold. S:F:16:6c:14:XX:XX:U.S. Another feeling of getting a cold, a cold in the nose - sneezes and dry in nose - nothing materialised. H:F:04:30c:36:XX:XX:U.S. I had a sneezing fit this morning 8.40a.m. but no cold or other symptoms. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, SNEEZING, wakes him from: Woke sneezing <draft of air. H:F:06:12c:22:XX:XX:U.S. Woke sneezing, my left nostril is still very blocked. R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, SNEEZING, violent: Woke this morning, my left eye is weepy - clear. My eye fills up and then comes a big sneeze. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. Violent sneeze in the morning. Made my throat really sore - could almost taste the blood. S:F:16:6c:00:XX:XX:U.S. NOSE, SNUFFLES: Sneezed quite a lot, a bit snuffley. S:F:16:6c:15:XX:XX:A.S. Cold characteristics stronger, dryness in throat, soreness back of ears inside, sniffy nose, no mucus, lump when I swallow. H:F:04:30c:02:XX:XX:O.S. NOSE, TINGLING, inside: Woke with a runny nose - tingling. Continued throughout the day. Only the nose affected. H:F:02:6c:28:XX:XX:U.S. Fizzy feeling in my nose - is this going to be the start of a cold. materialise into anything throughout the day). H:F:06:12c:00:01:00:U.S. (Doesn‟t seem to be - didn‟t

Woke with a blocked nose, left sided. Sneezed a couple of times. Tickly feeling in nose. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX: Nose and throat felt a little tickly on waking, just like before a cold - it wore of by lunch time. M:F:36:30c:05:XX:XX;N.S. -inside, left: Tingling in left nostril - ultimately runny nose by late evening. H:F:02:6c:27:XX:XX:O.S.

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FACE, BLOATED, under the eyes: Bags under eyes noted by people at work. S:M:18:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Eyes feel puffy. I keep looking at them in the mirror as it feels like they‟re really puffed up, but they aren‟t. Su:F:Pl:00:02:30:U.S. FACE, ERUPTIONS, herpes, lips about: Cold sore developing on lip - the familiar lump on left lower lip: Day 07. O.S. Day 10: Cold sore reduced to a flat pancake form and tiny second sore starting to its left on lower lip. H:F:04:30c:10:XX:XX:N.S. Unbearable outbreak of eight cold sores. H:F:04:30c:72:XX:XX:N.S. Small herpes noted on lower lip. Su:6c:20:32:XX:XX:R.S. FACE, ERUPTIONS, vesicles, itching, chin on: Itchy blister (raised) under chin. Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:XX:N.S. FACE, HEAT, headaches with: Moderate frontal and occipital headache. Forehead and cheeks hot. Headache and flushing of face subsided by 10 p.m. Su:F:20:6c:00:13:10:N.S. FACE, SWELLING, jaw lower, glands in general, hard: Glands under jaw hard - ? cold starting - (did not materialise). H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:O.S. FACE, TWITCHING, lips, upper: I had a twitch of the muscle of my upper lip on the left side. Went within seconds. R:F:08:6c:00:13:50:N.S. MOUTH, ADHERES, Tongue, to roof of mouth: When I woke this morning my mouth felt stuck together. R:F:08:6c:32:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, BITING, lips, lower: Curling bottom lip under teeth and biting it (never done this before). Su:F:Pl:04:XX:XX:N.S. Biting bottom lip. M:F:Post M.P. MOUTH, BLEEDING, gums, cleaning them when: Teeth bled more than normal after brushing. S:F:16:6c:02:XX:XX:A.S.

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Gums very sensitive to brushing teeth > cold. R:F:08:6c:32:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, CORRUGATED, TONGUE: Dry sore mouth with sore inflamed gums. Mouth is stinging inside. Inside bottom lip was inflamed and red and felt as if the skin had come of, i.e. raw. The sides of the tongue feel corrugated. White wine tastes like cats pee and all fruit tastes bitter. Cannot tolerate hot liquid, >cold. R:F:08:6c:32:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, CORRUGATED, GUMS: My gums feel corrugated. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, DRYNESS: I have a dry sore mouth with very sore and inflamed gums. R:F:08:6c:30:XX:XX:N.S. Mouth feels dryer than usual, but not drinking more. Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:U.S. Woke 8.15 a.m. Mouth dry (breathing not possible through blocked nose). S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:R.S. MOUTH, DRYNESS, with thirst: Dry sore mouth with sore inflamed gums. Mouth is stinging inside. Inside bottom lip was inflamed and red and felt as if the skin had come off, i.e. raw. The sides of the tongue feel corrugated. White wine tastes like cats pee and all fruit tastes bitter. Tea tastes O.K. When I woke this morning my mouth felt stuck together. My tongue is a little furry and the inside of my lips are dry < right hand side. Gums very sensitive brushing teeth > cold R:F:08:6c:32:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, DRYNESS, palate: Funny sensation on the roof of my mouth. It feels dry, like the beginning of sinusitis. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:O.S. MOUTH, INFLAMMATION, gums: My gums are swollen and red. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:N.S. My gums felt very tender when I brushed my teeth - they were like that a few weeks ago, but had stopped recently. S:F:16:6c:01:XX:XX:R.S. MOUTH, PAIN burning, raw and smarting, lips, inside of: burning, raw and smarting, excoriated, as if: Mouth is stinging inside. Inside bottom lip was inflamed and red and felt as if the skin had come off. i.e. raw. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:U.S. MOUTH, PAIN, sore, sore, gums. Dry sore mouth with inflamed gums. Gums very sensitive brushing teeth. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:U.S.

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MOUTH, PAIN, sore, gums, eating, while: Gums hurt after eating toast, but > at 3.00 p.m. when ate again. S:F:16:6c:06:XX:X:A.S. MOUTH, PAIN, stinging: Dry sore mouth, sore and inflamed gums. Mouth stinging inside. inside bottom lip was inflamed and red and felt as if the skin had come off i.e. raw. The sides of my tongue are corrugated. R.F.08:6c.34:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, SALIVATION, GENERAL, nausea, with: I had a very odd sensation in my mouth. mouth fills with saliva. Lasted a minute. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Like the sensation when you‟re about to be sick and your

MOUTH, SENSITIVE, food and drink unbearable: White wine, that I normally like, tasted like cats pee and all fruit tastes bitter. Tea tastes O.K. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, SWELLING, gums: My gums are swollen and red. I cannot tolerate hot liquid. Gums are sensitive to brushing teeth > cold. R:F:08:6c::34:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE: bloody, from sneezing: Violent sneeze in the morning. Made throat really sore - could almost taste blood in throat. S:F:16:6c:00:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE, metallic: Brief metallic taste after bending over, 30 minutes after eating a mouthful of tuna fish. H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX:00:U.S. Metallic taste in mouth from fillings: S:M:18:30c:03:XX:XX:N.S. Noticed a slight metallic taste in my mouth not long after taking the remedy. Not very strong but I knew it was there. R:M:10:12c:00:00:30:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE, metallic, food tastes: Noticed a slight metallic taste in my mouth not long after taking the remedy. Not very strong but I knew it was there. Everything had a slightly metallic taste. Slightly more saliva in my mouth. R:M:10:12c:00:00:30:U.S. The lemon cake which normally I adore, tasted tinny and wine I like tasted of chemicals. R:F:08:6c:04:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE, offensive: Realise that during the proving there has been several occasions when tea seemed to have tainted milk, although nobody else noticed it. The milk smelt normal and should not have been off. H:F:02:6c:15:XX:XX:N.S.

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Bought a lemon cake which I love. Tasted very tinny. Wine tasted of chemicals. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE, sweetish: Aware of slight taste in mouth - sweet taste. S:M.18:30c:00:00:40:N.S. MOUTH, TASTE, wanting, salt: Desire for salty things diminished. R:M:10:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, ULCERS: Day 05: Little spot forming on inside of top lip. Day 06: Examined spot and think it is a little ulcer. S:M:18:30c:05:XX:XX:N.S. MOUTH, VESICLES, blood vesicles, - gums: Blood blister inside right gum, as if I‟ve bitten gum. Day 25 Blood blister has changed - split into two little blisters. Day 26. H:F:04:30c:25:XX:XX:U.S. TONGUE, CORRUGATED, sides of: Sides of tongue feel corrugated. Things taste funny. R:F:08:6c:34:XX:XX:N.S. TONGUE, PRICKLING, edge: Tingling on edges of tongue (sides). H:F:04:30c:00:00:20:N.S. TEETH, ABSCESS, roots of: P.H. Cancer lymph glands. Teeth abscesses, gingivitis for many years. Emerald 30c. split dose. Tooth abscess cleared. M:CASE:F:65.C.S. TEETH, PAIN, teeth, toothache, incisors: Front teeth start to ache at 2.00 p.m. constant pain but not really painful. S:F:16:6c:09:XX:XX:N.S. TEETH, WISDOM, teeth, ailments from eruption of: Top left side tooth sore - like discomfort, aware of it. Probably a wisdom tooth which is coming through. Feels as if it may be infected. S:F:16:12c:00:XX:XX:U.S. THROAT, DRYNESS: Scratchy, dry nose and throat, chest, groggy voice, frog in throat. Mucus in sinus going into back of throat. Su:F:Pl:18:XX:XX:O.S.

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THROAT, DRYNESS, morning: 8a.m. cold characteristics stronger, dryness in throat, soreness in back of ears, sniffy nose, no mucus, lump when swallow. H:F:04:30c:01:12:10:N.S. THROAT, LUMP, plug etc, sensation of, swallowing on: Cold characteristics stronger, dryness in throat, soreness in back of ears, sniffy nose, no mucus, lump when swallow. H.F.04:30c:01:12:10:N.S. - painful, Felt a hard lump in my throat during the morning, together with a severe frontal headache. By the afternoon my throat was very bad and I felt unwell. Glands +++ behind ears and sides of throat. M:F:36:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. THROAT, PAIN, liquid after amel: On waking immediately noticed that I had a sore throat, mouth dry, no saliva. However, within one hour, after a hot drink it returned to normal. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:C.S. Sore throat sensation again > after a drink. H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX:O.S. - on swallowing. Woke with sore throat and dysphagia - recurred late evening. H:F:02:6c:11:XX:XX:N.S. THROAT, PAIN, sore: Slightly sore throat. M:M:32:12c:19:XX:XX:O.S. Voice deepened to register typical when have cold/sore throat. H:F:04:30c:00:14:20:O.S. Sore throat. H:F:02:6c:10:XX:XX:O.S. THROAT, PAIN, sore, morning, waking, on: Signs of a sore throat this morning. Think I‟ve got a cold but nothing materialised. H.F.06:12c:05:XX:XX:U.S. On waking I immediately noticed that I had a sore throat, mouth dry, no saliva. However, within one hour, after a hot drink it returned to normal. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Woke with a sore throat and dysphagia. H:F:02:6c:11:XX:XX:N.S. and evening: Woke with a sore throat and dysphagia, it recurred this evening. H:F:02:6c:10:XX:XX:O.S.

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THROAT, PAIN, sore, left: Sore throat < left side. H:F:06:12c:16:XX:XX:R.S. Sore throat, there is an ulcer on the top of the soft palate on the left. Red to look at. M:F:38:12c:07:XX:XX:N.S. THROAT, PAIN, sore, sneezing: Violent sneeze in the morning. Made throat really sore - could almost taste blood in throat. S:F:16:6c:00:XX:XX:U.S. THROAT, PAIN, sore, extending to chest: Awoke feeling that the pain in my throat had moved down, chest sore. M:F:36:30c:18:XX:XX:N.S See below, external throat, induration, of glands.. EXTERNAL THROAT, INDURATION, of glands: Hard lump in my throat during the morning with a severe frontal headache. By the after the afternoon the pain in my throat was very had and I felt very unwell. Ears hurting. Glands +++ behind ears and sides of throat, an old symptom but these were the hardest lumps I have ever had. See above, throat pain. M:F:36:30c:16:XX:XX:A.S. Scratchy, dry nose, throat and chest. Groggy voice, frog in throat. Mucus in sinus, not blocked or blowing out, just going into back of throat. Neck glands up but no sore throat. Su:F:Pl:18:XX:XX: Glands under jaw hard - cold starting. Can feel in ears - peripheral soreness = cold. H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:O.S. STOMACH, APPETITE, diminished: No appetite. Drank a bottle of mineral water. Day 00: Not feeling hungry, although I have eaten breakfast, egg, bread and butter. frequently, every hour or so - would usually had lunch by now. Day 01. Su:F:24:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Good breakfast, then nothing for lunch and no midmorning snack. Very unusual. M:M:32:12c:02:XX:XX:U.S. Had toast for breakfast - but don‟t feel hungry, despite only having had a salad for tea. S:F:16:6c:01:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, BURNING PAIN, oesophagus, morning: Gastric discomfort gradually developed during the afternoon. Burning sensation and acidity in lower oesophagus. Persisted until going to bed (mild acidity). Su:F:20:6c:29:XX:XX:N.S. STOMACH, DESIRES, chocolate: Craved chocolate, which I do not normally eat, and sweet things. S:F:16:6c:12:XX:XX:N.S. Eating quite a lot. Had a big bar of chocolate, Cadbury‟s dairy milk. Day 09: Constantly want chocolate, had yoghurt instead. Usually eat more

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M:F:34:30c:08:XX:XX:A.S. Craving for wagon wheels but this has happened before. S.M.18:06:XX:XX:O.S. chocolate agg: Discovered I am allergic to wagon wheels after bringing them home Thursday. S.M:18:30c:07:XX:XX:N.S. STOMACH, DESIRES, cold drinks: Drank two bottles of mineral water, coke bottle size, on the train coming home. Day 00 M:F:36:30c:00:XX:XX:U.S. 5A.M. Woke thirsty, drank half a pint of water. S:M:18:30c:00:14:00:U.S. I drank more water today, I was hot and felt I needed to flush the system out, don‟t often do that but decided today I needed water. M:F:38:12c:00:XX:XX:U.S. No appetite: drank a bottle of mineral water. Su:F:24:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Thirsty for water, drank 1 litre. Su:F:Pl:17:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, DESIRES, fish: Fancied fish and chips, unusual for us. M:F:38:12c:01:XX:XX:U.S. fish agg: Brief metallic taste after eating a mouthful of tuna fish. H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX: Sore tip to tongue following salmon sandwich. H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX:A.S. STOMACH, DESIRES, oranges: Ate three oranges in one go, they were a lot for me, they were just there, didn‟t cook, husband‟s away, just fancied them. M:F:36:30c:06:XX:XX:U.S. Ate three small oranges. S:M:18:30c:00:XX:XX:O.S. oranges agg: Slight feeling of acid in stomach after eating oranges, soon went. Day 01. S:M:18:30c:00:03:00:A.S.

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STOMACH, INDIGESTION: Slight feeling of acid in stomach. S:M:18:30c:00:04:45:R.S. I had indigestion by 10.00 a.m. The discomfort was high in my stomach, just below the rib cage. It passed fairly quickly - 30 - 40 minutes. S:M:14:30c:00:03:15:R.S. STOMACH, INDIGESTION: morning: Mild indigestion on waking which lasted until midday > eating light food. Su:F:20:6c:16:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, INDIGESTION, evening: Late evening, epigastric discomfort resembling indigestion. H:F:02:6c:05:XX:XX:U.S. Woke at 00:15 a.m. felt a bit acidic ?heartburn, a sort of lump went up to my throat, chest, back again. Feeling very cold. M:F:38:12c:10:XX:XX:R.S. STOMACH, NAUSEA: Very slight feeling of nausea. Nothing else. M:F:34:30c:00:02:15:N.S. On the way to work I felt sick - in the same way I did when I was „depressed‟, i.e. walking along and suddenly it‟s a real struggle not to vomit for no apparent reason. Also thirsty all day - this was part of the sickness before. Faeces at 10.45a.m. very diarrhoea like. S:F:16:6c:04:XX:XX:O.S. STOMACH, NAUSEA, diarrhoea with: Woke with heartburn. Tummy began to grumble, but not that much. I had a distinct feeling I could be sick. Bowels open, normal and then turned to diarrhoea. Had to put my face over the bowl as I thought I might be sick. Splashed my face with cold water and did some deep breathing, feeling went off. Tummy grumbles again and gripey low abdominal pains, had diarrhoea again, thought I‟d be sick again but it passed off. I didn‟t get the feeling of being very sweaty and drained and didn‟t look drained of colour. (“Think it may be due to emotion things happening at the moment”). M:F:38:12c:11:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, NAUSEA, pain during, in abdomen: 7.30 a.m. Burning pain across abdomen. Slightly > passing wind, but not gone. 8.45 a.m. Pain still there but settled around right ovary. Feeling as if I would faint or be sick. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. Recurrence of mild low central abdominal discomfort late evening. Accompanied by brief wave of nausea. (Day 02: two brief occurrences of central abdominal discomfort, passed spontaneously). H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, NAUSEA, perspiration during: Feeling similar to feeling car sick, going very hot in body, starting to sweat in waves, first stomach, then brow of head, then palms of hands, arm pits. Went outside to cool down. S:M:18:30c:00:01:40:U.S.

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STOMACH, NAUSEA, salivation with: I have a very odd sensation in my mouth. Like the sensation when you are about to be sick and your mouth fills with saliva. Lasted a minute. R:M:10:12c:01:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, NAUSEA, after stool: Wanted to go to the lavatory. Slight ache around the umbilicus and slightly lower. Upset stomach “bubbly” sensation. Very loose, diarrhoea, soft windy. Very unusual, takes a lot to upset me. Felt nauseous from time to time later. Lasted about two hours. M:M:32:12c:00:07:30. U.S. STOMACH, THIRST: On the way to work felt sick, in the same way I did when I was “depressed” (i.e. walking along and suddenly it‟s a real struggle not to vomit for no apparent reason), also thirsty all day - this was part of the sickness before. S:F:16:6c:04:XX:XX:R.S. STOMACH, THIRST, for large quantities of water: Drunk more water today, I was hot - needed to flush out the system. Don‟t often do that but decided today I needed water. M:F:38:6c:00:XX:XX:U.S. Drank two bottles of mineral water (coke size) on train. M:F:36:30c:00:XX:XX:A.S. Thirsty for water, drank l litre. Su:F:Pl:17:XX:XX:U.S. Woke at 2.45 a.m. thirsty - drank half a pint of water. Woke 5.00 a.m. thirsty - drank half a pint of water. S:M:18:30c:00:12:45:U.S. STOMACH, THIRSTLESS: I am not thirsty, normally drink several glasses of water, coke, orange. R:F:08:6c:00:12:45:U.S. STOMACH, VOMITING, chemotherapy from: 47 year old female telephoned me from France, she was to have three months of chemotherapy prior to left mastectomy for breast cancer. I sent her Thuja 30 split dose (“Thuja really helped, gave me the courage to get on with it”), Hydr, cund, gall 3x b.d. Constitutional Calc. Carb. and miasmatic remedies given at regular intervals throughout therapy. 1st Course chemotherapy: Migraine top of head, pounded. Felt really cold. Woke vomiting and pouring sweat. Took an antinausea pill felt >. Cannot tolerate smell of food, only eating fruit, mandarins and lychees. Constant lower dull back pain, trying to flush things out. Emerald 6 1 tab t.d.s.>>>. 2nd Course chemotherapy: Emerald 6 continued. “Staggered by the change from the first course, feel quite good, feel incredible, feel chirpy. No nausea, no smell intolerance, just tired, able to eat O.K. Don‟t fancy meat, prefer stir fry vegetables and rice, cold drinks 3L/day, sleeping well, lower back pain>>>.”. 3rd Course chemotherapy: Husband telephoned, vomiting non stop. Emerald 30 >>> within the hour. Post operatively vomiting did not respond to Phosphorus, >>>Emerald. She was told she needed more chemotherapy due to cancerous lymph gland found in her axilla.

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1st post operative course: continuous vomiting during and since chemotherapy two days ago, hot before sickness, face flushed, lot of saliva, head buzzed, vomit like water - yellow, felt faint in head. Not >Emerald she vomited every time she put it in her mouth. Due to dehydration, shuddering continuously and pain over kidneys >>>holding Emerald 200 over that area (dimensional shift). Ipecac 6 written on a piece of paper placed under a tumbler of water then sipped until husband could buy some Ipecac. She did not need tablets >>> before husband came home (I had to use what remedies were available in patient‟s stock and one could argue the Emerald cured her vomiting, by dimensional shift ). M:CASE:F:47:C.S. STOMACH, VOMITING, drinking after, alcohol: Vomited at 11.30 after only two gin and tonics. S:F:16:6c:05:XX:XX:U.S. STOMACH, VOMITING, headache, during: Female patient 50 years, c.o. migrainous headache with incessant vomiting, <movement, >lying down in dark room not >Bryonia. Vomiting >>> Emerald 30. M:CASE:F:50:00:00:20:C.S. STOMACH, VOMITING, incessant: as Stomach, vomiting headaches. as Stomach, vomiting, chemotherapy . as Stomach, vomiting, pregnancy during. STOMACH, VOMITING, post operative: 47 year old female, post operative vomiting >>>Emerald 30. M.Case:F:47:C.S. STOMACH, VOMITING, pregnancy during: 25year old primigravida 11 weeks pregnant. C.o. nausea and vomiting constantly since 4 weeks. Stomach bile, phlegm, food and water come back. Blown blood vessels in both eyes from constant vomiting. Admitted to hospital, placed on an I.V. antiemetic and later discharged on pill form. Referred by G.P. Vomits the minute she wakes up, <morning, <movement, restless in evenings. Desires sweet foods. Unable to work. Emerald 30 >>>, returned to work. M:CASE:F:25:C.S. ABDOMEN: BUBBLING: Wanted to go to the lavatory. Slight ache around umbilicus and slightly lower. Upset stomach “bubbly‟ sensation. Very loose, diarrhoea, soft and windy. Nauseous time to time later. M:M:32:12c:01:07:30:U.S. ABDOMEN, DISTENSION: evening: 9.30 a.m. Loose stool, a bit of “crickey I want to go to the loo NOW”. P.M. Abdomen felt a little distended and slightly windy. (turkey yesterday, sometimes does this) M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. Evening - abdominal distension at bedtime and discomfort. H:F:02:6c:09:XX:XX:U.S. ABDOMEN, DISTENSION, menses, during: I feel rather full of wind and constipated. Haven‟t been to the loo (can be constipated before periods). Heavy, bloated feeling in lower part of abdomen (periods started 2 days early after taking Emerald 6c). R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:A.S.

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ABDOMEN, HEAVINESS, as from a load: Feel very heavy - thick around the middle. H:F:02:6c:31:XX:XX:U.S. ABDOMEN, HEAVINESS, as from a load, menses, during: I feel rather full of wind and constipated. Haven‟t been to the loo (can be constipated before periods). Heavy bloated feeling in lower part of abdomen. ( Periods started day 00 two days early). R:F:08:6c:02:XX:XX:A.S. ABDOMEN, INGUINAL, glands, swelling: My glands had come up under my arms and groin area recently. During the next few weeks I was aware of a drawing feeling under my arms, axilla region, as if the lymphatics were being drained. Glands returned to normal axilla and groin. M:Post:Med P:F:C.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, constipation from: My stomach was upset - some pain and flatulence - discomfort sums it up. Day 26. Stomach was still of - not moving bowels properly - flatulence and continuing discomfort. Day 27. No bowel movement! Day 29. S:M:14:30c:26:XX:XX:U.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, extending to testicles: Stomach ache between 9 - 11 a.m. Pain extending down to testicles, a little ache as if pain comes from stomach to both testicles. It was a dull pain from 11 am. - 5 p.m. Constipated this evening. Day 02 Stomach ache and ache to testicles persisted all morning. Felt wobbly (=general weakness). Day 03. M:M:32:12c:00:01:02:30:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, hypogastrium: Dull ache in the hypogastric region which disappeared on eating. Then it returned as a low grade pain, deep in the abdominal region which passed in two hours. Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:XX.N.S. While still in bed, started to get slight pains in stomach area. At first felt like ovulation but it is too early. Then pain is receding a bit now (9.30a.m.) It seemed to be quite low down. S:F:16:6c:01:XX:XX:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, inguinal region, right: P.M. Pain in the right hand side of my tummy, sharp, lasted only a short while, 30 seconds. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX.N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, inguinal region, ovulation, as from: While still in bed, started to get slight pains in stomach area. At first it felt like ovulation, but too early. The pain is receding a bit now (9.30a.m.) It seemed to be quite low down. S:F:16:6c:00:16:00:N.S. 7.30 a.m. Woke with burning pain across abdomen. 8.45a.m. Pain still there but settled around right ovary. Feeling as if I would faint or be sick. 9.00 a.m. Pain right ovary seems to be higher now under waist, stabbing, nauseous, >breakfast. 9.30 a.m. The pain is still lurking, but no longer so intense. It is the same as the feeling I associate with ovulation. This lasted much longer and was 100% more intense.

