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                            Georgiana Bruce Kirby Preparatory School
                                           Volume VIII, Issue 8 June 8, 2012


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                                               as they battle evil in a last ditch effort         The plot, if you can call it one, revolves   around with moving light sources and
                                               to save humanity. The heroes, Iron Man         around a fundamental premise: the world          shifting, complex patterns that draw the
                                               (Robert Downey, Jr.), Captain America          is in danger and the heroes have to save         eye and stimulate the mind. The real 3D
                                               (Chris Evans), Thor (Chris Hemsworth),         the day. There is little tension through the     gives Whedon free range inside his world

                                               Hawkeye (Jeremy Renner), Black Widow           movie. Most of the action, while visually        to dazzle viewers and plunge them deep
                                               (Scarlett Johansson), and the Hulk (Mark       stunning, lacks the psychological weight of      into the hectic, ill-explained world of the

                                               Ruffalo, who replaced Edward Norton and        thinking that the heroes might be in dan-        Avengers.
                                               Eric Bana as Bruce Banner) are recruit-        ger. They get pummeled, they get smashed,            A great deal of the dialogue is funny.
                                               ed by Nick Fury (Samuel L. Jackson) to         they get blown up, and dropped out of orbit.     Said Whedon in an interview with Rolling
                                               S.H.I.E.L.D, (Strategic Hazard Interven-       But they always get back up—you know             Stone: “You better know how to be funny

                                               tion Espionage Logistics Directorate) after    they will, it’s a given. It’s expected. Fur-     if you want to save the world.” The plot is
                                               an attack by demigod Loki (Tom Hud-            thermore, the villain—Loki, the outcast,         held up and propelled by a series of one-
                                               dleston) on a government facility contain-     bastard brother of Thor—is uncompelling          liners and deadpan diatribes from the mar-
                                               ing the Tesseract, a cosmic cube containing    and generally bland. Through the course of       velous cast. Instant classics include Tony

                                               practically unlimited power. Unfortunate-      the movie, he never really poses a threat to     Stark’s response to the question, “What are
                                               ly, the only way to know anything about        the heroes, serving as a mere speed bump         you without the suit?”
                                               the blue cube of destiny is to sit down and    in their defense of humanity.                        “Genius, billionaire, playboy, philan-
                                               try to stomach the Thor and Captain Amer-          Although it has been almost seven years      thropist.”
                                               ica films, which are far outshone by the       since the release of Serenity, the film that         Whedon views the Avengers as a the
                                               Iron Man blockbusters and Hulk movies.         wrapped up Whedon’s smash TV hit Fire-           ultimate dysfunctional family. A great
                                               One flaw in the writing of The Avengers        fly, Whedon still focuses on a few essential     portion of the dialogue is dedicated to the
                                               is that it assumes the viewer has seen the     design elements: clever, humorous dia-           verbal sparring of Stark and Banner, two
     A Lot of FX                               previous movies; it spends no time on plot     logue, a motley cast of rag-tag heroes, and      geniuses, one with a taser, the other re-
                                               exposition or character development. The       flashy special effects. With Firefly it was      pressing a hulking titan of abject violence
                                               Avengers is basically a climactic fight to     Malcolm, Zoe, Wash, and Jayne; with The          and destruction. “I’m a great fan of your

     But Not Very                              wrap up the unfinished business from six
                                               other movies.
                                                                                              Avengers it’s Captain America, Tony Stark,
                                                                                              and Thor, who, in a characteristic moment
                                                                                                                                               work, especially how you turn into a big
                                                                                                                                               ugly rage monster,” says Stark, shaking
                                                   For that reason, it’s easy to get bored    of reflection, noted just “how puny” his         Banner’s hand.
       Special                                 with the almost flatlined story and plot; to
                                               combat this, Whedon brings the full force
                                                                                              human companions were. Whedon uses
                                                                                              a wide range of subtle light effects in his
                                                                                                                                                   The Hulk offers moviegoers with sim-
                                                                                                                                               plistic, but entertaining humor: punching
                                               of 3D to bear, stunning audiences with         work to create a dazzlingly beautiful land-      Thor, shouting incoherently, and of course,
                                               fantastic images and breathtaking special      scape in which his dysfunctional heroes can      rudely interrupting Loki’s maniacal mono-
                                               effects.                                       do what they do best, SMASH! The Aveng-          logue to                  use the arch-vil-
       by Gabe Moss                                In 2D, however, the action seems mun-
                                               dane, and you start to notice the fundamen-
                                                                                              ers gives him the perfect opportunity to ex-
                                                                                                   plore lighting and visual effects,
                                                                                                                                                                           lain as a pseudo
                                               tal flaw with big budget super movies: a                 with three shining supers                                              Whedon has
                                               bare-minimum plotline, practically no                     (Iron Man, Thor, and                                             come a long way
                                               character develop-              ment, and                  Captain      Ameri-                                            since his Firefly

                                               little-to-no story                explana-                 ca), he can play                                              series, but in the
      43 minutes. 143 minutes packed full      tion.                                                                                                                 essentials, he hasn’t
      of action, violence, and breathtak-                                                                                                                      altered. His work still fo-
      ing cinematographic effects. 143                                                                                                                         cuses heavily on humor
minutes stuffed to bursting with super he-                                                                                                                     and flashy effects. In The
roes, aliens, and Samuel L. Jackson. 143                                                                                                                       Avengers he uses well-
minutes of poorly developed plot and                                                                                                                           written dialogue and clever
unexplained melodrama. 143 minutes                                                                                                                            remarks to disguise the lack
stitched together by CGI and witty                                                                                                                             of a well-developed plot
dialogue. In 143 minutes Joss Whedon                                                                                                                            and low-key conflict. His
delivers up a jaw-dropping, but cliched,                                                                                                                         implementation of 3D as
super hero action flick that has already                                                                                                                          a medium for viewing
grossed over $457 million in box office.                                                                                                                            is almost unparalleled.
Shot in real 3D, the pictures jump off the                                                                                                                            But it’s safe to say
screen, enthralling the viewer.                                                                                                                                       that this film is best
    The film follows the story of six gifted                                                                                                                           viewed on the big
individuals, well, four gifted, pluss an                                                                                                                              screen and in 3D.
angry, green, rage machine, and a god,

     t was the first time my cousin really     and buttery.                                       It wasn’t the horror story he told that         Amanda blushed, giggled, flat out
     saw Santa Cruz. She wasn’t used to           I blurted, “I found your pizza, man.”       was funny, but the prima donna way he            started laughing.
     street bums mumbling at her. I was.          “Really—where?” His voice sound-            carried himself, gesticulating, giggling,           “Thanks,” she managed to say.
    Amanda had been in town for four           ed a few octaves too high for his street-      lips drawn in a serene smile.                       I put an arm around her and turned
hours, and we were walking down Pa-            worn figure, stuffed into ripped jeans             “Hey, you!” A group of shirtless             away. We walked towards the intersec-
cific Ave. at 10:00 pm.                        and jacket, no shirt, chest hair creeping      surfer kids got the yell-at treatment this       tion a few feet and glanced back. The
    “Max!” Aaron yelled my name from           through the zipper.                            time. “Party until you’re homeless!”             real Richard Palmer was riding away,
a ways up the sidewalk, inside the en-            “Uh…yeah, we found it!” Amanda                  He didn’t speak again until another          laughing at us.
trance to the Coffee Roasting Company.         couldn’t look at me without laughing,          group of kids came out of the New Leaf
    I lifted him in a bear hug and turned      so I stared at the ground, then back at        and over the crosswalk, onto the corner
to Amanda. “This is my buddy, Aaron.           Richard.                                       where we stood.
Aaron, this is my cousin from back                “You guys like poison; you want                 “You too! You’re already partying,
East, Amanda.”                                 some poison?” Smiling broadly, he di-          but party ‘til you’re homeless!”
    “Oh, this is your cousin.”                 rected the question just above my hat. A           I asked the obvious, “Is that what you
    Aaron waved, then shook her hand.          short Asian girl and a bearded guy in a        did, man?”
    “Cool. Dude, have you seen this guy,       UCSC shirt, holding hands, walked by.              He giggled, finally looking at me
Richard Palmer? He’s some homeless                Richard hailed them: “Hey! You—“            with a wide, glassy stare. “Yeah, I, like,
guy with a huge jug telling people it’s        They avoided him, keeping up their             took off from my step-dad’s place. And
poison. Super crazy guy, go talk to him.       chatter. “You want some poison, don’t          I had, like, twelve grams of meth stuck
Tell him you found his pizza.”                 you?”                                          up my nose, and I didn’t even know it

    Amanda, a full seven years older              “No.”                                       was there.” He snorted and slapped the
than I am, giggled at our boyish behav-           “Oh, come on, man; it’s only really         air. “I was high for, like, three days and
ior.                                           lemonade.” His gaze focused back at the        just had the most fun I’ve ever had.”
    “Alright, sounds sweet, dude.              space above me. “Some people, man.                 Amanda stopped laughing. I looked

Where is he?” I was already a few steps        I’m just messing around. Like, look, I         down, shifted my weight.
down the sidewalk.                             even have my protective charm against              “So do you want some poison?
    “Just down a bit.”                         mean people.” Richard’s dirty fingers          ’Cause I’m going to live with my real
    Amanda caught up; we kept walking.         tugged at a dream catcher, duck-taped          dad and all these Indians, ‘cause I’m,
I glanced at every guy slumped along           to the handlebars of the old bike.             like, part Native-American, and I can’t
the pavement. A man with a baseball               “It totally sucks too ‘cause, like,         take this whole thing with me.”
cap pulled down to his bushy eyebrows,         some people are crazy. Like, some crazy            He pointed at a five-gallon plastic
saliva foaming at his lips, passed out         guy just, like, stole my last two bowls        tub near us. I only noticed it then, filled
drunk, a bed sheet wrapped around him          of weed, and it’s 4/20 today, and I’m,         with yellow liquid. Lemonade, maybe;
like a shroud. Two others—one tooth-           like, so pissed off. Who would do that?        maybe piss.
less and one balding despite his thick         Ya know?”                                          Amanda almost sounded genuine
beard—argued over the last drops of a             Amanda laughed, drawing Richard’s           when she turned the offer down. “No,
bottle of beer, cigarette ashes floating       attention at the space between her and         thanks, though. We don’t have a way to
on the liquid surface.                         me.                                            carry it.”
    “I see him!” I pointed at a man lean-
ing over the handlebars of a worn,
                                                  “And I just found out that my dad’s
                                               not my real dad. Which is good ‘cause
                                                                                                  “Oh, ok, then. Well…my name’s
                                                                                              Richard Palmer. And I’m the real Rich-                   by Max Saalisi
fixed-gear bicycle.                            I totally hated him. He was, like, so          ard Palmer. Like, people will try to say
    Richard Palmer stood, one leg on a         mean. He broke my jaw.” His dirty              that they’re me, but I’m the real me.”
bike pedal. He sported a fish–hook ear-        hands prodded his brown cheek. “And                “I’ll keep that in mind. I’m Max, this
ring, dangling from his matte of hair          three of my ribs twice and used to touch       is Amanda.”
just past his shoulder, a feather impaled      me and all this messed up shit. He, like,          Gazing directly at my cousin: “I’ve
on the end.                                    totally tried to throw me out of a win-        seen you somewhere before. I remem-
    We locked eyes; his were big, brown,       dow once.”                                     ber your aura. You’re very beautiful.”
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                                                               marching band, wind ensemble, chorus, and jazz band.           singing.” Twenty-six men showed for the meeting and
    By JJ Anderson                                             As a senior he performed in the school musical Pirates of      when club members complained about the “noise,” the
                                                               Penzance, where he played the guilt-ridden Major Gener-        group found a new location. By the next week they had

    ’m not the official welcoming committee.” Joe, a           al. Johnson did not sing seriously again until 2007 when       seventy members. The group became the Barbershop
    grandfatherly looking man with a crisp mustache,           he joined the local Gold Standard Barbershop Chorus.                   Harmony Society, now with 30,000 members,
    smiles and extends a hand. The music room at Santa         Organized shortly after the 1989 earthquake, the chorus                      and officially named the SPEBSQSA, in the
Cruz High School is filled with two dozen members of           participates in local performances and district compe-                          style of Roosevelt’s alphabet legislation,
the Gold Standard Barbershop Chorus, chat-                                  titions. Every year on Valentine’s Day the                           (Society for The Preservation and En-
ting, stretching, reserving seats for their                                                 group peforms singing val-                            couragement of Barber Shop Quartet
seven o’clock Wednesday night practice.                                                                        entines.                             Singing in America). The name holds

Lara, a smiling tenor, pulls a binder of bar-                                                                                                        to this day.
bershop songs from under a folding table in                                                                                                                  “The other major event which
the corner; spread on the tabletop is a leather                                                                                                       I’ve started doing is, there’s an or-
suitcase containing practice CDs: “Polecats                                                                                                           ganization called the Harmony Bri-
                                                                                                                                                      gade-Extreme Quartetting.” John-

Tenor,” “Kentucky Bass.” Two dollars.
       “Here, so you can follow along.” Lara                                                                                                          son leans forward for emphasis.
passes the binder; the songs are arranged in                                                                                                          “Once you’re signed up, they ship
alphabetical order. “Feel free to sit with the                                                                                                       out a packet of ten or twelve songs
choir. You’ll be able to hear the music better.                                                                                                     and a learning CD. Then everybody
You can sit by Dan; he has a great ear.”                                                                                                           gets together for one weekend in
        At the front of the room sits a piano and                               “We’re just going around northern Santa                           Reno. On the first night at dinner, they
foot-high stool. Whiteboards cover the wall be-                           Cruz and walking into places where people           randomly assign you to three other people. So you get
hind, scribbles of notes and scales occupy ev-                           work and singing to them. It’s always cool           put in a completely random quartet. And assign you one
ery inch. The room is the shape of a rounded                            when you go into an office and you start singing      of the ten or twelve songs, and you have an hour to go
baseball diamond. The front is the narrowest                          the first song and people’s heads start poking out      back to your hotel room and rehearse the song, and you
part; wide curved steps gain in elevation at the back            of doorways over cubical walls and everybody kind of         come back and compete. I got to direct two of the song-
of the room. Plastic chairs line the steps. All but an el-     listens, and by the second song you have a pretty big          -it’s the biggest chorus I’ve ever got to direct, which
derly couple rise to begin stretches.                          audience.” Johnson smiles. “Probably the best recipient        was fun. After that they take the final top ten, same ten
       “Arms up, reach for the sky, 1,2,3.” Laura stands       I ever had was at a tattoo parlor. We got a call while we      twelve songs, but this time they draw the name out of a
on the stool and directs. “Good. Let’s try something new:      were eating lunch, and it was to deliver a singing valen-      hat right before you go on stage. It’s pretty intense, but
ten pants, ten blows, ten whistles.” A hush falls over the     tine gram to a tattoo artist. We walked in--four people in     a really fun weekend. When you’re not competing, you
room as the group exhales in unified rhythm. After more        tuxedos walking into a tattoo parlor. And she looked at        get together; you hit on voice combinations that are re-
warm-ups, Laura steps down. Chorus director Jordan             us quite puzzled, set down her tattooing implements and        ally got those are the one that really make it worthwhile.
Johnson takes the stool. The fluorescent lights reflect in     stopped working on the guy she was working on, and we                 The chorus begins a new song.
his glasses. A grin spreads the width of his goatee.           sang her the songs and she really liked it.”                          You know everybody,
       “Let’s sing the old songs.”                                        With part of the chorus, Johnson competes in               And they all know you,
       Though Barbershop music can trace its roots to a        quartet named Constellation, which took fourth place in               And even the policeman say ,“How do you do.
the monasteries in medieval Europe, the form of quartet        the Northwest Division of the Barbershop Harmony Far                  Johnson sways back and forth, waving his arms
singing we see today was born in the southern United           Western District contest held in Woodside, California, in      with the tempo.
States in the late 1800s. African American men, waiting        April, and qualified to compete at the Far Western Dis-               “Think nothing about going lower think about go-
and socializing outside barbershops, began singing and         trict contest to be held in Mesa, Arizona, in October.         ing wider” Johnson spreads his lips for emphasis.
experimenting with different harmonies. As the style of                The first organization of Barbershop music oc-                “A little higher . . . let’s take that stanza from the
singing became more wide spread, and with the inven-           curred in Tulsa, Oklahoma, on April 11, 1938 when              top again . . .”
tion of Tomas Edison’s phonograph in 1877, Barbershop          Owen Clifton Cash invited 14 friends to sing on the                   They sing the line again.
music reached the main stream by the end of the century.       roof of the Tulsa Club restaurant. In the letter to his               “Bingo,” says Dan under his breath.
       “A friend of mine kind of recruited me to sing.”        guests, Cash wrote, “In this age of dictators and gov-                “Good; that’s the best sound I’ve heard all night.”
Johnson sits upright in his desk chair, hands in his lap,      ernment control of everything, about the only privilege        Johnson smiles with his hands on his hips.
fingers laced. “He was in a barbershop quartet with his        guaranteed [is] by the Bill of Rights. Without doubt we               “Give yourselves a hand,” says Dan.
parents. They were just doing it for fun at one of the         still have the right of ‘peaceable assembly,’ which I am              Everyone applauds.
school meetings.” In high school, Johnson participated in      advised by competent legal authority includes quartet

