HOW TO BE PATIENT: THE ONLY GUIDE I’LL EVER WRITE ON BECOMING PATIENT Impatience: an effect, not a cause The first thing is to realize that patience, like other traits you have, is simply the amalgamation of your underlying beliefs, which are the result of your upbringing or past encounters. This means that you’re not impatient because “that’s just how you are” or “that’s what you were born with”. You are impatient because of certain beliefs you have about yourself and the world. This is something which participants of Be a Better Me in 30 Days Program realized during the May 30BBM run. During the first week, they spent three full days (Days 2 to 4) analyzing their undesired traits, peeling off layers to their personas and weeding out the reasons as to why they are who they are today. Many of them discovered the fundamental reasons behind their undesired traits—tracing back to as early as their childhoods. These root causes were the very things making them exhibit those undesired traits again, and again, and again, despite their continuous efforts not behave that way. Addressing impatience using external approaches like enforcing a patient persona, affirmations, and regulating breathing can be helpful, but only to a limited extent, since they do not tackle the root cause. It is more important that you understand the root cause of your impatience and tackle it from inside-out, which would create a permanent change in your behavior. Root Cause of Impatience So, what causes impatience then? What Impatience Is To understand that, we have to first understand what impatience is. According to Dictionary.com, impatience means a lack of patience; restlessness; an intolerance of anything that thwarts, delays, or hinders. An impatient person never wants to wait for others, or does so with great reluctance. An impatient person feels angsty when things do not go to plan. An impatient person usually feels a great sense of urgency to get things over with and to move on to the next thing, the next task, the next place, the next stop. He/she usually has little regard or interest to what’s going on at this moment in time, because in his/her mind, he/she is already thinking about what he/she has to do next. As you can see, the impatient person is someone who often feels a great deal of urgency, internal pressure, and internal stress. It’s as if he/she is trying to rush to somewhere, or has something that needs to be completed ASAP. But why? Why does the impatient person feel so much urgency, more so than others? What’s causing it? What exactly is this rush for My Experience with Impatience Perhaps what might help is if I share my experience with impatience. I used to be a highly impatient person. I would feel annoyed whenever people got in my way. I could never stand to wait more than a few minutes for a bus before feeling irritated at how long it was taking. If things ever progressed slower than expected, I would feel annoyed and irritated. Thoughts like “Why is this so slow?”, “Why can’t this be faster?” or “What’s next?” are more than familiar to me. The funny thing was, I was never aware of my impatience until a year ago. It’s sort of like you don’t know what you’re in the middle of until you take a step back to look at things. Before, I always thought my (impatient) reactions were normal, knee-jerk reactions that anyone would have when caught in the same situation. It was only when I paused and reflected on my thoughts and behavior that I realized I was, in fact, quite the impatient person. When I dug into my impatience, my answers opened my eyes. I asked myself, point blank: “Why am I always in such a rush?” Turned out that I had been so fixated on reaching a certain end vision, a certain end goal, for my future that I had totally missed living in the present. When I dug deeper, I realized this fixation (with the future) was due to an innate unhappiness with myself. I had always had a subconscious belief that I was not good enough. In my mind, I thought that if I were to work on changing myself, achieving bigger visions, and accomplishing more goals, I would finally be content and happy. Hence, I kept projecting to the future, using it as my source of salvation. Did that work though? Not in the way I had imagined. Whenever I achieved my goals, I would feel happy for that moment. However, it would be a matter of time before I thought, “What’s next?”, and got back into that impatient persona. I was constantly in a rush, trying to get from one place (be it a mental vision or a physical place) to the next. I was driven to keep going, keep moving, so as to achieve this elusive end vision where I would finally be happy one day. Unhappiness with Self -> Projecting as Impatience with Others and the World Do you see the problem here? The problem wasn’t that I had not achieved my ultimate end goal yet. There is never going to be an end to my goals or visions, because there is always room to grow; room be better. The problem wasn’t my desire to set goals either, for the desire for betterment is part and parcel of being a human. There is nothing worse than being the man who has no vision or dreams. The problem here was (a) my inherent unhappiness with myself and (b) my belief that I had to get to somewhere before I could be happy and before I could be considered good enough. I kept thinking that there was something wrong with me and there was something that had to be fixed, which led me to keep looking forward into the future to address this gap. Was that true though? No! There wasn’t anything wrong with me; neither was there anything wrong with my present moment! My belief that there was something wrong was a flawed belief that had set me on a loop of feeling dissatisfied, trying to work on my areas of dissatisfaction, and feeling dissatisfied yet again even when those areas were addressed. It was a flawed belief that created this endless urge to always hurry, act faster, stop being a slow poke, and get moving, so I could get on to the next big thing. This was precisely why almost every single thing would get on my nerves, because each little thing— be it the bus being late, to the copier machine being jammed—would be something that stood in my way of achieving my end vision, which in turn stood in my way of becoming a more desirable, less hateable, person. All these little things were standing in my way of achieving my happiness. My angst at the external world was really due to my angst at the thought that I had to spend one more second being my present self (whom I hated). What finally resolved my impatience was when I addressed self-limiting belief about myself. Why I (constantly) felt that I was good enough. Why I hated myself so. When I did that, the feelings of impatience melted away like water rolling off skin. I was impatient no more. (The topic of self-hate and how to address it is a separate topic for a separate day.) Impatience: An Emotion That Has No Place in Your Heart The root cause of my impatience might not be the same as the root cause of your impatience. I merely shared my story as an example that impatience is really an effect and not a cause to be tackled. While it’s natural to look forward to the future and want to achieve your goals as soon as possible, there is definitely something amiss when this desire repeatedly manifests itself as a constant feeling of impatience, a source of self-pressure (in an unhealthy way), and an annoyance at things that stand in your way. These are negative, tension-filled, and fear-based emotions which have no place in our lives. Their presence usually suggest incongruent, disempowering beliefs which should no sooner be corrected. Know that one can desire to achieve a better future and still be at peace with the present moment. They are not mutually exclusive with each other. I shall now share with you a simple, 15-minute long exercise to dig into the underlying cause of your impatience. If you often experience bouts of impatience or if you are impatient most of the time, use this exercise to discover the root cause behind this undesired trait. Exercise To Uncover Your Impatience (15 Minutes) Grab a piece of pen and paper or fire up your favorite word processor. Get ready to type. 1. Think about recent incidences where you exhibited impatient behavior. 