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H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. Felt a slight drawing, glancing pain downwards on the right hand side of abdomen over right ovary. Same evening period started (menses not due, 18 days in cycle, usually 28 day cycle). Menses heavier than usual. Post M.P.30c:00:02:00:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, inguinal region, sprain, as from: I have a little „nagging‟ pain in my right groin. A sort of strain or perhaps a „pull‟. Had a similar pain, but not the same pain some months ago. S:M:14:30c:20:XX:XX:R.S./A.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, umbilicus, region of: Very brief central abdominal discomfort whilst driving 5.30 p.m. Longer lasting similar abdominal discomfort during evening. Passed spontaneously. H:F:02:6c:02:XX:XX:U.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, umbilicus region of, diarrhoea, before: Wanted to go to the lavatory. Slight ache around umbilicus and slightly lower. Upset stomach, a „bubbly‟ sensation, lasted two hours. Very loose, diarrhoea, soft windy. Nauseous later. M:M:32:12c:00:04:30:U.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, burning, wandering: 00: 1.25p.m. Fleeting pain across abdomen. 03: 7.30 a.m. Burning pain across abdomen > passing wind but not gone. 8.45 a.m. Pain still there but settled over right ovary. Feeling as if I would faint or be sick. 9.00 a.m. Pain right ovary seems to be higher now under waist - stabbing, nauseous > breakfast. 9.30 a.m. The pain is still lurking but no longer intense. It‟s the same as the feeling I associate with ovulation, but that is only fleeting. This has lasted much longer and was 100% more intense. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, cramping, griping, Hypogastrum, region of, stool during: Woke with heartburn. Tummy began to grumble but not that much. I had a distinct feeling I could be sick. Bowels open normally, then turned to diarrhoea. I had to put my face over bowl as I thought I might be sick. Splashed face with cold water and did some deep breathing, feeling went off. Tummy grumbles again and gripping low abdominal pain, had diarrhoea again. Thought I‟d be sick but it passed off. (“Think it may be due to emotional things happening at the moment”). M:F:38:12c:11:XX:XX:U.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, cramping, griping, Umbilicus region of, stool before: Cramping stomach pains mid abdomen, followed by huge bowel movement. I feel better for it, I had been feeling uncomfortable before. R:F:08:6c:14:XX:XX:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, cutting, Umbilicus region of: Very windy, a lot of loud farting. Not particularly smelly. Sharp pain in abdomen, middle. Only lasted a short while. R:M:10:12c:04:XX:XX:N.S. Pain over right ovary seems to be higher now under the waist - stabbing, nauseous > breakfast. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. ABDOMEN, PAIN, sore, bruised, tenderness:

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I had a pain in my lower stomach, right side around the appendix area, just to the left of the pelvic bone was very tender and this morning is still very tender to touch. R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. ABDOMEN, RUMBLING: Slight rumbling and gurgling in abdomen (mid). Windy and passing wind, (quite windy anyway) but more than usual. R:M:10:04:XX:XX:A.S. My stomach was a bit grumbly last night, middle abdomen, below the naval. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX:U.S. RECTUM, BLEEDING, from anus and rectum, stool after, Quite substantial anal bleeding after defaecation. I have had a haemorrhoid but have had no anal bleeding for about 10 years. Bowel movements no different from usual – they are good bowel movements. H:F:04:30c:23:XX:XX:O.S. RECTUM, BLEEDING, from anus and rectum, stool after, difficult from Very, very hard bowel movement and hard to pass. I‟ve been much more constipated since taking the remedy. Slight blood after, have I got a haemorrhoid? Haven‟t had one since first pregnant 17 years ago. H:F:06:6c:14:XX:XX:O.S. RECTUM, CONSTIPATION Day 17: Bowels not open, despite drinking large quantities of orange juice. Day 18: Bowels not open (still drinking great quantities of orange juice). Day 20: Very constipated. (Fed up, poor memory, discontent). M:F:36:30c:17:XX:XX:U.S. RECTUM, CONSTIPATION, ALTERNATING with diarrhoea: Day 01: Upset stomach, very loose, diarrhoea, soft windy – unusual for me. Day 02: This evening constipated – wanted to go but it would not come out. 8.30 p.m. No pain, urge to go, nothing came out initially but did eventually – not all of it, incomplete. M:M:32:12c:01:12:00:N.S. RECTUM, CONSTIPATION, difficult stool: Very, very hard bowel movement and hard to pass. Panicked during this time – like having a baby. Would it ever come out. Lots of sharp pain. Slight blood loss. Have I now got a haemorrhoid (not had one since pregnancy 17 years ago). H:F:06:12c:14:XX:XX:N.S. Cramping stomach pains mid abdomen, followed by a huge bowel movement. I feel > for I have been uncomfortable. R:F:08:13:XX:XX:U.S. RECTUM, CONSTIPATION, ineffectual urging and straining: Constipated for me, usually go when I get up at 6.20 a.m. (normally soft), much firmer than usual more difficult to push out. (Continued for the next four days). M:F:38:12c:00:07:00:N.S. This evening constipated – wanted to go but it would not come out, 8.30 p.m. No pain, urge to go, nothing came out initially but did eventually – not all of it, incomplete.

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M:M:06:12c:14:XX:XX:N.S. RECTUM, CONSTIPATION, insufficient stool, menses during: I feel rather full of wind and constipated. Haven‟t been to the loo (can be constipated before periods, menses started early day 00). Heavy, bloated feeling in lower part of abdomen. R:F:08:6c: 02:XX:XX:A.S. RECTUM, DIARRHOEA: Upset stomach. Slight ache around umbilicus and slightly lower. Bubbly sensation. Very loose, diarrhoea, soft, windy. M:M:32:12c:00:10:30:U.S. Diarrhoea - orangey and smelly. Day 3. Explosive like stools, no pain, orangey. Day 4. S:F16:6c.03:XX:XX:N.S. Loose stool at 9.30 am. A bit of “crickey‟ I want to go to the loo NOW. Abdomen felt a little distended and windy. M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. RECTUM, DIARRHOEA, emotional: Woke with heartburn. Tummy began to grumble but not that much. I had a distinct feeling I could be sick. B.O. normal then turned to diarrhoea. Had to put my face over the bowl as I thought I might be sick. Splashed face with cold water and did some deep breathing, feeling went off. Tummy grumbles again, had diarrhoea again, thought I‟d be sick but it passed off. Gripey low abdominal pains. (Think it may be due to emotional issues). M:F:38:12c:11:XX:XX:U.S. RECTUM, ERUPTION about anus, itchy: Day 21: Itching and discomfort around rectum. Started Friday morning. Do not need to scratch but aware it is there constantly. Day 25: Soreness around rectum was a lesion. Red and purple colour. Woke up Monday and it had completely healed. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:N.S. RECTUM, FLATUS: Slight rumbling and gurgling in abdomen (mid) windy and passing wind (quite windy anyway) more than usual. R:M:10:12c:03:XX:XX:A.S. Loose stool 9.30 a.m. A bit of crickey I want to go to the loo now. Abdomen felt a little distended and windy (Turkey we had yesterday sometimes does this). M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:O.S. RECTUM, FLATUS, morning: Day 02: 10.00a.m. Flatulence from last night‟s meal still. Day 06: Wind this morning - following meal out. Not very heavy. Lasted until 10.30a.m. (I seem to be having an awful lot of flatulence with this remedy). H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX:A.S. RECTUM, FLATUS, evening: Day 00: 11:35 p.m. A lot of flatulence - passing wind. Unusual because we didn‟t eat late - we did have garlic bread - but not a huge meal.

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Day 02: 9p.m. onwards flatulence +++. I seem to be having an awful lot of flatulence with this remedy. H:F:06:12c:00:03:35:A.S. RECTUM, FLATUS, diarrhoea, during: Upset stomach, slight ache around umbilicus and slightly lower. diarrhoea, soft, windy. M:M:32:12c:00:07:30:U.S. RECTUM, FLATUS, loud: Very windy. A lot of loud farting. No particularly smelly. Sharp pain in abdomen, middle, only lasted a minute. R:M:10:12c:04:XX:XX:A.S. RECTUM, HAEMORRHOIDS: Second day with anal bleeding when defaecated. Very unusual - stools soft and O.K. Have had a haemorrhoid but this hasn‟t happened for 10 years or so and certainly not so much. H:F:04:30c:23:XX:XX:O.S. Very, very hard bowel movement and hard to pass. Lots of sharp pain. Slight blood loss. Have I now got a haemorrhoid (not had one since pregnancy 17 years ago). H.F:06:12c:14:XX:XX:O.S. RECTUM, ITCHING: Itching and discomfort around rectum. Do not need to scratch but aware it is there constantly. Have not looked at it but it feels as if it may be moist. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:N.S. RECTUM, URGING, sudden: 9.30a.m. loose stool - a bit of “crickey - want to go to the loo now!‟. M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. STOOL, HARD: Had a bowel movement that was like small pellets and hard. Not painful but uncomfortable to pass. Su:F:Pl:20:XX:XX:N.S. Very, very hard bowel movement and hard to pass. Panicked during this, like having a baby - would it every come out. Lots of sharp pain. I have been much more constipated since taking the remedy. Slight blood after - have I got a haemorrhoid - I haven‟t had one since I was first pregnant 17 years ago! H:F:06:14:XX:XX:N.S. STOOL, LARGE: as above H:F:06:14:XX:XX:N.S. Cramping stomach pains, mid abdomen followed by a huge bowel movement. I felt > for it. I had been feeling very uncomfortable. R:F:08:13:XX:XX:U.S. STOOL, ODOUR, offensive: Diarrhoea - orangey and smelly. Bubbly sensation. Very loose

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S:F:16:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. STOOL, ORANGE: Diarrhoea - orangey and smelly. S:F:16:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. STOOL, SOFT: 9.30 a m. loose stool. M:F:36:04:XX:XX:N.S. STOOL, TENACIOUS: Faeces sticky - had to use lots of loo paper. M:F:38:12c:06:XX:XX:U.S. BLADDER, URGING, night: Kept having to go to the toilet - a bit like a cystitis feeling but without the pain. S:F:16:6c:04:XX:XX:N.S. BLADDER, URGING, absent: No urgency to urinate, made conscious effort to urinate, normal. S:M:18:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. BLADDER: URINATION, incomplete, bladder full, urging to urinate, but scanty urine: Felt the urge to pee a lot, but didn‟t pee much. R:F:08:6c:07:XX:XX:U.S. KIDNEY PAIN, CHEMOTHERAPY, during: 47 year old female, c.o. persistent vomiting and pain over the kidneys during chemotherapy. She had several courses of chemotherapy where she had had nausea and vomiting successfully treated with Emerald 6 and 30c. On her last dose of chemotherapy every time she put a tablets in her mouth she vomited. Emerald 200 held over her kidneys (transitional shift) >>>. M:Case:F:47.C.S. URINARY ORGANS; URINE, copious: I feel that I am peeing slightly more than usual. It is a normal colour and I‟m not drinking any more than usual - the remedy seems to be mildly diuretic. R:M:10:12c:02:XX:XX:U.S. GENITALIA, MALE: PAIN, aching, testes: 9 - 11 a.m. Stomach ache went down bilaterally to testicles. 11a.m. - 5 p.m. Dull ache. (constipated this evening but it would not come out). Day 3 a.m. Stomach ache and ache in testicles persists all morning. Feel a little wobbly. M:M:32:12c:01:02:30:N.S. GENITALIA, MALE, SEXUAL PASSION, diminished: Slept well, like a log, no dreams. No erections, as if sex doesn‟t exist. S:M:14:30c:14:XX:XX:A.S. GENITALIA, MALE, SEXUAL PASSION, increased: Fancied sex, really fancied sex.

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S:M:14:30c:00:XX:XX:A.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, ITCHING, vulva, night: Woke with a terrible itch around the vulva. Convinced it was thrush. REALLY, itchy < heat of bed. H:F:06:12c:15:XX:XX:U.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, before agg: Period not started yet (4 weeks today). No P.M.T. yet. I feel different to normal. Normally would have emotional symptoms - negativity or irritability, bitchiness, depression. Su:F:24:30c:16:XX:XX:C.S. No P.M.T. or other symptoms present - water retention/sore breasts/change of stool. Su:F:Pl:22:XX:XX:C.S. Day -04: Menses started 4 days early, most surprising, (N.S.) no symptoms of backache or heaviness. Fairly normal flow. Did not have the usual pre menstrual slight constipation. M:F:34:30c:-04:XX:XX:A.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, clotted: No P.M.T. (N.S.). Had no pains (N.S.) Flow same as usual. Had one clot. (N.S.). Su:F:24:17:XX:XX:N.S. Last period was the heaviest and most ghastly period I have ever had. Even in the night I had to get up to change tampons, < 2nd day. Sore abdomen, felt drained. Clots ++. Considered medication to stop flow but did not. M:F:34:60:XX:XX:N.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, copious, - frequent, too early, too soon - 2 days too early. Period came with a great flood. It was two days early and was very sudden, no warning. Unusual, great flood. No pain, no clots, very heavy for me. R:F:08:6c:00:00:30:U.S. Periods now 26 days apart. The last period was the heaviest and most ghastly period I have ever had. Even in the night I have to get up to change tampons < on the 2nd day. Sore abdomen and felt drained. Clots. Considered medication but did not stop the flow. M:F:34:30c:3mth F.U.:N.S. 4 days too early Menses started 4 days early, most surprising. No symptoms e.g. backache or heaviness. M:F:34:30c:-04:XX:XX:N.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, late: Day 06: Last menstrual period late. Still amenorrhoeic, 12 days late - very unusual. (Has not experienced this since before the children were born - had amenorrhoea for 7 years previous to this). Started 2 weeks later than expected. H:F:02:6c:11:XX:XX:U.S. Menses started Tuesday afternoon, day late. Su:F:24:30c:17:XX:XX:U.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, mental symptoms menses, before:

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No P.M.T. yet (28 days in cycle). I feel different to normal . Normally I would have emotional symptoms, bitchiness, irritability, depression. Felt detached from that. Had no pains (N.S.). Felt in control and kind of inward - like being alone with myself even when in company. I can be over critical of self and others. Feel defensive. Su:F:24:30c:17:XX:XX:C.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, painful, dysmenorrhoea: As above, Su:F:24:30c:17:XX:XX:C.S. P.M.T. usually one week before menses (emotional). Now no P.M.T. When menses come less physcially tired and also pain shorter and less intense. Symptoms moved to during menses instead of before. Su:F:24:30c:17:XX:XX:A.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, return after having ceased, the periods: Day 10 - A smidgen of blood like the start of a period. I hope not. It‟s 19 months since I had a period. I did feel a weenie bit pre menstrual yesterday, particularly murderous for one fleeting second yesterday lunch time. Surely not a period after so long. Day 11: slight blood trace again today, like the end of a period. Day 12: Menstrual blood just a smear today, like the end of a period - light, brownish, thin and long string of dark red, old blood. Both typical. Day 13: only minute traces and very light today. Blood smears finished. H:F:04:30c:10:XX:XX:U.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, MENSES, suppressed: Menses started Sunday p.m. Flow greatly reduced. Usually heavy but this is more like a sticky discharge red in colour. Monday midmorning - severe congested headache. Felt as if blood was pounding in head, top of head and both sides of temples. Reduced me to tears, did not know what to do with the pain. Tuesday flow still not increased. No other menstrual symptoms that would usually be present, water retention, sore breasts, change of stool. On holiday - lost book but after the previously explained light bleeding, sudden had a very heavy flow. No PMT or other symptoms just much heavier bleeding than usual - felt as if the balance was righted. Su:F:Pl:22:XX:XX:U.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, PAIN, Ovaries, eating amel, Extending to abdomen, Ovulation, pain, sharp, ovaries, right 8.45 a.m. Pain still there but settled around the right ovary. Feeling as if I would faint or be sick. 9 a.m. Pain right ovary seems to be higher now under waist, stabbing, nauseous > breakfast. 9.30 a.m. The pain is still lurking but no longer intense. It is the same as the feeling I associate with ovulation, but that is fleeting, this has lasted much longer and was 100% more intense. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:N.S. GENITALIA, FEMALE, PAIN, vulva, menses, before: Sore vulva (can happen before a period) < than usual - before period. Thought it would move on to thrush but it didn‟t. H:F:06:12c:13:XX:XX:A.S. PREGNANCY, CHILDBIRTH DIFFICULT: Artificially inseminated pet cow, Primrose, 2 weeks overdue. V. large. Rx Emerald 200. She had the calf later that day, no problems even though such a large calf might have needed help. M:Case:Prim.C.S.

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PREGNANCY, Nausea during, constant: 25 year old primigravida, 11 weeks pregnant. C.o. nausea and vomiting constantly since 4 weeks. Vomits stomach bile, phlegm; food and water come back. Blown blood vessels both eyes from constant vomiting. Admitted to hospital, placed on I.V. anti emetic and later discharged on pill form. Referred by G.P. Vomits the minute she wakes up, <morning, <movement, restless in evenings. Desires sweet food. Unable to work. Emerald 30 >>> Returned to work. M:CASE:F: 25. LARYNX & TRACHEA, PAIN, throat pit: Amazingly painful throat. Felt a hard lump in the morning by the afternoon my throat was very painful. Glands up behind ears. M:F:36:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. LARYNX & TRACHEA, PAIN: Felt tightness in chest on waking, throat hurting. Voice changed (small, whispering). Felt very unwell. DAY 18: Awoke feeling that the pain in my throat had moved down, chest sore. M:F:36:17:XX:XX:N.S. LARYNX & TRACHEA, TICKLING, in the air passages, morning, on waking: Nose and throat felt a little „tickly‟ on waking (just like before a cold). M:F36::30c:05:XX:XX:O.S.

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Cold hasn‟t materialised which is most unexpected. What is unusual and what is new? Normally these reported symptoms of sore throat, nasal drip, bring on a snotty cold. Not this time. In fact, I can „hear‟ the cold in my voice. Day 04 Voice variations, some deepening, some husky, back to normal. Day 08. H:F:04:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. Groggy voice, frog in throat with scratchy dry nose throat, chest, mucus in sinus going into back of throat. Neck glands up. Relaxing weekend, unusual to have a cold unless stressed. Su:F:Pl:18:XX:XX:U.S. LARYNX, VOICE, weak, whispering: Felt tightness in chest on waking, throat hurting. Voice changed, (small, weak, whispering). Felt very unwell. M:F:3630c:17:XX:XX:N.S. RESPIRATION, DIFFICULT, night , during, bed in; cold, after taking, with the head low: Could not get to sleep because I could not breathe. Had two pillows in the end. <lying down > propped up. Nose running and sneezing. Very unusual for me when getting a cold. Usually < in a.m. H:F:06:12c:20:XX:XX:U.S. RESPIRATION, DIFFICULT, after exertion:

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Went to the gym. Did 4 mins at 12 mph and was sweating, puffing, panting. Normally 8 - 9 mins. Absolutely wringing - unusual. After 5 minutes on the rowing machine, really tight in the chest. Laborious hard work, not particularly enjoyable. S:M:14:30c:06:XX:XX:U.S. I pushed the pram up the hill. It was warm and sunny - but I was out of breath. I was surprised as I thought I was fit. I exercise regularly. M:F:38:12c:00:04:00:U.S. RESPIRATION, DIFFICULT, inspiration: Tight chest, pain going through to back. Hurt to breath, happy not moving. Feel sluggish. Voice hoarse. Don‟t want company. M:F:36:30c:21:XX:XX:R.S. RESPIRATION, WHEEZING, pollution from: Noticed today that that “pollution wheeze” I have had since moving from Berkshire (convinced its traffic pollution) has gone since taking the remedy. H:F:04:30c:04:XX:XX:C.S. COUGH, DRY, tickling in larynx, from, waking from sleep: Dry tickly cough started Monday a.m. Cough comes at 5 a.m. and wakes me up - no cough in the day. Phlegm clearing on chest. Su:F:Pl:23:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, CONSCIOUS, heart‟s action: Heart pounding when awoke - felt it, conscious of it beating, S:M:18:30c:00:15:55:N.S. CHEST, CONSTRICTION, tension, tightness; chill during: Dryness and tightness in chest the same. Cold has not moved on. Nose is blocked. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:A.S. morning on waking, Felt a “tightness” in my chest on waking. Throat is hurting, voice changed - hoarseness (it was weak and whispering). Felt very unwell. Happy not moving. Hurts to breath. Thirsty for orange juice. Anxious about what I was going to get. M:F:36:30c:17:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, CONSTRICTION, inspiration during, waking on: Awoke with a slight „tight‟ feeling in my chest. Felt a little tight on inspiration. M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, ERUPTIONS, AXILLA, lumps: itching: Awoke at 2 a.m. with mild irritation in right arm pit and at rear. So disturbing. Had to get up and put Calendula on it. Not hot, nothing rubbing. Felt like lumps. H:F:04:30c:5l:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, PAIN, cutting (sudden, sharp pain) Mammae under, left, extending to scapula, walking on, ANXIETY: pain in the heart with:

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Transient sharp pain under left breast, went through to back. I stopped and took a breath, felt pretty unwell and anxious. Running late. Unwell for half an hour. Felt like taking some more Capricorn (Emerald) but didn‟t! M:F:36:30c:08:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, PAIN, heart, region of: At about noon I had a lancing, stabbing pain in the area of my heart. It passed in 10 minutes. S:M:14:30c:00:05:00:R.S. CHEST, PAIN, SHARP, sternum, extending to back: inspiration during: Day 00:23:30: 11.30 a.m. Late morning central chest pain under sternum, short lived, sharp pain, when I breathed in - a one off. N.S. Day 04: 11 a.m. Chest pain, (centre) tight behind sternum, momentarily, nothing else. Day 08: Transient sharp pain under left breast - went through to back, stopped and took a breath, felt pretty unwell and anxious. Felt like taking some more Capricorn (Emerald). Day 21 Chest pain tight. Pain from central chest through to back. M:F:36:30c:00:23:30:N.S. CHEST, PAIN, SORE, chill during: Awoke feeling that the pain in my throat had „moved down‟, chest sore. M:F:36:30c:18:XX:XX:U.S. CHEST, PULSATION, HEART: morning in bed: Heart pounding when awoke - felt it, conscious of it beating. S:M:18:30c:00:15:55:N.S. CHEST, HEART, SENSATION, as if jumping out of chest: Room felt very hot, putting picture frames up, felt very heated, heart beating loudly, but not rapidly - 78 bpm. lying down, yet could feel it jumping of my chest. S:M:18:30c:06:XX:XX:N.S. CHEST, SWELLING, axillary glands: My glands had come up under my arms and groin area recently. After the meditation proving with 30c. I was aware of a drawing feeling under my arms, as if the lymphatics were being drained. The feeling continued for a few weeks, after which I had no swollen glands. Again I had this feeling, that after taking Emerald, don‟t use underarm deodorants, give your body a chance to detoxify. M:Post M.P.C.S. CHEST, TUMORS, MAMMAE: Patient informed me she had had a breast lump after the proving - went to a consultant surgeon. “Not part of the proving, have had them before., x1 in 20‟s, 4 - 5 since, X2 aspirated, X1 disappeared after the proving”. M:F:36:30c:approx 4 - 6 weeks later:O.S. - painless, in right, mobile, regular, circular Two weeks ago detected a breast lump, right side, (medial to nipple), mobile, regular, circular. Not painful. Have not tested my breasts for years, put my fingers straight to it. Had it aspirated. M:F:34:30c:109:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, ERUPTIONS, buttocks, elevations: Four bumps like heat bumps on my left buttock - so peculiar. Not very hot in the night, so I can‟t find a modality except > for cold water.