                                                                      The Bagel
                                                                                                                              recorded, but organized. We’ve done pretty well, seeing as
 by Devin Riley                                                                                                               our singer is our producer.”
                                                                                                                                  By November they had set up a show the Communi-

C    ome on, baby, have a dance,” shouts senior Brian
     Hemmert. “He kicks the tissues to the wall / While
                                                                                                                              Tea Room, a local teahouse affectionately known as the
                                                                                                                              Chai Cart. “The first show that I felt confident in was at

                                                                      Also Rises
waiting patient’s laughing / when he hears the tissues                                                                        the Chai Cart,” says Kalow. “I was never really confident
fall.” Decked out in black pants, a green flannel shirt, and                                                                  in us getting shows consistently to begin with, so after that
a black fedora with a feather, Hemmert pivots back and                                                                        it was cool.”
forth, microphone in hand as he performs on stage in the                                                                          The band’s distinctive stage persona emerged at this
atrium of the Catalyst. His band, Otis and the Fascist Ba-                                                                    show. “[It] was kind of a joke. For the first show, we de-
gels, surround him, moving about the stage as they play                                                                       cided to dress as different kinds of hipsters,” says Kalow.
the band’s much adored song.                                        Otis and the Fascist Bagels                               “I was a flannel hipster. I don’t know what Matt was—he
    A group of about 30 fans stand below the stage in a                                                                       had something funky on. Brian was the classy hipster, and
semi-circle. They have been waiting here since 8:00 pm               make it to The Catalyst                                  Rory was the punk hipster. It was all really silly.”
to see their favorite band play Santa Cruz’ most renowned                                                                         Hemmert recalls his own style within the band: “The
music venue.                                                                                                                  fedora has just become a thing. I always wear a hat, but
                                                               complete. I remember when we wrote ‘Radio Song’ I
    A few weeks later, junior Joel Kalow sits relaxed in a                                                                    it’s not too hip to wear a baseball cap. So the fedora was
                                                               thought ‘This is actually cool.’”
chair on the Kirby deck, his eyes flickering up from his                                                                      born.”
                                                                   Each band member credits different influences, all cen-
iPhone to answer a question.                                                                                                      In the ensuing months, they began picking up speed,
                                                               tered on a mutual love for the Velvet Underground.
    Kalow laughs, his eyes closing briefly as he recalls                                                                      playing a benefit show for the non-profit group Grind Out
                                                                   “They’re my favorite band of all time,” says Kalow.
the story behind the band’s name. “All right, so Matt was                                                                     Hunger, shows in San Francisco, and several more shows
                                                               His eyes widen with enthusiasm. “Brian really likes them,
with his friend Jen, and they were outside of The Bagelry.                                                                    at the Communi-Tea Room.
                                                               as does Matt. Rory likes them, but not as much as we do.
Matt was like, ‘I really want to get a pizza bagel right                                                                          Then in early March, they were presented with an
                                                               We’re obsessed!” He laughs.
now, and they didn’t have any pizza bagels. And Matt was                                                                      opportunity to play at the Catalyst. “It must have been
                                                                   “It really changed throughout being a band and writing
like, ‘Those fascist bagels!’ That’s how we got The Fascist                                                                   a month before hand,” reminisces Kalow. “At the time
                                                               songs. It started as a folk-rock thing, but we realized very
Bagels, and we put together Otis and the Fascist Bagels,                                                                      I thought I was going to be visiting colleges, and I was
                                                               soon that wasn’t our sound. After that, influences have
named after the great constellation in the sky. Otis repre-                                                                   going to be gone. I told Brian that and we thought we
                                                               gone from Sonic Youth to Pavement and Weezer. I mean,
sents all the stars.”                                                                                                         couldn’t do it. We didn’t really think about it until a week
                                                               it’s really gone around. This new song I wrote reminds me
    The band’s origins go back to the summer of 2010                                                                          before, when I realized I could do the show, and we im-
                                                               of this Walkmen song. Any band I’m listening to, I adapt
when Hemmert and band members Matt Nitzberg and                                                                               mediately got super stoked and prepped everything for it.”
                                                               and write a song off it.
Joel Kalow were in a folk group called The Sex Offend-                                                                            The show’s program was established: Otis would open
                                                                   “It’s Lou Reed, Bob Dylan, and Julian Casablancas,”
ers. “Matt really wanted to start a band,” says Joel. “It                                                                     for their friends Transoceana, who would in turn open for
                                                               says Hemmert. “In terms of harmonica, Bruce Springs-
was his idea completely. We take no credit. He talked to                                                                      a bigger local act, Proper Nonsense. However, through a
                                                               teen, Neil Young, and John Popper pretty much sum it up.”
me and Brian. We started jamming, nothing really serious,                                                                     random error in communication, it was Otis’ name that
                                                                   The band began rehearsing with Freeman full time late
because I was in a band at the time called Amphigory.”                                                                        was put on the Catalyst upcoming shows board and was
                                                               last spring. They played a friend’s graduation party and
    “I started playing more with them,” says Kalow. “Matt                                                                     advertised on the Catalyst website.
                                                               made an appearance on local public access television.
knew Rory [Freeman] from another band he was in. We                                                                               The band currently spends its time alternating between
                                                               “Our first show was on TV,” says Kalow, “featuring our
were looking for a drummer for the longest time, and we                                                                       recording new material in the Kirby studio and playing
                                                               only ever rendition of ‘Yellow Submarine’ with yours
finally auditioned Rory, and we knew immediately that                                                                         the remaining shows they have booked before Hemmert
                                                               truly on vocals.”
he was going to work well for us. So we asked him if                                                                          leaves for Oberlin College in Ohio at the end of summer.
                                                                   “Pretty much from late spring throughout the summer,
he wanted to be in it. He said, ‘Yes, of course.’ We’re                                                                       “One song’s new. One’s not,” says Kalow. “I hope to re-
                                                               after Matt got back from CSSSA, up through November it
awesome, amazing, probably just brilliant songwriters.”                                                                       cord two songs before the summer starts. I don’t think
                                                               was just practicing and recording,” says Kalow. “That was
Kalow chuckles to emphasize the sarcasm.                                                                                      we’re going to do the whole demo thing [again] because
                                                               before we had any [real] shows. We wrote ‘Radio Song,’
    The band began to write and play music, but Kalow                                                                         that was too stressful. Getting shows and playing shows
                                                               ‘Wine of the Minstrels,’ ‘Otis’—a few of those songs that
and Hemmert claim there were no specific plans early on.                                                                      is way more communal than I thought. There’s just a lot
                                                               we still play now. The classics. What we call ‘the early
    “I’m not sure if we ever had a specific goal in mind,”                                                                    of bands who want to play with each other, which is cool.”
                                                               essentials’ now.” He grins. “We hate all of them, except
says Hemmert, “aside from impressing girls, of course. It                                                                         The band plans a farewell show at The Crepe Place on
                                                               for ‘Radio Song.’”
really just started with playing ‘House of the Rising Sun’                                                                    June 27. Do they have any special plans for their swan
                                                                   It was around this time the band began recording a
and took off from there.”                                                                                                     song?
                                                               four-track demo. Hemmert was in an audio engineering
    “Right around the time Amphigory broke up,” says                                                                              “Strippers and cakes?” mock-asks Kalow. He chuck-
                                                               independent study project. “I never hoped for us to have
Kalow. “I knew [Otis] was something more”— he inter-                                                                          les again. “That’s really all I can go for. One stripper and
                                                               this overproduced feeling,” says Kalow, “not that we had
rupts himself—“a little before that actually. I guess when                                                                    multiple cakes.”
                                                               that option to begin with. I wanted to get our live sound
we started writing songs and we had Rory and we were
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“I   ’m Graden Golston-Kreyche for the 3:45 appointment.”
         The walls are painted beige, and the smell of antiseptic hangs in the air.
Graden and his parents sit in the wooden chairs lining the walls, holding the letter
they had received the previous day, the letter that would begin a parade of pre-
scription drugs and blood tests, missed school, and doctor’s appointments. A nurse
appears from behind the counter, her hair bobbing, and leads the family--appre-
hensive, hopeful--to the examination room. Nonchalantly, she checks his mouth,
eyes, nose, temperature, blood pressure, ears, lungs. The white paper that covers
the exam table crinkles every time Graden shifts. As quickly as she appeared,
the nurse fades away into the white walls, only to be replaced by Dr. Culver in a
starched white shirt. He leans over the test results, showing his bald spot, and re-
peats what he wrote in the letter. Graden has been diagnosed with systemic lupus
erythematosus. There is no fixed procedure. There is no cure.

NEXT                          Lupus is a chronic, autoimmune disease that can damage any part of the body. Normally, your im-
                            mune system produces proteins called antibodies that protect the body from invaders, but in lupus,
                            the immune system can’t tell the difference between these foreign pathogens and your own body.
                            Consequently, it creates autoantibodies that attack and destroy healthy tissue, causing inflammation,

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                            body. More than 90% of people with lupus are women, 85% develop
                            symptoms after eighteen, and around 67% are nonwhite, so Graden is a very
                            unusual case, being a sixteen-year-old, white male.
                               Ironically, Graden never got sick before his diagnosis. He would go a year between colds and
                            never had anything more serious. Still, his mother worried. He slept more than other children. He

   by Ry Faraola,
                            never had a lot of energy. She took him to see the doctor, but the tests showed nothing abnormal,
                            nothing until he woke up the day after receiving his hepatitis vaccine with every joint in his body
                            swollen beyond movement.
   Zoe Gregozek,               Enlarged joints are only one symptom in an exhaustive list, including extreme fatigue, head-
                            aches, anemia, photo-sensitivity, hair loss, abnormal blood clotting, mouth/nose ulcers, organ
  Acacia Lommen-            damage, and a butterfly-shaped rash on the face. Not every patient experiences all these effects;
                            in order to be diagnosed, the patient must satisfy only four out of eleven indicator criteria. This
                            means that two people could have the same illness but experience completely different symptoms.
    Nelson, Lucy            There is no “normal” lupus experience.
                               Nor is there a normal experience with chronic illness, a condition describing a spectrum of
   Saldavia, and            health problems from asthma to cancer. Chronic illness is anything that forces a change in life-
                            style. According to one estimate, over one-third of working aged Americans suffer from at least

