Lenten Reflection By Adreana Langston

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					                             ADREANA LANGSTON LENTEN REFLECTION

       In the fourth chapter of Matthew Jesus is tempted by Satan after going on a forty day
fast. While he is suffering from hunger Jesus goes out into the dessert. Satan comes to Jesus
there and asks Jesus two questions having to do with who Jesus is and then asks him one
question having to do with who Jesus might become.

        In verse three it reads

          “The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones
          to become bread.”

In verse six it reads

          ” If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down. For it is written:

          “‘He will command his angels concerning you, and they will lift you up in their
          hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’[c]”

In verse eight and nine it reads

          “Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the
          kingdoms of the world and their splendor. All this I will give you,” he said, “if you
          will bow down and worship me.”

        Jesus gave up something, food from sun up to sun down, for forty days, to get His mind
and His spirit in the meditative place He needed to be in order to struggle with His inner
questions regarding who He was and His destiny. I don’t necessarily believe that an evil entity
called Satan showed up to interrogate Jesus in the wilderness. But I can relate to Jesus using ,
prayer with God and meditation to wrestle with his own demons and doubts regarding whether
or not to stay alive and lead a movement or submit to His divine destiny and soon die a painful,
violent death.

        I myself am confused and conflicted regarding the Goddess’s plan for my life and who
exactly I am as a child of the Goddess. I believe Jesus offered an example of Lenten practice in
Matthew chapter 4. I want to remove distractions from my life and go somewhere, even if it is
only into my own inner wilderness, to struggle with questions about who I am within the

         I have a lot of distractions in my life and most of them I enjoy. If I gave up my electronic
gadgets believe me I would miss them. Even my toothbrush is electric. If I gave up Hershey’s
Kisses for Lent I would not just miss them I would crave them. Each time reached into my purse
for a kiss I would instead feel the slips of paper with Bible verses that I’d put in my purse to

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replace Hershey’s Kisses. I would then have an opportunity to read the verse and remind
myself to stay focused, mindful and meditative on what the Goddess may be trying to show me
about myself and Her plan for me, even as I live my daily , chocolate craving life.

        Alison Mitchell started an 8:00am prayer session for the Sundays in March. Alison
started it as part of the Transitional Planning Committee’s Discernment group and I have been
participating. While I am a member of the Discernment group I’m actually participating as part
of my Lenten practice. The Sacred Space is my wilderness. There I can be still and focus on
listening to what the still, small, voice may be trying to tell me. My demons do show up there
to interrogate me about where I am in my life and how faithful I am or am not.

“If you are the Son Of God turns these stones into bread” becomes “If you were living as
faithfully as you should be, you’re material needs would be met in abundance.”

“If you are the Son Of God, throw yourself down “ becomes “If you were living the life the
Goddess intended for you, there would be no challenge you could not surmount.”

“All this I will give you if you bow down and worship me” becomes “Look at you, you are
blocking your blessings. Instead of chasing the Goddess’s plan for how you should be living
you’re caught up chasing worldly desires like financial success.”

I and my demons do a fair amount of struggling. To be honest we are struggling still. Since the
prayer session ends at 8:30am I have time before church to sit in my pew seat in reflection,
with no phone, no Internet, no radio, no chocolate and not even other congregants nearby to
distract me. I put my demonic struggles down and just allow myself to be. And in just being I
believe I am making space, without distraction, to see what the Goddess may be trying to show

       When Jesus came out of his struggle in the wilderness He knew who He was, He knew
what He was suppose to be doing and He had a renewed since of purpose. Yet, in the garden at
Gethsemene, even He struggled, submitting to God’s will for His life even as He asked God to
make another way if another way could be made. “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from
me; yet not my will, but yours be done." (Luke chapter 22 verse 4).

        I take from this that if I make space for the Goddess to speak to me about what my life’s
meaning is and resolve my inner questions, She will. But it won’t be and end all be all answer.
As I grow in Her She will push me farther. New struggles will arise within me as She leads me
down new and unfamiliar paths. So I will have to keep coming back to Lent, coming back to
that special time to get rid of distractions and make space to struggle with whatever demons
are obfuscating my true path and Her true will for my life.

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