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H:F:04:30c:40:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, ERUPTIONS, Cervical region, margins of hair, hard, red, pimples: Little line of spots on edge of scalp at front, forehead and around top of neck. Quite red, small and hard. H:F:04:30c:34:XX:XX:N.S. -itching when warm, Strong irritation of the back of the neck (feels the same as the leg). A line of little pimples at base of skull which seem to occur when hot. H:F:04:30c:40:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, INJURIES to spine, old injuries. See Generalities Injuries Case M.16 A.S. BACK, PAIN, broken as if: Back is so stiff. Feels as if it‟s broken. H:F:06:12c:12:XX:XX:U.S. BACK, PAIN, aching cervical region, extending to shoulders: Headache gradually developed - same as day 19, and aching in shoulders and muscles of back of neck. Relieved by consciously relaxing shoulders. Su:F:20:20:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, PAIN, aching, Lumbar region: Had a severe backache all day - at top of pelvis, has ached all day, very irritating. H:F:04:30c:40:XX:XX:O.S. BACK, PAIN, scapula, right, extending to upper arm on forward motion: Shoulder twinge moving into very slight ache, right scapula. If I move shoulder forward, travels down into arm (upper muscle) on the side. H:F:04:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, PAIN, aching, Sacral region: extending to lower extremities: Backache base of spine (comes from time to time) central and a bit on the left, went to bed with it and woke with it. Real achy pain, shooting only when going down the left leg to the knee. Operated a series of clicks which improved matters - flexing knee >>. M:F:36:30c:06:XX:XX:O.S. BACK, STIFFNESS, Cervical region, neck stiffness, motion amel, night, waking on: Day 10: Woke up my neck is stuck. Very stiff and painful (happens from time to time). > exercise. Day 11: Not a good sleep my neck is very sore. Day 12: Woke early because of neck. Saw osteopath. Day 13: Neck still very stiff, normally pretty good after osteopath. Day 14: Neck still taking a long time > as day goes on. R:F:08:6c:10:XX:XX:A.S. My neck felt stiff (sort of tight and tense) pressure? My joints all over felt stiff, my bones aches. I realised that my mood had changed. Some of the bright, happy feeling had gone. Felt more stressed. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, STIFFNESS, Sacral region:

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Very stiff in the sacral region this evening. H:F:06:12c:09:XX:XX:O.S. BACK, TENSION, Cervical region: Slight ache now across top of shoulder at bottom of neck. Bit like when you‟ve had a really tense day, or carried too much, like a muscle strain. It‟s like a string between the edges of the two scapula blades. H:F:04:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. BACK, TENSION, Dorsal region, scapulae between; pressure amel: BACK, TENSION, WOOD, stretched across, as if: Had a brief, hard, long pain on awakening, across shoulders, along the line where yesterday‟s ache was. Like a wooden pole inserted horizontally between shoulder blades. Went on movement and pressure. H:F:04:30c:03:XX:XX:N.S. NECK, SWELLING, side, right: Case F.65yrs. Lymphatic cancer. Node in neck enlarged. Previously biopsied and told malignant. She had a course of chemotherapy and told it was successful. Node remained. Rx: Emerald 30 split dose. F.U. 5 weeks. node had gone (as had a tooth abscess). M:Case:F:65.C.S. EXTREMITIES, CRACKED skin, fingers, winter in: Very dry split fingers (very cold windy day). Lot worse than for some time. H:F02:6c:16:XX:XX:A.S. Male 53 years with defective vision both eyes from glaucoma, retinal detachments, also cracked finger tips in winter. Rx: Emerald 6 b.d. Eyes, vision improved and has not had the tendency to cracked fingers even though he has been out running in cold, windy weather this winter. M:Case M:53:C.S. - thumb Sore, split right thumb. (Winter, very cold in bed at night). H.F:02:6c:29:XX:XX:A.S. Evening: sore crack on tip of left thumb. Very, very cold in bed. H:F:06:12c:26:XX:XX:O.S. EXTREMITIES, DISCOLORATION: ankle, redness, streaks in: Stripy red marks on each anterior ankle noted during night time shower. Asymptomatic. H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, DRYNESS, hands: Cold windy day - very sore, dry hands by late evening. Heels dry. H:F:02:6c:15:XX:XX:O.S. Skin generally feels dry, but especially on hands, H:F:04:01:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, eczema:

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Right arm on top - a patch of eczema came up. Dry, red, itchy, there all the time but has not need to scratch it. (had eczema come up on leg in 1994 after constitutional remedy). Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:U.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, eczema, itch, red, patches: 1 p.m. Woke myself up again having slept about 2 hours, mildly scratching my left leg - there‟s a really sore patch there. It looks like eczema and chapped. The whole area of skin was red and angry with these raised patches. Same treatment > cold flannel and feel asleep. H:F:04:30c31:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, upper limbs, upper arm, vesicles, itching, left: Woke with another itchy hive on the inner side of left arm midway between elbow and armpit. Disappeared after showering. Su:F:20:6c:06:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, hand, desquamation, left: Psoriasis patch on thumb is descabbing and moving to its new phase of stiffness and almost normal. It has been quite dry this week, more than usual I think. H:F:04:30c:05:XX:XX:U.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, lower limbs, lumpy, red, right, scales: Day 44: Another irritation appear - on right leg - at night - not hot, just appeared. Still there this morning like a red lump, size of gnat bite. Day 45: Still got a little red bump on right leg by outside of calf. No irritation. Pink and raised. Diminishing in size. Slight scale. H:F:04:30c:44:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, lower limbs, red patches, left: I woke myself up again having slept about 2 hours, mild scratching my left leg - there‟s a really sore patch there. It looks like eczema and chapped. The whole area of skin was red and angry with these raised patches. Same treatment, >cold flannel. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, ERUPTIONS, thigh, pimples, red: Woke myself up in the night, vigorously scratching up and down my left leg, especially along shin and left side. Odd really because fell asleep with cold feet and it wasn‟t hot in the bed. I now in my sleep I was scratching but almost couldn‟t stop until I woke myself up. My leg was sore and irritated so I wiped it with a cool flannel and the irritation subsided. Interesting too, only the leg was irritated, not the heart and body. I felt nice and relaxed. Straight to sleep again. A little cluster of tiny red spots like pin pricks, dark red on top of the left thigh just above the knee, have appeared since last night. I noticed their arrival when I got home. No itch or distress. H:F:04:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, HEAT, foot: Hot feet: S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. EXTREMITIES, HEAVINESS, tired limbs, right, hanging down: Right arm feels heavier than left when dangling. H:F:04:30c:00:03:05:N.S.

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EXTREMITIES, ITCHING, lower limbs, tibia, night, bed in, scratching agg: Woke myself up in the night, vigorously scratching up and down my left leg, especially along skin and left side. Odd really because fell asleep with cold feet and it wasn‟t hot in the bed. I know in my sleep I was scratching but almost couldn‟t stop until I woke myself up. My leg was sore and irritated so I wiped it with a cool flannel and the irritation subsided. Interestingly too, only the leg was irritated, not the heart and body. I felt nice and relaxed. H:F:04:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, ITCHING, knee: Itch on inside of right knee. R:F:08:6c:00:11:00:N.S. EXTREMITIES, NODULES, hands, first finger, right: Nodule, right index finger which disappeared when rubbed. S:F:18:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, wandering, shifting: 11.20a.m. New sensation, right upper arm tingling in muscle, appears to stitch. N.S. 1.00p.m. Quick muscle twinge. Right upper arm, short lived. N.S. 1.10p.m. Muscle ache, upper arm right, especially when arm bent, not painful just a dull ache. Lasts 5 mins. approx. N.S. 8.20 p.m. Muscle sore after holding phone, dissipated in 5 mins. when relaxed it. 8.50 p.m. Noticed ache continuing in muscle, right upper arm, anterior muscle, > for movement e.g. has gone while writing this note, returns when arm at rest. If rest elbow on table to write, ache not noticed. Vigorous movements brings on again quite strongly. N.S. Has moved into front arm pit, temporarily. A.S. 10.05 p.m. The ache has now spread up the right arm, anterior, through the muscles to the front and top of right shoulder. If feels like a jarred bone. Just a consistent ache - bit like a trapped nerve feeling but dull. H:F:04:30c:00:03:05:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, hands, joints, second: EXTREMITIES, PAIN, joints, dislocation, as if: Right index finger feels weak, painful - as if dislocated at the second joint. H.F:06:12c:17:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, joints, touch agg: No power in left thumb. Can‟t press a button on car or mixer. Painful to bend. Day 15. Thumb hurts to press lst joint. Day 17. H:F:06:12c:15:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, joints: - first: Right index finger feels weak and painful. H:F:06:12c:17:XX:XX:N.S. Brief pain right index finger this afternoon. H.F:02:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. - first, joints of, middle:

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Right index finger feels weak, painful, as if dislocated at 2nd joint. H.F:06:12c:17:XX:XX:N.S. - second Very brief, fleeting sharp pain in left middle finger. H:F:02:6c:17:XX:XX:U.S. thumb No power in left thumb. Can‟t press a button on car or mixer. Painful to bend. Day 15 Day 17 Thumb hurt to press 1st joint. H:F:06:6c:15:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Aching, Upper Limbs, shoulders, right, extending to arm, moving arm on, extending to arm, raising arm: Day 02: 12.05 p.m. Shoulder twinge moving into very slight ache, right scapula. If I move should forward, it travels down into arm (upper muscle) on that side. Day 02: 6..05 p.m. Shoulder symptom reduced during afternoon in intensity and in duration. Now evident only when move shoulder forward and raised. At top of scapula. Felt a movement. Not evident when shoulder static. H:F:04:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Aching, Shoulders, axilla, right: Ache has moved into front arm pit, temporarily. H:F:04:30c:00:03:05:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Aching, Upper Limbs, Elbow, bend of: Ache in inner elbow stronger than last couple of days (R.S.) and sense of weakness (N.S.) in elbow when holding book. (There was a slight ache in this elbow for some weeks especially after decorating etc. it had reduced. I‟ve realised it increased when I took the first 2 remedy doses, particularly increased after the 3rd and continued to Day 1 of proving). H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Aching, upper limbs, upper arm, right, gentle motion amel, < strenuous exertion: 1.10p.m. Muscle ache, upper arm right, especially when arm bent. Not painful, just a dull ache. Lasts 5 mins. approx. 8.20p.m. Muscle sore after holding phone, dissipated in 5 m when relaxed it. N.S. 8.50 p.m. Noticed ache continuing in muscle, right upper arm, anterior muscle > for movement, e.g. has gone whilst writing this note, returns when arm at rest. If rest elbow on table to write, ache not noticed. Vigorous movement brings on again quite strongly. Pressing on ache removes it. H:F:04:30c:00:01:10:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Sharp: legs lower, right, front of, exertion after, flexing on agg: Pain in right leg, muscle to right of tibia 3-4” down from the knee. Came on after workout - even though he exercised both legs to the same degree. Stabbing pain, < flexing - slowly faded, gone by late p.m. S:M:14:30c:13:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, Sore, bruised, upper limbs, upper arm, right, motion on, on raising arm: Muscle sore after holding phone, dissipated in 5 m when relaxed it. H:F:04:30c:00:02:35:N.S.

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EXTREMITIES, PAIN, sore, bruised, upper limbs, Elbows, bending it, left, motion: Day 6: Elbows used to lock from bent position to flexing. This symptom apparently cured - not had it all week. Day 7: Elbows as good as have been for quite a while, quite amazing. Day 12 Both elbows really sore, R < than L. S:M:14:30c:12:XX:XX:O.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, stitching, upper limbs, Shoulder, right, motion, during: Pulled a muscle in my shoulder, right, (posterior, thoracic 1 level) Sharp pain, painful to use arm. Have had it before from overuse, DIY, lifting heavy bags etc. M:M:32:12c:10:XX:XX:O.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, stitching, upper limbs, upper arm, right: New sensation right upper arm. Tingling in muscles, it appears to stitch. H:F:04:30c:00:03:30:N.S. EXTREMITIES, PAIN, stitching: upper limbs, fingers, second: Very brief, fleeting sharp pain in left middle finger. H:F:02:6c:17:XX:XX:U.S. EXTREMITIES, STIFFNESS, legs: Day 13: Seem to be moving rather slowly, is it old age? Day 14: Still feeling very stiff (all over), thumping down into chairs, ( not bending knees). Day 16: Still feeling very stiff, like when you have flu, only felt it when moving. M:M:32:12c:13:XX:XX:N.S. Case: M:80years, c.o. Stiffness of his legs. He has had progressively unsteady gait and difficulty in walking for past five years. On a couple of occasions he had been unable to take a step forward and his legs had been, “as if paralysed”. Usually a kind man, his wife had complained he was getting increasingly difficult to live with, irritable and bad tempered. Rx: Emerald 6 b.d. which improved his walking and, his wife says, he is much nicer to live with. M:Case:M:80. EXTREMITIES, TINGLING, Upper limbs, upper arm, right: New sensation, right upper arm tingling in muscle, appears to stitch. H.F.04:30c:00:03:30:N.S. EXTREMITIES, TWITCHING, upper arm, right: Quick muscle twinge. Very short lived. Right upper arm. H:F:04:30c:00:01:10:N.S. EXTREMITIES, WEAKNESS, upper limbs, Elbows of: Ache in elbow, inner elbow, and a sense of weakness in elbow when holding book. H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, WEAKNESS, upper limbs, finger, first: Right index finger feels weak, painful - as if dislocated at the second joint. H.F:06:12c:17:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, WEAKNESS, upper limbs, thumb:

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No power in left thumb. Can‟t press a button on car or mixer. Painful to bend. H:F:06:30c:15:XX:XX:N.S. EXTREMITIES, WEAKNESS, Legs, hips, knees, motion on: Day 13: I seem to be moving rather slowly ? old age, < motion. Day 14: Still feeling very stiff, thumping down into chairs. M:M:32:13:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, DISTURBED: I think this remedy gives the energy which a. wards off colds and b. helps me through very long working days with less disrupted sleep. H:F:04:30c:47:XX:XX:C.S. SLEEP, DISTURBED, dreams by: Staying at an hotel. I‟ve had this dream before at this hotel but different version. There is always a problem at this hotel. It is nice and cosy, in the country and I want to be there. I think I am there with friends. However, tonight the management which is three old biddies in teacosies wanted me to share a room with three people I didn‟t know, four in one room. So I said “ABSOLUTELY NOT” and woke myself up. Am I anticipating Friday‟s trip to Dorset? H:F:04:01:XX:XX:U.S. I was lying on a bed with the upper part of my body naked, my age or bit younger. On the right side was my brother, approximately 8 years old and my father was bending over me with an attitude when grown ups behave childish with a child and was kissing my left breast. I was very cool and observed it and did not react in any way, but when he wanted to kiss my right breast, I quickly covered it with my right hand and woke up with a startle. Su:F:24:30c:12:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, DISTURBED, by heat: I put an extra blanket on the bed at night (cold night) but woke at 1.30 a.m. in a great lather. S:M:18:30c:00:07:45:N.S. SLEEP, DISTURBED, noise, by slightest: Woke up twice in the night again. (Heard a noise) That‟s 3 nights running (U.S.). Again a noise awakened me but I can‟t find the source. That‟s 3 nights running. Day 03. H:F:04:30c:00:XX:XX:U.S. Terrible night, kept awake by the noises outside, birds I think. M:M:32:12c:02:XX:XX:N.S. Went to bed at 11.00 p.m. a little restless, ? thunder at midnight might have woken me. M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX:U.S. DREAMS: ACCIDENTS: I crashed my car into Lou Carpenter‟s car (he is an actor in Neighbour‟s). I thought I had barely touched it but it had nasty cracks and dents in it, which he said I had caused and I couldn‟t prove otherwise. R:F:08:6c:14:XX:XX: Shunted a little white car up the hill into a garden. The occupants in the other car were making a lot of fuss - being very pedantic - could not see what was wrong with the car. Felt they were over reacting.

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H:F:06:12c:25:XX:XX: AMOROUS: Dreamt I was having sex (not full sex - fully dressed) with an unknown man - another dream involved the film star Ray Liotta, not sure what happened. S:F16:6c:09:XX:XX: Had a new lover in dream today. Often dream of old ones - today a new one - (love that). H:F:04:30c:42:XX:XX: ANOTHER PERSON IN BED WITH HIM: I was lying in bed with the upper part of my body naked, my age of a bit younger. On the right side was my brother, approximately eight years old and my father was bending over me with an attitude when grown ups behave childish with a child and was kissing my left breast. I was very cool and observed it and did not react in any way, but when he wanted to kiss my right breast, I quickly covered it with my right hand and woke up. Su:F:24:30c:12:XX:XX: ARRESTED, of being: In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessels - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating (intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought “this is it”. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors. M:MM: BURIED ALIVE, being: Then I found myself high up in the air outside the house and I thought I would let myself drop and fall down onto the earth to experience flying, then to dive into the earth. When I was in the dark earth, I felt it must be terrible when you are buried alive, more a sympathetic feeling for others, because I had no body, and just came out again. Su:F:24:30c:10:XX:XX: BUSINESS, of: Of advertising my homeopathy and my watch broke. H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX: Dreams about work. M:M:32:12c:10:XX:XX: Two surgeons undertaking laparoscopy. Seemed to know them but couldn‟t identify them. I was in an adjacent area working at something, but couldn‟t say what. H:F:02:6c:29:XX:XX: CHILDREN, about: Dream about little boys running into a big square room where me and my sister are talking. My sister is lying in a bed on the ground. A little boy talks to me, face to face and doesn‟t care about my conversation with my sister. I cut him back and feel guilty afterwards, his freshness and being straight forward is stamped on. I recognise we are in a gym and they have all the right to be here. Su:F:24:30c:08:XX:XX: Dream about a lady I know taking her children to school on foot. Correct children but wrong age order. (I recently saw her returning by car after taking her children to school). H:F:02:6c:07:XX:XX:

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Dream of three woman and I had a child I shared with them, but it was mine and I was holding the child. The child has his arms round my neck. M:MM: CONFUSED: Dream about someone known to be a homeopathic doctor. Can‟t remember whether he gave me medicine to me or vice versa. H:F:02:6c:29:XX:XX: CRIMES, that he was wrongly accused: I was falsely imprisoned - from a lie detector - took down a panel from the room and there was hidden the real culprit. So I was O.K. H:F:06:12c:32:XX:XX: CRIMES, that he had committed a: In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessels - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating. (Intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought “this is it”. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors. M:MM: DEAD, of the, relatives: Curious dreams about Egypt and my mum (dead) and my sister. Some joy and some sadness there. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX: DISSECTING DEAD BODIES: In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessels - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating. (Intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought “this is it”. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors. M:MM: EVENTS OF THE PREVIOUS DAY: Not a clear dream about a friend called Brian - something to do with a baby - don't know if I was having one - also to do with cars and calling at houses. (all related to supervisor previous day, pushing baby in pram around, delivering notes to house, argument with friend Brian). M:F:38:12c:03:XX:XX: Met lots of people from church and from my newspaper job of 5 years ago, in park and seaside. Walking around with them and chatting. Got John - planning jokes. (felt like linked to what had been happening the night before). H:F:06:12c:16:XX:XX: EXHAUSTING: In a house with a customer and husband. She had a leaflet on Aga type cookers that heated water and cooked. She said she would like one - the husband was going to install one just for water. I said it seemed silly to have one just for water and not cook. He was not pleased with this, so I gave him a chocolate to sweeten him up (he is a pig and resent my interference). Woke exhausted. M:F:38:12c:09:XX:XX: FLOATING:

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I am with a group of people. I go swimming, floating on my back. I feel very happy and courageous to float on my own, I am the only one of the group, the others are all on land. I dared to go in. I felt brave because I was the only one who did it. It felt reassuring. Su:F:24:30c:03:XX:XX: FLOWERS: Dream about planting rockery bulbs. H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX: Sweet dreams about an African garden, a Parisian lifestyle, friendly, sociable, calm. H.F:04:30c:07:XX:XX FRIENDS OF OLD: Dream about someone I worked with 15 years ago. H:F:02:6c:23:XX:XX: Met lots of people from church and from my newspaper job of 5 years ago in park and seaside. Walking around with them chatting. Got John - planning jokes. H:F:06:12c:16:XX:XX: Saw two old school friends, attracted their attention (fairly frequent to dream of old friends). Behind were open gates leading to a castle /tower on hill, lorries were going up and bending in the middle. Three went up and one feel off. Contents of lorry fell down the hill towards subject and friends. S:M:18:30c:11:XX:XX: Dream about my aura teacher in Denmark. Day 04. After that I saw the person whom I once helped, together with my former partner, to withdraw from heroin and to go through the cold turkey withdrawal symptoms. I put my head close to his when he was lying in bed, like a mother to a child. Day 10 Su:F:24:30c:04:XX:XX: Dreamt about being involved in living in a very tall house and getting into building using the security Moya showing me how she had one key that she inserted into a lock and out came a container that had other keys in, thought it was a good idea. M:F:38:12c:05:XX:XX: FRIENDS, SEEING: Full of people I love and linked with travel. This time arrived - not anticipating. S and I were in her house and I returned to my house. There was a strong sense of love and friendship between us. We were then in a Spanish place and D was there too. People admired my pyjamas on the street and I met B. Went to her home. Full of love and friendship. Curiously E wasn‟t there = the boys were. It was a warm dream. This hotel has a good, relaxed feel about it - an old and welcome and secure. H:F:04:30c:06:XX:XX: FRIGHTFUL: Gangsters, hiding. H.F:06:12c:20:XX:XX: Sad and frightening dreams. O.S. H:F:04:30c:69:XX:XX: GUILT: Dream about little boys running into big square room where me and my sister are talking. My sister is lying in a bed on the ground. A little boy talks tome, face to face and doesn‟t care about my

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conversation with my sister. I cut him back and feel guilty afterwards, his freshness and being straight forward is stamped on. I recognise we are in a gym and they have all the right to be here. Su:F:24:30c:30:XX:XX: In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessel - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating (intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought “this is it”. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors. M:MM: HORSES: Gorgeous dreams about riding a crazy horse that stopped abruptly and hit walls. More dreams with lots of peace and warmth. Woke up feeling so good. I often dream one day after the source of association - like the horse after my riding lesson. H:F:04:30c:19:XX:XX: About someone I worked with 15 years ago. Also a horse had climbed up some stairs (perhaps reminiscent of civic reception in Cork for recent Cheltenham Gold Cup winner), H:F:02:6c:23:XX:XX: HUMILIATION: Dream about an actuary I had placed at work. Very smart. Attended next day dressed as Charlie Crowley (clown). Brought whole family in for lunch. I was panicking. M:F:36:30c:08:XX:XX: Dream of having to read - give a lecture and had the wrong book. Failed in front of people. Felt lousy next day. M:MM: INJURIES: I was in a bathroom where there were two other people. One person was bleeding to death and the other was unconscious. The toilet was full of blood. I awoke in a desperate state feeling that the people were aspects of myself that were dying - the blood was the loss of the vital force. The bathroom was about getting rid of waste. Su:F:24:30c:30:XX:XX: JOURNEYS: Dreamed of when my daughter was a toddler. I was putting her to sleep on a bus and making her comfortable with cushions. Su:F:20:6c:21:XX:XX: D and I were on a fishing boat going out from Hamburg, then a bridge canal into the more open sea. The captain (this former doctor) at the steering wheel. He spends the money he gets for the fare on drink. We were in an inlet with wooded shores and dark blue waters. Then up on land, a country lane in England, D. told me we repaired his boat up here. Then I was in a little fishing town. It was a narrow street with people eating food out on the street. I was on a bike, although it was forbidden to cycle. I came to the end of the high street with a shop that was like a customs house before going on board again. Su:F:24:30c:02:XX:XX: Full of people I love and lined with travel. This time I arrived not anticipating. S and I were in her house and I returned to my house. There was a strong sense of love and friendship between us. We were then in a Spanish place and D was there too. People admired my pyjamas on the street and I met B. Went to her home. Full of love and friendship. Curiously E wasn‟t there - the boys were. It was a warm dream. This Hotel has a good, relaxed feel about it - old and welcome and secure. H:F:04:30c:05:XX:XX:

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JOURNEY, by railroad: Dreamed I was on a train. M:F:38:12c:04:XX:XX: KNIVES: MURDER: Group of people like communists, stabbing boy in neck, I am doing it for them. Had to make the wound bleed to make sure all the blood is out, as if to finish the job off - duty. M:MM: PAST LIVES: - there is a woman in the group with short hair and no wrinkles, I look in the mirror and cut my hair on my right side with a razor blade. I have ginger hair and know it‟s my third rebirth, twice before I was born with dark hair. I cut my left side and behind the ear is my hair showing grey and black. Su:F:24:30c:03:XX:XX: PEOPLE: Full of people I love and linked with travel. H:F:04:30c:04:XX:XX: I am with a group of people. I go swimming, floating on my back. I feel very happy and courageous to float on my own, I am the only one of the group, the others are all on land. I dared to go in. I felt brave because I was the only one who did. Su:F:24:30c:04:XX:XX: Dreams about a large gathering of people, mostly black, but did make a conscious effort to look for white people, and there were some. All gathered in a large stadium mainly, but also beside the road as far as the eye could see. Saw a board “World Cup Cricket”. S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX: PLEASANT: Easy, friendly, clear drams with very well focused pictures, full of love and friendship. H:F:04:30c:12:XX:XX: QUARRELS: In a house with a customer and husband. She had a leaflet on Aga type cookers that heated water and cooked. She said she would like one - the husband was going to install one just for water. I said it seemed silly to have one just for water and not cook. He was not pleased with this, so I gave him a chocolate to sweeten him up. (He is a pig and probably resented my interference). Woke exhausted. M:F:38:12c:10:XX:XX: Then a coastal view, looking over a cliff, rocks and marina with boats going round, some sort of rescue going on. Big boat barging another boat and a rescue boat knocking another boat off obstruction. People who had just been rescued capsized, so it had to come back again. S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX: RELATIONSHIPS: I saw a doctor I worked with and the whole story of the ward came up again. I was only an observer at the same time I got involved with the relationship triangles and by not expressing what I wanted ended up in a messy relationship. Su:F:24:30c:02:XX:XX: ROMANTIC:

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Had a new lover in dream today. Often dream of old ones - today a new one (loves that). H:F:04:30c:42:XX:XX. SEX: I was having sex (not full - fully dressed) with an unknown man - another dream involved the film star Ray Liotta, not sure what happened. S:F16:09:XX:XX: SEXUALITY: Five hard looking ladies in black racing swimsuits, high necks, zip up back. Black leather jackets over them. Looked very S.S. All had reddish hair, and one brunette. Saw them from head to mid thigh. Ginger pubic hair sprouting from swimsuits. They were standing in a line listening to a man, also dressed in black who was talking to them, but no sound in dram only visual. Then they turned to the right and marched of. They did not look very nice, bit on the hard side, nazis. M:F:34:30c:08:XX:XX: I came to the end of the high street with a shop that was like a customs house, and went in before going on board again. The shop had fashionable underwear in its windows. I went in and had a look at vests and nighties and ended at the bra section, I had a glimpse of an attractive bra but suddenly had tired on a woollen hand knitted bra that held the arms to the body and had a hole for the elbows. I felt tied in and I thought it‟s itchy. I saw a friend wearing such a hand knitted bra, it was made of silvery grey wool and some spots were loose on the back. I decided not to buy one of these although initially I was attracted. Su:F:24:30:02:XX:XX: I am joining the group to go to California, a retreat set up. I remember the people there, I am not sure what I am doing there. It is hot and dry, sandy area. I see an Afro-American woman, she has dense short black hair down to the knee. More precise, I see hair above the knee cap showing below the shirt. She moves very graciously. I think the hair is a symbol for health issues. Su:F:24:30c:03:XX:XX: Group of Nazi women - two came to question me - not in uniform. Two women stood up, kissed each other and sat down, no disapproval, matter of fact. I was being questioned about being a homeopath justifying myself, waving the Organon at them and saying “Hahnemann was a woman”. M:MM: SNOW: We went out on a sloping field where there was a kind of fair. Husband and daughter, I and this man F. on a white small bike. We go down the hill, I see a stall with a school satchel that has golden letter printed all over. I thought, this would be nice for daughter but found the leather to be papery. I saw more stalls to the left with shining gold and pink satchels and I was very attracted, little alleys leading into an old Italian town. Then F. turned round back up the hill with his bike vanishing in the distance. Now D. was coming down on a blue bike, with thick wheels you use for shopping. I saw “this is not your bike, you exchanged bikes by mistake”. We climbed up the hill which was very steep now and covered in snow. I had to cling to pieces of long grass not to slide back and pull myself up. We come to a platform still on this same slope where other people were sitting in the open, sun shining drinking teas. Su:F:24:30c:10:XX:XX: We were in California to ski. Lovely view from bed out of window to mountains. Went round shops. Not to getting ski gear on. H:F:06:12c:01:XX:XX; STUNG BY AN INSECT:

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Stung by a “bulldog insect”, i.e. that was the shape of the bite - on my thumb - on a boat. from one open craft to another. Doctor in the second sucked it out and it was fine. H:F:06:12c:09:XX:XX TEETH: About things going wrong with my teeth. Sa:F:16:6c:02:XX:XX UNSUCCESSFUL, efforts to reach a certain place:

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Su:F:24:30c:01:XX:XX: In the morning we were moving into a new house, that had a Mediterranean feel to it, with a water area in the main living room and white washed big stones. I thought, “it will look lovely with plants”. Husband and daughter were there and some friends. I looked to back of the house, it had a blue hard wearing carpet and some yellow foam showing where it was worn out. I picked up the carpet and thought it needs replacing, also saw the shower had a leak, running water under the carpet. It felt all quite compartmented and not like the water soaking through the house. There was a concrete slab floor, but the carpet needed replacing, although it looked fashionable at first glance. Su:F:24:30c:10:XX:XX: SLEEP, Insomnia, sleeplessness: 3 a.m. Couldn‟t get to sleep for a long time (may be anxiety about car). It was at least 3.00a.m. before I slept, but I didn‟t feel too tired in the morning. S:F:16:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. 4 am until. 1.15 a.m. went to bed and lay awake until 4 a.m. Really aware of sounds. Not usually sleepless. Su:F:Pl:00:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, Insomnia, sleeplessness, breathing with difficulty, coryza: 1. a.m. Couldn‟t get to sleep because I could not breathe. Had to have two pillows in the end. Nose runny and sneezing, < on lying down. H:F:06:12c:20:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, RESTLESSNESS, twitching of limbs: My husband said that I was twitching and talking in my sleep. Su:F:20:6c:06:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, morning: Sleepy - nearly nodded off in the morning whilst listening to a patient talking. H:F:02::6c:21:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, afternoon: Lots of energy, especially late afternoon, usually I feel like a nap. H:F:04:30c:18:XX:XX:C.S. Very tired in the afternoon. M:M:32:12c:09:XX:XX:U.S. Very tired mid afternoon, whilst driving in a car. H:F:02:6c:29:XX:XX:U.S. Went to interview a candidate in Maidstone for personnel. Interview relaxed. Excellent lunch (grand piano played beautifully in the background). On returning home feel exhausted and desperate to sleep - almost as if I had been drinking (as if I had drunk half a bottle of wine, water only consumed at lunch). I felt if I had not laid down I would have fallen down. Slept for 3 hours, woke refreshed but quite achy as if I had boozed, continued with a normal evening. M:F:36:30c:03:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, evening:

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I was supposed to go out in the evening but just could not raise the energy. Instead, helped Peter with homework, bath and read him a story. Then lay down on his bed for a cuddle and went to sleep! M:F:34:30c:10:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, intoxication, as from: On returning home from lunch out I feel exhausted and desperate to sleep - as if I had had half a bottle of wine but only water consumed at lunch. I felt if I had not laid down I would have fallen down. Slept for 3 hours. Quite refreshed but felt a bit achy as if I had boozed; had a bath and feel quite normal now. Continued with a normal evening. M:F:36:30c: 03:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, riding, while, street car: Very tired mid afternoon, whilst driving in a car. H:F:02:6c:29:XX:XX:U.S. 2.15 p.m. I fell asleep after 10 minutes in the car. M:F:36:30c:19:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, SLEEPINESS, work, during: Sleepy - nearly nodded off in the morning whilst listening to a patient talking. H:F:02:6c:21:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, SLEEPLESSNESS, thoughts, activity of mind: Didn‟t sleep well, was going over our move to Hong Kong, could not unwind. Went back to sleep easily. Woke at 6.30 am. which is early, I felt fine and wide awake (not usual, I hate the mornings). R:F:08:6c:04:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, UNREFRESHING: As above: R.F:08:6c:04:XX:XX:A.S. Long sleep, not refreshed, feel tired, no dreams. M:M:32:12c:01:XX:XX:U.S. No dreams and I had slept well. Felt tired though. S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. WAKING, early: Woke up early about 6.30 (normally 8.30 - 9.00) felt fine, wide awake (not normal). R:F:08:6c:03:XX:XX:N.S. Needing a lot less sleep than previously. Waking early last two mornings, feel wide awake and very alert. Falling asleep easily when I go to bed. Su:F:Pl:09:XX:XX:N.S. Woke before the alarm. S:M:16:6c:03:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, WAKING, dreams from: Staying at this hotel, I‟ve had this dream before but different version - there‟s always a problem at this hotel, its nice, cosy, in the country and I want to be there. I think I‟m there with friends. However, the management, which is three old biddies in teacosies, wanted me to share a room with three people I didn‟t know, four in one room. So I said ABSOLUTELY not! and woke myself up! Am I anticipating Friday‟s trip to Dorset?

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H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX/ I was lying on a bed with the upper part of my body naked, my age or a bit younger. On the right side was my brother - 8 years old and my father was bending over me with an attitude when grown ups behave childish with a child and he was kissing my left breast. I was very cool and observed it and didn‟t react in any way, but when he wanted to kiss my right breasts, I quickly covered it with my right hand and woke up with a startle. Su:F:24:30c:13:XX:XXU.S. SLEEP, WAKING, itching, from: Woke myself up in the right, vigorously scratching up and down my left leg, especially along shin and left side. I knew in my sleep I was scratching but almost couldn‟t stop until I woke myself up! H:F:04:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. SLEEP, WAKING late: Woke at 9.18 a.m. late for me. M:F:36:30c:03:XX:XX:U.S. SLEEP, WAKING, perspiration from: 23:15: Went to bed, put an extra blanket on (cold night). 00:15: Woke up boiling hot, in a „great lather‟. S:M:18:30c:00:09:10:N.S. SLEEP, YAWNING: Eyes feel tired: Yawning - tears in eyes, worse than normal. Su:F:Pl:00:XX:XX:A.S. 8.00 p.m. Took 2nd remedy: Heavy sensation was centred in my head. Yawned. 8.30 p.m. Eyes seem to be seeing very bright very alive. H:F:06:12c:00:00:30:U.S. Ears still blocked. I keep on yawning. R:F:6c:08:00:02:00:N.S. CHILL, SHAKING, shivering, rigors: Felt a little shivery this a.m. with slight headache over left eye. Poor concentration. Day 16: Hard lump in throat a.m., severe frontal headache p.m. Glands up behind ears. M:F:36:30c:15:XX:XX:N.S. PERSPIRATION, exertion during, slight profuse, dyspnoea with: I struggled at the gym and sweated heavily (most unusual although I am naturally warm). I was sweating, panting and puffing. l lacked energy during the work out. S:M:14:30c:06:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, CHAPPING: 1 p.m. woke myself up again having slept about two hours, mildly scratching my left leg - there‟s a really sore patch there. It looks like eczema and chapped. The whole area of skin was red and angry with these raised patches. >cold flannel then fell asleep. H:F:04:30C:31:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, CRACKS, painful, winter in: Very sore, dry split fingers (very cold windy day). Lot worse than for some time.

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H:F:02:6c:16:XX:XX:A.S. Evening: sore crack in tip of left thumb. Very, very cold in bed. H:F:06:25:XX:XX:O.S. Case M:53: C.o. Problems with vision, glaucoma, retinal detachments. Also split dry fingers in winter. Rx: Emerald 6 b.d. Sulphur 30 x5. Has since not had a tendency to split fingers. M:Case: M.53:C.S. SKIN, DRY: Very sore dry hands by late evening. Heels dry. H:F:02:6c:15:XX:XX:A.S. Day 00: Skin feels silky, noticed today - may always be? Day 01: Skin generally feels dry, but especially on hands. H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:A.S. My skin feels dry, especially on my cheek, not itchy just tight. R:F:08:6c:00:02:00:N.S. Skin feels a little dry (cold weather). Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:XX:N.S. Carbuncles have not returned - still holding. Eczema still on top of right arm. More came up on Thursday morning at same place, on top of left arm (at back). No itchy, just „there‟. Lots of dryness everywhere. Flaky skin even though using body lotion of back, legs arms, face, lips. Su:F:Pl:21:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, carbuncles: Noticed last night (Day 00) that my carbuncles in groin have cleared totally - no inflammation just slight scarring (they have not been clear in last four years). No difference to ones on back. Su:F:Pl:00:XX:XX:C.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, desquamating: Psoriasis patch on thumb is descabbing and moving to its new phase of softness and almost normal. It has been quite dry this week, more than usual I think. H:F:04:30c:05:XX:XX:A.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, eczema: Top of right arm - patch of eczema came up. Dry, red, itchy. (had eczema come up on leg in 1994 after constitutional remedy). Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:R.S. I woke myself up again about 1 a.m. mildly scratching my left leg - there is a really sore patch there. It looks like eczema or chapped. The whole outer skin was red and angry with these raised sore patches. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, elevated, -inflamed, -patches: As above. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, ITCHING:

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Itchy raised blister under chin on waking. Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, pimples, close together, red: Day 16: A little cluster of tiny red spots like pin pricks, dark red on top of the left thigh just above the knee, have appeared since last night. I did rest my books on this spot during the tutorial, but it looks rather a strong reaction for lightly resting books. I first noticed their arrival when I got home. No itch no distress. H:F:04:30c16:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN ERUPTIONS, pimples, itching; when warm, Strong irritation on the back of the neck ( feels the same as the leg). A line of little pimples at the base of the skull, which seem to occur when hot. H:F:04:30c:40:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, psoriasis, Day75: Remedy has been good for psoriasis - skin v. tanned and scab gone. Emotionally secure and happy day. Psoriasis became smaller and smaller during proving. H:F:04:30c:75:XX:XX:C.S. SKIN, ERUPTIONS, vesicular, itching, Day 05: Itchy raised blister under chin on waking. Day 06: Itchy small raised vesicle on upper part of left arm. Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:X:N.S. SKIN, INFLAMMATION, Woke myself up again having slept about 2 hours, mildly scratching my left leg - there‟s a really sore patch there. The whole area of skin was red and angry with these raised patches. H:F:04:30c:31:XX:XX:N.S.

SKIN, ITCHING, bed, in: during sleep; skin, sore becomes: Day 16: Woke myself up in the night, vigorously scratching up and down my left leg, especially along shin and left side. Odd because fell asleep with cold feet and it wasn‟t hot in bed. I know in my sleep I was scratching but almost couldn‟t stop until I woke myself up. My leg was sore and irritated so I wiped it with a cool flannel and the irritation subsided. Interestingly too, only the leg was irritated, not the heart or body. I felt nice and relaxed. Day: 31: Woke myself up again having slept about 2 hours, mildly scratching my left leg. H:F:04:30c:16:XX:XX:N.S. SKIN, ITCHING, changing place, on: My whole body has had a series of itches all day from scalp to trunk - do I need Psorinum? H:F:04:XX:XX:N.S. For the past three days my skin has been itching, first in one place, then all over. T. thinks it is ever since we heard there had been a violent robbery in the village. Rx Emerald 12 >>> in a few minutes, also energy improved. CASE:M:F:53yrs:C.S. SKIN, TENSION: My skin feels dry, especially on my cheeks. Not itchy just tight.

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R:F:08:6c:00:02:00:N.S. Skin on face feels tight and dry. S:M:18:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, MORNING, on wakening: Day 01: Possibly better on waking, i.e. no headache (has tended to have slight headache on waking recently), not especially tired. H:F:02:6c:01:XX:XX:C.S. Day 02: On waking less pain, stiffness, slightly in right sacrum and sleeping in a more relaxed position. H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX:A.S. Day 01: Woke with sore throat, not had one for months. Went within an hour. Day 04: Tired and stiff, my bones ached, lay in bed until 7.25a.m. S:M:14:30c:01:XX:XX.N.S. Day 01: Slept well. Woke up very suddenly with alarm, felt a bit flat. While still in bed started to get pains in stomach area, felt like ovulation but it is too early. The pain is receding a bit now at 9.30 a.m. Day 02: Woke up feeling a bit panicky (despite Simon being there), in the same way I did when I was depressed. Days 05-07: Waking up unusually early. Day 08: Woke up in my usual way this morning, i.e. not until the alarm went off and then had to fight to stay awake, in fact I think I fell back to sleep temporarily. S:16:12c:01:XX:XX: Day 02: No maxillary sinus problem on waking. A.S. Itchy blister, raised, under chin on waking. Disappeared within ten minutes. Su:F:20:6c:05:XX:XX:N.S. Day 06: Itchy small raised vesicle on upper part of left arm noted on getting up. disappeared after a.m. shower. N.S. Day 16: Some mild indigestion on wakening. N.S. Day 10: Wakened with a mild frontal headache. N.S. Su:F:20:6c:02:XX:XX:A.S

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Day 08: Mild dysmenorrhea type pain late evening (menses started day 11). Day 09: Evening, abdominal distension and discomfort. Day 10: Late evening sore throat. Day 11: Sore throat recurred late evening. H:F:02:6c:03:XX:XX Day 13: Physically, its now 9 p.m. I am not feeling tired or low by a long weekend. I feel good, calm, relaxed and easy. So nice. I often feel tired so I guess this is a N.S. very positive. H:F:04:30c:13:XX:XX:N.S. Day 02: 9 p.m. onwards flatulence +++. I seem to be having an awful lot of flatulence with this remedy. John says I‟m not myself this evening, a bit down. Day 04: Evening: irritable after going out to a friend‟s house for a dress party. Nothing there she liked. Day 05: Difficulty seeing menu in restaurant and repertory later. I think the existing symptom of improved vision has gone. A.S. Day 06: Mood good this evening after exercise. Day 07: Evening: Feeling disgruntled, angry at the way Chris was treated in hospitial 6 years ago. H:F:06:12c:02:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, NIGHT: Day 03: Woke up x2 in night again, that‟s three nights running. Day 05: Body nice and relaxed and free despite restless, wakeful night. N.S. Day 16: Woke myself up in the night vigorously scratching up and down my left leg. Odd really because I fell asleep with cold feet and it wasn‟t hot in the bed. I know in my sleep I was scratching but almost could not stop until I woke myself up. Day 31: I woke myself up again about 1 a.m. having slept about 2 hours, mildly scratching my left leg. Day 41: Woke up at 1.30 a.m. scratching that left leg in my sleep again. Not very hot in the night, so I can‟t find a modality, except irritation >cold water. H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:N.S. Day 15: 4.22 a.m. Woke with a terrible itch around the vulva. Convinced it was thrush. Really itchy < heat of bed. Day 20: Couldn‟t get to sleep as I couldn‟t breath. Nose running and sneezing <laying down. <night, very unusual symptoms for me when getting a cold usually < in a.m. Day 24 -41 generally very, very cold in bed at night. Day 34 - went to bed fine, not cold, then I got up half an hour later, really cold. H:F:06:12c:15:XX:XX:U.S. Put extra blanket on bed at night (cold night) but woke at 1.30 a.m. in great lather. S:M:18:30c:00:XX:XX:N.S. Day 01: Tired unrefreshing sleep. Day 02: Terrible night, kept awake, noises outside (?birds). Day 04: Sleep poorly (5 hours). Tired. Staying away from home may be the explanation. Day 08: Slept poorly - disturbed wife. Dreamt but can‟t recall it. Feeling stressed, probably because of work pressures. Day 09: Slept poorly. Not so stressed. Generally <nights to day 09, then >. M:M:32:12c:08:XX:XX:U.S. Midnight: Bad night, tummy upset. Woke with heartburn. Tummy began to grumble but not that much. I had a distinct feeling I could be sick. B.O. normal then turned to diarrhoea. Splashed face with cold water, did some deep breathing, feeling went off. Had diarrhoea again. Gripping low abdominal pains. Feeling very cold. Slept until 5.00 a.m. (think it might be due to emotional issues). M:F:38:12c:11:XX:XX:N.S. Day 00: 1.15 a.m. went to bed and lay awake until 4 a.m. Really aware of sounds. Not usually sleepless. Woke at 12.30 midday. N.S. Day 01: Woke up in the night needing to move, numb feeling, as if circulation would be cut off. Never suffer from sleeplessness. Moya Ross 117

Su:F:Pl:00:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, ALCOHOLIC stimulants: I vomited at 23.30 hrs after having only two gin and tonics. S:F:16:6c:05:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, CANCER, chemotherapy, side effects of, See Generalities, Toxicity, Chemotherapy, side effects of, M:Case F:47:C.S. GENERALITIES, BLOOD, CIRCULATION, diminished flow, to parts remote from the heart: Early evening when sitting, crossed arms, legs or clasped hands, it felt as if my circulation would be cut off. Starting to feel slightly numb. Had to move after 2 - 3 minutes. Woke up in the night, needing to move, start of „numb feeling‟ again. Su:F:Pl:01:XX:XX:N.S. Nb. to back up placebo proving this sensation was also felt by a few meditation provers. GENERALITIES, BLOOD, CIRCULATION, excited, trauma after: Blood‟s working overtime - repairing bruises and knocks (had fallen off ladder on Day 2). S:M:18:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S.

GENERALITIES, BLOOD, CIRCULATION, hypertension: Case 65yr. F. c.o. lymphatic cancer. Node in neck remained after chemotherapy, she also had a tooth abscess. Rx: Emerald 30c . F.U. 5 weeks. O.E. neck clear, tooth abscess >>>, . Rx: Lac Caninum 30c. F.U. 5 weeks. Pain in neck, aches at night, <5p.m. or evening, “feel it as pins and needles”. Ankles swell in daytime. “When I think of lumps coming up I get panicky “. B.P. very high. Rx: Emerald 200c. F.U. 5 weeks B.P. >170/90. 2 years later, B.P. has kept within normal limits. Patient fit and well. B.P. 145/90. M:Case 65. GENERALITIES, FAINTNESS, pain, from, abdomen in: 7.30 a.m. Burning pain across abdomen. Slightly > passing wind, but not gone. 8.45 a.m. Pain still there but settled around right ovary. Feeling as if I would faint or be sick. H:F:06:12c:03:XX:XX:U.S. GENERALITIES, HAIR: growing faster: Shaving more frequently, hair seems to be growing faster (legs X2 instead of X1). Su:F:Pl:14:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation of: Body temperature has changed since about 4 p.m. to rather warm, even hot. Turned down the heating. Weather has warmed too. H:F:04:30c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Freezing cold today. I haven‟t felt cold but the heating has been on all day and I‟ve two jumpers on. H:F:06:12c:01:XX:XX:U.S. Hot sweaty, waves of heat like car sickness, sweaty stomach, brow, armpits >when out side in the cool. S:M:18:30c:00:09:00:N.S. GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation, at night:

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23:15: Went to bed, put an extra blanket on, (cold night). 00:15: Woke up boiling hot, in a great lather (took extra blanket off bed). S:M:18:30c:00:15:30:N.S. GENERALITIES, HEAT, sensation, on exertion: Day Room very hot, putting picture frames up, felt very overheated, heart beating loudly, but not rapidly - 78b/min lying down yet could feel it jumping out of his chest. S:M:18:30c:06:XX:XX:N.S. 14:10 Took remedy 15.15: Felt very hot - but I was ironing and I can feel hot ironing. 16.30 Energy down, no longer hot. No further instances of feeling very hot, even when ironing. M:F:34:30c:00:01:05:A.S. GENERALITIES, vital lack of heat: Really, really cold in bed tonight (did the remedy warm me up a bit and has now worn off?). H:F:06:12c:32:XX:XX:A.S. My head is worse. I feel I need to lie down in a dark room. I feel cold. R:F:08:6c:01:XX:XX:A.S. Complained it was cold, but I am still wearing leggings and a T shirt. I am a warm person normally when everyone else is wrapped up. M:F:34:30c:12:XX:XX:U.S. Really feeling the cold. I put the heating on at lunch time. Not a positive day, didn‟t feel wonderful. M:F:36:30c:04:XX:XX:U.S. GENERALITIES, INJURIES: Day 02: I fell off a ladder, OUCH! Hurt all over. Bruised and cut left skin, bruised right knee, pain across chest from dropping on top of wall, torn stomach muscles, pulled neck muscles on left side, left hand swollen, very painful. Bruising on bottom of left buttock and inside of right thigh. Apart from that I feel great! (Discovered plenty more bruises in bath). Day 04: Blood is working overtime, repairing bruises and knocks. S:M:18:30c:02:XX:XX:N.S. Case:M:17yrs. Old injury to hand with a chain saw, sliced tendons a year earlier. O.E. thumb and two fingers were pure white, he was unable to move his finger and thumb together in a pincher movement. Heavy scarring from both accident and operation. Rx: Hypericum 12c, Thiosinamine 6x, Emerald 6c b.d. Thiosinamine ointment to scars. One week later the patient had full mobility and colour back to his hand. M:Case:M:17:C.S. Case M.16. Rugby accident to back. Operation intersegmental spinal decompression. Told he had a small spinal canal. Disc shaved down to make space for spinal column. Post operatively c.o. he was told he had adhesions from the operation. Problems standing, nerve ache when walking R. buttock extending down to shin < sitting long periods, <standing; >lying, hot baths, relaxing. Straight leg raising limited to 10 degrees. R. leg nerves shortened, when finishing a stride his leg can be „pulled back‟. He loved sports, which he can no longer play without pain. Rx: Hypericum 30, Thiosinamine 6x, Emerald 6 b.d. 5 week F.U. Impression that he is much taller. His mother says that he has grown. He said “I‟m generally pretty good, doing a lot more exercise amd football without any real problems, feel comfortable. Back is stiff after sitting at school for 8 hours without a break. If he overdoes exercise = spasm in buttocks. Rx: Hypericum 30 alt. nights Rhus Tox, Thiosinamine 6x b.d. Emerald 6c b.d. M:Case:M.16.A.S.

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GENERALITIES, NERVES, NUMBNESS, sensation, parts lain on: Day 01: Early evening when sitting - crossed arms/legs or clasped hands, it felt as if my circulation would be cut off. Starting to feel slightly numb. Had to move after 2 - 3 minutes. Day 01: Woke up in the right, needing to move, start of „numb feeling‟ again. Su:F:Pl:01:XX:XX:N.S. The above symptom was felt by meditation provers. GENERALITIES, OLD AGE, premature: Case M:39yrs. (See Case R.V.) Vicar, c.o. spots over lumbar region and pain in that area. Over weight, wears only dark clothes and dog collar. Feel I have to live up to expectations. Guilt, have I done enough, family take second place. (>> Carcinosin 30-200-1M then <<<Sulphur 6). Emerald 30 split doses. F.U. He had lost over a stone in weight. He was wearing a pink shirt and shirt and light green anorak which suited him. He was not wearing his dog collar. He had played a couple of games of football “Didn‟t realise I could still run”. “I feel proud of myself, mastered my inclination to eat all the time. Appreciate food more now. Organised my day off to a Saturday to be with wife and children. I have a feeling of well being and am content with where I am. My feet don‟t have that hot feeling don‟t feel so trapped”. No aches and pains in back. M:Case:M.39. Case F:80yrs. patient telephoned me to say she did not think she would make it to Christmas, she was tired, weary, feeling old. Rx: Emerald 30 split dose. She not only made Christmas but made her best Christmas cakes and puddings ever. Lots of energy. M:Case:F:80years. GENERALITIES, PAIN, BONES: My joints felt stiff all over. My bones ached. They were stiff all day but did ease slightly as the day wore on. My neck felt stiff, (sort of tight and tense) pressure? S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, PAIN, JOINTS: Day 02: No muscular or joint pains. A.S. Day 26: Nil aches/pains following more than the average amount of walking. Su:F:20:6c:02:XX:XX:A.S. GENERALITIES, PAIN, MUCSLES, aching: As above: Su:F:20:02:XX:XX:A.S. Feeling generally „achy‟ „flu like‟. Felt better for soaking in the bath. M:F:36:30c:19:XX:XX:N.S. Although it was very strenuous hill walking - several long uphill climbs and long detours, I had no aching muscles nor that general stiffness which is fairly typical on the Monday after a walking weekend. My body feel good, lithe and elastic. H:F:04:30c:08:XX:XX:N.S. Thursday night felt so tense in sleep that it woke me. Had tight muscles in ribs that were painful because I‟d tensed so much. Su:F:Pl:19:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, STIFFNESS of body: AS ABOVE:Su:F:Pl:19:XX:XX:N.S.