   Adriana Brock
                            one chronic condition, and by the year 2020, it is estimated that 157 million Americans will con-
                            tract a chronic illness. And within that segment is a smaller subset. Among adolescents, persons
                            aged 10-18 years of age, chronic illnesses occur among six percent of the population.
                               This is the statistic that makes parents pause. We’re all mortal, we all expect to contract an ill-
                            ness at some time, to visit the hospital more than once, and eventually to pass on. As hard as the
                            thought is, parents expect to face a serious illness sooner or later while their kids grow into old
                            age themselves.
                               But the illness of a child, in the words of poet Karl Shapiro, “cancels our physics with a sneer.”
                            It beggars reason. It feels like a violation. It forces our lives onto a side road with a different
                               “Adolescence,” writes Lawrence S. Neinstein, a professor of pediatrics and medicine, “includes
                            a period of accelerated physical growth, the development of secondary sexual characteristics, and
                            acceleration in cognitive and psychosocial development. As a result, the management of teens
                            with a chronic illness must go beyond the strictly medical; it should include addressing issues
                            such as development, family and social support, substance use, and reproductive health.” In other
                            words, for teens, a chronic illness is only part of the problem. The additional complications of
                            adolescence--making friends, establishing an identity, dealing with puberty, planning for adult
                            responsibilities--add a discomfiting twist.
                                What teens with a chronic illness contend with is being different, finding their lives, and their
                            futures, circumscribed by factors they did not choose, trying to convey to others why activities
                            that seem normal to most--reading a book, getting to school on time, taking a trip, eating a French
                            fry--are difficult and, on occasion, impossible. Whether, like Brianna James-Beckham, it is a con-
                            dition they have known all their lives, or, like Connor Cockerham, it creeps into their world before
                            exploding on a late winter day, they find they have crossed a threshold. They have been changed.
                               Some embrace this change, but others, like Graden, strive to erase their differences: “I wouldn’t
                            want my peers to treat me differently, maybe even unconsciously,” he says. His long hair pulled
                            back into a ponytail, subtly blue eyes peering at you from beneath wireless glasses, Graden
                            speaks softly in measured words. “I don’t even really want people to be more understanding.
                            I want to be normal.”
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       or Brianna James-Beckham, there was no “before.”                                                                                                                     stop that and try another one.’ “ Medications are often frustrating for lupus patients because no two cases of the disease
                                                                                                                                                                            are alike. “When a doctor says, ‘You have lupus.’ they’re not like, ‘Here, take this.’ “ Graden says. “They’re like, ‘Here
       Brianna has lived her entire life under the shadow of Alagille syndrome, a rare genetic disorder.                                                                    take some medicines; they’re all kinda different and they all have different side effects.’ ”
                                                                                                                                                                                Laura is a certified family medicine doctor, but, ironically, it was small comfort understanding the medical details of
       In patients with Alagille syndrome (AGS), the liver doesn’t build enough ducts to transport bile                                                                     her daughter’s illness. She spent hours in the medical library, hunched over big books with small print and long words.
                                                                                                                                                                            Like April, she went online, sifting through pages of unreliable information to find small nuggets of fact. Without the
to the gallbladder. Bile is a fluid that carries waste and toxins out of the liver and also aids in the ab-                                                                 medical background that Laura had, Brianna’s father Ed found the news difficult to process.
                                                                                                                                                                                Scientists have identified the mutation in the Jagged1 (JAG1) gene and can test for it. But in 1994, the year Brianna
sorption of fats and fat-soluble vitamins. When bile ducts are absent or malformed, a build-up in the                                                                       was born, little was known about Alagille. What was known was not encouraging. Most early studies were performed
liver causes scarring and severe damage. Alagille Syndrome doesn’t just affect the liver, though—it                                                                         on children who had not been treated from birth, as Brianna was. Ed remembers reading terrifying facts and statistics:
                                                                                                                                                                            two-year survival rate, possible transplant, high chance of brain damage from lack of nutrients.
can damage nearly every organ in the body, including the heart, skeleton, eyes, and kidneys. Brianna                                                                            Brianna was placed on a special diet, consisting of Pregestimil and Nutramigen (formulas designed for babies with
                                                                                                                                                                            malabsorption), and medium chain triglyceride (MTC) oil. Every two hours, Laura stumbled out of bed to feed her
received her diagnosis when she was seven weeks old.                                                                                                                        infant daughter the foul smelling concoction. The two substances would separate every few minutes, and Laura would
                                                                                                                                                                            shake the baby bottle vigorously until they emulsified. Feedings took a long time because Brianna was so weak. She
        Like Lupus, Alagille syndrome is difficult to diagnose. It closely resembles other forms of liver disease seen in                                                   was sunken-eyed, skinny, starving, and there was little her parents could do.
young children and infants.                                                                                                                                                     Friends and families of children with serious illnesses often feel helpless in the face of something so monumental
       “We knew there was a problem probably four days after her birth,” remembers Brianna’s mother, Laura. “Initially                                                      and scary. Many do not know what to do or how to react. Telling other people can be difficult, particularly for teenag-
there were feeding issues, she was jaundiced—a lot of babies are jaundiced, but her jaundice was prolonged—and                                                              ers. They don’t want to be seen as “different,” and they don’t want to cause a fuss.
she developed failure to thrive, meaning she wasn’t gaining weight, she was losing weight.” Jaundice, a yellowing of                                                            Telling his loved ones, especially boyfriend Craig Petrocelli, was tough for Connor. “I mean, there’s no easy way
the skin and whites of the eyes, results from high amounts of the pigment bilirubin in the blood, which gives bile its                                                      to say it,” says Connor. “The best way to describe it is, it’s like you’re coming out of the closet, but you’re coming out
reddish-yellow color. Jaundice is often a sign of liver problems. While it’s normal for babies to be jaundiced temporar-                                                    with cancer. Except no one’s really proud of you; they’re more worried and sympathetic.”
ily due to immature livers, prolonged jaundice indicates serious problems.                                                                                                      “I don’t usually tell people, unless it comes up somehow, which it usually doesn’t,” says Graden. “I wouldn’t mind
      Brianna’s symptoms could have pointed to other liver problems. What worried her parents more was that she had                                                         if everybody knew, but it’s kind of an awkward conversation.”
developed a heart murmur, the most common sign of AGS after liver disease. She visited a cardiologist and underwent                                                             For Connor’s friends, the news was a blow. “The last thing I wanted to do was freak out,” says Analise. “And he
an array of tests. And then more tests. None of the doctors could come to a conclusion. Meanwhile, baby Brianna                                                             kept saying ‘I’m going to freak out in a minute,’ but then he didn’t.
was hospitalized and fed through a tube. But due to her faltering liver, she couldn’t absorb the nutrients any better than                                                      “I remember he said, ‘It’s weird to think I have cancer.’ There wasn’t that fear of ‘I’m going to die’ as much as it
when she had been breastfeeding. She was literally starving to death.                                                                                                       was ‘I have a disease that could kill me. This is something that’s going to change my life.’”
      “It was really hard. That was a very dark time for us,” says Laura. She was not optimistic. “There were two things                                                         For most high schoolers, doctor’s appointments and shots are minor hassles to be endured once or twice a year,
that my baby could have, and neither one had a very good prognosis: Alagille syndrome, to the extent of the liver in-                                                       friends and homework come before health, and something as small as a bad hair day can make you feel self-conscious.
volvement that she was showing, and the other, most common hepatic disorder, biliary atresia. Biliary atresia, almost                                                       For children and teenagers with chronic diseases, however, this life is alien. Living with a serious illness changes your
all of those babies have a [liver] transplant. There’s a procedure called a Kasai that can be done, but if you do it to the                                                 idea of “normal.”
AGS baby by mistake, you’ve really messed up the prognosis for that child. But biliary atresia, if you don’t either do                                                           Before her liver transplant, Brianna’s days were dominated by “the fog.” What is the fog? “Let’s just say your
this procedure or a transplant by two months, biliary atresia babies don’t survive.”                                                                                        thoughts come from the back of your head to the front. It was like there was a wall right there.” Brianna points to her
        More tests. Doctors examined her heart, her lungs, and scanned various organs. They tested for a urinary tract                                                      forehead. “Everything was just pushing against this wall. And I could not get it to the front of my head so I could see
infection. Clean. Biliary atresia was looking more and more unlikely, so doctors focused on identifying AGS. Sure                                                           my world and understand what I was reading and comprehend it. I would read a textbook, and I could read that textbook
enough, Brianna had many of the characteristic AGS symptoms: eye abnormalities, heart murmur, unusually shaped                                                              chapter three times, and you could quiz me on it, and I would not know anything. I just could not retain the information.
bones. A liver biopsy provided the final confirmation.                                                                                                                      It was like a wall in my brain, and now, after the transplant, the wall is gone. It’s like my brain is smooooth.”
       Brianna grew up aware of her illness. For her, it was a normal part of life, something she had always dealt with.                                                                For Brianna, an average day went something like this: “You wake up, and you’re tired. You have the fog. You
Unlike Graden, her life was not split cleanly into “before” and “after.”                                                                                                            have to take tons of medicine. You have to go to school, and you look different. You’re super itchy, and it never
    “I just figured out that I looked different, I looked yellow, y’know?” explains Brianna. “I don’t know when it be-                                                              goes away. And you’re just suuuuper tired.”
came something I noticed.” Many children born with a chronic illness explain being almost thankful they don’t have                                                                        Everyday activities that most people take for granted can impact a sensitive disease. Brianna and Graden
to experience the shock of first learning their diagnosis. They don’t have to go through the pain of adjusting to a new                                                             both encounter problems in the sunlight and have to limit their participation in physical activity. Stress can also
reality, and the fear and uncertainty that evolves when they realize something is wrong.                                                                                            put strain on the body and mind, especially for Graden. “I definitely have less flare-ups over the summer when
    For Connor Cockerham, that realization dawned slowly.                                                                                                                           I’m not stressed out. It’s great! I found a cure for lupus: not going to school!”
    For eighteen years, it was just a birthmark. Connor never gave it much thought. Because it wasn’t very noticeable,                                                                   Brianna has always known about her Alagille syndrome, but because it isn’t a well-known condition, people
and because parents and friends and doctors assured him it was normal, he didn’t worry about it. Dark reddish-brown                                                                 often commented on her appearance, especially when she was an infant. Strangers pointed out her jaundiced
and about the size of a coin, it hid just above his left ear, covered by hair. Even when it started to itch, Connor wasn’t                                                          appearance, making observations or expressing their fear, offering advice, asking questions. Laura appreciated
unduly concerned. By his senior year of high school, however, it had begun to hurt. It grew, changed shape, and be-                                                                  their concerns, but the unwanted attention got a bit wearing. “The strangers are the ones you can really make fun
came raised. When he scratched it, it bled.                                                                                                                                          of,” she says mischievously. “You can really lead them along. ‘Oh my god, you really think she’s jaundiced?
     “He showed it to me and he said ‘Analise, it’s hurting,’ “ recalled junior Analise Pappastergiou, Connor’s best friend.                                                         Really? I never noticed!’ It lets [me and Brianna] get some humor out of it.”
“I was like, ‘When was the last time you got that checked out? You should get that checked out.’ And he agreed.”                                                                          At school, the other kids could hardly fail to notice Brianna’s appearance. “Throughout elementary school I
    Connor arrived at the dermatologist in a state of nervous expectation, reminding himself that his birthmark had been                                                             was in denial. I think it was maybe around seventh grade, eighth grade that I started accepting I had a problem.
examined before and results had always been the same: normal. After a stressful couple of minutes searching for his                                                                  I didn’t want to be different. I had this image of myself: I was like a normal person, and I looked like everybody
missing insurance card, he settled into an uncomfortable chair, waiting to be called for his examination.                                                                            else. Whenever I went to the doctors, it was shoved in my face. When I was away from the doctor, with my
    He was led into a stark, white room that smelled of antiseptic. The physician’s assistant snapped on a pair of latex-                                                             friends, I could be that image that I wanted to be. It got so bad that I would not want to look in mirrors because
free doctor’s gloves (“I’m allergic,” explains Connor “so they had to use nitrile gloves on me the whole time.”) and                                                                  it would point out how different I looked. So I started hating mirrors. I just thought I was ugly, really different.”
pushed aside Connor’s hair. He touched the area gently, pushing the skin together and moving it around to examine the                                                                       Eventually, Brianna began to accept herself. But she wasn’t ready to share something so personal with
texture. Connor shifted nervously on the thin white paper of the examining table as the assistant took notes. Finally,                                                                people she didn’t know. It was hard to answer the relentless questions. She patiently fielded queries about her
the assistant looked up. He was hesitant to make a concrete statement, but there was a very real possibility that Connor                                                              yellow eyes, her frequent bloody noses, her itch. One day in seventh grade, she snapped. Fed up with the con-
had malignant melanoma, a fast-moving and virulent skin cancer.                                                                                                                       stant questions of a classmate, she turned around in her seat and snapped “My eyes are yellow because I spray
    Two weeks later, Tracy Cockerham blasted Madonna as she drove her son in their white Audi up to Stanford. Con-                                                                    paint them that way.” Her classmate looked at her in awe--and bought every word.
nor was about to undergo a punch biopsy of the birthmark to test the tissue for cancerous cells. Getting numbed for the                                                                    “I was an outcast, I was different from everyone else and my self esteem went down,” Brianna explains.
procedure was the worst part, Connor recalls.                                                                                                                                          Connor, too, felt separate from his peers. “Yeah, I did feel isolated; I definitely did, actually.” He felt like his
     “I could hear the shot going through my skin, and it hurt so bad, and they have to go slow because it was in my                                                                   old idea of a high school crisis was trivial, less important. “Knowing that it could have spread to my lymph
head.” After the numbing, it got easier. “It’s almost like a hole-puncher. I couldn’t feel anything, but I could hear,                                                                 nodes was the probably the scariest thing. Just the fact that I had cancer, that I’m a cancer survivor now, is
like, crunches. It was really gross.” He shudders. “Apparently everyone was really impressed because usually people                                                                    weird. You never, ever think it’s going to happen to you.”
freak out, but I was just chilling and talking about shopping.” Occasionally, clipboard-toting med students wandered                                                                       Except for the occasional butterfly rash, Graden’s lupus is not immediately noticeable. But like Brianna, he
through the room, staring. “You know, it’s a university, so people are learning. I think I was one of their exhibits.”                                                                 feels its effects every day. He sleeps more than most people his age but still goes through his days in varying
Connor laughs.                                                                                                                                                                         stages of exhaustion. Graden, Brianna, and Connor all had a hard time keeping up with schoolwork, or just
    After the punch biopsies were sent to the lab, Connor and Tracy could do nothing but wait, and hope.                                                                               going to school. Each describes Kirby as very accommodating, and the teachers, understanding and discreet.
     “It was hell waiting for [the test results],” says Analise, “because they had told him what it could be, that it could be                                                              People with chronic illnesses describe having a connection with people in similar circumstances. Graden
melanoma, and if it is you’ll have to get surgery and possibly chemo. You’ll have to get your lymph nodes tested, and                                                                   enjoyed meeting others with lupus. “A lot of people don’t understand what some people that live with any
if it’s spread, you’ll have to get full chemo. So they were supposed to call within about three days, and they didn’t call.                                                             chronic condition would probably understand, so it’s nice to meet those people,” he says. “They’ll be like, ‘Oh
Everyone was just freaking out waiting for these calls. It took, like, seven or eight days. During the waiting period we                                                                yes, I know it’s hard.’ I went to a lupus support group for a while. Those people were really nice.”
talked about what would happen if he had cancer and what would happen if he didn’t. It was hard for him because I                                                                            Brianna has attended Alagille syndrome conferences multiple times. “It was wonderful,” she smiles as
think there was definitely a feeling of people getting nervous around him [when they found out], because it got around                                                                  she remembers. “I now call them my brothers and sisters, my true family. We’re basically the same, we walk
fairly quickly. And he missed a lot of school anyway because he was so busy with all his appointments.”                                                                                 the same, we look the same, and we’re the same. I can be myself, I can be free, and I don’t have to be afraid.”
    Waiting for a diagnosis is one of the most stressful times for a family with a sick child. “It was kind of a roller coast-
er,” recalls Brianna’s father Ed. “She’s gonna be okay, she’s not okay, she’s gonna be okay, she’s not okay.” For both

