I feel the coldness of death lurking around me, inside of me...
A fear unlike no other has taken me within its hands...
My future crumbles before my eyes leaving nothing but the broken
remains of my confidence and the will to live on...
I have never felt so dead...
Dead to myself, my parents, you, and everyone who has ever helped me
along this path... my path is fading like me...
Fading into a once forgotten darkness...
The pain I hold within my heart is too much...
I feel so dead and I don’t know what to do...
I lay at night dreaming of what could be…
Forgetting what has happened, destroying the memories of my past…
So I can live in the present with no regret of past mistakes…
Everyone says they sometimes feel this way…
Sometimes I feel alone with no one to speak to…
Yet I am here, to live this life for which I am building for myself…
When you look at the bigger picture, you see that everything isn’t as bad
as it looks…
For when you see what you need to build for the future…
The past is always filled with mistakes, yet we need to learn from them…
To better ourselves for the better of the future…
I don’t write this as a simple story…
But I write this just as thought of mind…
What would it be like if I didn’t exist?
Would I have a purpose?
The answer is No…
We need to live through the stress, challenges, hardships, because they
teach the best out of all…
For when that time comes again, the same challenge, then we will know
what to do…
We have to rely on the ones we trust and are close to us…
Talk to them, because it is too hard to carry massive amounts of stress
and focus on life…
Ask for help, listen to one another, and write down your feelings like I
do…
For just simple Thoughts of Mind…
~Ian Briggs~