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Moving slowly. Very stiff, thumping down into chairs. M:M:32:12c:14:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, STIFFNESS of body, exertion after: Although it was very strenuous hill walking, several long uphill climbs and long detours, I had no aching muscles nor that general stiffness which is fairly typical on the Monday after a walking weekend, My body feels good, lithe and elastic. H:F:04:30c:08:XX:XX:C.S. GENERALITIES, STIFFNESS of body, on rising: Slept awkwardly. Woke up mildly stiff (lower back) but stiffness passed very quickly - possibly quicker than usual. H:F:02:12c:02:XX:XX:A.S. 8 a.m. Not very stiff at all this morning. H:F:06:12c:06:XX:XX:U.S. GENERALITIES, STIFFNESS, of joints: Woke 6.45 a.m. slept well, felt tired though. My „joints‟ felt stiff, my bones ached. They were stiff all day but did ease as the day wore on. My neck felt stiff (sort of tight and tense). S:M:14:30c:04:XX:XX:N.S. Seem to be moving rather slowly ? old age. Stiff muscles ? joints ? flu, <motion. M:M:32:12c:13:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, toxicity, chemotherapy, side effects of: See Stomach, Vomiting, Chemotherapy from. M:Case 47:C.S. GENERALITIES, WEAKNESS, enervation: Woke at 8.50 a.m. I was thick headed, slow and lacked energy. heavily and lacked energy. S:M:14:30c:06:XX:XX:N.S. I struggled at the gym, sweated

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The stomach ache and ache in both testicles has persisted all morning and I feel a “little wobbly” (generally weak all over). M:M:32:12c:01:02:30:N.S. GENERALITIES, WEARINESS: I am not feeling tired or low by a long weekend. If feel good, calm, relaxed and easy. So nice. I often feel tired so I guess this is a N.S. very positive. Day 27: I think that gorgeous silky feeling I had at the beginning has gone. There are more stresses right now, finalising projects, preparing for unemployment. But I still feel good; energy is good; happy with self and life - even now at such a time of such significant change, so good. Day 47: I‟m sure all that strong energy earlier this month has helped. This „cold‟ has appeared because I‟ve been very demanding of myself in getting things organised at home, at work and for two conferences. While at the conference I shared a room with a colleague who has completely different sleeping habits - did not bother me at all. I think this remedy gives the energy which a. wards off colds and b. helps me through very long working days with less and disrupted sleep. I think I am healing all through. Could this be why I feel so calm and good and peaceful. Day 49: Energy still good even though under significant pressure. Day 5l: Been to Grantham for 2 days, conference, very tiring. Very calm about some situations. Very positive experience. Tiring but energy sustained, despite long hours. Day 52. Feel good. Amazing how energy is keeping despite less sleep. H:F:04:30c:13:XX:XX:C.S. I have been rushing around, am very busy with work but my energy is good, > than I would expect it to be under the circumstances, as I‟m having to meet deadlines. Good energy continued to noted until day 07. R:M:10:12c:02:XX:XX:A.S. Woke up. I was thick headed, slow and lacked energy. I struggled and the gym and sweated heavily (U.S). S:M:14:30c:06:XX:XX:U.S. Felt very dull all day - head still thick with cold. Tired. Fell asleep this evening between 8 - 9.45 p.m. S:M:18:30c:07:XX:XX:U.S. Day 02: Jovial frame of mind despite not having a good night‟s sleep. Energy may be better than usual. A.S. Day 03: Stomach ache and ache to testicles persist all morning (N.S.) feel wobbly = general weakness. (N.S.). Day 13: Seem to be moving rather slowly, ?old age. Stiff muscles, joints, ?flu, <motion. Day 14: Moving slowly, thumping down into chairs. Day 16: Slept in v. late. Stiff very stiff. Day 19: Rather tired. Poor concentration, very stiff after a lot of digging. M:M:32:12c:13:XX:XX:N.S. Day 00:Reflecting on the day, which was arduous, I am sure I felt more positive with a higher energy level. Day 01: Energy brilliant, more so than usual. Day 03: energy amazing for the amount of work I have done. Although exhausted and desperate to sleep in afternoon. Woke refreshed and continued with a normal evening. Day 04 energy levels down. M:F:36:30c:00:XX:XX:A.S. Day 01: Energy increased, went bananas cleaning. until day 05, energy good, high, very talkative then Day 06: Energy is down, not as much as other days. Feeling down. M:F:38:12c:01:XX:XX:A.S. GENERALITIES, WEARINESS, afternoon: Day 18: Lots of energy, especially later afternoon (US) usually feel like a nap then. H:F:04:30c:18:XX:XX:C.S. Moya Ross 122

5.15p.m. Feel physically exhausted and very achy around the hips. H:F:06:12c:11:XX:XX:U.S. 2.00p.m.. Overwhelming feeling of physical tiredness, despite a good night‟s sleep last night. Went out for a walk to try to wake up. Was not > for walking. Feel really fatigued and sleepy. Not related to food. Su:F:20:6c:03:XX:XX:A.S . On returning home from lunch, felt exhausted and desperate to sleep, felt as if I had half a bottle of wine. (water only consumed at lunch). Felt if I had not lain down I would fall down. Slept for three hours. Woke, felt a bit achy as if I had boozed. I had a bath and feel normal now. M:F:36:30c:03:XX:XX:N.S. GENERALITIES, WEARINESS, MENSES, before: P.M.T. usually one week before menses. Now no P.M.T. When menses come I am less physically tired and also pain is shorter and less intense. During proving physical symptoms moved to during menses instead of before. Emotional symptoms of feeling negative, depressed, insecurity now around ovulation and last for one day. Su:F:24:30c:4 mth REVIEW:C.S. Energy very good considering I‟m premenstrual. M:F:32:30c:21:XX:XX:U.S. GENERALITIES, WEARINESS, MENSES during: Day 02: Much more energetic and clearheaded (not normal when I have my period). Day 03: Had a really energetic game of badminton. Got really breathless and sweaty but felt really good (again not normal around period). Day 04: Although I went to bed late and woke up early I still feel full of energy. Day 08: Woke with plenty of energy, I buzzed around all day, not stopping. R:F:08:12c:02:XX:XX:U.S. When menses comes I am less physically tired and also pain is shorter and less intense. Su:F:24:30c: 4 mth REVIEW:A.S.

INTERPRETATION OF DREAMS. AVOIDING ISSUES, Not confused - quite relaxed - we were in California to ski. Lovely view from bed out of window to mountains. went round shops. Never got round to getting ski gear on, H:F:12c:01:XX:XX: BLAME, DENIAL OF RESPONSIBILITY, I crashed my car into Lou Carpenter‟s car (he is an actor in Neighbour‟s). I thought I had barely touched it but it had nasty cracks and dents in it, which he said I had caused and I couldn‟t prove otherwise. R:F:6c:14:XX:XX:

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I shunted a little white car up the hill into a garden. The occupants in the other car were making a lot of fuss - being very pedantic - could not see what was wrong with the car. Felt they were over reacting. H:F:12c:25:XX:XX. BURIED PROBLEMS, Dreamed I was in a Communist version of Venice with lots of underwater archaeology./ I don‟t know why it was Communist - they had uniforms I think. I‟m not sure, it just appeared to be Communist. I used to do a lot of underwater diving and photography of archaeological sites. R:M:12c:10: BURIED ALIVE, being: (buried problems are able to surface), - then I found myself high up in the air outside the house and I thought I would let myself drop and fall down onto the earth to experience flying, then to dive into the earth. When I was in the dark earth, I felt it must be terrible when you are buried alive. More a sympathetic feeling for others because I had no body and just came out again. Su:F:30c:30c:XX:XX: BUSINESS, I was interviewing three provers. H:F:12c:21:XX:XX: Something about seeing my patients. Not confused. Relaxed and sleep position less screwed up. H:F:12c:04:XX:XX: About homeopathy. H:F:12c:29:XX:XX: Dreams of work. M:M:112c:10:XX:XX: CONFUSION, Two surgeons undertaking laparoscopy. Seemed to know them but couldn‟t identify them. I was in adjacent area working at something, but couldn‟t say what. H:F:6c:29:XX:XX. CONFUSION OF IDENTITY, Dream about someone known to be a homeopathic doctor. medicine to me or vice versa. (Allopathic doctor). H:F:6c:18:XX:XX: Can‟t remember whether he gave

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I was falsely imprisoned - from a lie detector - took down a panel from the room and there was hidden the real culprit. So I was O.K. H:F:30c:32:XX:XX: DENIAL OF A SITUATION AND MUST EXPRESS, Staying at an hotel - I‟ve had this dream before at this hotel but different version - there is always a problem at this hotel. It‟s nice, cosy in the country and I want to be there. I think I‟m there with friends. However, tonight, the Management which is three old biddies in teacosies, wanted me to share a room with three people I didn‟t know, four in one room. So I said, “Absolutely Not!” and woke myself up. Am I anticipating Friday‟s trip to Dorset? DENIAL OF PROBLEM, Dreamed that husband had a Land Rover and was taking off the tyres, it was resting on just stands and it went over - did not seem to be a huge catastrophe. M:F:12c:12;XX:XX. I’m helpless, I can’t help, I’m on my back.! Dream he had slipped on ice and lay on his back, looked up and saw a girl about to jump off a ledge. He asked her what she was doing and she said she didn‟t know and went back in. He went through some shops and saw her in a sleeping bag by the window. She was Swedish. S:M:30c:03:XX:XX: EXPRESSION OF DESIRES/ SELF DENIAL, I saw a doctor I worked with and the whole story of the ward came up again. I was only an observer at the same time I got involved with the relationship triangle and by not expressing what I wanted ended up in a messy relationship. Su:F:30c:02:XX:XX: FEAR OF FAILURE IN FRONT OF OTHERS, Dream of having to read - give a lecture and had the wrong book. Failed in front of people. Felt lousy next day. M:MM: Dream about an actuary I had placed at work. Very smart. Attended next day dressed as Charlie Crowley (clown). Brought whole family in for lunch. I was panicking. M:F:30c:08:XX:XX: GOING AGAINST ONE’S NATURE, Remember 2 -3 mini flying dreams, in one I was trying to fly against a strong wind, which forced me backwards. The other I was racing a colleague from work to his home, I never got there. S:F:30c:05:XX:XX: GUILT, In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessels coming off of it - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating (there was a feeling of intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought „this is it‟. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors. M:F:MM: Dream about little boys running into big square room where me and my sister are talking. My sister is lying in a bed on the ground. A little boy talks to me, face to face and doesn‟t care about my conversation with my sister. I cut him back and feel guilty afterwards, his freshness and being straight forward is stamped on. I recognise we are in a gym and they have the right to be here. Su:F:30c:09:XX:XX:

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GUILT, IDENTITY, DUTY, DENIAL OF BLAME, Group of people like communists, stabbing boy in neck, I am doing it for them. Had to make the wound bleed to make sure all the blood is out, as if to finish the job - I do it out of duty. M:F:MM: LOVE, Easy, friendly, clear dreams, with well focused pictures, full of love and friendship. H:F:30c:05:XX:XX: MOVING ON, Had a new lover in dream today. Often dream of old ones - today a new one (love that). H:F:30c:42: RESOLUTION, Dreams about work, colleagues and resolutions of conflicts and animosities. H:F:30c:11:XX:XX: SECURITY, need to feel safe: Dreamed about one of my previous teachers. She had built a new staircase in her home so that people wouldn‟t go through her private space. The staircase led out into the open and around the house to the other side. The new staircase had definite steps whereas the private one was just a slope. I wanted to use the steps in order to feel safe. SU:F:30c:04:XX:XX: SELFCONFIDENCE, I am with a group of people. I go swimming, floating on my back, I feel very happy and courageous to float on my own, I am the only one of the group, the others are all on land. I dared to go in. I felt brave because I was the only one who did it. It felt reassuring. Su:F:30c:03:XX:XX.

SELF DENIAL, (aspects of self that need expression), I was in a bathroom where there were two other people. One person was bleeding to death and the other was unconscious. The toilet was full of blood. I awoke in a desperate state, feeling that the people were aspects of myself that were dying - the blood was the loss of the vital force. The bathroom was getting rid of the waste. Su:F:30c:30:XX:XX: SEXUALITY, HOMOEROTIC, (Extraordinary I never dream). Five hard looking ladies in black racing swimsuits, high necks, zip up back. Black leather jackets over them. Looked very S.S. All had reddish hair, X1 brunette. Saw them head to mid thigh. Ginger pubic hair sprouting from swimsuits. They were standing in a line listening to a man, also dressed in black who was talking to them but no sound in dream, only visual. Then they turned to the right and marched off. They did not look very nice, bit on the hard side, nazis. M:F:30c:08:XX:XX: Full of people I love and linked with travel. This time arrived - no anticipating. S and I were in her house and I returned to my house. There was a strong sense of love and friendship between us. We were in a Spanish place and D was there too. People admired my pyjamas on the street and I met B. Went to her home. Full of love and friendship. Curiously E. wasn‟t there - the boys were. It was a warm dream. This Hotel has a good, relaxed feel about it - old and welcome and secure.

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H:F:30c:05:XX:XX SEXUALITY, HOMOEROTIC, GUILT, (guilt load over head) - then I am boarding a ship going to another continent. Big lorry, cranes are coming on board. I sit and listen to a talk concerning the voyage. The Captain, a male, butch looking woman, gathered us on deck to talk to us. I looked up and saw cranes and heavy lorries loaded up on deck above us. There was one that had a heavy weight hanging form it, positioned over my head. I moved away from it. Su:F:30c:06:XX:XX: SEXUALITY, HOMOEROTIC, SUPPRESED SELF, (Integrating a part of yourself you have previously denied and it needs expression in order to feel good). ?Karma. There is a woman of my age in the group with short hair and no wrinkles, I look into the mirror and cut my hair on my right side with a razor blade. I have ginger hair and know it‟s my third rebirth, twice before I was born with dark hair. I cut my left side and behind the ear is my hair showing grey and black. I am joining the group to go to California, a retreat set up. I remember the people there, I am not sure what I am doing there. It is hot and dry, sandy area, I see an Afro‟american woman, she has dense short black hair down to the knee. More precise, I see hair above the knee cap, showing below the shirt. She moves very graciously. Su:F:30c:03:XX:XX: SEXUALITY, IDENTITY, Group of Nazi women - two came to question me, not in uniform. Two women stood up, kissed each other and sat down, no disapproval, matter of fact. I was being questioned about being a homeopathy - justifying myself, waving the Organon at them and saying Hahnemann as a woman. M:F:MM. SEXUAL TABOO, I was lying on a bed with the upper part of my body naked, my age or a bit younger. On the right side was my brother, approximately 8 years old and my father was bending over me with an attitude when grown ups behave childish with a child and was kissing my left breast. I was very cool and observed it and did not react in any way, but when he wanted to kiss my right breast, I quickly cover it with my right hand and woke up. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, - after that I saw the person whom I once helped, together with my former partner, to withdraw from heroin and to go through the cold turkey, withdrawal symptoms. I put my head close to his when he was lying in bed, like a mother to a child. Su:F:30c:10:XX:XX:

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CHAPTER 7 Emerald - Materia Medica REGION: SPIRITUAL, HEART CHAKRA, unites and activates all chakras. MIND, EMOTIONS, HEAD, EYES, vision, hearing. MARGINS OF OUTLETS, (eyes, ears nose, mouth, anus). MUCOUS MEMBRANES. NOSE, MOUTH, teeth, throat, larynx, DIGESTIVE SYSTEM, (STOMACH, ABDOMEN, RECTUM), NUTRITION, CHEST, RESPIRATION, blood, circulation, heart, lymphatics, glands (mucous, mammae). Nerves, MUCLES, joints, bones, SPINE, BACK. Bladder. Kidneys. SKIN, SLEEP, DREAMS, FEMALE GENITALIA; male: testes. Where lines of energy are not running true to potential. MODALITIES: Worse: < NIGHT, <MORNING ON WAKING, < EVENING, afternoon, temperature,.< cold air, touch agg. < beginning motion, over exertion., < alcohol < pollution. Headaches < light

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Unable to wear contact lenses. Profuse lachrymation with sneezing, chills, yawning, morning on waking, going out in cold air. Pains in the eyes, above and behind the eyes < sunlight. Tired eyes... Nystagmus. Pain localised to right eyebrow on eye movements upwards and to the right. Increased protein on contact lens. Astigmatism. VISION: Slowness of accommodation. Awareness of colours. Dim vision. Vision acute. Reads fine print easier.

EARS: Noises in ears, ringing, rushing; creaking moving jaws. Stopped sensation, left, > swallowing, > open air . Painful, pressing, spasmodic contractive pains bilaterally. Stitching pains left, at night. Eruptions about ears, red. HEARING: acute. Hearing impaired, left. NOSE: Smell acute. Oversensitive to odours, tobacco. Itching of tip. Tingling in nostrils; Sneezing, <morning, <evening. Spasmodic sneezing and runny nose. Violent sneezing, sneezing with lachrymation; Sneezing with nasal obstruction. Fluent coryza, < night, < on waking; unable to lie down, > propped up. Coryza with sore throat; dry throat; with induration of glands. Dryness. Nasal obstruction, < morning on waking; left, at root of nose, left then right, alternates with discharge, after blowing nose.. Suppressed colds. Discharges, watery, copious, white, viscid, bloody, yellow, green. < morning on waking, < night. Compelled to blow the nose in the morning. Epistaxis and blood clots from nose Sinusitis, post nasal drip, descending to throat and chest. Inflammation of left nostril. FACE: Swelling of the eyelids, lower. Eruptions herpes simplex, around the lips. Vesicles chin. Swelling and induration of submandibular glands. Twitching upper lip. MOUTH: DRYNESS of the mouth, lips, palate, tongue and throat, with thirst. Tongue adheres to roof of mouth. Corrugated tongue and gums. Gums inflamed, swollen, bleeding and sore, < touch, < hot liquids, > cold. Burning, stinging, smarting pains; rawness as if excoriated. Prickling edges of tongue. Metallic; sweetish, taste in mouth; of blood from sneezing.. Perversions of taste; food and drink tastes, metallic, offensive, of chemicals. Desire for salty foods diminished. Blood vesicles inside cheeks. Ulcers , red, soft palate, left. Salivation with nausea. TEETH: Tooth ache. Ailments from eruption of wisdom teeth. THROAT: Dry; sore throats, < morning on waking, < evening, < left, > hot fluids. Sensation of a lump in the throat; on swallowing, dysphagia. Pains in throat descend to chest. Pain from violent sneezing. EXTERNAL THROAT: Swollen, hard glands behind ears and sides of throat. STOMACH: Appetite diminished. Thirstless. Thirsty for cold drinks. Vomiting of alcohol. Desires chocolate, oranges, sweets, fish, which can aggravate. Indigestion, < morning and evening. Nausea with diarrhoea, to stool; pains in abdomen, with perspiration, with mortification. Anxiety felt in stomach. VOMITING, after alcohol, with chemotherapy, during pregnancy, post operatively. ABDOMEN: Bubbling, gurgling; distension, < evening; from flatus; from diarrhoea. Pre-menstrual distension. Heaviness. Pains, wandering, < umbilical and right inguinal regions, aching, cutting, cramping, griping; before and after stool, with constipation; with diarrhoea; at or as from ovulation; aching pains, as from a strain; descending into the testicles. RECTUM: CONSTIPATON, ineffectual urging, incomplete feeling; insufficient stool; during menses. Constipation alternating with diarrhoea. Large hard stools. Haemorrhoids. Bleeding from anus and rectum. Itching of anus. Diarrhoea; offensive, orange in colour, explosive; with flatus; from emotions. Tenacious stools. Sudden urging. Flatus, loud, < morning and evening.

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GENITALIA: FEMALE: Itching vulva in bed at night < heat. Menses 2 days too early; menses late; menses start again after having finished at menopause. Menses sudden, copious, clots; suppressed. Premenstrual - irritability, depression, constipation, abdominal distension; at ovulation - irritability, depression. Dysmenorrhoea. Sore vulva. Sharp wandering pains at ovulation, right ovary > eating., Aid incarnating soul. Nausea of pregnancy Aids childbirth. LARYNX & TRACHEA: Tickling in the air passages. Hoarseness from mucus in the larynx from post nasal drip, descending symptoms from throat to chest. Larynx very painful; cannot speak aloud, voice changes as before a cold. RESPIRATION: Unable to breath lying down in bed at night from fluent colds and sneezing, > propped up. Painful respiration < movement. Shortness of breath on exertion. Wheezing from pollution. COUGH: Dry tickly cough waking from sleep at 5 a.m. CHEST: Conscious of heart‟s action on waking; on exertion. Feeling of constriction, morning on waking, on exertion, on inspiration. Sharp, sudden pains behind the sternum, < on inspiration; extending to the back from the sternum. Cutting, sudden sharp pains under left mammae extending to scapula; pains in the region of the heart causing anxiety. Ascending colds, inflammation of the lungs, > keeping still. Itchy lumps in axilla. Painless tumours, right, mobile, regular, circular. Swelling of axillary glands, Painless, mobile breast tumours, right. BACK: Stiffness, aching and tension in the cervical region extending to the shoulders; tensive pains between scapula as if a string were pulling the scapulae together; or a wooden pole inserted between shoulder blades < night, < on waking, > motion. Stiffness and aching of the lumbar; sacral region, shooting down to knee. Back feels as if broken. Eruptions, cervical region, margins of hair, small, hard, red, itching < heat. Eruptions like heat bumps, left buttock. Swelling of glands on right side of neck. Injuries to spine and nerves. EXTREMITIES: Dull, aching pains, wandering; right arm - shoulder, < arm flexed, > gentle movement, < vigorous exercise, < raising arm. Heaviness, right arm, hanging down. Sharp pain in right shoulder from pulled muscles < motion. Weakness and sore, painful elbow joints from overuse. Elbows that lock. Brief sharp pains in finger joints, touch aggravates; weakness of finger joints, feel dislocated. Nodules on first finger, > rubbing. Sharp pains legs < flexing, from vigorous exercise. Tingling and twitches of right upper arm. Stiffness of hips, knees and ankles. Hot feet. Eruptions appear at night, itching, scratching agg., < night, > cool applications. Red patches, vesicles, lumps, nodules, eczema and scaly. Desquamation psoriasis left hand. Dry, hands in winter; dry split fingers. Red streaks around ankles. SLEEP: Disturbed by the slightest noise; by dreams. Restlessness, talking in sleep, twitching of the limbs. Disturbed and unrefreshing sleep, from persistent thoughts, from coughing, sneezing. Wakes early. Wakes from persistent itching; wakes being overheated and perspiring or with persistent coldness in bed. Wakes with tense musculature. Sleepiness and weariness during the day, < afternoon; overpowering sleepiness; riding in cars, during business. Yawning. Unable to sleep, unable to breathe, lying down with fluent coryza, > propped up. Dreams: Of accidents, of injuries; amorous, arrested, being buried alive, of business, about children, confused, that he was wrongly accused of committing a crime; guilt, of humiliation. Dissecting bodies, knives, murder. Exhausting. Floating in water, flowers, of old friends, dead relatives, relationships, romantic, amorous, of sex and sexuality. Snow. Being stung by an insect. Unsuccessful efforts to reach a destination. Walking. Of horses, journeys. Boats foundering in water, of the sea. Yellow. CHILL: Shivery at start of respiratory chills. Moya Ross 130