Brianna and Graden, a diagnosis was difficult to come by. Very little was known about AGS and Lupus. Melanoma,
on the other hand, is fairly common. The number of people diagnosed with the disease has increased by 40 percent in
the past few decades, though it is uncommon among young children and teens. Or at least, it was. The number of teens                              efore the sun had come up on March 9th, 2012, Craig, Tracy, and Connor were on the road to
with melanoma is on the rise, according to the Nationwide Children’s Hospital in Columbus, Ohio. Other studies have
found similar trends in both the U.S. and Europe.                                                                                                 Stanford. Craig and Connor had stayed up late together, shaving Connor’s hair into a mohawk
    One agonizing week later, Tracy received a phone call. Melanoma. She broke the news to Connor when he arrived
home with Analise for a sleepover.                                                                                                                for surgery.
     Reactions to a diagnosis vary. Many children or family members go through denial, anger, guilt, or shock. It some-
times takes months to adjust to a diagnosis.
                                                                                                                                          On the ride over Highway 17, a Harry Potter audiobook played on the car stereo. “Jim Dale [the nar-
    “I remember crying, and . . .,” Connor trails off, troubled. “I have weird memories of that night. I think that it was
so stressful that I’ve blocked some of it out, you know? I think I was in shock, and then it hit in a kind of wave of
                                                                                                                                          rator] is great; it was really soothing,” says Connor, who was worried about being nauseated by the
emotion.”                                                                                                                                 anesthetics.
    “I spent a lot of time trying to do some negotiating first,” says Laura of the period immediately following Brianna’s                                                      At the hospital Connor received his white patient wristband, and the trio sat and waited for admission. They watched
diagnosis. “This is past denial: denial happened the first two weeks. This is where you go ‘Okay, it’s gonna be AGS.                                                        as Connor’s name appeared on a color-coded patient screen. He was orange: “Checked in.”
She doesn’t need an immediate surgery, so that’s good.’ This is something that’s supposed to be variable, so then you                                                          Three more families checked in before Connor was called to the sterilized, curtained, surgery preparation area. “It
start hoping that it’s not as severe as you think. So you’ve got a diagnosis, and one of the advantages of a diagnosis                                                      was hard to see him in the surgery gown in the bed,” Craig recalls. “It was actually happening. The anesthesiologist
is now you know what the heck you’re dealing with and what you’re going to have to do. Then you do the research.”                                                           came in the same time Connor was kind of starting to have a panic attack. He was panicking and crying and really wor-
    Because there are no specific treatments for lupus, research was frustrating for Graden and his family. “With lupus,                                                    ried, and his hands were turning blue, so they told him to sit on them.”
there’s just a tremendous amount they don’t know,” explains Graden’s mom, April. “The doctors were very forthright                                                             “They had to take slices out of the lymph nodes on of his neck and face,” explains Craig. “And he was really nervous
with us about that. They know a certain amount, or at least they believe they know a certain amount, and they have                                                          to [get] the lymph nodes [taken] out of his face, because if [the surgeon] hit a facial nerve, half of his face would go
drugs that are for other diseases that they now use for lupus. Not to cure it, but to treat the symptoms. And that’s the                                                    numb for the rest of his life.”
best they have.” April, an engineer, says it’s in her nature to research things. She read books and searched online for                                                        Given medicine to calm his nerves, Connor “almost instantly started to calm down; he was basically on drugs,”
answers, but always came up frustrated. There simply were no answers.                                                                                                       Craig recalls. “He started, like, cracking up laughing, and he told me to take a video of him. And his anesthesiologist
    “When you have a condition that they know how to fix, it’s really nice.,” says Graden. “There’s diagnosis, there’s                                                      was from England. He had an English accent and [Connor] called him Doctor McDreamy. He barely even noticed he
treatment, and then you’re better! For me, it’s not that easy. It’s a huge cycle of ‘Does this medication work? No, let’s                                                   was leaving us. So at that point they rolled him away. He left.”
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    Craig returned to the waiting area with Tracy and waited for Con-                                                                                                        mental, because when a doctor says, ‘You have lupus,’ they’re not like, ‘Here, take this.’ They’re like, ‘Here, take some
nor’s step-father, Scott, to arrive with Starbucks                                                                                                                           medicines. They’re all kinda different, and they all have different side effects.’”
and pastries. Connor’s color on the screen changed                                                                                                                                “Everything has been kind of an unknown or an experiment when you stop to think about it,” agrees Laura. “It’s
to red: “Surgery.”                                                                                                                                                           not ‘Here’s the solution to her problem.’” Brianna has taken part in several experimental tests. Her parents are careful
    Four hours passed with no updates. Craig be-                                                                                                                             when choosing what to subject their daughter to, however: “I didn’t want her to be a guinea pig,” says Laura.
gan to worry. “The surgery was supposed to take                                                                                                                                  The experimental aspect of treatment can make dealing with a life-threatening illness all the more frustrating. Be-
two to three hours,” he says. “At some point--I                                                                                                                              cause there is no “go-to,” no guaranteed fix, new medicines and treatments invite new rounds of experimentation, along
don’t know how much time had passed--there was                                                                                                                               with benefits and side-effects of their own. Different doctors--even specialists in the same illness--profess different
a phone call in the waiting room. The doctor an-                                                                                                                             views of new and old drugs, increasing uncertainty.
swered it, and we didn’t think anything of it [until]                                                                                                                            Decisions about medications and treatments for Brianna were ongoing and frequently frustrating. At first, her physi-
they said, ‘Tracy Cockerham, there’s a call for you,’                                                                                                                        cian placed her on double the recommended nutritional supplements, hoping Brianna’s body would increase absorption.
so we’re like, ‘This is very bizarre.’ They called to                                                                                                                        Then Laura flew across the continent to Philadelphia to attend a seminar and discussed the regiment with a specialist.
update us and tell us that they were two-thirds of the                                                                                                                           “He freaked out,” she says. “‘Oh, no, that’s too much calcium. What the heck do you think you’re doing hitting her
way done with the surgery and things were going                                                                                                                              kidneys with all that calcium? What the heck do you think you’re doing out there in California? You guys are nuts.’”
great. It ended up being an hour longer.”                                                                                                                                        But four years later, Brianna got a different response. Explains Laura, “At the last lecture we went to in July, he says,
    After the surgery was completed, a nurse led                                                                                                                             ‘Oh, and by the way, we’ve all decided that they need to have this much calcium in order to get absorption.’ Wow, four
Craig and Tracy to Connor’s curtained corner.                                                                                                                                years--a whole different tune. I mean, I was lucky. We watched certain values to make sure we weren’t destroying her
    “We tried to talk to him,” Craig remembers. “It                                                                                                                          kidneys. But there’s always that risk. I’m making a decision, and I’m risking my kid.”
was really hard because Tracy and I couldn’t un-                                                                                                                                 Finally, getting through the simplest of daily activities can wear an adolescent down.
derstand anything he was saying. He couldn’t make                                                                                                                                “I feel [restricted] a lot,” Brianna says. “It’s just sad to look back after a certain point and see all the things I could
words, and he was really frustrated and trying to                                                                                                                            have done that Alagille Syndrome kept me from doing. I couldn’t play any sports because of my enlarged spleen. I
communicate with us, but we couldn’t understand.                                                                                                                             couldn’t play contact sports because of my heart. It was hard in elementary school, too, because since I couldn’t [par-
Tracy walked up and took his hand and said, ‘Con-                                                                                                                            ticipate in PE], my teacher would make me sit on the bench and watch all the other kids play. He finally decided to kind
nor, you did so good!’ and he said, ‘Well.’ And we                                                                                                                           of accommodate me and let me just run around.”
were like, ‘What?’ He corrected her grammar, like
‘You did so well.’”
    After staying the night at Stanford, Connor re-
turned home to a comfy couch and a plethora of
                                                                                                                                                                             I  t is an early morning in September, 6:20am. Radio music blares. This school year, Brianna aims to be punctual. After
                                                                                                                                                                                too many long years, she has been placed on the liver transplant list, which gives her hope.
                                                                                                                                                                                 Breakfast is Cheerios covered in one percent milk because Alagille syndrome makes it hard to absorb fats. Ed hand
friends. When Craig left, Analise replaced him. She                                                                                                                          washes dishes in the sink; Laura steps quietly into the kitchen.
was nervous, not knowing how she would react to the                                                                                                                              Last night, she’d been woken by a call. The clock read 2:30am. “Is Brianna sick?” a voice asked.
fresh wound on Connor’s head. Thankfully, though                                                                                                                                 “No, I don’t think so,” Laura replied, tired. Why would anyone want to know?
tired, groggy, and incoherent, “he still looked like                                                                                                                             “Well, we have her transplant, and it will be at Stanford tommorow.”
Connor.” She brought movies and TV shows to watch                                                                                                                                Laura barely slept the rest of the night. At breakfast now, she faces her daughter.
with a loopy and sedated Connor. He slowly grew                                                                                                                                  She speaks. “Brianna, we have a surprise for you.”
more aware of his surroundings, but the lingering med-                                                                                                                           Brianna doesn’t know what her mother is talking about.
ication from his surgery made him act strangely. He                                                                                                                              But then she sees her mother’s tears. She understands. Jumping out of the padded chair, she yells “Not today? It
sent unintelligible Facebook messages to his friends,                                                                                                                        can’t be now!” Tears roll down her cheeks, now, too. “It wasn’t supposed to happen so quickly!” Twenty-eight days
demanded deviled eggs and Chinese food, and made up a                  bathroom-themed song to the tune of The Beatles’ “I                                                   have passed since the family consulted with the transplant team.
Am the Walrus.”                                                                                                                                                                  Ed drives the James-Beckham family to Stanford later that day. Brianna sits in the back, thumbing through Lizzie
    “He was moody. Definitely,” admits Analise. “He was really frustrated because I didn’t know the ‘X Files’ theme                                                          Gets a Liver, a book Laura bought for Brianna when she was four and the family first considered a transplant. In retro-
song. He’s like, ‘Ana, you have to sing the song!’ He made me go on to YouTube, and I found, like, a 20-minute long                                                          spect, the book glorified the surgery, simplified it. All too far from the reality Brianna will experience.
one, and he made me run it on a loop for hours. And he would fall asleep and I would go to turn it off, and then he’d                                                            She is admitted in the afternoon; the liver won’t arrive until that night. The next morning, Brianna is awoken by the
wake up and be like ‘I want X Files.’ So I sat there listening to that same song for hours.”                                                                                 anesthesiologist and admitted to surgery at 8am; she will not be released until eight that night.
    For the rest of a weekend, Connor’s family and friends waited for what turned out to be good news: the cancer hadn’t                                                         “I had this feeling something was gonna go wrong,” Brianna recalls. Her premeditation turned out to be correct.
spread to his lymph nodes.                                                                                                                                                       Before the surgery begins, the doctors, trying to create a central line, fail going from the brachial artery in the upper
    Though melanoma can return, and Connor’s family will monitor his health, he feels like one of the lucky ones. He is.                                                     arm to the subclavian artery because the brachial is too small (a side effect of AGS) and miss the subclavian artery.
    While he can’t cure his lupus, Graden can use medications to fight the symptoms. “For the prescription drugs,”                                                           Brianna begins to bleed internally, her lungs filling with blood. Surgeons insert a test tube to drain it. The emergency
Graden explains, “I take Plaquenil at night, and Prednisone in the morning, and then Methyltrexate on Fridays, and I                                                         complicates an already difficult operation. The surgeons worry they will not be able to follow through with the process:
take Leucovorin every day. All of them are trying to suppress my immune system, which is really annoying, because I                                                          because the liver has come from a cadaver, the organ can’t last long outside the body.
get sick more often.”                                                                                                                                                            “This was no longer science,” one of the surgeons told Laura. “This was art.”
    Derived from the Peruvian Cinchona Tree, Planquenil was originally an anti-malarial medicine. During the 1960’s,                                                             The Stanford cardiologist is called in; he decides to put in a stent to stop the bleeding.
it was found to reduce joint pain for Rheumatoid Arthritis and, eventually, Lupus.                                                                                               “He went all the way up through her heart, into the pulmonary, to the subclavian artery, to put the stent in,” Laura
    “The Methyltrexate was hard in the beginning because I fainted a lot. The first time I fainted, I was at school and it                                                   explains. Miraculously, it works, and they proceed with the operation. In total, the transplant takes twelve hours--a full
was right at lunch, and as I ran to get into the lunch line, I fell, scraped my knee a little bit. I walked over to the lunch                                                day.
line, stood in it for a couple seconds, and then—tunnel vision. And then I fell on the floor. There’s blackness around                                                           The operation is a success, but AGS is ongoing, and to prevent her body from rejecting the liver, Brianna will con-
the edges, and then it kinda creeps in. I pretty much got right back up. Sometimes teenagers have this thing where your                                                      tinue to take immuno-suppressant medications. “Her arteries are small and tortuous in her lungs, kidneys, and extremi-
heart and your brain don’t communicate well enough for a while, so your heart lags a little bit behind. I get a hot flash                                                    ties,” notes Laura. “She sees a vascular surgeon every three months for her stent--and will eventually need another
and really sweaty, so then I’ll just sit down on the floor, because the main problem with fainting is that you’ll fall down                                                  procedure (subclavian bypass)--a cardiologist for her heart and lungs (as the pulmonary stenosis can lead to heart com-
and hit your head and get a concussion or something. Also, if you faint enough, it will happen more.”                                                                        plications) every 6-12 months; a nephrologist for her kidneys; the transplant team every month; the gastroenterologist
    Medications complicate the lives of anyone with a serious illness, but for children and teens, they are a source of                                                      once a month; physical therapy every week to recover muscle losses from liver disease and surgery, and her pediatri-
endless problems. Pills, shots, chemotherapy, and dialysis just make them feel even less normal. Some teens express                                                          cian who coordinates a lot and makes sure that the regular things get taken care of.”
their wish to rebel by simply refusing to take their medications.                                                                                                                Like Connor, Brianna returns home groggy, but, like Connor, she begins to feel closer to normal.
    “Before my transplant, I took a whole lot more [medicine],” sighs Brianna. “I took like seven different medicines                                                            “I feel new,” she says. “Having a liver transplant was just like being reborn. I learned how to walk again. I was learn-
before.”                                                                                                                                                                     ing how to breathe, through my nose. I’m not scared of getting nosebleeds [anymore].”
    Graden has gotten used to his regular treatments as well. “I’m pretty good at swallowing pills now! I used to not                                                            One side effect of her illness had been a lack of taste. For years, food had been more drudgery than pleasure for
be able to swallow pills at all. It’s not that hard once you get used to it. You can practice with, like, mini M&M’s or                                                      Brianna, some meals tasting like little more than wet cardboard. But as her taste buds came to life, so did Brianna’s
something. I always thought that was a waste though,” he says, grinning, “because you want to taste them.”                                                                   pleasure in eating.
    After his surgery, Connor took Vicodin to counter his pain. The two white, oblong pills (500 mg each) were “not                                                              “I discovered food was good for the first time in my life. I could never really taste food. Food was something that I
pleasant. They made me feel really funny. I didn’t like them. I mean, they really did help with the pain, but I didn’t                                                       had to eat and never really tasted good. My first meal was chicken noodle soup, French fries, and a milk shake. It was
like the way they make you feel: loopy, and really sleepy.” The lingering effects of his anesthesia were also unpleasant.                                                    the first time in my life I drank the entire chocolate milkshake. It was really really good, really creamy. The Stanford
He had a hard time remembering things and speaking clearly, and he still has blank spots in his memory of the week                                                           Creamery, it’s my favorite place now. I could actually feel the soup melting into my tongue. It was such a weird feeling;
after surgery.                                                                                                                                                               it was so cool. I can’t even explain how it tasted; it was like the greatest thing I’ve tasted in my entire life...The French
    Taking pills several times a day can put strain on scheduling and time management. Laura explains, “Your morning                                                         fries, there was a whole different dimension of taste to it. Like a flavor, it was like different levels, it was deeper, and it
routine is a bit different, I suppose, because it involves medications. I think it wasn’t as disruptive as, say, having to                                                   was like, ‘I want more of that.’ It was the best meal I’ve had in my entire life.”
do lung treatments and stuff like that. We didn’t have to do that kind of stuff. It was just making sure the medication                                                          And there were benefits greater than the satisfying crunch of French fries: “I have more energy,” says Brianna. “I
gets taken by the child, and it was morning and evening medication routines. We sort of developed a split—I would                                                            have a LOT more energy. Every day I [used to be] be really down, really mellow. But now I’m just like, ‘Woooo.’”
take care of morning medications, and [my husband] would do evening medications. And then the injections—I did the
injections. Brianna took over doing her own injections when she got older. But your time, any time you’ve got medical