2. Ask yourself: ”Why am I so impatient?“. Write everything that comes to mind. 3. Go deeper into your answers by challenging them. Ask, “Why?” or ask follow-up questions to continue the thread of thought. 4. Repeat #3 until you get to the bottom of the issue. (Read How To Create Real Change In Life: Address Root Cause vs. Effects for more on how to get to the root cause vs. effect of an issue.) Example #1 Take for example, a guy who is constantly snappy to people around him, even though they are not trying to annoy him. Why am I so impatient? I’m impatient because… others are such slow pokes. I’m sick and tired of having people hold me back. It’s time to stop waiting and to do things on my own terms. Where am I trying to rush off to? To my dreams… to my ideal future. Why am I in such a rush to get there? Because I’ve wasted enough time waiting for others. I’m not getting any older and any time I wait is time that goes to waste. Why am I in such a rush to get there? Because I don’t want to die with nothing to my name. That would be a sorry state to be in. Why? Because it’s important that I die with a legacy. Why? Because if I don’t die with a legacy, I will be deemed as a good-for-nothing. Why? …Because I’m a good-for-nothing. Revelation: This person’s impatience stems from his belief that he is a good-for-nothing; hence, he’s always in a rush to do more and be more in a bid to prove his ability. It turns out that his father had put him down since young, which made him think of himself as a good-for-nothing. Even though his father is no longer in his life anymore, he continues to feel that way today. Solution: Address the false belief that he is a good-for-nothing. The reason why he thinks this way is because of how his father treated him when he was young, and not because he really is a good- for-nothing. Addressing the false belief will free him from the restraints of his past, which will in turn remove his constant impatience. Example #2 The second example is a mother who is constantly impatient with her kids. Why am I impatient (with my children)? I’m impatient because… they are always messing things up. They don’t listen to instructions, and they have such short attention spans. Why do I feel upset about this? Because they need to learn how to do things properly. A day will come when I’ll no longer be around for them. When that happens, they will have to care for themselves. I’m not sure if they will know how to do this if I’m not around. Why does this upset me? Because my own mother was not around to teach me the little things about life; she passed on when I was just a toddler. I had to learn a lot of things the hard way; things which others could learn straight from their parents. Because of that, I felt that I always had the short end of the stick, unlike others who had their parents with them. I felt life was unfair. Revelation: This mother carries grievances toward her own mother for dying young and toward life for taking her mother away before her time. She also carries a fear that she might not always be there for her kids. She has unwittingly imposed her grievances and fear onto her kids, resulting in her impatience toward them. In reality, she is acting from her past, rather than nurturing her kids the way they should be nurtured. Solution: Let go of her grievances and fear by processing those pent up emotions. See her kids as what they are—young, innocent souls to be nurtured. They have nothing to do with her childhood loss and should not have to deal with that. Some articles on addressing past beliefs: Ask Celes – Is It Possible To Let Go of Unhappy Past Forever? Be a Better Me in 30 Days Program – Day 25: Forgive Yourself, Day 26: Identify Your Limiting Thoughts, Day 27: Replace with Empowering Thoughts Embracing a Life of Patience Looking back, I could see that my impatience had been quite detrimental to my well-being. Many of its negative effects were not immediately observable; rather, they slowly compounded over time. It was only when I shed off my impatient persona that I could feel the difference. For example, I didn’t realize how tensed my facial muscles, including my forehead, used to be until I addressed the root cause of my impatience. It was like I was in a constant, perpetual frown. Before, I knew my face always felt a little tense, but I didn’t know it was the result of my impatience. I was also constantly worked up over the littlest of things, even though I might not show it on the outside. This made me quite an irritable person. I would then try to combat my annoyances internally so that I wouldn’t wear the negativity on the outside, which in turn made me feel like an oven that was ever ready to combust. Perhaps the biggest problem was that my impatience often made me live in the future, rather than the present. I often had little regard for what was going on at the present moment because I would be too busy thinking, “What’s next?” At the micro level, that meant I often missed out details which I would have caught on if I was more present. As they rightly say, more haste sometimes leads to less speed. At the macro level, I was totally not living life. I was merely a worker bee, getting from one point to the next in a flurry, and not truly living life as it was meant to be lived. Today, I’m glad to have embraced the virtue of patience. My life has changed quite dramatically; I’m happier than ever; I’m at peace with myself; I now live in the present, not the future. At the same time, I continue to hold great aspirations for the future and am constantly working toward them. I love my present moment and I can’t wait to usher in a better future. It’s the moment that I now live for; not the future, and certainly not the past. I hope you found this guide helpful in cultivating the virtue of patience. Know that patience is already inside you; you don’t have to intentionally enforce it on yourself. What you should do, to become a truly patient person in the mind, heart, body, and soul, is to address the broken beliefs that are making you impatient (which is what the whole article has been about). When you do that, patience will become an effortless virtue. Feel free to share this article with someone who could do with a little patience. Who knows, it might well be a life changer for him/her.