PERSPIRATION: Profuse sweating from exertion; from heat, with dyspnoea. SKIN: Dryness; itching, eruptions, < night, < scratching, appear on waking, amel by cold applications. Series of itches from head to foot. Elevated, inflamed, patches, red, hard pimples, vesicular eruptions. Eczema; desquamating psoriasis, boils, carbuncles. Skin feels tight. COMPARATIVE MATERIA MEDICIA Natrum Muriaticum: Too serious and overly proper and responsible patients. Easily offended or wounded, complaints from humiliation. Dwells on past griefs and humiliations. Sensitive to noise. Pre-mentstrual syndrome with irritability and sadness. An idea clings preventing sleep. Irritable. Easily angered; anxiety; extremely forgetful. Sensitive what others say about her. Thoughts persist. Defensive, cautious and may hide way. Generally, periodic complaints, neurological twitches and tremors. Vertigo. Thirst for cold drinks. Head: Headaches <light, sun, > lying in a dark, quiet room; in morning, on awakening; over the eyes. Heaviness of head, rush of blood to head. Eruptions at hair margins and nape of neck, itching. Face: Herpetic eruptions lips and chin. Aphthae of mouth. Eyes: Burning in eyes; lachrymation; from sneezing. Margins of eyes inflamed and irritable, itching inner canthi, dryness, vision blurred. Nose: Violent, fluent coryza changing to stoppage of nose. Dryness. Tingling. Nose bleed. Mouth: Gums spongy and bleed easily. Throat: Dry throat, lump sensation. Swelling of glands. Cough from a tickle. Stomach: drinks large quantities; heartburn; anxiety in stomach. Nausea, craves chocolate, desires fish. Abdomen: colic and nausea > flatus. Diarrhoea. Rectum: Constipation, and alternate with diarrhoea. Haemorrhoids. Male: pain in testicles, sexual desire. Female: Menses suppressed; dysmenorrhoea; clots; too early; too profuse; menses preceded by headaches. Larynx: Accumulation of mucus in larynx. Chest: feels constricted. Heart: painful stitches region of heart. Back: painful stiffness of neck. As if back were broken. Lumbar pain prior to menses. Extremities: dryness and cracking fingernails, finger tips. Numbness and tingling. Weakness of joints. Sleep: Talks in sleep. Sleepy but cannot sleep at night, from grief. Sleepiness during the day. Chill: Coldness of the body. Skin: eczema, urticaria, psoriasis; eruptions, itching, <warmth. Carcinosin: Patients who over extend themselves on many levels. Strong sense of duty. Very sensitive. Clairvoyant. Timidity. Domination by others. History of suppression and guilty feelings. Anxiety and anticipatory worries. Hurried feelings. Difficult concentration, dullness, brain fag. Depression. Anger, irritability, discontented. Suspicious. Fears from ailments. Cries easily. Generally, desire for chocolate, sweets, fruit.. <Night. General amelioration from short naps. Frequent colds and acute illness. Desire for cold drinks. Exhaustion. Heat aggravates, ameliorates. Head, recurring sinusitis. Lump in throat . Pain in forehead, eyes above, right, temple. Eyes, sore margins of lids, stinging lids. Ears: noises in ears, boils Nose, epistaxis. Mouth aphthae, sore palate, hot drinks agg. Stomach, anxiety felt in stomach. Abdomen, Pain and affliction lower right iliac region. Rectum, dry, hard stool, constipation. haemorrhage, itching. G.U. sexual desire increased/suppressed. Menses early; discharge suppressed. P.M.T. Menopause. Larynx, persistent hoarseness. Larynx, cough with tickle in throat. Chest, chest constriction, lumps in mammary glands, pain behind sternum. Audible violent palpitation of heart. Sleep, delayed first sleep; disturbed sleep. Dreams anxious, of business, frightful, of journeys, of murder, nightmares arousing the patient. Insomnia, short naps amel. Unrefreshing, waking early. Staphysagria: Yielding, mild, avoids quarrels, does not want to cause trouble. Ailments from grief, from suppressed anger or emotions. Fear of losing control. Low self esteem. Depression. Some sort of addiction - eating, overworking. <Emotions, grief, vexation, indignation, insults, mortification. Anger suppressed or reserved. Sensitive what others say about her. Irritability. Depressed after a fit of anger or insult. Impetuous. Generally, over sensitive to tobacco smoke. Desires sweets. < night. Stiffness and sensation of fatigue in all joints. Injury. Dentition. Back, feels broken. Extremities: joints stiff, weakness of knees. Itching inner side of thigh. Shuffling gait. Sleep, violent yawning = lachrymation. Amorous dreams. Skin: eczema, itch violently. Itching eruptions. Nitric Acid: Dissatisfied, discontented with himself. Restlessness. Dwells on past disagreeable memories = resentment. Oversensitive to external impressions. Quarrelsome. Anger. Generals, margins of outlets. Very chilly <cold in general, <night, <warmth of bed. Head: Sensation of band around head. Scalp sensitive. Rush of blood to head. Ears, hearing impaired. Hearing acute to

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noises. Swelling of glands beneath and behind ears. Cracking in ears when chewing. Mouth, bleeding of gums, soft and spongy. Ulcers on soft palate. Bites cheek. Dryness and intense burning in mouth and fauces. Stomach, sweetish taste in mouth. Dyspepsia. Nausea. Great thirst. Abdomen, flatulent symptoms. Cutting, griping pains. Rectum, constipated, great straining. Haemorrhages from bowels. Haemorrhoids bleed. Anus itching, eczematous or oozes moisture. Urinary, frequent urging at night. Urine scanty. Males, sexual urge too strong or absent. Female, menses early, profuse. Pain in back. Larynx, hoarseness, dry cough from tickling in larynx. Chest, congestion. Back, stiff neck. Extremities, weakness and stiffness of knees. Finger joints swollen. Sleep, unrefreshing, frightful dreams. Wakes too early; difficult waking. Sleepiness during the day. Skin cracks and tendency to boils. Arnica: Injury with extravasation of blood, contusion, sprains. Restless. Epistaxis. Angina. Myalgia. It is interesting, Arnica is a Jupiter plant. Jupiter rules the arteries and circulation, similar to Emerald (see astrological reading). Aurum: Duty bound. Workaholic, industrious. Lacks self confidence. Oversensitive to the opinion of others. Forsaken feeling. Anxiety of conscience. Guilty feelings and remorse. Depressive, melancholic mood. Contradiction aggravates. Generally oversensitive - to noise, taste, odours. <Night. Ebullitions with intense palpitations. Surging of blood to the head. Pain behind the sternum. Eye diseases. Thuja: Low self-esteem and feelings of worthlessness. Closed, well mannered and polite. Needs to „fit in‟ with others. History of suppression. Like Thuja, Emerald brings the problem to the surface. Generally <cold, heat of bed; during menses; alcohol; sun, discharges yellow/green. Conium: Gradual decline, weakness and lassitude. Gradual weakening of memory, lack of sharpness of the senses. Introversion, gradual shutting down, leading to indifference, apathy and depression. Stony induration of glands. Vertigo. Stiffness of neck. Excessive lachrymation, frequent sneezing. Nausea. Abdomen distended; pains in abdomen. Constipation. Numbness of extremities. In a low potency I have found Emerald complementary to Sulphur, Lycopodium, Calc Carb, enhancing their action.

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Transcriptions of Meditation Provings Meditation on Emerald, 17 January, 1996 at Shelley, Yorkshire R: When I spoke to Carol about this remedy, she said that the energy which she is working with at the moment, which is the Metatron energy, is the energy of the shape of the emerald and the colour that's associated with this energy is an opalescent mint green. The shape of the energy which is the crystalline shape of the emerald is a sort of elongated diamond shape. Basically the idea is that we all have this energy, shape, form around us and ideally are looking to draw that colour into our aura field so that it actually permeates all of our being and stimulates the higher consciousness that is actually available or more available to us now than has been in the past. S: The main sensation I had when holding the remedy was of saplings growing. Very tall thin saplings. Thin alders. Ph: Yes, but I got a lot of green and big open spaces. Huge, huge open spaces and lots of clarity. Could see a long, long way, but everything was green, the whole hue was green. It seemed as though I was in a cave but it wasn't enclosed over the top. It seemed to be around me but it was hugely expansive but that was about it. I felt lightened after I held it. I was very relaxed as well. I definitely had clarity. I seemed to be able to see and although the green was there and it was a cave, there wasn't a roof but I could seem to see for miles very clearly. And interestingly, I'm left handed but I didn't even consider picking it up with my left hand and I picked it up with my right hand and held it in my right hand but I don't do anything right-handed, don't pick anything up whatever it be, which was very strange. P: The first thing that came immediately that I held it were eyes, but they were some sort of female eyes, feline female, tigers or whatever. And I tried to recapture that but then it came to my mind the baby gorilla they discovered that has leukaemia which has never been found and something on the news the other day. Quite apparently disconnected, were planets like Saturn with rings revolving around them. It had got a ring revolving round. R: I found it very easy to see and to bring in the opalescent green and also the shape, and when I held, the image was cleared. It was a very nice sensation. I think it's just what I needed. I felt much clearer. The sense of openness and clarity I had was definitely inside as though I was actually observing from inside myself, what was going on in this area - definitely for me in this area my shoulders had dropped. I've been driving a lot the last few days and my shoulders have been up round my ears, you know. They've dropped. I've held it in my left hand and in my right hand and in my right hand which is my more active dominant in a sense of doing in the world hand, it became, I felt, a strong pulse. Rz: Just a relaxed sensation. Maybe because we were holding it hard, I don't know but I felt a definite pulse in my hand. C: It's for dimensional shift and it's about the Metatron energy. It's for the people who wonder if they are going mad. This is what they say "am I really going mad?" They tell me all sorts of things that have been happening to them that they haven't understood and they nearly always end up by saying "am I going mad?" - it's for those people, its for people who are dabbling with this dimensional shift that's going on now, and don't understand it. There is a big shift in dimensional energy going on at the moment and a lot of people are going with it. I tried to find the Gurudas on Gem Elixirs. It isn't actually a book to read from cover to cover, but it's the authority on gem essences. Meditative Proving of Emerald, 17.5.96. Tunbridge Wells. (Channelling) S: This is a powerful remedy indeed. It links very strongly with the star energy, particularly of Sirius. It links especially with the higher chakras, the higher aspect of the heart, the brow and the higher brow, the silver chakra particularly. It is a remedy that has great capacity to bring growth and refinement of vibration and subtle bodies of the most ordinary and undeveloped of people. It has a strong quality of humility but also of power. It can reach into the depths of the darkness of the underworlds. It has the capacity and the power to bring souls up from this level either to allow them to discharge into the light or to bring them into greater consciousness on the earth plane.

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The number 3 is linked strongly with this remedy. It is also strongly linked with Egyptian medicine, with the astrology associated with star cycles. It has a strong capacity of growth also within the human body. It represents the etheric fluids of the body when a body is out of synch, out of balance, when there is dryness of complaints and hot burning itching. This remedy can be useful but especially if you have tuned into the withdrawal and lack of flow of the etheric fluids within the subtle bodies. It is truly a remedy whose vibration is strongest on the etheric and astral planes and therefore in prescribing this remedy you must look to these levels to see the cause and seat of the imbalance at these levels. It also forms a triangle between the heart, throat and sacral chakras having the effect of raising the creativity on all levels and we stress that this is the order of the chakras that it affects: the heart, then to the throat then to the sacral. It also affects the circulation, particularly of lymph, it affects the lymph system. It has the potential to be a powerful remedy for cancers especially of the lymph system and the blood. A remedy to help dispel the effects of radiation, especially among children and unborn children. Emotionally and mentally this remedy will greatly enhance people who are on a fine line between great humility and great lack of confidence, the inability to really express and progress within their lives. It is a person who feels very much restricted and unable to progress, held within limits and restrictions of their own making, being imprisoned within their body, within their heart, unable to flow to express, to manifest completely within the world. It has great capacity for growth on all levels, to enable persons to come into the world to express and fulfil their potential. It is a wonderful remedy also for the enhancement of the earth to bring back into earthly manifestations the vibrations of the old world, particularly of standing stones, of fairy circles, of Celtic magic and lore that has chosen to recede and withdraw; this remedy has the ability to enable the energies to return within the earth and within the person and it encourages and enhances especially by protecting and sheltering the vibration within a person until they are ready to face the world and to be themselves. This nurturing and protecting quality is very strong with this remedy. Links with the earth, the process of shoots of seeds growing deep within the earth and only springing forth when they are strong enough and ready to manifest on the vibration of the earth. And this process applies to all old energies that need to come into greater manifestation to allow the earth to progress. This process also applies to people who have withdrawn, particularly when their confidence and hope has been shattered and displaced, particularly been shattered by loss of ideals, shattered illusions and dreams. This remedy restores and protects and enables energy, whether it be of a soul or of the earth to grow and manifest once more. We ask you to think of your manifestation of Emerald City, of the journey to the Emerald City and of the opportunity within protected bounds that were given to these characters to grow and fulfil their potential to restore themselves and to progress. And in that state we are also greater able to be of service, to fulfil our true purpose within the earth of service to mankind. Thank you for this remedy and for the links it brings with the worlds, and particularly the star worlds and its links particularly with the higher realm of angelic forces that are linked with star energy and vibration. It is another aspect of being that will be drawn down into earthly manifestation within the next age. This remedy gives an example of the contact between that vibration and the earthly vibration. We leave you with great blessing, particularly from the energy of the stars. God Bless you. M: This remedy brings great peace, the peace that we all need. Peace and perfect love. Total acceptance. It allows us the accept our fate, our self chosen path, to accept it with joy and love. It releases inhibition and brings confidence. It opens the throat and so we can express who we are. It is indeed the Emerald City in which we find our courage and our hearts and the knowledge to take us there. It helps us to contact our knowledge from Egypt, initiation processes. Egypt. Energy of the pyramid. A remedy for throat cancer, aching, blocked throat, the mouth and the throat is dry. Cancers in people who have never spoken what they feel. Brain tumour. This is close to Goldfish, will work well in combination with Goldfish as an elixir. Bowel pathology. It‟s not the bowel it‟s the sacral centre but it spreads to the bowel, secondary pathology as cancer of the bowel. HRT, where HRT has closed down the heart centre to help women come off it to see that they don‟t need it, that it‟s damaging and then it will help when they are off it to rebalance them, throat and generative centre and the heart especially. J: This remedy is one of the precious remedies linked with mythical animals; griffin, like the swan flying. This is given from a very high place with royal qualities to help humanity find their crown. The crystal is linked with every chakra and has the power to help align and straighten and organise to a 134

universal degree. Its action is an interface between the ethereal and the astral and has the ability to heal and protect the etheric shell and sometimes depleting the destructive powers of the astral self. It helps each chakra to quicken, to become activated, energised, awakened when needed and realigned into the one direction. There are threads connecting each centre with the power of this remedy. It helps to purify to strengthen and increase resistance as well as loosening and rebalancing, giving acceptance where there is needed to be more humility and acceptance. It gives us the ability to see and to communicate with beings whose job is to give us guidance and help humanity see its vision of service. Where there is hidden potential this remedy will help to bring it forth. It brings love in abundance and draws us back deeply to the intuitive centre, it awakens part of our psyche as yet inaccessible to us. It can help in our journey towards a more true luminous clairvoyance. It gives us courage to believe and speak what is true. It has an action on the spinal cord and nervous system helping regeneration and re-nourishment of the nervous system. It is one of a family of many precious remedies which are to come in the future. Its essence qualities bring much wisdom and love to the planet both in the child of truth, allowing humanity to change, to be the angels in physical form, to communicate with the devas and the nature spirits, to bring clairaudience in a new way. It is useful in children or patients who have distortions of the spine, where there is a need for alignment and straightness to help the communication and flow of pranic energy throughout the complex nerves linking the chakras. It can bring red to those who need it. In this crystallisation form is the highest form of love and spiritual essence condense in material form. It is a stone of great power, great ...tation, great love and its development is very important for now. We ask that you be more aware in the future of its presence in our lives as a remedy, a stone and a crystal. M.A. This remedy does indeed work very strongly on the throat chakra. It opens up the throat so we can speak the truth that we receive through our intuition and so that we can speak this truth with love and humility and great peace. Everything that we have received of the colour Green is true of Emerald, and Emerald is a much higher vibration, it is like the highest octave of Green. It‟s a remedy given to us now to help all who are on a spiritual path to bring greater humility and love to our hearts. It‟s strongly connected to the angelic world and brings us the gifts of the angelic realms. And it connects us to crystalline structures of the earth and has a great affinity of crystalline structures within our own being, within the physical body. When thought forms have crystallised within the being and created physical conditions, symptoms and illness, the Emerald is able to shatter, disintegrate and thus allow for renewal, new thoughts, new thought forms, to create a new physical manifestation. I am not receiving anything more that I can express but I have a sense that everyone is sharing the incredible energy of love that the Emerald brings. MK: God Bless you all. Greetings from the White Light. So nice to be here. Such a light vibration. You weren‟t expecting that from this corner were you? Hasn‟t been easy but we got through. Been here all the time of course. Now this is a great, great remedy as has already been intuited. This is a true heart chakra remedy. I say that because its the one to think of with the Christ Light, it represents that, completely. Because it starts in the heart and as you know the heart chakra can change all other chakras, so this is the change of heart remedy, this is what we‟re looking for in the world, a change of heart. Now the symbol to remember with this is the cross, my cross, which as you know is a crossed out „I‟ selflessness. This is the problem with these people before they receive it, they‟re dominated by the „I‟ ego and so this crosses it out, pushes it to one side, puts it into place, behind and secondary to the heart. This means that thereafter they can follow the heart first as is the path to be taken by all of you and mankind. In doing so, everything that stems from the ego, fear and doubt and everything that stems from that, diminishes hugely and in the end disappears of its own accord because it‟s dominated by the white light. So this is a balancer; it turns dark to light. Now there‟s some illustrations that can be used to show this change of heart and they‟re quite memorable. Emeralds are mostly produced from one particular country which I won‟t name for I do not wish to upset those people from that country, but there‟s an old story about how emeralds are mined and it‟s told as a joke but it‟s not far from the truth. There are two teams, the first team goes down the mine and digs up the emeralds and brings them to the surface; the second team comes along, shoots the first team and takes the emeralds from them. Now you might find that‟s an odd story to tell, but it shows you the complete change, the going down into the depths of the earth remember and bringing out the green energy, and also with the second team committing a heinous act in order to gain value, this is of course on the physical realm they don‟t realise what they‟re doing on the spiritual realm. The difference between dark and light, it can be so dramatic and that dramatic. So what it does is bring truth from the depths and allows the light to shine forth. 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lack of flow with these people, so it enables the white light the spiritual energies to start flowing properly and what you‟ll find is that these people will start talking, it‟s amazing, somebody who‟s been monosyllabic will start talking and you won‟t be able to shut them up, it‟s wonderful. And what they‟ll be speaking is the truth because fear doubt and embarrassment have been inhibiting them before. They can‟t help it now. And of course remember in its gem state in its polished decorative state it tends of course to reflect the light. It‟s a good way to remember all the gem remedies, they bring the light forth. Now being green of course, it has a link with the sycotic miasm which is the energy of the earth and therefore to do with growth, as of course all this is and all that issues from that. So as growths and discharges are ejections from the body of energy so on a deeper realm will truth and white light be ejected as well. So you can prescribe this on different levels however, it will go furthest on those who are spiritually aware they know the truth and can hear it but they vacillate, get put off, but they won‟t be any more. On the physical level you can prescribe it but especially, in fact only, when you can see that the physical symptoms are as a consequence of damaged or broken heart. O.K.? So say a man suffers a broken heart, say his heart now dies and he‟s grief stricken and he indulges in a lot of sexual activity and he attracts gonorrhoea and starts ejecting green and all the rest of it, you can see it‟s all a result of his broken heart, given on the physical level that will cure the symptoms immediately. You see the link with the lower level. This enables you to become kings and queens of your profession of your own lives to be able to take control and to achieve or start to achieve mastery. This is a big step forward with this remedy, you‟re really connecting with this one this is not to diminish all others but as we go on in our work so we are going deeper and deeper and higher and higher. The greater the connection with spirit and its purity the purer are your channels and therefore the lesser your physical symptoms, they fall away as a consequence. Watch out for people who rock from side to side, like Nat. Mur. they shift balance on their feet don‟t they, they don‟t stand up straight they slouch, shifting around. It‟s the same with these people, the pendulum is still swinging around from one point to another so what this does is bring the pendulum back to the perpendicular and as John has intimated this makes them stand up straight so back problems are an issue here. You are so good at what you do. That‟s the truth, I don‟t speak any other. God Bless you all and thank you for coming. We love you all endlessly. P: This remedy has so many facets. It truly is a polychrest. It produces lots of changeability, uncertainly, indecision because of lack of connection or blocked connection. The heart chakra is disorientated and blocked, the energy cannot flow true and straight so it meanders around creating confusion, sometimes linking up and getting things done, sometimes just dissipating. Its main sphere of action is on the heart, a bit like a chronic Natrum Mur, a polished up Natrum Mur. People who come in with already gunged hearts have actually come here to work on healing the heart. The effects of this remedy are so far reaching when given at the right time to the right person. It can completely alter their path in life. A remedy for putting people in touch with their path or putting them back in touch with themselves so they know where their path is they can see it and take it. It‟s about flow, a good remedy for circulation, for heart disease. Any kind of blocked energy. These people will be poorly nourished, not assimilating knowing what they want but being unable to get it or if they can get it not being able to use it. They may keep on trying to get what they know they need but end up so down, so frustrated, so uncomprehending as to why despite all their endeavours they can‟t seem to make it. They may give up despairingly, probably they‟ll come to you also depressed, being in a state of having tried so hard they can‟t understand why they can‟t get to where they want to go. This will change all that. This remedy will put them back in touch with themselves and give them the inner knowing of what they need to do to be reborn, shown the right path, open up that path and they‟ll go forward with joy. It works on very broad outer level, the etheric. A little like Berlin Wall in a way for removing the block which is stopping the way forward. They can have any sort of symptoms but unless they eventually get their remedy, this remedy, they‟re likely to end up in a chronic state with something like cancer. Cancer of course is blocked blame, so cancer of some of the internal organs. A truly beautiful remedy, a remedy that turns humans into angels, that gives hope and drive when everything seems lost. A remedy that creates a huge light in the earth and the people who inhabit the earth opening them up to seeing joy, seeing the possibilities, seeing the way forward. Remember we all love you. Thank you. MM: Much healing has taken place at a very deep level from the roots of the earth and it has cleared a lot of ancient - I think it‟s Egyptian - there‟s a connection there with Egyptian karma, it‟s brought this to the surface, a link there with... Just sends his blessing.

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piece of card, standing behind the ugly grinning, maybe even, growling man. (maybe this was a dream). At the start my intestines started rumbling. At some point it felt as if my right leg was too heavy to have. (NB: Prover came with a hoarse voice). 6: Held 30c bottle. My first thought was of peppers. I felt a hot tingling on my fingers as in mustard hot not heat hot. My next impression was a feeling of something flushing through the system - getting rid of toxins. Later the bottle felt really hot, almost too hot to hold then it would go cold. I felt energised, as if I would be able to achieve anything I wished to do. 7: 30c. Firstly I saw a lion, a spike tail, fangs, jaws. A crown on top of his head - it reminded me of the egg stamp (not sure ?evil). My left hand side of my face reacted first. Going across to my eyebrow and nose - like a vibration feeling as if punched on the nose. Next I saw a bear standing up, his paws ready to be aggressive but not. Next I felt a circus around me - I saw a big base drum with diamond cuts outs on the side of the drum. I could feel the heavy pounding of the drum. I saw a trapeze. Next I saw a man come out of my body, I saw a goatee beard, white, push out from my chin! A flower, a deep shocking pink small flower, similar to the silver penny (not the mauve colour). Next flower as a small pansy - purple and yellow. I saw a set of teeth, tight, small no gaps. Then very strong claws. By now my nose and upper lip were feeling weird. I could sense hair coming out if I let it. I looked down at my feet, I had an old male body with very old type leather sandals - my toe nails were old and brown, looking in front of me was a mass of rocks, boulders, cliff face, with a few rocks scattered on the floor. Next there was a split down the centre of the rock face and a bright blue water came through. I realised I had been sitting in an old rocking chair, which did not rock and that also I was in some kind of ravine. I did not get wet, although I felt water. I was lifted up, the ravine had filled up. I was now on a grassy bank and looking at a very healthy light, fluorescent green, smallish green leaf. The whole time I felt a very masculine sense from the left hand of my eyebrow, nose, finally moving into the right side of me. I could not help bringing Astrology into my thoughts, i.e. Capricorn sign of the goat, ruled by the planet Saturn being Father Time. Our teacher of life, 7 years, taking 28 years, the whole cycle. I wondered through the meditation if it had anything to do with migraines and sinuses. 8: Held 1M bottle. A fast journey through the chakras and out through a lotus flower above my head into meditation. I experienced difficulty in breathing due to a tightness and then pain in the upper lung or maybe heart area. This continued for some time then suddenly Molly (our Healing teacher) was telling me that we were foolish not to have protected ourselves first, by surrounding us with the “white light”. I did it together with her and the pain eased and the meditation continued. I felt very warm and experienced the weight of heavy warm coverings and sank into a very deep meditation but again Molly said “come back you are going to deep”. I then had a very sharp pain in my left leg towards the lower shin where I have a raised vein. As my mediation went deep again all pain went and Molly again said “enough come back now”. Throughout there was a constant “vibration” from the pill jar in my hand and a sensation of my blood moving round my body. My guide was also with me standing as usual behind my chair drawing me up and away. 9. 1.M. I am at ease with the spiritual side of Emerald and try and direct my thoughts as to how it can help children.

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Extracts from Gurudas, Gem Elixirs and Vibrational Healing, Vol 1, pp 102-103 Q: How is emerald used for healing and spiritual growth? „This elixir strengthens the heart, kidneys, liver and pancreas. Parts of the vertebrae associated with the heart, kidneys and pancreas are enhanced. The heart is strengthened to deal with the extra toxins that flow into the system during a cleansing, particularly from a discharge of toxicity in the muscles. This is why there may be a quickening of the pulse. The kidneys remove toxicity from the system and process hidden fears. Healing within the skin is stimulated, and there is some impact on the lymphatic system. Most heart and kidneys diseases as well as the syphilitic and petrochemical miasms are eased. Use emerald for all forms of radiation toxicity. There is also an impact on the time required for cellular mitosis. Androgynous in its properties, emerald balances the heart chakra, which is also the test point. The etheric, astral, and emotional bodies are aligned. This stabilizes the personality, and keener insights into dreams develop. It also stabilizes the astral body and generally increases psychic and clairvoyant faculties. Emerald balances the heart, especially in relation to the father. General paranoia, schizophrenia, and any severe mental illness can be treated with emerald. As a thought amplifier,

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emerald improves meditation, especially to alleviate hidden fears. Emerald allows the individual to be balanced when proceeding into any spiritual sojourn. The heart and kidney meridians are strengthened. These meridian points are also stimulated if emerald is applied externally to these parts of the body. Emerald is critical to the formation of haemoglobin and plasma. Seven drops of this elixir can be added to a bath. It should be worn by the heart, thymus or close to the nasal passages. As to the signature, the green colour of the stone relates to the heart and the kidneys. Amplify emerald by placing it inside a pyramid when Venus is at midheaven. This heightens emerald‟s properties because Venus also balances the heart‟. Q Would you explain how crystals can be used in relation to the chakras? „Each gemstone balances a chakra according to the specific element within it. Ruby and emerald balance the heart and heart chakra partly because they have certain mineral properties that have empathic resonance with that tissue‟. Vol 2 P 13 Will you now speak on placing gemstones along the vertebrae? „...... to illustrate, place emerald along the vertebra point that stimulates the heart because emerald has a close attunement to the heart. This stimulates healing by translating the gemstone‟s resonance into the neurological tissues which go directly to the internal organ. A one or two carat stone would be best to place along the spine‟. p 22 What are the birthstones for each month? „........emerald represents May‟. p 26 „For May the birthstone is emerald and the gemstone for Gemini is malachite. With the intermixing of the forces of emerald and malachite we find that the entire nervous system and lungs are stimulated. Emerald is classically associated with the heart, and the heart is critical to the element of drawing in the breath and its related capillary activities. Shortness of breath is associated with cardiovascular difficulties. The autonomic nervous system is stimulated to allow the mind to extend to these areas. There is a balancing of the mental forces to allow an examination of spiritual qualities. Anxiety and stress associated with neurological disease are also treatable with these elixirs‟. p 29 „The Sun rules Leo and is aligned with emerald, ruby and red onyx‟. p 39 Then each planet and house re represented by a specific gem substance .......the seventh house with emerald....‟ p 74 Q What is the relationship of herbs to vibrational remedies? „Herbs have nutrient and medicinal properties, so they augment the body and repel invading toxins. Herbs and vibrational remedies which influence the same diseases and body functions can be given in unison to support each other ..... they are best aligned through the principles of astrology. Isolate individual minerals and herbs to their particular planet and predominant zodiac sign. For instance, we find that camomile is ruled by the forces of Leo. There is a natural alignment of its principles to emerald or ruby. p 113 „Emerald is an important and general enhancer for all plant forms because of its natural affinity with the sun and with the heart. However, it has special affinity with all fruit bearing trees, especially the citric varieties. Vine growing plants, avocado, and spirulina are also greatly enhanced by emerald.