stuff going on, your daily life is . . . different. Planned. You do lose some of that spontaneity.”
    In addition to pills, Graden has other treatments to deal with. “Every Friday, there’s the shot. It’s really actually co-
incidental and amazing that I have two study halls on Fridays, because I can go home afterwards. Pretty much around                               isneyland bills itself as the Happiest Place on Earth. Superlatives aside, it is a place kids and
noon, I’ll start feeling bad. It’s chemo therapy. It’s been two years. And it makes me not want to eat, which is not fun.
That’s probably the worst side effect of it. The headache forms later at night. Painkillers don’t really seem to help.”                           adults forget homework or the New York Times, the cost of a prom dress or the fluctuations
    Side effects from medications are common.
    “The one thing that I’m trying to avoid is something that happens with different people taking medications to stop
                                                                                                                                                  of Wall Street, school gossip or car bombs in Syria. The closest thing to terror is the Indiana
other medications from doing stuff,” says Graden. “Like, eventually you’ll take a medication for so long that you get
a side effect, so you have to take another medication to deal with the other medication’s side effects. There’s this one
                                                                                                                                         Jones ride, and fantasy is crystallized in Cinderella’s castle or The Pirates of the Caribbean.
person that I met that had to take thirty pills every day to stop all the side effects, and I’m like ‘I never, ever, want to               Disneyland is a place of dreams and magic, an alternate reality and a place where a family knows
get to that.’”
    Graden remembers the short period of time when he was on 40 mg of Prednisone, a drug used to treat low cortico-                      it’s safe.
steroid levels. “I just get really emotional. I’d either get really angry or really sad and start crying. It affects pretty
much everything. If you go online and look up the side effects, if you take it for long enough, it can pretty much kill                    For Brianna, Disneyland is much different.
you. It’s a steroid. But now I’m only taking 5 mg, so it’s not a problem, and you have to take it for quite a while before                                                      “So we’re going to go to Disneyland, for example,” Laura explains. “[Brianna] was pretty young the first time we
any of those bad side effects come.”                                                                                                                                         went to Disneyland...two, three? So you need to bring the [liquid] supplements. She’s on multiple vitamins, so you
    Physical complaints are not the only effects of constant medication and sickness; teens with chronic illness often                                                       need to measure how much you’re going to need for the trip, and you don’t want to carry the whole bottle because, first
battle depression.                                                                                                                                                           of all, you don’t want to lose any of it, and also, it’s hard to [replace]. In fact, we went through a whole thing when the
    Brianna recalls the period just before her liver transplant. “I was super depressed. I couldn’t walk anymore. I would                                                    manufacturer was going to discontinue that specific kind of [supplement].
go on trips and I couldn’t really walk. I felt like life was not worth living anymore. I was super tired; I was not really                                                      “Anyway, you also have a child that’s fairly heat-intolerant and needs special foods and special medications, so
there at all. It was hard on my family. I went to my doctor and I told him that life sucked, that I don’t want to do this                                                    you’ve got to pack and plan for that length of time. Later on, she can no longer get enough Vitamin K from supplements,
anymore. I was done; I needed a new liver. My doctor said, ‘Well things will get better,’ and I told him, ‘No, things                                                        and so then you’re also packing, like people with diabetes, the needles and the medication, and it has to be protected
will not get better.’                                                                                                                                                        from light, and it can’t get too warm. These are the things you have to think about when you go just on a trip. Even just
     “I was dying, basically. I felt it.”                                                                                                                                    to go for a small outing, you have to think about these things.”
    As difficult as treatment is, it does help. “It’s noticeably different when I take pills,” Graden says. “The pain is bet-                                                   This is what those who don’t face chronic illness take for granted: the future. The future is what you plan for, but
ter. It’s definitely good that I’m taking medication.”                                                                                                                       when the future is cloudy, and the contingencies pile up, the future becomes very complicated. So even a trip to the
    And sometimes, patients feel like their own health is an experiment. Graden explains, “I mean, it’s sort of all experi-                                                  Happiest Place on Earth is tinged with worry.
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    A sickness can flare up at any time. It can get better; it can get worse. Bodies are unpredictable, and when they un-
dergo stress, problems accrue. Living, in its most basic moments, is never as carefree as Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride when
you’re dealing with a disease.
    The planning that goes into a Disneyland trip is only a tiny microcosm of a lifetime of
worrying about the future for sick teenagers and children. Those who live with an unpre-
dictable illness can’t feel certainty about the symptoms of their illness in the next year,
month, or day. Our concepts of the future are based on what we can predict, so when
events are unpredictable, the future loses color and definition, replaced by an amorphous
    “Illness uncertainty is present for both acute and chronic illnesses,” explain Lisa
Johnson Wright, Niloofar Afari, and Alex Zautra in Illness Uncertainty Concept: A Re-
view. It is a “cognitive stressor” and removes a “sense of loss of control,” bringing a
“perceptual state of doubt that changes over time.” The stress of lacking control over
what happens next, can increase hopelessness and exhaustion for those with diseases
and their families. Uncertainty, according to the authors, is “inherent in the human
experience but is even more salient when one is presented with a life-threatening or
chronic illness.” Dr. JoAnn LeMaistre writes in After the Diagnosis that “the patient
and the family must cope with the fear of an unknown and unknowable future.”
    But youngsters like to look forward. Adolescence is a time of transition, and most
teenagers, even those with a serious illness, want to plan for adulthood.
    “I decided that [I wanted to be a nurse] when I was in Stanford, actually,” Bri-
anna explains. “When it first hit me, I was right out of surgery, and I watched all the
nurses go with their coats, and I was like, ‘I want one.’” Watching a nurse respond
to a crying baby, she thought “I want to be with that baby, and I think I can do better
than that nurse can.”
    Brianna dreams of attending UCLA, and her “huge dream through all of this
was to go to Hollywood and be in a movie.” After graduating in June, she will
attend Cabrillo Community College to “try to get my life back together after this
huge uprooting.”
    Connor, graduating with Brianna in June, wants to be a Spanish teacher be-
cause he loves the language. He also has interests in editing, nutrition, and food:
“I just really enjoy food, so maybe [I’ll be] a chef.” He plans to study at Wash-
ington State University.
    Graden will graduate in 2014, but “I really have no idea [about college],” he
    For teens like them, hope lives next door to worry. While Brianna’s liver transplant ended some
of her symptoms, she still has problems with her immune system and deals with issues brought on by the transplant.
    “Basically, I changed all my problems before the transplant for new ones. The stent has a possibility of closing
off. My immune system is down, and it will always be down for my entire life,” she explains. But the
liver transplant has changed her life. “I feel new,” she says.
    Connor’s fight with cancer has given him some new perspectives. Not only is he
more careful (“It’s changed my life in the fact that I wear sunscreen now!”
he laughs), but it has also given him an appreciation for the bal-
ance between health and illness--a new appreciation for
living. “I know this sounds cheesy, but life is super short
and delicate, and you really do need to live each day as
if it’s your last.”
    Graden’s illness also affects the way he sees the world.
Sometimes he hurries and tries to fit more things into his
life. “I try to get things done faster, to get to the next thing
to make up for stuff,” he says. “But it doesn’t really work.
I mean, you do things faster, and it kinda takes something
away from it. You’re always trying to get to the next thing. I
think it takes away from whatever you’re doing. I’m sure most
people feel it sometimes, like trying to cram everything you
can because you wanna do more stuff, but then having it ending
up being less quality because of it.”
    Graden will most likely spend the rest of his life dealing with
the symptoms and complications of lupus, and for this reason, his
life will never be truly “normal.” Like his Fridays, Graden’s life
will be split between two worlds: the usual and the unusual, the
comforting and the strenuous.
    It is in the other part of their lives, then, in the so-called “normal”
aspects, that Graden and the others will grow. Brianna hopes to be-
come a nurse; Connor is off to college to study Spanish.
    Graden likes to swim. “Swimming is the perfect sport,” he says,
“because with basketball and other sports, you have a lot of joint impact,
and that hurts. When you’re suspended in water, you have less.” He’s
good at it, too, once winning 21 medals over the course of four years.
    Connor doesn’t apply makeup on his face to cover his scar because the
hair will grow over it--and because more than one friend calls it striking.
    Brianna has begun to learn to drive since her transplant, which signifi-
cantly increased her ability to focus: “I’m gonna try to learn how to drive
now that I don’t have this fog.” She will take her driving test sometime this
summer. And she continues to investigate the world of food.
    “When she was diagnosed,” explained Laura, recalling the terror of those
first weeks, “Alagille had a paper on trying to predict prognosis. It predicted she
would not make it past two years.”
    Brianna celebrated her eighteenth birthday last January.
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       Its a Long Way to the Top
                                     If You Wanna Rock n’ Roll
                                                                with a part of me that I had never connected to before.         ter with some of his early success. “I had never used [it]
           By Devin Reilly                                      I think partway through the trip to Israel, probably the        before, and I decided to log on and see what happened,

                                                                day the Western Wall, I realized in a bigger way how            and suddenly I could see all these huge music industry
            elaku Assegued sits alone in a library at Co-       insignificant we all are, and connected we all are, and         people, what they were talking about, who they were
            lumbia University. He’s studying for finals.        that each of us has one life to live and should do what         talking to.”
            His cell phone rings. He picks up the phone.        we love.                                                            He then began his search for a songwriting manager.
It’s an artists and repertoire executive from EMI Music.           “I already had an internship lined up doing PR in San            “I found a few, and emailed some of them, saying
She says she wants to work with him on songwriting              Francisco for the ten weeks after birthright.”                  who I was and attaching those four songs, and within
projects at EMI Music.                                                                                                                                                        a couple days
    Four years ago, Kirby alum Assegued was                                                                                                                                   of sending out
about to graduate high school and go to col-                                                                                                                                  emails, I got
lege. “I got into my dream school, which was                                                                                                                                  a call from
Columbia,” says Assegued. “I wasn’t sure at                                                                                                                                   a     manager
all about my plans for the future. I knew I                                                                                                                                   whose client
loved music, but I didn’t believe that making                                                                                                                                 has     credits
it in the industry was possible. So I decided                                                                                                                                 with Tyrese
to go to a non-music school to explore other                                                                                                                                  and      Jacob
career options.”                                                                                                                                                              Lattimore.
    Assegued had spent high school playing in                                                                                                                                 The manager
“multiple bands and rap groups” and writing,                                                                                                                                  said he loved
recording, and mixing songs in a studio he had                                                                                                                                my work and
built in his parents’ basement. “I actually pro-                                                                                                                              was interested
posed the audio engineering class and subse-                                                                                                                                  in managing
quent recording studio with a friend of mine,”                                                                                                                                me. I freaked
says Assegued.                                                                                                                                                                out,    started
    After graduation, Assegued moved to New                                                                                                                                   calling every-
York City and started classes at Columbia.                                                                                                                                    one I knew,
“I decided to study sociology after taking an                                                                                                                                 thinking I had
intro     class                                                                                                                                                               made it. It
my first se-                                                                                                                                                                  was an amaz-
mester that                                                                                                                                                                   ing day. I re-
I absolutely                                                                                                                                                                  ally felt like
loved,” he                                                                                                                                                                    it was all pos-
says. “And                                                                                                                                                                    sible for the
my sopho-                                                                                                                                                                     first time in
more year,                                                                                                                                                                    that moment.”
the School                                                                                                                                                                        Unfortu-
implement-                                                                                                                                                                    nately,     the
ed a busi-                                                                                           Assegued knew he           manager’s offer had problems, and Assegued decided
ness minor                                                                                        didn’t want a desk job        not to sign with him. "However, he told me he was net-
in conjunc-                                                                                       but he took the intern-       working with a young upcoming producer in the UK
tion     with                                                                                     ship.                         [David Connor] and sent me some of his tracks. The
the business                                                                                         “During that intern-       tracks were very well developed, and I had an easy time
school, so I                                                                                      ship, I worked on one         working with them."
tacked that                                                                                       song for a ridiculous             “Soon after I saw an opportunity to write a dance
on as well.”                                                                                      amount of time, maybe         pop song for an advertisement from an A&R I follow
        How-                                                                                      a month, tweaking and         on Twitter, and thought I could write a great record to
ever, music                                                                                       tweaking it and believing     one of Connor’s beats. So I emailed him and asked if I
did not fade                                                                                      that it was going to be the   could use it. It was about 5pm at that time, and the song
from Asseg-                                                                                       best song I ever wrote. I     was due at 9am the next morning. I wrote the song in
ued’s mind.                                                                                       finally finished it, had it   maybe an hour, then convinced a girl friend of mine to
    “ T h e                                                                                       mastered, and put it out      sing on the song, since it needed to be a female pop song.
goal at the                                                                                       to Facebook. Most of          I mixed and mastered the song late into the night. I prob-
time was to                                                                                       my college friends were       ably finished it around 3:00am.
be an art-                                                                                        surprised to see that I           “We didn’t get the advertising placement, but David
ist. What I                                                                                       did music because I had       [Connor] absolutely loved the song, and he decided he
would do at                                                                                       been slacking so much in      wanted to work with me on his other projects. That was
the time is                                                                                       the past two years.”          another kickoff point. In the last three months we have
buy instru-                                                                                                  The song went      had potential placements from a wide variety of artists,
mentals off the internet and write melodies and lyrics to       over well, but “nothing really came of it, industry-wise,”      including Flo Rida, Chris Brown, and The Wanted.
them, and then record them with my studio set-up in my          says Assegued. “However, it did change my perspective.              “A couple weeks ago David flew into New York to
dorm room.                                                      I realized my own talent. Every night after work I would        discuss signing with new labels and to network in person
    “I wanted a record deal, but had no idea how the in-        stay up for hours learning how to tweak my vocals and           with his contacts in America. He visited EMI, Sony, and
dustry works, and I was basically half-assing my pas-           mix the record, and write better lyrics.”                       some upcoming smaller sub-labels. We had plans to visit
sion, which is no way to do it. I remember calling home                      Inspired, Assegued wrote relentlessly.             each other, but he ended up being too busy. When he got
and being really disappointed in myself, saying that my                “Over the next few months I wrote four more songs        back to the UK, though, he texted me, saying, ‘We’ve
life didn’t feel complete and that I wasn’t doing music         that I was happy with. The last was a duet I wrote for me       got a potential with Chris Brown, and I told an A&R at
enough. I was super sporadic and unfocused, only put-           and a friend of mine. That last song, I thought, was pretty     EMI about you.”
ting out like one song every couple of months.”                 dope, and I decided to put four of the songs on iTunes              The A&R called Assegued within five minutes, said
     Assegued persisted, and halfway through his sopho-         and Spotify and see what happened. I had heard from             she was very impressed, and offered him a position
more year, something changed. “I landed an internship           a family friend who interned at Universal that a lot of         working on songwriting projects at EMI and elsewhere,
at Jive Records, Sony Music in the A&R department and           A&R executives search for talent through Tunecore, so I         including Disney.
worked for the A&R to Britney Spears, Hot Chelle Rae,           used them as my distribution service.”                              “This summer I will be working primarily with David
and other artists.                                                  “The whole thing cost $20 , and I made $34…so re-           and the A&R over at EMI on various songwriting proj-
     “I got somewhat of an insider look at what goes on         ally $14.” He laughs.                                           ects,” says Assegued.
at labels, and learned how hard it is to get signed these           “I started to question the feasibility of becoming an           “I’m not going to really be satisfied until I reach the
days. I still had that drive to be an artist, but I wasn’t      artist after that, and also began to question why I wanted      pinnacle of this passion, so until then it’s work, work,
putting the work in. My internship ended when sopho-            to be an artist so bad. I had heard stories about artists       work. Even if I fail miserably, I’ll be smiling all the way
more year did, in early May. In mid-May I turned 20 and         starting as songwriters: Jessie J, Bruno Mars, Katy Perry,      down, because I’m doing what I love. I may be a hope-
the day after I went on Birthright." Birthright Israel is a     Ne-Yo, The Dream, etc. So I decided the week before the         less optimist, but I truly believe if you believe in yourself
not-for-profit educational organization that sponsors free      finals of my junior year that I would put in some effort        when you’re young, the world opens up for you. I guess
10-day heritage to Israel for Jewish young adults.              networking as a songwriter.”                                    that’s the advice I would want to give anybody looking
    “I consider that day the turning point. [I felt] a lot of       Assegued credits social media networking site Twit-         at the stepping stones ahead.”
emotions at once; leaving my teen years, and connecting
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                                                                    red, match her pants. Throughout the interview, she taps        self. “My horse kinda went rodeo on me one day and I hit
 by Avalon Ashley                                                   her fingernails on the table.                                   the ground on my hip. It doesn’t hurt like normally, just,
                                                                        Kennedy is more comfortable. She describes her first        if something hits me, it feels like someone lights my hip

          our horse is like your teammate; like,                    experience with a horse. "The first time that I actually re-    like...on fire. Yeah, and there’s not a whole lot you can do
          the only real teammate you have                           member riding a horse I think I was... I was two and my         to correct it.” She shrugs. “It’s just something you come
          in a competition. I know it might                         parents-we were at this fair thing and my parents just kind     to accept. Stuff happens, and you just kinda get over it.”
sound a little crazy, but if anyone’s re-                           of decided to put me on the pony. Hah." Her voice wob-               Nerve damage in the hip is preferable to other results.
ally looking out for you, it’s your horse                           bles as she laughs.                                             Death, apparently, is not unheard of at horse shows.
'cause it’s the only person-”                                                                                                                     Kennedy: “I saw a girl killed in a competi-
     Kennedy Alexander squints, then                                                                                                               tion.”
rolls her eyes, probably because she                                                                                                                       Intica: “I saw someone die on a

just called her horse a person. Her                                                                                                                           cross country course once.”
hands motion in the air, swatting away                                                                                                                                      Their voices are
the slip-up.                                                                                                                                                             blunt and matter-of-
     “I mean, not person, but the thing                                                                                                                                      fact.
you have to work with. I can be                                                                                                                                                      These girls
competing against Intica,”-sitting                                                                                                                                                 are       accus-
next to her, Intica Jaquith bobs                                                                                                                                                     tomed       to

her head at the sound of her name                                                                                                                                                      risk, but
while Kennedy’s voice gets high-                                                                                                                                                         they pro-
er as she starts to laugh-“and I                                                                                                                                                          cess and
don’t hate Intica but secretly, in                                                                                                                                                         move

the back of your mind, at horse                                                                                                                                                            o n .

shows you’re hoping she falls                                                                                                                                                              They
off.” They laugh. “It could be                                                                                                                                                             turn it
your best friend, and I mean it’s                                                                                                                                                           i n t o
                                                                                                                                                                                            a d -

so crazy 'cause you’re just like,
‘Okay, please, just fall off, fall off!                                                                                                                                                     vice,

                                                                                 Gallop t
So you’re disqualified, please!’”                                                                                                                                                           an ex-

