"In �Checkouts� by Cynthia Rylant inner conflict is seen when "
In “Checkouts” by Cynthia Rylant inner conflict is seen when the boy struggles to decide whether he should interact with the girl or not. The boy works as a bagboy in a grocery store. When the girl comes to his checkout line, he is immediately attracted to her. He notices her beautiful red hair while bagging her groceries. He steals glances at her, and then drops a jar of mayonnaise because he wasn’t paying attention to what he was doing. This slip-up makes him feel foolish and unworthy of the girl so he decides not to ask her if she needs help to her car with the groceries. He imagines himself saying witty things to her while they walk through the parking lot; and he even envisions glimpses of the girl’s interests or hobbies on any bumper stickers she might have on her car. But none of these things are realized because he is afraid she will reject him; that he is too clumsy and appears foolish. When the girl returns to the store four weeks later, he is instantly aware of her because he has been looking for her all that time. He longs to look at her, to strike up a conversation but he averts his eyes and appears disinterested thereby hating “himself for not catching her eye and saying hello” (85). The boy chastises himself for hours after dropping the mayonnaise jar. Ironically this is what attracted the girl to him in the first place. He was so different from the life set out for her by her parents. She thought his clumsiness endearing. So what prevented him from approaching her is what drew her to him in the first place. The boy is torn internally as to whether or not to make his thoughts known to the girl he fancies.