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Astrological readings This reading relates to the date when the remedies were made up at Helios Pharmacy. Emerald Pluto, the planet of renewal and regeneration, brings to light things which have previously been hidden or buried in order to eliminate what is no longer required and allow some form of transformation. For the last twelve years it has been transiting the sign of Scorpio but in November l995 Pluto moved into the sign of Sagittarius. We are, therefore, experiencing new energies changing many areas governed by Sagittarius at the present time. Whilst gems have for centuries been related as birth stones to the signs of the zodiac and even to months of the year, there does not appear to be a consensus of opinion to the Emerald. It has been related to May, Gemini, Taurus, Libra and Sagittarius. I have noticed, however, that both the colour and the stone have constantly been brought to light since November l995 and usually when people have been experiencing a Jupiter transit. I feel therefore, that Sagittarius and its ruling planet Jupiter have a strong relationship to Emerald. The colour emerald is usually related to Pisces or Sagittarius. Since both signs have been ruled by the planet Jupiter (past or present) it may be that Jupiter is the link rather than the signs themselves. Both charts cast for Emerald reveal the Sun plus five other planets in the sign of Capricorn, showing a strong emphasis on strong solid structure which describes the gem itself. It also represents „old age‟, coldness, and limitations which slow down the process of growth. Jupiter, however, is extremely strong in its own sign and, together with Pluto, bring out the Sagittarian energies which will give freedom to such limitations. Sagittarius physically rules the hips and thighs, liver and hepatic system. Its purpose is to break through boundaries which exist in a search for freedom. It has, therefore, been associated with sight, particularly seeing in the distance, and opening the third eye in order to break through to the next level of existence. Both charts show a Moon/Saturn conjunction which in an individual‟s chart portrays a difficulty in showing emotions. The 11 a.m. chart gives us a Pisces Ascendant which presents itself at face value as a spiritual and possibly confusing remedy. This is the sign which covers the word „holistic‟ which is obviously appropriate here. The 4.35 p.m. chart, however, shows a Cancer Ascendant showing the final remedy to be seen at face value as having the ability to absorb and reflect back. Cancer rules the womb, the breast, and problems generally seen as women‟s ailments. Cancer and Capricorn together also relate to the teeth. Both Cancer and Pisces are water signs which rule the emotions and as such are extremely sensitive to outside influences. All charts have Chiron in Libra showing the wounding to be of balance and/or possibly the kidneys. It could well be that Emerald has the properties of healing by balancing the physical and spiritual.

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Table comparing the uses of emerald in Hahnemannian provings, meditations, gem elixirs and crystal therapy Hahnemannian Provings Mind                               hidden fears releases emotionally suppressed trauma lack of harmony troubled mind grief stricken, depressed nervous tensions persistent thoughts lack of confidence poor memory lack of will power lack of eloquence fear of confrontation clairvoyant Meditations        (                  calms fears Gurudas - Gem 73 Elixirs                 hidden fears Crystal Therapies  releases emotionally suppressed trauma uncertainty lack of harmony emotional unbalance schizophrenia hysteria superstition obsession addictions lack of will power lack of eloquence develops clairvoyance regarding the future nervous tensions aids relaxation aids honesty helps with complex problems

aids relaxation

gives courage/ to speak the truth calms fear lack of self esteem loss of ideals, vulnerability in a relationship

lack of harmony people who think they‟re mad grief stricken, depressed uncertainty lack of confidence inability to express and progress lack of eloquence held within limits of own making, unable to flow psychic and clairvoyant, channelling, healing powers karmic choices improves meditation felt as if outside of physical body improves meditation gives courage to speak the truth, calms fear lack of self esteem loss of ideals, shattered illusions and dreams inhibitions feeling of isolation, separation lack of concentration selfishness

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lack of eloquence

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feeling of separation isolation ( lack of concentration censorious discontent irritable and angry

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dizzy, light headed headaches < light, > lying down headaches, forehead, temples tension and constriction head heavy          headaches, at top hydrocephalus migraines brain damage constriction of head head heavy left and right sided brain tumours pressure on eyes blindness

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tired, sore eyes sticky, lachrymation and dryness astygmatism enhances vision noises in ears hearing acute pressing, sore pain stopped sensation blocked sinuses coryza and discharge obstruction post nasal catarrh epistaxis sneezing sense of smell acute twitching dryness inflamed bleeding gums corrugated metallic taste herpes simplex erupting teeth dryness lump sore glands indurated indigestion vomiting and nausea anxiety felt in stomach

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facial distortion dryness protrusion of tongue abscesses bitter taste problems with teeth dryness constriction allergic reactions cancer   dyspepsia food poisoning and antidote to poison gastric ulcer pancreas and diabetes  problems with teeth

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difficult and wheezing descending colds sharp sudden pains behind sternum conscious of heart‟s action feeling of chest expanding painless tumours in right breast

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stiffness, tension aching pain shooting down to knees eruptions heaviness dull aching pains wandering twitching and tingling locked joints, stiffness develops keener insight into hidden problems from dreams insomnia disturbed by noise unrefreshed persistent thoughts yawning dryness itching eruptions eczema, psoriasis, boils

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circulation nervous system, epilepsy, nervous gestures, tremors and twitches pulse quickens sensation of blood moving lymph cancers of lymph system and blood radiation chronic states growth on all levels detoxification

Elixirs  circulatory disorders  neurological disorders  pulse quickens  lymphatic system  radiation toxicity  critical to formation of haemoglobin and plasma

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Chakra

exhaustion peanut allergy disease within a structure which needs release  coldness, brings heat to the body  old age  problems with blood in babies  heart chakra  heart chakra  heart chakra  heart chakra  spiritual contact  spiritual contact  strengthens  strengthens heart and kidney the meridian   balances and meridians points activates all chakras  and auric layers  stabilises astral  heart  body consciousne  strongest on etheric  ss and astral planes  aligns etheric,  expressing astral and  helps lack of flow  love in action emotional  links heart and throat  bodies  unconditional chakras, then sacral  love  heart chakra  pressure on the third  damaged from  solar plexus eye  father and chakra  Metatron energy and  grandfather dimensional shift   adverse Kundalini  experience in past or  this life, raises  Kundalini   heart chakra  damaged from father  closeness to God and grandfather  core essence is love  closeness to God and mankind Hahnemannian Provings Meditations Gurudas - Gem Crystal Therapies 152

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Therapies  high blood pressure  circulatory problems  thymus gland  cancers  fatigue  nausea  good for bones  electrical and magnetic  heals inflammation  chronic infections, e.g. plague rub a sore with the stone  aids growth  radiation  adrenal glands  stress

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Elixirs  syphilitic  petrochemical

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Themes of Emerald – lines of energy not running true to potential. I have taken the themes of Emerald from a combination of the orthodox Hahnemannian proving, the astrological interpretation, the Meditation provings, Gurudas‟ channelling and subsequent cases where I feel the additional information illuminates aspects of the themes. In order to distinguish between the orthodox proving and other information, this latter is in italics. All interpretations have given me a greater insight, while treating patients, as to the effect Emerald is having on them. Spiritual Emerald gives increased spiritual awareness. It has a special affinity for the heart chakra and unites all the chakra energies so that they flow freely through the body raising Kundalini energy, giving balance, tranquillity, lightness in both mind and body.. It aids the heart chakra to heal. It heals the auric layers and the space around each person. As the astral/emotional body is tied in with the solar plexus Emerald works with emotional imbalances stemmed from this centre. Emerald enhances intuition, spiritual contact and healing powers. It gives peace to troubled minds and even heals karmic problems. Buried emotional issues are brought to the surface to be dealt with. For those who have difficulty confronting issues, have been suppressed or abused, kundalini energy can be released which enhances their courage and enables them to vocalise their thoughts. Unblocks the throat chakra. It gives peace of mind to those who have lost loved ones and to those who fear death. Emerald will help the heart chakra to develop unconditional love and to feel more connected spiritually - feel opened above at the crown chakra - connected to God. Prover 24: Day 55. „Have started to pray again. Have not prayed since childhood. Felt used to pray as a child to a „male‟ God, now pray in a more feminine way Feel as if brought two sides together. Feel more connected spiritually - feel opened above.‟ Crown chakra. Kundalini raised. Prover 10: Day 03. “I feel really relaxed, light, not so heavy on the mattress, not floating or anything like that just good and relaxed, light. Still getting the occasional feeling of fullness, no more a warmth across the chest. It is a pleasant feeling and seems to be linked to the emotional plane. I feel a general sense of well being.”. Heart chakra. Gurudas. „Androgynous in its properties, emerald balances the heart chakra ...The etheric, astral and emotional bodies are aligned. This stabilises the personality and keener insights into dreams develop 74 ....and generally increase psychic and clairvoyant faculties.‟ The Astrological reading is consistent with findings in both types of provings. The astrologer who did the reading for emerald felt that it was strongly associated with Sagittarius and its ruling planet Jupiter. „(Sagittarius) has been associated with sight, particularly seeing in the distance, and opening the third eye in order to break through to the next level of existence. The 11 a.m. astrological chart gives us a Pieces Ascendant. This is the sign which covers the word „holistic‟ which is obviously appropriate here. It could well be that the Emerald has the properties of healing by balancing the physical and 75 spiritual.‟ Meditation proving, Stone Cum Ebony, 19.5.97. eye and an arrow through my heart.” Brow and heart chakra.‟ Prover 3. „Suddenly I felt an arrow through my third

Meditation proving, Stone cum Ebony, 19.5.97. Prover 2. „The moment I took the remedy I felt a cool cleansing sensation throughout my body, starting from the centre around the heart and solar plexus, then moving up and down simultaneously until it radiated beyond the physical until I felt I was pushed outside of my physical body. In fact, I was infront of myself. My sinuses cleared and I could feel my breathing was balanced through each nostril coolly...... The energy centred around my head then fixed
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on the 3rd eye. I felt it tingling and vibrating and rotating very fast and then it passed on to the crown chakra. It was very specific. Later in meditation. I then realised I was entering a space where “lost souls” go and I was filled with the knowledge that this was an excellent remedy for people who were spiritually “lost” and in need of becoming one again. For those who felt separated from others. This was the moment for becoming whole again. From darkness, back to light.‟ Aligning all chakras. Meditation proving, Stone cum Ebony, Prover 9: 19.5.97. “Take it while working with a cranial osteopath as it enhances their healing”. Case by cranial osteopath with 1M over heart chakra showing the healing of karma. “As soon as I put Emerald 1M over her heart chakra she said “I felt the rage of my father (d.) - father had had T.B. He had a lung and ribs removed and a lot of medication - it unbalanced him and he had a lot of terrible rages”. Crania losteopath: “It intensified the emotional component, chakra in her thorax, very strongly, and then it released. Felt it was a big change emotionally. Physically she felt better.” (see Kent Meditation Circle: “it works to heal damage of the heart chakra especially from father and grandfather where damage done to the heart closes the throat chakra. Remedy heals and opens the throat chakra and allows the patient to express their trauma”). Karma, heart chakra; throat chakra; tubercular miasm (which is related to heart chakra). Post M.P. 24.5.96. Stone cum Ebony, M. 30c. Aids meditation and kundalini energies: “I found myself meditating later in the day - not something I usually do. I felt a clearness, like breathing in menthol, first through my nose to my nasopharynx, slowly down my mediastinum to the heart level. At the heart level it went out into my aura, a green line, like a mist. I was breathing in very cool air, in through my nose out through my mouth, as if I had a menthol vapour coming from me. I was breathing amazingly slowly, I felt I could not breath any slower. I took a deep breath, then was blowing out cold air, with it came positive thoughts into my aura, again and again. A healing action. Intuitively I would say it was healing my aura, blowing out positive affirmations and healing a hurt that had been caused. There were long, long spaces between breaths. I did this for some considerable time. There was a cold wind passing around my body. Not from a draft but circling around my body. ..I had a wonderfully strong feeling of energy, starting in the base of my pelvis, that went straight up through my entire body and out of the top of my head. Heart chakra, aligning all chakras, Kundalini energy, aura. Case: F. 44yrs. Patient whose heart chakra had needed healing. Emerald 1M split dose. F.U. “Sorted out the emotional side, what I needed, heart stuff. Spent too much time out of my body, a spirit in a human body. I needed grounding. When I work on people I am seeing their stuff more clearly, can see their pattern. It is bringing out my intuition, very pronounced. Think my healing is getting better”. Crown, heart and base chakra “I feel it is helpful treating drug addicts who have a hole in their aura from using drugs”. (H. Dorrian, Homeopath). Interestingly I had a visit from a yoga teacher who mentioned that years ago, while taking drugs, she experienced her Kundalini energy but once the drugs had worn off, she would then came crashing down to earth and feel awful. In her search for this divine link without the damaging side effects of drugs, she turned to Sahaja Yoga where you are taught to raise the Kundalini energy safely. My thoughts then went back to the l960s, drugs, flower power , power of love and meditation. Heart chakra stuff. Dimensional/transitional Shift „Emerald, the Jewel that fell from Lucifer, the fallen angel‟s crown, to earth”. The shift may be spiritual, the incarnating soul, or from death to spirit with ease, from dark to light. In levels of health; from an organ‟s internal environment to its exterior environment. Physical symptoms during the proving were aggravated at night, and also in transition from day to night, or night to day. Physical symptoms manifested on mucocutaneous sites and outlets, ears, eyes, nose, mouth, anus, where the internal environment meets the external environment.
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Meditation Proving,Shelley. 17.1.96. C. “Its for dimensional shift, that‟s what its for”. Meditation Proving, Norfolk Iyengar Yoga Centre, 21.1.99 . 30c. Transition from death to spirit with ease, in peace and happily alone. No separation between races. Meditation. Proving: Stone cum Ebony,. 19.5.97. 9. 1.M. I am sitting crossed legged and I can see a baby has been born. Case: Primrose, (cow) artificially inseminated, two weeks over due. Emerald 200 c o.m. Very large calf born later that day, the size of him would normally cause a difficult labour, no problems, mother had plenty of milk. Case.F:24: Incarnating soul. Patient 9 weeks pregnant (planned). Had been hospitalised, put on I.V. drip for dehydration from constant sickness, nausea and vomiting. Given antiemetic injections and later tablets. >>>Emerald 30 x5. Case P.R. Female patient, 32 years, with M.E. and 4 children. Morning sickness from an unplanned pregnancy. “Can not make up my mind what best course to take, whether to have an abortion or to keep the baby and risk loosing what I have got (level of health and relationships with others in her family)”. Gave Emerald 30 which helps one to make difficult decisions, to speak their truth. Morning sickness stopped. She said “In a funny way I feel I shouldn‟t take the remedy any more, only if I‟m to continue with the pregnancy. It‟s weird, I feel I don‟t deserve them”. Patient decided not to have the baby , “I know it is the right thing for me, it has been a big learning curve , not all negative has come out of it, one door closing, another opening, trying to look forward”. Kent Meditation Circle: S. Disease within a structure that needs to be released - any organ with disease that needs an outlet. Note of caution: My husband had complained of excruciating back pain which I had not successfully found a remedy for. At night he could not lie down. I gave him Emerald 30 and proceeded to give him spiritual healing. Ten minutes later he was fast asleep and the excruciating pain had transferred itself to my arm - I had not protected myself properly. Case Geopathic stress: Case: F. 32yrs with M.E. who I felt might have geopathic stress at home by the way she was reacting to her remedies. Numerous water channels were found running under her house. There was no room to put her bed away from these ley lines. She has benefited from having Emerald 30 packets in strategic areas places around the rooms. “I feel lighter, not so heavy”. She said her husband was also more amenable. Interestingly she later put pieces of Rose Quartz about the house and her energy levels dropped back. Rx. Rose Quartz 1M split dose and leaving Emerald alone to work around the house pushed her level of health back up. Case Geopathic stress and negative energies: F. 42yrs. Complaining of back pain radiating down her legs. No sustained improvement from treatment. Patient was better when on holiday <at home. Ley lines found to cross over in the kitchen area where she stands to cook and in her bedroom passing through her bed. These were negated by Emerald 30 at the essence. Muscle testing had proved weak before in these areas then became strong and my dowsing sticks no longer reacted to the geopathic stress. She started to respond to therapy. Two of her children had been sleep walking. Negative energies were located in their bedrooms, removed by using Emerald 30 placed in a lit candle by an open window and prayer said, to good effect. Case: F. 45yrs. Total L. mastectomy. C.o. oedematous left arm. Told patient to put Emerald 200 near left hand and meditate seeing the fluid leave her arm. Left arm became slim again. Prover 14: Day 01: Lump on right ear in the morning. Looked like a spot was going to come - bright red like a beacon on the part of the ear which slightly protrudes. N.S. Prover 10. Day 7. Left nostril very red and tender < touch with a bit of white pus inside. N.S.

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Prover Placebo: Day 21:“Itching and discomfort around rectum, started Friday morning”. Day 25: “Soreness around rectum was a lesion. Red and purple colour. Woke up Monday and it had completely healed”. “I found Emerald useful in treating stuck chi”. (H. Dorrian). SIGHT Affects all levels, spiritually with the third eye, on a mental level helps clarify events and physically improves sight. 27.12.95. Making of the remedy. M. “I feel Emerald is for healing the aura around one‟s body”. Prover 24: Day 07: Feel creative and realising creative insights. Case: F: 39yrs. “Emerald helped my confidence, helped clarify things and see things more clearly”. Prover 36: F. 30c. Day 01. “On retiring to bed I noticed how „clear‟ my contact lenses were. Very little protein. I also have the feeling that my vision is more acute. Outlines have been clearer”. Post Meditation:H: Stone cum Ebony, 24.5.96. 30c. “I have had astigmatism all my life. When I did secretarial work I had to wear glasses otherwise I would get headaches, blurred and tired, watery eyes. Under strip lighting I would need to use tints. I took Emerald at the meditation proving and since I no longer have to wear my glasses. Three years later C.S. Case: M. 53years. Defective vision both eyes. P.H. Hit in L. eye by a piece of coal.. L eye progressive myopia, bioccular vision, retinal detachment, glaucoma (damage to eye ducts). Central vision good, peripheral vision borderline for driving. R. eye detached retina, lost central vision, some peripheral vision, ? improving. I.B.S. I feel his heart chakra is closed. Skin cracks finger tips in winter. Rx Sulphur 30 x5, Emerald 6 b.d., Euphrasia and Emerald 6c. eye bath. F.U. 5 weeks later. “Remarkable improvement, eyes less tired, ability to concentrate on screens, do not need glasses for reading/computer. Eyes feel fresher, my eyelids feel alive again. (>Euphrasia/Emerald 6c eye bath). R. eye seeing more, more reactive to light, improvement accelerated, > acuity and clarity. I can see my hand now with R. eye. Rx: Sulphur 30 x5, Emerald b.d. Euphrasia and Emerald 6c eye bath. F.U. 5 weeks later. Feel more relaxed like I have been on a long holiday, people have remarked how well I look. There has been a mental change, I don‟t react as I did, act more considerately. Vision: another 10% >. Acuity and accommodation improved. I don‟t feel eyestrain. 100% improvement in that the eyes feel fresher. My heart rate is lower at rest (pharmacist and monitors it). No I.B.S. Rx as above. F.U. 5weeks later: Feel exceptionally well. Definite improvement. More vision than I have had for years, >30% from last visit, seeing more through this misty veil on R. Eyes water in cool wind - good. Eye strain back, eye bath > but not lasting as long. Had a cold but got over it remarkably quickly. No IBS. Not had the usual cracking of skin around finger tips. Rx: Nat Sulph 30 , Emerald 6, Euphrasia and Emerald 12c eye bath. F.U. 5 weeks. Eyes continue to improve. Eye bath Euphrasia M.T./Emerald 12 more effective than at 6c. R. eye more retinal activity, centre opaqueness dissolving, it used to be just around the edge, now there is a triangle of shape from the centre to the bottom. Case continued using Emerald 30 split dose and Euphrasia M.T./Emerald 30c eye baths, after which he could see his hand in his right central vision. Suppression / Awareness There is a heightened awareness on all levels. Hidden problems are brought to the surface to be dealt with that need addressing so that the patient can move forward. These problems can come up early in treatment and need expression and support (so booking an appointment for them in four weeks may Moya Ross 157

mean they go through this period without support). There is an awareness of themselves, physically, in the way they dress, in their surroundings, in their lifestyle. - hidden problems surfacing Prover 32. Day 7. „Would love to be able to talk more. It has been a big hang up in my life since I was 14 years. I think rather than talk and then think what I think is not interesting enough to talk about. Would like to be more outgoing - I shrivel up in groups. Confidence is not that good, not sure why‟. „I was a quiet child, less so as a teenager, brother was never wild about having a sister.‟ „Really strange I‟ve told you this - I‟ve never said it to anyone before.‟ Prover 24. Day 11. „The pain in the neck went when I made association with a past experience. In the afternoon was aware of breathing - as if it was going right into the centre of me, through the diaphragm. Made links between fear of organisations and a childhood experience where I didn‟t want to go into a dark house, but parents forced me to. When mixing with people with an authoritarian tone, was not frightened and could express what I needed to‟. - awareness of appearance Prover 24. Day 01. „Started to think about getting hair cut (has very long hair - not even been trimmed for 18 months). Thinking of going to a hairdressers - never been to a hairdressers‟. Case: M. 40yrs. Vicar, always wearing grey,/black., overweight. Problems balancing work and home life. After three doses Emerald 30c, on case follow up, had lost 1 st weight, was wearing pink shirt and green jacket (which suited him); had played in a football match „I didn‟t realise I could still run‟. Case: F. 47 yrs. Taking steroids daily after hypophysectomy, Cushingoid. Emerald 30 split dose. “I am going to start dressing how I want to dress, not how this disease has made me look”. - awareness of surroundings Prover 32. Day 07. „Would like to rip out my kitchen units and put in some warm pine units. White is so clinical and boring. Suddenly becoming aware of it‟ Dreams of Buried Issues The innermost problems or karma of the patient are brought to the surface by these dreams. The dreams are often of buried issues. Confusion; confusion of identity; aspects of personality that lay dormant and are unexpressed but need expression; feelings of guilt, and denial of that guilt: denial of problems which need sorting out. So strong is the need for expression these dreams may wake the patient from sleep expressing their need. Prover 24. Day 3. There is a woman of my age in the group with short hair and no wrinkles, I look into the mirror and cut my hair on my right side with a razor blade. I have ginger hair and know it‟s my third rebirth, twice before I was born with dark hair. I cut my left side and behind the ear is my hair showing grey and black. Prover 24. Day 30. „I was in a bathroom where there were two other people. One person was bleeding to death and the other was unconscious. The toilet was full of blood. I awoke in a desperate state, feeling that the people were aspects of myself that were dying - the blood was the loss of the vital force. The bathroom was getting rid of the waste.‟ Prover 24. Day „- then I found myself high up in the air outside the house and I thought I would let myself drop and fall down onto the earth to experience flying, then to dive into the earth. When I was in the dark earth, I felt it must be terrible when you are buried alive. More a sympathetic feeling for others because I had no body and just came out again.‟ Prover 02. Day 32. „Set in son‟s new school although it looked nothing like it. Unsure in retrospect whether I was the pupil or son was the pupil or both. Seemed to be forever getting lost.‟