                                                                                         o Glory
     This is the kind of competition
found in the surprisingly dangerous                                                                                                                                                       ence to
sport of horseback riding, where riders                                                                                                                                                 remem-
compete in an array of styles. Practice ev-                                                                                                                                           ber. Future
ery day of the week, training two weeks be-                                                                                                                                         reference.
fore shows, and taking trips to competitions                                                                                                                                           “The horse
across the US is mandatory for serious com-                                                                                                                                   freaked out in the
petitors. While horseback riding can be just a                                                                                                                             arena and reared up
hobby, something fun to do for PE credit, to                                                                                                                           and fell over backwards
these girls, it is their lives. Kennedy chuckles                                                                                                                   on the girl and just crushed
and Intica looks at her in agreement. “Your horse                   " Ye a h ,                                                                               her head, like in the helmet. The
is the only thing that’s not hoping you fall off.”                  y’know the little                                                         helmet just snapped like -,” Kennedy makes a
     Kennedy Alexander, a junior, sits perched on the               pony ride things? Yeah, they                                    noise in the back of her throat and slaps her hand against
edge of her stool, hunched a little over the table because          just like put me on there and were like, ‘Picture time!’        the white table.
she's so tall. Her elbows rest on the edge and make tri-            And then, I don’t know, it just kinda stuck."                        Is either afraid of dying on course? “I mean, there’s
angles where they meet her arms, fingers posed under                    When riding styles come up, the two start jabbering         plenty of things that you can do where you might die, but
her small chin. It's a sunny, warm-looking day, yet still           in horse lingo: Western, English, Dressage, and more            it’s just not something that you’re thinking about. Like,
cold. Normal, as far as Santa Cruz weather goes. Ken-               terms which are "hard to explain." They talk fast, back         if your horse is freaking out, you’re not thinking, ‘Oh my
nedy wears a yellow zip-up and sweat pants. Her long                and forth and somewhere in the conversation get to talk-        god, I might die, I might die!’” Kennedy's mouth stays
corn silk hair is arranged in a ponytail, ironically, which         ing about cowboys. "Western isn't as pretty," Intica says,      slightly open as she laughs, hands fanned out in front of
sags at the back of her head, strands falling out around            shaking her head as she thinks and then backtracks, "I          her, palms up. Intica giggles, “Yeah, you’re more think-
the front of her face.                                              mean, it can be."                                               ing about how to calm it down.”
     Currently she is ninth in the nation in Show Jumping,              "Yeah, they look like cowboys, though. Yeah, yeah,               “Yeah, you’re just thinking about how to calm him
the category she competes in. "You're given a course of             and then English is like... tights, and tall black boots and    down and still look good;” (laughing) “if you’re gonna
jumps to jump over and you have to jump it as fast as               helmets. Rodeo falls under the category of Western."            go, you wanna go out in style!”
you possibly can and can’t knock over any of the rails."            Kennedy pauses and bites her lip, debating. "I’ve rid-               Injury is inevitable and as the sport advances and
Kennedy explains. "There’s a whole, huge, laundry list              den a bull. Yeah, just to do it, not like at a rodeo." Intica   changes, new risks arise. On average, 200 people are
of stuff you have to do to prepare [for competitions].              bursts out laughing and leans back in her chair, shaking        hurt riding each year and a third of the accidents are fa-
Usually, like two weeks out, I’ll start getting ready. Right        as she giggles. Kennedy's laughing too but finishes her         tal. Injuries to the nervous system are the most danger-
now we're working on tighter turns and getting over a               thought. "Yeah, I was five. My mom has a video of it; it’s      ous because one could easily end up paralyzed. And ac-
course as fast as you can, as clean as you can." The pres-          pretty funny. In, like, my blue sequin western outfit....It     cording to The New York Times, on average 24 horses
sure to keep her title and for the upcoming competitions            was pretty epic."                                               die each week at competitions across America.
is mounting. Her next show is on the last day of school                 Styles of riding date back to as early as the 1770's             But at a competition, your best friend is your horse.
when she leaves to go to Sacramento for five days. There            when Western style riding originated. It has changed            As Intica says, "[The horse] can feel when you’re scared,"
really is no break. "At first the pressure was just kind of         dramatically, from cowboys herding cattle to a complex          so it is vital for horse and rider to trust each other.
ridiculous. But then again, that’s why I start two weeks            style of riding performed all over the world. The type               They glance at each other as Kennedy starts talk-
out. So then I just have to do a little bit every day; if you       of horse and saddle used during riding are determining          ing, then face forward. "On a regular day-to-day basis,
wait till the day before then it’s like, euh, this whole, big,      factors as to which style is which. One of the main dif-        you can't really                afford to be scared 'cause
huge ordeal."                                                       ferences between styles is how the horse moves; Western         you're not there                  for yourself, you're there
     "It can be really stress-                 ful." Intica, sit-   horses tend to be slower and more relaxed in their stride       for the horse.                     When you freak out,
ting next to her, is a few years                 younger and        while English horses have a longer, faster stride.              they        freak                    out. You have to force
still a freshman. Her brown                       hair                  But for all the different styles, the sports have one       yourself not to                              be scared and
has sheets of faded red in it                     and                       thing in common: competition.                           just     kinda...                                     get over
retro-cut bangs hide part                                                                 "Every show you compete against           it."
of her face. Un-                                                            your friends. Because, I mean in horseback riding,
derneath, her eyes                                                        it’s not like most sports in the way you compete on
are edged                                                                  a team most of the time. I mean, like sometimes
around                                                                     you do, but most of the time it’s just you
with                                                                         and your horse. That’s your
                                                                              team. And then you’re kinda
                                                                               trying to knock your friends
                                                                                 out of placings." Intica guf-
                                                                                  faws while Kennedy snig-
                                                                                   gers and continues. "I
                                                                                    don’t know, I mean it’s
                            Jaquith (above) and
                                                        black,                       pretty fun especially
                              Alexander (right)                                      when you can joke
                           show off their jumping      t  h e
                            skills at comeptition.    s a m e                       about it with your
                                                     color as                      friends, but there’s def-
                                                     her leath-     initely a lot of... horseback riding                  rival-
                                                     er jacket      ries? I guess? Like, there’s definite-               ly a lot
                                                     and nails.     of girls I go to a show, and I’m like,              ‘No, I’m
                                                     Her lips,      gonna kick her-’," she glances at the            computer
                                                         bright     recording her voice. "‘I’m gonna beat her up. We’re
                                                                    gonna do it.’ Or like, you don’t like a girl because she’s
                                                                    beaten you in the past or she badmouths you at shows
                                                                    and stuff. Yeah, it get’s pretty competitive; it’s kinda
                                                                    crazy."                                                             The com-           bination
                                                                        Intica smiles, "Especially if they're better than you."     of the two of them- Kennedy's
                                                                    She then offers up an observation. “I’ve never gotten that      wry humor and the way she self-edits,
                                                                    hurt.”                                                          Intica's quiet demeanor which turns into
                                                                        “I sprained my wrist,” Kennedy breaks in. “I have           raucous laughter- is mystifying. They are
                                                                    nerve damage in my hip from riding, and then I have...          dissimilar: personality, friends, style, even
                                                                    yeah, quite a few scars.” It's not that she seems proud of      looks. Yet they are close friends, horses be-
                                                                    her injuries, more like she’s not above laughing at her-        ing their common interest.
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                                                D.I.Y. Dance
                              From Gaga to Bollywood, the Dance
                              Company choreographs a final show

By Isabel Martin                     man choreographed her own             what to do, I              just   dance studio working as hard             “[Pappastergiou] and I did
          piano         melody       dance to “And the Boys” by            make it up on              the    as I could with friends.”             it only because we knew we›d
          projects loudly over       Angus and Julia Stone, per-           spot!”                                           A tough tech           have lots of fun, and that›s
          the speakers as the        formed with Arwen Steinack-                   “I              l o v e                  week        comes      the point of the piece,” ex-
          lights flare on, and       er and Ruby Silvera. “When            learn-                   i n g                   with every per-        plained Cockerham, laughing.
the silhouettes of Kirby’s           I choreographed my piece and          t h e               dances this                   formance.             “We messed up pretty badly
Dance Company appear on              asked my dancers to come into                        year, especially                    “Tech      week      one night, but we just kept
a blue tinted background.                   the studio on a Sunday                      the ones that were   w a s             an adventure,       on swinging around until we
Dancers begin moving to                    to finish it, I honestly ex-                c h o - reographed    as al-             ways,” says        figured out what to do.” Intro
the sound of Adele’s voice.               pected a lot of grumbling,”                 b y        my          Petro-             celli,    who      student Erin Soule-Albridge
Dressed in burgundy                    Weatherford admitted, but                                              h a s               done many        agreed, noting that perform-
leotards     and      black          was proven wrong. “All my                                                                   theater and       ing can be “scary but fun in
leggings, or a grey shirt            dancers were completely en-                                                                 dance tech        the end.”
for the guys, the Kirby              thusiastic on wanting to finish                                                           weeks.      “It        Before the final perfor-
Dance Company begins                 and perfect all our dances.”                                                             was so fun to        mance, a short film lit up
their show Infinity at                   “‘Judas’ was quite the ad-                                                         be able to see my      a screen onstage: dancers
the Olivet Community                 venture for me,” comments                                                            vision of ‘Judas’        stretching out their limbs and
Theater.                             Craig Petrocelli, a graduating                                                     come to life with          preparing themselves as the
   Beth Riley, Dance                 senior. “I had never choreo-                                                      the sound and lights.       sound of heart beats in the
Company         director,            graphed a dance before be-                                                         The first day of tech      background. Dancers tie their
appears on stage af-                             cause I was too ner-                                                   was actually the first     shoes, pull down their tights,
ter the first dance. She                            vous, but I really                                          time I had ever watched the        rotate their wrists. “What I
talks about the hours                                 wanted to do it,                                          dance without partaking.”          like about dance is…hmm…
her students rehearsed                                so I did. I don›t                                            Patel also enjoys the mo-       there’s nothing quite like
in the studio, the stress                             think people re-                                        ment the practice and staging        it,” says a voice. The short
of the past week, and                                alized this in the    friends,”                          come together: “Teching isn’t        film Why I Dance, demon-
the enthusiasm of                                  audience, but the       s a y s                             fun. You’re dancing for like        strates the reasons people
the    dancers--even                              inspiration behind       Makai                              twenty minutes while the             choose to dance: Healing.
though kids they                               ‘Judas’ was resisting       Hernan-                           light and sound people can            Connection. Happiness. Ex-
are up and dancing                              temptations and what       dez, a                            figure out what they are go-          pression. Relaxation. The film
by 7:15 in the                                  looks so fun and dar-      fresh-                            ing to do, but in the end it›s        shows toddlers, college kids,
morning.                                         ing but you know you      man.                              definitely worth it. Lights se-       kids with down syndrome, and
      “I really                                 shouldn›t do. At first,    “I                                riously make a HUGE impact            old men all doing one thing:
pushed myself in                              I felt like some of my                                         on how your piece is viewed:          dancing. One break-dancer
dance this year                              ideas in my head were                                           at the beginning of my piece          declares, “Right now, dance is
because it was                              too difficult for me                                               there was some sort of a sil-       one of the biggest and cheap-
what I felt was                           to actually exe-                                                      houette, and it really added       est therapy that everyone can
the weakest of                            cute, which they                                was                     another dynamic.”                h a v e in terms of stress re-
the three areas of                         were, so things                          amazed at                          “I ate a lot of salads                lief.”
mu-           si-                            adapted along                         how the danc-                     that week,”                                     Following the
                                              the         pro-                       es where is so                                                             final performance,
                                               cess.” Dancers                           advanced and                                                                after all the
cal                                               wore gold bands                               being                                                                 dancers     had
the-                                              and guest Nahshon                              taught                                            taken              their    bows,
atre,                                              Marden, a dancer        b     y                                                      o b -      R i l e y          handed      out
and       I                                             at Cabrillo Col-   teenagers                                        serves Petrocel-       roses to each of the seniors,
wanted to                                               lege and friend    who were 15-                      li. “Actually, it is just about all   recalling memories with each
be stronger                                              of many Kirby     17 years old.”                    I ate for dinner! Emma, Sarah,        one. “This year was amazing
for my college                                           seniors, and         Following intermis-            and I called ourselves the Sal-       [to work with the seniors]
auditions I had.”                                    Petrocelli      en-   sion, Petrocelli and senior       ad Car!”                              because they took so much
   Freshman Gil-                                   gaged in a mini         Connor Cockerham danced to            Patel laughs as she recalls       initiative,” says Riley. “We
lian     Weatherford                           dance-off.                  ‘Paradise’ by Coldplay.           practicing. “The progres-             had a really good group who
put in hours of hard work                          Patel performed a           “‘Paradise’ started out as    sion of the seniors trying to         just motivated each other and
as well. “The Kirby Dance                          Bollywood solo:         a solo,” says Petrocelli. “I      choreograph together for the          it moved forward in a very
Company had been working                              dressed in red,      was practicing one day with       senior piece was quite hilari-        positive way. I’m sad to see
on our final dance showcase                           orange, and hints    Connor in the room, and I         ous. At some point, at once,          them leave. Arishna and Craig
for about a semester now,            o f              green and blue,      j u s t asked if he wanted        we tried to do the wave with          were in my first show, and Ar-
and after lengthy rehearsals,        she filled the stage with color.                     to do the dance    our bodies, and it was a HOT          wen and Maraya came along
block study halls spent in the       An Indian tabla and finger                            with me. The      MESS!” Sighing, she leans             as sophomores. Connor joined
dance studio, and innumerable        chimes filled the air as the se-                       chemistry        back in her chair. “Hell week         this year and was an amaz-
trips to Starbucks and Whole         nior twirled on stage, silently                        when      you    was definitely rough, but when        ingly charismatic addition to
Foods, we are finally done!”         singing along. Barefoot, she                           dance with       is it not? We had some really         the group.”
   Arishna Patel, a se-              moved her hips and wrists and                            someone,       crazy problems, like when the            Even after giving flow-
nior, agrees: “I feel like I lived   clanged large silver brace-                                     e s -   sound system started smoking          ers, Riley was still onstage,
in the dance studio for weeks.       lets together.                                                          and the booth was filled with         hugging her departing stu-
If I couldn’t find Craig around          “I’ve been cho-                                                     smoke,” she continues while           dents and wiping away tears.
the school, I knew he›d be in        reograph-                                                                      laughing. “Yeah, the           “They›re very committed,
the dance studio...it was like       ing                                                                                tech people had to         and I really hope that will go
our home base!” She laughs.                                                                                                 evacuate!”             on,” she says with a grin. To
“Every Study                                         for   the                                 pecially                               The eve-     encourage her students to not
Hall or free                                    annual   dance                                 someone                                             block their passions when per-
                                       shows since my                                                        ning also                             form-          ing she presents
                    lunch,    we     freshman                                                                 featured the In-                                    what American
were                                                                                                                 tro To Dance class,                          dancer      Martha
choreo-                                                                                                                                                      Graham said to her
graphing,                                                                                                                                                 fellow dancer Agnes
rehears-                                                                                                                                                 De Mille: “Each one of
ing, or learning each other›s                                                     you                                                                   you has a gift to offer to
dances. We definitely took           year,” noted Patel, “which            love, is amazing. We              perform-         ing a non-           the world and if you block it
it more seriously than in the        was actually when the Kirby           worked together on the dance,     traditional salsa. The class          the world will never have it.
past.”                               Dance Company had its first           and it was so fun because it      sassily shook their hips to           If you let it be free and you
   In this year’s performance,       show. So this year I choreo-          just felt like we were such a     ‘Hey Mambo’ by Rosemary               express yourself and your pas-
the students took an active roll     graphed my own solo, which            powerful force, no matter how     Clooney, generating enthu-            sion for life, dance, and living,
in the dance routines. “Ten out      isn’t a big deal because I’ve         cheesy that may sound!” He        siastic laughs from the audi-         it can touch someone else and
of the overall fourteen pieces       been doing solo things my en-         chuckles before continuing:       ence. Senior Connor Cock-             then it’ll live for infinity.”
were choreographed, either           tire life,” referring to her ac-      “Between that and ‘Judas,’        erham, who helped with the
in part or full, by students,”       tive role in rollerskating, and       basically my second semester      dance, performed with best
says Weatherford. The fresh-         added, “And if I don’t know           afternoons were spent in the      friend Analise Pappastergiou.
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  Promenade at the Chaminade
             Roses, promposals, and marshmallows dipped in
                 chocolate highlight a Venetian evening
                                                             the hills.”                                                 much we color-coordinated,” said Brock. “Ava’s dress
    by Adriana Brock                                             “I thought the venue was exquisite,” said sopho-        was red, fire engine red, so my nails were fire engine

                                                             more Annabelle Valenzuela. “You could definitely get        red, and my shoes bright red. I wore a black and
        he lights are low, the music loud. Shoes lie         a feel for the Venetian lifestyle,”                         white dress, and her nails were black, and her shoes
        abandoned in a pile, a mix of white strappy             “It was romantic, all nicely lit,” noted junior Sonya    were black, and her corsage was white.”
        heels, red pumps, and green flats. Nearby, half-     Nemes.                                                         “We attempted to color-coordinate,” admited
finished glasses of iced tea and lemonade rest on ta-           While the DJ wasn’t universally adored, people           Nemes. “I got my dress quite a bit before, so we went
bletops. Jackets are strewn on chairs, corsages placed       nonetheless enjoyed the dancing. Said Intica Stamy, a       to the store together. But we didn’t bring a sample
carefully atop them. The owners of these shoes, jack-        freshman, “My favorite moments at Prom were danc-           of the cloth, so his shirt and tie ended up a different
ets, and corsages are outside, clustered around small        ing with my best friends.”                                  color than my dress.”
fires, chatting animatedly, or inside, dipping fruit and        “I hung out on the dance floor, of course!” ex-             For Gregozek, the problem with color coordinat-
marshmallows into the chocolate fountain.                    claimed Valenzuela.                                         ing was a bit different. “It’s kind of difficult because
    The song ends, and another begins. “Throw a wish            Others enjoyed additional aspects of the venue. “It      you want to keep some sort of mystery around what
in the well,” a singer breathes, “I’ll never tell.”          was really nice outside because it was night time and       you’re going to wear, so it’s a cute surprise, you
    An immediate shift occurs. Chocolate lovers drop         it was overlooking the city,” said Nemes. “I took one       know?” she said. “But you also want to make sure
their marshmallows; chatterers leave their circles of        of the marshmallows from the chocolate fountain and         you’re not clashing.”
fiery warmth. Couples link hands as girls pull their         roasted it outside on one of the little fires.”                Pictures were also a highlight of the bash. Said
dates toward the dance floor, just in time for the first        “The outside area was really, really beautiful—we        Brock, “We took pictures a lot of places—we took
chorus of “Call Me Maybe.”                                   lay on the grass and stargazed because it was just so       some at our house, and then we went down to the
                                                             nice,” said sophomore Lizzy Davis.                          lighthouse and took pictures with a big group. It was
                  ***********                                   “I liked the people who were walking around with         like half of our grade—almost twenty people.”
                                                             masks on,” Brock said. “I thought that was a nice              “It was a very heartwarming moment when the
    A few weeks earlier, in mid-afternoon, four letters      touch.”                                                     sophomore grade compiled on the grass,” gushed Va-
span twenty feet of the parking lot, each in a differ-          Half the fun of prom was getting ready and tak-          lenzuela. “It was very sweet.”
ent design and color. The entire production, which           ing pictures. Gaggles of girls gathered in different           “It was really windy, though,” said Brock, “so I had
took two boxes of chalk, involved half the sophomore         houses, applying and reapplying makeup and gazing           to have my mom hold down my dress while I put on
class. Inside the “o” stands sophomore Ava Poen,             every few seconds into the mirror. “I got dressed with      my corsage.”
beaming. On the concrete is a word followed by a             a bunch of other girls, and their sister’s friend, Tessie      There was no lack of photography. “All our par-
question mark, a word spoken frequently this time of         Murphy [Kirby Class of 2010] was there to help us get       ents were there, so we got a lot of pictures, from like
year. “Prom?” it reads.                                      ready,” said Davis.                                         twenty different cameras,” explained Davis.
    Sophomore Eleanor Brock was delighted. “I loved             “I had Tessie do my makeup and hair, which was              Many groups met at West Cliff. “The lighthouse is
how creative she was,” she said. “It was so cute. Of         good, because I have no idea how to do that girly           one of the most popular places for prom pictures,”
course I told her yes!”                                      stuff,” said Gregozek.                                      said tenth-grader Dana Hemmert.
    So-called “promposals” of this sort were numer-             Nemes “got dressed at Ethan’s house with a whole            Others chose different spots. “We took a couple
ous, prompting the largest turnout for a Kirby prom.         bunch of [her] friends,” including Kopit, Miranda           of pictures by ourselves at our friend’s house,” said
A fairly new tradition, asking a date in a creative way      Baker, and Kennedy Alexander.                               Koltchev. “Then we took some pictures at the actual
was popular. Said junior Ry Faraola, “I really wanted           Picking outfits was, depending on who you ask,           place in front of the backdrop they had set up.” The
to give Zoe [Gregozek] something special—we had              either one of the best or one of the worst parts of         backdrop featured a canal in Venice with a gondola
had kind of a build-up, and she knew I was going to          Prom. Gregozek, a girl of the first opinion, exclaimed,     students could sit in. Saalisi and friends employed a
ask her, so I wanted it to be really, really cool and spe-   “I picked my dress because it reminded me of a ‘50s         different strategy. “We used two disposable cameras
cial. So I made an accordion book, with each letter          movie star, and like a Hollywood classic theme. And         throughout the night,” he said. “Those are the better
a different font, and then for the ‘o,’ I found a dried      it was just so… elegant.”                                   photos.”
and pressed orchid that I had made months before-               “I chose my dress because it wasn’t too long and it
hand with her in mind, and I glued it onto the page,         wasn’t too short,” said freshman Alice Koltchev.                             *************
so when she pulled it out it would say, ‘Prom?’”                Nemes explained, “I picked out my outfit online
    Held at the Chaminade on May 25, Kirby’s Prom            at www.promgirl.com. It was a really pretty color. I           It’s the last song. Couples sway, friends or dates,
was “much better than usual. It was really well put          wanted a long dress that fit a special way.”                heads on shoulders and faces tired. When the song
together,” said junior Ethan Kopit, echoing the views           Avalon Ashley, a sophomore, also got her outfit          ends, girls gather their shoes, clutching them by their
of many.                                                     online. “It was pretty and flowy,” she said. “I didn’t      heel straps, and couples begin to filter out.
    Max Saalisi, sophomore, agreed: “More people             want to go all puffy. Prom dresses these days are so           As the last group leaves, Faraola grabs roses from
showed up than I thought would be there. I was re-           puffy.”                                                     all the vases. Says Gregozek, “Ry stole all the roses
ally impressed.” The Venetian-themed gala featured              Others chose outfits closer to home: “I chose my         from prom and gave them to me, and it was this bou-
a chocolate fountain, a view of Scotts Valley, and           dress because it was in my closet,” explained Stamy.        quet of thirty-five roses, and it was so heavy I could
masked entertainers.                                            Matching color with one’s date, an age-old tradi-        barely carry it. Everyone said I looked like Miss
    “The venue was very classy,”                  s a i d    tion, was generally         followed. “It          was      America.”
Dana Hemmert,                                        a       slightly hilari-                ous how
“The choco-
late fountain
was        won-
derful. It
was really
p r e t t y,
up in
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  Selling The School
                                                                                                                                                  The Marketing Committee chose also
                                                                                                                                              to redo the School website, a change led
                                                                                                                                              by Brown. “I was a central member of the
                                                                                                                                              auction committee, but as soon as that was
                                                                                                                                              behind me, it was time for me to go full
                                                                                                                                              out on the website redesign. All I’ve been
                                                                                                                                              involved in has revolved around that.”
                                                                                                                                                  Brown explained there are two reasons

      Marketing through social networks                                                                                                       why the site is being upgraded. Built in
                                                                                                                                              2005 by students, the site is too old. “It’s
                                                                                                                                              just threatening to die,” she remarked.
                                                                                                                                              “Every time our server wants to update,
                                               types and misconceptions and determining          “Social media is effective because most      we panic because it might crash. “The last
  by Jason Ritchey                             ways to counter both. In November, with        of us spend time online,” Hemmert ex-           thing we want is for the website to go down

                                               help from select students, English teacher     plained. Thus, changes online are impera-       right before an Open House.”
            hat is Kirby?” asked Amy Hem-      Jeff House began making over a dozen           tive. Hemmert, with help from other mem-            Besides the platform, the site is dreary.
            mert, a Kirby parent of two. “Of   YouTube videos describing the School           bers of the Marketing Committee--parents        Said Hemmert, “The new site will have an
            course we all know what Kirby      from the perspective of students, alum,        Enid Brock and Barbara Kay--have taken          updated look, better navigation, increased
is, but how do you express that in a way       parents, and teachers. The videos have gar-    the word-of-mouth campaign to the Inter-        stability, and lots of great visuals.” Brown
that’s concise, personal, and meaningful       nered over 3,300 views since January.          net, involving Facebook, Twitter and You-       agreed, adding, “We’re going to have a
to someone who’s not yet familiar with the        “But [Shiller] left us in January because   Tube. “Our hope is to grow the team so          blog, too, which will be great for social
school?” That has been one of the biggest      he was offered a full-time position at UC      we can make as big an impact as possible,       media engagement. It’ll also help archive
challenges facing the Kirby Marketing          Davis,” said Marketing and Communica-          driving traffic to the Kirby website and        news stories to get more current informa-
Committee over the past year, and that’s       tions Director Evelyn Brown. “He got us        building community,” Hemmert explained.         tion up onto the site. This is a site not only
one of the reasons for the newly formed        off to a great start, but I would loved to     She added enthu-                                for current families, but for prospective
Social Media Team, which consists of           have kept him longer.”                                                                         families as well.”
Kirby students, alum, faculty and parents.        Shiller leav-                                                                                   Brown isn’t alone in the redesign-
    “Kirby doesn’t have a strong name                                                                                                         ing process. Local graphic/web company
out in the greater community,”                                                                                                                Design by Cosmic was recently hired to
Hemmert noted. “People have                                                                                                                   lead the renovation. Cosmic was selected
either not heard of the school,                                                                                                               primarily because of the breadth of its ex-
or they think it’s a) a school for                                                                                                            pertise and skills. It also consists of four
“brainy” kids, b) an art school, c)                                                                                                           team members, which “is particularly help-
a school for misfits, d) a school                                                                                                             ful because we need lots of help,” admitted
for kids with learning differences,                                                                                                           Brown. Over the past month, the Market-
e) a school that used to be down-                                                                                                             ing Committee has communicated and met
town, or f) Kirby? Never heard of                                                                                                             with Design by Cosmic and expect to have
it. This means that we need to do a                                                                                                           a working site in place for the next school
better job of letting the world know                                                                                                           year.
who we are and what we do because                                                                                                                  “The largest challenge we face is creat-
there’s no other school like it! Social                                                                                                        ing a new website and marketing presence
media is part of our marketing plan,                                                                                                            for Kirby that is both informative and
and as the name implies, it’s highly                                                                                                            intuitive,” Cosmic founder Eric Ressler
social and effective when lots of peo-                                                                                                           stated. “We strive to create an easy-to-
ple participate.”                                                                                                                                use website that will allow students, fac-
    The issues aren’t new. They’ve                                                                                                                ulty, and parents to find the information
been an ongoing challenge since the                                                                                                               that they are looking for effortlessly and
move to 425 Encinal. As Hemmert                                                                                                                    engage with Kirby’s community. We
noted, since Kirby is no longer located                                                                                                            are looking forward to exploring cre-
in downtown Santa Cruz, people don’t                                                                                                               ative solutions that captivate the core
pass by the school every day.                                                                                                                       of Kirby’s unique culture.”
    The present Marketing Commit-                                                                                                                        Nancy Ondrejka, Kirby’s Direc-
tee was formed a year go to find ways                                                                                                                tor of Admissions, notes the market-
to raise awareness about the School.                                                                                                                 ing has begun to reap rewards. “The
“The greater Santa Cruz community                                                                                                                     compliments which I receive are al-
didn’t know who we were, so we set out                                                                                                                ways very pleased with the informa-
to capture the essence of Kirby in a way                                                                                                               tion provided on the website and all
that could be easily communicated with                                                                                                                 those new videos. We had an appli-
people not familiar with the school,” ex-                                                                                                              cant who actually got accepted from
plained Hemmert. “This was a tall order                                                                                        siastically,   the Sacramento area. Sadly, his mom’s
because one of the great benefits of Kirby                                                           “Tell your friends about Kirby. Talk     personal plans changed so he needed to
is that it’s eclectic, personalized, and of-                                  ing meant       about all the great things we’re doing here.    decline the acceptance offer. He found Kir-
fers a wide range of opportunities. Mes-             big changes for the Marketing Com-       ‘Like’ the Kirby Facebook page. ‘Like’ the      by via the website as did a Contra Costa
sages must be concise, so articulating the     mittee. “I don’t want to say [the team] de-    Kirby YouTube channel, and watch/share          County female student. People appreciate
true essence of the School without leaving     volved,” Brown explained. “But we were         all the videos. Follow Kirby on Twitter.        the voices from the students, teachers, and
too much out was a huge challenge.”            much more structured when Barry was            Volunteer to write a guest blog post. Com-      parents.”
    This year things went into full swing.     here. We’re still moving forward with each     ment on the Kirby Facebook page and be              It’s hard to trace how many people are
The School hired marketing consultant          member of the team focused on his or her       sure to ‘Like’ posts that you like. We do       brought to kirby by the videos or the site,
Barry Shiller to lead the marketing effort.    areas of interest and expertise. Mr. House     such incredible things [at Kirby], but we       as “a movement like this takes a while to
He conducted a quantitative analysis of        and Amy have been working together to          don’t do a very good job of letting the out-    build. But I don’t think it can hurt,” Ondre-
non-Kirby families, uncovering stereo-         build a Social Media Team.”                    side world know about them.”                    jka said with a laugh.

        We the Students. . .
                                                                                                                                              President is unable to attend the meet-
                                                                                                                                              ing, the Vice President assumes re-
                                                                                                                                              sponsibility. All elected officials, offi-
                                                                                                                                              cers, and representatives must remain
                                                                                                                                              off academic or behavioral probation

   Student Council writes a constitution
                                                                                                                                              before their election and during their
                                                                                                                                                  The Constitution also includes
                                                                                                                                              rules for dealing with truancy and the
 by Andrew Amis                                we wanted to address, and we essential-        tration of elections, officer positions, of-    impeachment of officers. Removal of
                                               ly created sections and went to work.”         ficer eligibility, and miscellaneous rules.     any member of the Council, represen-
A     fter eighteen months of discussion,
      the student body has a constitution.
    The first governing document Stu-
                                               While all the officers contributed to the
                                               document, Hoffmeister was the primary
                                                                                              It clarifies who is able to run for each
                                                                                              elected office.
                                                                                                                                              tative or officer, requires a two-thirds
                                                                                                                                              “supermajority” vote from the Coun-
                                               drafter, and much of his text remains.             The offices of both Secretary and           cil.
dent Council has signed, the document          While a year and half seems a long time        Treasurer are open to freshmen. The Sec-            The new constitution does not
defines internal rules and regulations for     to draft a three-page document, the activ-     retary serves as the secretary, archivist,      represent a major shift in Council
students                                       ity generated a lot of thought. However,       and typist for the Council and functions        business or doctrine. Said Hemmert,
    “Generally what happens is the Presi-      Hemmert lamented, “I can’t say it was          as one of three officers who interact with      “I would be surprised if very many
dent graduates before it can be passed,        steady work the whole time.” Because           the Parents’ Association. The Treasurer         people noticed. The only thing we
and it is lost,” explained senior Brian        the constitution was seen as neither vital     maintains the financial accounts of the         added was that the President and Vice
Hemmert, Student Council President ,           nor time sensitive, it was frequently set      Council, keeps records to that effect,          President must have to have one year
and the driving force behind the new con-      aside for day-to-day Council business.         and refills the vending machine (Previ-         of Student Council experience; they
stitution. This version survived because           In previous years, Council regulations     ous treasurers have primarily concerned         must have been in Student Council
Hemmert has been involved in Student           and processes were passed down from            themselves with the vending machine).           for a year in the past.” This was added
Council for several years and worked on        Council to Council by word of mouth or             The positions of President and Vice         to encourage more people to join Stu-
the constitution since its inception.          observation. “Student Council has run          President are limited to sophomores, ju-        dent Council. The constitution also
    The constitution was started first se-     on what’s been done on the past, and it        niors, or seniors with at least one year        details consequences for lackluster
mester of the 2010-2011 school year by         hasn’t been set on any written rules,” said    of experience on Student Council. They          attendance among Student Represen-
then President Rory Hoffmeister with           Hemmert. Every process and rule of the         must attend all Student Council meetings        tatives.
help from Emma Stokes and Hannah               current Council came from imitating the        and All School Meetings, where they                 The constitution will go into effect
Potts.                                         last Council.                                  will assume executive control, maintain-        the last day of the school year.
    Hemmert recalled, “We decided what             The constitution governs the adminis-      ing order and conducting business. If the
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                                                                to showcase a skill long in the making: beat-boxing. His     minutes of intriguing beats and a bit of culture.
  By Analise Pappastergiou                                      unyielding voice provided the beat upon which each                “We always end our Spring Concert with a song that
                                                                        singer based their vocals and brought an interest-   is only seniors,” says Lewis, “so they choose it and learn