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Prover 04. Day 5. „Staying at an hotel - I‟ve had this dream before at this hotel but different version there is always a problem at this hotel. It‟s nice, cosy in the country and I want to be there. I think I‟m there with friends. However, tonight, the Management which is three old biddies in tea cosies, wanted me to share a room with three people I didn‟t know, four in one room. So I said, “Absolutely Not!” and woke myself up. Am I anticipating Friday‟s trip to Dorset?‟ Case: F. 40yrs. „In a house waiting to be arrested - there is a heart with long vessels coming off of it - I am cutting the end of the blood vessels to make the rest look better, which meant less incriminating (there was a feeling of intense fear of having done wrong). A car arrived outside, could not clear away the „bits‟ and I thought „this is it‟. Then it turned out to be just ordinary visitors‟. Indecision / Resolution Emerald is a remedy that helps people change and move forward, to leave their uncertainties and indecision behind and take that step with resolution. The stumbling blocks may have been put there in childhood, through lack of confidence or just putting off that moment to move forward. Prover 24. Day 9. „Feels like a turning point - like a resolution. Working through what has been activated. Previously I have not stood on my own feet - hid and moved in groups - need to move out on my own. I felt connected to previous opening where I didn‟t take a chance.‟ Prover 34. Day 1. ‟Telephoned to organise a French Course in London, been meaning to do it since January‟. Prover 32. 6mth review: „Wrote to an old friend after 20 years to patch up relationship‟. Prover 04. Day 37. „Resolution of issues - psoriasis moving on/decreasing - is this about resolving some aspects of life? e.g. change in work conditions. It is not unlike how the right hand spot disappeared about 7 years ago when I moved house‟. CASE: S.H. 40yrs. C.o. stress from her children taking GCSE and A levels at school. P.H. of very controlling parents who tried to buy her love; she did not feel loved. Obsessed about weight, size, shape and food. “Food has always been a substitute for love”. I.B.S. Responded well to Ignatia, Carcinosin and Lycopodium. She was invited to stay in her parents house in Sth. Africa with her brother and his wife. “He is always the favoured one”. I had given her Emerald 1M is place in her bra, over her heart chakra if she had a problem with her parents. F.U. in 5 weeeks. “My mother told me I would be put in the yellow suite but she gave this to my sister in law who was ill, I got the green suite. I felt really put out. Could not talk to sister in law. Put Emerald 1M in bra, went out side to be by myself. There was a stormy sky, a huge rainbow ended over the house. I took a picture of it, felt it was symbolic. Felt the change, that this was the turning point. I felt I had resolved my issues with my parents in those moments. When I got back to my room the Emerald packet had gone and could not account for how I had lost it but felt, I don‟t need it any more. Feel more laid back about things. My emotional baggage came out in weight loss. The weight loss is tied up with parents. I have accepted them as they are, which is controlling. Feel as if I have come through a huge change. Submission / Assertion Emerald is a remedy that will help people release inhibitions to express their true feelings openly and in a manner which they feel happy with. This inhibition may have been laid down in childhood, through lack of confidence, suppression, lack of clarity of speech, lack of control of emotions, or through difficult concentration and dullness. Held in the heart blocked in the throat chakra. Prover 38. Day 6. ‟I don‟t confront usually because it doesn‟t work if you cry‟ Prover 08. Day 12. „I am very assertive, I ask my house guest to smoke outside (I would not normally do this, I would grin and bear it in order not to confront the situation).‟

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Prover 24. Day 11. „When mixing with people with an authoritarian tone, was not frightened and could express what I needed to.‟ Case F. 46yrs. After Emerald 1M. “My confidence and self esteem have grown enormously, it is usually very low. Usually someone else does the talking, this time, I did. I am standing up for myself, doing what I want rather than what others want. I don‟t feel the victim any more, it is no longer poor me. I see it as an opportunity to change myself and let go of the past”. Balance For people who have become progressively busy, they have high ideals and are trying to fit too much into their day. Consequently while they are finishing one job they are considering where they should be next and what else needs fitting into their itinerary. They lose their focus which can lead to irritability, anger, discontent, absent-mindedness, anxiety and inability to concentrate on the problem in hand. Emerald gives calmness, tranquillity, balance between work and relaxation and focus to their lives. On the physical level, Emerald also brings balance back to the body . Prover 36. Day 1. „More focused, possibly because I‟m more relaxed. finishing tasks achieved.‟ Prover 02. Day O. „Less tetchy with children, calmer.‟ Prover 14. Day 2. „Relaxed like I am on my hols - „feel good factor‟. Normally I would have gone back to the office, but today almost could not be bothered to go so worked in Wolverhampton. Very peculiar, not like me at all. Wanted to relax through the afternoon. We had sex again last night. Most unusual - world record. 1 a.m. this morning, most unusual‟. Prover 04. Day 13: „Am very impressed with myself because I stayed for Networking at College until 7.15 p.m.! Without 1. itching to leave. 2. thinking about dinner; 3. rushing off. This is so good. So untypical too. It reflects the general sense of well-being and happiness I feel. Day 43. „Interesting, that my inner self is definitely much calmer and not irritated/disturbed by situations which could irritate, whilst my skin is showing irritation‟. Prover 24. Day 03. „Feel calm but have to stop from rushing into action. Stay with slow way, inner calmness‟. Case: F. 42yrs. Acute migrainous headaches and cyclical vomiting. >>> Emerald 30. Patient felt she had been thrown off centre, and had been brought back by Emerald. Love/Hate Acceptance and love of themselves, less self critical. This enhanced feeling can spread to their love of others and of their environment. As with all remedies one has to look at the negative polarity. This did not manifest itself with our provers however, it did bring up the negative side within homeopathy when proving Emerald, which was interesting! Out of the negativity came reactivity, greed, anger and hate. Perhaps this was the emergence of the sycotic miasm coming to the surface. Prover 04. Day 72. „Enormously sad suddenly today, vast flow of tears - beauty of environment, power of so much love and friendship.‟ Prover 24. Day 0. „Felt more in touch with myself. Did not feel low or compare myself. Felt more centred, less self critical. Awareness of heart chakra on spine. Day 55. Feel tearful then sadness, unexpressed from the past. This is replaced by a feeling of strength and not being vulnerable.‟ Prover 4. Meditation Proving, Stone cum Ebony, 19.5.97. „I felt a wonderful sensation of love for my twin brother and sister who have been incredibly trying recently. I felt a closeness to God and mankind.‟ Moya Ross 160 I have performed well,

Case: F. 46 years. After Emerald 1M. I can feel I am loving myself more, so reaching out to others unconditionally. There is inner peace and joy in my life. Heart / Circulation - lymphatic circulation The focus is the heart and circulation which Emerald strengthens. Where the heart is weak there is reduced blood supply to the brain, kidneys, muscles, the whole body. There are reports of stitching heart pains or „of the heart nearly jumping out of his chest‟. With the improved circulation the acuity of the five senses, sight, hearing, smell, touch, taste, is heightened. The circulation may feel cut off giving the feeling of tingling or pins and needles. Balances blood pressure. With the metabolism and circulation enhanced Emerald is a good remedy for taking up ecchymosed blood after injuries and after operations. Also aids nerve regeneration. Prover 18. „Room very hot putting picture frames up, felt very overheated. Heart beating loudly but not rapidly, yet could feel it jumping out of my chest‟. Placebo. Day 1. „Early evening when sitting - crossed arms/legs or clasped hands, it feels as if circulation would cut off. Starting to feel slightly numb. Had to move after 2-3 mins.‟ Case, M. 53yrs: My heart rate is lower at rest. (Pharmacist who had wanted to monistor the changes homeopathy had had on him). . Lymphatic circulation: Case. F. 65yrs. Lymphatic cancer. Lymph node in neck enlarged. Previously biopsied and told malignant. She had a course of chemotherapy but node remained. Remedy Emerald 30 split dose. F.U. 5 weeks later node had gone (as had a tooth abscess). Post meditation: 24.5.96. My glands had come up under my arms and groin area recently. During the few weeks after the meditation with 30c. I was aware of a drawing feeling under my arms as if the lymphatics were being drained. Both areas cleared. -pain and healing Whenever I have been in a situation where I have had a patient in acute, distressing pain, I have found Emerald has either cured the pain or helped the patient to control it. Regenerates and nourishes nervous tissue. Back pain. Prover 14. Day 4. „Blood‟s working overtime repairing bruises and knocks.‟ Case: F. 80 yrs. Patient in a frenzy of pain from a blocked catheter. Bladder palpable to umbilicus. From being totally out of control, after Emerald 30 she was able to centre and control the pain until the catheter was removed. Case: F. 45yrs. Patient receiving chemotherapy. Unbearable pain over kidneys, urine dark. Emerald 200 c placed over lumbar area, cured pain, urine clear. M. 17yrs. Old injury to hand with a chain saw, sliced tendons a year earlier. O.E. thumb and two fingers pure white, he was unable to move finger and thumb together in a pincher movement. Heavy scarring from accident and operation. Rx: Hypericum 12c, Thiosinamine 6x and Emerald 6c b.d. Thiosinamine ointment to scars. Week later the patient had full mobility and colour back to his hand. Case F: 47yrs. Patient acute pain from gall bladder colic, Remedy: Emerald 30c. reason for it came up to be cured. Pain cleared but

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F.U. 5 weeks. Impression that he is much taller. His mother says he has grown. “Generally pretty good, doing a lot more exercise, and football without any real problems, feel comfortable. Back stiff after sitting at school for 8 hours without a break. Over does exercise = spasm in buttocks. Back pain <lying on back for too long, >gentle exercise. Rx: Hypericum 30 alt. nights Rhut Tox 30, Thiosinamine 6x, Emerald 6c. Nb. I feel Emerald enhances the action of the other remedies apart from playing a part in the healing process, physically and mentally. Detoxification Emerald releases toxins from the body, especially radiation and the petrochemical miasm. With Emerald the toxins are passed with ease through the circulation and expelled by the kidneys into the urine and with the enhanced peripheral blood supply, through the pores. Similarly with an increased blood supply to the gut, there is increased motility, leading to diarrhoea and flatus. Prover 38. Day 0. „I‟ve been drinking more water today, hot, I need to flush out the system, don‟t often do that but decided today I needed water.‟ Prover 32. Day 1. „Upset stomach, very rare for me. Diarrhoea, followed by slight stomach ache and nausea.‟ Case: F. 46yrs. ”I can smell petroleum coming from me”. Meeting of provers at Helios. 7.96. Most provers felt they had the smell about them as if standing in a petrol station forecourt, which they had not documented. Gurudas „The heart is strengthened to deal with the extra toxins that flow into the system during a cleansing, particularly from a discharge of toxicity in the muscles. This is why ther may be a 77 quickening of the pulse. The kidneys remove toxicity from the system and process hidden fears.‟ Meditation Proving, Shelley, 1.96. R. “I've held it in my left hand and in my right hand and in my right hand which is my more active dominant in a sense of doing in the world hand, it became, I felt, a strong pulse.” Prover 6.Stone cum Ebony, Meditation Proving 19.5.97 „My next impression was a feeling of something flushing through the system - getting rid of toxins‟. Post Meditation Stone cum Ebony. 24..5.96. M. 30c. Generally it is like I am detoxifying. The nearest I got to describing it is the smell that comes from a computer, it is particularly bad between my fingers. I feel that after taking Emerald one should not use deodorants, it is important for the body to detoxify. Case: F.45 years. Chemotherapy caused pain over kidneys, reduced urine, which was dark. Emerald 30 had an immediate effect, pain cleared, urine returned to normal. Dryness / Fluidity There is a polarity between dryness throughout the body and excess of fluid. This seems to affect the person on all planes, spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically. The mind is blocked, (dwells on past disagreeable occurrences) dull, listless, or flows with heightened awareness and concentration. The emotions are unbending, intolerant or flowing serene and happy. The energy is either excessively good or excessively poor. The eyes may stream or be very dry, the nose may stream or be blocked. The mouth may have excessive salivation or be excessively dry. There may be diarrhoea, or constipation. Copious urine, no urge. The skin may be like silk or excessively dry, cracked and a series of itches from head to toe. The joints and muscles can be stiff and lack motility or have ease of motion. The back can be stiff and full of aches and pains or there is an awareness of flexibility. With
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Old age / Vitality This is a remedy for people, not necessarily old in years but who have become mentally listless, dull, lacking concentration, with weariness of body and mind. The body aches from exertion, aches all over in the joints, muscles and bones. They are „thumping down into chairs‟. Muscles are easily pulled. They are sleepy all day with difficulty sleeping at night and waking early. Wakes from noises, coughs, sneezes and dreams. All the provers‟ aches and pains were exacerbated during the proving or alleviated. Emerald brings vitality back to both the mind and the body. Prover 32. Day 13. „Seem to be moving rather slowly. Maybe just old age.‟ Day 14. „Very stiff, thumping down into chairs.‟ Day 16. „Slept in very late. Still very stiff.‟ Day 18. „Rather tired. Poor concentration. Probably from digging.‟ Prover 20. Day 3. „Overwhelming feeling of physical tiredness, despite a good night‟s sleep last night.‟ Prover 14. Day 6. „I was thick-headed, slow and lacked energy.‟ Moya Ross 163

Prover 04. Day 8. „Although it was very strenuous hill walking, several long uphill climbs and long detours, I had no aching muscles nor that general stiffness which is fairly typical on the Monday after a walking weekend. My body feels good, lithe and elastic.‟ Case. F. 80yrs. Telephoned me, did not think she would make it to Christmas, she had no energy left. Rx. Em. 6 b.d. Energy improved so that she not only had a good Christmas, she said she made her best Christmas cake and pudding ever! Creativity As the person becomes more focused, calm and happy, their energies flow freely through the body, their creativity becomes unblocked and flows. There is awareness on all levels, spiritually, mentally, emotionally and with the five senses heightened physically. Creativity flowers. Prover 24. Day 7. „Feel creative and realising creative insights. Did what I needed to do today - felt smooth, not like usual pressure. Had an insight about setting up a meditation group in the mornings. Feel I need to materialise the thoughts. Feel happy and am linking into the potential of my new house and appreciating it. Feel open and communicative, less apprehensive and more flowing. Using my time efficiently and in a focused way.‟ Prover 34. Day 9: „Suddenly decided to do some decorating, cleared corner, sanded down a beam, painted. Hadn‟t meant to do it, spur of the moment, enjoyed it!‟ Bought a new sewing machine today. Going to start making clothes for my daughter. I haven‟t sewed for 30 years - want to start again. Su:F:6c:15:XX:XX.

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CHAPTER 12
Emerald - a ‘spirit like dynamic force’ Homeopathy is an holistic therapy, treating people rather than the disease. That is to say we as holistic therapists believe that people function on several levels, spiritual, mental, emotional and physical and that the primary focus of a patient‟s disorder may lie on any one of these levels. However, to treat the patient holistically all levels are taken into account even if the focus in on one plane. The concept of the „spirit like dynamic force‟ animating the material human organism, the way the morbific agent acts upon the untuned dynamis causing disease, is central to homeopathic philosophy. The homeopathic remedy is the tool (catalyst) of our trade. As Hahnemann says: “the dynamic force with which medicines act upon the vital principle to restore health are nothing but a contagion devoid of any material or mechanical aspect. A magnet powerfully attracts a piece of iron or steel near it is a similar way; one sees that the piece of iron is attracted by a pole of the magnet but does not see how this takes place. The invisible force of the magnet does not need any mechanical (material) means, such as a hook or lever, it attracts the iron or a steel needle by its own pure, nonmaterial, invisible, spirit like force. We have here a dynamic phenomenon. Moreover, it invisibly (dynamically) transmits magnetic force to the steel needle, which in turn becomes magnetic even without being touched by the magnet, even at some distance, and is then 78 able to transmit the same magnetic quality to other steel needles. (dynamically). Why is it then that the very basis for homeopathy, the podium for Hahnemann‟s theories, the idea of the strata with the spiritual level uppermost, is so often dismissed even by homeopaths? Is it not a similar dynamic force as that from the moon which influences the tides to ebb and flow? Emerald has the ability to increase awareness on all planes, the spiritual level as well as the mental, emotional and physical. Having so clearly felt the effects of Emerald spiritually I was somewhat bewildered find that none of the remaining five in the group had similar experiences. I know that while making up Emerald I had an awareness that it was to do with auras, (transmitting its invisible force like the magnet, so I in turn became magnetic, taking on the Emerald state). Similarly, while John (Morgan) was making up our bottles to be given to provers, he in turn became “magnetic” or “in an Emerald state”. Hahnemann‟s theory would account for the fact that our placebo had an excellent proving of Emerald. There is no doubt in my mind that the placebo “proved” Emerald, their symptoms were classic.

Placebo Day 0: Headache, aching pain behind eyes, tops of sinuses and forehead. Eyes feel puffy. 3 p.m. Feel very tired and fell asleep. U.S. Went to bed and lay awake until 4 a.m. U.S. Really aware of sounds. Day 1: Woke at 12.30 midday. Early evening if sitting crossed arms or legs or clasped hands it felt as if my circulation would be cut off. Starting to feel numb. Wanted to keep glasses on all day (only for reading usually). Eyes feel tired. Yawning - tears in eyes < than normal. Noticed last night that carbuncles in groin have totally cleared - no inflammation just scarring (not been clear for 4 years). Day 2: Woke in night numb feeling again (circulation). Sleeplessness. Carbuncles on back very sore. Feels as if something is happening with them. Day 3/4: Incident where intuition was enhanced. Suspicious. (incident with boy friend). U.S. Curling bottom lip under teeth and biting it. Day 5: Confrontation with boyfriend. Resolution - considering moving. Carbuncles on back getting > and healing. Groin totally dried up. Day 6: Needing a lot less sleep than previously.
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Day 14: Eczema Rt. arm. Dry, red, itchy. Mouth and nose feel dryer than usual. Shaving more frequently. Feel of being attacked much <. Day 17: Thirsty for water drank 1 litre. Day 18: Dry nose, throat, chest. Frog in throat. Neck glands enlarged. Feel irritable and snappy. Had to exert self control. Feel as if I‟m on a short fuse. Day 21: Dryness, tightness in chest. Dryness everywhere. Flaky skin. Eczema left arm Nose blocked. Stools hard, like small pellets. Itching and discomfort around anus. Irritability continues. Mental alertness; not tired at College, concentrated all day. Day 22: Menses started, flow greatly reduced, more like a sticky discharge. Midmorning severe congested headache, felt as if blood pounding in head, pain extending from back of neck to temples, like head split open. >lying flat on back. No other menstrual symptoms present - water retention, sore breasts, change of stool. U.S. Day 23: Woke by a dry tickly cough at 5 a.m. Phlegm clearing on chest. No cough during day. Red and purple lesion around anus healed completely. (Diary lost). After light menstrual bleed suddenly had a very heavy flow. No P.M.T. just much heavier bleeding. Day 27: Felt the remedy had stopped working. Felt I‟d lost some inner peace - just that something had gone. I have tried to come to an understanding as to why for some people Emerald gives enhanced spiritual awareness to some and not others. In my mind I have devised a ladder. Wherever you are on the ladder, Emerald takes you up a rung or two. It is a matter of awareness and has nothing to do with intellect. Between starting the Hildegard project in 1995 and my first meditation I was aware of several occurrences which I think are worth mentioning here. I had taken the case of a patient who had been suffering from, amongst other problems, involuntary jerking of his legs. I had the case supervised and some days later returned with my remedy for him. I was surprised when I arrived to find that he no longer had that symptom. I felt rather foolish but gave him the remedy and since has not suffered from involuntary jerking. The next time a similar episode happened, I thought, “this patient does not need the remedy”. This patient was a relative of mine who could not longer read the newspaper, or watch television, his vision was blurred. He had suffered from a retinal haemorrhage. I had given him Arnica which had taken up the ecchymosed blood but (I feel) left the retina stuck back on the choroid slightly askew, hence the blurred vision. After supervision I went to see him with his remedy. I asked how he was and if there had been any change since I had last spoken to him. He replied “No”. I asked him to read the newspaper and asked how he perceived the print, “That‟s funny”, he replied “I can read it”. I turned on the television. I asked if his problem had altered. “Well as a matter of fact, I seem to be seeing alright today”. (he was rather sheepish at asking for help but since the haemorrhage this was the first time his acuity had been good). I did not give the remedy and after a few days the blurred vision came back. Several similar episodes later with other patients lead me to investigate spiritual healing, to question the intent to heal. Definitely over this period my awareness of others was enhanced, especially for those who needed their heart chakra healing which is the focus of the Emerald picture. An example of this would be when I attended my healing group, I felt one of the members needed their heart chakra healing. The next week she visited a cranial osteopath (who uses a similar perception) who stated, “It is your heart chakra that needs healing first”. I have noticed a similar response from both our scientific proving and during the meditation provings where the electromagnetic field of the remedy or the practitioner‟s intent has initiated the proving prior to the prover receiving the medicine. Classic Proving of Emerald: Example 1: Prover number 34 was in “a good state of health”. Warm, dislikes being too hot. Menses regular, 3-4:28. Hair lank premenstrually. Premenstrual slight constipation, backache before flow starts and first day; heaviness. Normal flow, heavy first day. Red, no clots, dark red towards third or fourth day. Emotionally “things upset me a bit more week before my

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period, more tearful than angry” Did not use medication of any type, including the contraceptive pill. Good vitality. A week before the proving, the remedy and the diary was given to the prover. During this week provers write in their diaries to become attuned to assessing their normal state daily. During the proving there were very few “physicals” from this prover. However, the week before proving the following symptoms were noted. Day -07: “Most unusual for me but complaining of mild central colicky abdominal pain. Diarrhoea x 1.” “My ears are just a little uncomfortable deep inside, the drum is registering protest at the cold air”. (R.S.). Not underlined: Feeling relaxed although husband has gone out riding and I seem behind with preparations. Period due next Saturday, so have been washing hair every one and a half days - and it seems to be behaving! Day -05: “Even I feel a bit cold today”. Day -03: Menses started four days early - most surprising. No symptoms, e.g. backache or heaviness. Fairly normal flow, but early. Did not have the usual premenstrual slight constipation. (No emotional P.M.T. symptoms reported) Day -02: Skin very dry, more than usual. Hand cream absolutely necessary as so rough they snag tights. Day -01: Feeling very hot in bed. (Not usual in winter). The prover underlined all unusual or new symptoms in red, including those before the proving. One could argue the above symptoms as being normal for someone in the middle of a cold winter. However, she had always had regular periods with mild P.M.T. The absence of P.M.T., early periods and the above symptoms were all found in the Emerald proving. Meditation Proving of Emerald, SCO2. Example 2: Meditator no. 8 held a 1M bottle of Emerald. She experienced symptoms very similar to those proved in the scientific proving or by those who took Emerald in their meditation proving. 1. Difficulty breathing due to a tightness and then pain in the upper lung or maybe heart area. 2. Then Molly was telling me (Molly is our Spiritual Healing teacher, not present) that we were foolish not to have surrounded ourselves first with a white light. 3. I felt very warm and experienced the weight of a heavy warm covering and sank into a deep meditation. 4. Molly said, “Come back, you are going to deep”. 5. I then had a very sharp pain in my left leg towards the lower shin where I have a raised varicose vein. 6. Throughout there was a constant „vibration‟ from the pill jar in my hand and a sensation of my blood moving round the body. 7. My guide was with me. After the meditation this meditator admitted she had been feeling “out of balance” and had organised to see her reflexologist. After the meditation she said she would have to cancel the appointment since she felt serene, happy and balanced. The intent of the remedy, its electromagnetic field or the intent of the practitioner plays a very important role in homeopathy. Because Emerald appears to help people move through „dimensional shift‟, it may be that, as a remedy, it enhances this effect.

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CONCLUSION
Proving Hildegard‟s remedies could be a lifetime‟s work, and we were very fortunate in the two we chose. Emerald, appears to us to be a remedy which is very much of our time. It is a remedy which brings awareness on all levels, resolution and balance into people‟s lives, allowing them to let go of the past and to move forward into the future. Athyrium filix femina similarly, has this resolving quality although it is more in the sphere of activity rather than in the mind where this comes through. The two remedies have much in common. Both have irritability and anger, although Emerald is more anxious and fearful; both have absentmindedness and lack of concentration. Both work on the mind, head, eyes and digestion, with Emerald also strong with regard to mucous membranes. Both have vivid dreams which bring resolution and put past problems into perspective. Emerald has the properties of healing by balancing the physical and the spiritual. Athyrium filix femina appears to heal by balancing the masculine with the feminine aspects. One is of the mineral kingdom, the other of the plant - and, at the risk of sound banal, both are green. By the end of this project we felt that there was so much in common with these two remedies, that they were so much a pair, that there would be a strand which we could investigate which might throw light on their similarities. We therefore looked into the use of green in colour therapy. One therapist told us, „The green within the crystalline structure (of Emerald) is specially attuned to perceiving where lines of energy are not running true to potential and their task is to free the lines of energy and in this way free any negativity or diseased energy which may occur in a particular flow or pathway. They keep the grids, the meridians of energy, flowing clearly and freely. In the principles of colour therapy we learned “Green is the heart centre .... it is the great harmoniser and balancer of the universe ....Green has the ability to experience wholeness and love .....Green gives direction, so it can be used when you are trying to make up your mind or your heart .....Green is excellent for healing heart ailments, both physically and emotionally. It soothes headaches, relieves bilious and liver complaints. It is a good detoxifier, and can help control blood pressure and nerves. Above all green holds the key to the memory which unlocks the deep and hidden causes of our physical and psychological illnesses. It gives direction when you don‟t know what to do next. Green likes a fresh beginning and a new start. It can be no coincidence that both of our remedies, and the colour green have so much in common the themes of resolution, love, balance, the power to unlock the memory, the physical spheres of the head, the heart, the digestive system. Can it be that it is the „greening power‟, Hildegard‟s viriditas, which is the energy source at work?

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