                                                                          ing twist to many of the ensemble’s songs, most    it together. This is the sixth year we have done the same
    feel like everything that I have accomplished over                     noteworthy of which was “I Am The Walrus.”        song since a senior Henry Thompson chose it and sort of
    the four years in choir, and working with Drew, was                           The seniors, however, made up only a       made it a tradition that he wanted to see go on. It’s what
    showcased tonight,” says Arishna Patel. “I cannot be-                     small fraction of those involved in the con-   the teacher before me had done.”
lieve it is already over.”                                                    cert. “We sang in a variety of languages,”          As Chamber Choir filed off the risers, Lewis asked
     Patel speaks of the final concert of the school year,                    tells eighth grader Olivia McNary, “Chi-       the seniors to join him in front of the church. One by
Musical Memories, which marked Class of 2012’s last                           nese, French and German.”                      one, he talked about each senior and what an honor it
performance. On May 24, Parents, grandparents, friends,                            The song in Chinese,                      had been, not only to know them, but to teach them and
and peers joined together in the tall, seventies-inspired                   Moh Lee Hawh, was a                                     watch them grow as singers and as people. A red
First Congregational Church to listen to the multitude                     challenge given to just the                                                 rose was given to each, and emo-
of vocal and instrumental ensembles come together                        women of various ensem-                                                                       tional hugs were
under the direction of Drew Lewis.                                     bles. Although sung with ap-
     “The spring concert is probably the most                               parent ease, it proved to
eclectic,” explains Lewis. “We’ve done classical                                 be a difficult song to
music, but then we also have a lot from musi-                                      learn. Some were
cals and pop songs. They are singing Whita-                                          worried enough
ker, Madonna, Brahms and the Beatles. It’s a                                         about forgetting
mixture.”                                                                            lyrics that they
     “It’s always fun to put this concert togeth-                                    taped them to
er,” he says. “It’s a combination of things they                                     the shoulders of
have learned over the course of the year, and                                       the girl in front
it’s bittersweet to say goodbye to the senior class,                              of them.
which has been very involved.”                                                     Following Moh
     Seniors Ben McCann, Craig Petrocelli, Maraya                              Lee Hawh, the
Fisher, Arishna Patel, Teddy Fenster, Lucy Saldavia,                           male singers of
Devin Reilly, Katherine Cook, and Carson Chapman                               Choir filed into
showed a lot more than class participation during the                          the risers in bow-
course of their musical education at Kirby. Petrocelli,                        ties and jackets,
the current President of Chamber Choir, took extra                           joined by
time to make sure his last concert was one of the best.                                                                                                                           shared.
Out of the nine seniors, Fenster and Cook have
been with Lewis the entirety of                                                                                                                                                        The
his Kirby career.                                                                                                                                      night end-                 ed with
     In line with the yearly tradi-                                                                                                                    the teary-eyed seniors singing
tion, Petrocelli chose a song to                                                                                                                        “And So It Goes,” by Billy
be performed and undertook the                                                                                                                          Joel. Starting in unison each
responsibility of teaching it. “I                                                                                                                        branched off into their own
have been working for the past                                                                                                                           solo, which proved to be an
four years to get to where I was,                                                                                                                         emotional experience. After
personally, on that night,” explains                                                                                                                      Cook’s solo, the tear’s out-
Petrocelli.                                                                                                                                                numbered lyrics, and, bit
     An opportunity to shine, how-                                                                                                                         by bit, the song faded into
ever, was distributed amongst all                                                                                                                           tears and hugs, the singing
of the eight seniors in the more ad-                                                                                                                        lost in the feeling of fam-
vanced ensembles. Patel, who’s solo                                                                                                                          ily they shared.
in the song “Butterfly” took home a                                                                                                                                “It was an extremely
top award during their annual trip to                                                                                                                         emotional concert for all
the Boston Music Festival, performed                                                                                                                           of us,” reflects Patel. “I
a new solo that proved to be more of a                                                                                                                         don’t really know how
challenge linguistically.                                                                                                                                       I held my tears in for
     “I never would have agreed to a                                                                                                                            the senior song. Maybe
song like this if it wasn’t for Drew,”                                                                                                                           it was because I knew
says Patel, “and it was a great pleasure                                                                                                                          that if I started to cry,
to be able to sing with the Jazz Band...                                                                                                                          the alto part would be
Oh,” she adds, “and also I think singing                                                                                                                         missing.” The alto Pa-
that song made me want to learn Portu-                                                                                                                                   tel had to step in
guese; it’s such a beautiful language and                                                                                                                                         for was
I’m kind of good at it…well, the pronun-
ciation anyways.” The song, “Girl from                                                     one
Ipanema,” took time to master and would                               of the night’s four Pia-
have been impossible without the help                      of   no players, Max a Cabrillo
Portuguese Kirby parent, Edisione De Almeida who                music student and the ac-
spent hours working with Patel.                                 companist to Chorus, to                                                                                                to
     For Reilly, it was the first and last year he would sing   lead them in “The Duke                                                                                                b e
in Chamber Choir. “It’s interesting singing in a choir          of Earl”. The song                                                                                                  sung
[that] I have always looked up to as a student here. I al-      proved to be one of the                                                                                            b y
ways felt that being a part of it was an educational expe-      most entertaining and                                                                                              Cook,
rience. The choir as a whole is a lot more important than       uppity songs of the                                                                                               but her
any individual person’s contribution… especially mine,”         evening.                                                                                                         s o b s
chuckles Reilly. “Being a part of something that big and             “We are doing a song from                                                                                 prohib-
that successful means a lot to me, and I’m glad to be go-       a Bollywood movie that, on our trip last                                                                      ited her
ing out with a bang.”                                           year, a professor said would be a great song for                                                             from being
     “Katherine was given the name ‘Screamer’ at a com-         our choir to do. All semester we have been working on                                                      able to sing
petition a few years ago,” points out Lewis. She stuck          it.” Lewis says, describing Chamber Choir’s last song                                                     more       than
to that title during a soft but high-pitched rendition of       of the evening, “Albela.” “The overtones, the harmonic       a minute                                    of the song.
“Hysteria”.                                                     structure, and the song in general are difficult.” Their     “It was an incred-                         ible way to end
     The Jazz Choir provided an opportunity for Fenster         work paid off, however, as the audience experience four      such an influential journey               in all ways.”

            Making Memories
                    Spring Concert Marks the End of the year and the End of a Journey
             Page 16                                                                                                                                      Local History

A Home for                                                                                                                         One Man
                                                                                                                                   Makes a
 the Homeless                                                                                                                      Difference
                                                                 come out and have a secure place to go because they are         says Rebele. “So, it’s a matter of retraining. Catching
   by Jason Ritchey and Zoë Gregozek                             required to save money while they’re in here,” says Re-         those people up with classes at Cabrillo, maybe classes

                                                                 bele, “They’re making some money because we provide             through job training programs here, maybe getting on at
       ainted bright orange, the Homeless Services Cen-          everything, so they can save. We require them to save           Goodwill, where you can train to do repair work. The
       ter resembles a 70’s daycare, with cheery ever-           eighty-five percent of everything they bring in whether         counselor’s thing is to find out what you’re good at. Can
       greens lining the brick walkways and screaming            it’s disability payment, wages, or whatever.”                   you use these computers at our empowerment center?
children zooming around on pastel Fisher-Price tricy-                The Day Center interior is a hodgepodge of hallways         Can you get going with that so you become literate?”
cles. In contrast, a six-foot black iron fence surrounds         and stairs, everything a foggy grey. Residents sleep in the     Rebele pauses. “One must be at least okay on the com-
the building, each post ending in a spike. Philanthropist        overstuffed couches and talk at the table while Rebele          puter, so you’re able to navigate it at, say, a retail job,
Rowland Rebele, though, is unfazed by the barricades or          explains its individual components: There is a post office      where there’s a little bit of computer skills, but most of
the homeless wandering through the courtyard. Founded            (“One of the things about being homeless is, if you’re          it is showing up on time, etcetera.” However, even the
in 1986, what started out as a small church-run operation        really homeless, you don’t have a place for your mail           basics of holding a job, such as people skills or being
has grown into a community consisting of the Paul Lee            to come.”) in the far right corner of the main room. It         punctual, can be dif-                   ficult for those who
Loft, the Rebele Family Shelter, the Page Smith Com-             is the only utility that requires a payment—five dol-                                                    have been living as
munity House, and the Day Resource Center.                       lars a month. A hygiene center with showers and                                                          societal        outcasts
    “Page Smith came to our church, before this place was        bathrooms, washing machines and dryers, and a                                                            for long periods of
even thought of, and said ‘We’d like to ask the churches         closet with a hand-painted purple sign above the                                                          time.
to provide overnight shelter and food for the homeless.’         door that reads “Clothing Closet,” are all in the                                                              “For        people
And we said we would, along with about twenty-seven              main room. Pointing to the door, Rebele explains,                                                          who have lived
other churches in the Santa Cruz area,” explains Rebele.         “That’s where we have the used clothing. All kinds                                                         from pillar to post,
“So once a week, my wife and myself and my daughter              of clothing for all people, men, women, so that you                                                        you have been
would fix food for homeless folks, and another day of            can get clothes. If you’re going out to an interview                                                        pushed       around,
the week it would be somebody else in the congrega-              and you don’t look so good,” he chuckles slightly,                                                          it’s a long-term
tion. We got a grant from this outfit called the Home-           “you might take advantage of that.”                                                                         proposition.
less Council so that we were able to get transportation              Above is the Lee Loft: women’s bunks on the left                                                         Some people who
[for the homeless] to these various churches from here.          and men’s on the right. In front of the post office, a                                                       stay at our shelter
Homeless people could come here and get a meal, and              man sits on a cement ledge, focused on his art. The                                                          here are back for
then if they weren’t drunk or doped up, and they applied,        sharpied outline of a mushroom stands alone next                                                             the second time.
they could get rides to these various churches from here.        to his finger on the bit of white poster-board. At the                                                        They come out,
So we did that for about ten or fifteen years; it was good,      top is a heart               with a scroll, drawn like                                                        they’re       doing
we learned a lot. Most of us, after serving the meal, we’d       a tattoo. He                                  looks up                                   bele takes            well, but they
sit with them and try and make a connection if we could.         when Devel-                                                                          time to play at           lose their hous-
A lot of homeless people have mental issues; they didn’t         opment As-                                                                           the River Street          ing for whatev-
want to talk. They’re in their own world.”                       sistant Dana                                                                           shelter’s play
                                                                                                                                                          structure              er reason. But
    “When Rowland and [his wife came to Santa Cruz]              Henderson                                                                                                       they still wanna
they immediately set out to become part of the com-              kindly asks,                                                                                                    get out of it,
munity the only way they knew how: by giving,” a                 “Where did                                                                                                       so we readmit
presenter said in 2009 when awarding the couple with             you sleep                                                                                                        them. People
the Gail Rich Award (an award given to local inspir-             last night?                                                                                             sometimes           come
ing individuals). Rebele graduated Stanford University           I       was                                                                 back to Page Smith Community House, where
in 1951 and quickly became successful as a newspaper             worried.”                                                                  they can stay for 18 months, if they’re work-
publisher. None of his fortune, however, was ever spent          He grins,                                                                 ing on their issues, getting training, moving for-
on self-indulgence. A few years ago, he gave a speech            reveal-                                                                  ward, making progress. The key is making prog-
to a graduating at Stanford. After, he said, “My theme           ing      a                                                               ress. Even though you start down a pathway that
was, save your money, then give it all away when you’ve          tooth-                                                                  doesn’t work, if you are willing to start another
got enough to live on,” which seems to be his life moto.         l e s s                                                                pathway, learning another skill, doing something
Though he walks slightly hunched over, the benevolent            upper                                                                  else, that’s good.”
man moves surprisingly fast, pausing periodically to             jaw,                                                                       Despite the Shelter’s best efforts, it’s difficult
hike up his pants as he makes his way towards a low              a n d                                                                 to recover from poverty in a city with a 12% un-
building, the Day Center, on the opposite end of the             a n -                                                                employment rate. So, the Shelter often provides the
parking lot.                                                                                                                          homeless with bus passes and train tickets to places
    “After about fifteen years,                                                                                                       with lower unemployment and living costs. This is
the money ran out for trans-                                                                                                         only if the person can demonstrate that leaving San-
portation and for moni-                                                                                                             ta Cruz is the best way to progress out of homeless-
tors. Because, frankly, even                                                                                                        ness, and not burden on another city’s infrastructure.
though we were a Band-Aid,                                                                                                          Rebele elaborates while continuing on the path to
we didn’t solve the long-                                                                                                          the Page Smith Community House, “We’re not about
term problem. The govern-                                                                                                         kicking people out. We don’t do that. It’s because it’s
ment and the state look for                                                                                                       much cheaper to live in Fresno...or North Dakota where
outcomes, successful out-                                                                                                        the unemployment rate is two percent.” He stops on the
comes. If you’re gunna do                                                            swers in a                                  paved walkway to tighten his belt, exclaiming, “My trou-
something for the home-                                                              raspy voice, “I got in at the               sers! How embarrassing for an old man!”
less, they want you to do                                                            Loft.” He introduces himself as Shaggy,         Located in the southern corner of the complex, Page
something that’s produc-                                                             and describes his ink work: “Down here      Smith consists of eight separate mobile homes set down
tive, moves people out of                                                           I’m going to have a pot leaf. [The heart     on foundations. “Three are for women and five are for
their poverty and into a                                                            and scroll] is symbolic of my sobering       men because more men are homeless than women,” Re-
sustainable situation to                                                            up, how I’m getting better,” he explains.    bele explains, aluding to the Santa Cruz Homeless Cen-
being able to provide for                                                              “Do you have plans tonight? You           sus, which found the majority are white men between 31
themselves. This place                                                             should come to poetry class at 7:30 in the    and 60. Each home has its own kitchen, common space,
does that. We’ve got to                                                            family shelter,” Henderson tells him.         bathroom, and bedrooms. Forty residents can stay for up
prove to those govern-                                                                “I’m actually really interested in that.   to 18 months, meaning it’s not “emergency” but “tempo-
ments, the taxpayers,                                                             I don’t have any plans, too,” Shaggy re-       rary housing.”
that we can do some-                 One of the eight                            sponds, laughing hoarsely. A woman                  A thin, concrete alley threads between the units, end-
thing worthwhile.” Ac-             Simth community Paige                         wearing torn jeans and a black Santa
                                   the center offers fo homes                                                                    ing at a wooden patio and a few deck chairs. A high ce-
cording to the 2011                                    r those                   Cruz sweatshirt assures Henderson that          ment wall separates the highway from the garden, which
                                            in need
Homeless Census and                                                             Shaggy’ll be there. Henderson, who teach-        makes the street invisible, but fails to block the noise.
Survey, close to 2 mil-                                                         es the poetry class, says it’s amazing how       Three older women in white sit gossiping, smoking.
lion Americans experience homelessness every year,                              brilliant some of her students are.                  “This is learning to live with other people,” Rebele
most often caused by the gap between cost of housing                The computer center, which he’s sitting in front of,         says kindly. Just last month, explains Henderson, a group
and income. It is estimated that there are almost 10,000         helps with computer skills and resume development               of residents painted signs for each home. Hidden behind
homeless in Santa Cruz County, of whom 54% have                  which will increases their employment prospects. “Fre-          bushes only one remains, which reads, “The Fabulous
been without permanent shelter for more than a year.             quently, [homelessness is caused by] the loss of a job,         Four.” Beside one of the homes sits an arbor, sheltering
The estimated number in 2009—about 4,600. Regard-                inability to get a new one, or the fact that what they were     a radio player and a bench, where a man is fast asleep.
less, the family shelter, “has an 85% success rate. People       doing is now being done in China or somewhere else,”            It’s his home.

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